non-lucid

I remembered part of a dream from last night but the recent problems with recall are starting to get on my nerves. I had 100+ percent of my DVA for all B vitamins (earlier in the day), did a complete day journal before I went to bed, set my WBTB timer for 4 in the morning. And put my journal on my nightstand. I don't even remember waking up to turn off the WBTB alarm so I probably didn't do any WILD attempts. When I woke up at the regular time I was able to write down a fragment of a dream that I was having. I was in the locker room at school and I was with a friend and some woman. The woman and my friend were arguing about a pair of pants, he said that the pants made him look like he was 37 (years old) when he was actually 47 (strange because he is a sophomore in highschool) and woman said he was to old to be wearing those pants. From what I can remember I was just an observer. It was a really stupid dream but at least I remembered some of it. Hopefully my recall will bounce back to its former glory.

Dream 1:

I was picking someone up at my old high school, its weird because that's what i was doing today, picking my sister up at my old high school. So anyways I look around and lunch is over so people are going back to class. There's a group of kids going back and i walk in the crowd, i feel like I'm in high school again, and it feels good. I walk out, its a sunny day, and i go into this one parking lot and i see my ex girlfriend in some kind of hooded purple sweatshirt and jacket, she just looks away and pretends to ignore me as i pass her. I see my coworker Priscilla go to her car but I don't say hi to her. Then I notice my other ex girlfriend is sitting in the trunk of my car, (its a Honda pilot so its not weird to sit off the end, bc its a flat surface) and some random new boyfriend she has. I notice a stick figure made out of ribs someone ate in the windshield wiper of my car. I asked my ex thats sitting in the car if she did it, her boyfriend says he did it, so i start to beat the crap out of him then the dream ends.

Dream 2:

I am at this weird party in the woods and it looks like a halloween - esque party because there's seats made out of straw and barrels everywhere. It looks like its about sundown and it seems as if the forest has walls like in some old video games, one of them is the goldeneye game where you are walking through the forest but there are walls of trees you can't walk past. People are drinking beer and there are different wooden ledges people are standing on, there's always incredibly weird architecture/furniture in my dreams. And when I'm walking around I see the back half of a spider past me on a stack of hey. So instead of hitting it i light a match to burn the spider. Then when i walk towards it it turns into a person and we start trying to put the fire out. Then I heard someone say that the cops were coming and I ran into this weird house with weird furniture. That's when the dream ended.

Dream 3:

Im not really sure whether to classify this as a dream or not but i was still in an area that looked like the party and i was basically awake and half dreaming, except the dream was very vague, almost day dreaming at this point. I was in a field of corn or straw, couldn't really tell. And I started to throw fire with my hands and a crowd of kids started to run away. Then I walked away to what seemed like one of the kids moms and i ordered her to start blowing me, It felt real but then as i was getting a boner in real life i started to wake up. Thats about the end of it

I remember a bus that was supposed to be taking us to Florida but so many things delayed us that by the time we were about to leave I wake up. (I actually do have a trip to Florida in the spring.)

Took a little break from weed, so my dreams are much more clear. Woke up around 5 a.m. this morning and decided I would write this dream down because it felt very real.

First thing I remember was hanging out with Kenny a lot. We were almost like best friends I guess. My heart was kind of confused though, like it thought I was gay and I was starting to like him. I knew that wasn't right, so my unconscious mind set out to figure what was wrong as the dream kept going. I realized that it wasn't Kenny that I was crushing on (lol) but Trang! Suddenly I remembered and had made the connection, because Kenny and Trang were pretty close at one point (probably still are). I remember telling Steven in person I think, and he just laughs.

Dream switches into LoL mode. It's 5v5 and all I remember playing with was Trang lol. She's on the other team with a bunch of her friends (Shannon too I believe), vs. me and all my friends. Not really going into details of the game, but it was pretty fun and it was a good way to "bond," even though it's not realistic, it made me feel closer to her in the dream. I think I end up actually going AFK the last game because my dad needed me and I totally forgot I was playing.

Dream switches and suddenly I see this little kid (not me) opening a Christmas present that was wrapped in scotch tape lol. It turns out to be a paint ball handgun. Then, the little kid becomes me all of a sudden. I load the handgun and start shooting everywhere. There's paint all over the walls and I feel like my parents are going to kill me, but I'll just repaint it before they see. As weird as the dream already is (I've never touched a paintball gun or shot one), my parents see and they say nothing. I decide, eh, time to clean up, so I go into the garage to get the paint, but then I think to myself, "Dude... there's not really paint on the walls, your just in a dream." and decide to go shower. (No lucidity wtfff blah) I remember one tiny little detail where my mom gets mad at me for wiping paint off my face with a dirty cloth, and I respond saying "I'm gonna shower anyway."

Dream switches, and I'm now in bed naked because it was blazing ass hot. I remember feeling like I was Nam, and Dan saying like "Oh I respect that." Weird. All my friends were dressing up for Nikki's 2nd birthday party which was more formal. I wasn't going I think. I was chatting on wc3 it seemed like, and Michelle Han was talking to her friends in /all. I was confused and asked if she was talking to me, she said nah, and she said she was going to a kickback (she referred it to something else, but I forgot). Suddenly she's in my bed with her phone in her hand, on facetime, but on a blackberry. She's literally "showing off" me to her friends when she decided not to go to the kickback I guess lol. I catch a glimpse of what I'm seeing-- people partying, and her best friend Tracy on the other phone. Then I see us, and she's all up on me! Like straight up like she was my girlfriend. As soon as I saw that, she climbed up onto me, kind of stroked my penis up to my chest, and started to look at me. I grabbed her face and I kissed her, but I didn't do anything else because I felt like my friends were around me lol. This is where I woke up and was likeee "damn."

I'm in a blue car we are driving up to a warhouse. We pull up inside and me and four other guys get out with our guns. We climb a ladder to get and advantage point and then we wait. Then they begin to come out out. Men dressed in black armor ran out from different places shooting at us. As I find all of them on my scope I shoot killing them. (The sex part I'll keep to myself.)

Good morning, everybody.

Dream #1

I was in some place like a restaurant. It may have been on the second floor of a bulding. The wall to my right had a couple windows, which may have had thin, white curtains over them. I sat at a small, round table. There was a larger, round table in front of mine.

My family sat down at the larger table. Somebody, possibly my mom, sat down with her chair pulled slightly out and to the side, so she kind of faced me.

My oldest nephew, as he looked when he was young, maybe nine or ten years old, crept up and hid behind the woman's body. I saw him do it. I was pretty sure he'd wanted me to see him, like he was only acting shy so I'd come right up and talk to him.

So I stood up and walked behind the woman. I may have started talking to my nephew.

Dream #2

I was in the driveway of "my family's house." The driveway was on the left side of the house, unlike IWL. My sister had a huge SUV. She and her kids were already inside it. My sister was apparently going to take me somewhere, possibly home or to a hotel. But she asked me to go get some keys out of the house for her.

At first it seemed like these keys may have been for the car, or for some car I was being taken to. We couldn't leave without them. But I may have found these keys.

At some point I was in the hallway, probably on a threshold to a room, talking with my mom. My mom may have seemed to be a lot taller than I, as if she were a giant or I were a kid.

I may have gone back outside to have my sister send me back into the house again. This time my sister needed keys for something for one of my nephews.

My nephew apparently needed to go to the doctor. But the keys were necessary for something regarding either the doctor's office or my nephew's actual body.

I went back into the house. I may have gone into the basement. It seemed like it was taking me a really long time to find the keys. I may have decided to give up and tell my sister that maybe she should look.

But then I was in the kitchen. I opened a drawer and found the keys inside, laying on a blank pad of sketch paper. There were three keys on a ring. They may have been inside a clear, plastic baggie.

Dream #3

I was at some theatre. At first I was in some part of the lobby. I was getting ready to watch some performance like a college or high school performance. Some kids who'd be performing were in the lobby, talking with each other. One of them was a tall, black boy.

Now I was in the theatre with my friend H. We sat in the very front row, on the very left end. The stage seemed normal, though slightly elevated. It was all black, and a blue spotlight shone on it. There may have been something like a wooden-barred cage on the stage.

Something about this performance may have had to do with Kiyoshiro Imawano and, possibly, Ryuichi Sakamoto. My friend H seemed to be really excited about this. But I got mad at her. I told her, "I've seen Kiyoshiro Imawano and ----- (possibly Ryuichi Sakamoto) performing here before!"

I was so mad at H for once more forgetting the details of my life that I had her twisted sideways, down on my lap. I had her head twisted up at a really painful angle toward the stage.

Now the play began. A bunch of kids kept coming out and introducing themselves. The play seemed to be about a bunch of cool, artistic kids all living together. As each kid took introduced him or herself, he or she would take a spot somewhere on stage.

A few black boys walked out and introduced themselves. I recognized one of them as one of the kids talking in the lobby. The stage was now low and bowed out in a kind of wide U-shape. I felt like the stage was smashing against my knees.

I remembered that my friend H had said she didn't have time to come to the show, and how she'd see me to the show and then leave. But, I happily remarked, H had come in and sat down with me. Now the show had started, and H still hadn't tapped my shoulder or anything to let me know she was leaving. She must have wanted to stay!

But I now looked over to H's seat. H was gone. She had left without telling me. She may have left a book in her chair.

Dream 1
I was jogging in the greenway I could feel the strain in my legs, it felt like I had been jogging for a long time. I saw Brock Lesnar jogging too. A I jogged I came up to a sort of platform that went up in a spiral and as I climbed it I could feel my thighs burning. An old lady was very impressed.

Dream 2
There was a warehouse near the greenway and Omar was there with some other guy. I think Stringer Bell was there and I think they had a gunfight also.

Dream 3
In the Bronx there were crips walking around and they saw some bloods and chased them into a narrow path. Then more bloods and crips showed up there crip girls and blood girls, some younger members showed up in shopping trollies and were pushed down the hill to attack.

It was just weird.

Dream 4
Batista was in bed with a woman and he said something about being cheap. It turned out that is was a promo fro his appearance on Donna (I imagine that she's a talk show host or something). He was wearing a purple shirt open like Vic Vance's leisure suit on GTA:Vice City. The camera zoomed out and I could see a studio and "Donna".

Fragment
I was defending a space station in Combat Evolved. I was holding a rifle and had shot some grunts.

12.11.2011

Close to Home (Non-Lucid)

★★☆☆☆

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

My brother is here. As is my mother and father.

I find this somewhat unusual, as I wander through my home, and they interact with me so jovially.

But no matter.

In the garage, now, I feel like practicing some guitar, so, using my TK, I pull it from my upstairs room, phasing it through a few walls on its way to me. Unfortunately, the neck is screwed up, most of the frets are missing, and the strings are incredibly short as result.

Just a glorified bowl.

I take a look around, noticing my brother coming down the stairs behind me. I doubt he'll have an issue with it, so I fill up the guitar with cocoa rice krispies and milk and start to chow down, moving out of the garage, towards the driveway, only to have my father stop me sternly.

He warns me about watching my behavior, and suggests I head back inside.

I oblige.
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We're hosting a house party, and there's lots to do, especially in the kitchen and out back.

Cleaning needs to be done, and things need to be cooked.

I help the best I can.
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Sitting on a cheap bed, in what seems to be a dank hotel room, I notice the dark outside, the sketchy neon street signs, and wonder what I'm doing here. . .

4/26/2011
I woke up laying in my bed and Jordan walks into my room and stops at the foot of my bed. Then I ask her, "Jordan, can I have a hug?" She kind of laughed unexpectedly, and said "Sure." So I got up, took off the blanket, and gave her a hug. Then I ended up picking her up and falling into my lounge chair, and she started laughing and telling me to stop, playfully. But I let go of her waist and she still acted as if I was holding on. She didn't get up until I told her to. And then someone, it must have been an administrator from my school because Kourtney(I didn't see her face and she disappeared right after)gave him something for the school. And then I got a little book to give to him too, and he rejected it and told me to keep it. After that there's a gap in the dream, but I must have asked Jordan something bad, because she said, "How could you ruin this house of God?" And then it got blurry and started to fade, I think she said, " We'll see" sometime after that." It trails off from there.

4/25/2011
My first attempt to enter a LD/Sleep Paralysis
I laid down and relaxed, started to meditate, keeping my mind awake but letting my body fall apart from my mind. After about 30-35 minutes, I started hearing weird thumping noises. Then I had an OBE, and my "body" sank a foot into the bed, while my head remained on the pillow. After an excitement awakening, I must have drifted off and woken up 2 hours later. Then sporadic dreams throughout the night that I couldn't recall.

M I R A G E

Me And My Family Are In A Car.(In A City,Maybe New Orleans) My Parents Mention Something About Cousins And A Picture Of Their House Is Flashed Several Times(Except,Their House Seems Abandoned,Rustic,And Run Down.)The City Scene Shifts To An Indoor Rollerskating/Wrestling Arena/ Paintball Store.There Are Gym Mats Everywhere.I Am Then Taking Rollerskating Lessons From A Black Male.(I Actually Met This Guy In Real Life At A Local Skatepark ) After Awhile He Says '"Let's Take A Break." The Scene Shifts,The Black Male Is Trying To Sell Me Paintball Gear Or Maybe Rollerskates.Later, We Watch A Wrestling Match Between A Very Buff Woman And 2 Buff Men.Someone Screams And I Look Behind Me.The Wall Is Completely Gone And A Stormy Ocean Has Appeared.Very Gloomy.Lightning Strikes And Then A Huge Tsunami Hits .It Crashes And I'm Blind For A Few Seconds.When I Regain Vision,A King Figure Comes Out Of The Water With Followers.They're Carrying Candles And Chanting.Everyone,Including Myself,Start To Huddle.The Scene Shifts As Were Walking Into A Hilly Forest Area. My Deceased Grandfather Appears And Is Connected To Me By A Harness And Rope .As Everyone Continues To Travel Uphill, My Grandfather Disappears And We All Arrive At A House From One Of My Earlier Dreams.As We Arrive I Begin To Here Very Loud Noises.(Like Chainsaws And Lawnmowers). I See A Truck With Lawncare Equipment.(I Later Discover Once I Wake Up That The Loud Noises I Heard Are From My Mom Using The Blender In The Kitchen)When I Look At The House I See My Grandfather Sitting On The Front Porch Steps ,Smiling.

-End Of Dream-

I was in the kitchen that I know think might have been the kitchen or some room from a ranch I visited some time ago. Me and my mom were there and on the table was a huge Disc Jokey(DJ) thing. It had two giant record type things and I think some ports and stuff for iPod and discs and stuff. I remember my mom leaving and I stayed there to try and figure out the system and I remember getting annoyed that I needed two iPods when I only had one so I couldn't mix songs. Soon after that is when I woke up I think but It was annoying because it was my alarm.

Date: ?? -Zombie Invasion- Semi -Lucid


Me And A Group Of People(That I'd Never Seen Before) Rush Out Of A Dark Courtyard(Filled With Zombies),Into A Dark Rustic Building.Once Inside, We Barricade The Entrance.Someone Passes Guns Out.We Travel Up Stairs In Effort To Find An Escape.We Don't Ever Find One.In Panic,(I Knew I Was Dreaming Here) I Jump Of The Huge Stair Case And Die.I Then Kind Of ,"Spawn" In A Beautiful Scenery On A Top Of A Mountain.I'm Riding Down The Mountain On A Type Sled With Wheels.I Then Force Myself Awake.
-End Of Dream-

Sleep
Sleep: 12:30am-1:00am
Wake: 10:00am
(Time: ~8, 8.5hrs | 5.5cycles)

Dreamsigns collected:
1. work-related dream

1. At my job in the stockroom. They're cracking down on the drugs in the factory. There are giant columns of products against a black shelf, and it's the only one I can see – and as my attention goes to the top of them, I am at the top of one, holding on and looking down. I realize I need to hide the drug(s), and think about hiding it in a lotion bottle near the bottom. The columns were now lotion bottles. As I try to remember the spot of where the lotion bottle would be if I hid it there, I realize it's too hard and decide against it. There is an intercom above us.

2. -At some weird building. It's sunny outside and has bright lighting. Looks like a school building. One girl comes out of a room in a wheelchair, her mom pushing her around, and she says "I don't hurt." I shake her foot and move on.

-Looks like a continuation of the last dream memory. I'm at the outside of a building, same setting as the school, but the route I took looks familiar (and I remember dreaming about taking a path that I saw in the dream, so this is just a remembered fragment). I start moving around oddly, jumping up and spinning like a top, and bouncing on the ground and moving faster.

-Go up to the front of a building, two people walk out among the others. Two guys come forward, one in a wheelchair. The first guy's eyes poke out, he hands out his right hand for me to shake, and I shake it with my left hand upside down. They ask if I'm going to join in something, I say "no, I was, but I'm just more interested in hockey." (I don't like hockey).

3. At my house. It's nighttime and dark, and I have to walk through my parents room and wake them up to talk to them for a minute, something that makes me uncomfortable.

4. I'm at the mall, and I'm standing outside of a store. It's my job to try on different soaps. I'm rubbing it all on me, mostly shameless. Some army guys come up and ask how they can try it. I say they can't basically. It's just me. Then an older friend, Lucky, looking super gothic/'hardcore' with tattoos and frizzy hair, and her friend walk past me. Then Scrappy walks past, and laughs and shakes his head "no." He walks away, I smile and wave him off.

I was walking through a large city with a female companion. Perhaps it was someone I have met in a previous dream, I cannot say. we were looking for a voodoo shop, because I was curious about the possible energy differences. We found one quickly enough. we entered without making a sound, we didn't want to disturb the shaman if they were in the middle of a ritual or something. "And you are sure it was a demon who possessed you? It wasn't a fox?" I heard. the shaman, who was female, was talking to a Japanese woman. I could sense the Japanese woman's uncertainty, but she replied with a yes. the shaman also sensed this uncertainty, but did not comment on it. Instead, she said something about my companions texting. we waited outside for a few minutes until the shaman was done with her patient. when we entered, the shaman asked me to follow her to the corner of the room. The entire room was covered with strange trinkets on every wall. she took me to a painting of a woman with four breasts, two above the other two, and told me not to look at the vagina (even though the painting was of her midsection upward). I tried staring at the eyes, but this proved incredibly difficult. my eyes would move downward no matter how many times I corrected them, and before long, I coudn't control my eyes at all, they would go every direction possible, as if I were having a seizure.

I was overcome with a strange, powerful energy. I couldn't stand, I stumbled over to the chair and laid down. The energy felt different than my normal energy, I could only think of voodoo as a possible solution. It was incredibly potent, and I could do nothing but lay on the couch. I made a comment to the shaman, about it being different than my normal energy. this piqued her interest, she wanted to learn about my energy. I said it was subtile, nothing like this. I started slipping in and out of consciousness. from what I can gather, I stayed on the couch for perhaps several hours, then I traveled out of the city with my companion before I awoke.

after I awoke, I felt saturated with energy, neither positive nor negative energy, but it felt just as potent as the dream. I laid there for a few minutes until it dissipated enough for me to think straight, then I got up.