non-lucid

DR 1:

I was with my friend, which I am not so sure who was, in a tram. Sun had been falling down over the horizon. Tram was full of people but unfortunately there was no driver. I asked some lady if she could hold my bottle of ice tea and me and my friend went to the driver's cabin. Then we decided we would have some fun and drive. I was first to drive. I was driving through city and when I came to some station there was another tram in front of ours. I didn't break enough and I bumped into the tram in front on which rear wind shield cracked into thousands of small pieces. After that someone obviously reported us to the police and they started to chase us. My friend was on a row to drive now. Sun has completely vanished over the horizon and outside was pretty much dark. We had been driving for a little more. We didn't know how to close the door so I had to search for the button for that my friend has found it on the right on a small panel. We continued driving. Driver's cabin was completely in dark so I tried to find a button to turn on the panel lighting. My friend got mad on that but I anyway did it. When we came to next station there was police waiting for us. I quickly got again into passengers' compartment and threw myself down on the floor. I started crawling between the people and in the end went outside the tram. After that I was following the tram tracks which started to form some unreasonable patterns and have some curves on which it's impossible to drive a tram like 90 degrees etc. The street was turning right. Then suddenly a tram passed next to me and went to the left where the tracks were leading into the hill which was covered with tall grass. Only the tracks were visible between all the grass. So I went following the tracks. It looked really unreal and there was nothing else around except the tall grass and tracks. I got to a small iron bridge and I crossed it over. I continued following the tracks. I got to some weird like a bridge which was constructed like of a spine of some huge being....and the ribs were pointing out of the spine lol. It was long as the horizon. There wasn't end. It suddenly pulled me I think and I ended up in some strange land which wasn't my country maybe neither earth. There were creatures who looked like people almost. And the chief offered me two forms I can look like. One I picked was a some tall big man. With a hair to his shoulders. And I started to look like that. All I can remember is that they liked me and I don't remember what happened after.

My dream started where I got into this argument with my Mum ~ I turned and ran up the stairs into my old room. I put the TV in front of the door on the stand so it'd take time for her to make it through. I then went to the window as I opened it, jumping out and running away from home.

I ran for quite a while, I do remember an extra bit now of going to a clothes shop to look for a disguise there. Trying to find clothes that I wouldn't normally wear. But then I saw Mum in the same shop, looking around for and asking questions if the people there had seen me. I ran outside, looking around at the other buildings. I came across what looked like a rundown building.

I entered, thinking it'd be the perfect place to hide. I found these people who said they knew a disguise when I told them I'd ran away from home. They showed me a row of mannequins, distracting me, and then injected something into me from behind. When I knocked out they put this machine (I'm not sure what it was) in front of me, it started to enter my body (So it wasn't solid at that point, now that I think about it ~ It was like a possession). I woke before it was completely inside of me though, the pain extreme, and it attacked me, trying to knock me out so it could finish the transfer!

The craziest part of this dream journal is that I do not remember writing it or having the dream at all. I have gotten into the habit of whenever I awake from a dream in the middle of the night, I already have a Word Doc open on my laptop which is right by my bed, so I can put it on my stomach, close my eyes, and just type what I remember. I read this the next day and was pretty freaked out.

I remember being conscious in my dream at a point where my dream self was trying to replicate an experiment on how an early exorcist type person was able to defeat and drive out evil spirits. In particular I remember a very visceral image of reproduction where I am reenacting it as the mad scientist himself and that I was swinging over a giant swamp full of giant chomping rats. I never got bit or hurt, but the panic was definitely there.

Fragments: A guy preparing to move on, saying "Can I borrow this map?"; a gallery/cafe belonging to an art group called The Future People or something similar; a runway show based on Sleep No More; a newly-made vampire using mantras to learn dreamwalking, using it to watch over a friend, another vampire, who's being held hostage.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

I'm with a group of people stealing some huge metal sphere, but as we're driving off with it, we lose it, and we circle back and argue over where it could be. I catch sight of myself in the rear view mirror and realize one of my front teeth is loose, to the point of falling out. I'm thinking I'm going to have to see a dentist, which annoys me. I notice all the teeth on that side are loose.

I 'wake up' in my IRL home and go to the bathroom mirror to check my teeth after that dream. I spit out long strings of gritty, bloody material, textured like sand. I'm thinking it's good to get that out.

This werewolf kid in human form is sitting in a car, tied up, with blood covering his face. There's a blond girl in the seat behind him who didn't believe his stories about werewolves until just now, as a werewolf in wolf form leans in through the door, right into the kid's face. The girl starts screaming.

I'm dropping off that same werewolf kid at this mansion, and there are three men standing on the steps out front to meet us. I'm saying to them, "Are you all Adrian's?" Adrian's the wolf kid's name, I'm asking if he turned them, which I'm hoping is not the case. And it isn't; they introduce themselves to me, and it turns out the house holds some organization of witches or magicians or something of that variety. They're all very friendly. One of them, this heavyset old queen, mentions that he's single, and I'm amused. When I introduce myself, I add, "And I'd have to be invited in," just so we're all clear.

I was at my house waiting for some other friends to arrive to play some monopoly I was with Chris, Will and I believe Frank and Mirsa were still on their way. We were setting up the game and I regain a bit of vividness when Eli was making a deal with someone which was totally ridiculous which he was actually considering like trading broadwalk with a water utility and $100 which everyone was cracking up since he was considering it. After that I remember I loged on to a computer and checked on my fantasy team and saw that all my players blew up like crazy and I beat Chris who I am playing this week which was awesome hopefully Sunday does not let me down.

Third-person P.O.V shows a kid about 8 or 9 who is in some ghetto place of Africa. There are several floors laid with loose old bricks. The kid does crazy and dangerous life-threatening stunts. He says he does these stunts because he pretty much has nothing to live for. After he says that, the view ascends up the brick landscape slowly. As it gets onto the higher levels, a series of miniature skeletons appear on the rugged and dirty brick floor. As we ascend, the skeletons get much smaller. These are the skeletons of impoverished human beings. I now understood why the kid never cared if he lost his life doing those crazy stunts. I felt an overwhelming sense of sympathy and felt sorry for the kid.

I am chillin with some friends in a parking lot. Out of the crowd, i remember Sean, Tim, and possibly Billy being there. Sean spots a car and wants to jack it, but Tim insists that we jack the Honda. We get inside and drive who knows where.

Transition to being outside in the third person point of view. Some girl with a bun in her hair is spying but running from a couple of girls (One of them is Brittini) at the same time because they were cannibal traffickers. She keeps almost getting caught, hiding behind brick walls and bushes and barely avoiding their gaze. Some other innocent girl (Emily) runs into the screen and is in their plain sight but is cutting corners and running. Cut scene.

Transition to me in a room alone with my "friends". I now realized that they try to get rapport with you and gain your trust, convince you they are their friends and make you feel comfortable, only to make you vulnerable and turn around to sell your body to cannibals. I don't let them know that I know this. They leave the house and leave me alone there. I try to devise a plan to fuck them all up (don't know why i didn't just run away). As someone enters the door, i line up a haymaker to his jaw as he cuts the corner. It is my roommate who i am very close with so i end up not doing it. Later on, i end up awakening to my roommate actually going to use the bathroom in waking life and i act like i'm sleeping but keep a close eye on him because i think that he wants my body for protein.

Transition to me running outside planning my escape now. Some guy in a truck seems suspicious as if he was paid to keep an eye on me. He turns his head, sees me, and starts trying to follow me, but his clumsy ass crashes.

I am alone in a giant movie theatre with seats that are facing different directions. For some reason, i sat at a seat facing away from the screen and turned my neck to watch whatever it was....it felt comfortable at the time. I go below to the "help yourself refreshments" and spill water all over the place.

I am apart of some group dance going on on stage. I am reluctant and shy because it is improvised, but the other dancers cheer me on. As the split dancers emerge together coming from both sides, i start to get my groove on and come out of my shell. I end up really getting in the mood and doing flips and handstand push-ups. The group dancers were trying to hold me back and tell me that I am doing too much and that it is a GROUP dance, not an individual show off type of routine. Whatever. I keep doing my thing and disregard these fools.

11/01/13 Bed 12am - 8am

Mentally exhausted, but I couldn't sleep, so I meditated for a while sitting on a bed. I was asking for help figuring things out.

DR
I'm staying in a hotel. It's huge. Indoor is bright, multi-story, marble and glass everywhere. I walk around and come to a retirement home. I'm thinking how nice for the residents, to live right inside of a mall, so near to entertainment and shops.

I'm in my hotel room. Suddenly I feel a tooth in my mouth. I spit it out and wrap in a cloth. I go downstairs to the dentist to have it reattached. He says sure, but I'm gonna need 12 shots. I'm asking "why would I need shots"? And he says "Shots are great at taking away the pain".

So I make an appointment to get there at 6:30. On my way there I stop to pick up bread I had apparently pre-ordered. They hand me a large bag of flat sheet of rolls. As I'm walking away, they are suddenly in a huge burlap shopping bag. And I don't just have one, but 4 of them. I look inside and in one of them are 2 lizards.

I walk to the outside of the hotel. A georgeous park starts right there. It reminds me of the forest where Snake finds Tsushinoko, with all the little colorfull frogs, squirells, fireflies... It looks like there is black moss on the ground and on the rocks. I stop and look at the animals. There is this tangeine sized ball, that looks like it's made ouf of suede. It has huge, very cute eyes. There is at least 2-3 different species of them. Up on a rock I see a small, 1inch long, black centipede. He is so cute. There are firns, and some lizards. I think this is the attraction of the hotel.

I keep walking on the path through this park, looking for a safe place to release the lizards. Away from streets and people. There is some landscaped area with bushes, but they have no leaves, and there is noo grass. I'm looking for a place where they could hide right away. Just accross is an area with foot tall clover. I shake first lizard out of the bag. He is about foot long, bright green with yellow tummy. The other one is very similar. They are a couple. They are fat, and they move slowly.

I'm waking back to the dentist office and I see a nurse leaving. She tells me I'm late (I know i'm 30 min late and it's 7pm now), but to go and check to be sure. I come to the office and doctor is just locking up. We talk for a bit and I'm not sure if he still takes me in. So I guess my pain is all mine.

Noon nap frags:
I'm in a store, looking at displayed binoculars. I want to look through a rifle scope, but someone just pickes it up. He says that it's all not focused, because there is not enough distance to look at. I pick up a 7x50 small binocular. I aim it at the window and at the hills behind it. I amazed to find some hikers going up the hill on a slanted path. They start changing and now they look more like chimps and gorillas. I think they are a new species or human-apes.

I probably have trouble picking out what I am going to wear for church. I end up going shirtless. It's been a while since i've been there and i notice that I am different from the people there. Since I am shirtless, i start to get cold. I am slightly embarrassed and try to save face by walking out and going downstairs. I see some kids in the basement of the church and i either give them gifts or play with them. My mom ends up cooking there and plenty of less fortunate kids keep asking if they can have some of her food. She tells them that they are more than welcome to take whatever they want. From soda to turkey.

Was at my G.ma House again. My sister was there as well. It was dark outside... maybe raining... There was a sense of forbodding within the house and I knew something was wrong. I go up and into my old room, but hear my sister yelling to get out. Suddenly there's a dragon im my room thrashing around, and i quickly fall back out of the room and slam the door closed. My sister has this annoyed tone, dripping with sarcasm, that i "didn't know" about the dragon.

I'm starting to try to cover the widows on the house and remain quiet becuse we don't want to attract others to the hosue.

There's a crash and my sister is there... apparently the dragon has smashed through the upper level and was now in the bathroom on the lower floor. It was stuck there for now.

10/31/13

1. I'm in NY. We have an RV, but i don't know where are we going. For some reason I'm waiting for a cab. I see 3 of them down the road, but they all turn away before coming to me. Then I see the RV and I wanna get picked up, but I already called a cab and don't wanna screw the cabbie over.

2. I'm in an ethnic restaurant in NY. It's a longish room, with a waiter. When we are done, we all sit down in an ante-room on a long bench. There is about 10 of us, all girls. The waiter feel sorry for us so she brings out a huge metal container full of toasted bread and something similar and she offers each of us a piece.

As we sit there, we discuss what we gonna do in the evening. Some are going clubbing. I want to go to just look around the town and maybe get a hot dog.

Gandolfiny walks in with his wife, arm in arm. She has a white long coat. He is smiling.

10.30.13 Bed 9:47pm - 9:50am

Emotional rollercoaster last few weeks and exhausted, hence the early bed.

1. I'm standing on the outside of a 1-2 story, european style, family house. Terracotta color, red roof. A friend of mine just turned into a grasshopper with human face. He hopped on my shoulder and asked me to show him the chimny. So I started climbing to the roof on the outside of the house, while he was hopping all over me.

2. I'm really tired. Mentally drained. I'm on hospital bed at a doctor's private house. I don't think I'm sick, just tired. At some point I can see with my eyes closed. Doctor is leaving in the evening someplace, his replacement came to watch over me while he is gone.

3. I'm cutting vegetables in the kitchen, that doesn't have side walls. I feel Ophelia nearby. I'm telling someone with laughter, that if my fingers were messed up, I would be dreaming. I lift my left hand up and my ring finger is shorter. I tell this persone "see, just like this" and I start laughing hysterically at my mind, how is it trying to trick me again.

My dream last night involved TONS of my friends in the tulpa community (though I only know what a few of them look like, so I guess my mind filled in the gaps).

We all lived in a large house, probably about 3 or 4 floors high. Each floor had several areas with lots of bedding that people shared. I can't remember anything that was done or said in particular, but I do remember racing up and down the stairs a lot. This dream also had the usually 3rd person perspective that most of my dreams have.