dream fragment

10/12/2011
Fragment
(Ugh. Completely lost a lucid dream. )

All I really remember is being in the middle of a huge fire-fight, in an office building type of setting. During the gunfight, there was an opposing team trying to storm into our office, and they were shooting through the cubicle walls that we were trying to take up shelter behind. I remember that they were beginning to flank around the sides of the barriers, and I tossed a grenade into one corner of the office, taking out a few of the first gunmen to breach our (shoddy) defense. Running out of places to shield myself, I became lucid. That liberating feeling of being in the thick of a dangerous situation - and then realizing it's all a dream - surged through me. Fearless, I jumped over what was left of my thin shield of wood and sheet metal, that was my cubicle wall, I walked toward the gunmen, threatening to them all that they must either throw down their guns and walk away, or I was seriously about to fuck them all up, single-handedly.

Don't remember anything that happened after that, though.

10/13/2011
Fragment
I was at the summit of a huge mountain (which might have been Olympus, because I was focusing on the 'become a Greek God' Task of the Month), and fighting some giant, witch-like person/creature/thing. She had been chasing some girl (whom I think might have been MJ) and I through an roof-less corridor, toward the edge of the mountain, and then we would have to jump out of the way, at the last moment, to try to send her stumbling off of the cliffside. We actually failed at this, a time or two, and ended up falling off, ourselves. Then, the dream would 'reset' itself, and we would have to try again. The last time, all three of us went over the edge, and I was able to grab on to a ledge with one hand and help hold on to MJ with the other, while the witch plunged to her death.



10/14/2011
Dream Fragment One
I had been having sex with either MJ or GV. I can't remember which, but it was soon afterward, that I was sitting at my computer, while she slept in the background, naked. Someone walked into the room to tell me something. The door had already been open, and once they relayed the message, they looked over to see the girl, sprawled out on the bed, and then quickly stepped out, closing the door behind him as if he was embarassed at what he'd seen.

Later, I was in some bar with a couple of friends. I believe that K (ROTC) was one of them. He got up on stage and began doing some karaoke, which I usually wouldn't be caught dead doing (despite the fact that I can sing fairly well), but seeing him up there kind of emboldened me to do the same. (Actually, I remember a Facebook post from K, the other day, where he was talking about getting a singing group together, just for the hell of it.). I don't think I ever got a chance to sing, though.


Dream Fragment Two
I really only remember on scene out of this. I was being chased by an enormous, armored horse and rider, through a path in the woods. The horse was about the size of an elephant, and the muscular rider was fairly preportional. The horse continued to charge, as if it was looking to run me down, as a matter of its own, personal satisfaction. At some point during the chase, I was seeing myself from a third person perspective, and it was almost like I was 'guiding' myself through the woods. It felt like I was playing a video game, and I was the avatar. I don't remember ever actually have a controller or anything, but I noticed how hard it was to kind of 'control' myself, like the avatar wasn't very responsive to where I want to go, and it was really cumbersome to keep distance between my pursuer and myself.

I remembered the whole dreams the whole morning, but since I didn't get to write any of it down until now, I have forgotten most of the dreams and now only have parts of them .

The first interesting thing is that today being the day after I decided to try lucid dreaming again I woke up precisely at 4:34 AM. When I saw the time, I wondered if this was the same time I used to get up 2 years ago to do my WBTB WILDs that were never successful. I checked my offline alarms and there it was! "4:34 AM WILD Recurrent Alarm". I thought that was Extremely awesome so I took it as an opportunity to try it again.

(The dream I had at that time that I woke up had to do with arguing or something, which is understandable because I fell asleep in a not-so-good mood.)

Anyway, after waking up at 4:34, I got up, woke myself up completely, and then went back to bed to try WILDing. Unfortunately, I just got really scared because the day before, I watched 'The Fourth Kind' and I always get scared the most by scary movies at night when I'm alone. So I decided to go downstairs and watch TV instead to help clear my mind of any negativity, where I fell asleep and had a dream:

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The first part of the dream that I remember is where I am in the online game world of 'AION'. I'm wearing some nice light armor and using a Bow and Arrows to train on large pigs or something. I am in a beautiful overgrown enchanted forest, and I recall being in very similar dreams before. There are many other Elyos training with me. They seem to be very focused on the kill while I am mostly just enjoying the feeling of being one with the deep enchanted forest. It is quiet and so so peaceful.

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The next part of the dream that I remember is where I am in a nice apartment building that is apparently my friend's, Sarah's. This apartment building is huge and beautifully decorated. The carpet is red, and all rooms are cozy and comfortable. I am going back up the elevator to Sarah's home. I can't recall which floor she's on. I pick 5. I walk out the elevator. I walk down the hall and turn to my left where there is a huuge room with winding stairs along the curved walls. The stairs are wooden with gold in some parts, and the steps are of an elegant deep red carpet. The walls are of a warm brown colour I think, perhaps it was dark wood. There are traditional candles lighting up the walls and a beautiful cristal chandelier on the center of the room. There is also some furniture, but I can't recall exactly what and where it was.
I start walking up the stairs, confused about where I'm supposed to find Sarah's apartment. A boy that is a year younger than me runs up the stairs, catches up with me, and asks me if I'm lost. He looks like this Asian-American guy from last year's English class that I had a crush on, but I don't question if it is actually him or someone who looks like him.
I lie down on the stairs, stare up at the ceiling, sigh and say "yeah. I'm trying to find my friend's, Sarah's apartment, but I forgot everything about where it might be."
He lied down next to me and stared up at the ceiling with me. "hmm." He said. "I think she's on the <don't remember> floor."
"Yeah, that's what I thought too, but I didn't see her there."
"Maybe her apartment will show up if you check again?"
"Yeah. For now I think I'll just enjoy this view of the stars." (Somehow the ceiling was the starry sky at this point)
The stars were just as I'd remembered them at the cottage last Summer. They gave off almost the same enchanted feeling that the dense forest gave off from the Aion portion of the dream - but I only acknowledged this while studying the dreams after waking up.

Then I think I get up and search more with that guy. We talk while we search, at one point we end up on the roof top where we get a beautiful view of the stars - which is also the landscape somehow... The stars are the view below us as well is what I mean. This does not seem strange to me however. I simply enjoy the peacefulness of everything. Then we continue searching, and eventually we find what I've been looking for. Sarah's apartment! Which ends up being my family's and my apartment. It looks very very nice. I question the strangeness of how it is my apartment a little, but get preoccupied with my mom asking me to do some things. The guy is gone. I saw Sarah there, but couldn't know exactly where she was, it was as if she was an apparition, but I did not question it. We had food that I recall thinking of being very good food but can't remember what the food was or tasted like.
A part of this dream also exists where I meet my brother's fiancee's sister, who in real life I've been told has eyebrows that make her look angry all the time, and I find out (in the dream) that my brother dated her before too. :/

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The last part of the dream that I recall was at some desert place that I can compare to what I think of Area 51. There are about 7 nuclear balloons floating in the sky that are in danger of exploding!! Each nuclear balloon is responsible for the energy in almost each continent of the world - Africa, North America, South America, Europe, Asia, Australia, and not Antarctica! The seventh balloon is called "THE WORLD." It is presumed that if any of these balloons blow up, their respective areas will be be blown up also. Meaning if the World balloon blew up, that would mean the end of the world.
For some reason my Dad is there with me. He runs to the gunner on the right and aims at the largest balloon (label unknown ) while I stand there motionless watching the action.
The dream switches to first person shooter mode, where I am my Dad shooting at the balloons. There is a bar on the top left corner showing the remaining life of the balloon I am shooting. For some reason, shooting the balloons will keep them from exploding. I acknowledge that the life bar may perhaps indeed prove the opposite, but I ignore this fact and do what I think I have been instructed to do! I keep shooting the balloon.

:edit: I just searched for the balloons that were in the dream and they looked exactly like this one, but only the balloon part, not the basket:



This turns out to be a 1861 civil war balloon. Interesting huh. (I've never seen this balloon before in my life, and in the dream I was shooting at it) Seeing as I was my Dad in this part of the dream, shooting at the balloons for illogical reasons I knew not of, I think it could have been a past life of my dad.

(That nuclear balloon part of the dream did not have that enchanted feeling like the other parts had. It was more of a thrilling happy feeling)

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Then I wake up.

My recall was terrible last night so I only remember a short fragment which is too bad. But I think in general it is getting a lot better. (3 months ago I couldn't even remember any dreams.)

I'm still at only 1 lucid but all day awareness and RCs are definitely helping, I actually ended up doing an RC in one of my dreams the other night but I never became lucid.

Anyway, still practising. My goal is to achieve lucids almost everyday, which would be amazing. Definitely trying to make it happen.

Anyway, that's it for today!

-Cheers!


October 17, 2011 - At the train station - Portugal

Vividness: 5/10
lucid: No.
# of Dreams Recalled: 1 Fragment
Dream Time: ~30minutes

Guide:

[-] Lucid
[-] Non - Lucid
[-] DC talk
[-] Notes

Fragment 1
I’m in a train station bathroom in Portugal with a guy named Sandro. We had to wait for the train so we used the bathroom in the meantime. The bathroom looked very dark. I remember being really hot and dry so I took off my shirt and put it underneath the tap. Sandro asked what I was doing but we soon realised the train was here so we rushed out of the bathroom and got on this red – looking, double decked bus; Similar to the ones seen in London.
I had a glasses case with me on the station platform just before we got on. The glasses case held our tickets. Sandro just rushed on the tram heading upstairs while I showed the woman who was driving our tickets. Sandro looked quite surprised. I guess he was surprised that I actually still held the tickets because he thought I lost them.

When we get off the tram, we are at the beach. I see one of my friends from school, Alex and say hi to him. The station we get off at looks very much like a beach area. I remember it being sunny and quite busy.

NON-DREAM
DREAM
LUCID-DREAM
NOTES

Just got back into this whole dreaming malarky, so I'll upload all the dreams I never got around to typing up before I took a break.
(There is definately something missing here, I could remember it when I first woke up.) I have just walked out onto a field, possibly from school. The field reminds me of the Aston Fields (My old middle-school.) playing field. But with a road running through the half of the field on my left. I notice a small red motorbike at the other side of the field. I immediately realise that the bike is the new Metallica album. (What... the... fuck?) and start sprinting towards it. Now I am close to the motorbike, and watch it change into a red car and then a red house as I get closer. A menu appears in my vision, I believe it was the album's song-list, the album was called Echobrain.

non-lucid - black
lucid - blue

For the past couple nights I've been trying to be lucid but I'm always half-awake and not fully in a dream. 2 nights ago I had an epic LD. At first I wasn't lucid and was in some kind of story. I dreamt of this guy that looked like my bf in reality but wasn't my my bf since it was not his energy signature. I dreamt of meeting this guy in class. He sat behind me annoying me. I somehow dreamt little by little we were getting romantically linked. Suddenly I dreamt my family and I were vacationing in the Philippines, my homecountry. My sisters and I went there with my dad. I don't remember the reason why we were there but I remembered we were only gonna stay there for 1 week. I was there in PI but somehow it looked like I was in my house in the USA. But at random times it evolved to the house in PI, my grandma's house to be exact. I would randomly see myself in the 3rd person at random times as well. Suddenly it was as if 1 week passed and my mom came to take us back to USA. We went back home and suddenly I saw that mysterious guy again. He started to put his arms around me like my bf in waking life would. In the dream i forgot i had a bf in waking life. I wasn't lucid yet. In the dream I thought I was dating two people. That mysterious guy in USA and a girl in PI. WEIRD . We were walking near shops and stores near my house, then he asked me "Have you decided to be in a formal relationship w/ anyone yet?" I replied "Yes." and he answered "To that girl isn't it?" and I said "No, to you." We suddenly stopped walking in front of a band that was playing and he raised his fist in front of them. Like he was happy that I said yes to him. As we were walking, we were suddenly in a restaurant.

That's when I remembered my bf in waking life. I remembered in waking life my bf warned me he had an LD of me being with another guy that looked exactly like him but was not him. That dream hurt him and so I wanted to change what was happening and ran away from the guy. I became lucid then lost it.

I was suddenly in a hotel lobby with 2 girls. For some reason I started fighting with both of them.

I became fully lucid when I was fighting with them remembering I was dreaming. I became lucid and tried to stay in the dream by touching the floor, the wall, the furniture, etc. I remembered reading the tutorial in DV about stabilizing the dream to make it more clear I just had to look at both my hands and say "Stabilize dream" out loud and everything would be more clear and vivid. At first it didn't work. I kept fighting with the 2 bitches. Suddenly I thought "Why am I wasting my lucidity fighting these 2 worthless girls for no reason?". I repeated the stablize dream technique and this time it worked one girl's face became really clear. I remembered she was a white girl wearing a tight black dress; the other girl I don't remember too much of. I kept fighting them trying to take control of the dream at the same time to stop and do other things but they kept coming at me and I had to keep fighting. I wanted to control the dream so they'd stop or I win but it didn't happen yet. Suddenly the scene changed and I was in an auditorium with people dressed up like they were important. The 2 girls I was fighting with were also there but they weren't fighting me instead they sat quietly in one of the red chairs. The so-called important people were discussing about a movie that I was making all of a sudden. I thought "I'm making a movie?"

I lost lucidity in this part a little and went along. The people were saying things like they were excited about my movie since it's gonna be the first movie in today's generation where no use of stunt doubles or special effects is needed in a blockbuster. So then it connected I was fighting the 2 girls for a movie. REAL fighting though. I suddenly got scared and thought if the ppl saw how we were fighting in the movie like REAL fighting I would get sued.

I suddenly regained full lucidity and I flew upwards right out of the ceiling. This is when my successful dream control was beginning in this dream. I suddenly remembered what i wanted to do, I wanna join the serial dreaming RPG. I wanted to get to Denn. I tried spinning while closing my eyes but it didn't work. So instead I flew up I always have no trouble flying nowadays in dreams. I flew straight up first with my fist pumped up to the sky like Wonderwoman. Then when I felt like i was high enough I changed to flying horizontally. It was a night with lots of stars. I always seem to be in the night with stars in my dreams. I wanted to have more fun. I remembered reading Mancon's "diff ways of flying" and tried flying on a broomstick across the sky. I summoned it by looking away imagining it's there and suddenly it was when i looked back. I flew on it but was quickly bored i like flying without depending on any object but my own ability and body it's more fun for me lol I remembered reading from DV i could use flying to get me wer I wanted to go. I wanted to get to Denn. I was trying to control my dream to get there. I know my imagination and my mind is the only limit in a dream. I wanted to get to Denn. I was telling myself it's there. I looked down at the dark night and saw a town full of lights. When I flew down it wasn't Denn though. I was in a wooden house. While I was in the dream I could hear noises from waking life. My sisters turned on the television and I could hear it while I dreamt. I would constantly have to re-stabilize in the dream by touching and looking to my hands and reapeating "Stabilize dream". It worked like a charm. Things would always be really clear. I suddenly saw my mom, dad, and sisters come into the strange house. I remembered that in waking life I had to get up early since my family and I had to go somewhere. For one moment I was half-awake but I went back to the dream by not moving. I flew upwards straight out of the ceiling again.I jumped back on track on trying to get to Denn. I suddenly saw WakingNomad and told him wer I was trying to get to. He took me straight to Denn suddenly and told me to get dressed up for my costume which was weird. Instead I headed straight into the forest of Denn it literally looked like medieval times. I went in the forest and saw a huge standing oval mirror. I looked in the mirror, re-stabilized myself in the dream and saw myself clearly. This is the first time I looked in the mirror in a dream. I saw how I looked. It was me. I looked like a WITCH dressed in some kind of red. Not all in red but I was wearing a red skirt and my top was light beige and pink kind of color like light salmon in color. I knew I was a witch when I stared at my reflection. I came back to the townsquare of Denn and there WakingNomad reappeared. He was about to go it seemed but then i said "I wanna share this dream w/ other ppl" Then he was like "follow me". We suddenly appear in a girl's house. The girl was on her bed, using a labtop. WakingNomad introduces me "This is Raven Knight ". All I could remember was that in the dream she had long straight hair. I asked her "You know this is a dream right?" She answered back "Yes." Then I said "Then y r u using a labtop?" lol. Raven then put the labtop aside for some reason. Suddenly my 2 sisters form earlier pop up agen. I said to WakingNomad and Raven Knight "Let's go guys!" I then try flying out of Raven Knight's ceiling. I break through the celing but there's another layer. WakingNomad then says " Raven has 30 layers up there" The I looked at the window but it wouldn't stay completely up for me 2 fly through it. So we walked out of the house. LOL. We were walking. It was daylight. We were walking on a cobbled sidewalk. It was some kind of old town. I don't know if we were still in Denn. I suddenly became bored of walking and started flying a couple inches off the ground. I summoned a hover board to come to me. Felt cool . Then suddenly my bf comes in and throws a reals sk8board to me. I'm suddenly skateboarding past WakingNomad nearly crashing into him. Suddenly I notice my 2 sisters following me. I then tell them to stay away or go away for some reason and they eventually did. As me, raven , and WakingNomad were walking/floating I woke up.

Completed the 1st task yay! I noticed in this dream, my control developed slowly within the dream but nonetheless I had fun!

My dream last night was non-lucid and a dream fragment.

I was sitting in my Chemistry class with a friend of mine. I use her phone to get online. Well, I haven't spoken to my boyfriend in nearly eight months because our families are dead set on us being seperated.

Well, fifth period comes and I can't find my friend to give her, her phone back so I take it, planning to give it to her at lunch.

I get online and go to the website I want and half scream, scaring the teacher and my classmates. The reason was that I had five messages. I don't really talk to anyone on said site so having so many was really weird.

The messages were all from my boyfriend and I talk to him the entire time, neglecting my school work since I know I can easily make it up. When I get to lunch I tell my friend about it and give her phone back.

It was one of those dreams that tend to end up as a deja-vu moment. All I know is I really want it to become a deja-vu moment. Whether it happens or not is anyone's guess.

Wishful thinking I suppose.

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i was playing mw3 in the middle of the desert. there was a floating tv for me to play on. there also was a electricity guy behind my working on my internet. i started a game were it was half muti player then in the game it became dark and became zombies. i was playing for a little then it bacame dark and zombies started to come everwere. i felt like i was really in the game now. i ran around and started blasting there heads off. all my team mates have now died. it was just me now. there was a massive hoard of zombies following me know. i jumped on some steam thing. they all jumped in to. i killed almost all of them. the stream carried all the way around the map. when i came back around to the front of the map were the last couple zombies were. i killed them. i was know back in the desert with that guy. i asked him were he got the game and he smiled and said were do you think. i looked on the case and it said Canada. my mom was now there and i told her that next coD that comes out im ordering it from Canada. the she said she didnt know anybody that lived there then i said Shawn.(he is a friend of mine that died a while ago and lives in Colorado) she said alright. i wanted to ask the electricity guy if i could buy the game from him but i never did.

random fragment from last night
i was walking up to my school cause i wanted a name tag. i walked up some weird stairs that ive never seen before. i was also eating something. i was confronted by some old lady. i said sorry i know im not allowed to eat in the school. then she said no no its ok. we then had a little conversation about school rules.

The following takes place during the span of several dreams due to the fact that I was in non REM.

I remember being under my oak tree outdoors, and I couldn't walk. It took me all my power to stand up. It was almost as if both of my knees would keep giving out on me.

I'm in my house, and N starts giving me a haircut. He says my clippers are messed up, so he's just going to stop right then and there. Obviously I'm like "wtf!?" because I have class tomorrow. Something else was talked about...I think he wanted me to fix or build a computer.

I'm in my room, and my brother walks in and he's trying to talk to me about something, but I'm on the game, and it's probably something critical.

I'm at a dinner with my daughter, and some annoying guy holds his kid up next to me. I tell him that I don't smell anything because I have a dad nose. My daughter gets the kid and tries to change his diaper. She has most of it done, but she didn't put the straps on correctly (it was really complicated in the dream like a series of folds and crap).

I'm talking to my sister-n-law about my problems walking. We're in a white room, but the sun is making it a little yellowish. I try to show her how it's so hard to walk. My knees knees almost hurt while standing. They give way and fall. I tell her "this is feeling almost like those dreams I was having earlier." That's when I spontaneously realize that I'm dreaming, and fly around a bit. The problem of walking still remained though. Eventually I woke up.

The last thing I can remember is a vicious dog barking and chasing me and a few other people. These people were completely random, but I do remember in particular a bald person and someone who looked and acted like a character that Robert Sheehan played, Nathan. This part took place in a damp and dark alley, and the sky was cloudy (possibly due to rain). Some of us were wearing aprons and were doing the laundry. There was a sheep around here too. I don't know why, but I feel compelled to mention it. Maybe it was important.

At some point I think after the dog shows up, we split up after running away. I remember ending up in someone's room, it was pretty dark and there was a lot of Sailor Moon merchandise there. A girl who resembled my friend Marley appeared there and told me that the person who had the collection of these was no longer sharing them with others. I'm not sure what happened here, but I started fall and this is where the next scene took place.

Following the bald person and their group, they ended up in the middle of the ocean wearing almost nothing and floating on a small round tire. I don't remember what else happened there, but the next thing I can remember is there being a bed and three people suddenly wake up in said bed naked and shocked. From what I can tell, they are all transmen. I think at some point they faced some kind of discrimination based on this, but I'm not sure.

Another thing that I can remember is a woman who resembles the character Lana from Smallville in a large and comfy looking home. There was a fireplace, and she called someone in order to "seal the deal" with something. She seemed to have been doing something evil at this point, and I remember there was another girl involved and I think she was arranging to have this girl be "taken care of" in a sexual way. I don't remember much of this part.

There is also a part where a group of small children are walking alone in a mountainous desert type of place, each with some kind of weapon on them. There is a child called Miura there with glasses and wearing blue-striped overalls who feels shy and left out. There are times where they will rest and he will stay behind, hoping to hear his mates call out his name to hurry up. This happens more than once, and I think that another child joins him.

The final thing that I can remember is being at my dad's house (well, a much better version of it, thanks mind) and more specifically in the room that I stayed in last year. I can't remember a thing about this part.

Experimented with the "Brainhack" app for iOS last night since others on this forum reported that it gave them vivid false awakenings, which they could use as a dream sign and go lucid. I couldn't sleep very soundly with headphones on (since the only position where they didn't get in the way was on my back), and therefore barely had any dream recall, none of it vivid. I remember two different dreams, but all that I can say for sure about them is another case of being around several people, and in highly unusual circumstances. Gotta keep an eye out for those two dream signs, as they are by far my most common and recognizable.

And I think I'll ditch the app, too

I dreamed I was somewhere in India, and was preparing myself for a long journey around the country.
I began to walk the path ... there was some obstacles involved, some natural and others not.
I was jumping a yellow wall between two gardens of a poor Indian neighborhood, and when I landed on the other side a bag with food, water and some other belongings was ripped, dropping food and other goods.

Suddenly a typically Indian-looking kid (dark skin) appeared, he had a dirty white shirt, and helped me get the things that had fallen from the bag. He built a cardboard box, and he put it all the food in that box and gave it to me ...

I started thinking about the difficulty that I would go to cross the country with a box and not a backpack.

dream 1 - I was at school and met my several friends. fragement

dream 2 - MILD mantra -> SP hits. I rolled down from my bed and visualized my hand. it was still at night.

I IMAGINE A SPIDER WEB ATTACHED FROM MY HAND TO KATSUNO! the spider web was glowing. cool.
first I felt his energy and it seemed really worked. I was amazed that the web vibrated hard.
I opened the door and followed the web. there was my mom distracting me so I said "mom plz get away I have to follow this web!"
as I followed, I was floating in the air. there was some kind of forest/ jungle, and finally there was a log house on the grass.

I saw Katsuno(maybe?) coming out of the house, maybe off to school. he was wearing black shirt. I think he had kind of curly, brown hair...
I got inside the house and saw his mom. she was making breakfast?
here the recall is foggy....
maybe I got shifted into non-LD. I was with Katsuno or a DC and his little brother in a white room. I saw some beehives up on the ceiling.
Katsuno gave me some chocolate nuts(?). it felt like chewing bread, but tasted like dark chocolate...yummy
I was worried of bees in the room. I insanely ran around the room and I got shot by a bee on my back. it really hurt.......gahhh
my toes were getting swollen up. Katsuno tried to heal me.

I remember the conversation with Katsuno but dont remember when I dreamed this, but it was in the first dream.

I said: "hey your house is log house right?"
Katsuno: "what? no... my house is made of brick"
"-.- really?? the house had a door on the corner of 2 sides of the house..."
"no, it's not...my house is red-roof house."
"damn then it was just my imagination. we didnt have shared dream T^T"
"hey dont find me, practice dream control first."
"what?! this is IOSDP experiment! I cant ignore it!"

dream 3 - again MILD and I got brainwashed by Katsuno that I have to practice dream control first so here I did what I wanted to do.
I transformed into Saya but dont recall anything from this dream.

dream 4 - again MILD and I rolled from my bed, visualized my hand. I crushed the room window, and I wanted to practice fight in dream!
I ran to the middle of the car road and I kinda wanted to crash my self into a car. then this white truck came toward me and I positioned myself to get ready,
but the car stopped infornt of me. then I just wanted to do transforming. suddenly Gumiho came in my head, and did the transforming jutsu from Naruto.
(this jutsu worked really well for transforming.) I heard pong! sound and saw smoke popping out around me. omigod! I got taller and felt her long hair
and nine tails!!! and the white hanbok!! I really felt I had her 'aspect'.
so now I wanted to use magic powers and stuff. I went in this school building and there were some enemies. kids ran out of the building.
I started to use "geuk(infinite) myul(destroy) sum(power?)!!!" and then BOOOOOOOOM..... the whole building was destoryed, even my dream scene...I woke up.

dream 5 - FA. I turned my computer on and checked DV. one notification

i had this dream that i went back home.....to where i was abused.......and i just wanted to go home (to my college dorm) and i called my boyfriend but he didn't answer.......and i left a bunch of messages.....and i started packing.......the house looked much bigger.......two of my college friends were there.....my one friend did a bit of quilting but didn't finish.....her one was small and my mom wanted to burn it because it's never going to get finished.....and my other friend.......i called her short and said she could use it because she's short and she chased me around trying to literally kick me in the butt......there's a joke between us about that because she's short but a black belt in karate.....but she'd never even hurt a fly.....and i sat down and apologized for calling her short...then she went outside with everyone else while i went to pack

then i woke up.....i went back to sleep and entered the same dream......i was packing things and i tried calling my boyfriend while in my old room.....i heard everything from a speaker phone in my mother's room......i reset it but it fell apart.....i put everything back the way it was......but i got caught being in her room by this random guy........and he told my mom.......everyone was outside me window at a bonfire.........and i saw them telling my mother and gathered up my stuff as quick as i could.....and she was saying about beating me.....and i grabbed the quilt.....it even looked the same as in the last part of the dream.......and i hid in my closet and held the door shut......that's what i did when i was a kid.......i hid in my closet and many times i wasn't found even if she looked in there because i kept still and was under stuff at the back..........and then i woke up

I attempted a WILD, but I'm guessing I ended up unconscious instead at some point. However, I did manage to have a dream that I remember bits and pieces of.

I remember being in a car with my mom and driving around in a city that I've never seen before but is apparently "home". We pull up into a house (or house-like apartment) and I go on about my normal routine after dragging a large suitcase (three total) up the stairs. My room has a full kitchen in it, which I never noticed before so I went to check it out. It was dark in there, but I switched the lights on. Both light switches didn't work, but the two smaller tabs below the main switch thing did. [I'm kind of amused at how this was a reality check that didn't actually work] After turning those lights on, there was a loud hideous sound that made me turn them off right away and go back to my room. I don't remember much after that particular part, but my cousin had a random appearance.

Another part of the dream is when I'm in a large building area and I'm surrounded by a great deal of people. At some point, there is an emergency in the entrance where a large abundance of girls run up and try to get in. Eventually they do, and it becomes a mess. And then I'm sitting with a friend in a large group of people and we're all very stone-faced. Some lady who appears to be the leader of the group has a very fake aura and she's white and rich. Dressed in a pink suit. She seems to be telling me and my friend about an issue that they cannot be bothered to deal with, since the majority of the people there are white (I'm assuming this was my social justice interest at work here now l0l). Almost immediately after that, there's a stampede of people flooding the room and everyone takes off and/or is trampled. I'm one of those people who ends up on the floor and unable to get up because of some bitch smashing my legs to pieces. At some point I'm able to get up, but struggling to move around. I find a blue and red ticket on the ground that resembles a Gachapon ticket (it's a Maplestory thing). I try to get to it, but I'm thrown to the ground and (again) trampled by the others.

Then, at some point I'm in an area that resembles the game that I play, Maplestory. I know this particularly because I was in my own map fighting Persian Cats (a type of pet that isn't supposed to be a monster) in a large net. Other people soon came into my map, some telling me to "cc" or just straight up typing in symbols that made no sense whatsoever (and yet I still didn't gain any awareness). I think at some point I left (but not after gaining an odd ability to see a lot of red dots) and ended up in a setting that was still a 'game' but not one that I'd ever recognize. My mom was there again, saying to me that she'd decided to create a character and play with me. I wasn't too excited for that, but I left through a portal and tried to show her how to do the same. I'm not sure if the first part of this scene happened after this one or not, but that's all I've got for now.

I'm finding it kind of funny how I'm remembering things that were obviously some attempt to see what was real or not (but not aware enough I guess).

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! Another week that left me physically exhausted. Last weekend I didn't get lucid and since my encounter with that dark haired evil man I hadn't had any. I wanted to have a lucid naturally without any supplements before trying out my new 5-HTP and L-Theanine, and this morning I had one. Was a bit fuzzy and hard to stabilize but it was something alright. Also in all my dreams I was in another country, weird.

23.00: Sleep

08.00: Dream and frag
*I'm in Amsterdam with a few of my friends. We're at a coffee shop and I go up to the counter. I buy some weed in tiny bags, I also get some weird receipts which I throw away instantly. After hanging out at the cafe for a while, I hear something. "You need to register the weed, or you'll be in trouble" someone tells another guy. I realise that must have been what the receipt was for. 'Oh shit...' I get up and head upstairs to a table. I had left a few bags of weed there before.

"Hey, have you got my weed?" I ask the two people at the table. "Yeah, but a police officer just came by and was looking for you" the guy tells me and hands me three plastic bags. I take them and head downstairs again. I really need that receipt! I start typing out my story on a computer and turn it around for the girl behind the counter to read. She has no clue what it says. I look at the screen and it has changed. 'Wtf?' I tell her what's going on instead.

"Why didn't you save the receipts?" she asks me frustrated. Another Swedish guy shows up and I tell her all about how Swedes usually pretend to understand when infact they don't, only to not feel stupid or embarrassed. The Swedish guy tells her it's true.

*I'm in Italy or some similar country. I'm with a whole bunch of people and we're in a restaurant waiting for our food. It takes forever to get it. 'Better be worth the wait' When the food finally arrives, it's mashed potatoes with fish sticks... "Uhm, okay" I say and take a bite. The mashed potatoes taste very good. 'Last meal I'm having in this country is going to be so expensive.'

11.00: You stole my apple, I'm going to run you over! MILD
It's only three days left until I'm going home from this country. I feel like the week's passed by way too quickly. I enter a big container and starts cleaning it out. It looks just like the one from work and for some reason I feel like I will be awarded something great if I manage to get the floor completely clean. If the things in it is only on shelves. There's alot of plastic containers with oil in them. I find a paper advertising working on a whale oil ship. "It's great pay!" it says.

I find my black shirt hanging on the wall and take it down. 'Gotta get this back to the house.' I get out of the container and hear something to my left. It's a guy on a motorbike doing doughnuts in the snow. I walk down the road to the right and walk up to he first house that comes up. My family's living in there. I look down at my clothes before going in, I've got some expensive, stylish white pants on. I enter the house and leave the shirt in there. My sister's in the bathroom and I don't feel like staying so I leave again.

I head back towards the container which is now a house. I enter it and grab a small axe by the door. I listen if anyone's upstairs, I hear a small creak but nothing more. I figure it's empty and head out and lock the door again.

My brothers Martin and Morgan shows up when I realise I'm dreaming. "Hey" Martin says. I smile and put the axe away. 'What to do? God damnit, what were my tasks? Martin walks past me out on the lawn and stops by an apple tree. A single small apple is hanging from a branch. He grabs it and it grows in size for some reason. 'Oh right! Telekinesis.' I flick my hand and the apple zooms out of his hand and into mine. I break off a piece and chew it down while letting the rest of it circle around him, teasing him.

I realise the dream is not very vivid and starts stabilizing it. I touch a wooden stake next to me while singing. "Lalalala." I continue to touch things as Martin gets in a car. "You raise meeee uuuuuup!" I yell. "So I can staaaaaand on mountaaaaaains!" 'Singing to stabilize is great.' I try to walk forwards to check out his car, but after ten seconds or so I realise I haven't gone anywhere at all. It's just like I'm in a game that is lagging badly. I decide not to fight it and turn around instead.

Morgan is waiting for me with the dirtbike. I get on and take off. I grab him with telekinesis and make him speed along right next to me on the snow. We go down the street and I realise it's the same street our old house is on. "Let's switch places" I tell Morgan after a while. I keep the bike stable and jump off onto the snow, skating on it. Morgan takes my place and speeds up. I grab the back of the bike and look behind me. I can see a helmet in the distance.

"Martin's coming after us" I tell Morgan. A few seconds later a car appears, it's a F1 car. "Go up that hill to the right, no wait. Stop the bike" I tell Morgan and he does. I get off and stand still in the middle of the street.



He approaches me at an incredibly slow speed. He must be drunk or something because he drives past me and up onto the hill, getting stuck in the mud. I reach out with my hand and lift the car up into the air. I slam it into a house that's nearby. It sounds just like as if you were pounding on a hood. I slam it weakly into the house ten times or so, no damage is done to either the car or the house.

11.00: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 12 hours

Supplements: None

That's it!

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