non-lucid

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[COLOR="silver"]As you might have seen I haven't had many lucid dreams and I skipped to journal the normal dreams, even though I remembered them. It seems like Dream Journaling was more important that I thought, because I have only had a few short lucidity seconds this week... And I remember lesser dreams.
But I am still very aware of many of them, but the recall/lucidity drop might depend on my schoolbreak =) (Lots of alcohol) Although I had a lucid dream the morning after a party :o[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I were in some sort of garden and I met an old friend of mine, she seemed a little bit shy and then she vanished while I was looking at her. I thought that this must be a dream, I counted the fingers on my hand and... I had five. I got chocked and worried, where the hell was I?[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]Then I woke up.. frustrated :D[/COLOR]

I was with my uncle, we were going on a mission trip to India because he felt bad about something and wanted to make it right. Then I was in a library with incredibly vivid colors, there were two homeless people and one of the was doing acid and freaking out. I picked up a table to defend myself and the dream ended.

I was outside at some random park with a bunch of people. We were all smoking in a circle. At one point I was trying to light something with a clear orange lighter, but I was so dazed and confused that I had no idea if I was doing it right. I kept checking if I was trying to press down on the correct side of the lighter and if I was pointing it in the proper direction. I eventually threw that lighter away and grabbed for another, until someone offered to help me.

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I was at some sort of camp thing. I was at a table in a large windowed room with CL and some others from my class. The room was small and completely lit as everything including the ceilings was a window and it was sunny outside.

We seemed to have just finished eating. We all got up and walked out the back of the building down some wooden stairs and into a forest. Then it ended.

Was at my apartment in sammamish with Leo kara and dina. It snowed really hard and I went to go to work at the restaurant. I though I would be fired for sure because I didn't come in for a week. I went inside and the manager said to talk to him. He walked me to a table of kids and said here's your punishment. I hated kids tables. I went through the grueling process. They started with diet coke, coke, strawberry soda, sprite, and water. Some of them ordered food like farfella. There was an older woman there too. She didn't order anything. I went to the cashiers stand to put the order in and did a reality check. I could breath through my nose. Impossible! This was too real and I could remember what I did a few hours ago. I did it again and I could breath. I did it about five times in a row and just couldn't believe it so I continued to put the order in. I took my time putting the order in and didnt really worry about getting it right. I didn't really care if I got fired. Curtis came and said someone smells bad. I laughed and we talked a but about why I wasn't coming in. I said I just hated working. He asked if I had acid and I said no and asked him the same thing. I left the restaurant and went to my car which was now a giant motorcycle. I was more like a truck with armor. It was black and was being held by five giant brakes. I got on and rid home. Leo and i talked about him leaving and discussed about the next step. We all went to watch a movie and I kind of got sucked in. It felt super long like a dream within a dream. In this movie there were animals everywhere and they could talk. It was a disney movie. They were being hunted by a giant. Black lion type thing. I went around talking to them trying to figure out how to save them. There was a giant machine like thing that could capture and kill the beast. I spent some time trying to get it into the machine. The lion tried getting out but I locked it. I turned it on and it made a really loud humming noise and started to spin. There were spikes at the bottom and he jumped to the top and held on while it spun. I cpukd see him getting dizzy as be lost his balance and fell into the spikes to die. I went to go dispose of the body. The mountain opened up to expose a mother dimension. It was dilled with thousands of dead animal bodys. I had to scrape them all further in into the dimension. Leo was there. A cut scene came in saying that dead is just the becoming and you shouldn't worry about what you do but enjoy it. It was very passionate. I was back home and told lei and dina about the movie and how amazing it was. They said they didn't finish it because it was too slow in the begining. I went for another movie. This movie was short and took place in rolling foothills. I was hiding on a hill as a giant creature was running free. I just watched in amazement as I have never seen such an animal before. It came close to me and then just ran of f to another animal. It was beautiful and sunny out. I was back in my apartment and Leo and dina were going to take a walk. Kara wanted to join them and they waited for her. I wanted to take baron on a walk with them so I slowly got ready. I could tell they wanted to hurry so I got barons leaah. The scene teleported to outside where I was with baron in the snow. He didn't have his leash on and was barking at some lady. I got worried he would run and put him on his leash.

This night was very vivid and full of intense dreams. Unfortunately I don't have the best dream recall right now so I can't remember all the details, just some of the main stuff. I would have liked to remember more of the first dream because it was so overwhelming but since it was the first dream it faded from my memory over the night.

A Beautiful Tragedy
One of my old friends had died(by suicide, I think?) and it was my fault. Although I haven't spoken to her in awhile I still cared a lot about her and I had done something to cause her death. I was a complete mess, crying and crying nonstop for what seemed like forever. I didn't want to live with myself because of what I had done. It was just awful, and the pain felt so real. I don't think I've ever felt so.. broken(then again no one close to me has ever died in RL). I went to my room and curled up on my bed and just weeped and weeped and it was just such a real, heavy feeling. My mom came into my room and she just held me and comforted me as I continued crying. It was almost like.. a beautiful tragedy. When I felt myself waking up from this, I was actually sad that it was a dream. I wanted to go back to that place, back to that feeling. I don't know why.. but it was just so beautiful.

Dorm Livin
I was in a lake or a river with some people and swimming when someone came up to me and said something like, "It's your turn," and started shoving me under the water, not allowing me to come up. I didn't think they were trying to kill me because they had done this with some other people and they were fine, but after awhile of intense struggling more people came to help him push me down under the water and I just gave up. I thought if I stopped moving they would let go. My eyes were closed, and I took a breath of air through my nose, as if it were sticking up from the surface, allowing me to breathe. Then I "woke up" and I was at the end of the hallway of the dorms where the door is, opening it to let someone in. She was someone who had gone to my high school but was now at my same college. I found it odd that I had appeared here and not awake in my bed, so I said "I think I was sleeping up until this point because I just woke up now and here I am.. I don't know how I got here." She didn't seem to believe me. Then me and two new people who I had just met there(not in RL) started painting some picture on white boards. One of the girls looked at me suspiciously, then threw some paint at me, starting a paint fight. I thought it would be cool to have a shirt made of paint splatters so we took turns hand-printing each others shirts.


Hotel Danger
Me, my parents and my sis were in a hotel in Chicago and we wanted to get back to our rooms. We had to go in this elevator, which really freaked me out because it didn't look right and when I tried to get in the doors almost closed on me. Inside the elevator I was shaking and actually crying with fear, as everyone else just stood there normally. The elevator seemed to drop 100 floors and then finally came to a stop at the lobby. I got off right when the doors opened but my sis and mom stayed on because they wanted to go to their floor were our room was. I refused to go back on that thing, so my dad came out and accompanied me. We were going to take the escalators back up instead, but the escalators were huge, like 10 times wider and larger than they should be. The first two escalators were out of service and my dad didn't know that so he tried to go on one and a lady dressed like a hooker said "Sir you can't go on this escalator" so he went on the next one and she followed him and said he couldn't go on that one either, till finally he was able to get on the only working one. I tried to get on it but it was already going up and I couldn't lift my body over the side of it. It was like a giant raft, and the whole thing moved up and down. Then it started bouncing up and down like a trampoline and people were having a party on it. I saw my friend Dani fall off the side of it and wanted to go see if she was okay, but them a HUGE wave appeared. It was the size of the building, which was like 8 stories high. I freaked out and ran to the wave pool that just happened to be there, the wave following behind me, and I went to the deep end of the wave pool and faced the wall. I took a deep breath and went under, hoping this would help take the impact. The wave crashed over me smoothly as I heard people around talking about how huge and awesome the wave was. Then I took a breath and realized I could breathe underwater, then woke up.

I was checking the forums when I came across a story written by Spartiate. He was talking about an old member who used to live near him. Eventually he went over his house to play some game that involved tanks and planes. He said the only reason the guy beat him was because the plane had award controls. The game had an overhead view, but you still needed to control height and all that crap. He also mentioned two other members.

I slept over a friend's house this night, so I didn't have my dream journal with me.

However, I do remember having one dream that I remembered until now. I get the feeling that JD from Scrubs was there, but I can't be sure.

It is worth noting that I almost had a DEILD. I woke up, and kept my eyes closed and didn't move. Then I started feeling the vibrations of sleep paralysis, but, like before, I forgot what to do, and I woke up. I also got extremely excited/nervous/slightly scared so my heart started pounding. I'll try to keep my cool next time.

I also remember that I felt this weird sensation of my body floating around, or swaying back and forth. Perhaps I almost had an OBE? It's a very unique and fascinating feeling.

I only had two dreams this night, and I remember one.

I remember being with Jing in my kitchen. I was flirting with her a lot. That's it.

Bummer.

Well, I'm an idiot and woke up at around 4 in the morning last night. I remembered my dream completely but, out of tiredness, I told myself I would write it down in the morning. Well... yeah... I can't believe I did that. And I was so busy trying to remember that dream that I forgot the one that happened when I woke up.


Dream was in some sort of camp ground. Everyone was in these certain groups and everyone started to try to go against each other. Thats all I can remember. Oh yeah, and we eventually escaped the camp grounds.

This dream wasn't Lucid, but it sure was weird!

The dream began, and I was right next to my Grandpa's pond. My grandpa wasn't there, and their house was replaced with a giant mansion/base/helicopter landing behemoth of a house. I went into the house, and there was a giant pool, and Pal (Pal was based off one of my friends this dream) was standing there with his dream sister I guess. We were just chillin and standing around the pool when Pal gets this crazy idea to make a homemade hot air balloon. I told him that there is no way we can do that, because we don't know how to get the fire to create air. Pal came up with this brilliant idea to make it fly using cold air (Not possible in real life but in dreams duh). I agreed, and the scenery outside the house changed slightly. The trees were replaced with an open field.

The scene changes, and me, Pal, and his sister are standing outside with the balloon ready. It looked like a huge piece of shit, but it really looked promising to us in the dream. We stood there and Pal told us to get in. We got in, and it took off. We didn't rise, we took off. It slowly started to rise as it flew pretty low to the ground. We saw trees coming up into the horizon, so Pal told the air to pump faster, and we rose up very high. I wasn't afraid (I hate heights) surprisingly because I had this slight feeling of if I fell off, I knew I wouldn't get hurt, but I thought this was real life. Yes, confusing I know. Eventually after a while we started going down slowly and then quickly. We landed in a small pond that was by a bathroom house that was in the middle of nowhere. We walk in and take a leak, and we see a man in the corner who was just sitting on a bench playing a Harmonica. We went up to him and asked if he could help, and he said yes, and gave us an oar, new balloon top, and a container for the cold air. No , I don't know why some homeless guy had all that stuff. Dreams can be so stupid...

So finally we got to the balloon, and rowed it back to shore. We got it all situated, and attempted to take off, but then the man who gave us the stuff started opening fire on our balloon. We took flight right when he started firing. He kept hitting the balloon, but it took a long time to go down. We eventually landed in a field. I then woke up soon after. Verrrryyy weird dream.

I was in the Mensa of a unknown boarding school, someone was complaining about the knives being nearly unable to cut buns at all, I told him that I already knew knives which were completely incapable of cutting buns and that at the boarding school I was talking about (Talenta) the spoons were used to cut the buns instead of the knives (this is indeed a true story out of reality, god those friggin’ knives…). I was making myself raw sandwiches (with cheese and salami) which I would toast back in my roam where I had a sandwich toaster (again these sandwiches came unchanged right out of the reality, along with the toaster). As I returned from the Mensa (happened with a small gap, and strangely I was in Talenta) I was talking about something with one of the housemasters (which strangely was not older than me), something different came up and he went outside followed by 2 girls, I had something to do for a moment as well. After that I went out to search him in the building, and after a short moment I found him in one of the bureaus. I saw a sort of tooltip over his head, which a title (it was pretty long but I don’t remember everything, something like “…Anti-Khaak-SSSe”). With another gap I met up with my girlfriend and another girl my girlfriend knew, in a big building which was new to me, it was pretty bright and the roof was mostly made out of glass.
They were playing games in a N64 like console; it had generally bad graphics on the screen (you even had to readjust for every single game), but it was equipped with all types of controllers for all limbs and a virtual reality device. Somewhere in the middle of these games we went over to another TV in this building, which was left from us. For some reason they started to watch a Hentai (porn), and apparently I already knew (from ratings or whatever) that it was a pretty bad movie. I saw 2 girls strapped to crosses and there were 2 other girls talking about how they were bad and something devil like. For a moment the TV faded and I saw the scene like reality. One of the restricted girls said: “And you call me a devil!” to one of the free girls, which actually had blue skin, black hair and a thick strange tail. Without saying anything she got rid of that skin and the tail, which apparently was just a costume. I got pretty bored of this and since rape was about to be happening in this movie I had no intentions of continuing to watch this; we were at the console again.
At some part of the game I was in the virtual reality interface and I was seeing earth from space, I still saw a cube which had something to do with the game and there was a lot more blue surrounding earth, likely water. From there on it was 3rd person for a while and I saw a shuttle flying towards earth, and a voice explained me a lot of partially correct physics (like a documentary). I got to see a small thermal video of this shuttle, still flying down, where I saw how the heat builds up at the tip of the shuttle. At some point the within the thermal video the shuttle entered the ring of water, and the voice told me that at 5000°C a C-Liquid would be generated at the tip of the shuttle, which would stick to the shuttle and keep the heat there, I also started seeing normally again. This C-Liquid was black. And that at a higher temperature (5500°C I think) this liquid would gain fat like properties, making the liquid still stick to the shuttle. But the liquid would then be unable to stick together to a big bubble on front of the shuttle like it did before. I saw black streams of this liquid flow besides the shuttle.
After another short gap I found myself back on earth, the topic was still (space) travel. I got to saw a lot of unrefined glider and rocket prototypes. The voice explained that some of those rockets might soon take us further than anything has done before. I was still in a documentary but got my body back, I tested one of the glider prototypes. It was square shaped with a few fins and a round section in the middle, equipped with some sort of round gliding blade (whatever it really was, hard to explain). It was pretty small, maybe 50cmx50cm. However without any special power source it was able to carry me downhill without me touching the ground once and it was also pretty easy to control. It wasn’t perfect but the construction was pretty neat actually (that is if it would work in real life).

Witch Meeting

I was at a table with a guy and a girl. I don't know what the discussion was about. Another DC walks up. The two DC's at the table start to talk about what we are going to do. The new DC has changed the dynamic of our plan and I get nervous about it.

A silver or stainless steel pipe cut in half length-wise is now around our chairs binding us as a group inside the piping. Blood is in the half-pipe. It didn't seem odd in my dream. The female character "put" it there.

I start to tell everyone that "The only way...

The two DC's already seated are still talking. I am insistent, and so I keep talking as I stand up..."I am going to keep going is if I am in charge of a couple things." I put my arm around the new DC and walk away. I assure the folks at the table this will only take a minute--maybe not even that long. We walk away.

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I come back to a party, though it isn't the one from my previous dream. There are lots of people at a sports bar scene. As I approach the door, a beautiful brunette walks out and to see me. Her name is Dianne. Names are rare in my dreams.

We are going to go to a less crowded room to hang out. I tell her, "I'm going to go get my pool stick and a pack of smokes." I have a pool stick, but I quit smoking years ago. She says "That's cool."

I go out to my car, but try to get a better parking spot. It actually seemed farther away when I got there. As I got out of my car, I was now getting off a lawn mower. It had a blade that stuck out. It was covered, but tilted to expose the blade. I had to adjust the blade so it wasn't dangerous.

I was getting frustrated because I was trying to get back to Dianne, though I was starting to lose that part of the dream.

I finally started walking back to the party. There were tons of people walking my way.

I usually don't have so many DC's.

Old Coins and Going Back for my Daughter

I was finding coins in a creek--mostly from today's time, but then I found a really old coin. It might have been commemorative.

Dream skip

Time has passed. Some friends are going somewhere and I am going with them. I am in the creek to get just a few more coins. I didn't want to leave the quarters. It seemed like such easy money. Then the coins started getting older. I was finding treasure, so I really had to keep getting them.

Finally, I had as many as I could carry. I went back to the car with wet legs from getting on all fours. We left, but we left my daughter, who I think had my name in the dream.

I was waiting to see if the driver was going to get her, but he never did. I told the driver I had to get out to get my daughter, so he pulled over. I was now 5 miles from home. I was afraid because I would never leave her out of my sight, much less out of the house alone with no one watching her for that long.

I started to walk home and ended up in a building. A guy had me look at a TV which was showing a room full of servers. He said that Drew set the whole thing up. This was because some people I know are hosting a forum for a game I am mildly involved in. The name Drew was from a singer on the X factor.

Someone else came in the room. She looked like a teacher at my daughter's school. It was made known that she actually installed the servers. It bothered me that the wrong people were taking the credit for setting up this room full of servers.

Dream End

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Good morning, everybody.

Dream #1

I was in a huge building, either like a mansion or a museum. The building was dim, as if at night, with only a few lights on.

I had been in a back area, where there was a high, wooden wall, with a tall window up high on the wall. I then walked forward to some narrow area with a slanted, wall-like display stand or case.

My old friend R was standing in front of this display area. He stood really close to it. He seemed to be trying to avoid looking at me. I somehow knew he'd gotten a reputation for being violent, almost psychotic. He was so tired of dealing with this reputation that he didn't even want to have to look at anybody.

But he actually was as violent as people accused him of being. And he actually wanted to act violently toward me, because he felt I'd somehow insulted him.

I faced R. But now he was in a room even closer to the front of the building. He was in a little niche in a wall to my right. He may even have been wrapped in bandages, like a mummy.

I wanted to prove that there was no reason to be afraid of R and that I wasn't afraid of him. So I handed R a whole bunch of items that looked like huge items of silverware: like huge forks and knives. There were also some huge tongs that looked like forks. Everything was sharp, and I knew it could all be used as a weapon to kill me.

I was now going to leave the house. The idea was, I knew, that if R had weapons and I left the house, that R would kill me. But I was going to prove people wrong. Nevertheless, I was still afraid to leave through the front door.

I ran all the way to the back of the building. There was a window I'd easily be able to climb up to and crawl out of. But as I started crawling out the window, I felt like R might be right there, waiting to throw the weapons I'd given him at my chest.

So I climbed back down. To my right, as I faced the wall, there was a dim kitchen, just like a kitchen in any nice suburban house. Just above the sink was another window. I thought that since R thought I was going to come out the back window, I'd be safe going out the kitchen window instead.

But as I was climbing out the window, I could feel R's presence again. I knew that this time he probably would manage to catch me, throwing the sharp weapons I'd given him at my chest and piercing my heart.

Dream #2

I was looking at a magazine, maybe a porn magazine. The pages were nothing but photos, maybe six photos per page, in the same kind of style as a porn magazine.

The photos showed two girls in bed. They were about nine or ten years old. They were wearing pajama pants and pajama shirts. Apparently, under their pajama pants the girls were wearing diapers.

The girls got into a kind of sixty-nine position with each other. The girl on top of the other girl rubbed her face against the bottom girl until her pants had been worked off. She somehow managed to remove the girl's diaper in the same way.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID NIGHTLY ADVENTURE

Good morning! No lucid this weekend, did have a few pretty entertaining dreams. Didn't feel like writing anything down yesterday so I'll include them today. Also had a funny nightly adventure last night.

23.00: Sleep

00.00: Nightly Adventure
*I wake up and there's a small rat on the chair next to me. It jumps towards me and I punch it mid air. It falls down onto the floor as Monica walks over to the bed. "Watch him! He's on the floor" I say. "I think I killed him." Monica starts laughing and asks a few questions. After half a minute or so I realise that it's all a bit absurd and we both laugh.

11.00: Dreams from two nights
*I'm in another country once again. It's very hot and sunny out and a bunch of teens are down by the water. I go there and talk to them, we have a laugh and I challenge them to try to throw me into the water. They all end up in the water instead. I head back towards the hotel and meet Christan from work. "Hey man, how long have you been here?" I ask. "Almost a week, we're going home tomorrow" he tells me. "Aw crap! Who am I going to play with then?" I ask. I lie down on the warm tiles and just enjoy the warmth for a while.

*I'm with a couple of guys from work. We're walking down a street when a big barn appears. Roger and another guy heads up a ladder to the second floor. Me and another guy walks through it at the bottom floor. At the other side of the barn I can hear Roger from up above. He sounds afraid and is stuttering. Another guy keeps asking him questions. We exit the barn and look up at the second floor door. A guy appears. "We have Roger, and we're not giving him back unless you tell us what all this talk about puppies is all about!"

'Is he talking about my mom's dog's pups?' "Okay relax, don't do anything to him" I say. "We'll shove this metal rod up his ass if you don't give me answers!" he yells back and shows me an iron rod used in construction. I find one myself on the ground and so does everyone I'm with, we're about five people. The guy disappears for a while and I take the time to talk to my coworkers who starts suggesting we beat the shit out of him. I practice a few blows on a piece of plastic nearby.

The man appears again with a friend. "There are three puppies" I tell him. "Yeah that's correct" the man responds. He then says three dwarf names from "Snow White." "That's them!" I say. All of a sudden Roger appears again. "Had to take a shit" he says. "Oh okay, then I guess we'll get going" I say. The man starts saying he's sorry for the misunderstanding. "Yeah these things happen" I say and turn around.

All of a sudden people starts yelling. I turn around and watch as all my coworkers smack the living shit out of the two men. I join them and I can feel the fury growing inside of me as I deal blow after blow in the head. It's not long before they're dead and people start shoving them into black plastic bags. A truck shows up and I take the second guy in command aside. "How many have we killed so far?" I ask him. We're on a big survival mission of sorts. "I dunno, twenty, twenty five perhaps." He tells me with a shrug. "Yeah but this is the first time in a town, the police will find out" I tell him and walk away. The throw the guys into the truck.

*I'm with my two friends Felix and Eric. We're all with our girlfriends and we're taking turns having sex in sofas under some covers. It all feels like a weird play or something and no one is taking it seriously. They all disappear after a while and I'm left there alone. A few minutes later Monica shows up again and I ask her if she wants to finish. She doesn't and instead sits down by the computer. She starts looking at hentai and I'm shocked.

*I'm in northern Sweden on a weird hang glider made out of wooden sticks and some white cloth. My brother Martin is with me as is my sister Malin. We glide over the street and it feels amazing! There's something wrong with the lots on the side of the road though. A big tree trunk is spontaneously catching on fire and shooting a big pillar of fire up into the sky with a few second intervals.

The rest of the lot is black and shimmers with an oily aura of sorts. I figure it has to be some kind of plague that is slowly spreading. We get off the glider and it breaks. I try to fix it with my hands but it's too broken. I decide to give it a shot anyways and hold it together with my hands as I run and jump up on it. I glide for a few seconds before crashing down hard onto the street. I'm not seriously hurt though.

*I'm an observer in a prison. A twelve or so year old boy is in his cell and he's not very tough anymore. "I'm not a man" he says. "Don't give us that crap" one of the guards say and shut the door. All of a sudden I watch him run around a cocaine plantation. A guy working there tells him to get out. He enters a supermarket instead.

I'm now there myself with a few friends. We're going to make hamburgers and pick all kinds of stuff for them. When we arrive at the cashier Monica steals an old lady's wallet. I grab it behind her back and put it into her bag. Teamwork! I realise I've forgotten the bbq sauce. I run back into the store and find it.

11.00: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 11½ hours

Supplements: None

That's it!

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!