dream fragment

A house in the woods, the house is tall, made of wood, it´s like a church, the house is painted white and has a dark look.

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I'm laying on my side beside a few friends and a television set. Next to the television there are several cases of nitrous oxide that seem to appear almost out of thin air. I grab one and so does my friend, pull the trigger, and inhale. We lock eyes. She's follows my every action. I now notice the dimness of my setting as I set the canister beside me and the gas leaks from its nozzle: a bland looking apartment building living room. There is a sense of bleak hopelessness, but not overwhelmingly and it's definitely comes with a drag of content. I warn my companions not to smoke or light a match while the gas is fogging the vision between us.

Suddenly, I get that feeling you get when your tooth is about to get pulled. Sure the giddy lightheadedness from the nitrous, but more so the overwhelming feeling of being strapped to a chair. There is a detached chattering in the back of my head. I realize I'm dreaming, only I'm still stuck. I realize after a moment of struggling that I'm stuck in a transitional state between waking and sleeping. The chatter is the sound of my professor's voice pulsating through my bedroom. I wake up, realizing what a failed attempt this was at laying in bed and still trying to pay attention to my online class.

Oct.16 - I was in a class. We were working on some papers - crossword puzzles. I finished mine. Someone took the paper from me and tuned it towards me, so I can read it. I saw the word LUCID kinda zoomed out from the paper. Didn't make me lucid.

Oct.17 - I was looking up some info on a hospital on the net. Then was in the store, picking binoculars, that had ability to see in dark.

Oct.18 - nap 2pm-5pm. I was in a big house, that was balanced in the middle and then it tipped over.
My mom visited me, she drove to me by car (she doesn't drive IRW), I told her not to drive back at night. There were crooks talking people into giving them money, I found proof of it in a deep crevice between tipped over house and the hill.
Bedtime 10pm - woke up at 5am with a dream - I was in the dream incubation place

Oct.20 - visiting family abroad in a huge house. I was flying around.

Somehow I only remembered just now what these dreams were. I've forgotten them earlier and was convinced that they were probably hazy, but I guess before I was just a little stressed (I was at school) to remember clearly. Today's dreams and yesterday's dreams were actually pretty vivid, as vivid as they usually are for moi. I'm only going to post today's dreams though. Two dreams had to do with pets and animals.

I am in my parents' bedroom, on the top floor of my house. The window is open, and the window net thing is also open. Both cats are in the room - Leeroy especially is very curious about the window. I recall the window being completely open before (in real life) and I am not afraid that the cats will run away onto the (flat) rooftop because they didn't last time. I simply watch them in humour. Then a small finch kind of bird flies in through the window and flies around in circles in the bedroom, disoriented. Suddenly my mom appears in the room with me, and I think to myself that we should let the cats eat this bird (since we have a pet bird that the cats keep trying to hunt). Then the thought comes into mind that maybe once they eat this bird, they'll want to eat Jerry (my pet bird) even more! My mom agrees (even though I was only thinking that, not speaking it aloud, but I didn't question it). My mom is silent and motionless, as if all decisions fall on me. I decide to just let the cats run around the room trying to catch the bird - because it is fun to watch and because they would definitely enjoy eating it (I thought that in almost those exact words). Then I have a short worried thought that the bird will lure the cats to go chase it outside the window, but I let those worries drift away from my optimistic mind. I continue to enjoy watching my cats chase, or now rather watch the bird fly around the room.

--- Side note: I noticed that having a thought inside a dream is much more vivid than having a thought in real life. In real life, the physical is obviously as vivid and realistic as it gets, and thoughts that you have also do bring images and scenarios to be imagined and sort of partly experienced by and through your mind, but don't feel as vivid as they may in a dream. When you have a thought in a dream, I notice that the images and scenarios that are imagined because of the thought are much more vivid in dream reality than real reality... sometimes just as vivid as the physical reality of the dream, that objects appear/disappear/shape-shift/change and that you jump in the dream to another fragment of the dream. After some thinking and theorizing, I have come to the conclusion that because a dream occurs in the mind and not in real physical reality, and because everything in the dream, including the dreamscape, objects, people, and thoughts, are all created by your mind in close frequencies, it makes it seem like the thoughts/imaginations you have in the dream are more vivid than in real life because you compare them with the physicality of the dream that is also created by your mind... If that makes sense. In real life, the frequency of real physical objects are very different from the frequency of your thoughts.

I also theorize that in a vivid lucid dream, by utilizing more of your conscious mind, you are able to convince your mind that the physicality of the dream is or can be just as real as the physicality of real life, and thus make it so. This second theory is not yet concluded on since I have not experienced enough lucid dreams to observe and learn enough to create a theory.

Yes, I do create a lot of theories about everything. This means I also over-analyze things in real life, however all of this analyzing and theorizing simply causes me to have a better understanding of how the mind and psychology of people works. (I don't theorize about scientific laws or whatever, only that which I can personally experience... Like dreams and thought and actions/reactions of other human beings! ) Okay well back to the dreams now.

---->The next dream was possibly the strangest one I have had in a long long while. It has to do with sexual themes, so just a warning, don't read this if you do not want to know.

I am at my old school, Fielding Drive P.S. There is a lot of the dream that is on the edge of my mind right now, but I can't pin it down, so I will just write down the fragment of the dream that I can remember clearly. I am in the junior computer lab. There is a bald teacher there, and I have just walked into the room, having a question to ask him which I either wasn't sure what the question was in the dream or just forgot it now. I am holding some school stuff, like maybe a binder or some paper, in my hand. I am at the door furthest from the exit of the junior hallway of the school. The teacher doesn't seem to acknowledge me walking in. He is not asking me what I am doing here, just continuing to sit at his computer playing card computer games or something. I realize that he is waiting for me to talk, even though he is not making eye contact with me or anything like that. I am hesitant to say anything because this is really strange. I don't think I say anything. After a while of standing there, I have the dirty thought that maybe he was watching porn before I came in, and quickly switched to playing computer games when he heard the door open. I ponder this thought, thinking if it's really realistic, and here is another proof of my theory by the way, the dream hazily sort of jumps between me walking back out the door, and then walking back in through the other door, the door closest to the exit door of the school and the teacher, walking in on the teacher that has become a cat but not really a cat licking it's erection. And then I start fapping as if I was watching cat porn really... odd.

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The other dream that I remember felt like it had to do with zip-lining or running some sort of course... It's a very hazy memory that I have of this. I'm with a group of people, some I recognize as friends, and some I just don't know at all, or are guides or other participants in this course. My brother is there too, and he is with some of his friends. We walk into the indoor part of the course. It is a mansion. With red carpet, and everything looks very rich. There are rich business people in the room mingling. At this point I think we all forget somehow that this was a zip-lining course. We enjoy the refreshments, and there is a bonfire somewhere, and an area of the room with the continued zip-lining course. I mingle with some of the rich business people. There was a problem and I was discussing possible solutions with them and I forget completely what this problem or solution was, but it had to do with business probably. Then I move onto the course. There is a complication with the next zip-line, where the pulley that is already on the wire doesn't go back unless the person on the other side of the zip-line sends it back to you or something. It is above a fire or something really dangerous that will kill you if you let go, and there are no harnesses in this zip-line. It is still in the mansion, and you can still see the room from here. The rich business people are upset that we will break something. I use the zip-line, get to the other side, and so does my brother. Some people die for unknown reasons. I think I kill someone, or maybe just feel like I killed someone. The blame goes on me anyway. I don't feel guilty, I accept the deaths as the reality of life and the dream and I think other people do too. The corpses immediately and unnoticeably vanish upon this acceptance. There's some more legal complications or whatever, but I was unaffected. Then more stuff happened that is on the brink of my mind.

Oh yes. Before we are at the part of the dream above, we are at my house, in the living room. My brother and I are talking, and I have two blankets laid out downstairs for me to sleep on because I sometimes sleep in the living room. Two of my brother's friends take to the couch, cover themselves with the blankets and go to sleep. It is not nighttime. I get angry that they are using my blankets, and express this anger slightly at my brother. Mostly, I am thinking if they will notice the possible smell of the blankets (?). They don't seem to notice anything. Then I go hang out downstairs with my brother, then his friends wake up, suddenly the dream seamlessly shifts to being at Mark's Work Wearhouse and then shifts to being back at home, chatting in the small walk-in hallway place of my house, and then playing a video game that combines Spyro, another game I played only in another dream I had a while ago, and Final Fantasy XII, in the mine cave area near the start of the game. My dream is immersed into this game, I am inside the game reality while hearing the roaring voices of my brother and his friends, and my quieter voice chatting back with them. More stuff happened that I can only feel the feeling/frequency of rather than exactly pinpoint what happened. I think at one point I was in danger of dying possibly because my brothers' friends' stupid mistake and my brother gets mad at them or something I don't know.

Yes, odd dreams today I know.

I remember having a dream last night about something I had to do, and was pretty anxious about it. Now that I'm awake I can't remember what the thing I needed to do was, only that it was important and I was spending a great deal of mental energy trying to get it done.

Then, just as I was surfacing from the dream, something really strange happened. I had a hypnopompic hallucination, but I was fully aware of what it was while it was happening. The other weird thing is I think my eyes were open at the time it happened. I tried to turn the hallucination into a LD but it was so abstract. I kept seeing what looked like an old LCD screen with a grey backdrop in front of my eyes, with the faces of pixelized bears. Once I realized I was having a dream/hallucination, I tried to change what was happening. All I could manage was to make small black ripples appear in the LCD-like surface with my mind. Finally, after being essentially paralyzed but not scared, I woke up.

I remember small peices...I think I saw my niece. Took too long to DJ so I forgot whatever I dreamed about.

This dream started out as a random search on a website. I was just browsing it at first, but then I spotted someone who was related to someone that I was looking for. I observed what they did and said, and became quite jealous. I ended up finding the person I was looking for, but never being able to actually talk to them (basically what goes on irl). Anyway, at some point, the "website" aspect of it went away (though it was more like floating around images and such, kind of cool), and I ended up in what looked to be a mix between my brother and sister's rooms at my dad's house. They (the person I was looking for) was there as well, and we had a long chat (which is rare) about things. I learned about their crappy past with others that I'd been jealous of, and while I know it wasn't real, it was nice to finally get something out of them (even in a dream). Then an odd thing happened where they left for a moment and some guy comes in and starts attacking me. Except I suddenly gain monstrous strength and beat the crap out of them. And then my dad makes a cameo appearance as I toss said guy into his room where he sits on an armchair and watches TV, and that was the end of that.

M is talking to everyone about the fact that spirits will come down to Earth, around the year 2012, in great numbers to speak to the living.

1st-
I was somewhere out side near a familiar building...kinda vague now. This girl I was really feeling back in highschool was there, she had just broken up with her boyfriend and wanted to be with me. I think I turned her down due to I was with some other chick and because I felt I would be regressing at this point in my life if I did.

2nd-
I was at a buffet restaurant with my dad, brother and some other people and we were joking and merrymaking.

3rd-
I was in a video game setting. I was driving a remote control vehicle from 1st/3rd person. The objective was the mow down cops using the mounted machine gun before they could reach the car. It was like they came in waves with each wave becoming progressively harder. The graphics were arcadey. Eventually they all pooled inside a vehicle that was 10 times the size of my own(it was a mack truck) and then they started ramming me. I tried to drive to safety behind barriers but they rammed those also. Somebody told me to throw C-4 inside the truck but I awoke before that could happen.

I woke up in my bed, feeling groggy as I do in the mornings. I stood up, and something told me that this was a dream. I did a nose-pinch and hand reality check, none of them seemed to work in an unrealistic way. I was still pretty sure it was a dream, even though everything looked like a completely normal overcast morning.
My lucid seemed boring, so I wanted to make something out of it. I tried to picture a girl standing in my room. Nothing happened. I tried to figure a girl standing outside my room's closed door. I opened the door. No one there.
I thought that I could just as well go down the stairs and see where my mind brings me, even though I had a feeling, I would probably wake up from it. I walked down the stairs. I woke up halfway.

Jag WILDar av misstag. Drömmen framträder som ur en dimma. Är i skolan vid skåpen, L. Bä. kommer. Allt är väldigt ljust. Jag känner att jag är nära att vakna hela tiden. Jag ser Ant. ansikte och börjar märka att det inte längre bara är bilder utan att en dröm startar. Jag försöker stabilisera drömmen genom att gnugga händerna mot varandra (Ant. säger "Detta är bara början", ungefär, som att det skulle komma läskiga saker) och av någon anledning kolla på golvet. Det blir tydligare men helt plötsligt ändras marken och jag är högt upp i luften ovanför en tågstation eller liknande. Jag märker att drömmen är lite läskig så jag försöker ändra det. Det blir lite ljusare och en blond söt tjej kommer fram.

It was only a fraction of a dream a really small one but exciting at the same time i remember only waves and there was a storm

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! I don't like it when the weather gets worse and it gets darker outside. Had some stomach aches last night and couldn't fall asleep in hours. Woke up with alot of dreams on my mind, which is always fun. They were a bit fucked up as usual.

23.30: Sleep

05.10: Surviving in the woods
I'm with another guy in the woods. We're preparing our meal, it looks just like pasta but it's in dirty water. We take turns taking sips from the smoking hot water straight out of the metal sauce pan. We finish our meal and I get up. Monica appears. "Hey babe, let's go catch some fish" I tell her. I spot a small lake nearby and some fishing swiming around in it. They're rather big and colorful. "Hurry, get the rod out!" I tell her as I intend to catch a red one. Across the water I spot a few people walking.

I suddenly realise fishing in this place is illegal. They greet us as I try to untangle the fishing line. "Hey" I say. "We're not fishing, we're just uhm..." I say. 'I'm in deep shit now...' "Here, take this" a woman tells me and hands me a golden wobbler. It looks amazing. "Thanks!" I say and put it in my fishing bag. We follow the group of people to their camp. We enter a smoking hut, it's like an open sauna/smoke tent. We sit down and talk for a while with an old man.

05.10: Buying stuff
I'm in an electronics store with Monica, I'm sick of saving my money and feel like spending some. I walk up to a guy in the store's shirt. "Hey, show me the newest and most advanced "got to have" items you have" I tell him. "Oh, in that case, check out "Sennheiser", in a few months they're going to improve the quality of their stuff and they will be top notch for sure." "That's an amazing idea, I wonder why no one has done that before" I say. I need a new keyboard, mouse and headset. I ask him when they all will be out and he tells me in a few months, crap.

I decide to sit down in a chair and just watch the people in the store. A bunch of people working there are playing ping pong at a table and they seem to be having a blast. Monica and I feel like we belong in that group of people and they seem to like us. All of a sudden me and her start a small fight over something and I storm out. She catches up with me, I was only kidding and we go back to the people.

05.10: Dog CRAP!
I'm with my friend Henrik and we're at a fence. I'm standing on one side and his dog is sitting on the other by one of the fence poles. Henrik is also on the other side. I kick the fence pole and his very old dog, gets the shit scared out of him (yes, literally.) "Why did you do that?!" Henrik asks me. I shrug. "Gazzo, come here boy" he tells his dog. When he gets up I can see a big pile of crap. I inspect it closely for some reason and it's green and bubbling. I have no idea how, but I accidentaly get some on lower lip.

'Oh fffffffuuu...' I start gagging. Henrik also gets some on his face and he starts gagging aswell. We stand there for a while, almost puking. I spit and wipe the shit off some moss and can see a small white worm crawling on it. This makes me get even closer to vomiting. An old lady appears. "What are you boys doing?"

05.10: Fragment
*I'm at the computer and my friend Felix hands me a bunch of links directing me to different hotels. "We're going to either one of these and that's final" he tells me. They're all in China and at some kind of "feel good" spa shit. I really don't feel like going to those places.

05.10: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 5 hours

Supplements: None

That's it!

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

Not such great recall last night...I was up later than I had planned on, and so when I finally got to bed, I didn't stay awake long enough to properly go through a MILD setup, and I never woke up naturally during the night for another opportunity to try, either.

1) I was running around with the characters from Inception, but I don't think we were doing any extracting business. Can't remember what we were doing, though. At the end of the dream, Eames leaned up against a rail and looked as if he was about to faint or something. I woke up as everyone went over to see if he was alright.

Dream Signs: being around people, interacting with fictional characters, being somewhere without memory of getting there

I remember going out into the student Parking lot at my school. I was at the curb about to cross in front of some cars, i ran across and then there was our school sheriff or whatever in his car and he drove to me and said that he would give me three parking tickets for j walking. So he gave me them and I was really freaked out that I was going to have to wait a longer time to get my license.

I then remember him pulling me over and giving me another ticket.