lucid

I enjoyed getting back to a dream that was just pure play. I was a bit of a mall rat as a kid, so perhaps that's where the setting came from. Only regret: not looking for the video arcade!

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #43: The Flying Mall Rat

I'm in a mall walking through a jewelry store out into the main hallway. I have to maneuver around a family coming toward me. For some reason I employ a fancy (and physically impossible) spin-move to get around them, twirling all the way around and sliding several feet across the floor. It suddenly occurs to me that I need to remember whether or not I'm dreaming and in this case it feels very obvious that I am.

I walk out into the main hallway and see that the mall is three stories high. There's mall music coming over the PA system. It sounds like it's three or four girls harmonizing, and they're singing about breaking up with some schmo. They're actually quite talented, with sort of a sound like a modern-day Andrews Sisters. The lyrics and the tune itself are utterly generic, but since it's my dream, I can be honest with myself and admit that I find it catchy.



I'm feeling excited and playful so I leap up onto the railing of a short stairway and grind down (in other words, ride down the rail on my shoes.) I want to see what things look like from higher up, so I hop up to the second floor, grab onto the railing and swing myself over. I then perch my feet on the railing and leap upward across the gap to the third floor's railing.

At this point, I remember the Christmas carol Task of the Month. For some inexplicable reason, I decide that "Grandma Got Run Over by a Reindeer" is a Christmas carol and try to see whether I can remember it. In spite of it being several years since I heard it, the first verse comes back to me without any trouble, and I go swinging and leaping around the mall singing it, vaguely worried that I'm singing in waking life. From what I read in the TotM thread, this is a very common worry.

I spend a few more minutes having fun soaring around the mall. As I reach the end of the main hallway, though, I notice the entrance to a movie theater. I land on the ground floor and step inside the theater, curious what's playing. The theater is packed and I'm surprised by how many people I recognize from my own life. I walk through the crowd for quite a while, greeting old friends and acquaintances as I pass by them. The lights in the theater aren't dark yet, but everyone returns my greetings with whispers, as if they don't want to talk over the movie.

I happen on one friend, S, who appears to be the size of a child in her seat. For some reason I feel like I need to make her look "right" and tell her "Oh, you're much taller than that." She starts stretching out until her height seems correct, but now her head has gotten distressingly skinny. I start getting flustered and fixated and it's not long before I wake up.

Been a week or 2 but I am back, lets get down to business.

First off I was fully lucid for this whole dream.

I was in a tower that seemed to extend into the heavens. There was a staircase that spiraled upwards. I walked up this staircase for what seemed like a hour. I looked up to see how much higher I had to go. I saw that girl again standing in front of a door. I ran as fast as I could to get to where she was in hopes of confronting her. When I got there she was gone, so I opened the door to reveal a massive room. The walls where covered in shelves. There was a latter like in a library that extended up a fair distance. I decided to climb it. As I climbed i looked at what was on the shelves and I don't know how but I knew they were my memories. When I go to touch one of the memory's I instantly was some place else. I was standing in front of a camp fire at night, talking to some girl I don't know and we talked for about five minuets. I looked up at the fire and was transported again. This time it was to the center of my town. some guy walked up to me and said he was with the Molemen and they were taking my town for there own. At this point I just wanted to have some fun. So I told him not if I have something to say about it. Then I proceeded to flick him and watch him go flying. Now a bunch of the same guy I just flying surround me. I figure since I am dreaming why not try to fly away, and it worked I started to float away. I was about 30 feet off the ground when I looked down and saw her. That little girl was and she did something very different this time. For lack of a better way to describe this, she grew black angle wings and began to fly at me. This horrified me for some reason, I have only seen her move once before this and now she was coming towards me at a very fast rate. I looked up to the sky and awoke.

i had awareness in the bed, went to the street, had a look on the sky - there were some clouds. I made one of them to fly closer and made it snowing. It was really wonderfull, because snow brought some happiness and i began to laugh and jump)) But then i tried to make a snowball, the snow was dirty and the snowball wasn't white. It was yellow and grey;((((Then i tried to find the norh to sea aurora borealis, but half an hour spent going through walls and sellings, gave up it and went to real.

I found my self waking up and getting ready for school, I left in a rush and went to go car pool with my friend. I noticed after getting into the car I did not even bother getting out of my sleeping clothes and even walked outside with my blanket still around me. So I went back to my apartment to find something terrifying on my door, I saw an evict notice and then looked around and saw they had thrown only half of my stuff out of the apartment. I went inside and I saw they had removed all of the sanitary fixtures as well (Toilets, sinks, bathtubs). I started to get really scared and then I started thinking that I always pay my bills on time and this doesn't make any sense, and being evicted doesn't mean they will start throwing plumbing fixtures outside the apartment. At this point I realized I had to be dreaming and there was no way I was being evicted. I pushed my finger through my palm and realized it was a dream. Once I realized a dream I started to feel the world collapsing and I closed my eyes trying to stabilize the dream, I failed and the dream crashed. When I woke up I was in a totally new environment and had forgotten I achieved lucidity and I ended up with people I didn't know, I forgot why I did an RC here but I did and regained lucidity. I was in another families house and they were all staring at me smiling except the only one I payed any attention to was the little boy. I screamed "CLARITY NOW" and his face became more sharp, then I screamed "BRIGHTER COLORS" and his face had this greenish and purplish colored undertone. I waved my hand across his face trying to change the color on his face at will. When my hand passed his face hatched colored lines appeared around his face. Every time I waved my hand the colors of these lines would change but not his face, I was trying to change the colors to orange but it did not work, the colors changed to everything but orange. After I finished playing with this kids face I decided to fly out of their window. I ran towards the window and the blasted right out of it and straight to the clouds moving at incredible speeds, I could feel the power of my flying and the view of clouds everywhere was amazing, even while flying I yelled "CLARITY NOW" to make the clouds look sharper. I then changed direction and went straight down into the ocean, I was moving to fast to notice anything though even in the ocean. Then it ended and I woke up in my bed again thinking I just woke up from my lucid dream. Then my parents rang the doorbell and I let them inside, they came in and started complaining about how messy my apartment is and how there was shit on the counter-top. I never even noticed there was shit on the counter top, and I knew I could be a bit messy but shit on a counter top messy? I don't think so. I tried to do a reality check to see if I was dreaming and it actually didn't work this time. I don't know why it did not work but because it failed and I convinced my self I was not dreaming and this was reality, then the dream ended and here I am now on my laptop typing this journal. I basically had 3 lucid dreams, and every time a new dream started I lost lucidity and had to regain it (these dreams happened right after each other with little down time). I only wish I had experienced this before I feel like I could of done more with this lucid dream.

One night, I fell asleep in the bed with my laptop on my lap. Then I kind of woke up, but it was very different than usual.
I could feel my physical body, even see something (the dim light of my laptop), but I couldn't move.
Then I realized something, except for my usual "physical awareness" there was something else, like a dream construct, filled with fog, but it was a dream. Then immediately I had the thought "Yay! Let's have a lucid dream!".
Then the fog went away, I was in a forest area, with a large path. My dream body "spawned", and I kind of dropped on the ground from something like a meter and immediately started running (against my will). I could control the direction of my running, I could look around with my head, but I couldn't stop.
Then I tried the classic example of dream control: I shouted "there's a bunch of ninjas!" believing strongly that ninjas would appear but nothing.
After that, I completely lost control. I was running towards a huge tree (against my will), so I pointed my hand towards it (that WAS my will) and I wanted to make it burn, to make myself passage.
That didn't work either, and I just woke up.
The "dream construct" disappeared, and my physical body "gained priority" in my brain.

non-lucid
lucid

I'm taking a nap before work and I'm dreaming that my alarm didn't go off. When I try to figure out what time it is, the numbers keep shifting around or include letters. There's a tv at the foot of my bed that isn't there IRL, at first I'm looking at a website and then it's a video on the television. I get out of bed and start walking into the living room, trying to use my phone to call work to let them know I'll be in as soon as I can.
I start to become suspicious that I'm dreaming. I think "This is all pretty weird. If I look at my phone again and the clock isn't there then I'm dreaming." I look. The clock is missing. "Yes!" I think. I make it into the living room. For some reason there are two televisions in there. One is playing a movie about a dog. Suddenly I'm really small. I try to return to normal size but instead I just start floating. I can't seem to make my feet stay on the ground. The movie is annoying so I try to turn it off. Nothing works.
"Off!" I say, pointing at the TV. Nothing. I try that again in a few different ways, even just believing the TV will turn off when I say doesn't work. I start to get pissed off that I can't do something so simple. The screen gets static bars across it. Then the sound of static is annoying. I focus on the sound and it ceases. The static increases. "Guess in here I have no subtlety. Leave it to me to just destroy something when I can't make it work the way I want..." both televisions gain more static, I clench my hand into a fist and they become pure static. I laugh a little and realize I'm wasting my time. I could be doing something fun right now! I see a small window over the sink in the kitchen out of the corner of my eye.
I run at it, the sky is a perfect blue with puffy white clouds. I want to be flying. I open the window and I start climbing out----

My alarm goes off. sigh

Non lucid about my sister and DECA.

Feel like I was lucid but can't remember.

4:00 WBTB

4:20 back to bed coffee 200mg b6

SSILD

5:30 wake up feed baby. Vague memory about being lucid or dreaming about it. Something about trying again.

6:00 back to sleep one more coffee sip

vivid non lucid about some cops.

Wife's alarm 7am

I move around some but really focus on DEILD. I think I can hear the alarm again but I know she just hit snooze. Ignore it knowing I am about to be lucid. Now, I feel vibrations. I notice the sound from the box fan goes away completely. I can't move yet and I feel like I am not quite there. I wait a few more seconds. I imagine my feet moving over the side of the bed but its not working. I relax and notice the vibrations. Now my legs feel like they are floating and I move them over the side of the bed. As soon as I feel it I rush like the wind out of the bed and through the door. I didn't even bother to open it nor did I realize that I was phasing through.

Now I am standing in my dining room. I see light coming through the windows and the area I am standing in is lit but the rest of the house is dark. I run to the front door but everything goes black and I can feel nothing. I pause not wanting to wake up, I step back while rubbing my hands together until I am back in the light and can see.

Instead of fighting the dream I decide to try something else. I raise my hands in supplication and tilt my head back like I am praying to God. I say to the dream in a loud and clear voice, "Show me something important... PLEASE!" I pace around while asking this and end up walking into the kitchen. For some reason I always feel like I am really talking in my sleep and I worry that I will wake my wife up. This thought of the physical world makes the dream to begin to fade. I get the same visual as when I went to the front door. Dark nothing. So I back up rubbing my hands.

Now there is no light in the window. I can still see my hands but nothing else. Then, I can't even see my hands. I can hear the sound of the box fan again. I hold still for DEILD.

I feel vibrations and the fan fades out once more. I think instead of transitioning out of my "body" maybe I can visualize a new scene and skip all this escaping the house. My mind draws a blank and I just end up visualizing myself walking. I can feel my feet like they are moving in my bed. I feel the blankets rising and falling and the feeling of it on my toes. I laugh to myself knowing its not real. I rub my hands and together and it feels like I am really doing it. I lick the back of one hand. My mouth opening my tongue reaching out and touching my hand. The warm moisture of it. All of it feels as real as real life. Now for some reason, perhaps I am thirsty, I feel like I have a cup in my right hand. I am still blind and feel like I am laying in bed but I know the cup. It is the green plastic MSSU cup we got at the art walk. I put it too my lips and drink. The taste is amazing. Cold wet and sweet. It tastes a little like Dr Pepper but flat. It is the best taste ever. It feels like pure ecstasy in my mouth. The feeling beyond real and indescribable. At some point I feel like the dining room table is pulled up over most of my body and it feels like a part of the table cloth is tucked under my chin. I think that is fine I don't want to feel like I spilled it on myself. I continue to take little sips and after each one I smack and let out a "mmmmmm" sound. I just enjoy the sensation so much that I get lost in it for a while.

Then I hear my wife. She makes a sighing sound like she had just woke up. "What are you doing? You're drinking something out of the back of your hand?" For a second I think this is real. I think I am lying in bed making out with my hand. Then I realize that I am probably still dreaming. In fact I know it. I laugh to myself again. I try to get back to drinking this wonderful stuff but now it really feels like the back of my hand. I allow myself to do a check. Somehow I can now feel my real hands down by my side and my dream hands at my face at the same time. This is shocking and I begin to wake up. I can hear the fan come back into my reality and I open my eyes. The snooze alarm goes off again. 9-10 minute dream?

Okay, I think I know the reason as to why I don't recall very much of this, I had one very scary dream before, and one really damn odd right after it, which I think takes over in my memory.

Nonetheless, it finally happened! Thank you DV!

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Me, and two classmates were driving around, I don't know the destination, but it was a typical snowy landscape around me.

I saw a yellow sign in a field to my left which said something stupid, I can't recall what, but it was something that would never be put on an advertisment sign.

Around this time I felt myself slipping out of the dream, started to feel my bed covers, etc, and realized, 'wow, that does sound really stupid, why'd anyone put that on a sign?', and then slipped back into the dream. But, the lesson had stayed, I knew it was a dream!*

I looked at my hand, and it was, not blurry, but ghostly almost, and it had maybe seven fingers. Oh yes, I'm dreaming, I thought!

A big field of snow came up to my left, and I felt like I had to try to do something in an open space. Unfortunately, I can't really recall what I did .. It had something to do with swords.*

Nonetheless, when I was out on the field, I felt myself slipping out of it again, but I know I had read that spinning gets you back in, so I tried it, and it worked!*

And around now .. I'm not entirely sure what happened. I think I slipped into another dream, or maybe woke up. Oh well!*

I woke up in the night, stayed up for a while, and tried to go back to sleep, facing the opposite way. I suddenly found myself in sleep paralysis, which I'd only ever had after waking up as opposed to going to sleep. There was a rushing or screeching sound which got persistently louder and louder. It occurred to me that you're supposed to try rolling out of your body when that happens. It didn't make anything happen, but there was this weird feeling where, even though I couldn't see or move, I could get a feeling as if I was actually moving around, like the proprioception of it. By that time the sound had stopped and I eventually broke the paralysis, and got to sleep.

Then I woke up again, left the room and wandered off, and then saw a bright laminated red card lying around, with letters on it that constantly switched but I knew to say 'WAKE UP'. I realised that I'd had a false awakening, and was surprised because it actually felt real, unlike the passive way most non-lucid dreams are. So I just woke up. I got up, tried to turn on the lights, but found that the switch didn't work, so I found a lamp and turned that on, and it did work. I realised that the lights didn't work because I was still asleep. I was worried that anything could jump out of the shadows at any moment, because it was a dream.

Either in this dream or a later one (it was a chain of false awakenings) I tried to exert some control, standing in the bathroom and trying to make a big streak of lightning in the air I think it was. It didn't work, but it did help my faith in the solidity of the dream. Unfortunately I didn't think to try spinning, passive control or just leaving the house. I was just happy that it felt real, mostly. One thing that I probably should have done but didn't occur to me was to look in the mirror. Still, when I actually did wake up I knew straight away, somehow.

There was a fragment from this night where I remember someone doing a monologue about how they preferred cows to people and a few mental impressions of villages, but not so much from it. I think the false awakenings were from disturbed sleep. Maybe having read about all the things that had happened influenced my experiences, although I didn't really believe, except in the abstract, things like shifting text or lights not working or auditory hallucinations that weren't just incoherent whispering, until I'd actually lived them.

Weird 20 second LD where I apparantly was too lazy to focus enough which resulted in me half LDing/half non-LDing. Found myself in my mom's living room, feeling really dizzy and kept floating in mid-air, went into the kitchen:

>Mom told me to stop LDing
>Woke up, still being all numb in the body.

I found my self inside a grocery store observing some products, I'm not quite sure what enticed me to do a reality check but I decided to try pushing my fingers through my palm and to my amazement it worked and I realized everything was a dream. As soon as I realized it was a dream every thing started to shake and twist, I could feel the dream world collapsing. I closed my eyes in the dream world and focused on my self and clearing my mind. As I was focusing I briefly opened my eyes for one second just to see how the stabilizing was going to find something amazing, I saw the dream world swirling all around me and basically rebuilding itself. After I opened my eyes I felt my stability start to slide again because the seen was simply to chaotic to bear. I eventually regained control opened my eyes and I was back in the grocery store and I successfully achieved lucidity. I remained calm and yelled, "STABILIZE NOW!!" at the top of my lungs and everything became crystal clear, this is the first time I exert control to this degree on a dream it was simply unbelievable how clear everything became. I started to walk about and just inspect the dream world, there were other DC shopping in the mall but I was too busy trying to decide what to do next to even consider interacting with them. As I was walking I saw a window leading outside, I hastily decided to fly through the window smashing it and then flying around outside. I got ready to fly through the window and started running towards it when I noticed that there was a storm outside and it was very windy. I stopped my self from running but my momentum still kept me going a little bit and my foot passed through the window without breaking it. I pulled it out and decided to just stay in the grocery store and see what I could do. At this point I started trying a number of things unsuccessfully, I started to try to cast fireballs using the Ka-me-ha-me-ha hand gesture and failed every time. I even saw some coal suspended by a tray throwing sparks everywhere so I decided to try and harness some of the coals and sparks energy to build a fireball with my hands but that didn't work either. I then stopped trying and noticed a red hot coal fell on my hands, I felt no pain but naturally threw it away out of fear. I then stared at my hands for any damages and found none, no burning sensation and burned marks. I gave up on shooting fireballs and decided to try lifting objects and throwing them around in the grocery store with my mind, of-course this failed as well so I eventually gave up and kept moving. I wanted to experience a super power so the next one I tried was insane amounts of strength, I slapped a steel bar as hard as I could and nothing happened it didn't move. So then I decided to try something a bit creative I jumped and then landed down with a stomping motion and nothing happened as well, I tried it again and heard a loud sound of cracking tiles, I looked down and I had created a small crater below my feet, I exhibited super strength! After that I was satisfied and moved on to the main super power of them all, flying. I have no idea why but this came totally naturally to me, I set my mind on flying I smiled with confidence ran and then flew off the ground and around the grocery store, I even did acrobatic moves in mid-air spinning and sharp turns and still maintained flight. I noticed a cute girl sitting down on one of the benches in the store and try to impress her with my flying. There was a plat form above her so I flew there and slowly lowered my self in front of her with 1 knee up and the other leg down humming the theme song to "Superman" she smiled at me while I landed in front of her then I asked her if she wanted to have sex and she didn't say anything she just stared at me then the dream just ended lol.

As many of you know I rebooted my lucid dreaming when I came to this forum, basically started up again and well it didn't take that long to get a lucid, an added bonus is it was the best lucid dream yet!

Non Lucid
Lucid
Lucid dream #1
so I was telling my mum about how my step Dad had committed fraud but then I told her it was still a Dream I was now lucid so I ran to my front door. I tried to just jump straight through it twice but it didn't work I had to put some thought process into it. It was really cold outside and I was in my sleeping gear so that didn't help, but I thought I would change the climate type to African and well it worked the grass looked all dead and yellow. The vividness was amazing and goes by all of my expectations for how really a dream is. I remember shouting words phases at the sky and they were working, it got more and more vivid and realistic. I then ran down the road going around the back of my house I remember seeing my parents there and telling them it was a lucid dream, they smiled but I can't remember exactly what she said. My mum was holding a antenna as well which is a very small detail but I thought I would add it. So continuing running down the road a colossal rhino stood between me and the exit, It kept trying to attack me but I could just push it back, it was great. So once I got passed the rhino I looked up and say the sky had turn purple with some bright light whites in the sky as well. Minecraft style trees now came into vision and I found it really hard to move at first but I got the hang of it and to my surprise G and my brother were standing there. I told them this was a dream and they believed me. But they still thought they were separate entity's not a dream character. So I asked them were we were and G said "well minecraft of course!" But I said "I don't recognise this biome is it new" and then my brother said "it was taken out in the 1.8 update" which I personally did not have a clue about so it's cool how a dream character can remind about stuff so small and you forget straight away. So I ten teleported back on to the road and I told G and my brother about how this was a dream and how you can tell, like looking at text and stuff, they seemed pretty interested in it and listened very well. I then got in to a big grey van and started talking to everyone but K from the bus was there as well for some reason. She was starting to annoy me so I say "can't you go fuck a boy around the back of the bus" and she said "yeah maybe you " and then she walked out I told my friends there was something that I really wanted to do, so I left the van and thought in my mind that I could run super fast. Unfortunately I only got to the river side walk but I was originally planning to try sex in a lucid dream, with a girl I know but never was able to. But as I slowly woke up I heard a voice in my head "god when will you ever get a chance?" This sounded like a possible dream guide so I might go looking for him in my next lucid dream
So yeah looks like I have finally broke the lucid dry spell and I'm so excited that I did I loved this dream and wished I knew how to MILD properly so I can get back into it.
Thanks Dreamviews your the best!

Nonlucid, Lucid, Partially lucid

December 11, 2012:

Although I have been having lucid dreams a lot lately without supplements, I decided to take some GalantaMind this night. I took 8mg and ended up having very long lucid dreams.

I am in a conference room. It is dark except for a lamp that is on. I talk aloud to Tatia, even though I do not see here there. I say her name and ask her to come to me. I don't really like telling her what to do so I say "I want you to have free will, but for now you are my student."

I go to a closed door and explain that when I knock, she should knock in response, as if she is on the other side of the door.(I am doing this because I have had a hard time getting her to appear in my lucid dreams, and I think maybe she is having trouble too, because she is so new at this.)

I knock a few times and ask if she wants to come in. I say "three knocks means yes." I demonstrate. There is no replay. I tell her two knocks means no. Still no reply.
I do hear a knock from the other side at some point during this exercise.

Then the scene changes.

I am still lucid, but now I'm in a classroom. I meet a cute girl who looks kind of like Tatia, if she were not a cartoon but a physical person. I ask her "are you Tatia?" But she does not answer. I tell her to give me some kind of sign if she is, and then she gives me a slight smile.
I can't be sure if it is her and she has trouble communicating and taking form, or if it is not her at all. I think it probably isn't...

I say aloud that I am going to try the door knocking method again because it seemed promising. I go up to a closed door and ask if Tatia is on the other side. I hear a faint female voice say "yes." I knock a few times in a pattern (3 in a row?) and ask for a reply. I hear a light knock on the door.
I tell her that I am going to open the door, and then do so slowly. Someone is on the other side. It is a creepy man who scares me.

I get angry and grab the man and hold him against a wall. I say to him "don't ever do that again," and "if you are Tatia, that is not acceptable behavior."
The man pulls out a gun, but I just twist his arm so that the gun is pointing in his mouth.
"I'm not afraid of guns in a dream," I say, slightly amused, but still pretty angry with the guy.
Now I am sure it's not Tatia. I don't want to kill him, though. I stretch and twist his limbs and tie him into knots, then leave him on the floor.

I go up to a front desk window and use a phone to make an announcement through the building. I say "would Tatia, the tulpa of D.W. please come to the front desk." I repeat the announcement and even spell her name. I then tell a bunch of people who I am looking for and tell them about how we had met in a dream once before.

I wake up and make notes on my long lucid dream, then go back to sleep and have more.

I meet a lady. We are both very excited and happy to see each other. I think she is Tatia, although she doesn't look like her. I ask if she is and she says yes.
But then I tell her not to just parrot me. I ask her if she really is and she says no. I ask "who are you? and "Where are you from?" She gives me two names. One is Pinky Pie(I don't even watch this show very much, but I see stuff about it online all the time.) Then she disappears.

Finally I decide I know where she must be. Then I find a girl sitting at a table, talking to others. She is happy and friendly. I sit beside her and say "let me look at you." Her face is similar to Tatia's. I consider that it could be her and she is still working on her form.
The person looks and acts like how I expected, but I still can't be certain that it actually is her.

Nonlucid, Lucid, Partially lucid
November 28, 2012
This is roughly lucid dream #160

...My vision goes bad. I rub my hands together, but I can barely see at all.
So I go back outside and my vision returns. Everything is colorful, bright and clear. Very realistic. I even see the veins in my arms (I am quite pale).
I climb up onto the porch of the house (it is my childhood home, as usual). I almost lose my balance, but I grab a tree branch to keep from falling. Then I go inside the house through a large open window.

Inside is like a restaurant or a club. I ask some people where I could find my tulpa. She doesn't have a set name yet, So I refer to her by three names, Sheila, Tula, and Tulia, none of which I'm really happy with.
A couple of people I ask are not very helpful. I poke a woman in the butt and then ask her.
Another woman that I'm not even asking says that I can use a door that is "over there," gesturing to around a corner.
I find a few more people at a counter with what might be a drink machine (like a coffee maker?). I talk to the people who work there, saying "excuse me, can you show me the door," or "where's the door?" Something like that.

I decide to improvise and open one of the machines. I pull out part of it and press a round button inside.
Then I hear an announcement, like an introduction, saying "Here is the tulpa of D.W., Tulia Tulian (not sure what the last name was. It started with a T and sounded similar to the first.
There is a stage in the room. There is a figure dancing and singing on the stage. I get closer and sit for a second, then get even closer.

The figure comes down from the stage. It is dark and hard to see, but the her hair looks like it does on who I am looking for, and the shape of her face is similar too. She has dark hair and dark skin.
I am very happy to see her. We hug and kiss. I'm quite excited, but mention that it's too dark to see very well, but I'm pretty sure it is her.


And then I wake up.

12/12/12

Simpsons
I am in a toy store of some kind. I look around and find the store seems to specialize in Simpsons items. I also realize I have no money. But I want to get a present for my friend who is really into the Simpsons. So I find a container of small Simpsons figures and I figure I can help myself to them. They aren't very expensive, and they are small, and the container is on the lower shelf of an aisle in the back. So I dig through the toys and pocket one of each of the Simpsons figures except for Bart.

I am having trouble finding Bart. I keep digging and I finally find Bart. I have just slipped Bart into my pocket when I see the store owner is right behind me glaring at me. Shit. I should've been more careful. He says I have to pay for those. I tell him I have no money, hoping that if I return them and never come back to the store that will be good enough. He doesn't give that as an option. He says I have to work it off. We go to the back and it turns out he has been making pirated Simpsons merchandise. I have to help him make illegal Simpsons rip offs. That or he calls the cops. The fact that calling the cops would be worse for him than for me doesn't occur to me. So I start painting small Simpsons figurines in the appropriate colors. I get bored with the proper colors, and I am painting Bart blue when I wake up.

Once Upon a Beach
I am on a beach. There are a few other people there but they aren't bothering me at all, so I start walking on the beach. It is a very relaxing scene. I soon find I am alone on the beach. The sand is surprisingly soft on my feet. It feels more like flour than sand. I keep going, watching some colorful birds in the sky. I look out over the ocean and see there is one strange person there with me. It looks like Rumplestiltskin from the Once Upon a Time series. I stop for a minute, thinking, then I remember getting a potion from him that was supposed to help with depression. Since it has been an epic failure I wonder if it might have been a scam of some kind. I tell him his potion sucks ass. He says his potion can't possibly work when I want so badly to be depressed. I tell him no one wants to be depressed. He says I do. Otherwise why would I keep bombarding myself with negative comments even if I'm not feeling that way? It's a bad habit. Besides, how would he know about my negative comments? He says if he didn't know before he knows about it now! I just give him a dirty look. He says he has a stronger potion. If I'll stop attacking myself maybe it can work. He takes out a potion that looks like a disgusting black fluid. What the fuck is that? He says it's a concentrated form of the first potion.

He holds it out and then pulls it away. He says nothing is free. I am not in the mood for games. I tell him to fuck himself. He asks if I'm not even going to hear the price before deciding against it. Some prices are very reasonable. I ask what the price is. He seems to think about it for a minute… then says a hair. My first thought is a hare. I summon a rabbit. Not a hare, he says laughing, a hair. My hair. I look around for a bit trying to think of what he could want with my hair. I turn back and see he is right in front of me. He plucks a hair from my head, apparently taking my silence as an agreement. He hands me the potion and slips the hair carefully into a small vial. The potion smells like chocolate. Well that settles that… I drink it… it tastes like liquorish… I hate liquorish… I almost puke it back up. But instead I wake.