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    1. Facing a Fun Lucid Turned Frightening

      by , 02-01-2013 at 05:18 PM (Krista's Dream Journal)
      Dream - Lucid

      I was at work, standing behind my register, though it looked more like a grocery store mixed with the department store I work at. We were ungodly slow. My manager came up because I guess I had a problem with something, and I asked her how she was doing as she helped me ring up someone's stuff. She said "Good, you?" I responded with the same, saying I was good. We then worked in silence, and she came across some sweatpants with more than one security tag on them..3 to be exact. She didn't seem to notice them, so I pointed them out to her. We traded places and I got the tags off. She told me I was doing a good job at some point in all this, and I said thank you. I also remember looking at my computer screen and seeing that I hadn't gotten any credits, but I had gotten 7.7 emails. I thought that the 7.7 was kind of weird. I couldn't think of how that could happen...

      Then, back to the slowness. I kept falling asleep behind my register it was so bad. Something then happened with my computer, and it was acting funny. I kept typing things in, and I'd see logos from other stores, like Toys R Us, advertising sales and such.

      I then realized I was dreaming. I typed in a whole bunch of things in the computer to see what would come up. No matter what I typed, I'd get some sort of logo. I remember typing some inappropriate things, though I can't remember what.

      I then went to go look around. There were other people in the store as well. I saw some hand soaps on display, so I decided to pick some out. I picked out a pink one with a butterfly on the label, and some others. I read the labels, but I can't remember what they said. I had my arms full with all the soaps I picked out; I needed a basket. I tried to pick up this teal basket that was for sale, but my arms were too full to get it. So I thought to myself "When I turn this corner, there will be a basket". I concentrated on this thought, and then, I started to notice buggies that were empty and laying around. I noticed a smaller black one that resembled the ones we have in the store IWL. It was by a frozen goods section of the store. It was made for a child to sit in it as well. I thought that one was perfect. I put the soaps down into the child's seat and started to roll the buggy through the aisles.

      I then saw the back of what looked like my friend Caitlin's head. She was also rolling a buggy around and shopping. I passed her, then turned around and saw that it was, in fact, Caitlin. I said
      "Hey, girl!"
      She replied
      "Hey!"
      And I started to walk next to her. I then said to her
      "You know this is a dream, right?"
      and she replied,
      "Yes."
      I then said
      "You know you are in my dream, right? Our minds are touching."
      She replied with
      "Yes. I have my theory on that. Minds can only touch for 2-3 minutes."
      I liked that answer. This rarely happens with DCs for me; usually they stare blankly at me when I mention the fact that we're dreaming.

      I guess we decided to take advantage of the 2-3 minutes, because Caitlin then said
      "Follow me!", and she started to run.
      I ran after her. We were in the back of the store by the beer. In that section, the floor was made entirely of beer can boxes. I had a good speed until I hit the boxes, and then I could barely run. She seemed to be having no trouble, however. She turned a corner into an area that returned to the normal, tiled floor. She was laughing, so I guess she was having fun.

      Then, we approached a wall. I wanted to go through the wall with her, though I knew our time together was running short. I rolled my buggy to the wall, and pushed it. It went straight through with no problem. I asked Caitlin to go with me, but she seemed reluctant because the time limit was running short. I convinced her to follow, however, and I went through the wall first, with her behind me.

      We were then in a dim, alley-like hallway. I walked ahead and turned a corner. I looked behind me, and she was no longer with me. Oh well. I walked ahead, and approached a pitch-black area. I felt very unnerved; there was something there...


      I then woke up briefly, and did not move or open my eyes, and ended up in another dream. I knew I was dreaming upon entering it, seeing as I had DEILDed. I was now in a dim-dark area, staring at my reflection in some glass double doors. My expression in the reflection was very frightened. I was also wearing an off-white, knitted winter hat resembling one I own IWL. Hmm...the expression did not change.

      I examined my surroundings, and I was standing in front of some store. There was a whole row of glass double doors in front of me. Behind the doors, I could see nothing but black. Below me, on the ground, was a tiled surface.

      I then heard footsteps on the tile, and a male voice from behind the door.
      "Could someone please let me out?" it said.
      I opened the door, and stared into the blackness. I heard the steps coming closer, and I briefly panicked, and backed away from the door.

      I then thought to myself
      "This is a dream. Whatever is there can't hurt me."

      I approached the door again, so I was standing right in front of the abyss. A tall shadow in the shape of a man approached me. He then lunged at me, knocking me back. He was on top of me, almost "one" with me; he was a shadow after all, and had no mass. I felt this intense blow of panic and fear as I was knocked back and he was on top of me/with me/trying to merge with me. I then woke up.


      Epic dream was epic. I have had quite a few epic dreams lately, actually. However, I am very busy at school and literally have no time to write anything down. I will keep up with this the best I possibly can, but the updates will probably be few and far between. I will tell you that I have been having a surprising number of lucid dreams lately. I think it is the new meds I am on that are causing this epicness, or at least they are aiding with it. You don't see me complaining!
    2. Lucid after reading about being Lucid

      by , 02-01-2013 at 03:32 PM
      Just discovered "Dream Views" and was reading all the intro and the main posts on how to attain Lucidity.
      I realize I had a few Lucid Dreams in my life, some with more control than others. I remember one very clearly because in that one I had complete freedom to do what I want. But I didn't know it at the time. I used it for sex in the dream and had an orgasm as part of a sexual act I would have never had in life.

      Last night after reading the intro I went to sleep and had what I can call my first Lucid Dream post Dream Views...

      In it I realized I was dreaming and chose to rub my hands so I can practice what I just read.

      I DID! It was incredible to just decide to do it and then have the feeling of my hands.
      It was very real and a bit sloppy.

      I then tried to do other things but the dream became very shallow and weak. I slowly felt my awareness of the dream growing as it was destabilizing.
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    3. 31st January 2013 - 3rd Lucid dream

      by , 01-31-2013 at 09:45 PM
      Sleep – 10:35pm
      Wake ups – 4:22am
      Finial Wake up – 6:30am
      WBTB – N/A

      Non-Lucid
      Lucid
      Not-Dream

      - I was sitting in the resource centre at my school. I was talking to a friend that doesn’t go to this school any more. We were talking about Minecraft. I can’t remember why but I got up and walked into the next room. As I walked into the next room I noticed that Brady was sitting at a table by himself. So I went and sat with him. We started talking about something but I not sure what. He then said that he had heard that I earlier today I had a stroke and had been taken to the hospital. I jokingly replied that I don’t recall having a stoke. However as I said this I started to feel light headed and really dizzy. I told him that I needed to lie on the floor for a while. He nodded and I went to go lie down on the floor.

      The floor was surprisingly soft. I closed my eyes. I then realised that I couldn’t remember anything from before about 10 minutes ago. I thought to myself that I could be dreaming and decided to check using a reality check. Without opening my eyes I pinched my nose shut and tried to breath. I could and I knew that I was dreaming. I tried to stay calm and I kept my eyes shut. I remembered that I should probably stabilise the dream and proceeded to feel the floor. The floor felt like the sheets of my bed. I opened my eyes and I was awake. I did a quick reality check to make sure and I was. It turns out that in my dream I was lying exactly how I was in my bed while sleeping so when I woke from my dream I didn’t realise.

      - I was walking home from school I think. I was about 5 minutes away from my house when I spotted a really small car, about half a metre tall and about a metre long, parked on some ones driveway. I crossed the road to get a better look and on the side of the car was a picture of a paw print. The car was also painted a dark green colour with dull orange strips along it. I thought that it was a car for a dog. I decided to take a picture of it with my phone. As I was taking a picture, a man came out of the house from a side door and I hid behind a nearby wall.
      Tags: school
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    4. It Has to Be the Colosseum!

      by , 01-31-2013 at 05:30 PM
      Another fun effort at Task of the Year. I just need to wind up in the right stadium next time. Again, with the gladius-waving DEILD tech that Xanous and I worked out. What a breakthrough that's been!

      Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

      Lucid #61: It Has to Be the Colosseum!

      I'm standing in front of a hotel, holding my 3-year-old son E. A van pulls up nearby and a gang of suspicious-looking men pours out. It looks to me like they're planning a robbery and I wonder what to do.

      E points at the men and bleats, "Want to know what they are doing!" The men turn toward us, eyes narrowed. I feel like they're thinking, "Witnesses." I'm scared. I feel like they'll see us as loose ends to tie off, and I hustle back into the hotel lobby with E in my arms.

      As I'm casting about for some place to hide,
      I realize that it's all a dream. I head toward a huge window at the back of the lobby, planning to phase out of the lobby and get into the air for a task. Everything has started to feel unstable and low-fidelity. The sunlight pouring in through the lobby window has started to look like one big blur. E no longer feels heavy and squirmy like a toddler. It feels more like I'm holding a backpack.

      I relax and prepare myself for DEILD, and the dream soon goes black. Like I've done so often recently, I imagine that I'm holding a gladius in my right hand and start madly swinging it around. It takes a few tries to convince myself, but the feeling soon takes hold.

      In a few more seconds, I hear a roaring crowd of spectators all around me. I know that I'm already out in the middle of the arena. Some people in the crowd seem to be counting -- don't know what to make of that.

      All at once, the whole scene falls into place visually. I'm in a completely cel-shaded, cartoony world, and standing in the middle of an enormous football stadium, right on the 50-yard line. An Asian lady in a business suit walks hurriedly toward me saying, "Great, you're here. Let's get going."

      My new handler looks in every way like a cartoon character, as does the crowd, the field, the stadium, and everyone in it. Some sort of production crew is wandering around on the field setting up camera and lighting equipment. This is so close to being what I need, but for Task of the Year, I need to be in the Colosseum.

      I plead with her that, "It has to be the Colosseum!" but she doesn't seem to hear me. I repeat myself, "I know you're trying, but this isn't quite right. It has to be the Colosseum! Nothing else will work!"

      Nobody hears me, though. Everyone seems to be too busy getting this cel-shaded sporting event ready and can't pay me any mind. I'm thinking about how I can change things in my favor, but I'm not far into this when
      I wake up.
    5. It's Just a Phase

      by , 01-31-2013 at 05:05 PM
      This was a fairly short little lucid, but I did get some phasing in and felt really happy throughout. And I guess I really like galantamine. LOL.

      Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

      Lucid #60: It's Just a Phase

      I'm walking around in my childhood bedroom, practicing lucid dreaming skills. Somehow, though, I'm not actually lucid. (This was a strange feeling.) I'm trying to fly around the room but keep bouncing off of the walls and ceilings. I try shouting "L-dopa!!" like in my previous lucid dream, but even this doesn't do much.

      After a while, I feel discouraged. I'm standing by the window wondering what to do
      when I realize that I wasn't really lucid yet, and everything that had gone before was just me robotically acting out some sort of pseudo-lucid script.

      I'm suddenly on the bed again, and everything now feels really vivid. It feels like an OBE except that I'm getting up out of my childhood bed, not the one my physical body's actually occupying. I move to the window again and look out into the street.

      The mini-blinds are partially closed but I decide to phase through both them and the glass, get outside, and go play. I push myself through the window, right hand first and pop out in the front yard. It's pretty dark out but when I look at my hands, they're clear and detailed. (Undistorted, too, just like the previous lucid dream.)

      I start running, overcome with joy. As I race down the empty street, I gush without a hint of irony: "Galantamine, how I love you!"
      (That is so freakin embarrassing to type now! ) Darkness descends before I get very far, I don't properly prep for DEILD, and the dream ends.
    6. The SSILD test. - 30 days.

      by , 01-31-2013 at 04:27 PM
      Day1: 2nd lucid dream I ever had!!

      So I had been dreaming A LOT of things and the dreams were very vivid. Somewhere along one of my dreams I was sitting in a chair in a modern villa with those big open windows and it was snowing and I could really see the snow hitting the window from the outside , it was just so super-realistic! But anyways, now on to the lucid dream.
      So after about 5 hours of sleep my alarm went of, I went to the bathroom and then returned and layed down. I tried SSILD, but somehow it didn't seem to work. I just could not focus enough on the visual part of the technique and after about 20 minutes I gave up on it. I thought that if that didn't work maybe I could WILD. But that didn't work either and I quickly after I fell asleep. I then woke up 2 hours later and recorded the dreams that I had, cause I was worried that I wouldn't remember them. I then again fell asleep and this is where I had my second lucid!!
      I was flying over a city and it was (again as in my first lucid) very dark. The city also wasn't much detailed at all, the buildings were just blocks and cubics. I also (again) had the feeling that something scary was going to happen because of the darkness. So I thought to myself "I want to go somewhere sunny", and closed my eyes. When I opened them I saw that nothing had changed (I thought!). I was hovering above the city and there was also a big sea to the left. Suddenly the sun set and it was really beautiful. First it was orange as it gently appeard on the horizon. I could see the shimmering on the water and then moments later it was fully shining. The city itself was a little 'hazy' and not that clear, but I didn't focus on it anyway. Alright, so the darkness had dissapeard and the first thing that crossed my mind was to look for some details, things to look at. I wanted to see something vivid and clear. I flew a little bit further and saw a little boat next to te shore. I flew down and saw 4 people sitting on there knees in the middle of the boat. They were trying to break the floor with their shovels. As I wanted to see 'details' I went closer and looked at the floor. First the floor cracked and came out, but like just in 1 piece. I was dissapointed at how shalow that had been. But then someone slammed his shovel into the floor and I could see little cracks appearing and was glad it was so realistic (I know, not very interesting, but still :p )
      Then suddenly I had an eagle vision from above and saw another boat coming in really fast. Back on the boat I was standing at the beginning of the boat and was not looking at the direction from which the other boat approached. Then "BAM" I heared the other boat crash into the back of our boat and saw the 4 people panicking and screaming. 2 managed to escape but a man and a woman didn't and ran to the very beginning of the boat to run away from the other boat, who already had pierced into our boat and literally split it. Because of the crash the woman fell over the railing, but the man reaches out to her and pulls her back on, but she dies. And then suddenly the man gets brutaly pierced by a spear. After that I get to watch a cutscene from some monsters who come from behind the corner and come running towards me. (It are monsters from a game I played before going to bed :p ) The cutscene ends and suddenly I'm playing this character behind my pc in my room. So I know I'm lucid and can do everything I want, so I go into the settings and set every power to the max. Back in game and superpowerfull I begin clicking on my left mouse button, but it doesn't seem to work because my character doesn't attack. I realise that I must have changed the controls in the settings :p I remember that it had changed to a key on my keyboard so I press it. It works and my character slices one monster and he dies immediately. (I don't actually see myself sitting at my computer, it's like I have a full view of the game, but like in the background I feel myself sitting and clicking)
      Here's where it becomes interesting
      Suddenly the view changes and I actually see myself sitting there and I hear my brother coming into my room behind me. As I am lucid and don't want him to interrupt and end my dream (I actually thought at that moment that I was awake, but it's wierd because on the other hand know I am lucid...It seems like my lucidity and knowing that it's a dream rappidly changes back and forth, because when I think back on it now, in the part with the boat and the crash I was not lucid and simply looking at what happened. It's not really clear to me...could it be that I'm dreaming I'm lucid in a dream?)
      So as my brother is coming in (still looking at my computer) I begin shouting and cursing at him for knowing he will 'break' the lucidity. At that moment I'm starting to doubt myself and I'm thinking that maybe I'm still dreaming...(I know It's really confusing that at one moment I am lucid, and then the other moment I think I'm awake, but still thinking I'm lucid in my dream and PFFFF sorry if this is really hard to follow) So as I doubt that I'm actually dreaming and NOT awake, I open my curtain and become supershocked to see that my street is completely different from what it is in real life. I now realise that I am still dreaming and nothing of this is real (because it was very realistic and everything felt very real). I also realise that this brother wasn't my real brother and tried to decieve me (to believe he WAS real) . So I turn around and look at him (for the first time because he now had entered) and I rush towards him. I begin punching him because I was just really scared that I actually believed he was real. I was really shocked of knowing that all of this was not real and had been created to deceive me. I drag my 'brother' to the window and hysterically shout that this is not the street we actually live in and I feel scared. I grab my brother's both arms and we struggle and trie to reach the upper hand on one another. I felt so betrayed that I wanted to actually kill him. Of anger I began squeezing his wrists and wanted to hurt him. But then suddenly everything fades away and, still feeling myself squeezing his wrists, I realize that I'm actually squeezing my own wrist as I lay in my bed.

      So yeah that was dream; I hope it wasn't thŕt confusing to read...Is it possible that like Lucidity and non-lucidity change rappidly? Because I have the feeling that might be the case with me. But still day 1 and having my second lucid dream I'm proud of it!

      Updated 01-31-2013 at 04:54 PM by 60338

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    7. An OBE? nope...

      by , 01-31-2013 at 03:37 PM
      This actually happened a long time ago when I was really interested in Astral Projection and tried to do it myself. I tried WILD for the most part, but usually failed (fell asleep, got distracted etc.)
      So this one night I was sleeping and felt myself rising up in the air. So I thought to myself, 'This is it! I did it!' I looked down and saw myself in bed sleeping with my eyes open. At that point I had a thought 'What if my folks come in my room and see me not moving in my bed with my eyes open. They'll think I'm dead or in a coma or something.' So I rolled my physical body over and covered it with a blanket. At this point I should have realized that this is clearly not an OBE.
      After that was taken care of I started thinking what to do now. First thing I wanted to do was learn to fly. So I just went all 'F#@k it!' and jumped out of my 3rd floor bedroom window. I did not fly however, but instead fell face first to the ground.
      A bit disappointed I went to school, which is like 200m across from my house. There the fun began. I noticed no one could see me and I somehow finally learned to fly. I used these abilities to see what can I do while astral projecting. I found it a bit weird that i could touch some things and others I would just go right through. In one of my experiments I saw my gym teacher walking down the school hall, so I just started to fly towards her full speed ahead just to see what happens. What happened was I rammed into her. I bounced back as I saw my teacher clench her abdomen in pain and fall down. Oops!
      Next you can probably imagine what a 17 y.o high school student would do in a school full of girls, so I won't go into detail about what happened next.
      Only after I woke up I came to the conclusion that what I just experienced was not an OBE. It felt realistic for the most part, but when thinking about it it was all fake. Like, why would I still be in bed when the school has already started. Duh! Instead it was a Lucid dream, I didn't realize was a Lucid dream, since I controlled my actions, questioned my surroundings. The error was that I got LD mixed up with an OBE.
      At least that is what I think, any outside opinions are much appreciated!
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      Updated 01-31-2013 at 03:44 PM by 54001

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    8. Epic Long WILD...

      by , 01-31-2013 at 03:18 PM (One Must Imagine Sisyphus Happy)
      ...but I didn't write it down. Shame on me. I vaguely recall that it felt like I was repeating a previous dream. In the lucid dream, I was explaining to a DC that I had had this dream before and I knew what would happen next. That went on for a while. Then I took control, changed the scene and had some dream sex. It felt like at least 45 minutes total. When the dream finally ended, I was left in SP for several minutes. It wasn't uncomfortable. It felt interesting.
      Tags: paralysis, sex, wild
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    9. 31 january - no goal

      by , 01-31-2013 at 03:05 PM
      This morning after 7h of sleep, i got lucid when i understood a shift in location.
      i said to DC ( btw he also transmutated) that i was dreaming and he said that we were all dreaming ! Fine, i thought. wihtout any consideration for stabilization i imediately started flying , and i got my pay -off my dream faded.

      its really important to learn about stabilization tecnhiques, so you dont waste your oportunities !!
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    10. Lucid Fragment

      by , 01-31-2013 at 01:25 PM (Xanous' Dream Journal)
      I've been a little dry since Saturday so every little bit helps. By the way, I am not adding this to my count.

      Pre-Bed 5MG Melatonin
      WBTB 3:30 (Missed alarm so I just got up at 4:00 long enough to take LDS)
      100MG Caffeine
      200MG B6

      Unfortunately, I was able to finally confirm that taking melatonin pre-bed seems to cause WBTB insomnia. I didn't fall back to sleep until 5:30-5:40

      I am driving in a mini-van. I begin to take notice of my visual awareness. (I have been hitting ADA pretty hard this week. I think it was sinking in) I noticed in great detail the road and the turns. I begin to ask why am I here, What was I just doing, and most importantly why am I driving a mini-van? I hate mini-vans. My mind begins to wonder on those questions and my attention slips from my driving. (distracted driving HA!) I found myself on the wrong side of the guard rails on some mountain road. Ding! The light comes on. I don't have to verbalize that I am dreaming. I am just lucid. I instantly know that I can just fly away and have total freedom. I am not in a vehicle anymore and as I begin to float up into a vivid clear blue sky...I wake up just before the alarm. Must be that internal alarm clock thing. Dammit!

      Sleep position: Left Side
      Tags: driving, flying
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      lucid
    11. try TOTY with the sfinx false again

      by
      she
      , 01-31-2013 at 12:09 PM
      I was walking near the river and moved to a town, understood that its a dream and flew away thinking about TOTY with Sphinx. I found myself near the piramids, but around them was big town with multistory buildings! I was walking looking for the sphinx. I found him, but he was not big - like an elephant and painted like chineese dragon. I thought about reparing his nose, but he has already had the nose. I thought about making him vivid, but he already was alive and began to fight with me. I thought that i had no chanse to climb with him on the piramid and woke up.
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    12. Dream 5

      by , 01-31-2013 at 10:31 AM (Wicked is back to dreamville baby!)
      The last dream, at the end of which I was very briefly lucid.

      In the dream, I was in sort of a version of the Classic World of Darkness role playing game. The Technocratic Union was ruling the USSR and later Russia ever since the communist revolution, while the Traditions were mostly based in western Europe. There was something about vampires there too, that arrived to a Technocratic Union base or something... And they died, and the Union wanted to use their remains for something? To track someone down? It's so vague I'm not wholly sure what I'm remembering and what I'm making up as I go.

      Anyway, I "woke up" and started typing the dream down. Then I remembered the previous FAs that night. I layed back on the bed with my eyes closed, and pinched my nose.

      Yep, it was a dream allright. I pinched my nose again and again, to make absolutely sure this was a dream. Then I discovered I can't really open my eyes without destabilizing. I lay there for a few seconds, but couldn't do much and the dream was gone. I woke up.
    13. The Most Violent Sleep Paralysis Ever

      by , 01-31-2013 at 03:33 AM (Death's Other Kingdom)
      01.16.2013
      Sleep Paralysis (DILD)

      NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

      I suddenly become conscious of myself, paralyzed and floating in the black void between dreams. I am not concerned about anything; I just passively wait for a dream to pull me in. It seems as though it's taking longer than normal.

      Eventually the faint buzzing of my body grows into great roaring vibrations, far more powerful than normal. It is unpleasant, but I recognize the feeling of being pulled towards a dream, so I do not fight it.

      Suddenly I am "waking up" in a chair, with my head hanging uncomfortably back off the arm. "How did I fall asleep in this chair?" I wonder groggily, painfully pulling myself to a sitting position. I do not suspect that I'm dreaming at all. I am wondering how I got back into a house that no longer exists, but more pressing concerns distract me: my teeth seem to be misaligned so that my mouth cannot close properly, and I taste blood.

      I stumble to the bathroom and am horrified to find that I have a disgusting looking underbite. My teeth slide together painfully when I try to close my mouth. I push my teeth back and close my mouth the right way, but whenever I open my mouth my teeth go all crooked again. Freaked, I suddenly am reminded of the taste of blood. I start spitting up large globs of blood all over the sink.

      Okay, this is definitely a dream. I remember the sleep paralysis now, and find myself silly for not seeing this sooner. However, the sleep paralysis overtakes me once more before I get a chance to move. The feeling is once again extremely unpleasant, so much that I struggle to wake up.

      I succeed briefly. I wake up, then roll over and immediately go back to sleep.

      Now I am in a doctor's office, talking to a nurse about my sleep paralysis and the possibility that I have some kind of sleeping disorder. She laughs at me derisively, as if she doesn't believe me. She instructs me to go into this small room to take some kind of test, which I assume will verify that my problem is legitimate. It is a small room with a desk and a computer screen- no keyboard or mouse or anything.

      I sit in front of the computer. Suddenly a demon comes out of it with a horrible demonic chattering filling my head. I can tell it is trying to drain my energy.
      I become lucid once more. "I'll just force it back into the screen with my telekinesis," I think, not worried in the slightest. But when I hold out my arm and try to exert my will upon it, the demon shoots up my body and drags me back into sleep paralysis.

      The demonic chattering accompanyied with the thundering vibrations in my head and body is almost unbearable. I struggle, but any movemment I succeed in making is never with my real, physical body. Somehow I manage to open my eyes. At first, I don't believe they are my real eyes, because I am still entirely paralyzed, but I manage to focus on my clock. It is hard for my eyes to focus on the numbers, but I make out 2:34.

      I am getting really concerned, wondering if I'm actually having some kind of seizure. It is a struggle to keep my eyes open, but I concentrate as hard as I can on the clock to keep them from closing so I do not have another endless cycle of false awakenings and more sleep paralysis. I HAVE to wake myself up.

      The air is shimmering and moving, the way heat looks coming off a hot blacktop in the summer, and that demented chattering is still screeching horribly in my head. Am I really being attacked by a demon? I cannot move any part of my body except my eyes and possibly my mouth (though it's hard to say if it's my REAL mouth that is moving), so I instead quicken my breathing. If I start breathing really fast and irregularly, maybe it will jolt me awake.

      After a few more agonizing moments, the heavy breathing really does force me awake. I am panting heavily, my heart pounding. I look at the clock. The time confirms that my eyes were actually open, as it is now a few minutes after 2:34. After I compose myself and go back to sleep, I have more disturbing dreams, but no more sleep paralysis.

    14. Lucid! 1/30/13

      by , 01-31-2013 at 01:49 AM
      Sleep Time: 5:30AM-2:30PM
      Methods used: WBTB (11:30AM-12:05PM), MILD

      So I've been into LD'ing for years now. Every now and then I pick up the urge and motivation to have a lucid dream but have never really carried out with it past a week. Anyway, today was my second attempt at having a LD since I've picked back up with it a few days ago. I utilized the WBTB method as I've done this before with luck. Well it took me at least an hour to fall back asleep after being up for 35 minutes. I had this long drawn-out dream (non-lucid) and it was fairly interesting and vivid. I remember all of it like I had just woken up still. Towards the end of this dream I realized it was only a dream, w/o doing any rc's. Right after realizing, everything went black and I felt myself in bed, eyes closed. I felt the rush of sleep paralysis briefly and heard myself breathing heavy. I knew what was going on so I just lay there still as ever and try to visualize a new dream scene to fall into but was having some troubles. I decided I'd just go back into my previous dream instead and go from there (I now know this was a DEILD, and it happened completely unintentionally, but I'm not complaining!). Almost instantly I am back in the dream I was having before. I was lucid but everything around me was a little blurry at first. I'm surprised I didn't wake up out of excitement like I've always done in previous LD's. This time I was in a building two stories up. It was about sunset on a summer-like evening. I saw an open window and decide to start sprinting toward it then dive out. I swooped down just above the ground with good speed and flew around the side of the building. I thought to myself, "It'd be nice to see a dream character" and two seconds later I see one in the corner of my eye leaning against the building but decide not to pay too much attention. I continue flying just above the ground and up along a hill, so close if I reached down I could feel the green blades of grass between my fingers. I shoot up to about tree line and get a little higher but for some reason I got disoriented as I tried to go any higher (lol) and fell a few feet out of the sky, butterfly in stomach effect and everything! I kinda laughed at this sensation and continued to fly a few more feet until I just woke up. Longest LD yet, lasted probably 10-15 seconds (as opposed to 5..). The dream itself wasn't my most vivid LD, however, but it's definitely a start, esp. after being only my second try with it. Very satisfied with the outcome and can't seem to get it off my mind today. In my next one I definitely want to at least try and improve the clarity. I know how to do it and everything, and it did cross my mind when I went lucid earlier, but all I seemed to care about was getting some air.
      Categories
      lucid , memorable
    15. 01/30/13 Secret Rescue

      by , 01-31-2013 at 12:44 AM (New Dream Adventures of Raven Knight)
      01/30/13

      Secret Rescue
      I am flying over the Nile, phasing into a dream. I land on a beach and wait for the dream to stabilize. I realize I am not alone. There are numerous people all over the place. They are all attacking me. I am surrounded by and being attacked by Templars. I focus on opening a portal to a Dark Tower dream. A portal opens, I go through it and close it immediately behind me to block them from following. On the other side I am walking the street of a city I don't recognize. It looks like a city out of Assassin's Creed: Revelations.

      I wonder how I ended up here when I was aiming for a Dark Tower dream. I walk down the street when I see someone hidden behind a merchant booth signaling to me. I go over to the woman behind the booth, and she indicates she wants to get farther away from the main thoroughfare. She seems really worried or scared about something. I quickly look around, wondering if she has something to do with the people that attacked me on the banks of the Nile. We appear to be alone. She says she has something to tell me, but I have to promise to hear her out before doing anything. I agree to that. She says she knows I have been looking for the person in the market district that has been reporting Assassin activities to the Templars… she pauses, then says she is that person. She backs away from me and quickly adds that she doesn't want to, but they have her daughter and will kill the girl if she doesn't cooperate. She looks around nervously, she also seems unsure about me. She says she just wants her daughter back safely. I ask if she knows where the girl is being held, she says in the large house at the end of the street… yes, the one surrounded by Templars. She asks if I will get her daughter back. I tell her that's the plan. She says she has to disappear, if a Templar sees she is talking to an Assassin they will surely kill her daughter. She heads the other way quickly and disappears around a corner. I go back to the street and look to the end where there is a home that looks much larger than the other buildings, almost like a small palace. There are Templars guarding it.

      I wonder where in there the girl might be. I don't want to be seen until she is safe or they might realize what is going on and either move or kill her. I go down the street but I turn off before getting in direct sight of the Templars. I look along the side of the building, looking for a way in. About halfway up there is an open window. I shoot a tendril of Witchblade out like a grappling hook and use it to climb up the side of the building to the window. I find myself in a bedroom that is currently unoccupied. I wonder where I should start looking for the girl. I peek out into the hall. I see the girl isn't content to wait to be rescued, she is creeping down the hallway. I see the resemblance between her and her mother, she looks like she is about 10 years old. She sneaks by the door I am peeking out of. As she passes the next door, however, it opens. A Templar guard steps out and grabs her from behind. He says he should cut her open right now. She bites his hand to try to make him let go. He gets mad and says no one said the kid couldn't be injured. He has a dagger out now. To get his attention off of her I tell her she shouldn't bite that thing… it's probably diseased. She says he is a disease and stomps on his foot. He shoves the girl down and attacks me with his dagger. He practically impales himself on my hidden blade… I tell the girl I'm there to get her out, her mother sent me. She comes with me back the way I came from, and I use Witchblade to lower us back out the window. We disappear into the city before any other Templars are aware she is gone. I go back to the place where I met with the woman, and she is clearly relieved to see her daughter safe. She says she can tell me a lot about what the Templars have been doing… but I am about to wake up, so I tell her to tell one of the others if she wants, I am unable to stay. I wake.