lucid

The dream wasn't as exiting as the first one, but either way...


[NOT LUCID]
Started the dream as JC Dention from the game Deus Ex, began walking down this hallway when I'm confronted by a few black "spies"(From spy vs. spy cartoons) holding yellow paint cans, I kill them with my pistol and grab one of their paint cans. I realized that as long as I held the can, they wouldn't bother coming after me so I held it and moved on. End of the hallway(Another about 20 steps) and it splits like a T and I choose to go right. I see some other guys holding a black can doing the same as the guys from the beginning and just let them do their own thing. At the end of the T is a door so I go through and it's a public bathroom. I keep going through more attached doors and stop and say to myself after taking a good look around, "I'm lucid dreaming." After I say that to keep the idea in my mind a few more seconds, I do a finger through palm RC(fail) and then a nose plug RC(Success).

[LUCID]
I went through the last door and found myself on the opposite side of where I entered in the beginning, but it all changed. The workers had almost finished and there were a few extra hallways(I figured out that my subconscious has a sense of time and progress too ) I turned right on the first new hallway I seen and watched as it was all finished, usually decorated with greyish black and a yellow line spanning the middle of each hallway. At the end, I reached a form of a library. I tried out a few different things such as a 1 fingered table grab(Slipped off lol), what electronics/videos looked like(Took special care not to give them TOO much attention as I've heard they don't really help staying asleep and lucid, and other stuff such as that.

So yeah, my second lucid. I'm pretty proud and I think I'll come up with an LD list of goals to try in my future ones

EDIT: Comments are appreciative as well as constructive criticism and tips/ideas for future LD's

I'm totally new here. I suffer from a chronic pervasive sleep disorder. Too long of a story for here and now and this place. In any case , yesterday, I finally screamed in my bathroom at the sink. "Why is this house drowning me in negative energy no matter how much I try". i should have known better than to speak it. that night, i dreamed 3 men outside with guns. They are threatening harm, rape, and death. I feel helpless. It was so real I wasn't aware I was dreaming because typically My dreams become lucid as soon as I have passive triggers mostly unrealistic dream events pretty much 3-4 times a week i become conscience. I often then become a passive participant and even kick a** in any way I Please or just enjoy making things up as I go along. i even like to just stay assive and let the dream unfold while I'm completely aware I'm dreaming.

By no means would these intruders on my property in this dream had any power had I become lucid. I would have been a bad B with a samurai sword (in my dream of course) chopping these guys up flying all over the place. But noooo, I'm calling 911 with a woman who seems totally unconcerned and I'm begging away for help. She says help is on the way. Some time passes, banging on my door, more screaming outside. I'm frantically trying to figure out how to protect myself and my child while I wait for help. I dial 911 again pleading. The lady could care less and says she forgot to dispatch help. I wake somewhere in to be greatful I was dreaming.

I fall back to sleep and have this amazing lucid dream I didn't want to wake from where I spent the day with some lover I've never met. He loved me to my soul and I had no anxiety or stress just companionship. I can interpret the 2nd dream easy cake but the first one I still have trouble channeling and changing circumstances when my dreams are too realistic and negative. I'm trying techniques. Even in sleep paralysis. I can't control the circumstances. I left once when I knew it was safe but I was hoping to meet someone and it was just sunny and the streets were empty. I thought awww boring...just decided to go back to my room and lay on top of my sleeping body. Sounds strange to someone who hasn't experienced it but but I've done it many times since Ive been doing this for 20 years since i was 10. I'm just scared to leave the room.

COPY FROM WORKBOOK Date: 11/30/2013 (Afternoon Nap)
Method: WILD & DEILD

I recall I was watching TV and I was so sleepy I couldn't hold my eyes open...I have been on a 'marathon eating fest' and I needed a nap something terrible. I closed my eyes for a few seconds and I started seeing HI. I recall right before my nap I was watching the movie "The Jungle Book" and the HI I was watching were of some animals playing in the jungle...wolves to be exact.

I said to myself, "Is it possible for me to be so close to sleep already ?" I decided to do a reality check of levitation and sure enough...I levitated and I knew I was dreaming. For some reason, my control was really weak and I just kinda flopped around like a wet dish rag. I ended up in my physical body and I DEILD my way back out again. I decided to go on an adventure to my son's room to see what he was doing (he is home from college and he was the only other person home with me when I decided to take a nap). I recall seeing 'someone' laying in the bed watching TV, but the room really looked different. The bed was in the wrong location and instead of being a queen size bed, it looked like a big recliner. This freaked me out and I ended up back in my physical body again. I waited to DEILD and I was back out. I decided this time to practice my summoning technique (which I suck at). I thought of the person I wanted to see and to my surprise I couldn't think of that person's name..sigh . In RL, I know this person like I know my own child, so why can't I think of that person's name? Because of this, I became frustrated . I do recall when I was thinking about that person, an invisible wind tossed me around the room and I woke up.

Note to self: Every lucid exercise is an opportunity to learn whether it is a success or not. Also, STOP GETTING FRUSTRATED!

#246 - DILD - 7:45AM

I have some confusing FA where my wife is freaking out that I was supposed to pick my daughters up for the weekend but I never did. I sleepily try telling her that we only had them for Thanksgiving. Then I hear her yelling at them about something and I tell her to chill out before rolling over to go back to sleep.

Something gets my awareness and I remember I had been trying all morning to get lucid. I lay still to WILD but I don't realize this is all one dream. I don't feel any vibrations but feel pretty sure that I am in the zone. I test it by slowly trying to get out of bed. I have no trouble moving but find I have become blind. There is that odd feeling of opening my physical eyes so I just focus on seeing through my eyelids and look at my hands. In a second or two I see them and begin rubbing. In another second I suddenly see my living room and make my way outside. As I open the front door I feel as well as hear that I am wearing my heavy coat. I note how funny this is but don't worry about it too much.

It's dark but I can see something like the morning sun coming up on the horizon. It's small and dark and red. I think of a red dwarf. Two goals come to mind: Board a pirate ship and China TOTY. I don't feel like the dream is stable enough to try either so I begin to explore the neighbourhood. I look at the sun again and it seems to be high enough to give me light but it is dim, too red and there are dark clouds partially obscuring it. Still, there should be some light on the ground but the neighbourhood is as dark as as a moonless night.

Frustrated, I run down the road some and see a car quickly approaching. I put a thumb out hoping it will stop and take me to a better lit area. The car slows but it doesn't stop. It makes a right hand turn and drives past my house. I feel the dream fading. I begin to rub my hands and feel the sidewalk but It's no use. Blackness envelopes me and I assume that I am waking up.

I am watching some show about a small child that has been abused. I feel sorry for it and think this is so horrible. I remember that I need to DJ and wake myself up.

30.11.2013

Comet ISON tracking, Sphinx revival and flight. (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I had a false awakening and it was night. The room was very dark, darker as usual and my wife was not there. I went to the living room and saw my wife looking at the TV, even though, the TV was off.

There was an iPad laying on the TV (note, we own Samsung, not iOS) and it had a real time tracking software on comet ISON and it was beeping every two seconds. My wife told me she was tracking the comet to see if it survived the sun or not.

I looked outside the window and I could see a sky full of stars. I realized that there was no electricity at all. Even though, my computer was working. I wondered if the grid went down, but a few seconds later, all the street lights started to lit and the stars went away. I dozed off.

I had another false awakening in some weird warehouse. I kind of realized that I was dreaming, as I did not know the place where I woke up. The dream was very low quality and I could not make it stable well, so I opened a small window and started to fly to make it stable, but lost the dream.

I had another false awakening in the same warehouse and now there were people. I somehow believed I was still dreaming, so ran outside. I met a guy and asking him where to go to exit there. He looked at me like if I was nuts and pointed the exist. As I exited, I was in a forest with a lot of trees. I tried to take of flying but I could not, even gravity felt normal. I told myself, "Well, I am dreaming, I think..." And looked at my hand. My fingers were made out of energy and wavy, so I indeed was dreaming and reminded myself flying is an easy task to do for me, so I took off.

As I was flying, I saw a desert and reminded myself in the tasks of the year. I recalled I had to do the Sphinx one, so I landed and was near the Great Sphinx. There were other buildings around (western buildings) but the pyramids were there, and specially, the Sphinx .

I flew to the top of her and placed my hands in front of her nose, which was chipped and damaged. I started to channel healing energy like I use to do in real life and a new nose spawned. Easy and done, lucky me...

Suddenly, the Sphinx started to move and I flew on her above the pyramids. As I was flying, the pyramids shrunk and some weird metallic buildings spawned out of nowhere, after a short while, the Sphinx landed and then, she flew away. She kind of looking half stone half flesh, but, I flew on her so I was good to go.

I started to focus on making an L-DEILD and get the last task of the year done, but I started to feel my body in bed and rapidly, lost the dream and woke up.

Last time I was on this site I was reading an entry from someone who was saying they were afraid to Lucid Dream in case they couldn't wake themselves up. To me that's not a problem as even before I knew about LDing I could force myself awake when something bad was happening - so I thought id experiment a little.

The other night I was in the middle of a non-lucid dream, and things where getting bad, (This nowadays is where I usually become Lucid and change it.) But on this occasion I wanted to wake myself up differently from normal, no forcing myself awake. Normally I force my eyes open from within the dream and kinda feels like i'm sucking myself out of the dream.

So when shit started going down I tried to find a different way to leave the dream. Now lucid of course, I walked through an alleyway and into a little corner shop style thing. It was dark and dingy and like a little old sweet shop. I spoke to the lady at the counter, a tiny little, very old Chinese lady, looked almost like a witch sort of character. I said to her whilst looking at all the different sweets and stuff lined up on the counter and in jars -

"I need you to give me something that will wake me up."

She took a moment to think and pottered around, and come back with a dark blue sphere shaped sweet. I was well aware that outside the shop was still very hostile and coming closer. The DC handed it over and nodded assertive and reassuringly to me. I popped it into my mouth and swallowed it whole. Instantly my vision went funny, bright colours in a spiralling black tunnel, It felt like I was being pulled backwards through the tunnel head first. Only about three seconds later I was awake on my pillow, slightly shocked, but it worked! How amazing was that!

So yeah I thought that was a pretty cool experiment, and something new to me. Worked just how I wanted it too though and would be interesting to see if that style works on anyone else, (I know most people don't want to wake up from LDs,) but if they did then give it a try or let me know ways you have tried!

A timely rescue from the "void"/re-stabilization thanks to NewArtemis!

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #169: Second Rescue

I’m an astronaut being prepped for a solo spaceflight mission. On this mission, I’ll be studying how various things smell when one is travelling through space. This all feels incredibly important and the pressure of the job is starting to stress me out.

I do a simulated flight in some kind of simulator that is really just a cheesy little room with stars painted on it. Something about this freaks me out, and I leave the sim, hurrying down a hall and thinking I’m just not cut out for this job. Somewhere along the way it occurs to me that fortunately this is all a dream.

I end up in a two-story library, wood-panelled, and filled with quietly studying DCs. I’m walking along a broad balcony that encircles a lower part of the library that’s filled with bookstacks. Somehow the dream starts to feel like it’s destabilizing, and I grab onto the corner of a nearby table. The dream loses most of its color and the frame rate drops. I just see a slow series of static images, each one moving horizontally and unsteadily across my field of view for a second or so before the next grayish image pops up.

Everything feels horribly unstable and I’m sure it’s all about to end. I decide to just go for my old trick of directly appealing for help and call for NewArtemis. I hold out my right hand and call her as “NewArtemis” a couple of times before remembering to just use her real name.

It doesn’t seem to be working for a moment, but after I’ve waited a bit, it finally works! A hand grabs my right shoulder and another grabs my right hand. “I have to come a long way to get here! I was on my way the whole time but you have to give me a second.” She’s speaking very rapidly. “You’ll be fine, there’s nothing wrong with this dream, here, let me fix this…”

She grips my shoulder and just sort of shakes the hell out of me. It’s surprisingly strong and bone-rattling, but it seems to nicely stabilize the scene. I tell her something along the lines of, “You’re as strong as a chimp.” She laughs and makes some kind of response that I can’t remember.

We move along the balcony where a cop has posted himself. He looks over and makes a remark about how I’m supposed to be “doing my job” preparing for my trip into space. He’s very unfriendly, speaking and acting as if he wants to arrest me. “Let’s go down this way,” I say to NewArtemis, and we float down to the first floor. The other DCs view this with suspicion, and I try to keep myself from getting panicky and feeling persecuted.

We exit through an adjacent room, wood-panelled and very elegant. As we’re exiting, a hulking, ogre-like guy comes through the door toward us. I have a false memory that he and I are friends. “Hey man, there’s a cop behind me. Take care of him, will you?” He smirks and nods.

“You know that guy?” asks Art, referring to the ogre.

“Yeah, that’s a buddy of mine,” I say, totally buying into the false memory. We go through the door into a darkened restaurant. Through a glass window on our left we see a brightly-lit daycare center. A little girl looks out at us and waves. We wave back as we walk toward the back of the restaurant.

We approach a booth where a man is inspecting an old record album. The cover is this incredibly vivid picture of a blonde woman in her late 30s apparently named “Ezzilon”. I’m amazed by how vivid the picture on the album is. I’m thinking that we’ll phase outside through the window when I notice that Art’s reflection has changed and she now looks like a mix between herself and “Ezzilon”. It’s a surprising effect and as I’m turning to check for myself, the dream ends.

Well, a close-ish call with getting to the Pyramid and some fun play with a few new techniques. Still have a lot of refining to do!

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #168: Pyramid Artwork

I have a false awakening where I wake up excited about some video game idea. I’m desperate to write it down. I grab my dream journal, deciding that’s the best place I’ve got to write the idea down. This makes me think of dreaming, though, and I become lucid.

I walk toward the window, glancing over at the bed as I go. I see Wife sleeping peacefully on my side of the bed, and my sleeping body is nowhere in sight. I’m amused by the unusual layout and note that this is definitely not an OBE. I think about saying something to Wife as I pass but decide to just leave her alone.

I phase out through the external wall, winding up in the void. I imagine the scene as it should be, though, and after a few seconds it works itself into a convincing replica of my street at night. This gives me a nice confidence boost, so I imagine that the Great Pyramid is behind me. I turn around to find that it hasn’t worked, though, and it’s just more houses as far as I can see.

I’m feeling aggressive, though, so I use my fingers to draw a triangle in the distance. The triangle isn’t perfect, but it comes out in a shimmering neon green. With some focus, I’m able to slowly change the green outline into the distant Great Pyramid!

Seeing the Pyramid gives me a target to be excited about so I immediately attempt a zoom teleport. Something goes wrong, though, and the Pyramid actually gets further away rather than closer to me. This frustrates me and I start making a half-hearted attempt to fly there instead.

The scene resets somehow and I’m in a huge aircraft hangar. Okay, starting over. Again I go for the “draw a triangle” trick and I get a decent-looking triangle. I try to change it into the Pyramid but it stays stubbornly neon and triangular.

Several other attempts follow, including erasing and redrawing the triangle, chopping the top of it off and reforming it into a trapezoid, and drawing several copies at once. I can never quite make any of this work before the dream ends.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #167: In the Game

My friend “Leroy” and I are meeting with another programmer at a restaurant to discuss a video game design decision. We’re seated outdoors having an animated discussion about some finer point of the design of a first-person shooter video game.

The dream turns from a discussion of the concept into the three of us actually in the game, all armed with sci-fi style weaponry and fighting for our lives against some kind of menacing cyborgs.

There’s one particular boss character that can warp in from out of nowhere, making him especially dangerous. and we’re debating the best way to face him down. At first we talk about hunkering down somewhere kind of back to back, but in the end decide to get to higher ground and try to ambush him.

I believe on some level that this is a video game and as the three of us storm up a gently turning ramp, I marvel at the “graphics” of the game. I wonder how the game would look with lower graphical detail, and immediately everything looks pixellated and 90s. This is enough to make me realize that this is a dream.

I continue to the top of the ramp. Leroy is still with me but the other programmer has vanished. We’re in a high-ceilinged room with organic, alien-looking walls, perfect for the setting of the game we’re in. Everything feels far less threatening now and I feel sure that the cyborg isn’t coming after us any more.

My youngest son R (2 years old) is running around here. He runs into me, bounces off my leg, and goes sprinting happily away again. A girl from my oldest son’s class wanders by with her mother. She looks like she’s a couple of years older than IWL and her hair is twisted into an unusually long braid that encircles her head.

The girl takes R’s hand and begins leading him toward a downward ramp. I step in front of them and sort of herd them back onto the platform, feeling uneasy about them wandering off into the world of a first-person shooter. Then other kids start showing up, some that I recognize, others that I don’t. They start wandering in various directions and I fretfully start trying to keep everyone together.

It takes me a moment, but I finally realize that I need to just let this go. I watch as the kids wander off various directions. The girl with the braid leads R out of sight down a ramp. It feels strange to just let this happen, but I sense that if I just relax, everything will be all right. As the kids disperse all around me, the dream transitions into a false awakening in my bed.

I roll out of bed, grab my journal, and prepare to write down the dream. Just as I’m doing this, I hear my oldest son E shout over the baby monitor that “Daddy!! I! Need! Waterrrrrr!!” I put the journal down, hoping that I can remember the lucid dream for later, and head off to help E. I perform a few mundane steps of this before the dream ends.

00:00 Thursday 2013-11-28 (LD #10)

00:00 ? bedtime

03:06

1) riding on a skateboard down a wide, flat, smooth street. I'm going pretty fast and I really enjoy this sensation. Up ahead I see PJ in the distance. I'm on the very front tip of the skateboard. Visuals are very bright, vivid. I see my father walking under some trees up ahead, he seems young and happy. See also my mother off to the right.
04:25 no recall (recorded 03:00 waking dreams at this time, fell asleep at 03:06)
can't return to sleep. after 30 minutes get up to rocking chair, for about 20 minutes. Visualize parent's house and neighborhood, reinforce "I'm dreaming." Move to kitchen, make and drink warm milk. Sit there massaging jaw. Do some relaxing breaths. Decide I feel sleepy, return to bed and fall asleep in not too much time.

06:00 BTB

07:36 (alarm)

2) movie theater taxi driver money tatoo kicking buying snacks at table don't have enough cash in the store there's a security guard can't get by, think about eating it and putting it back on thes shelve, at a table with young people they're laughing I don't have enough change to buy the snacks, I empty my pockets including a chestnut, I say this chestnut is awesome it's worth lots of stuff, I'm missing just a few cents to buy the snacks, I have to back.
I'm at the top of a sandy hill, I turn around and see my wife is coming up behind me, I jump down the face of the sandy hill and slide/ski all the way down to the bottom near the water it's lots of fun, my wife laughs behind me watching, it feels awesome. Arrive on the beach near the water, my wife is behind me, I think it will be awesome to live near the beach and come here every day. There are strange plants around. Two inspectors arrive and are asking for paperwork I think they're after me because I haven't paid yet for the snacks They're harassing my wife I leave quickly to go pay and get receipts, I'm on the way back, I'm in a starnge tilted room, I see a very dirty priest walking from left to right behind me.
I go fowards now in a car open to the sky (like a top-down convertible), there's a bus, at an intersection, I'm in a hurry to get to pay for things, there's lots of traffic, the busses I see are very ornate, old 1950's style A/C transit buses, I'm confused/surprised by this.
I'm in a taxi with a bunch of other people, they're laughing, I'm in the back seat, some guy is pushing through to the right I'm trying to protect my place but he gets there. There are a bunch of movie theaters all around. I think what am I going to do at this movie theaters I should have stopped at an ATM. The driver starts driving and passing the theaters, I call out "stop stop let me off here." Driver makes some comment. I think I have no money for food how can I pay for the taxi? It turns out the fare is only a dime because it's the olden days. I think what sort of tip to give: nickel or penny?
I imagine the taxi driver takes these pennies and puts them in his pocket, and there's a hole at the bottom of in his pocket and the coin rolls down his leg into his shoe. The pennies are safe there but If he's really rolling in the dough the coins will make a lot of noise when he walks.
You don't mess with taxi drivers because they'll kick you so hard it will stop your development. I'm thinking about kids who have strange facial features because they're development is impaired and their different parts age at different rates. Taxi driver has tatoos all over his leg in green/blue, words.

Concentrated on relaxing: relaxing breaths, doing deeper and deeper into relaxation on every exhale, releasing tension, keep doing it, keep eyes relaxed and unfocused, and got back to sleep.

09:00 BTB for nap

10:12

3) in a dorm building looking for my room. I'm on the wrong floor because I've been in a different room. I'm studying with some loud (classical? opera?) music playing on a stereo. There was another guy in the room complaining that guys in the hallway were too noisy (playing violin?) he says he'll never be able to sleep he has to get up early. I'm in this room becaues I need to get up early, too. He asks me to go outside to talk to them and quiet them down. I say sure I put on my shirt and my shorts, he starts to go out, I say hey I'll do it but I have to put on my shorts first, he talks to them they say something about OK, I realize I'm playing loud music myself, I approach and old looking CD player and look for, find, and press the stop button. I'm flexing my muscles, in my underwear, windows open wide to the outside, I imagine girls in other dorms could be looking in.
Go into hallway looking for my room I want to tell my roommate where I am. I was in this other room for a night maybe two. I look into a room, there's an older guy and girl, they're RAs probably, older, he says, "Oh, Hi (my name)", and I'm amazed he knows my name, I'm not on his floor, he must know the name of everyone in the building. I say "sorry, forgot I was on the wrong floor," I go down some stairs still looking for my room, I pass an attractive girl going up the stairs, (I helped her with something?) she says something, make a brief connection, but continue on. Farther I see a french-looking female student with goggly eyes and I think "nah, not my type don't want to pay her any attention."
End up in a place with a weird old woman I think is my mother (no resemblance to real mother) and some other guy, "I don't like how things are around here, I like things the way I like them." Then she gets upset and starts saying "Oh, this is not the time to have this conversation not with this guy (our friend's name the man) over." I get a close up of her lower face and mouth. She has a weird thick beard on the neck under her chin, a thick bristly dark hitler-ish mustache under her nose, and is chewing a massive pile of gum in the left side of her mouth which is open. The gum looks like a piece of a cotton mop with individual strands. It's quite a disgusting sight. It's yucky.

12:14 Lucid Dream LD DILD #10

4) ... fair amount of prior ND detail I felt, but couldn't recall
Approaching a building, want to enter to get something, it has security. The security guy had blown someone else's head off with a shotgun that looks like a water cannon the kind that you extend out, fill up, then push the parts together, but this was a shotgun. Security guard is shooting at me, I'm leading him around corners , I try to time it so I go around the corner and wait for him to turn the corner so I can surprise him to shoot him.
I'm in a room, it's dark/night-time lying on a bed, there's a spider wafting towards me on a strand of web, I try to blow it away, blow blow blow it doesn't go far away, it climbs rapidly up its web towards the ceiling above me. Then there's another spider, and soon there are many rapidly multiplying juicy puffy-body squishy nasty spiders. They were freaking me out, I didn't want to squish them with my hands I was looking for something to over my hand like a glove so I could squish them they were everywhere and multiplying, more and more and more were appearing. They're growing to the size of large snails, sitting on the wall in lines. I get up to leave the room, and as I leave the room I stop in my tracks and do a double-take, and say "Wait a minute, this is like a dream, I must be dreaming" and I am lucid. It felt very realistic. I looked back into the room, it's day-time/light, there's a window looking outside. the spiders may be all gone, but I thrust my left hand forward and willed a bolt of fire from my left hand on to the floor in the room. It appeared and was 1/2 translucent and made nothing burn but I saw the bolt. I tried to shoot lightning bolt but nothing happened. Did another fire blast. Went back in to the room and thought "stabilize." Rubbed my hands together, counted to 5, then patted up and down my body with my hands: chest, stomach, legs. I looked down at my body and I saw my naked chest and stomach. I saw my underwear and reach down to have a look inside, "It's going to be big" I think, it turns out to be normal sized. It seems a bit greasy like there was lotion on it. Everything is *really* realistic.
I'm in this bedroom, then I go outside. It's like a garden path in an apartment complex, lots of tall plants off the path. Lush vegetation. A swimming pool complex comes up on the left. Some people (3 girls?) are leaving it. I think "oh don't leave the pool!" (I'm looking for a hottie). There's a gate, I enter the pool area. I'm looking for a cute female, everyone I come across is not attractive / old. I tell myself "I'm dreaming, remember, you're dreaming, I'm dreaming." I walk more into the pool area. I do a RC at this point because I start to wonder if I'm dreaming because everything is so life-like, the people and the grounds. Check hands, they are not bizarre like last time, fingers were stable but longer than in life, and a little bit translucent. I'm pretty sure I'm dreaming and nose pinch confirms it solidly. "OK, I'm dreaming" I say. Looking at a woman off to the right, look at some people in the pool off to the left, I go and look at them, I'm not finding anyone to my taste, then I think "Hey what am I doing? Just summon!" So I did a hand-behind-the-back summon of PT. I put my right hand behind my back, say "PT, take my hand!" wait a few seconds, and slowly pull my hand around to the front (didn't feel a solid hand connection), and there is PT! I looked at her and said, "Yeeeeaaah, you're PT!" Face may not have been precise but height/age/general look was right. I tried to kiss her, she didn't want to. I look into her face and say, "You want it!" Then move to kiss her. Her face became flat and her lips were thin/unsatisfying/unresponsive, I must have closed my eyes, and I fade to awake.

Half-hearted attempt to DEILD back in but don't make it, didn't really try very hard. I may have moved. Wanted to record because I felt like I started to forget, in fact I at first didn't recall the body-pat stabilisation and dream body inspection.
Elapsed time: ~4-5 minutes. Longest or tied for longest LD so far. Definitely most visually vivid/realistic. No dream fuziness at all, this is first time I had a touch of doubt in the middle of the dream because of realistic visuals. Maybe also because it was a bit longer than the others. Patting the whole body, bringing my dream body into my vision, produced very stable and vivid visuals. Didn't look around as much as I had planned to. First time see dream body. Dream body is a bit leaner / in better shape than now . My younger self.
Dream in S2's bed, LD on right side.
My relaxation technique works! Relax, don't try to WILD or force sleep, relax, unfocus eyes, release tension from body on every exhale, go deeper and deeper into relaxation on every exhale, don't "come back up higher" on inhales. The drowsiness/sleepiness feeling came on immediately upon the exhale of the relaxing breath at both the 09:00 BTB and 10:12 waking. Probably could have kept on dreaming but it's Thanksgiving and I had to shop for dinner.
Happy that I performed most of practiced new stabilization: body pat, look at body, count to 5.

#245 - DEILD - 7:23AM

I have a really long dream about riding a white horse in a field at night. I am riding bare back and take it slow at first. Then I get some nerve and decide to run but every time I held on by hugging the horses neck it would slow down. Finally I take it into a crappy and confusing barn. I lose the horse for a minute and find it curled up sleeping in a small cage on a shelf. I say something about how sleepy it must have been. A woman shows up and asks, rather apologetically, if she scared me. I thought she was being weird since I showed no signs of being scared at all. I say something about the horse and how small it looks. The woman says its just tired from supporting all my weight. I look at her funny wondering if that was a fat joke. She's bigger than I am.

I half wake up or maybe it was just an FA. I feel like I am in that halfway point and there are mild vibrations. I partially open my eyes and see my wife is gone. (True she went to work) I focus on the vibrations and they get stronger. I falter and almost don't do it but then I tell myself I should just go for it. I slowly roll over to get out of bed. I note how I can feel my feel my sleeping body not moving but I can also feel my dream body easily moving. At that point I decide to just quickly stand up.

I get up and go into the living room. I am a little surprised how vivid and stable the dream is. I rush to the front door and open it. I feel like I am just in my underwear but try to ignore it. There are beautiful huge piles of fall coloured leaves along the street with piles of pumpkins. I note how curious this is but pause because I remember my goal to look at my tattoo in the mirror. I go back in the living room to the large mirror above the couch. When I look I see my face looks fairly normal but my tattoo looks small and stupid. Its basically three main lines forming a bird's head. I look closely and trace the lines with my finger to remember it.

The sound of my son's waking and crying jolts me out of the dream.

Fragment:

There was a Dream Views book with all my posted dream printed in color on quality paper. It see my avatar and start reading but its all gibberish. I think they could have at least edited all my typos.

#244 - DILD
I get to bed early at 7:30pm! This is a weak LD but I am going to count it considering how random and aidless it was.

1:26am

I am driving some place and my wife calls me. She leads me to my old house that I lost during my divorce and bankruptcy. I pull into the driveway and go in. She is there and tells me that she was able to buy it. I spend some time talking to her about it and at one point to go ahead and do a nose plug. I blow through but I am not sure this is right. I do a second nose plug and know this only happens in dreams. I am so happy about her getting my house back and my wife still talking so much that become too distracted to think about this much.

We talk some more and my wife tells me that the payments are only $166. This seems like it's too good to be true so I ask how that can be. I ask her about insurance and taxes. I hope that the actual payments somehow match what we are used to. I say, "You must have got one hell of an interest rate."

As if she suddenly gets an idea, she say, "I did!" We go on to talk about this some more but I am not totally convinced. I feel something is off. She says, "I don't know. I just showed up with $800 down and was able to buy it."

I ask, "Where did you just get $800 without me noticing?" She gives no reply. In fact, she has gone brain dead like so many of my DC's in past. I think this has to be a dream but I am so hopeful this is all somehow true that I chose to ignore this. I wonder if she donated plasma to save the money.

As if she read my mind, my wife says, "I donated plasma to save up the $800." I think this is my own thought and must be a dream. Again, I don't want to believe this. I begin to wonder how all of this is possible. The last I knew, someone bought this house. How did the lose it so fast? Is this house cursed? The people before me got divorced and sold it. I got divorced and lost it. Maybe the people after me got divorced too. I don't want to end that way again. I resolve that whatever the curse well will break it.

I am lying in a bed cuddling with my wife. I tell her how happy I am about all of this. I look out the window and see two giant wild boars. I say, "Look! Boars! One looks like it has a turtle shell on it's back. "Turtle pigs?" I look closer and see that the one that I thought was a turtle actually has a box on its back. The dream fades and I wake up.

I am really pissed that it wasn't real!

I feel wide awake and decide to have a mini WBTB and SSILD

4:34AM

Some guy sees a huge storm brewing on radar in South Africa.

The scene skips to him in South Africa. He is standing on a hillside watching an enormous storm roll in. There is thunder and lightning. He is worried about this being something on a global scale.

This is a man surfing as the storm rolls in. He is taking advantage of the huge waves. I feel as if I am in the barrel roll with him. Suddenly the wave stops and there is a wall of waving clear light or maybe it is a water probe like in the Abyss. It is coming for him. He puts the board up in protection but a tendril juts forth and pokes holes in it. There is a wall of air to the left. It seems like atmosphere. A voice says something about "to the ends of the Earth".

Suddenly, I am in a mall that is just off the beach. I know the wall of.. energy?.. Is coming. Everyone is panicking and looting. I pause at some store and pocket some cheap jewellery. The shop owner sees me but lets me go. I pass an actual jewellery store but it has been cleaned out. I mentally kick myself for missing that one. There are some thuggish looking dude walking off with a chest full of jewellery. I feel envious of them.

Suddenly, I become lucidly aware. I look around and notice the bright colors of the mall. It looks similar to the Children’s Hospital in Kansas City. A random woman pass by me and wonders off into a hallway. I remember my simple goal to observe my tattoo on a mirror. I look around and see some Whack-A-Mole game near a wall with a mirror. I think this is good enough and walk towards it slowly. My breathing is way too fast and I feel excited. I feel that I must concentrate to hold the dream together. The walk other there is taking way too long and the dream fades.

I have a false awakening and begin to DJ with a black sharpie and a scrap of paper. I struggle to write the first sentence of my dream until I actually wake up. I do a nose plug to be sure.

00:00 Saturday 2013-11-23
00:35 bedtime.
05:31
1) In a car on a city street driving towards downtown O. Not sure how I got here, a bit surprised, did I take a wrong exit from the freeway? I see the tall buildings a mile or two directly ahead of me. I want to get to B, so I turn right on S. avenue, because S avenue after all is a cool street.
I'm eating some stuff and getting full. I see a Jack in the Box up ahead on the left, and think "Oh man I have to get myself a monster taco, and maybe a strawberry milkshake" but I know it will be too much food. There's another fast food place right next door to the right of the JIB but I don't recognize it's name/sign.
I pull up to the drive-through and there are a lot of people standing around, employees taking orders. There's young boy writhing on the ground in pain by the drive-through menu on the grass. Liquid is spurting high in the air out of his back. There's an EMT tech is rolling the boy on the ground, (like a rolling pin), not trying to treat him, until he dies. They put him in a body bag and take him away.
There's a show with Sen. John McCain he's talking about this boy and how outraged he is, he says "you think your children are safe and they'll try to save them but they don't actually try to save you they'll do a million different things that could be wrong." He says "I saw that liquid spurting out of the boy and I didn't know what that stuff is, maybe it's some sauce I put on this piece of bread here (and eat it), or what?" The audience explodes in uproarious laughter to this. I'm outraged because it's a horrible thing to joke about.
I'm walking with my wife, she asks what the laughter is all about, I say it's just John McCain making a terrible statement.
Long time getting back to sleep. Eventually focus exclusively on relaxing, not "getting back to sleep." I let go of my frustration about distractions from sharing a bed with my wife, start spooning with her, and cultivate feelings of love, warmth, and comfort. I then fairly quickly fall to sleep and have the next LD while still holding her in my arms .
07:39 LUCID #9 DILD
2) TV park, old neighborhood. I'm standing on the middle level, with my back to the swings, near the foot of the hill. There's a low coffee table in front of me on the ground. I notice a cloaked figure at the top of the slide by the street, back facing to the park. "I'm dreaming," I realize immediately. I hop over the coffee table, facing towards the merry-go-round. It is half dark, twilight. I say "LET THERE BE LIGHT!" with my arms raised upwards. Visuals instantly vanish, and I'm left in a half-lit void, kind of like insides of the eyelids in a light area. I call to "NN" to pull me out of back into the dream but it doesn't work. I slowly wake up.
12:30 BTB nap
14:23
3) Golf
Watching some guys play golf. We're on a hill, the players have to hike down a bit to the tee below us on the hill. He hits a ball and it flies towards the green in the distance. There are helpers on the green, they mark the landing place of the balls. This guy's ball lands just inside a small sand trap off of the green. A later shot goes to my mother who's in some water like a tub or pool in a different place, she's sitting in an innertube that also holds the hole for the golf ball, as the ball rolls towards the hole, some guys shake the inner tube and the ball misses the hole and my mother is upset about this, she says "if you're going to do that, (other stuff)".
4) graffiti
In the mountains, around my favorite lake (U), I notice graffiti on some rocks. I look at it closely, it is made up of unrecognizable glyphs in multiple colors and they morph shape as I look at them. There is a tag right in front of me, and another one way up a steep slope that is very dangerous to climb, a large promontory with a far drop all around the edges. I imagine we'll have to rig a rope somehow so that someone can climb up there and clean off the tag.
F1) Video gaming console, it lets you play basketball, there's a special external attachment of a hoop and sensor, it measures the baskets you make. I imagine setting it up in a backyard, it would have to be set up securely with a wooden platform so you could shoot basketballs at it and it wouldn't fall over.

Night of November 27, 2013. Wednesday.







Beautiful visions of rocks and stones rising up from the ground, from under layers of sand, changing the surface of the world many times over. It is a very clear perception, and I also feel seeming changes in my body towards a more “uniform” energy, a more relaxed state, far less muscle tension. The sand flows through the large rising rocks in the manner of a beautiful waterfall. Entire continents come and go throughout time. The falling sands seem to “sing”. At one point, a rhinoceros stands over me, nodding “her” head and snorting (I seem to be lying on my back at that point). She seems to be “angry” that I am not a rhinoceros and yet somehow found my way into the “rhinoceros collective consciousness”(?) into “her dream”. I do not feel threatened at all and start laughing uncontrollably, as I am the only male she can “contact” at that point and find the situation hilarious. She “scolds” me a bit by grunting in a friendly manner and waddles off, seemingly frustrated.

Later, I am near a lake where the banks are filled with organic debris. It is a very peaceful awareness even though my environment seems to be continuously changing (recurring), often seemingly related to time going by swiftly or perhaps “alternate universe” shifts. For a time, it looks like a covered (roofed) picnic area with room for about four picnic tables, but time seems to be moving fairly rapidly. I am aware of a man talking to a group of people for a very short time; perhaps a family reunion or perhaps a seminar, but then they are all gone and mostly all I see is old, rotting wood and detritus, which has “equal importance” as the meeting of people, perhaps more. (Around this time, there are also suggestions of a possible scene aboard Noah’s Ark.) I see various “people” having weddings in elaborate boats or just enjoying a trip over the water, but they seem more like higher archetypes or composite beings of higher human qualities. I see one moving towards me from the other side of the lake. The canoe-like boat also has some sort of unusual structure somewhat like a trellis.

The location seems to shift slightly. I am looking at a very large cauldron over a large fire. It is untended and fairly close to the lake. There are no other signs of man-made aspects of any kind on the land at this point. The cauldron, over time, goes through several unusual changes. Firstly, it is changing more into something like some sort of large round boulder that is continuously going through changes with vein-like patterns rapidly growing over it, somewhat like rust (and at one point - it almost looks like a “perfect” combination of rust and ash over the surface - again, moving like “live, growing veins” and then dissipating), but I am aware that it is mostly some sort of localized rock-cycle event. At one point, it looks like “pseudo-circuitry”; that is, a pattern of minerals and form that coincidentally looks much like wiring or a circuit-board but is wholly coincidental (I can randomly make various types of images that are similar). There is then a sort of moss-snowflake-crystal-grain-small-stone texture that grows and dissolves on the large stone in vein patterns and overall fractal-like form. (It is at least four-feet high or more.)

Eventually, I see that it is actually the planet Earth in miniature, or within a different dimension of observation. I see Gondwanaland and other protocontinents (but none of the ones people like to promote so often in New Age propaganda). Over time, I actually become aware that the appearance is Earth as it is now. Soon, I carefully watch as continents move back into each other over many thousands of years. Civilizations rise and fall. It happens a few more times before everything grows dark, yet glowing-ember-like, very beautiful.

A sense of appreciation and beauty continues throughout even though billions of living beings just blink into existence and out again, the energy recycling and splitting up into various forms, no reincarnation (which certainly could not explain the seven billion people on Earth and the exponential population increase anyway), just energy forms transforming endlessly in the same manner as the water cycle, the rock cycle, the nitrogen cycle, and many others. Even the embers eventually move on into another state, perhaps within a “protouniverse” or being the origin of such.

There was a dream where I was at some sort of island theme park. It was supposed to be pretty scary. I was with Nguyen and a few other people. We stayed there for a while. There were a few of the higher ups frying there as well for some reason.
There was a pretty intense part of the park, probably one of the three parts of the park where you get toured around by some clown looking guy, and randomly throughout the ride he would go crazy and you have to calm him down in order to progress without anyone having to be taken. It was a very intense and somewhat scary ride. There was a whole fiasco with who I was staying with and the clown. They didn't look like the clown from it, but they somewhat did. The face paint on the one clown would change color when he went insane during the ride.
Watson was there with us, and he ordered a bunch of video games to the park address but he wasn't there to pick them up the next day because he was probably missing or something.
Then I went with some of the higher ups from my work from the park to another part which was in a house hotel area where my grandma and aunty were staying. There were a few interesting things that happened there and then I got a ride with them back to the park. There was another part of the dream that involved them and my work more heavily but its pretty hazy.
I get back to the park and have a pretty intense moment where an entire hall of people turn into the clown looking things, it was kind of scary but moreso just intense and in tents. I end up finding out why the clown was so crazy though when I try to escape from the park one night through a flashback.
In a past life the clown was in fact a starfish whose daughter starfish got destroyed by the waves and rocks and environment. Life is hard for other creatures. He dragged her to a place near the ocean and rocks where he could sort of protect her and try to help her heal, because starfish can heal relatively easily. He ends up turning into a large barnacle to protect her. I just remember intense feelings of sympathy for the clown starfish barnacle, and it all made sense why he was so angry to me at the time. Then the dream ended.
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There is a pretty major dream, kinda vivid, where at the end of it, we end up somewhat around Las Vegas celebrating something and a small cruise turns into a large extravagant one.. It seemed to be around Hawaii because there were huge boats and also F15's in the water that we were all riding. It was an amazing celebration There was some production as to why it was being recorded as well. I think it was after work in my dream. I had a feeling that I had never seen this before even though I am from Hawaii.
I cant recall the rest of the dream as of right now.
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an extensive dream about me, Nguyen, Scott and my Catholicism teacher as well as all the people in my weekend catholic school as we go out, learn, and get into hi jinx. we end up having some lessons I forget which kind. Then I end up talking to my friend Nguyen, as we need Halloween costumes... We go to a mall and we buy two nun costumes that pull away into other costumes like party boy. we the go to our catholic class via shuttle, where we meet my friend scott, who has now turned into a douche for some reason and feeds me some bs story about how he had moved or seen his house where his mom and him used to live where he was beaten by his dad as an excuse for being a douche. He slaps an old man on the face in the subway.
then we go back to class after trying to figure out what we re going to eat for lunch as we cant decide, we almost don't have lunch.
At class there are many people i know. It is held on the top floor of some building in a city like pearl city. we talk and our teacher seems like an asshole. I see some of my cousins in my class and one of them is singing a song by Die Antwoord. I am pressured by the teacher to see if I am going to volunteer for whatever thing they had going on the next day, which I was hesitant to do because I had no clue. Then we went on with our lives after the class and having decided that I wouldn't go on this excursion the next day, as I still want to have a weekend. Then the dream ends.
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I go to a convenience store with my mom and sister and Martinson. We get into a small confrontation.
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Had a WILD. Went into SP then got woken up by a little boy. Room was small. He said "she" wanted to see me. Went to see a somewhat scary dream lady that I turned into my memere. I decided I wanted to get away at that point so I fell through the ground into a backyard. There was a few trees and dogs there. Pretty vicious dogs but I love them so I let them bite me. I go into another scene where its a beautiful open field and I fly around. The weather is so nice, and there's pine trees. The weather gets darker and on top of a hill I see Kim Jong Un. I fly away to a desert area where the world gets like runescape and I think im in WoW. I start to walk around the crowded halls. I have a movie like vision of two girls in the town. Sisters.
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Had a crazy dream where We were travelling across country with a bunch of people, some high school classmates and whatnot and we went to a very high class party. There were a lot of drugs and debauchery going on at this party. That was pretty much the extent of it.
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Had a dream where i was in my old house and every night a demon dog would come and try to harm us but we would hold it back.
Had another dream where a dog used a paint brush in its mouth to paint a large canvas in the back yard
Had another dream where we were all staying at my cousins house and we were going to have a huge pot luck. Some of the people that I work with were there such as Lawson and Harris.
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Bunch of awesome dreams last night. Had one where I was going through some sort of fun house where some somewhat evil things popped out at you and it was a test of whether you could handle them all. Spirits and stuff would try to enter your body. After I got out of there I went up to this other place and saw my aunty who turns out was taken over somewhat by these evil things. Then I woke up in a somewhat military barracks where we all had bunk beds. They said it was code red mopp 4 because the room was painted red.
Then I had some other dreams which were all very vivid. After flying around in one of them because I knew that I was lucid, I tried to conjur something, but for some reason it wasn't working. I also toured my aunty around because I knew that she was taken over by demons. When I got tired of the dream I fell through the floor to see where I could go to next.
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Had a dance battle with Nguyen just while i was taken over by the grim reaper who actually looked like a muppet. I was part of an organization that was housing a girl child that its members were keeping her hostage because she was the key in unleashing the Old Ones. There was a jerk at the head of the organization now who basically runs things in the background Me and a bunch of my real life co workers were all a part of this organization. He tried to get all of our contacts through each other by forcing us to give him our contacts but some refused.
Had another dream where I went to a mall with some friends, but it wasn't a huge mall. I tried to impress my friends with a display of acrobatic skill by jumping all over the place in the mall and doing some cool stuff. There was an upper area in the mall which was a sort of play area which was like a rotating skating rink but instead was a moving platform that span and you had to run with it and try not to fall off of it because it was very high in the air.
Had another dream where I was back at home and for some reason my dad was there as well as my mom. My dad basically took over my moms room and my mom was left to stay in the living room, which was weird because it was her house. There were quite a few interesting dreams this past week and this past night The most interesting was the one where we were part of an organization that was corrupt and there was a figure head that was a little child who was a mere pawn in the whole thing.