non-lucid

This girl and I had been talking for a month, but we never found the time to actually hang out and see each other in person, so we kept it digital. A few weeks ago she dropped off and stopped responding to me completely, which has made me pretty upset... and now she shows up in my dreams.

Three nights ago I kept waking up every 30 minutes, causing me to have really short dreams. My last dream started with me walking in a parking lot to a small white shed. I walk into the door to a very small room that has a desk that seperates the room from a kitchen. In the kitchen looking through the opening was Beth, the girl I had been talking to. Immediately, I'm swept with these crazy feelings of anything I consider to be for lack of a better explanation love. It's that feeling that causes me to lose my breath and get a very heavy sensation in my stomach, causing me to be nervous. So I walk up to the window and ask her for some ice cream and I can see she has a unicorn tattoo on her cheek maybe because IRL she's connected to being one. In the kitchen is a bunch of silver kitchen instruments and Beth's IRL producer working on some ice cream. Beth asks me what kind of flavor I want and then she decides that I want cookies and cream so she starts stirring something in her hands and screams "YOU'RE GETTING MY SPECIAL COOKIES AND CREAM ICE CREAM" and the dream ends.

Two nights ago I was having this dream about this gigantic water park and I was in a huge lazy river with a bunch of random people. The river was coming to the end so I was preparing to exit as a bunch of lifeguards were on the sides yelling. The lazy river was probably 30 feet wide and there was no ceiling. I remember the walls being pink and purple drapes and curtains along with jagged green crystals sticking out. Anyways, I step out of the lazy river and then I'm suddenly at my friend Mason's house in the back. That's when Beth and her friend Jessica step out from the back door and walk closer to me. She sees me and smiles and I smile back. She walks up to me and I sit down onto my car that's behind me as she sits on my lap. We start to kiss and I feel all of the emotion pour out of me as this overwhelming feeling comes back to me and I'm struggling to breathe as we continue to kiss for what seems like forever, but in reality lasted probably 10 seconds. We pull back and smile at each other before the dream fades...

Fragment #1

i was outside a building, which, when looking back, i think was some sort of mental asylum. someone who i guessed to be a patient there was outside being interviewed by a news presenter, and thats all i remember.

Fragment #2

this time i was by the entrance of the same building, just on the other side of some huge brick walls. the patients were beginning to step outside, but a crowd of people outside the gate forced them back in. i remember arguing with a woman through a gap in the gate

the date of these dreams was 9th may 2013/ early morning of 10th may

im unsure if these are 2 fragments, because i dont remember anything between these 2, or about my transition from the outside of the walls to the inside, or if its all 1 dream because the setting was the exact same

I was at some concert(Muse, I think) and we were setting up. I had to be on stage pretending to be a fangirl. Don't know why.
I had to make a questions and answer video for them to play at the concert and my assistant was some little girl. Since she was so little, she sucked at making videos, so I pretty much did it myself. I woke up before I could finish.

Pre bed: Brain multi vit

Result: vividness plus sleepiness, emotional dreams

WBTB: fail, no tea, no menthol

Recall method: none

Fragment1: two guys that are dreamers meet. It seems that all three of us have great self-control and understanding.
mood: positive

Dream2: I am in my old neighborhood, now go into some strange house where I am good friends with the DC owner. There is like a gathering of people, my mom's friends, some classmates that I don't like etc. For some reason, I begin teasing them and they react very aggressively. Everybody is looking at me, shouting at the same time, there is heavy tension and hatred? The DC guy is the only friendly person in the room, and I worry that he will be forced to join the group of aggressive DCs.
mood: aggression in the air

Later on I go to his room, there are two beds in the room, he is sharing the room with his sister but I notice only one desk. There is another room, where he was born, so they are keeping it for the next generation. My father is also there.
mood: inquisitive

In another part of the house, later on. The DC is now somebody I know, and I make him happy. I am concerned about doing the whole thing, but it is too late.
mood: sexual

Fragment3: One of our guests who initially insisted the bedsheets are dirty and disgusting now tells me that we only need to sprinkle them with water and put them back. I disagree and tell her that she contradicts herself. This leads to a scandal and there is more tension in the air.

Comments: OK, I have completely ruined it today. I told myself yesterday, I make a plan in the evening, then have the discipline to follow my plan, no matter what my mood is during WBTB. Why oh why did I turn off the alarm clock and went to bed, when the plan was to have some tea before that? A little bit of wakefulness was exactly what I needed! I really have to get more serious about the WBTB, only once in a week is a true fiasco!

And another reminder: every time there is sexual attraction to another guy, at least do RC, chances are this is a dream!

Oh, anyways....feed your brain multivitamins make for a neurotic personality it seems.

Some nice recall.

Dream 1:

I was in some sort of jungles, there were treehouses and bridges between them and i was talking to somebody.
Later i was playing some GTA-looking game by being in it. I didn't really was liking it but i had to find someone important. I had special power of some kind and i was using it to fight some bandits while checking random houses. Soon i found house i was searching for, inside it was mostly empty except for a complex pipe system. There was some scientist dude, that's who i was searching for.
Then i was back at home and i was playing some AI War-like game. I was playing as champion type ship and some other people were controlling everything else. Our base was located... in the mountains instead of space apparently, and we had walls. Our mission was to defend the base against ever increasing in power enemy waves that were coming from two paths. I selected 'Spire' ship and i liked the change that was added in 'newest version'(Not IWL): his laser attack was auto aiming at enemies in the process instead of being fixated. Enemy fleet had various ships and there were also a few champion ships as well. At one point we had Spire ship versus spire ship laser duel between my ship and enemy ship.
When we finished with main waves, three enemy 'bosses' suddenly appeared right near the walls of the base, they were apparently some star wars related characters, according to game one of them was Boba Fett. They were powerful but soon. after constant fire from the fleet, they were down, not without some losses in the fleet, and most of walls were destroyed as well. Then the final boss appeared, it was some character too, but can't recall who. He was ridiculously overpowered and was able to deal huge damage by throwing units into air by suddenly raising the ground below them or smashing them into mountains by extending said mountains. At same time i got access to new champion ship... which looked like mini-fortress structure from AI War. I used it and started tanking the boss, this mini-fortress was extremely good at resisting damage from his attacks, eventually enemy was defeated and we won.
Back at the home i was talking to that scientist guy about the AI war game, or something related to that, but after some time he was in hurry and he used some secret passage that we apparently had to go somewhere. I followed him. The path was going through dark underground and soon i got to the area where there was lair of some creature. It was sleeping. I got around silently and near the exit i noticed the car, it looked like it was guarding path, so i decided to go back. The creature on the way back was partially awoken, so i had to sneak around the wall to not be noticed. Shortly i had problem remaining hidden, but then some purple dragon appeared and helped me and we got back to home.
I went back to playing AI War(As i recall, in dream there was something major happening, beyond than just a game). I was attacking the White AI with my ship, which was reverted back to spire model. Along with allied fleet we had no problem defeating this AI, which was called 'Forcefield lord' for a reason that it used forcefields everywhere and all over the place. But in the final area, AI homeworld, we had to fight really overpowered enemy champion ship. It had some weird weapons and abilities, one of which was ability to summon three rotating rainbow lasers which were dealing alot of damage, we barely managed to win.
Back at home scientist dude returned and i was trying to get him to do something, i was telling him that whatever he done in the past doesn't matters and he still has all chances. We were back to the game together and we were overpowering the AI force, there were still alot of those forcefields but soon everything was mostly clear. Soon many nations arrived in the game and there was an race on capturing all the planets that were AI owned. We all had some ridiculously quick ships and we decided to start with the most away planets, but soon everything finished(not sure who won the race tho).
Later i went to watch some anime and in one anime there was some guy that was learning the triple rainbow laser move apparently. He figured out a technique that summoned spiritual clones, which created many yellow energy spheres, which then were combined into rainbow shards. He managed to fire the lasers by concentrating power through shards. Soon dream ended.

Dream 2:

I was playing some game that was themed around some virtual city. I was controlling some character from third person and was talking to some NPCs. During talk with certain NPCs, the character used power to transform into some blue furry thing, saying 'Yeah, i can do that', then transforming back. I was leading character through various areas, and then there was bar area where was alot of talk. After talking to NPCs i went to buy some upgrades and weapons and then there was fight somewhere else.
Later i was playing another game(or maybe same game but different mode), i was controlling some slenderman-looking thing with dark-red aura, going through some kind of maze. I was scaring the living out of some people and using teleportation abilities. Soon some super ability got charged use of which caused some weird transformations and distortions and all the people got scared and started trying to hide in a closet, then everything went dark.
Later i went to sleep, but was not able to do so because family was watching some kind of anime about war. In it some commando soldier was talking to some woman and then they went to fight some other commandos. They were searching for superweapons, one of which was called 'Armageddon Nuke'. At some point they were going through some bunker and fighting with some soldiers. Later on the story continued outdoors and there was some memorial for some bald kid, they were talking about it and then some other kid joined the talk. They found some another place and started making base here near some kind of farm. They used some robots for building, but there was not enough fuel for them, so they deployed some alternate robots that used water for fuel, they were connected through pipes to some lake. The target of building was making the superweapon. As the construction was progressing, some robots malfunctioned and started burning down the plants with flamethrowers. They stopped them and there was talk about how due to another war in the past, all robots were programmed to destroy plants for some reason. Then dream ended.

Tried WBTB after 5 hours of sleep, but couldn't do it properly because my brother had trouble getting back to sleep after waking up, so I didn't want to disturb him. Soon enough I lost conciousness and started dreaming, I can't recall most of it but I remember talking to some girls from my high school.

After that lots of waking up in my REM cycles and lots of new dreams. I attempted a WILD in one of those occasions but I wasn't focused enough on my mantra and I fell asleep, again, to internal dialogue and thoughts. Dreamt about my dad and me having to check on a dead body of some old person thought to be my neighbour. His wife was playing dead in the body bag with him, I noticed her breathing and exposed her. I cursed aloud about how could she do this and that we could have gotten arrested for murder because they would have seen she died of choking and not heart attack like her husband.

After that a dream about some sisters. The younger one had short blonde hair, hated studying and going to school, and the older one had longer hair and was determined to be a business woman. Fast forward about 20 years later the older sister is working as a director in a school and her younger sister is working as an accountant in the same school, constantly complaining about something namely the kids constantly bothering her about something because someone that did that job had been replaced or something. There is a lot more backstory to this but I can't recall it. I also remember looking at my phone and it had damaged edges like they've been scrapped off.

So to sum it up had a lot of NLD's. Most of those were around 6-8 hours of sleep. I think I can afford to plan my further WBTB attempts at 6-7 hours into sleep. I will also place my phone by the bed so I have something to do instead of standing up during WBTB, it's not the best option but it will have to do. Cheers!

Thursday, 5/9/13

DR: I'm going in a boat to the other side of the lake. The dock we come to is called garfield. I follow someone up a long and steep bank, that has some metal walkway. Metal is of sun-bleached red color. I notice how it bends under my weight.

Went for a OBE at 2pm. Got some strong relaxation feeling in about 5 min, but a neigbor talked very loud to someone right under my window. Tried to ignore them and I acctually got some very nice HH - i was flipping through some colorful catalog with flowers.

Every time I exhaled, I felt as if a baloon under my back was inflating and I was higher and higher and more lighter. This was a first.

I was falling asleep, but then the noise was just too much and it all stopped. Then I was just falling asleep without HH or anything. My goal was not to take a nap but to have OBE/WILD, so I got up. My legs felt mushy for a while. All in all, nice experience.

Strange graveyard upon the green hill

I'm writing this wayyy after I woke up so there's certain details left out but I remember meeting a group of people in a neighborhood wearing flowy clothing and a man, with an earring and looks like a white version of Vaas Montenegro handed me a brass bubbler with bolts on it and asked if I wanted to smoke. I looked and my mother (who is VERY VERY against smoking) was standing there and I apologized and said I couldn't smoke. Then I remember looking and seeing my mother smoking a cigarrette (another thing she greatly opposes) and then I thought, screw this I'm taking a hit and he held it while I inhaled and held it for a while and he signaled for me to exhale and I did and he gave me a thumbs up lol. I instantly felt high and started having conversations with people around me which included his family and some were classmates at my high school. We fooled around and laughed for a bit and I decided to walk off to this hill (it was beautiful daylight outside) and after walking up the greenhill I found myself at a graveyard stacked with many tombstones. On the tombstones were pictures drawn by little kids in bright crayon. Everything, I suppose as a result of being high was very bright and vivid to me but the drawings gave this weird feeling. It was joyful because the colors were bright but at the same time the fact that it was a graveyard and the pictures were taped onto tombstones was a bit strange. I stood there for a bit and walked through the graveyard and I think another dream character was there too.

Note: In my AP Literature class, we just finished exams and we watched Lion King today and I believe the graveyard scene was influenced by that movie because there is a scene which Simba goes to the elephant graveyard and almost gets eaten by the hyenas. xD I don't know if it provides any meaning to the dream or not but it seems like a coincidence to me.

sleep 530am-4pm

I'm asleep at home in bed. My mate calls - I was supposed to pick him up from the airport or train station or something. I call him back - can't get ahold of him. I leave and head towards him. He calls as i'm near a hotel. I pull over. I can't understand him and my phone is dead. I call him on the hotels phone. Somehow as i'm on the phone I leave my purse in the hotel and wander outside and get on a bus. When the bus starts moving I realise what is going on. I'm still on the phone. I pull the cord, but we are on the freeway and aren't stopping for a while. Loki is bitching about me missing his calls and tells me he isn't coming home for a while - work. The bus finally lets off in a kind of major bus pit stop. there are books everywhere but no list of the bus routes - I don't know when the next one that can take me home will be there. A bus arrives, but the scrolling text above it that should tell me where it is bound is missing.

At a weird apartment with my mom and dad. I'm making an egg with fried rice but my mom doesn't want rice. I give her the one egg, apologize and tell her i'll make more. I feel bad because I can't make some for my dad as well because there aren't enough eggs. 'I don't think shes looking in the right fridge' -dad?. sure enough, there is another fridge with tons of food in it. The apartment is all open - one room open to the next open to the next. Makes it easy to rent more rooms.. there is no one living next to us so the openness was never an issue but they were using a fridge in a room that wasn't rented out to us. I was worried the landlady would find out and fine us. There are a few rotten (green insides) eggs I throw away. We had just moved into this place and I have to keep asking where everything is. There is an oven type thing in a island in the kitchen. If you move this piece of metal, you have an oven. If you move it the other way you have a toaster oven. the previous owners left something in the oven - a pizza? Someone there wants coffee, so I go looking. I know we have a coffee maker and coffee somewhere. I found the tea in a cubby hole on the ground of a shelf in a corner. I bitch to my mom about its inaccessibility and start moving them elsewhere. Turns out my parents have tons of coffee, but it isn't where the tea is.

Visiting family - cousins are there. I felt bad because I hadn't gotten anyone presents
fragmented sex dream (completely unrelated to above )

I can't remember it well, but I was in a forest and the only house/cabin was owned by Pewdiepie(my favorite YouTuber). It was a cool cabin, which was more like two cabins with a courtyard out front. He let me stay there and gave my the second cabin which he wasn't using.
The first night I stayed there was normal. I didn't have some inception moment where I dreamed during the night in my dream but the second night was...weird.
When I got into bed, Pewdiepie got in too. He brought a glass of chocolate milk with him, and he spilled it all over the place. Then a ton of bugs appeared when he had spilt it. I got really mad and pushed him out of the bed and cleaned out all the bugs.

Before I wen to sleep that night, I chanted in my head "I will have a lucid dream with Matt Bellamy" over and over. My friend told me that can help increase your chances of getting a lucid dream.
Unfortunately, I didn't get a lucid dream. However, towards the end of the dream, I was in my living room. I turned and looked out the back door, and I saw Matt Bellamy.For some reason, his left foot was backwards, so he was limping. He looked like a zombie I flipped out and ran outside to help him. I gave him a big hug, obviously we made out for a bit and then I helped fix his foot. I don't remember anything after that, so I guess I woke up.

I was with my friend, Jayden. We were going to be in some play, so we grabbed our costumes from this little closet and got onto the train platform. The train was gonna take us to the play or something. We got our own train car and we went inside to change into our costumes. Jayden was wearing a big red dress, that looked like the Queen of Hearts. She was also wearing a tight bonnet while putting on eyeliner(she looked weird because she's a tomboy in real life)
I wore a puffy white wedding dress and veil. As I looked in the mirror, it transformed in a pink dress, and my veil became a huge hat that looked like a cake.

I was at my school. There was a radio next to a pole that was playing Uprising by Muse. I love that song so I went to turn it up. My principle, Mr. George saw me do it and he said "You're tampering with school equipment!" He then pulled out a tazer and tried to taze me I freaked out a picked up a hose that was on the ground and tried to spray him with it. My friend, Jayden, ran out of some corner and pushed it out of my hand. She tried to calm me down, until Mr. George picked me up and took me to his office.

Ok so to start this off I'm going to post a LD induced by WILD, from a kind-of WBTB experience.

9th May 2013.

Went to bed after about 5.5 hours of sleep. Laid down on my side because I figured it would be the best position for WILDing. Closed my eyes, started repeating the mantra "relax". After some small feelings of numbness I started to get deconcentrated from repeating my mantra and slowly losing awareness and falling to some external dialogue. I cut it short by opening my eyes, since I'd figured I'd just fall asleep if I continued. Saw that the whole attempt took 15 minutes. After that I rolled over pretty frustrated that I can't mantain awareness. Kept on trying, until one moment a feeling of frustration crept over me. At the same time a surge of "energy" went through my body and I was suddenly pushed "into" my bed. I saw two people for a moment that seemed to push me into my bed. After that several more surges of energy went through, and I soon found myself in a kind of empty space. I was aware during the entire process and I knew I was entering a dream.

I tried to open my dream eyes but I felt my real eyes starting to open at the same time so I opted to keep them closed. Soon enough I managed to open my dream eyes and I saw a FA style dream "waking up" in my bedroom. I was lucid though, so I looked around and saw that the room was changed up a bit, didn't have any furniture present. I looked to the window and saw it was almost dark. I looked into my hands and they looked normal, although what I
saw was blurry. I remembered to use the spinning technique to stabilize the dream. The funny thing is while all this was happening I could hear my brother who was in the room while I was sleeping while being in the dream. I looked through the window and now it was nighttime. The scene changed and I don't remember what it looked like. I started talking to a dream character, a prostitute. I used her .. uhm.. services and convinced her to do it with no charge. After that the dream had faded black. I woke up in what is most likely a false awakening, being proud of myself for having a WILD. Met some friends, talked to them, and I don't remember anything else. Then I woke up for real, did a reality check, and checked the clock for time, because I always want to know when I woke up, which wasn't the case with that FA.

Expect an update in about 9 hours I'll attempt a WBTB WILD, it might be successful. Cheers!

Dream recall from today's naps.

There was some kind of story about a spy that was helping to set up rebellion and there were soldiers in red uniform that were talking using some language, may have been arabian.