non-lucid

There was something about a man playing the stock market. I also remember there were other dreams, but that's all I remember. I was exhausted when I went to bed early.

Slept longer and around 8am had another fragment: setting up a combined life insurance with friends of ours.

I'm in a big group of friends at my school, casually sitting on a picnic table and sinking my teeth into an apple. I'm pretty annoyed because this one girl is being super clingy, holding onto my arm and stroking my face, and her fingernails are causing pricks of actual pain to my skin. Some unknown que from my mind helps me to realize that it is time for me to leave, and I walk up to a massive pickup truck in the carpool line and get in. Inside is one of the girls who rides with me in real life up in the front, and some random woman who is driving. I wish my description of the dream could live up to the enticing title, but all I recall is driving slowly along in the car with light gray skies and a rain sprinkling the windows. The woman driver for some reason asked me a question about religion, then got ridiculously offended by me saying that I was an atheist. Things got really hazy at this point, but I remember having a surprising awareness of my surroundings, both outside and inside the car. Needless to say a rather detailed and heated debate ensued, but I can't remember most of it. Pretty much the woman would not back off, even though I tried to be a peacemaker multiple times.

Dreamed that I was in a room about the size of the racketball courts at the gym that had one door in the front to get in or out. Me and two friends (I don't remember who) had to fight and kill the other people to escape. This particular set of foes was led by a woman who was known for putting booby traps in an area and around the exit. She and her cronies came in, and we started testing each other as one or two of her group would come over and try to attack. I had a rather flimsy but razor sharp ribbon of metal/sword thing and I don't remember what my partners had. One of the bad guys came over, and he was older and told us that he was with the FBI and was trying to shut this place down and arrest those involved, but that we would be arrested too if we didn't lay down our weapons. I angrily told him that I didn't see anyone arresting anyone yet but that I didn't know if he was for real or not so I told him to get away from me. If he was right, I'd defend myself in court. Otherwise, he could be tricking us.

Sleep from 3am - 10am

I go to my mom's work to give her something. I was going to stay but realize i'm just going to be board for several hours and have my dad take me home. She works was for a law firm, but she was only one of the three people working there and the place was tiny and attached to a few little stores. Largish open area for the main office and one little sectioned off area for the boss.

Dream starts just before the zombies start coming. There are a really bizarre weather phenomenons - flash floods, tornadoes, wildfires, etc. I'm at some sort of yoga retreat. there is a male instructor and several people lined up along with me. we are all lying in our own little dugouts in the ground. we are in the middle of a forest with natural hot springs in the ground beneath us. At one point I turned the water on because I was cold and I missed a few words the instructor said (it filled my dugout like a bathtub). So did the person next to me. I apologize. I had tossed my clothes off to the side - kind of in the woods - back the way we came here? There were fires going on around the word. They caught some trees near us. I freaked and ran to get my cloths. They were just past some trees that were on fire. We were trying to decide what to do. We knew something bad was coming. A zombie wandered into our camp and someone mashed its brains in. I was asking if my grandmothers place ran on propane. Probably not - most houses switched over. there were little teepees a little in the woods. I almost thought we could stay there but then saw they were miniatures. we would never fit. There was a house a little ways into the woods that we wound up staying at. || A young guy comes to his home. His mother is ecstatic - 'you're alive, he's alive.'. the father gives him an axe to the head. They had never been close... The father figured he had to have been bitten. When he (the son) died he came back almost immediately all gray like. He was put down. Someone had a business card for Buffy. || Older family member - grandfather? - has a bald head from chemo. All this fighting to extend his life and now he dies anyway. He did get to spend a little more time with his loved ones though.

This set of non lucid dreams were after a natural and brief WBTB with no supplements. I went for the MILD technique but never got lucid. My recall was pretty good considering that I never made notes in my DJ until after I woke for the morning. I used my old technique of just remembering key words and phrases to jog my memory later. I have had considerable trouble with that since I came back last summer and I'm pretty pleased with myself for getting back into my old technique. It makes those micro awakenings less troublesome with a greater chance of DEILD.

Spaceship.

Someone was going to destroy the earth. I left with a group and we were going to destroy the enemy's ship as they left earth but it turned out that they blew themselves up. Capitan Picard ordered me to activate the radiation bomb anyway just to be sure. There was a blue radius blast with our ship in the center.

Then I look at the Capitan and see he is having a heart attack. I assume there is nothing I can do and just watch him die. I notice that he dropped some playing cards that looks like they are made of thick plastic, much like Rummikub pieces. I pick them all up and see the ace of spades. I keep that one separate to hold for good luck. When I turn to leave I see some woman moving hologram images. It looks like a tournament tier for some kind of anime style fighting game. The woman asks if I want to see who wins but I decline and leave.

I enter a forcefield room outside of the ship. I have some conversation with another woman working at a computer terminal in a jumpsuit. We decide its time to leave.

I go into a glass room with other men an women. We all take out our brains and put them in acrylic containers full of some clear liquid. We have to do this in order to survive warp speed into hyperspace. I relax and close my eyes. I feel myself surge forward and then open then and we all put our brains back in. I look to the person to my right and jokingly say, "Oh no we switched brains. You're in my body." The man looks just like me and starts to panic. I tell him I am just joking and laugh.


Tornado

I am in the back yard thinking about digging a swimming pool by hand. There is a good start already and some strange ceramic pools stacked up. I think about how far to dig and remember some advice my father-in-law gave me.

Then I look up and see dark storm clouds. I watch some rotation start and I hear a neighbor shout, "ROTATION!" I watch it vividly and quickly form into a full tornado and join a giant separate tornado. I stare in fascination but remember the last tornado Joplin had and decide to hide.

When I turn around I realize I am in the trailer we lived in when I was 5. I know I don't have a chance but don't know where else to go. I run around and decide to hide in the bathroom. After a few seconds everything seems calm but I am panting and breathing hard with fear. I go back outside and only see dark storm clouds without a tornado. I wake up panting.


Funeral

I am in some place with a group of people. Most of them are black. Some famous person died and Will Smith is saying some words about him. Then we get to see a brand new music video by Will Smith in the mans honor. It sounds really hip hop style but the video makes no sense. I see some drunk celebrities on the floor looking really confused. (I can't remember who they were supposed to be) I see myself with them. I am the only one to laugh out loud at that point. I look around and say, "I remember that."

Total sleep time: 5 hrs

Pre bed: 3 mg mel

WBTB1 natural: 2x peppermint oil tablets

WBTB2 alarm: 1/2 cup of green tea + analytical thoughts + noise = insomnia

Vividness: Extreme

Dream1: Me and my parents are in a hotel, I have just had some supplements and am preparing for sleep. I look at a graph with bar that shows progress towards lucidity that depends on the amount of menthol I took. The status bar is not completely full, about 70 percent to lucid, so I am contemplating whether I should take another tablet or just risk falling asleep and see what happens. I ask my mom if she plans to take a shower now, so that I can shower before her and go to bed. She is watching/listening to something and has three sets of headphones, two of which I identify as mine, and get a bit upset to see she has left a very realistically looking earwax on one of them.
mood: task oriented - become lucid

Fragment2: The toilet seat in grandma's place, and a big mess of poo. Will give no further descriptions, although I remember it in quite a detail. ( Sorry, this was very vivid so had to mention it,lol!)
mood: wondering

Fragment3: I am in a bus, and I am observing and being told the story of a man and a woman. They were supposed to meet here at that bus, be together, but one of them changes something, and the other one gets off the bus before this happens. I am thinking perhaps another time.
mood: interested, positive

Comments: Oh, well, went a bit over the edge here, but at least I stuck to my plan to do a WBTB. Lol!

5-11-2013
Again snowboarding crept its way into my dreams. Was first in the dorms at sdsmt, but the campus and housing were entirely foreign (now to cloudy to actually remember layout). Remember looking specifically at my underarmour leggins i had on while boarding down a hill. Snowboards were made of ice, but at the same time dragons (tough to explain but i understand what i mea). After snowboarding me and cody (My oldest little brother is in my dreams like literally every night) went down to an ampitheatre type place to play softball (???). Woke up as i was changing my shirt to go play since i was wet from snowboarding.

So there's some sort of membership you need at this one pool to be able to swim in it, and it involves filling out a lot of papers before you're eligible to get in. My friend really wants me to be able to swim with her there, so she is really getting on me about filling out the papers. We're at the side of the pool, and the papers are I think around 2/3 the way done, when I see Gabriel from Supernatural lounging on a pool chair. I don't remember if I just go over to him or he calls me over, but he asks me if I really want the pool membership, then gives me a tiny golden box of golden matches, that sort of sparkle. I walk back over to the papers spread out by the pool. I'm pretty sure I know what he wants me to do, but if it doesn't work, then I'll have to start all over again with the papers. I decide to go ahead and do it. I light a match, intending to burn the papers, while my friend protests beside me. However, the match goes out before it gets to the papers, because I am so hesitant. To my dismay, all the other matches in the box have burned too! However, the match that I'm holding is still smoldering, and I press it to the paper, and it catches fire.

It takes a while, but I manage to spread that paper to all the other papers until they're all ashes. My friend is very upset, and I'm waiting anxiously to see if it really worked and I'll have a membership now. There is a screen over the pool, that goes fullscreen in my eyes and a bunch of options popped up, because apparently the membership for the pool isn't swimming in it at all, but using this thing. The options say things like, "earth", "sea", "constellations", and other things. Apparently the program is kind of like google earth, except that it applies to the sea and space, too - but only to places humans have already seen.

Later (I might have clicked "sea"?) I see a few mermaids in this cove, and it looks like a 2D sidescroller, and I can only see the walls of the cove like barriers, and everything behind them is like a blue sea backdrop. Gabriel is one of the mermaids, and he's trying to lead the others out of the cave, but he keeps getting pestered by this other mermaid that has a different type of tail than the rest, and it's dark and split in two, and has no scales like she's more related to a hagfish than a fish, except that she has long, wavy fins.

Later, I'm at a cabin in the woods, and somebody pulls up with their car. They get out, and I see peeking up from behind the car two komodo dragons. I say something like, "aw, you startled two komodo dragons!" And the guy says something like, "aren't those dangerous," and say yes, but that they shouldn't attack. They do. I tell him they can't climb trees and so I climb a tree and he follows, but apparently they /can/ climb trees. One bites me, but it doesn't break the skin, so I'm fine. We climb higher and higher and I think at some point I kick the komodo dragons off the tree. We keep climbing, though, and as we get higher, we encounter animals that are more and more dangerous. Each time I deftly push them off the tree - even a gorilla. We get to the highest part and their is a big cat, like a jaguar or a cougar, on a branch above our heads, and it'll strike at any moment. At some point I lose the guy I was with, and the cat comes for me. However, I convince it that we should eat candy instead of eat me.

A bear comes over at some point and we all sit on a bed in the middle of the forest, next to a claw game that has candy in it. We have a bunch of bags on the bed and the floor full of candy and some other human foods.

At some point before all this, I need to fight demons (or ghosts?)(I might have been The Batter from Off), so a guy is showing me where they are and how to fight them (I think it might have been Shadwell from Good Omens, or at least inspired by him). We do one thing that is supposed to attract demons but doesn't work, and I don't remember what it is. The next time, we are all on a carousel with the type of basket that has a cage all around it. Shadwell says we need to rock our basket as hard as we can. We do that, and no demons come, but as the carousel goes faster and faster, everything suddenly stops, and I'm told by Shadwell that at that point, our basket flies off from the carousel, apparently because of the extra weight added by the hulk that was apparently in the basket the whole time.

Even though I thought I might dream of COOP documentation because of training I took, and I did dream of it, I still did not become lucid. Bummer.

The previous night I dreamed of cheering because of baseball game we watched in real life, and again I had told myself to watch out for baseball game in dreams, but I did not become lucid despite predicted dream elements.

In this dream unlike in real life I had a cat, and so did my neighbor (not a real neighbor). He and I were talking across the hedge (don't have a hedge in real life), and he was telling me how when I am at work, my cat likes to hang out with him and his cat. It was not explained why he is not working and has time to hang out with cats all day, despite the fact that he was middle aged and quite healthy and well off looking.

Even though cats are a dream sign lately, I did not get lucid.

Morning of May 11, 2013. Saturday.



This was an odd but very vivid dream (semi-lucid, becoming fully lucid). It may have resulted from a new type of meditation with affirmations I have been trying for the first time (which always brings unexpected new dreams that are sometimes far from actual intent in meditation the first time around). It goes along the lines of mentally saying “One point one, I am dreaming…”, “this (situation, feeling, or imagery) is in my dream”, “Two point one, I am dreaming…”, and so on, up to “One hundred point one…I am dreaming…” assuming I get that far before entering my dream state. I use “point one” because if I decide to continue with “programs” in this same way, I will have to continue with “point two” and so on, so as not to confuse different desired dream elements and sequences at a later date.

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In my dream, I am in a typical combined building of two bigger places we lived several years ago; the house at Barolin Street in this town, and Stadcor Street in Brisbane. I get out of bed, thinking I am in my dream, and I am, but I soon decide it is too “real” to be a dream, even though it is a fictional composite building I am in. I sometimes wonder how other people can dream of real and undistorted locations, when Zsuzsanna and I often dream of composite locations (two or more) as even when we know the place, there are usually additional rooms or elements from other locations (past, present, and future). Over the past twenty years it often has also been two or more countries (or cities or states) in the same place. This seems normal to me, as dreams are often a “unification” event.

I soon become aware that our youngest son has somehow been duplicated as some sort of random half-formed tulpa, getting energies from an unknown source, perhaps my residual layered hypnagogic constructs set up earlier. He is apparently a vampire. (However, his teeth mostly come out more like that of a rattlesnake than a typical movie vampire). I hold onto him so he does not get away and cause trouble or fool other people, as he is wearing the same clothes as our real son and is becoming less transparent as I hold him. The rest of my family comes in (including our real youngest son) and my wife is amazed, though somewhat wary.

We have to get rid of him and it does not matter how, as he is only an imaginary form and is even annoying to the real version of our son. Eventually, though I am not sure how, he turns into ash (sunlight or fresh air coming in?) which blows away before any threatening drama unfolds. (However, there is no actual fear at any point in my dream. In fact, there is an overall essence of beauty and peace).

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In real life this same morning, Zsuzsanna had told me (after I mentioned my dream) that she was presently reading a book from the library, that I did not know about, in which a vampire has the name of our son as in my dream, which is Oliver, an unlikely name for a vampire (in my opinion).

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Dream recall from today's naps. A bit of improvement in the length of lucid, on the way back to proper length.

Nap #1(fragment):

I was talking about something in dreamviews chat and then SilentEternity came online on skype and i was surprised that he was online so early. Then i got up and took off headphones, i noticed that binaural beats were playing and also dad was in the room, i said 'Nope' and he disappeared, then i was tried summoning but my view got weird and dream shortly faded out.

Nap #2(fragments):

I was playing some Doom-like game, but the levels were based on some places from waking life, i had some problem with one level in forest park.

Saturday, Jan 19th:

One of the dreams involved Ponies. Fluttershy was left behind, So Rainbow Dash and Applejack (Who now had wings, Not unlike a fanfic I read) Went to get her despite Fluttershy being in a place where the land had flown off from where the rest of the Ponies were.

Friday, Jan 26:

I was in the garage and the truck's cab was longer, Like a van. A hefty woman was there and perhaps someone else was there. Morphine's "The Saddest Song" Started playing.

I arrived late at a banquet organized by my work place. the sorbet had already melted, and all that was left was cool aid. Then the bad guys (terrorists) started to demonstrate how they could control people through the spiked food they ate. they could cause remote controlled agonizing pain or embarrassing sexual pleasure in those who had eaten the food. Then the bad guys proceeded to take the credit for our team's accomplishments.

Oh, and somewhere in this dream I walked outside with a woman and noticed that she was a bad guy because she had a radioactive necklace that glowed in the dark. I was scared of that necklace and her.

Vividness: Around 6-7/15 (10 being lucid) (From the night of Wednesday, 5/8/13)
Awareness: 6/10
Sleep times 11:05PM, 6:56 AM, 7:20AM
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I am at a pool (one I am not familiar with) and there seem to be many people (indistinct blurs, I don't exactly focus on the detail here) running around the edges. Somehow I gather that there is an 'evil spirit' that transfers through contact (my subconscious can't make up it's mind: sometimes there are many and I'm made to believe that they're devouring people, sometimes just one) and chases you around endlessly. I remember running up the stairs of a mini tiki hut by the side of the pool, and getting jostled as people crowd up in the small doorless frame. I get tagged a few times, but feel no effect and immediately get someone else as the running in circles cycle continues.

At some point I'm at a pool I used to go to as a child, and the water level is a few inches about the floor (so the entire surface of the pool, concrete and all are covered with at least 6 inches of water, the pool parts going down to 14 feet). I am splashing along the edges of the pool and seem to glimpse sharks near the bottom of one of them. I notice that the water is very sparkly and pale, and the concrete has a bleached look about it. This was the middle dream, then the pool location switches back to the first.

More running around, then (about 453632626 hours later my mind realizes if I'm getting chased I can actually LEAVE the premises) the focus switches to there being bombs in either the pool or one of the cars in the parking lot (a flat gravelly area with dense foliage on all sides, not a place I recognize). I'm trying to think about where to go, and glance over at the suddenly enlarged entrance to the pool to see a mass of people trying to leave and drive away. I notice my dad and mom, and as I do so there is a movement out of the corner of my eye and all the cars drive away, leaving one empty white SUV conspicuously parked near me (at least the passenger side was). I usher my parents out of the building, and I recognize slight fear and confusion on my dad's face as I single him out in the crowd.

I'm at the pool parking lot still, but deathly afraid and run along the gravelly path that makes way for a cheap asphalt road. Here I am very aware of some of my limbs, and glance over my shoulder every few seconds, moving my neck quickly. I can see a great amount of detail, with flickering lights shining through the leaves behind me and giving off beautiful shadows on the ground (I almost never notice shadows in dreams). There appears to be some pulsating 2-D shape moving along the ground and emitting a strange 'eeeeeeeeee', but my mind deems it nonthreatening and I stumble onwards. I make turns aimlessly and don't really recall the scenery, just the fact that I need to run away and I'm lost. I finally am running down a extremely narrow, lineless road that heads towards a coffee shop I sometimes go to on the weekends. As I run, I meet up with a misleadingly innocuous girl, slightly shorter than me with an average, unattractive face with brown hair and eyes. I somehow learn that she is a vampire (my disoriented brain is trying to tie in with the spirit-monsters from earler) and mistakes me for one as well. We talk briefly, but as we reach the entrance of the coffee shop, she realizes I am a human as a bulky, lumbering male companion of hers steps out onto the road to meet us. She says how they bite thousands of humans every day, and I feel an immense relief, not having realized how scared I was that if I were to get bitten, it would hurt badly (thinking I probably had been bitten before, and either I didn't remember it or it was not painful). I start to run back down the road, and she lopes gracefully after me. We swing our arms at each other, and I block a quick secession of blows with the sides of my forearms, somehow hitting a combo to disable an attack buff (...? even I don't remember or know what I'm talking about here). We exchange some deadly hand to hand blows, and then I have NO IDEA what happens next. Talk about crazy sickness-induced dreams, eh?