lucid

The Mob

I was watching in 3rd person perspective as a guy in the mob was showing another guy this weird move. He was in a restaurant setting, but in his home. There were swivel chairs set up in a semi-circle. Golf balls were set up over the chairs, and their were lasers going through the air and connecting the balls and stuff.

The mob guy jumped over a chair and ended up sideways and trying to hit a ball. This was supposed to show how much he'd practiced and to show his power as a threat.

Then the mob guy was trying going to kill me. I had done something wrong. He ended up giving me two cigarettes. I didn't want them. He forced them on me saying that he had done something, so I should take the two cigarettes. He put them in my mouth. Someone somehow tasted one and said they weren't cigarettes. He meant they were poisoned.

I told him I would take them anyway. (I didn't have much choice.) I started to walk away so I could then run away, but the steps I was going to use had a black guy walking up the stairs. He would have stopped me, so I walked back like I was just nervous, but wasn't going to go anywhere.

I then did walk away over to an area with plants. I saw one plant with two spider webs that made balls of a sort. Then there was webbing connecting them and all around the plant. This was also good for the plant as it kept warmth and moisture in.

I got out my phone to take a picture, and accidentally tore a bit of the web. That exposed a tunnel of spider web. I looked in and it had a blue light shining on it. It was so cool! I got out my phone to take a picture, but then the mob boss grabbed my arm and started pulling me to kill me again. I was so scared.

I tried to take off my jacket but I couldn't. He made fun of me and sang a song about trying to take off dream jackets. I realized then I was dreaming. The mob boss dunked himself in the water to show how much control he was in. I imagined the jacket off and it worked, but the dream ended.

I can't remember where, but one time I was trying to escape, I had looked one way and it was too far. As the mob guy was chasing me I turned to the right and saw a beach with beautiful water, but the mob guy caught me before I could get there. I can't remember where that fit in, but the water was beautiful.

OGF

I was with an OGFJ. We were on a floating dock that wasn't big enough to hold us both. We were trying to make out. We fell into the water and had trouble getting back up to the dock. It seemed like I didn't want to move my arms to swim. The water was greenish and it was night time, so I could barely see through the water.

We finally made it back up and she made a comment of displeasure. I said something like, "At least you could get to the dock!"

Dream skip

I'm with my cousin Michael. We headed to a party or something. I ended up getting into a fight with someone, then fighting someone else. I was trying to stab the second guy, but then he ended up with the knives. One was a little curved.

When he got the knives, I said, "Oh no, knives!" Then the guy commented that it's OK when I have knives, but when he has them I get scared. He was right.

I was in two t-shirts. I straightened them out because my arms weren't through the sleeves right. Then I ran. I was really scared.

Then he was above me in some kind of cacoon. I had a razor blade in my hand. He started knocking things out of the ceiling (his floor) and I attacked them thinking it was him. It was just some sort of padding/stuffing. Eventually he did fall through. He was in some kind of suit. I jumped him and took the razor to his body. He was protected by his suit, but I started wearing away at the suit until I was cutting his body and his head.

Once I had him good, he turned into a roach. I started chasing him all over the room to kill him. Once I ran over a bunch of bikes knocking the all down and stepping on and over them. I chased the roach into a corner and tried to kill it. He got away. There was shit all over the place, but eventually I got it with the broom.

He ran up the wall injured. I saw another roach which was a diversion. I found the right one and killed it. Then he was a person again whom I buied, though I didn't actually have to bury him in my dream.

Then I had to deal with the other guy. I didn't want to deal with him. I was afraid he would kill me. I started trying to find MJ in my phone to come pick me up.

Eventually my friend Michael showed up. I kind of ignored him looking for MJ. Then a girl showed up and I was going to go out with her. That was cool.

Then there was my first girlfriends mother. She sat down and was playing a card game with a kid from my bus. Since he was playing an adult game, he had to bet adult amounts instead of the half price kid amount to bet. At first the bets were real money, but eventually it was like monopoly money or something so it really didn't matter, but he was sad he had to bet the full amount.

Some of the cards got wet and the front and back separated. We held them on with paperclips.



I was driving a car on a dirt road with an unknown passenger. We drove until we found the main road.

That is the end because I have to log a dream from 12:00 midnight (will be above) and I need to sleep some more.

NON LUCID LUCID

So it is winter and there is a little bit ice on the puddles/lakes and i see a Asian ice-skating with shoes only, and she was very good at it.. and there were 2 little circular lakes/puddles and she called them Breaking Dawn 1 and Breaking Dawn 2.. (im such a twilight fan, sorry) and she skated to the one and the other and show off her skills.. so i skate a little bit with her but i am bad without skates, so she told me that puddle/lake Breaking Dawn 1 has actually too thin ice to skate on, so she shows me how she dodge the thin ice, and suddenly she pushes me on Breaking Dawn 1, and i felt the ice snapping and cracking.. so i fell through the ice hole in the water, and i felt the water sucking me to the bottom at the point i thought i was going to die because there was no way i could get saved..
at this point it was like, 1. i let myself die and wake up or 2. i become lucid and breath underwater.. so i did the second and started breathing and swimming a little bit underwater, now I knew for sure.. i am lucid dreaming.. suddenly i had superman skills and flew out the water with a massive blow, it looked like it was such a blow that half the lake was forced in the air.. so back on the ground the Asian girl sees my skills, and I told her I had to get out of here because nobody supposed to know I was having these skills.. so I started superjumping from building to building.. sometimes a low jump sometimes a big jump.. I wasn't that good at it, still had to learn.. so I jumped to some open field with a bit of wood/trees and a highway behind it, and again there was this Asian girl but this time I didn't care, so I started practicing my jumps.. some high ones some low.. then suddenly I was standing on a brick table and tried to jump backwards.. it wasn't as good as my normal jumps. Then I said 'I want to fight like Neo, lets call him and ask' so suddenly there was Neo in these woods.. and I ask him; teach me how to fight like you, so we train a little bit and he shout: SALSA DANCE!!! We moved and shake our hips like crazy.. because that was some kind of dodge technique.. then we added some punches and elbows while shaking... then suddenly i did a superjump and Neo said; thats not so good... it makes u vulnerable.. and then he tried to come at me and punch me, but i dodge and jump to this brick table with my back towards Neo, when he was trying to take me down I jumped backwards over Neo and kicked him very hard.. he flew 10 meters away and while he flew i punched his body into the ground, then he teleports away... then the lucid dream started to fade.. then i tried to rub my hands but i was too late, i was awake.

December 2012 TOTM
Advanced Task ii - COMPLETED!



Method: V-WILD

I was standing in the middle of an icy, frozen tundra. Nobody was around me. I could fill the chill of the air all over my body. The sky was a vivid gray. It was glowing and seemed to light everything around me. This scene was so vivid, I almost forgot I was dreaming. I stood there staring at everything in awe for a good minute before I remembered what I wanted to do. The Task of the Month. Find the Ghosts of Christmases Past, Present and Future and experience what they have to show you.

"Show me the ghost of Christmas's Past." I said.

Fog shot across the tundra, rolling rapidly toward my feet. A woman appeared next to me. She had a long, white dress that flowed into the breeze. Her eyes were a stunning violet.



"Are you the Ghost of Christmas Past?"
"No. I am simply here to summon him."

She pulls this HUGE black cauldron out of her small pocket and climbs inside. I hear a sizzling sound coming from it and I looked inside. She pulls me in and I am suddenly standing inside of my old house in California. There is a big Christmas tree in the middle of the room. My parents are standing off to one side, my brother + sister on another, and baby me is in the middle. I look happier than the happiest person on Earth. I don't look entirely the same like I did back then, my face is a little deformed. The lady seems to be gone and next to me is this green ball of energy. I assumed that this was the Ghost of Christmas Past.

The current gift baby-me is opening is glowing. The top explodes and out of nowhere comes my old friends from California.

"HAPPY 6TH BIRTHDAY!"

The tree is gone but the presents remain. Baby-me is way more distorted now. If I remember correctly, I had three legs. My parents look up and glare at the current me. They mumbled words that I could not understand. Baby-me was acting possessed and the whole dream was turning into a crazy nightmare. I ripped a hole in the air and teleported myself back to the tundra.

The lady was staring at me. She did not say a word. Two dots appeared on her forehead. She told me to touch them. Her skin was ice cold. I was standing in my best friend's house. She was crying and her mom was yelling at her telling her how ugly she was. Her mom was obviously drunk and was forcing her own insecurities on my best friend. This time a blue ball of energy was next to me. It told me that I had the power to change what was going on. I told my best friend I would take her to her dream cruise in the Bahama's. I touched her arm and we teleported on this cruise ship. In front of us was a big pool and waterslide. Everyone looked like they were having a great time. My best friend looked much happier now.

The blue ball of energy shaped itself into a chair. It mentally told me to sit on it. I did and I was blasted into the water. In front of me was a door. When I entered it I found myself in a dark room stacked with boxes. Each box was marked 'choice'. I opened one and There was a stack of candy canes in it. In another, watermelons. They were all different types of food but didn't seem to have any real significance.

I found ice skates laying off to the side and swam back to the cruise ship. I was at the very top of the ship and made the whole ocean freeze. I summoned a box of ice skates and told everyone there would be an ice skating contest. I probably jumped 100 feet off the ship onto the ice and started ice skating. XD. I noticed one person was literally using two other people as ice skates. The Ghost of the Present was ice skating. After a few minutes of this I teleported myself back to the tundra.

A helicopter was waiting for me. Inside was a red ball of energy with a glowing yellow center. We took off and the pilot handed me a backback with a string coming out the side. He told me it was a parachute. We were skydiving! I looked over the edge. We were right above New York City. The helicopter was about as tall as the Empire State Building. I jumped out and felt like a leaf blowing through the wind. It wasn't a fast fall but a slow and gentle one. I landed on the roof of a hospital.

Someone who looked pretty similar to me was standing in front of me. He told me to follow him. He led me to an Operating Room and I watched him do an open heart surgery on a baby boy. The heart looked extremely realistic. This was my dream job. After what seemed like 5 or 10 minutes the red ball of energy nudged me and I was taken back to the tundra.

The lady looked at me and touched my face. I was on the moon, I think. My grave was in front of me. There were no words on it I could understand. They were all blurry. Out of nowhere I was thrown to the ground and as I looked up the lady was driving full speed at me with a go kart. What the hell?



I got in it with her and I started driving. She was earthbending the moon and made a big ramp for me to dive off of. I could see Saturn in the distance and jumped from the moon to it. The kart started to fall REALLY fast and everything got super blurry until I woke up.

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Realized I was dreaming. I can not remember how I realized but I was inside a house and I just knew. I was almost going to disregard it and I have a feeling that this is something I often do in my dreams. Then I decided i would try some things out. I was in a hallway, like an American high school and I tried a power slide.i ran forward and jumped said I was going to land on an imaginary skateboard. It worked!! I slid through the doorway and over a set of stairs and then everything faded. I was worried that i had woken up and lost the dream but then everything cam back and I was looking at the back of a blue van. I could not believe how vivid everything was. I tried to rub my hands together because things started to fade out. i could feel by hands rubbing together but when i looked down i couldn't see them. this was a really strange experience and I decided to move on because a guy skated past me on a yellow skateboard. I power slid after him and did some Ollie's and one eighties. I was throwing my body into the spins and i could feel the muslces flexing in my waist as i did this but I decided to just make myself spin with my mind so I didn't wake myself. By this I mean that I jumped and instead of spinning my body by swinging my shoulders around I just willed myself to spin.
Then I remembered that I needed to make a fire ball. (A long term lucid dreaming goal of mine)
I looked at my hand, I was now wearing black gloves. I focused incredibly hard and a small marble sized ball appeared floating above my palm. I started asking myself what will my fireball look like? And then flames started
Iicking around the marble ball and I turned and threw it at a kid I think.
He didn't like melt or anything it just zapped him. Then I started throwing fireballs at all these people in an alleyway. They started getting mad and coming after me so I decided to pause everyone. I dragged a pause icon in front of them and it was Asif the pause screen of a game had popped up. Notably this caused them all to stop moving but then they started moving and banging against the back of the screen. I got bored with that so I decided to make a hot girl. I turned away from them and looked at the road and focused on the idea of creating a hot girl. Then it was like a 2d cutout of a beautiful HB10 in a white bikini appeared in front of me. Then she stepped forward and became a part ofmy world. She was hot!.
Then I woke up..

12/20/2011 4:30AM

I was at home about to sleep when Sharif and his family arrived unexpectedly. I got up and greeted Hana first and then went to greet Sharif on the deck. Then I saw something bizarre; I found Suzanne lying on the floor with a mullet crying. At this point I realized I was dreaming because the scene in front of me had no other explanation. As soon as I realized I was dreaming my entire family slowly faded away and I was the only one inside the house. I was so excited I decided I wanted to run through a wall with force. when I tried I found all of the walls were elastic like a rubber band but could be passed through like a bubble. After a few brute attempts I decided to strategize a bit and grabbed the wall and pulled it back as far as I could and then I let loose and it flinged me through the wall very slowly, it felt like I was moving through a thick layer of molasses. When I finally got to the other side I found a strange combination of ocean and space. I had the sensation of being underwater but the view of planets and stars. The view was so beautiful, and I was so happy because one of my goals in lucid dreaming was to experience space. When I thought it couldn’t get stranger I saw a large spherical object spinning with blue and white lights flashing on its band moving rapidly in my direction then my brother sneezed very loudly and abruptly ruined the dream.... Oh well it was nice while it lasted.

Thoughts | Non-Lucid | Lucid | Techniques/Aids

WBTB 30 MIN. Coffee. 2MG melatonin. 200MG B6. SSILD and thinking about TOTM

Dream time: about 4:20-5:00AM

Jingle Bells in the Snow TOTM

I am somplace trying to sleep. I think my mom is there. I am sitting in an office chair and can't get comfortable. Then I lean back and relax. I let my head back unsupported and my arms are limp. I begin to feel like the chair is spinning. I notice how dream like this feels and I become lucid.

I get up and notice that I am at work. This part of the plant we call the barn. I walk to go outside. Everything looks as it should. I remember TOTM and begin singing Jingle Bells as I walk out side. "Jingle bells, Jingle bells, Jingle all the way." I feel self conscious of my singing and lower my voice. It sound amazingly real and I wonder if I am really dreaming."Oh what fun it is to ride in a..." Now it is a whisper but I am still singing,"one horse open sleigh.... Jingle be...." For some reason I think I might wake someone up.

I begin to doubt that I am dreaming. I think if I am dreaming I will not feel cold. As I step out side I notice the temp. It is warm and but I can feel that my feet are bare and cold. I know it is cold in real life and I would never be bare foot at work. Ok good.

I want to make it snow. I forget all about singing. I see the maintenance building and the awning. Just like real life. I am still wondering if I am dreaming. I think if I am dreaming I will not feel cold. I start saying "Snow" over and over.All most instantly I see a fine mist in the air. I think it looks like sleet. I step out from under the awning. I feel it on my face and hands. It feels so real. But its not snow so I concentrate. I imagine flakes in the air. I see a few for up close and it looks like large pixelated snow flakes in my face. Still wasn't good enough. So, I focused on seeing snow on the ground. First I see piles in the parking lot. They are dirty like someone cleared the lot. I put my hands in it and notice I am now wearing heavy gloves and warm clothes. It feels slushy like it is melting. I look in the sky and try harder. Now I see heavy snow coming down. I look to the grassy area and it is thickly covered. I jump on my hands and knees and whaller in it for awhile. I notice how the snow sounds like rain but looks like snow. At that moment I hear a distant crack of thunder.

I remember how sivaison wanted a blizzard. I think that would be cool. So I begin to visualize that. Now I see a wall off thick swarming white snow coming toward me. I begin having trouble keeping my vision firm and stable now. I am engulfed in it and carried away. I am flying now. I look up and can see clouds. I try to focus and I think maybe I can still pull of the advanced task of Aurora Borealis. I begin to fly upward but the blizzard catches up to me and engulfs my vision in a bright white light.

I am now in my bed. I think about the white transition and wonder if I am still dreaming. I have a strong feeling I am but by son is crying. The bassinet is in the wrong place. It's at the foot of the bed and I move to him. I try to pick him up but it is all moving trashing blankets.I feel confused and I can feel anything with my hands now. Then, my wife comes in the room and I let her tend to him. I do a nose plug now and confirm I am dreaming. I relax a bit but now I really wake up.

Was at some woman's house to discuss something, I don't remember what exactly. After a while I leave and head back home walking (even though it was quite a distance from my house). After a while I notice I left behind my wallet and I start running back. I then meet some girl. We talked a bit, not sure about what. I completely forgot about my wallet by now. After a little while I realize it's a dream and then we had sex. It felt very real as I could feel the excitement in real life. The dream then ends.

I tried to achieve the "Trinity" Task of the Year item, where you witness the world's first atomic detonation. I got nowhere near the Trinity site, but having the atomic age on my mind had lots of interesting side effects.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #40: Tibetan Nuclear Winter

I'm on a Final Fantasy-style quest with Wife and my son E. I even have "4245/4245" hitpoints, so I'm feeling pretty impressed with myself as we knock on the door to ask some character in the game for help.

Things suddenly turn nightmarish as we walk inside the house. The house's owner steps out of the shadows and his face is gaunt and drawn, the skin tight and shriveled like a corpse. His eyes are pure white. As he advances toward us, he tells us in this droning zombie voice that "I'm not an American. I've never been a human." His gaunt, zombified wife steps out of the shadows and starts droning the same thing. This is absolutely terrifying to me and now I'm lucid.

I hustle Wife and E out of there back into the daylight and fortunately the corpse-things don't follow. The three of us follow a stone path past a well-kept grassy lawn until the path turns into a smoothly ascending slope. Soon Wife and E have disappeared, and I'm climbing higher up this slope by myself. I continue, badly wanting to know where it leads.

After climbing for a while, the wind picks up and a light snowfall starts all around me. I see that the stone path (barely six feet wide), stretches hundreds of feet over a vast, snow-filled valley. When I look at the surrounding mountains, I see a number of Tibetan monasteries and beautiful pagodas nestled among the peaks.



I think about the task of witnessing the Trinity explosion and almost immediately a mushroom cloud erupts over the distant mountains. The sky goes dark and the wind increases to a howl, the snowfall growing heavier at the same time. Strangely, I don't feel any colder.

More mushroom clouds spring up silently over the horizon. There are maybe half a dozen or more blasts. Suddenly, one of the pagodas explodes like it was packed with TNT. The path that I'm standing on starts to crumble away in front of me and I can't walk any further.



I take to the air and try to fly toward where the nuclear explosions are thickest, hoping that I'll still come up with some way to pull off my goal. I imagine a wind swelling up behind me to carry me over the mountains but in an instant all of the remaining monasteries explode and the stone path crumbles into the valley. This time I feel the blast and I wobble in flight. The last thing that I see is a swirl of snow before I'm awake.

Finally, a DEILD! It's interesting that I keep generating these "endless maze" type dreams for myself. At least I remembered the Exit signs this time.

BTW, the new neighbors in this house have not yet moved in, so it'll be interesting to see whether the dream got anything right about them.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #39: The Endless Farmhouse

I'm meeting our new neighbor "Anna", a fair-skinned lady with red hair in her early 40s. JC, A friend of mine from California, rides by on a recumbent bicycle. I tell Anna, "Oh hey, I know him... that's JC." She says, "Sure, I know him too." This strikes me as very unlikely and I become lucid. I'm lucid only for a moment before I wake up.



I sit tight for a DEILD, focusing on breathing and mantra until I emerge just inside the front door of Anna's house. She is standing several feet away with a little girl of about seven. The girl says, "What's he doing in here, Mommy?" I feel way out of bounds and tell them, "Sorry, it's a lucid dream. I was just leaving." The front door is wide open behind me and I hurry outside.

Outside I'm under a wooden covering that reminds me of an open air stable or farmhouse. A slatted wooden fence hems me in from the sides and I can see sun just outside. I move to the next area, but it looks much the same, only rearranged slightly. I move forward a ways more but it seems that no matter which direction I choose, I'm stuck in the shadows.

I jump up and take a swipe at the ceiling to make sure I stay properly bolted into the scene, but I manage to miss. I'm slightly annoyed that I can't do something I do in real life (something I do when nobody's looking, that is!) I slap a nearby candy striped support pillar and it feels satisfyingly realistic. I move up a steep embankment of dirt, but again it's just more fencing and wooden covering. I'm feeling stuck so I imagine an Exit sign that will guide me out. But before I even see it, my vision goes dark.

I keep calm, and rub my hands together. Feels okay. I rub my face, lick each arm, grab a handful of shirt... everything is as it should be. My vision doesn't budge, though, so I spend perhaps half a minute just waiting things out in the dark, considering what I ought to do. The idea occurs to me to get help as I'd done before, but things fade on me before I get the chance to act and I'm awake.

I nearly had the chance to ask a nightmare figure what they represent but somehow the opportunity slipped away from me. I'm still not sure why this happened, but I'll surely try it again. Also got a little phasing in but failed to roll with the punches when the dream threw in a surprise for me there.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #38: The One Who Knocks

I'm walking through a house in the middle of the night. It's a house I've never seen before but I believe it's mine and that my wife and kids are asleep. The front door is mostly composed of a big glass panel and through it, I see a huge ogre of a man stagger up and stare in at me.

The man's in his early 50s, disheveled, filthy, and at least seven feet tall. His eyes look enormous through his thick glasses and he's staring right at me. I'm terrified of him, and I hide behind a corner, hoping he'll just leave. He starts hammering the glass with his fists and as my fear jumps to the next level, I become lucid.

I'm relieved that it's all a dream and I take a moment to wring the fear out of my mind. I decide that I'm going to talk to the DC and ask him what he represents. I step out from behind the corner to find that both the man and the front door have vanished! Now there's nothing but a blank wall.

I'm having trouble walking now, so I try floating. I can float in the direction that I want, but it's unusually slow. I want out of the house, so I float toward one of the windows so that I can phase through it. It's a long, slow grind to get there but at least I'm moving. As I get close, I see that the window has a screen over it, but I go for the phase anyway.

The phase works very well, my arm, shoulder, and finally head sinking into the window. But when my eyes reach the screen, I feel the screen scratching at my eyeballs. The feeling is nasty, like a brillo pad lightly passing over the entire front half of my eyeballs. It's so unexpected that I wig out and collapse the dream.

I was in some kind of petting zoo of insects in glass cases. I was watching a creature that looked like a snake with scorpion legs and tail. It was like a kobra but smaller. I did a reality check and i realized it was a dream. I willed the dream to make me an egyptian fire elementalist and i burned down a wooden house and i remember a guy coming out and yelling about gas prices, so naturaly i set him on fire. sorry about the bad grammar.

Saturday morning I had this dream where there was two snakes chasing each other in my room as I watched, but then I woke up into another dream in my bed. I got out of bed in the dream and ran to my mom's room to tell her about my dream, but then I ran back into my room and realized it was a dream. Last week I read a post from someone explaining their lucid dream where it was too dark and they kept saying "ILLUMINATE" and the lights would flicker. When I realized I was dreaming I started rubbing my hands and arms to gain stability, but it was too dark. So I just started screaming "ILLUMINATE" and the lights were flickering, but I guess I gave up in the dream and closed my eyes to wake up.

This morning I woke up into SP and was aware, so I closed my eyes and tried to imagine a dream world. At first, I could see the same girl's face from my last lucid experience and this overwhelming feeling of pleasure or something close to it. Following that, there were a series of buzzes in my head that I didn't think to much of, but I knew I had to think of a dream world quick, so I picked the closest thing to me which was my room. I imagined myself standing on my bed and soon enough I was in my room standing at the foot of my bed. I have a window in front of my bed on the right wall next to it, so I turned and went straight through the window. I had to get down to the street, so I levitated down to the street in front of me. I remember the entire experience gave me this feeling better than any high I've had. Everything also had a hint of gray (no joke intended). Right now I'm killing my head on trying to remember what happened after I levitated down, but it was awesome nonetheless.

Was in some kind of stadium, where I had to participate in some kind of match. After a while of searching for my team (I was lost) I find some people I know. Then a girl from my class who looks pretty good suddenly asks me if i want to date her, and i accept and we kiss suddenly. I meet some others as well but I suddenly think to myself: "I know this is a dream but I have to take it easy or I'll wake up). I carried the girl, even though I probably wasn't carrying her since I couldn't see her, I go somewhere but the dream ends.

Non-Lucid Lucid

So today I decided to take a nap (this seems to becoming a thing) in the hopes of being lucid and because I was tired. So anyways I fell asleep and was in the dreamworld. I can't remember where I was but that I was with two companions. Somewhere along the way I became lucid and decided I was going to fly. (I don't know how I didn't lose lucidity here, but whatever) I sadly did not fly as I had hoped to and became frustrated leading to the loss of my lucidity. In the rest of my dream for some reason I decided to make clones with one of the people and then with the clones turn them into walls. If only I had done this lucid. Ah well. Hopefully I will have better luck tonight.

Thoughts | Non-Lucid | Lucid | Techniques/Aids

5MG Melatonin, 2 shots Lemonade Vodka early in the evening, SSILD

Bedtime: 10:30P-6:00A

#101 DILD Penis Chop 1:32AM

I remember flying in space and ariving on board Star Trek USS Enterprise. I am welcomed on board by Captain Jean Luc Picard. I do various task with the ships computers. Fixing this and that. I don't really remember much.

Later we are over taken by some bad people. They force all the men to line up in groups of 3 and take turns chopping off their own penises. It comes my turn and I step up on a platform. There is a dark hole in the floor to catch the penises. I stretch mine out and hold a knife in the other. I don't want to do this. I look up and see a Klingon snearing at me. I know that if I don't do it, he will and I'll have no warning. I wonder which is worse. Me doing it or him. I begin looking for a way out.

Now I am so terrified that I become lucid. Now I know I am dreaming I think it wont matter if I do it. I wont even hurt. I visualize a cutting a hotdog. I move the knife a little but I still can't. I start to freak out. Now everything is worse because I feel trapped in this dream.

Then I get it. I decide to refuse the dream. The feeling is like in the movie "The Matrix" when Neo just calmly tells the bullets "no". (I know it sounds cheesy but that's the best way to describe it.) I relax and force the dream scene to collapse. At that point I sort of just checked out lucidly.

I am now non-lucid. I see a video game like scene. There is a green Mario pipe. I fill it with a block of sand and pour water on it. Two 8-bit sunflowers pop up. I wake up needing to pee.

WBTB alarm missed wake up about 4:40AM. Recorded a NLD. Coffee no Melatonin. Back to bed. Only up about ten minutes.

#102 Flying With My Wife / TOTM fail 6:00AM

I can't for the life of me remember the first chunk of this dream. I assume it was DILD and the first part felt really long. The dream was rich and very vivid. Maybe it was the lack of melatonin this time?

I am dimly lucid with my wife. Something that happened before feels like a dream I had a long time ago. We are inside a stone structure that looks like something from Minecraft. It is just a hollowed out area of 8-Bit stone with a large rectangular window leading outside. I take my wife by the hand. I remember starting to question if I am really dreaming. Then I say of course I am. Then lucidity get really strong. I tell my wife, "We have a TOTM to do."

We step out of the window and jump down. I look up and see the night sky. I look for the Aurora Borealis. Nothing but black. I run with my wife still holding her right hand in my left. I am excited. It feels like we are lucid together. I use expectation to put us in a snowy northern location thinking that will help. I look my right and see a frozen pond. There are Minecraft like cubes of ice and snow everywhere. Now I can hear the cruntch of snow under our feet. I say, "Look babe, See? We are up north now. We should be able to see the northern lights."

I use expectation again and tell myself that when I look up it will be there. Almost but so brief of a color streak. I try to will it in to being. I see some color in the sky. Another brief streak of dim dark green. I spend a considerable amount of time trying to imagine it. Each time it almost happens and then fades. I see a cloud that is lit up and multicolored. Lightning. flashes from behind it but nothing what I am wanting to see. At one point I put my right hand up and try to visualize the Aurora coming out of my hand. I see it like it is in my mind but on in the dream. (does that make any sense?) I put my hand down.

I decide to fly up and get a better look because I keep noticing tree branches around us. We fly only a few feet and land. I get irritated. Then, I get an idea. I tell myself that my wife can fly with no problem. At that instant, she floats up as far as she can go above me. We are still holding hands. I say, "OK great! Now pull me up." She pulls and now we are flying. With her in the lead pulling me, we float high into the sky. There is disappointment when there is no change in the sky. I begin to stare and concentrate at the cloud. Thinking color will spew out. Bad idea. I sat idle for too long. It was too much like meditation. The dream fades to white and I lose lucidity.

I slowly open my eyes. I see parts of my lashes in the light. I realize that I am staring at a brightly lit light bulb. There is an over head lamp on the on the head of the bed. I look around and see my wife alseep to my right. I see our dog snuggled up to me. Then I see my Aunt J with her head at the foot of our bed in between us. I wonder why the heck she is sleeping with us. I shrug it off and begin thinking about my lucid dream I just had.

I begin write in my DJ on my android device. Aunt J wakes up at that moment. She says, "Shiiiit. What am I doing?" and runs off. I watch her and notice that we are in a bed outside. She storms up a deck and starts to go in a house. She pauses and says something about "We didn't have sex." And makes this ridiculous facial expression. Instead being full blood Japanese she now looks African American. I'm just like OMG how can you even think that. Just them my wife wakes up. I say, "I don't even know what that was all about."

I look back to my DJ and then pause. "Hey babe, guess what? We had a lucid dream together."
She stretches and smiles, "OH YAY!"
I decide to get on DV to post in my workbook. I thought to mention that I was out of town visiting family so I won't post my dream yet but I had lucid #101. I was thinking how I failed the TOTM and remembering the lucid dream. Then I suddenly wake up for real. I quickly do a nose plug!