Non-Lucid Dreams
So I finally had another dream, it's been about a week and a half since I could recall my last, and what I remember is my current house being larger than it is IRL, and I believe the dream lasted 4 days? I don't really remember but in the dream I do remember waking up multiple times. When I did wake up, I would go smoke a cigarette, and that's it. (The cigarette part is weird because I've never smoked or had a desire to smoke IRL.)
3/2/20 I am in my godmother's house with her many kids I am baking She gets frustrated by my spilling flour I tell her I will clean up When I'm done I wipe it all up The bread is a small breadstick someone asks me about They compliment me I notice the house is dirty I spend maybe 30 minutes cleaning up their living room of debris and paper left from the kids playing My godfather is very surprised and pleased at the end result He mentions having a special time on certain days where we can clean like that, as the whole house is disorderly I am fine with it because it's superficial cleaning and wouldn't take any time at all Transitions to walking down a street with old highschool friends/church friends There are several youth group bands set up all singing the same music along the street. I have a rolling table stand I am leaning on and roll it over to watch the groups play in unison Suddenly a band behind everyone starts playing their own music It's not bad it's just not what other people are playing The other bands stop and seem confused so they turn around and watch the new band play I stand with friends and lean on my pummel horse type stand table while watching I am walking down the street with friends again My buddy Nate decides to hit on some girls we are walking by He tells them he wants to show them something We all get on a shuttle/bus that has a sound system We all have headphones we plug into their sound ports He is playing some song for them he wants the girls to listen to I am confused because the music isn't that great He then tells one of the girls that she looks just like the lead singer of this band and he thought she would think it was cool People are somewhat impartial We all now take turns playing music for each other to listen to I tell the group it would be cool if we randomly played a song and had the group guess who was the one who selected it as a game People like that idea We only get a couple of songs in One is apparent because it's a sappy hills CW type song that is definitely this helpless romantic girl sitting in the front who used to have a crush on me I now notice that I have two small fuzzy very very newborn baby birds sitting on my head They seem incredibly premature and I'm not sure they will make it I carefully remove them from my head and place them down on a counter They are both still alive but I gather they will need some serious care I am in a run-down market like a dollar store with no attendant so I start rummaging around looking for materials to build a nest/make food/administer it to them I've only seen a few videos of people taking care of birds this young and small I get some soft towels and find some creamy soup I wonder how I will keep them warm and look for a hot water bottle The attendant comes out and looks confused I tell them the situation and show them the birds, they are relieved and sympathetic to my cause 3/05/20 Driving w mom in a smart car She drives off the road, on a log, and almost over a cliff I carry the car backward and turn it around by hand I am driving through a winter storm with an older woman in the car It is a 50's classic now The controls are two levers It is tricky but manageable Highway speeds but tons of snow and ice on the road I am kidnapped by a larger bald man with glasses He takes us (myself and three siblings) to some old house in the middle of nowhere He has an incestuous family His kids don't wear clothes and they are all dirty I escape with my sister We make it a town over before he finds us He takes me in a car to a meeting The meeting is in an old dim looking pool hall/bar They are having a sacrificial service They are burning a toddler I don't want to be there It is a celebration for them they are all dressed up and communing like it is a holiday for them I am disgusted and try to leave several times Each time he walks me back in and forces me to watch It is smokey in the room I escape and make it to my car while everyone is leaving I call the police to report what is going on It occurs to me there were many firefighters and police there and They may be everywhere The guy on the other end of the phone seems unphased I hang up and key into my car and start to drive away 3/06/20 Being given a tour of the space shuttle that is a mix of Saturn v There are a few of us standing on the core up high There is a screen that simulates the heights and I stand to the side because it is almost disorienting Just then the top opens up and we are lowered down the sides almost like a ride We each have a chest strap holder like a roller coaster and we line the inside of the craft facing each other I wonder if Starship could hold people like this I am in a classroom with people I went to high school with The math teacher seems hip He has long dark hair with some grey streaks He also wears black-rimmed glasses He has a unique sense of humor and the students like him There is a note taped to the front board talking about how his wife left him It seems like it's meant to be a morose joke A kid I went to high school with is singing/beatboxing a song and everyone is listening to him I have the sudden realization that I am too old to be here It frustrates me I say out loud realizing it is a dream 'why am I even here? I am too old to be in school!" Everyone stops and the teacher looks at me The teacher begins talking to me directly I don't recall everything he says but he tells me something along the lines of "because you want to learn" it is true, I have been asking to be taught by my dreams I just didn't expect it to be so literal He explains a few things to me and his voice becomes jibberish I begin to wake up I remain still and focus on the dream and talking to him The dream reappears around me exactly as before with fewer students in there with me This happens a few times and I am able to reform the dream and reappear in the same classroom always with the teacher The last time I reappear the colours are off in the room I ask him why things look different now It is almost night time and there are no lights I manifest small flames in my right hand and intend them to go along the wall in the back of the classroom, with each one the room gets brighter Once they line the back wall they begin to dim and flicker I intend them all to be brighter at once and they do The room is brightly lit now Our studies continue I am in the back of a department store mixed with a chemical facility it seems There is an invisible person wrestling with me I ask them to help me carry cans of a beverage out and they oblige I see a girl I used to know hooking up with one of the guys in the bathroom They are shocked I walked in but I don't care I just have to urinate really badly I set up to pee and go for what seems like minutes The guy looks over at me amazed that I am going for so long The relief feels amazing My penis hangs down past the knee of my shorts when I am done, I don't care I am in a gas station/head shop I purchase a large water pipe and a smaller rig for oil that looks like the nectar collector but more convoluted For some reason, I throw a small weight through a Pepsi machine and it puts a hole in the front of it Whenever someone uses water on the beverage station, pop spews out the hole I find the water cut off and switch it off to fix the problem I find the water hookup to the machine that was broken and unplug it I am now able to turn the water back on and other dispensers work 3/07/20 There's a taco truck part of a cultural festival thing The tacos are super cheap and we buy a few to eat Like a dollar apiece I have a backpack full of money In a friend's house, it is super big with many gadgets and an expensive computer and a voice-activated shower I am the rich kid doing some promotional tv spot I am walking on top of a telephone booth and something else that is mostly glass It breaks with my step and I crash through it falling to the ground Broken glass is everywhere I am bloody and covered in thousands of small glass shards My stomach is cut up too I can walk fine but everything stings I go to the large house and tell the shower to turn on It is a large walk-in room attached to the bedroom The water is at the perfect temperature I try to clean myself but some glass still remains I am picking glass out of my skin the entire dream I notice several cars driving down the long driveway from the bedroom which is on the second story My friend's siblings have all arrived They are all older My friend offers me some shrooms to take for our trip I eat one to microdose but never end up feeling anything They are large like baby bellas not small like normal shrooms He turns everything off in his room but tells me to leave his windows open The screens are still in place We go downstairs and meet his siblings who are all of various ages much older than us One of his brothers has a hang drum he is playing on the stage in their front yard I want to play it but never make it onto the stage 3/12/20 Driving see a circle of sunlight on the moon that fades in a minute or two Parked at a campground that is also the parking lot of the spa Kevin is giving me a tour of the new facilities Everything is updated and newer futuristic looking I am crying because I am back I pack up and go to leave the parking lot Drive down the street before I realize I forgot things on the ground by my campsite A necklace and a few more things Drive back and there is another car parked in the lot I pick up my things slowly and a guy walks up to me and asks me if 73-year-olds can float We talk about the tanks while I walk up to the spa with him I tell him I was just leaving but I'm happy to talk to him He is impressed with my knowledge and glad to talk to me I tell him to tell the people in the spa about me Mark is standing in the other room talking to other employees Fast forward I am in a camper/RV I am looking at my body and it looks like someone else's body My ribs pulsate and roll like a fish out of water My elbow has an exposed joint like a puppet I am made of a flesh coloured plastic material My arm is many mechanisms Someone is shocked I don't look human I may be an alien I say oh, those? Those are just my tubes 3/14/20 Some kind of political action event in a long hallway People are lined up to hear different other people talk at certain intervals There is a woman in a chair trying to talk to people but no one is listening because she isn't official There is a man reciting the Hare Krishna Everyone joins in and sings There is a dance troupe of guys doing a pre-rehearsed dance routine I join in for the fun of it but I don't know the dance He tells me for the next segment I need a pair of boots I don't have any They have a special shoe with a brick on one foot It is like a stomp routine Later he asks me why I didn't dance as tight as them I told him I'm not a dancer but I like to dance I have no formal training He is sitting at a computer Upstairs there is a girl who has an amateur bakery in her room Her oven is a wood stove made of plywood There are tons of fresh baked bread rolls and sourdough in forms Everyone seems to be really impressed with her She is surrounded by older men trying to court her I wait until fewer people are there and begin talking to her questioning about the oven and how it's constructed I tell her I wish my parents let me have an oven in my room when I was younger It is all a sort of historical reproduction now There are hundreds of smaller birds that I thought were moths at first They are tiny like the size of cicadas They obviously are there for the crumbs I ask her who eats the birds And a cat appears and catches one on the floor She says see, a perfect ecosystem We have a conversation about historical reproduction and how someone a hundred years ago would never imagine that we would be baking bread the same way but then jump in our car and go a hundred miles an hour down the highway She turns down many gentlemen callers Our conversation is pleasant 3/15/20 Elon tells me to collect foliage They capture a dinosaur and take it across the street I have a special calculator that is an mp3 player for Victor Nikki falls weird while trying to snowboard down a mountain with fresh powder We rescue her and she is embarrassed I'm in a large airport terminal/arcade like a futuristic dave and busters I am taking a trip overseas with Guy with Ginny too I realize last minute I don't have a clothes bag packed and go back to pack clothes I'm walking through the terminal and can't find my clothes anywhere There is a leak from the ceiling and a couple of small pools of water on the floor A worker middle-aged woman tells me not to step there and I don't listen and slip slightly but maintain my step She gets mad at me and tells me she is going to get me in trouble I ask her if she is a middle school teacher because she's bad at ordering people around A cop/guard comes over to me later and is annoyed the woman bothered him for such a stupid reason, he mocks her in front of me 3/16/20 Sitting at a four-top table with three other middle-aged women They are silently bidding on fancy plates to eat pizza with a fork and knife on The woman I am paired up with tells me she only puts one slice on a plate at a time We all put our heads down to bid I don't understand the process and they are all seasoned in it I look at my phone and swipe away a few messages The lady across from me chastised me for not paying attention and looking at my phone I look up and begin to yell at her and tell them that they are all petty as fuck and this whole process is stupid as hell and I walk away out of the store Down the street, I see Nikki by a large tree next to a river We hang out and it is a pleasant rekindling I am suddenly large and cut like Karl urban we begin to hook up but I am also watching it happen As the intercourse progresses there is a power-play between who is in control Her face gets blood red and pulsed like she is lifting weights and she grows a beard as she becomes more forceful The me I am watching asks her why can't I just love you like I used to, and she shrugs I am in a Halloween store with my mother and there are workers in costume just casually walking around I go to the makeup section to browse There is an upstairs loft that isn't too populated but has a guy sitting at a desk He is selling laser-cut temporary tattoos that literally burn complicated designs into your skin but shed within a day or two He shows me some demos and I am impressed It looks like it hurts but he assures me it's quick and painless, he also shows me pictures of how quickly it fades, I think it's a great idea There is a small snack shop connected to the costume store that has three mini sliders for sale They have 3 of them put together to show the workers on a shelf up high with a mirror directed to show the reflection They seem tasty but I don't try any There is a drive-thru I am suddenly in a Mexican restaurant of sorts back in the kitchen I gather I am a server but hanging out with the cooks I see one of the cooks eating his lunch real quick There is a paper towel dispenser which is full of long flat tortillas rolled up His burrito is half hanging from the ripping part as he eats the remainder I take both hands and pull out the last bit and ask him if I can have it while it's already in my hands He shrugs and I realize I should have asked before grabbing the food with both hands I apologize and begin to eat it. It's dry but flavorful I am a cowboy in the western 19th century I am with a troupe who take over some ritzy plantation with force We threaten with guns but aren't overly violent The slaves are all worried at first but I assure them they are all free now and don't have to worry about anything They are all african american women in their 20s and 30s and they are surprised and happy to be freed by us The plantation owners aren't very pleased but go along with it We all sit down to have a meal and serve ourselves family-style dishes I have huge portions on my plate of coleslaw green beans and potato salad It all tastes really good and I talk to the people around the table about how southern food tastes so much better when you're in the south There is someone in my troupe who is severely prejudice against army soldiers and there is a soldier who is in the room too He tries to fight him and wants to kill him outside More army shows up and there is a large explosion 3/17/20 There were several episodes to my memory recall. But it picks up. And I am in a homie warm large cottage, that seems like it's at a summer camp or something. Surrounded by people that are there at the camp and they are familiar to me like festival. There seems to be a kind of war. For the battle between the two sides, one is a red side one is a blue side people are dressed like pirates, but also like festival ware. I talk to a guy who has multiple large sticks/logs, and one of them looks like a didgeridoo. I ask him if it's a didge and he says, I don't think so but it might be and I ask him if there's a hole in the center. I take it from him and begin to look and notice that the log is larger than I thought it was at an off angle and there is a hollow hole through the center of the trunk, but there are many cobwebs and debris inside of it and I don't feel like putting my mouth on the end to see if it reverberates like a didgeridoo. At a certain point, there was a female companion with me who felt very warm. We were connected in a way that we knew each other prior to this experience. We spent time alone away from the group, we were inside of almost like a hanging woven wooden egg-shaped chair we sat in together and there was a spell put on the chair so that no one else could see that we were in it even while standing next to us. There was this overarching theme of magic. Like maybe we were magical creatures or we were hanging around magical creatures. There are some memory gaps and it transitions to me exploring the outside area and there are multiple buildings all connected with a flat black asphalt pathway, that is almost as wide as a road and is very smooth and glossy. To move quickly. I put rocks under my feet and I'm able to slide down the hill very easily almost like I'm ice skating. I see someone else pass me on the other side of the walkway only they are riding a flat disc-like sled. They look at me laughingly and are curious at what's on my feet as they pass me by going the opposite direction. I go to the far edges of the area and there's an older building that doesn't really seem to be used anymore, but there is a small family out front and I gather that he is making fake bigfoot plasters imprints And they are worried that I will catch them in what they are doing, but I pretend not to notice and ask them questions about the building. They say they will open the doors for me but no one is in there, so I don't really care. I end up walking through one of the glass panes into the building and it's like a science museum child's education center. With cartoonish graphics on the walls amongst other things but it is barren and no one is in there. I walk out and tell them what's the point of having a lock on the door if their windows are open, I continue walking around the campus. I am suddenly in a theater/arcade area where everything has neon lights. They are low lit like pink neons and green neons and everything feels retro almost like from the 80s. I don't recognize anybody anymore and there are many older games that are being projected on a movie screen in a theater that people are playing. I ask a guy sitting upon a stool playing an old box arcade game what year it is and he says, it's 1980 I say, oh shit I must have time-traveled again. Now realizing that I am stuck in another time. I can't figure out how to get back, so I just wander around and explore the area trying to get to where I came from. Every new opening seems to lead to a new area. None of which looks like the place I was in before. There's a big open midway. That seems like the opening of a movie theater with many different doorways going in different directions, it almost feels like a science museum. But more like a theater and everything is still retro colored and the people even are dressed in the style that was popular in the eighties. 3/18/20 I am in India There is a strong current river next to the town I am in there is a long tube wave down the length of it I befriend a young girl who identifies as a boy but she looks more androgenous We venture around the markets of the town and they seem quaint and simple, yet familiar I have one day left in India before I have to travel back and I am trying to figure out where to go to spend it I have a conversation about which part of India is more Muslim and which is more Indian traditional We are taken to an Indian temple that hosts pagan rituals There are several guys in the group who seem like posers to me They want to be baptized in pigs blood They are lowered into aquariums full of blood and act super affected by the ritual While this is happening the temple is lit with a green glow, it is night time I begin coughing hard and a long bloody hairy mess comes out of my throat I cough up this bundle of blood and hair and feel incredibly relieved when it is all out, it takes a minute or two to drag it out I am annoyed at the white guys who paid to have the faux ceremony and gather it is a service the locals provide to tourists who don't know any better We are at a convenience store and the guys are being rude and rambunctious I have painstakingly baked a cheesecake from scratch and one of the guys found it and ate it all I am pissed off because I have to shave I grab his mouth and press the remaining cake out of his mouth and smear it on my face to shave with I wipe it off with napkins We find a snack dispenser that has reusable plastic bags under it of different sizes to our snacks in, I am trying to do the bat conversion to figure out if I have enough money left over to buy some There is a large overweight man who comes into the store and pushes over a girl in our group I start hitting him with pipe pieces on the floor and he is shocked He claims innocence and was just trying to get her attention He walks back into the kitchen and asks for hours to work, they put him to work 3/20/20 Cooking school under one chef she is female We are in blue and red teams She asks me to make chocolate ice cream with thousand island I spend time walking around looking for the recipe folder My friend from my last restaurant job is in the crowd and wants to talk about aliens but I am busy trying to put the recipe together It ends up looking like a hamburger bun with ice cream in the middle I ask the chef if they are macaroons She says no that would be cream on cream we take a field trip to Tel Aviv to sample traditional food I am excited because it looks very authentic and the restaurant is filled with locals We file into booths along the wall There are mostly females and I am one of the few guys We look at menus and I order a coconut shrimp appetizer but don't remember ordering my main course The restaurant seems to be meat-based After we place our orders we are ushered next door to a warm springs spa where we can relax and get massages and general pampering It is very relaxing and the water feels great We are all in our bathing suits After some time we finish as a group and begin to congregate in front of the restaurant next door for our meal One guy in the group is trying to complain/make a joke that we should all be in our trousers to relax, but he is wearing a long traditional dress and so am I. He says "everyone is wearing their trousers come on", I reply slyly, "Oh really? Everyone huh?" Sarcastically, people giggle at me and the teacher next to me laughs at my observation that he is not in trousers We sit in new tables this time that are rectangular heavy wooden tables with wooden chairs all around There are maybe a dozen such large tables in the hall Just as people around us are getting their food a very large crowd of maybe 50 Muslim men arrive in the open-ended restaurant all cheering clapping and singing They go from table to table one at a time lifting every chair and table up to shoulder length while chanting a certain prayer or blessing very loudly When this happens I notice the women lean backward and throw their heads back and the men lean forward and bow over their table I want to watch but an obese man at the table next to me grabs my neck/head and holds it down during one of the blessings When they get to our table the food is already on it but we all stand up and let them lift our chairs and table while we stand by and attempt to sing along with the blessing Once they finish the whole crowd departs as quickly as they arrived singing and clapping getting quieter as they leave the area The whole experience was energetic and mystical almost otherworldly We are now sitting at our table looking at the food which has been sat in front of us. I don't remember what main I ordered but I am sure I don't have the right food, other people's meat looks really good but I think I may only have an appetizer The dream fades as I look around the table at everyone's entree, wondering if this is family-style or if we are only allowed to eat what we ordered. 3/21/20 At a rodeo wearing a long tan coat There are many people there A native american girl keeping giving me weird looks A guy tries to sell me his run-down jeep cherokee for $400 Jake Neely runs around like a wild beast chasing a cow I have a sniper rifle 3/22/20 Purple electrical storms 5 tornadoes/dust devil's Eat waffle house to go At a school after hours hanging with a teacher A large america festival with thousands of people closely packed in Run by a company that sells fake underwater experiences using fish tanks and backdrops At some underground party/festival and hear a band playing in the basement I see a guy who looks like weird al there is no one downstairs watching The band sounds awesome like electro-funk and they are wearing costumes like cybertronic spree Lasers and light effects and smoke, it is an entrancing show I watch and groove for a while and a couple of people show up and are super surprised that I didn't come specifically to see the band and don't know their names They both are wearing cybertronic spree t-shirts they go back to the band manager and tell them I am living in 2015 and don't know anything but that they need promo people and I might be useful Something about Bin Laden coming down a river in a boat to see me I have two books I take with me We sit in the boat, it feels Egyptian We talk for a while Afterward, a guy who works for him tells me he is impressed that I talk to girls every day 3/23/20 Going to Wayne's house for shamanic group There are many people I don't recognize A lot of them are young Gin is with me We watch a pixar movie about a dragon that changes colours There is a balloon made of glass in the room The shamanic practices never start I gather he doesn't practice anymore His wife left him and he lives alone I am trying to get to Wayne's house and driving the car through some shopping mall that is also a restaurant People are shocked I have a car on the walking path I ask a woman how to get to a certain address she tells me to follow her She leads me to another woman who starts to get a table for me I tell her I asked the other woman how to get to the address on this paper I have She rolls her eyes and walks away I decide to use my phone and google it I was close, his house is through a shop at the end of a corridor I leave Wayne's and walk down the block I am in Kettering by a large field I see Jack with his drum and many others showing up for an event There are maybe a hundred people there Jack tells me it's drum day, he asks me to move a garbage bin to the edge of the road so the smell doesn't blow into people while we play I am amazed there are so many people gathered. I am suddenly upset no one has masks on and everyone is pretending it is like before with no precautions I decide to go back to Wayne's to tell him about the drum circle He has no idea but is surprised by the coincidence He doesn't want to leave the house There is a cafe in the mall outside his house with a stage There are many musicians who gather to make music I have my guitar with me in its soft case but I don't play One of the musicians has a rattle that is many hands that clap when you shake it He has some monologue about how making tools to congratulate yourself stunts progress when you self reinforce without external checks A larger vehicle drives by that he made with dozens of the same rattles automatically shaking and cheers playing through loudspeakers It's like a mobile cheering and clapping crowd. But no one is clapping I am missing my guitar and go around the stage looking for it, I see several cases that are the same as mine but have other equipment in it I realize I left all my stuff in my car Someone has my possessions in a felt purse they put aside for me I jokingly ask if I can keep the bag and they say no I walk back to my car, a child asks me if I am looking for younger people, I say no I'm leaving now, everyone says bye to me I'm in a classroom that feels like a mix between an art room and a cafeteria I look at myself in the mirror and I am a younger blonde girl with odd shapes painted on my face like Bowie I get into a verbal argument with a table of obese african american girls sitting in front of me They were making fun of someone close to me and I began questioning them and telling them off One of them got up and started walking towards me I mock their actions asking them if they were going to hit me because they disagree with me I am on a roll and they don't know how to respond because everyone around them is astonished they are being told off by a little girl A bigger girl who looks trans begins to get an attitude with me, I tell her off just the same People are on my side because I am standing up to horrible people who are known bullies She eventually gets fed up and walks away People are happy for me I make a comment about something big as she walks away because I notice she is a head taller than everyone else People go ooooooooh and I feel like I have won the day *NSFW* Spoiler for NSFW: I am at Alyssa's house on the front porch I buzz the door because I know she's home She comes to the door but doesn't open it I hear her moaning through the speaker box I can hear her pleasuring herself and her little squeaks of joy, the sounds of her body She rubs herself to climax while I stand at the door She then slowly opens the door and I see she is completely naked She looks up to me with a sultry wanting lust drunkenness look in her eye I confirm she is alone in the house by glancing back I reach down and run my fingers through her slit gathering some of her juices I bring my hand to my mouth and taste her while she bites her lip watching me She tastes like sweet nectar I step into the house, the door shuts behind me as I feel her naked body against me The dream ends 3/26/20 Road trip south to Florida w family Get there and realize Gin isn't with us They say she's not invited and I get angry and yell It's a white house kinda run down I think it may be my uncle's second home We stay on the first floor I go to the basement to explore It is dark and cavernous like a dungeon Cody is with me as we venture from room to room There is water under the floor There are tons of red jellyfish looking creatures in the water I Google them on my phone I slip into the water once but they don't bother me Cody helps me up We go into a larger room that has metal bars all around the windows like a prison and a very large almost statue-like dagger/feather hanging diagonally from the ceiling through the room The whole room is musky and rank with cobwebs all over and vines hanging from the ceiling My mother's brother shows up and flips on the light switch to the room The lights flick on and everything looks normal now, flat white walls and tile floors I am shocked that it looked so crazy before and wonder what the effect is I pull out my flashlight on my phone and turn the lights to the room off again and shine it I see now the effect, the light shines through the thin walls and shows the bars in the other side of the windows and such The large feather dagger hanging from the middle of the room is gone I try to describe it and mention I have seen it before, I've been here before I am with a group of friends in a post-apocalyptic scenario Many people are migrating at once and there is chaos Large crowds of people walking down the street congregating at certain waypoints to meet with others At one of the waypoints I see a girl I used to know, only she looks slightly different I glance at her name tag and it says Elizabeth though I know her IRL name is Savannah I say loudly, Elizabeth eh? As I walk out of the crowded room with her to my back She is with one of her friends and calls out to me when we get outside I go back to her and we talk She looks different but still familiar, slightly rougher as if life has been tough for her She mentions she has a place where we can sleep for the night if we need My friends are very interested because we are nomadic survivors now and will take anything we can get It skips to the house where she offered us to stay We are all in one room and there are three beds in it The sheets are made but it feels like an old person's house I realize that people have died in these beds and there are towels on the floor at the end of the beds with fluids on them There is that stale putrid smell in the air I ask if it's true and she says yes, the place she works at deals with body removal and she gets to use whatever is leftover I am immediately bothered by the situation I cannot sleep in a bed that someone just died in Someone in the room questions me as to my hangups and I tell them "The fabric of space-time, the literal three-dimensional space is torn or altered by the transition when someone dies. This place is tainted by death" The person struggles to listen to me and kind of rolls their eyes at me I don't care and leave There is a fragment where I am with a large hispanic family One of them has started a food truck and is catering a party they are having Everything is free and laid out like a cookout People have their fill and there is still plenty of leftovers I pick through Some 7 layer taco dip Some chips, some tacos, and a tres leches cake with white icing It all tastes very good but I don't have any utensils and eat with my hands The icing goes everywhere I am on some gameshow with several over thieves and criminals We all take the same tour bus around town I gather the theme is something about who can steal the most without getting caught We are given nothing and no help But everyone must be secretive and no one really talks to each other At the store, one guy tries to take a large pallet of rolled quarters but is immediately caught by security I bend over to help and hand the stack of rolled quarters back to the guard While doing so I skim two rolls of the top with my fingers without anyone noticing Sweet I am broke and hungry as hell We are all walking around a grocery store trying to figure out what to buy to eat Everyone else is looking for packaged processed food I go to the fruit isle because it is the cheapest and best nutrients for the buck I buy some lemons and avocado with my change I go back to the RV we are staying in and make a pitcher of lemonade and eat the avocado Someone else was caught trying to steal something I go back out and attempt again We are by a casino that has large golden letters on a sign I take one and wrap it in a towel and barely make it back to the RV It is then revealed to me that I have been caught and the whole show was secretly being filmed about us, not about what we were told I manage to escape in a bathrobe with my pitcher of lemonade in my hand I am with someone else who is older and reminds me of my mentor Doug We steal an armored RV which belongs to the security following the show They are not pleased and shoot at us as we drive away We crash through a gas station and stop for some reason Doug asks me if we want an assistant There is a younger asian boy who wants to join our adventure I am appalled because it is dangerous and I don't think we need to have a child involved with this He asks the kid if he wants to come and he says yes so we let him on board We drive away speedily while being shot at by the pursuers The windows and the car are bulletproof I find an assault rifle loaded in the back, I cock it, take off the safety and proceed to try to shoot back, all the windows are barely cracked but not open really As one of them starts to drive up close to us on the back right I stick the nozzle of the gun out the crack and shoot out one of their tires We are on the highway going very fast and they immediately wreck into the sidewall We lose our pursuers and continue driving along I begin searching the RV for any supplies It seems brand new and not stocked at all I find a mini-fridge and go through it Nothing but an empty lunch bag in it But I pull a cover from the back and discover a boatload of cookie dough of various flavors I hand some off to Doug and the kid We munch on cookie dough while driving away to freedom, the dream fades 3/28/20 I am in a bigger white house sleeping in a bed with gin and another couple They are older and the woman looks kind of washed up I had seen another couple in the house cleaning that looked just like the other couple and the woman told me it's her sister who is now with her ex. He looks like the other guy but they are not related I gather we own the house now but they still live there as cleaners They also have kids who are running around I am not very amused and find the whole thing rather unprofessional I am suddenly in another house which is like a small studio There is a guy with a shaved head and hair on the front of his head only and glasses He is showing a custom washing machine he built which fills itself with a container of soap and starts itself at a tap, he is proud of it He leaves and his girlfriend begins to give me the tour/introduction I am in an Airbnb of sorts but it is very small It is rustic and in the middle of nowhere in the forest The bed I will be sleeping in is in the same room as their kitchen/laundry room and she tells me she will be coming into the room to do things but she won't bother me I am fine with the arrangement because there isn't a lot of space I venture around the land and it is very green There is a small stream running parallel to the property and there is bright green moss all around the base of the many trees I see large spiral snail shells in the moss and amazed by their size I am suddenly in a post-industrial landscape with a large cathedral-like manor that houses an orphanage or church I am unsure I was once part of the community but now gather things have changed and I am different They have a prophecy of a dark one I may be fulfilling I begin flying around the many rooms in circles high in the air I am dressed as Santa Claus I continually shout Merry Christmas as I fly by people The kids all point and laugh but the adults are cautious and lead them away I feel several loose spiral shells in my mouth and spit them out to look My hands and face have gone dark I am eating a slushy from a paper pack and slow down by an adult, they take the trash from me They make a comment I am acting like a child now and laugh though most of them still fear me
non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP Spending some vacations abroad, staying at a hostel. The room is pretty basic and has a futon on the floor. I am undressing and snuggling in the sheets and I slightly touch myself, not even a big deal. But the manager barges in my room, yelling that I can't masturbate in this hostel and I have to leave now. Then he goes around the corridor, where all other guests at at their doors with curiosity, shaming me saying he has video and photos of it and I am like "how?". And then notice there is a camera in the ceiling in front of the bed, as if it was ok to film guests undressing and all. I refuse to g«be embarrassed and I confront him with his brutal violation of the guests privacy. Now, all the guests are looking at him like "she has a point". I admit what I did and that there is nothing wrong because I was alone in my room and he is the creep who is watching people in their rooms. In the end he does not kick me out, even brings in workers to attend all my needs and allows me to stay for as long as I want and I demand he shows me and deletes the tape. But I don't want to stay anymore. I actually saw the guy getting an erection while I confronted him, so he is nuts, but I need to stay one more night at least. Then I meet some friends at a sightseeing point, just outside the hostel and I am totally amazed how the landscape is a perfect mix of the view from my mom's house to my hometown and some totally different town somewhere in Eastern Europe with gothic bridges, palaces and gothic churches. The superposition is so perfectly done that I marvel at my own brain capacity to come up with such brilliant construction. I am half-lucid at this point. Then there is some heavy rain and flooding and I lose all lucidity and wake up.
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28th March 2021 Fragment: Some kind of false awakening, dream reality feels accurate to waking life. I get up and then am answering the door? It's early morning and it's sunny outside; the sun's position in the sky would make it late afternoon but in the dream I don't realise this, the light looks morning-like. There's a courier stood by a van on the left or something and I go to him, shielding my eyes from the sun's glare with my right hand. My eyes feel exactly as if I had indeed just gotten up and are taking long to adjust to the bright light and I squint. I take a package from the courier? There are other people around in the street but rest of details not recalled. Fragment: I'm in a building. A hall or palace, unsure. I'm part of a faction and I have some kind of battle equipment but little detail recalled and I go on some kind of patrols on my own in a city or town area. Then back at the palace place, one item I recall clearly on a table is an Axis-like medal with a skull at its centre. It's a pendant and it's mine. I take it and it has some kind of interface overlay saying it grants me "+2 fortune". There's some other pendant which I also take and it grants +1. In the room I'm in, there are two large palace windows to a courtyard. A Nazi officer with some bodyguards or soldiers approach a door next to the windows. He knocks or something and waits patiently, I believe someone answers the door and the officer speaks. "I have been sent to speak to the queen", he says, or something to that effect. The door is shut and the man waits patiently outside, looking somewhat stiff in posture. It is either dawn or night but it doesn't look so dark outside. Someone goes to get the queen; eventually she appears to my left in a dark corridor. She's in her night clothing and looks rather exposed or vulnerable as far as royalty goes. This is some ancient English queen, but I'm not sure who; possibly queen Victoria, I get a feel of. She stands a distance away from the door and it is opened now; she engages in some dialogue with the Nazi officer. Her face suggests mistrust, disgust and apprehension, possibly more so for having been woken in the night like this. Notes: - The second fragment was very long but I cannot recall enough of it to put into words; a lot of it seemed to take place in WH40k-like locations. There was a general feel of futuristic Warhammer mixed with WWII themes to the whole thing. - The pendant I had also gave that feeling; as far as I can tell, it was like a medal awarded to me for valour in combat; I do not remember what the second pendant looked like. They were both on leather strings.
27th March 2021 Scraps: (recalled after I sat at my desk) I am at my computer. I'm checking on Steam or some other similar program and in there I see that AH messages me saying that I "was right, it was a joke", which she then starts to explain in more detail. I feel a mix of anger and mistrust but also relief. A possible false awakening where my alarm was going off and playing music; but something about the music didn't seem right each time. The environment looked accurate to waking life but foolishly I didn't think to do any types of checks, as I felt quite sleepy. Notes: - While in bed last night, had another dialogue with Data as I was falling asleep. This time I could use my own voice and not the captain's. But Data seemed unable to communicate very clearly this time. We talked about dream signs and my inability to either notice them or have them appear, lately, as well as how I have been doing some RCs too routinely sometimes. - When I recalled the fragment about the conversation with AH, some of the dream feelings described were temporarily present. I proceeded to check that this conversation hadn't actually happened and really was just from a dream. - Although the environment looked accurate while I was hearing the alarm, I also recall it seemed brighter than it should have done for that time of the morning. I've had dreams where the environment looked so accurate that it was easily acceptable for them to be waking life locations/situations.
non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP Some avant-garde show or ritual where some guy goes around defying the audience to dance inspired by what they are watching. Many on the audience seem to be professional dancers by the way they move. Then someone starts passing a lamb head as a prop. But the lamb head is alive and I feel horrified, but not like scared, but worried for the "animal". So I kidnap the lamb's head and run away with it. Take it to the vet and they say it needs surgery to survive. After we get some more info about the origin of the animal, the vets tell me I need to go to Africa and get something that will heal the animal. Once in Africa, in some remote village, I need to pass a door with two guards. I try seducing them, but they don't flinch. Then ask me for a million dollars to go in. I explain the situation and say it is to save an animal's life and they reduce to half a million, which is still ridiculous but I agree to and they let me in. I then steal whatever was inside the guarded house and return to the vet. The lamb is now able to get its surgery and regrow a body. Later I get a call from the vet saying the animal is doing great. I married to some rich family, but I have this feeling I did it against my will and feel unhappy. I am walking with my family through some hipster area of old docks now turned into restaurants and bars. By the other side of the river I see Manhattan. I am walking ahead of them, making a little dance waving a white shawl in the air, feeling empty inside. Then I encounter Zilla by chance and she walks with me. She spots some vegan fast food and invites me to come along. I do and let go of whomever I was with before. Riverstone is there too and although it's mid morning, they both wanna eat lunch. At first I say they are crazy but then I give in to the idea and ask for an Impossible Burger. While we sit at a table, I get notified that I have an exam to renew my driving license renewal in a day or two and I panic because I wasn't aware and haven't studied shit. I am dating Seth Rogen. I am half lucid, so at first I feel like "Why didn't I chose some hunkier guy to fool around with?". But he is extremely sweet and I actually start feeling the hots for him. We're sitting on a bed or couch, making out, and when I kiss him he gets really excited, in a very adorable innocent way that makes me want him more. He starts reaching out to his pants and I am totally into it. But then I notice that there is another bed to our side and two girls are sitting on it, watching us and that disturbs me. Worse, I spot a red demon under their bed and see that he is about to snatch one of the girls, so I jump to grab her and rescue her. The demon gets pissed and starts projecting long arms, claws and tentacles and weird heads coming from under the sheets, without ever leaving the bed area. I beat him as hard as I can until he kinda retreats and I sunk into the wall. My mom is with her friend Paula. We are at an ice cream shop and I look for a vegan flavor. There is one for the stupid price of almost 25€. I complain a lot to the seller and he seems not to understand my complaint. Then I realize that's the price for a whole bucket of like 5 to 10 lt and I apologize and ask how much for a cone with a ball. I then follow my mom and Paula to a car. They didn't get ice cream so Paula is offering something else like crackers to my mom and ask if I want some to. Then we go get my dog Hachi and Paula goes get some other dog like animal on a leash to accompany us on a walk, but it is some dog-like alien with green body parts. I insist that she keeps a good distance from me and Hachi, because Hachi already reacts bad to other dogs, let alone alien dogs, but she keeps forgetting and getting to close for comfort. One time they almost get into a fight, so I give up on this walk and we take the dogs away. Later on I accompany them again to some kind of old garage where mom is talking to the owner and some guy offers us crackers and cheese. I am giving it a try when my Sensei enters the place. First he pretends not to see me while he talks to the rest of the people, clearly nervous about approaching me. I also pretend not to have seen him in the first seconds, but then gather courage and I say hi and give him a hug. He feels relieved and actually a bit overjoyed, so then he gropes my breast and pretends it is by accident, but I know it wasn't. I ask about the classes, he says it all stopped because of the pandemic, but that he misses it a lot. I say I do to. I wonder why he doesn't ask me why I left the classes way before the pandemic started. Music starts playing, some Latino rhythms like salsa and he and everyone else start dancing. I don't want him to invite me to dance, so I leave through a back door into a backyard and I see my mom is already there with some new age "kumbaya" group. They seem harmless, so I let her be. Then they invite us to go on a boat trip and I start drifting from the dream. Probably had a very brief episode of FA and felt my bed shake like there was an earthquake, but that brought me back to the dream on the boat. I laugh and tell my mom that when the boat started the engines, it coincided with me feeling my bed in RL shaking and she laughs. I am again semi-lucid, back on land at some ground floor mall at some private condominium, but the atmosphere is dark and heavy and I see no one around. I also feel watched by agents or demons whom I know to be present in the dream, ready to attack me. I walk through the corridors and sense a presence following me. I do evasive maneuvers until I find an exit and run around the building to try and see me stalker. It is some shady guy who disappears again. I see a lady walking away with the alien dog from Paula. I fly upwards to assess my surroundings and then land in some university campus, which I find lovely. Each faculty seems to have a theme, for instance, literature classes take place in a mini medieval village, where each house is a classroom and people gather around communal tables to debate topics, instead of facing a teacher. I walk a bit through the narrow streets, the houses are all ground level timber-framed and feel very cozy. At the end of one of the streets there is a bigger building, like and open hangar, but it is a tavern or bar, and the decoration changes completely. It is 60s and cinema inspired. It has the colors and the furniture typical from the 60s and posters of old spy movies on the walls. There is a door leading to the parking lot with a toll booth. A vintage car from the 50s just stopped at the booth and when I approach, a bunch of gangsters come out of it and point guns at me. Turns out I also have a gun and also drop it on them. For some reason they stand down and leave. My cat Yéti comes out of nowhere and I pick him up. Once on the normal city streets, I see my mom's apartment building or a very similar one, but with a few more balconies. I see the details like the tiles on the walls and feel extremely nostalgic about it, to see how detailed it is engraved in my memory. Then I fly upwards and take notice of the rest of the buildings around, think about getting beyond this and do something interesting. I fly higher and higher, until what I see below me is an African plain at sunset, as far as the eye can see. I feel free and relaxed, but my cat Yéti who I am still holding, is getting pretty nervous and wanting to jump, so I look for some place to drop him safely. There is a house floating in the air, no front wall for some reason, so I just go inside. I am planning on resting there for a while, see if Yéti can be left there safely, but the house starts tilting and everything in it slides through the open wall and falls into the void below us. Some old Asian lady comes in from another room, looking surprised to see me and in panic. I only have time to grab Yéti again and I jump into the void to fly away on my terms instead of falling. I am in a room talking with BTS and I find them all very nice and smart people. I decide to become their fan and wonder if any of the guys in the band is single, so that I could hang out with. I sit between two of them and one, I think the youngest, immediately leans on my shoulder and gets really close. I was fantasizing about dating one of them, but all of a sudden I feel like he is pushing it a bit too much too soon, so I tell him nicely to back off amd take it easy. The others laugh.
non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP At some sunny city somewhere in southern Europe, I think, which has canals. There is some international event going on and I am actually walking away from it. Then I spot Trump in a very bad disguise on a motor boat, going in the direction of the crowded area. His kids Baron and some of the girls are going in other boats in different directions. I know immediately they are going to commit some terrorist attack and try to stop it, but can't. In the end, I end up with the ashes of the victims, for some reason. In France, at a natural history museum, I stalk a guided tour with high school kids, so I can listen to the guide. The guide notices me, but pretends not to care to avoid causing a fuss. There is a display of ancient dentures with semi precious stones as teeth. The guide tries to make me feel self-conscious by asking me a question about it. I feel embarrassed and I separate from the group and head to the museum shop. I am delighted with a Star Wars encyclopedia and there are books that resemble some of my childhood Russian books and I get very excited, but turns out they are just similar and not the real deal. A couple kids that were in the guided tour before, also come to the shop and start flirting with me. I feel flattered, but they are just kids. I go get my coat from the cloakroom and the guy there is really gorgeous and age appropriate for me so I also flirt with him a bit. I can tell we both feel like we don't want to depart so soon, but I am the one taking the step. I touch his hand and say I loved meeting him, but I have to say goodbye and that I am going away from this country soon and will probably never see him again. He looks heartbroken. At the exit we are thoroughly checked to see if we stole something from the museum, but instead they confiscate some pills I have on my pocket. I explain my need for it and make a bit of a scene, so they end up letting me go with it. Outside is already night and I have no clue how to get "home". I just have a vague idea I need to go to a bus stop near of after some place named L'Envers. I go to the closest bus stop and wait for a bus to come. My french is a bit rusty, but when a bus comes, I beg the bus driver for help and he ignores me and starts moving away. I keep begging for some indications and some Asian dude steps up and offers to help me. So the bus driver stops and and I come on the bus. The dude says he can help me to get closer to my destination and teach me what buses I need to get on and off to get there, so I sit a couple seats away from him.
I'm in some kind of big training hall shop with dad. He pays 100 kr for some tickets and we move on. We are supposed to play some tennis. New fragment. We have gone biking instead. There is a big sand pile that has about a 45 degree slope. It is impossible for me to bike up because my wheels won't get a grip on the sand. Dad is able to do it easy. I was in bed and tried to visualize rings that I fly through. They become really real with shadows and texture but I'm not able to go through them. Now I think I was already in a dream trying to enter a new dream. I had no intentions to WILD this night.
non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP With my dad. my uncle Fernando and my cousin Rui, visiting the house-museum of the famous saint-doctor from my hometown. Someone mentions that a guy claims this is his house and he demands to live here, so he actually moved in one day and started collecting the entrance money from visitors, but apparently he was arrested. I notice something strange about the staircase, my uncle and cousin go up but they end up coming down and when me and dad try to go down, we end up going up, like Escher's stairways. We are trying to reach the second floor and after some struggle, we do. Once there, there is a DJ playing music and some party going on, probably illegal. Soon after, a couple policemen barge in and I think "I was right", but one of them starts stripping and goes full frontal, while the other actually seems to be arresting people. So it's confusing, but I stop trying to figure it out, as the naked guy is such a hunk with a big dick and I decide enjoying the view.
This was the first time in a long time where I let myself sleep until I could not sleep anymore. I walked out of bed 08.10. I have started to look at my fingers again as a RC. I'm in Sturkö and walk with dad and his mom. We walk on the bridge but see that water has flown over because the bridge is broken. We have to jump with water to our knees in order to continue. As we reach the end of the bridge we start to talk about some kind of swimming competition I am going to. Dad asks me how deep we are supposed to swim and I say 1.5 meters, but then I say 3 meters instead. Dad is worried and says that it is pretty deep. I think about jumping into the water by the bridge but it seems cold. I'm in a hotel with an enemy. We run up the stairs and try to come to our rooms. I find my room and try to unlock it but the key is bad and won't open it until a long time has passed. When I'm inside I grab a bag but notice that my enemy has sabotaged and ruined my setup. New fragment. We look at some kind of screen where it shows how many diamonds I have. Some people scroll through a list where it shows what kind of things I can buy with the diamonds. Most of the things you can buy are passive upgrades. I have about 40 diamonds and the most expensive upgrade costs 1600. I tell them that I am going to buy that one because it makes it easier to collect more diamonds. They say that I am insane and that I should pick the second most expensive that costs 6000 diamonds since it gives me such a good passive weapon upgrade.
21st March 2021 Dream: At a dining table? Not sure if it's even in a room exactly, but there's a feel of the dining room at my old home. Mom and T are playing some strange eastern game or something involving objects they throw over to each other. The table is long like a festive dining table? Something about decorating it. The trim of the table has been painstakingly put together from dozens or hundreds of strips of decorative paper or something. Another bit uses some kind of holographic projection. I wonder or ask why it simply wasn't all done with the projection method. (recall gap) Some bit in a town. Looks like my native country, streets very similar to that of towns near where I used to live. I'm coming up a hilly bit on foot. There's someone I'm supposed to meet and pick up but I have to tell him I won't be able to. I see him by some kind of public transport stop. He's a black teen, with short hair. I ask him if he's waiting for one of us, from my family. He confirms that he is. I then explain that I won't be able to take him because I don't have a car right now. Dad or L is using it? He doesn't seem to be disappointed and explains that he got a vehicle of his own and will be able to use that; it's some kind of trike? I ask him to be careful, I think I'll feel responsible if he has an accident. 22nd March 2021 Dream: I'm in a tank, at first in some kind of RTS-like view mode, but soon after moving around this scenario for a bit it changes to a regular (closer) third-person view. I find some targets along the way and destroy them, as I'm headed somewhere. An enemy base of some kind? The enemy units seem frightened and try to keep as much distance as possible and avoid me. I fire the main cannon but also use the secondary gun to destroy enemy targets. I remember feeling myself use a keyboard and maybe seeing it too (old yellowed keyboard?) to control cannon pitch and yaw. I also have a secondary type of ammo for the cannon, some miniature warheads, which I use a few times? Eventually, after all the ground targets are down, I head towards a square-ish hole in the ground. I switch to a first person view now, in which I can see the cannon sticking out. I "crawl" down into the hole slowly, not wanting to fall down as there is a drop and a boss down below. Some kind of giant, an avatar of some deity I think. I try firing one of the warheads into the room below since I don't actually have direct line of sight to the boss but it doesn't seem to affect it, as a health bar for the boss an a UI remains unchanged. Hesitant, I eventually go down. I engage this avatar in combat using my main cannon and trying to keep my distance from its swiping. The avatar has a muscled and male form, it's colouration is dark, maybe a black tone like basalt. He talks to me as he fights, but I cannot recall what about. I don't do much damage and the boss kills me eventually. I respawn in a chamber adjacent to the boss room. The whole place has an ancient classical look to it. Although this passes me by in the dream, it actually reminds me of Act2 levels from Daikatana. The boss room itself had a very similar look. It is octagonal and with a few (sort of) central pillars. There's a shallow level of water and it looks clear. This water is also present in the other large room I was respawned in. After a tiny bit of exploring? I try to get the boss to come out of his room since there's actually more room to fight him in this one. It doesn't work though, he's apparently "leashed" and eventually I just go back in the main boss room again. I can't recall the rest but the dream went on for quite a while. Notes: - I don't know why but I feel compelled to register a sudden observation. Lately in dreams I feel there has been some absence of emotion. - The deity's avatar was probably based off some recent boss fights in some games. - Although it's unusual that I had some awareness of the keyboard in a way that made me step out of "tunnel vision", for the most part in that dream I was just immersed into its reality in the same way that I am when playing a game in waking reality.
17th March 2021 (didn't capture recall before it faded) Fragment: I am driving; I'm in the middle of a fast changing situation? I made a game of some kind and I'm playing through it. Maybe it's like Doom in gameplay but some part of it makes me think of AvP. 18th March 2021 Fragment: Black cat, rubbing it under where the rib cage started as it seemed to be where it enjoyed it most. Unusually, this unnerved me a bit for some reason. H is sitting next to me and giving the cat attention too. The cat resembled Y. (in-lne note, it's possible it unnerved me because a dream character is effectively a part of me, and I don't particularly like being touched under or on the sternum but I wouldn't have much of a problem with doing this with a pet if it's what it wanted) Fragment: At my old home's town. Driving down through the avenue that is by the church. I'm a passenger. The driving and such are all on the correct side. I see the cafe that's to my left, the one that has the office supplies shop. It's front end is being expanded, like they're adding on to the in-door esplanade space. In the dream I assume this has something to do with Covid and social distancing.
This week, my cousin who was visiting and detoxing from fentanyl Died while everyone in the house was asleep, she had a seizure by herself and choked to death... In spite of that I had some recall. Jamie 1 A dream where we were in the car she used to drive in 2011, it was a really old style car, but it really suited her. Don't remember much else from the dream. Jamie 2 Bit of an intimate dream i had while dozing off during watching something on Youtube... I guess she was trying to make up for the weeks that weren't good? Work Dream about work but you had to climb a large metal chute just to get into the building. I realized i left my jacket there so I crawled uo the chute and knocked a few times. A co worker I know answered and got my Jacket when I asked for it. ??? Dream abotut seeing an old friend from chilliwack. He seemed really standoffish. I wanted to ask him why he suddenly hated me so. He said he didn't hate me and gave some weird reason. We were all in a very large house in this dream.
non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP Part of a team planning something that implies invading someone's underwater bunker and living there for a year. But the plan fails, because the bunker is at a lake or near the shore and there is as a guy driving buy who spots us diving and he knows to whom this place belongs and what's down there under water. I think we should abort but the others decide to go anyway. Nothing happens for weeks. We get used to living there. It's more like an underwater complex, spacious and with multiple areas, even has a living room with a piano, very stylish. At some point we're running a full business from there and I interview 3 ladies for the secretary job. Someone even brings in a dog, Then there is one incident, when the two guys who take shifts guarding outside, get into a fight. While they are not watching, some hired killer comes in the complex to eliminate us. And somehow I know this but no one listens to me. There are escape pods and I consider going on one, but I decide to stay and locate and neutralize the enemy. I am at the Finances office, to clear up a doubt about my taxes, but the world looks a bit post-apocalyptic and the place looks chaotic. No one comes to help me, so I just barge in and look for employees in the lower level office rooms. I find a room with two workers behind desks covered in piles of paper and attending a 3rd person, so I wait on a bench in the corridor for a chance to talk to them. While there, the corridor behind me fills with debris, like the walls just collapsed. But the workers just keep doing their business as usual, as if nothing happened and eventually ask me what they can do to help me. We discuss income tax and they issue an invoice for the tax I have to pay, and then I leave. I meet my dad on my way out, and I tell him about my tax issues. But then he starts tickling me and playing with me like he used to when I was a child. But not in a good way. (And this is actually real, my father never abused me, but he did harass me a lot and disguised it as innocent play) Things escalate as he starts pulling my pants off. I get really mad at him and yell at him that that wasn't ok when I was a child and it is not ok now, and that he will face consequences, because I am an adult now. I call him an abuser and tell him that what he did, was never play, it was always sexual abuse/harassment and he seriously needs treatment for his mental problem. He goes speechless. He looks down on the ground, then grabs a sandwich, but can't even swallow it because his throat is so dry. Then he changes subject and asks me about some movie he saw or wants to see, that is directed by some director he knows and Robert Rodriguez and he wants to know if I know him. But I am jut too furious and do not get distracted by the change of subject.
I had the most intense dream last night. I was watching a video of the day of my birth on a TV screen. My mom (died December 2019) was in the hospital bed, cradling "baby me". I started getting emotional. Next thing I know, I am IN the scene, physically standing next to the bed. Mom and the baby are gone. Suddenly, mom is standing next to me. I basically launch myself into her arms, holding her tightly. All I can utter between sobs is "mama, mama". I had a very strong feeling that this was really her somehow, not just a dream character. But knowing the dream was multi-leveled, I know that can't be true.
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