lucid

2 nights ago i dreamed something like i was in my neighborhood alone and scared of something..Keep running (small distance) untill getting home. I remember that i knew why I was running. Something chased me, it was like a demon.I runned 'till my home and then just runned all home from him because i didn't knew how to contra-atack him. After this it all was cleared, i was like in a white room,all white when like ...my inner-side appeared and told me how to defeat the demon but it was not like a fizical atack, it was more like mentaly. Anyway i was not scared anymore and after i woke up. Sorry for so less details , i couldn't quite remember all things. What does this means?

I remember waking up in my room. It was awfully dark, but I could make up a shape on the computer chair to my right. It appeared to be crouching upon the seat and moving slightly, but it was there. A snarl came from that direction, and as my eyes adjusted to the dark, wild messy hair and a face darkened underneath. It gave me a sense of fear and uneasiness. This creature slid down from the computer chair onto the floor, and I could almost expect it to either climb at my bedside, or wait to grab a part of my body near the edge. It didn't take too long for the sensation of fear to end though.

Before I knew it, there was a neutral feel to this whole thing and I was calm. A light shined beneath my back. It wasn't exactly warm, but comforting enough to make the fear vanish. Blue wings sprouted from my back, but I can't really describe them. They were out of my sight, except for blue. I was then aware that this was a dream, and I was protected. I had nothing to fear and I could vanquish this creature if I needed to. It was fine to simply step out of the bed and walk around my room, knowing the creature was either under my bed or somewhere at my feet, but I wasn't afraid. This was just a dream after all and I had my wings and burning light it feared.

Dream recall from today's WBTB/naps.

Dream 1(fragment):

Something about piloting some craft.

Dream 2(fragment):

Something about dragons.

Dream 3(fragment):

Some shmup boss fight.

Dream 4:

I try to do DEILD but it fails but then i try for WILD and soon transition occurs and FA fades into my view. I get up but it"s very unstable, it's hard to stand and navigate, i try to stabilize but that doesn"t works, then i switch to quadruped stance and go towards balcony door. I try to break through but whole unstability makes me just bounce away. I notice weird mechanism on the wall and there are a few clocks on it, i pick two and one of them is at 4h and another is at 8h, dream fades.

Dream 5(fragments):

i was browsing dreamviews and there were weird spammy posts around.

Date: 11 Nov

Pre bed: 200mg val

Wbtb: 1/3 latte

I remember the previous dream and then from the middle/extended end of this one.

DILD: I am now on some unknown streets, it's a bright day. There is a plot going on, but I also know that I am dreaming. A girl maybe school age is my companion and this guy is waiting to meet us? in the middle of the street. I have the feeling that the dream is coming to an end, so move around quickly and try to absorb as much as possible.

I go in a small store where they sell clothes, but these clothes have special magical properties, like they can change your shape and turn you into animal. I feel the guy is waiting for me outside, so decide to ignore the magic items and go look for him. But when I do go out, the entire street has changed and he is no longer there. I am sad that I missed him. I remember trying to call him to come back but no result. I shortly contemplate whether to go back to the store. What was I supposed to do? Meet someone?

The girl from the earlier part now comes from somewhere and I finally remember that I was supposed to ask a question. At this point there is the realization that I had many chances to do so, yet always forgot to. I take it slow and ask the question - what are you thankful for, and become all ears, trying not to influence her answer. She opens her mouth and only some gibberish comes out, I can't make any word from that. I ask her again and she starts laughing maniacally. That pisses me off because I still expect to hear a normal answer. In the end she blurts out: "Are you deaf or what?". Her eyes seem quite lively but I have no explanation for this behavior.

Once again, I get the feeling that the dream is thinning out and look around wondering what to do and where to go. I remember that I wanted to go for Toty, but feel like this is the end of the journal entry where one finally figures out what to do at the moment the dream ends. I reckon the dream won't allow for any Toty completion at this point, so try to make the most of whatever dream time is left and look around. It's the like the main shopping street of a small town and for some reason, the area (I can't recall if it was) between stores or a mini street where I can see is more sun-lit, it looks extremely appealing to me and I decide to go there.

I know that I am on borrowed dream time and I try to take in whatever the dream offers. It's a small park type of pond, mostly dried out, but in one end is an indescribable large fountain with lots of jets beautifully arranged around the center. It undergoes some sort of transformation to become like the shape of a large oak tree made of ice. The texture is like a mix of slowly flowing fountain water and ice.

I look around and notice how on the surface of the dried out pond now there are scattered small pieces of ice and can see the reflection of the sunlight in each one, it's amazing. And as I scan the surroundings, I notice my special friend sitting near the other end of the pond. He is looking down, as if reading a book and I call out his name. He sees me and comes closer. Meanwhile, I notice that I am chewing a stupid gum and spit it out, but can still feel it in my mouth, ignore. In the last moments I manage to steal from this dream, we hug and try to ice-skate on the surface of the pond, towards the ice oak tree. The alarm wakes me up, recall is hard.

11/25/13 10:35AM
I already got sleep, so I'm sure this is why this happen. I was reading bout ppl's LDs in bed than decided to sleep a little more without intentions of LDing or anything. I just had SP but like in the dreamworld I guess I'm in a room that looks like mines but not really but i'm stuck in the bed and all I can do is barely toss and turn while like breathing hard. Than I have a FA still in bed with SP I try to move but same barely can only move in bed and something is attacking me. I hear like a roar and it's attacking my thigh, it hurts. It ends and I have another FA/SP I guess, again in what looked like my room but not really but this time I see my covers are brown instead of blue and out the corner of my eye I see someone in a wedding dress which I guess was a mannequin because a mannequin hand slowly stretches towards me, which freaks me out a bit. I try moving but my body and limbs feel so heavy and it's very hard to move. That mannequin hand continues to stretch more and more but very slowly, I eventually managed to get out the bed but my eyes are still glued to that hand while I'm trying to put my feet in my addidas slides lol. Since my body is so heavy and I move slow, I give in by reaching for the mannequin's hand. I grab her hand, expecting to feel a plastic hand but instead I feel as if I'm clenching my covers. Now finally awake in my bed with my eyes close and that same hand I used is in fact clenching my covers lol. That felt so real!

Dream recall from today's WBTB/naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

There was some story, main character was talking to some weird characters, including deformed portrait, and then went on some quest. He was carrying a glowing weapon and started exploring some pyramid shaped crypts and a small dragon was following him around.

Dream 2:

I was watching someone streaming space rangers 2 and there were some weird quests for getting items. Player had to combine some items from various planets, gotten via trade, to get quest items. One of compinations was bathroom + water, and it made soap(so random). Also there was some draconic race in game that player talked with a couple of times.
Then i wake up and try to DEILD, but with no result, but then as i get off the bed i feel that i am dreaming but it fades out quickly.(I am actually not sure if i actually woke up or if it was FA from the start)

Dream 3(fragment):

Was watching some videos.

I dreamed that C lived here, and I was living with him. My mother had also moved here. The place C had was pretty nice, but I was irritated because he was ignoring me. I was thinking of moving in with Mom, but my brother was already living with her, and the place was pretty crowded. At first, Mom lived somewhere niceish, with cool painted/tiled ceilings, but then she moved somewhere less nice with more rooms. It had ugly leaves painted on the walls and ceilings (the walls were a gross yellow, the paintings were brown). I couldn't live alone, because I didn't have enough money to.

At some point, I was riding the train downtown, and I realized I was dreaming. I tried to fly through the ceiling but got "stuck" and had what I believe was a FA. Then the apartment dream (from above) started up again from where it left off.

11/24/13 * ~1145 ~340 wbtb mild+ssild (not meant to be done in the same wbtb at least when learning ssild) sexy strip game turns into incredibly sensual and realistic feeling at times threesome with wife and a very supple skinned blonde woman// I am in a good sized rectangular shaped room with about a dozen or so people and there is some sexy strip game that I either don't know the rules to or have forgotten them since waking and there is one very beautiful but very very game "monkey in the middle" a beautiful blonde woman with delicate features, smallish but beautifully formed breasts who has slowly been losing one item of clothing after another. She has a small wrap around her waste covering the last little bit. Something happens and she loses that last piece covering her and she seems to be loving it. Someone informs me that I am next. I already have my shirt off and I look over to my wife and ask something like "what am I allowed to do with her?" she looks like she is not sure what to say. I tell my wife "all I want to do is feel my skin up against hers" and I go for it. I lay down with her and her skin is so incredibly soft. My wife says "let me get on top" and we somehow partly meld together and I realize I am dreaming (took this long??) and I am already completely naked and I begin to (I will put the rest in a spoiler as it could read X-rated with a little imagination of the specific details that I left out)

Spoiler for sexual content:

have intercourse with the blonde while I - lets just say perform oral - on my wife's p...primary sexual region. After a while I pull back and offer up my now re-exposed member and they both begin to perform oral on me

and it feels incredibly realistic, I can't get over how incredible it feels despite being "just a dream!" and I slowly feel my awareness returning to my sleeping body and attempt to re-enter that dream and at some point I somehow re-emerge in a dark parking lot surrounded by a chain-link fence and apparently not lucid and don't seem to have any memory of the lucid previously as I am naked and I am concerned with pulling my pants on but they are incredibly tight. I am guessing this started as a false awakening. I barely get my pants on before a couple of kids pass by but they are lost in their own conversation thankfully. Slowly people of all ages start flowing into the parking lot and I get the feeling that it is a church parking lot and the sun is getting ready to come up and these people are on the way to church (a little dose of shame on me perhaps). One man is saying to I assume the wife that I think that is the same guy except he was wearing brown or green or something. I wake up and I quickly go back to the previous dream and I am just so exhilarated and the pep in my step is still going as I finally post this. I had another interesting dream before this, but probably only interesting to me. Up maybe an hour after not getting back to sleep after writing down the above in my paper journal and had a snack. I also briefly got lucid in a late morning nap but I don't think it deserves counting and was low awareness. It felt more like a late and 2nd wbtb than a nap so I don't even want to call it a lucid nap. I remembered some more dreams after this but this whole night solidified the idea that although my lucidity increases late in the morning if I start going too much beyond 8 hours my lucidity starts waning again.

#243 - SSILD

3:00am (alarm for WBTB)

I am at Patrick and Jessie’s house with my wife. We are all talking about the 50th anniversary episode of Doctor Who. Then a bunch of people start making a Dalek formation on the floor I join in and become the head. I put a arm out for the "eye". I look at my wife standing there and ask if she is going to take a picture.


3:56am

I am working on some cables at work on the overhead boards. I check lengths on some woods boards and pass them off to someone. I pick up a stack of pink paperwork but they look like some type of black ink has been spilled on them with areas that have been bleached out. I realize that I am dreaming but for some reason I think that I can't do that now since I am at work and I lose all lucidity.

The scene turns into a party at some fancy mansion and I see a younger and slimmer version of Jana in some kind of cop costume. In fact everyone is in costume. Jana looks at me a poses with a grand gesture at her body. Yeah I get it. Your slim. She then walks over to some women and begins flirting with them. I wonder if they know she is a lesbian.

Then Justin walks in the front door in some type of Phantom of the Opera costume but the mask looks like a Cyberman. He sings something to some nearby people and wonders off into the main room. I get the idea that I must be dreaming but I wake up.

4:49AM

I am at work and decide that I am dreaming. I don't really have that dawning realization but I actually decide that I want to be dreaming. I only remember thinking that all these work dreams must be because I've been working so much overtime. I lose lucidity.

I am in my house doing something... I don't know what. Again I decide I want to be dreaming. At first I think it might just be HI because after my last waking at 3:56am I wanted to WILD. But no, this seems a little more than that and I accept it as a dream.

I look around and notice my house. My vision is blurry but notice how my house looks like a blend between my normal house and something that I think of as an apartment. After a moment, I decide to go outside. I reach the front door and notice the door knob is at the top. There are dark yellow opaque panes of glass on either side of the door. I concentrate and expect a door knob in the proper place. When I look again its there but it wont turn. I blindly reach for a dead bolt and turn it. The door opens.

Again the area looks like waking life with a blend of something unfamiliar. Gravity becomes light and I begin taking long slow jumps into the air. I begin to giggle like a kid enjoying the feeling. After several jumps I begin making a swimming motion in the air and start to actually fly. I move above the tree line and lose my reference point. I get a feeling of vertigo and all I see is light blue sky and dots of green. I will myself back down. Once I feel myself touch the ground my vision returns to normal. I decide to settle for bouncing around more than flying.

I am in a wooded area with open-walled sheds that have old corrugated tin roofs. I jump to the roof tops and bounce from building to building. That's when I begin to think about several goals I have. I pick the first one I think of: China. I look forward and notice that I seem to be in a mountainous area heading up a steep rocky hill where the building are built into. There is a long structure jutting out of one the buildings on the hill; It looks like a conveyor belt with an enormous valve at the end. My first thought is that must be some type of grain mill. It all looks familiar and I think of something from Fallout. I don't pay too much attention to it because I want to get over this hill and use expectation to make it to the great wall. A huge tree is in front of me and the branches cover me. At the top of the hill I see a train passing by. I find this curious and begin to float toward it. Unfortunately, I get hung up on one of the branches and can't seem to escape. I feel like a helium balloon with no way to control my flight. I look back at the train and notice a thick wall of trees that stand impossibly high. I realize that I must not only reach the train but fly over the giant wall of trees. The task feels impossible and I give up.

I have some wakefulness at this point and stay up for about 45 min before returning to bed.

#6:35AM

I am in some house with a door that wont close properly. I think it must need vents. My dog daisy is whining from some place in the room but I can't find her. I go outside and my wife has put several animals in a large rabbit cage. I expect to see ferrets but they look odd and hairless. There are also a few sugar gliders curled up in hammocks with several white birds perched on wooden dowels. I shrug at the sight and laugh to myself as I walk back in the house. I think we probably need to find a place inside before it gets cold. I pause at the back steps. Something isn't right it should be cold. I become aware of the temperature but notice its not hot or cold. Well, it's still fall but we should probably do something soon. I look down and realize I grabbed something from the trash can that is next to the cage. I have a bag of old rotten potatoes. I smell it and it's pretty foul. Instead walk all the way back to the trash, I hurl the bag toward it, missing. Close enough. I walk inside.

There is a pretty open floor plan and the kitchen and living room are pretty much the same room. I feel like my hands are dirty so I wash them in the sink. There is blood and I notice cuts on my hands. Two of my fingers are missing halfway. I franticly pray, "OH DEAR JESUS NO. PLEASE NO!" I take my hand out of the water and take a closer look. My hands are fine. I relax and think I must be losing my mind.

I hear my dad laughing and turn around to see him watching some comedian on TV. He keeps telling me that it's not funny. I ask him, "Then why are you laughing?" I walk around a partition to relax in a recliner while I listen for his reply.

I hear him say, "Well it was, but they lost me at..."

I wake up.

Morning of November 24, 2013. Sunday.



My wife and I are on a large, old brick bridge with arches, seemingly running north and south and likely in Wisconsin. It is very cold and in the middle of winter (although in real life here, it is unbearably warm). I make it so that the large winter jacket I am wearing goes around her so that she is able to put her right arm through the right sleeve while my right hand holds her left hand (my left arm still being in the left sleeve). We are then “wearing the same jacket” and also embrace so that we are fully inside the jacket after zipping it up effortlessly. After a short time, we slowly float down from the bridge onto the iced-over surface of a lake or river. There is a feeling of great love and joy. There seems to be a vague plan to eventually see my best friend Toby T as we go north into the city and we sort of half-walk, half-float to get there.

Date: 7/22/2013

Ran with kids. Twilight dawn. Manapla. We flew to the skies. West. Sun is coming. I began to fall slowly. Flapped my arms to fly higher. The kids are feather falling. Some are already on the ground. I flew higher and higher. Above the trees. I passed by a house on the higher parts of the tree. I knocked on the door but flew on. I saw the fields below. I thought Manapla.landed slowly near Kasantolan.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #166: The Melatonin Tunnels

I'm walking along an underground tunnel that looks a bit like a subway station. For some reason, melatonin is tightly and suspiciously regulated in this world and I've just gotten the license to take some. I'm vaguely aware that I hope this will make me have a lucid dream.

I'm passing by a bunch of ticket windows where old, serious-looking men stare out at me. I'm nervous that I've done something wrong, but I'm so excited about my melatonin privileges that I don't worry too much about it.

I see Wife up ahead and I wave hugely to her. She looks a little embarrassed by how excited I am. "I took some melatonin!" I shout to her.

"Very good, sweetie," she says in a much quieter voice, cutting her eyes from side to side in embarrassment. I'm very excited about the possibility of a lucid, which makes me realize that I'm having one right now.

I say something to Wife indicating that it worked and she nods, smiling slightly. She leads me down the tunnel through a door into what looks like a cafeteria with folding tables laid out. Wife's extremely purposeful and is taking me through what seems to be a mandatory process, so I go with it. We stop at a table and there's some kind of form we're supposed to fill out. But Wife just briefly lays her hand down on the form, leaving a little Wife hand-print on there and she's apparently all done. I do the same and we move past the table.

We pass through a doorway into a room that looks a little like my new office. Waiting to greet us near a desk is an attractive woman in her late 20s, Asian, with glasses and a vaguely librarian sort of look. She says a few things about melatonin, showing us a piece of metal pipe where melatonin apparently grows naturally and can be harvested from. She's very friendly and cute and I begin vaguely wondering whether she and Wife would be interested in any sexytime.

The line moves on before I can figure this out, though, and we proceed into a tunnel of stone blocks. As we're walking along, the tunnel becomes crowded with a flood of running girls and young women, all chattering excitedly and moving toward a huge wicker basket that's sitting in the center of a nearby room. The girls elbow roughly past me as they move toward whatever's in that basket, and I become incredibly curious about what's in there.

By the time I get to the basket, Wife has disappeared into the crowd. The basket is filled with little handheld video game consoles, so I grab one. I work my way out through the crowd of girls as they continue pulling these little handhelds out of this apparently-bottomless basket, each of them running off excitedly as they grab one.

I stare at my little handheld and it comes on. There's a picture of a cartoonish lizard with its tongue sticking out. The text on the screen keeps shifting, but it seems to be accusing me of breaking some kind of game rule. The word choice is so strange and keeps shifting so much that it's hard to be sure. I assume that the problem is that this handheld is for girls and dudes are not supposed to use it. But too bad, I got one, it's my dream, and I'm playing it.

The screen shifts to the image of a handful of deer playing in a gently-flowing stream. It looks like a beautiful scene and I get the sense that it's taking place somewhere high in the hills. I remember Nyx and Xanous talking about moving into the image of a television so I bring the handheld super close to my face and try to make myself a part of the scene.

No matter what I do, though, I can't seem to get rid of the border that defines the edge of the screen. The image is up close and very vivid but that border starts driving me nuts. I really try this for a while. I feel like I'm close but know that I'm not getting some part of what I ought to be doing and the dream ends before I can figure it out.

22:29 1/2 cup cold sleep tea (Mother's Wort + rose hips)

00:00 Friday 2013-11-22

00:30 ?? bedtime.

02:24

1) With DD, we had been fighting, we made up at the concert/graduation, it was a big thing that we were friendly & together again, we were being filmed. I saw my face DO and DD's face, my face wasn't my own, it was a generic young blonde face, with a dark spot under the right eye.

2) Filling out paperwork trying to get the deposit returned on a set of skis, the guys asks about (some kind of) skiing, I answer "that's the kind of skiing where you go off the trails." He says "ah, nah, forget that, I just want to go on the main streets." I say "Yeah, I know, you can go one street to another street, and you can just say, 'Ah, F*ck this, gimme a beer.'" I'm filling out the form, I draw a strange W-like character (sort of like a greek omega) but with 3-4 loops instead of 2.

06:20

F1) Young S1 and S2 are wearing University color shirts and waving flags as the train arrives.

F2) A man hosting a show about lucid dreaming, "Be Who You Want To Be!"

Crappy recall, I think that tea kills REM or something. Or maybe I'm just tired? Can't get back to sleep. AGAIN. SH!T. The night started out good with two dreams at about 2 hours, but then couldn't recall.

09:30 BTB nap

10:48 LD #8 DILD !!!!!!!!!!!!

Long time getting to sleep, did incubation scene injection (not holding hard on to visualization) of TG and JQ, and sometimes the scene started changing, like a new DC entered from off-stage, or I noticed something else in the scene suddenly that I didn't put there myself. Happened several times. Turned from back to left side. LD happened on left side. Told myself "The next thing I see is a dream" several times. Told SC "OK time to get that next LD to move along the November goals!"

3) I'm on my parent's deck it's twilight there's a beautiful view out over the city and the water, I immediately realize I'm dreaming! I get the lucid rush/feeling. I think "All RIGHT! Lucid right at the start!" I feel very aware, and I anticipate a long and awesome LD. But then vision goes black! I still feel lucid. I try prying open my dream eyes with my dream fingers, and I "feel" the dream eyes open but everything is still black. I try to imagine taking off and flying towards the water. Slowly fades to feeling my body in bed and I'm awake. Try to DEILD back in but too awake. Need to prepare strategy for the void (if that's what it was). Start rubbing hands RIGHT AWAY at lucidity!

November goals progress: 3 LDs / goal of 8. Still have a week, let's GO!

No more of that sleep tea, I get crappy recall after drinking it before bed.

I was attempting WILD, but then I just fell asleep. When I gained conscious later, I don't know why but My Reality Checks wasn't working properly so I thought that I was awake. I woke up in the living room where it is now night time and was eating noodles. After that I Remember we were racing with dolphins for the prize of something.
Then I was asleep in the dream. I did Reality Checks in that dream and found that I was indeed dreaming.
I tried to summon my classmate. First time, failed because I wasn't believing hard enough that I could summon.
Second time I was able to summon her. Last time I summoned her, she was wearing a red shirt, This time she was wearing a blue shirt.
My brother said "Hey, can you do one thing for me?"
"Sure, what is it?" I replied
I don't know what he said because he told me to summon a weird person we've never met but somehow I knew who to summon.
I summoned it and found that it was my brother's younger self.
He said "Yep, that's the one."
After that I Got a carpet and summoned some more things (I forgot what it was).
Then I woke up still inside the dream but was not Lucid anymore.
It was still dark like before and I heard my brothers talking, so I went in.
I saw them talking to each other about Lucid Dreaming and how one does it.
I was just walking around for a bit and found myself dreaming again.
We had guests over and we were watching Indiana Jones part 4 with the crystal skull.
The guest was looking through our movie so I guess he wanted to borrow some movies.
Soon after that, I woke up in my bed and it was Morning 7:40 A.M. already.

Side-note | Lucid

Here are some lucids that I never got around to putting in my journal.

Duke Nukem - my very first lucid, from before I knew such a thing existed
I'm standing on a platform elevator holding a large weapon. I realize that I'm inside Duke Nukem 3D and that I'm dreaming. I try to make the elevator move just by thinking at it, but nothing happens. I figure "oh well" and "let go" of lucidity.


No pants in an ancient temple
I'm in an ancient temple, Indiana Jones style. After going through a long room on some kind of mid-air trolley, I'm walking down a hallway. I stop to look at some carvings on the wall and become lucid for no clear reason. I realize I don't have any pants on, so I try to create some. Looking away and imagining myself wearing some fails. Believing that there are some behind be and turning around fails.

Now I'm in a parking lot near my car. I decide this is perfect, since it's much easier to believe a spare pair of pants is in the back of my van than it is to believe they're laying on the floor of a temple. I try to really BELIEVE I'll find some pants in the van, then go around and open the back. I find it packed full - it seems we're going camping, so we have all the camping supplies, including duffle bags with our clothes. I pull out a duffle bag and start looking through it. I find clothes for everyone in the family except me.


Eaten by a shark
As I'm swimming underwater, surrounded by colorful fish, a shark swims up to me. It's very cartoony, with lots of nice straight teeth in a menacing smile. I know I'm dreaming, so I try to make it go away, but it it doesn't go anywhere. I remember reading a dream challenge about being swallowed and seeing what's in the body; the next thing I know, I'm plunging down the shark's esophagus. It's mostly pink and red with a little green mixed in here and there. I think it's pretty disgusting, and I realize I have no idea what to do next or how to get out.

Now I'm back in the water. I'm impressed by the blueness of it. I find I can't move, and I realize that means I'm starting to lose the dream. I try to focus on the feeling of water on my skin, but I realize I can feel my sheets and pillow. I wake up.