non-lucid

Log: 10:00 January 23-24, 2011
05:30
Hours: 7:30 m Alarm: Yes Audio: None

People: Brenna Ashleigh, Sam Aschwanden, Tessa Henessy

A bunch of us were at the park and we were all playing around, and it seems as if i was being somewhat of a loner and just climbing and swinging on my own. It was pretty fun. I was on one side of the playset, and i jumped a big gap and successfully pulled it off. I went back around ad got over to the place were i started before and contemplated doing the same thing again. On this side with me Sam and Brenna were behind or on the side of me. On the other side of the playground was a few people, i couldn't tell who they were. I was now voicing my opinion on the fact that i was about to make the big jump again. Brenna was concerned, along with Sam, and they didn't want me to do it. They didn't see me do it the first time, sothey were very skeptical. Then Brenna left, and it was Sam and i left. She could not come to realize where actually i was jumping to. So i had to point it out many times to get her to notice. But then i gave it up and Sam and i started walking past where i was going to jump to. There was a bathroom right there to the left. Sam went to the bathroom and i waited outside for her. I found a tree and i decided to hide from her, but when she came out she automatically found me and she said i was silly. Then it ended.

I am staying at my mum's house, and we have a row, so I go into the shop next door to my old bedroom. The shop is huge, it sells all kinds of different things, and it seems that it has a very late closing time. While I am buying teddies and dressing gowns, I see both my aunties coming towards me. For some reason, I sense that my auntie will be upset at me buying teddies because she recently lost a baby (she hasn't) so I feel guilty. I continue to browse through balloons, and hope that they do not see me.That said, both my aunties are enthusiastic about all of my purchases when they find me, and browse the shop with me, picking up some of the same things.

When I leave the shop, I find my friend's mum sitting on my bed on her laptop. She announces that she is pregnant with a boy, and shows me the early scans in Photoshop. There seems to be a party going on all around us, with crowds drinking and dancing but somehow, despite the happy news, she appears to be sad.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING
1:00

WILD from a FA (?)
I was dreaming I had woken up in my bed (FA) and I tried to fall asleep (in the dream) and enter a lucid dream. I was focusing on the image of a mirror to use as a portal. Just as if I were awake, I went through the process of trying to sleep for a while. I was seeing the image clearer, then weakened, then stronger again, then I almost woke up... Then I decided to cover my eyes with my sleeping mask, because there was some light in the (dream) room coming through the window and that might have been the reason why I was not falling asleep easily.
[I only realized this part had been a dream when much later I woke up from my LDs and saw that I had never put my sleeping mask on. It was still on the drawer.]

Dream Warriors School
I finally managed to fall asleep (inside the dream) and immediately went into a dream of a empty room with only one large mirror on the wall. I changed it to have a certain size and shape. But then when I tried to cross it, the mirror was completely solid. I tried several times, I created several mirrors and none of them worked. Strange! That never happens!
Then came a girl who told me to sit with her. She explained to me what I should do to get through the mirror, but I told her "Yes, but that's what I always do! I do not understand why it does not work this time. " Then she told me something about me being on a new level and that I had to get used to how things worked a bit differently around there and she invited me to follow her. In the same building as we were, she took me to a more reserved area, with some large glass doors, which closed with some kind of electromagnetic field. I noticed that we were being followed, but the two guys who followed us were stranded outside. She did not seem to be worried about then, but I looked into their eyes through the doors and I realized they were men in black, but not of the usual kind. They had a devilish look in their eyes and I felt that these were more powerful that the usual guys. I did not feel very safe, but the girl told me that we were safe and she introduced to me the rest of the guys. It was a bunch of other dreamers and I knew we were the Dream Warriors School.
We were going to get to know each other when suddenly in front of me the men in black materialized. They had managed to pass the force field. It all happened very fast. They wanted to steal something, an object that was in the middle of the hall and they did it under our nose. But when they were fleeing, I used telekinesis to throw things at them, I threw fireballs and I fought physically with one or two. Other dreamers have also tried to block them, but they escaped. The atmosphere was very somber after that.
A bit after we were surprised by a visitor. It was the Dalai Lama who gave us some words of encouragement. There was a guy sitting behind me asking me some questions about if there was some protocol to follow, like how to address him or how to sit in front of him...., I guess because everybody knows I’m Buddhist and I would know this stuff, but I told him not to worry and just be natural.
After the Dalai Lama left us, someone handed us a paper with some writings on and asked us to make a prayer circle and for the health – I don’t remember if it was of someone’s health in particular, but I think it was for global health.

I kissed a girl and I liked it
I was wandering some place looking for a toilet and found a ladies restroom which was full of girls waiting in line. I then saw some toilets that had a sign saying it was for exclusive use of lesbians, people with certain diseases and other awful things. I thought that discrimination was just disgusting. Then I noticed how clean and brand new they were and it occurred to me “Of course, nobody ever uses it, because it would be too damn embarrassing”. But I saw the opportunity and decided to use one of those toilets: they were clean and available! Some fatty girl laughed at me and asked “Hey girl, are you lesbian?” and the only response I got for her was to start singing Katy Perry’s song “I kissed a girl and I liked it!” I was LMAO and I started shaking my booty to the rhythm of the song. That broke the ice and all the girls were really amused and started singing along with me. My friend ZIlla dropped by and took me away saying "are you crazy?".

5:30

Lucid wandering
I think I fell asleep lucid. I was with my BF talking about something and I remind him that we’re just dreaming. I know he hates that I bring this subject up, but I have to tell him the truth. He was more or less accepting it but he wanted some proof, so I grabbed the comic books of Astérix he had on his hands and showed him how the title of the book changed every time we’d read it: I read three different titles, in french, english and even latin. He seemed convinced, which is unusual on him and then I recalled he had already got up in RL, so this was only a DC, that is why it was corresponding to my expectations. Boring.
My lucidity wasn’t so great, so I just went to practice my control of the elements. I threw fireballs at a merchant’s tent I came across. I was feeling so very guilty as the man was screaming, but I wanted to put down the fire with water and only if something really important was at stake, like the livelihood of someone else, then I would try my best to shoot water as well as I shoot fire. But once again it didn’t go as well as planned. I didn’t shoot water from my hands, I just made rain fall over the tent, putting the fire down. I don’t know why my water control always goes this way, but ok. I noticed how the people around were all very angry at me, shouting and looking threatening, so I decided to fly away from them. I flew over a street full of tents with asian merchants. I thought it could be China, but I wasn’t sure. Then I saw a museum of chocolate art and I went inside. It looked like those ice sculpture museums on open air they make in China, but it was indoors and made of chocolate. The floor, the walls, the sculptures, everything was made of chocolate. I got some blade skates and skated through the museum. I noticed this was chipping the chocolate floor, but whatever. I found a portuguese couple sitting on a chocolate bench admiring some chocolate caravels and then I felt this incredible sexual urge taking over me and I had to run to the closest restroom. I locked myself in and I was looking at myself in the mirror and thinking “Don’t fucking waste a lucid on sex!” Wow, but the urge was really overwhelming, so I took all my clothes off and got butt naked. I looked so hot that I had to make love to myself right there! LOL

6:30

In the first dream i'm at my high school where we get told, that there is a bowling team and to join you need to buy your own pins.

In my second dream i'm at home with some friends. It's not my real home, but in the dream it's my home. The house is kind of a mixture between my best friends house and my grandfathers house. We're playing with my brother, in some free to play, shit, first person shooter. The guys he is playing with and himself is using a program to communicate. We try to use the program and i remember it being very very bad.
Later in the dream, one of my friends have to leave and i say goodbye to him.
Moments later one of my other friends arrive with his father at my house. He have his bowling pins with him and they are in several big bags which are impossible to carry. There is a staircase outside my door and i want to help carry them up the stairs, but it's just pretty much impossible. At some point, i almost get the hang of it, but i'm carrying the bag in a really weird way and his dad tells me that i won't get up the staircase. I just sort of think "Fuck you, i'm getting these pins up the stairs!" and finally gets them up. Seconds later they slide down the stairs and he starts laughing and i'm really frustrated.
The dream ends.

DREAM LUCID COMMENTS

I'm folowing this guide and today was the FILD day.
Lately, I've found that I've got more of a dream body then normal. I don't have any school this week so I went to bed half past 1.

I am in some sort of building, it feels like it's high in the air. The dreams feels different then all the other dreams I had before. There are 2 people with me. Inside I know that they are members from dreamviews, and they are trying to teach someone, probably me, about lucid dreaming. They are trying to make me lucid, but I'm losing the dream and wake up

I don't know what they said or what their names where (in the dream I knew) when I woke up, only that it had to do with lucid dreaming
Before I knew it, I had moved so forget the FILD for now, I checked my mobile, it's around 7 o'clock.
I get out of bed and use the bathroom, drink some water and try to get back to sleep, which is very hard for some reason.

Finnaly I'm back asleep. My uncle, aunt, nephew, my mother, father and myself, are on holiday. We are in a small shop which sells hats and all kinds of souvenirs. The back of the store is open, and there is a pool where allot of people are swimming. I decide it's to hot for me to swim, because I somehow know the water is hot too. While my parents stay with me, my uncle, aunt and nephew go swimming.
I try on some hats, and my fater is talking about a friend of mine who is really nice for helping me out with something. He keeps on talking about how beautifull friendship is but then I get a sight switch. I see the pool, but it's frozen, people are skating on it and it has started snowing. There is some guy who keeps throwing buckets of cold water over the ice, and one guy safes another guy who fell in the water where the ice was broken.

I wake up, can't remember a thing after that and fall back to sleep

I have no body, I can only see things. I see these prison cels, which are forming some kind of tower, in a square. There is one lady guard which either can fly or uses a elevator to go up and down. The prisoners are trying to escape, my sight switches.

I see the same prison, and the same guard. But now the prison is filled with female orcs

Then I wake up again.
I had more dreams, but I can't remember them because they where very, very short. I got out of bed around noon.

The family are playing monopoly on the rug in my Grandma's living room. I join the game, but my auntie wants me to go shopping with her, so I oblige. I have a severe water infection, so I keep wetting myself in her car. When we get to the shopping centre and begin shopping, I decide I should buy a gingerbread man for each of my family members. However, I later remember that my sister is allergic to gingerbread, so I buy her one made from wool.

Then, my sister turns up outside the shop we are in. She is very displeased with the wool gingerbread man, stating that I should have known she already made one as part of her art project. Regardless, we look at jumpers together, and find that we like the same one, but both come away without it.

Then the dream changes, and my auntie and I are driving up a scenic lane towards a small church, but I am not sure whether we're supposed to be attending a wedding, christening or funeral. Outside, after the nondescript service, I meet Robert Hardy beside a dark pool of water, and we discuss who my partner is, and what his job used to be.

My partner and his best friend are sitting by the fire, around a large, wooden dining table discussing potential solutions for illness triggers. They are working with flow charts and all sorts of other complicated diagrams.

I am on York High Street, and there is a HUGE jewellery store on the corner. I go in, and begin browsing rings in rotating glass cabinets, but this time I discuss the type of ring I would like with a shop assistant. That part of the dream seems to go on forever, and I sense that the ladies in the shop are in a much higher class than me, and wonder what I'm doing in such an expensive store. When I take one of the rings to the checkout, the lady checks the computer for my account, and I am scared that she will realise I bought a ring the day before. (HAHAHAHA, I'm such a loser in my dreams.)

The assistant looks at me strangely, but even in the dream I am not sure how much of this is in my own imagination, as I leave the shop, I feel a bit weird, but I continue on my merry way regardless.

I browse a jewellery store for engagement rings for a while. Then I go down an extremely large step on to the cobbled streets of York. I am wearing a very big, sparkly diamond ring, which I keep stopping to admire as I walk around. This is very uncharacteristic of me, because I hate wearing showy jewellery, and especially the idea of flaunting my engagement ring.

01.11.2010

With E. at a cement place. (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am with E. at a cement place. There are two big (enormous) and long walls of cement. It's like they are built so that a river flows in between them. We are walking on a platform built on the side of the walls (arrow in the pic). There are bridges every few meters. They are steep, narrow and go really high. I am afraid when looking at them, even more when i imagine myself walking on them. Those bridges didn't have smooth floor but stairs. Have a look at the pic and i hope you 'll get the idea.

Dad is sitting in my living room examining his phone bill. Mum rings me and informs me that he might need me to help him find a new contract because his current one is becoming too expensive to run.

I am in a high-tech cinema, with lots of bright neon lights. I am sitting with a crowd of people in the lobby, we are on white fold-up chairs trying to watch a film. The problem is, Jesse Eisenberg is sitting on the chair next to me making annoying comments, so I ring my mum and tell her that I'm going to stay for the 7:30pm showing in the more private cinema. I see an image in the back of my mind of driving back home in the dark, and though I have apprehensive thoughts of this being too dangerous, I still decide to stay.

I am with my sister at our local shopping centre, but it is painted white, and to begin with, the shops we pass look like mere shells of buildings.. I get a flashback that earlier on in the day we were considering stealing some penny sweets, but thought better of it. There are looters and police everywhere by now, and my sister and I talk about how glad we are that we decided not to steal anything.

As we continue shopping, we are trapped in La Senza by police, who have large crowds of people cornered in every shop. After that, the dream skips, and we are sitting in a familliar house with hot drinks, discussing with relatives how we are shocked that the police let us go.

I'm back at the military base, and I'm on some random street that I believe is right down from the bowling alley. A red Jetta pulls up, and this brunette girl steps out with her kid. She's wearing some sort of dressy power suit, and her kid looks like he's about 6 or 7.

Some other girl comes up and we're all discussing what we plan to do this coming weekend. The brunette girl is all hugged up on me, but it's kinda awkward...like we just sated dating, and are just getting the feel for what we like when it comes to being close to each other.

Anyway, they keep talking about just going out locally, but I have my doubts because the last time I went there. Me and the brunette girl go back and fourth about it, and she ends up saying they heard that the place is going to be open until 5. I shrugged and said "alright, I guess well go with that". She was just about to leave, and I grabbed her and gave her a long kiss goodbye.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING

00:30

Vampire dogs
Policemen find a body in the middle of a street. Someone asks them what happened and they say teenagers are mysteriously disappearing and ending up dead in some distant place, drained from blood. I go home and I am visited by a friend. I ask him to stay away from my dogs. He asks why and I show him that they all turned into vampires. He says I’m nuts to keep them, but I tell him I love them still and I offer them my blood. To demonstrate, I offer them my hand and all of them (three, I think) come to bite me. It hurts as hell, but I am willing to sacrifice myself for them. They are all on leash, but one of them escapes. Then I get worried about him biting someone or even just my cat who is on the house. I don’t want the cat to become a vampire to. Not my pussycat!

5:00

Money, money, money
At the entrance of my mom’s building. I come with dad, but he heads to the elevator immediately and I stop at the mailbox. I have one mailbox just for me, which I don’t open for years. It’s full of cash! I try to take it out without the incoming neighbors to see and get envious.

Where's mom?
Then I’m with my mom on car. I get out to get something or someone and she goes park on some alley. Then I meet someone, wee talk for a while and then I realize she is taking too long so I go look for her. I feel I am becoming lucid, but I can’t move on to tasks without first finding my mother, because I’m worried about her. I wake up.

6:00

Casablanca (ToTY)
I go back into LD. I’m in a house and I look for some mirror. I cross one while thinking of the Casablanca ToTY and I land on the entrance of a bar. I pass a folding screen and find myself in a corridor. I spend some time there because there are some amazing paintings and sculptures that I observe, trying to memorize them. Specially a painting about some winged snake-like surrealistic creature, being ridden by some warrior and a sculpture of an abstract man with a sun and moon head. But I’m brought back to the present moment by some gentleman who is pointing me the way to enter the main room. I look inside and it is all in black and white, tables with candles in the centre, fancy dressed people sitting and listening to jazz music. I look like Ingrid Bergman in my hairstyle and clothes. But once I enter the room, the black and white becomes slowly colourful. I see a guy on the piano and a queue of at least four people who seem to be wanting to talk to him. I ask someone how can I speak to Sam and they point me the guy on the piano and say “You’ll have to wait for your turn.” But Sam was an old white guy with white hair and glasses. I said “That’s not Sam!”, but they insisted it was him, the famous Sam. “Ok, so I’ll ask him to play a song.” I didn’t feel like waiting for my turn and it was my dream anyway, so I passed in front of all the other people waiting and was about to talk to Sam, when he finished a song and got up in a very bad mood, complaining that there was too much people nagging him. Instead of him, I ended up talking to another guy who was his manager and told me I should write down my name on a waiting list and the song I wanted Sam to play. I realized I would not be able to hear him playing the song before the dream was over, so I wrote my name on the paper. I had serious difficulties, because all the pens they were handing me over did not write properly, but in the end I managed. I didn’t know what song to ask for, so I wrote down “whatever song you wish to play”, because I figured he was sick and tired of playing all the crazy stuff other people were asking.

Market in Denn (RPG task)
Then I leave the place and thing about the RPG task. I see a backdoor and imagine to be on Denn when I open it. I go to the other side and find myself inside some kind of warehouse. I look outside and this part of the town looks a bit like the wild west. I see a saloon, people in horses and a diligence. I don’t go outside, because on a side door I notice this warehouse connects to a market. It’s an indoors supplier market. It’s really early morning and they are preparing the boxes with food to be shipped to the merchants. I look for the strange fruit I’m supposed to find and I do see among pears and apples, a few boxes of something that looks like a mango, but with spikes. It looks like the picture posted by WakingNomad on DV, but it is not pink, it is reddish and yellowish like a mango. I feel it might be it, but I insist in looking around a bit more, to see if I find some other weirder fruit. I don’t, so I pick up one of those strange mangos. Unfortunately some guy appears complaining that I shouldn’t be there and escorts me out. He distracts me from my intent to eat the fruit and I wake up. Grrrrr…….

7:00

Fighting monster with love
Trying to avoid someone or something. I was already lucid, but can’t recall what had happened before. I just know I’m on a bus and outside there’s an hideous creature, half elephant, half octopus with a giant jaw-like mouth. It is crushing cars as it moves along the street and eating people’s guts. It’s horrific. And then it jumps and lands on top of the bus. People scream and try to run to the extremities of the bus. The monster opens the bus and enters on it. It shape-shifts into a more humanoid form. I feel confident I can beat it, and I think people around me notice that because they look at me hopeful that I will protect them. The monster comes to me, but instead of kicking it’s ass, I decide to try the “love approach”. I give it a hug (yuc). I realize the monster is female, because of its energy signature. I tell her we can be friends. She gets really confused and at the same time pleased. She just feels unloved and lonely. I still feel revulsion, because I can feel it’s deep down emotions and they are ugly. But I make an effort. The bus is stopped already for some time and the bus driver opens the door. We come out and walk together. I can read her thoughts and she is visualizing us together forever, all the time. I don’t like the idea so I explain to her “You know what being friends mean, right? We will go out sometimes, call each other once in a while, but we’re not supposed to be together all the time, that would be slavery.” (I joke) She asks me if we’re now going out somewhere. I reply I have no plan, but let’s just walk and talk. Then we cross some neighborhood and I see a couple of swings. I tell her “Why don’t we ride the swings together for fun?” She looks at me like “Are you kidding, that’s for babies.” But I hop in and swing higher and higher. She just stands in front of me, trying to figure out why is that fun. Then she transforms into a cloud of black ravens hovering in the sky in front of me. I hope it is a good sign. Then some ravens become black open umbrellas and then slowly all transform into dancers in the sky with black feathered wings, making a weird, dark, yet beautiful, group dance. I guess it’s the creature’s way to set her emotions free. Then she says she wants to eat “nam”. I have no clue what that is, but I interpret as Vietnamese food. We go to a Vietnamese restaurant and she is loving it! I enjoy watching them prepare strange dishes – I’ve never actually been to a Vietnamese. Then we become engulfed on a large party they are organizing on a backroom of the restaurant. Besides the amazing food we were about to choose to eat, they had a huge long table with all sorts of sweets and cakes. They were so kind and offered me to try anything I wanted. The party was only hours later, but they insisted that I take whatever I wanted. So then followed an orgy of cake eating. It feels so good, when you know it’s calories free!

8:00