non-lucid

I had a very long dream last night that lasted the whole night (sprawled over multiple dreams). Sadly I only remember chunks (thankfully large ones) so here goes:


It all starts off with our family heading off to a friend’s house. The family we are visiting doesn’t exist in real life, and I am not sure if I actually knew them in the dream either. Anyway, we are at their house, it is daytime, their house is long and rectangular, and it is plopped in the middle of a field. Tthere are no roads and the grass is rough and short in all directions as far as the eye can see with no trees. We are eating and fellowshipping and “getting to know eachother” I suppose. I don’t quite remember the transition, but I somehow end up shrunk and inside the body of the father with some mission do destroy revolting red blood cells or something.
I don’t really remember most of this section, however there is a part when I am trying to destroy some evil red blood cells (they are about as big as 3 or 4 life rafts and as tall as my chest. Everywhere is red, I don’t recall if I had a breathing device or not. But there are strands, and tissues, etc. I meet this man in there (which later in the dream my memory changes to me having met a girl which I later actually fall in love with in the dream) and he sort of follows me around and helps me out. He warns me of the white blood cells, where if they see us they will attack and dissolve us in an instant. Why of course right then and there approaches a white blood cell and I start scrambling around trying to escape.(Basically they are like white versions of the red blood cell with a little more goo). Inside the body was basically like a giant cave that twisted in all directions with strands of red flesh (sorta like pillars) everywhere. However as we were in fluid, you could sort of run/swim/float around. I have a hard time trying to escape the white blood cell as I find it difficult to move. I am again transferred to my next part of the dream.


This part of the dream happened, then was constantly referred to throughout the rest of the dream so I am not sure EXACTLY when it actually happened. I am just placing it here. In the dream we are in a building ready for a wedding. Supposedly me, this girl (we will just call her Suzy, because she looked similar to a character I know called Suzy. She was also the daughter of our friends father in the previous section), and this “friend” of mine (Though Suzy was supposedly the one that helped me out in the body episode, it could be also that this “friend” was the one as well. So though it was one person, it resulted in two dream characters) are all getting married. As odd as it is, it is supposedly me and this guy both marrying Suzy. We supposedly had this great adventure and became extremely strong friends (and I fell in love with Suzy, and though it was in the dream, it felt like real love, not just simulated). This adventure I don’t remember (though I did get brief flashes of the adventure (false memories that I can’t recall), OR it could be the last part I recall of the dream, which I think it could have been in part (though Suzy didn’t actually appear that much in it, and the “flashes” show a lot more team involvement), which I will get to in a bit. As for the building, it had a back room where we were walking out of, connected to a really looong room (same dimensions from front to back, but very long from left to right) with seats then a concave area where there was a small stage where we walked to and stood. The ceremony started, and I couldn’t help but notice that my family was just barely visible around the corner to the right. Constant thoughts of regret, nervousness, and worries kept creeping into my head. Not only was one that I had confirmed never to get married (a reality in real life), but there was something I knew about this guy that scared me with the idea of him marrying Suzy. Also, I most certainly didn’t want to have this guy marry Suzy alongside me. So when it came to my turn on the vows, I sort of stood there silenced and worried. At this point I noticed a tear going down Suzy’s face, which almost hurt to watch. However, I translated it as a, “Why are you doing this? Don’t do it, you don’t have to sacrifice yourself for me!”. I stopped, told everyone I had to wait a moment, then ran down the left of the room (far off) to think. I think it was my dad (maybe mum) that came up and asked what was happening. I explained that I really didn’t want to have a double marriage like this, and the reason I was doing it was because the guy I knew could get really violent, and once the passion or infatuation wore down with him, it wouldn’t be long until he became one of those husbands that abused his wife. So for this I wanted to be able to keep an eye on him. I don’t remember quite the conversation that happened, but I was then convinced for me to jump out of the marriage. So, I walked back up onto stage and pronounce something along these lines (on the spot, all while thinking furiously of what to say. Also, I was unable (and still am) to recall Suzy’s and the guy’s actual names) “I have decided it is best for me to cancel my part in this marriage, so that… the marriage… will rather be between … (trying to remember their names) just two friends… (some other blubber that completely embarrasses me, that I don’t recall. It was a made up reason for why I was doing it, because I couldn't just pronounce that the guy would beat his wife). I then walk into the back room sad, tearing (teering? … that is to say watery eyes) a little. I pull out a picture of Suzy and start looking at it, though for some reason her head is wrong and I try to think of ways to fix that.


This next section is spread throughout the dream, but I will just place it here (it was also quite short). I don’t remember most of it, but it took place at my grandmothers old house. She was (and is) dead at the time, and I somehow inherited the house. It involved my dad sending me out to have a new key made for the lock (so that the lock would be different and the workers couldn’t get in to steal things). No matter what I tried I couldn’t get the info of where the key mold, nor the locksmith were and dad would get increasingly angry whenever I asked (which is a ton more frightening in dreams than in real life). I had to take the car (which was my grandmothers old car I guess) and try to find it. I never made it out of the driveway before this section ended. (this is the one out of place part of the dream)


This last section greatly resembles parts from the series “Keys to the Kingdom” written by Garth Nix (Heh, you can tell what I have been reading recently -.-" ). I don’t exactly remember where it starts, but there is a section where Suzy and I are on this giant creature (Intelligent, could talk, and it flew. Perhaps giant bird? Though I recall the flesh had no feathers and was leathery-like, though not a dragon). The creature was evil, and was taking us to the edge of the world I suppose. We could somewhat steer it, but with difficulty. There were lush green islands in the sea, and the sea was a rich blue as we passed over it at fast speeds. I could see large waves rolling by, until I noticed the “edge” of the sea. It was like a constant crashing wave (very tall) made out of cloud, or mist. I don’t remember my thinking, but for some reason I thought it was good and we steer the creature t’words it a little. As we just barely pass through things become black’ish and sort of flash a blue tinted world as the creature laughs manically. I then hear a friend (a large sailor guy) in my ear (though somehow he is back at wherever we came from) shouting “What are you doing? Come back, that world is dangerous and just being there will kill you!” (It was more of a different dimension than a different world) I struggle with the creature trying to get it to go back. With great effort the creature (which has now turned into a thin-paper like creature) turns around and we fly back out. Some part of the dream I don’t remember happens, that is really important. One small section of it that I DO remember is I am on an island where I meet up with “The Will” in its fish form (so the third part I suppose, though it’s personality was different, though just as stupid and frustrating). The next section I remember is I am on a different Island. It is dark around (perhaps I am inside? It isn’t actually dark “outside”) viewing this evil lady in a room who supposedly stole power from me. She knows I am there and there is some conversation between us, something happens to her, I don’t remember, but it all results in me being captured with the intent of me being killed. The people on the Island all support her, so there is a large crowd near the edge of the water where Suzy and I are led. (Really “Suzy” doesn’t appear much in this section, but she is always sort of “there”) We are to be thrown over the edge to this shark. At this point the dream switches to 3rd person, where the rest of it had been 1st person. I am looking down as these huge jaws come out of the water and I am thrown into them. The jaws close, and I can feel it swallow (though I am watching this happen to me from far away). It goes under where it reveals that large sailor guy, my “friend”, and the fish (the will, which supposedly informed them of where I was) below the water next to the beast (which is supposedly friendly, and not a shark at all. Chosen to fool the evil lady because of its large jaws) . They struggle a little to get the thing to spit me out, which it then does with a shark-like equivalent of a last-effort puppy face and I am given oxygen from a large scuba-tank like device. Next comes Suzy, same story as me, just repeated. Something else happens in the dream I don’t remember then I gradually wake myself up.

So yeah... very long story that spanned over multiple dreams. I don't usually share these dreams that have personal parts to them (such as the marriage), but for whatever reason I decided to share this one. The dream itself felt like it lasted for 3-4 hours. Whether this is accurate or not, I don't know.

It is January 3rd in my dream and I am supposed to go back to college today. I have no idea why its the 3rd because
it was the 14th in real life and I go back to school on the 17th. Anyway, I am at home, but it is not my house. It is
more like an arcade in the city. I walk into a large room to the left of the entrance and there are two full cockpit
simulator things, one on each wall. Both have a personal tv screen and there is one massive screen on the far
wall. I get in the cockpit on the doorway side wall and begin watching a movie through my laptop. The movie starts
playing but then I stop it and remove the disc because I need to do something with it. I do not recall what that was
but it took a while. After it finished, I popped the disc back in and watched the movie until I realized I had to go to
Millersville. I got up and left, taking no bags or anything. I am suddenly in my dorm room and campus looks very
unfamiliar. Travel time was instantaneous. it is now 8:30 am and I am trying to think of what class I have at 9:00.
I go home, again instantaneous travel time, to check my schedule. I don't know why I had to go home to do that.
Before I can check my shedule, I get sidetracked. I sit down in the cockpit thing again and start playing a PlayStation
game. I'm not sure if it was Okami or Red Faction II. I had made a good bit of progress then my brother came in
and decided he wanted to play Dynasty Warriors 5 on the other machine in the room. Only the controller he used was
somehow connected to my machine and he somehow had reset my machine so I lost everything I had done. I got
really pissed and he argued that I could just do it again but I said "No, I can't. I have a lot of school work to do". I went
up to my room which was just as strange as the rest of the house, logged on to my laptop and check MAX
( Millersville University's student information system ) and I go to my class schedule. Instead of seeing my classes
however, there is a festive snow theme background ( usually the background is just white on MAX ) and the schedule
just shows school information. It was something like this:

January 10 - School closed
January 11 - School closed
January 12 - School closed
January 13 - *Something about a normal schedule*
January 14 - School closed due to inclement weather
january 15 - Normal Schedule

So I wouldn't be going back for a while and I decided to watch my movie again. I went downstairs to the "game room"
and my brother was no longer there. Suddenly I was talking to my best friend and he started a bet with me, the details
of which are kind of fuzzy but had something to do with how many women you can fit on one jet ski and race. The dream
then snapped to me riding a jet ski across the ocean then I woke up.

Lucid, Non lucid, Comments

Inventing Headphones:

my recall has been terrible these past few days, mainly due to school work. Anyway I was walking around when I realised that my headphones had two light bulbs on each side. So I took them off to examine them closer and thats when I recieved a fake memory of me inventing them in a workshop? they were pretty sophisticated because they had loads of buttons and dials around the speakers, for things such as temperature control. I was feeling kinda hot so I turned one of the dials and a cool breeze started coming out of the speakers( I don't even know how that would work, maybe fans?). Then I was on a plane(dream-sign) and they were playing music even though I hadn't connected them to anything.

Fragment I
Mr. Stinky (A nickname me and my friends made up for a certian science teacher at our school) is a teacher who is, well, gross. I was in his classroom and there was a large sheet of paper he was using to teach. He left the room, and I wrote on it: Mr. Stinky Stinks! How original He came back and everyone laughed.
Fragment II
Mom bought me some kind of candy, like Hershey's. "Thanks, Mom!" I said as I took it to my room. It said Milky Way on it, but in Hershey packaging. I told my mom she had gotten the wrong thing, and that it was gross.

1- The Van
I don't remember the details (of which I am extremely grateful), but I go into a van with some woman and something incredibly disturbing happens. (And not the good kind of disturbing, either.) Fortunately, I'm not sure what it was. Shortly afterward, my brother experiences the same thing.

2- Clubbing
I am leaning against a wall, arms crossed sternly, watching everyone dance. Who's idea was this, again?

3- Untimely Deaths
My father dies unexpectedly. As a result of this (though for some unknown reason), my mother decides to divorce Chris. Somehow my brother gets control of our house and is planning to kick me out, so I'm making preparations to live somewhere else. Everything is in turmoil.

At my grandparent's house, we are having a viewing of the body. My dad suddenly comes back to life for several minutes, then keels over and dies again. Through it all, I am trying my hardest to hold myself together.

After the re-death incident, I am sitting around the table with some of my relatives. They are beginning to give me lectures and preach to me about how it's deeds and faith that get you into Heaven. I'm wondering WHY they're telling me this. I can't tell if they have found out about The Van incident or if they learned of my conversion. Either way, it's highly embarrassing.

Toward the end of the dream, my brother dies for unknown reasons. My mother and I decide to move somewhere else and start anew. I am writing a letter to someone (the same MORON who's been in my dreams the past few nights. Why do I keep dreaming about him?) explaining what has happened.

I was at the movies, not expecting to see... Eminem! Narnia wanted to have Eminem there to discover a better life. The first scene is where Em was little, living poor with his parents. By little, I mean a child. He was pale, black hair, and he wore a light blue plain shirt and white socks to keep him warm. He sat in front of a dresser in his room, it was brown. His room was quite messy! Narnia's people would teleport random food and things that Marshall would need to survive in his poor living conditions. He would wonder where it came from, as he took it. Then, a train came and he wanted to see Narnia. The movie was based on partly his real life and other parts, not so much. In Eminem's song (in the dream) he said "People always turnin' my life into a fictional stOry." And I finally knew why he said that, because the movie didn't correspond to his life, much. Right before he was about to go on the train, I woke up.
Dream II-Beauty and the Beast-Belle loves Lumiere! <3
Before I start, I am a HUGE BelleXLumiere fan. Lumiere is the candlestick. This dream was a cartoon. I was Belle, but I was me at the same time. Belle had my charecteristics. Belle told Lumiere she liked him. Although he was flattered, he had said his heart belonged to Fifi, or Babette (the enchanted feather duster). Fifi walked into the room in shock to hear the news Belle had uttered through her mouth. "Oh." I said as Lumiere came to hug his beloved feather duster. I (or Belle) picked the feather duster up, and broke it's handle. (I can get pretty jealous). "NO!" Lumiere said. So, I picked up Fifi and put her in the microwave. I then pictuered what it would be like if I had helped her, because if I really loved Lumiere, I would. Sadly, I didn't. (Side note: Although the dream was in cartoon form, we were at my house and, it wasn't cartoon. "Lumiere, please stop speaking in that American accent, please." I said as I turned my head. When I turned it back, he was human again!? I didn't notice, of course. "Oh, sorry." He apologized. I forgave him, and told him he was romantic.
Dream III- A Christmas dream, AGAIN!!!
It was Christmas again, in dream world. I don't know how many times they have it each year, but it seems like 50. Mom wanted me to go ice skating. At first, I said yes, but when she was ready to walk out the door, I said no. The Christmas tree was plain, just a green grinch sitting out there, all alone. Not accompanied by presents to keep him warm. Just alone. Mom told me we weren't doing anything this Christmas. We weren't going to have presents, either, because we had no money this year. :'(

Didn't feel like spamming the board, so all of today's dreams are in this post.

01/15/2011

Singularity, undercover cop? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This is the first of 3 dreams I had this morning, and it was really... cool, actually. Since it was the first one though, I can't remember most of it. Anyways, I recall being in this house or something, I think I was a reporter. I'm looking around the house, and there's a door that is just metal bars, like a jail cell door. There's a section of stone wall behind it, but I know behind that is another room. There's an abusive husband in there, but I can't get to him. I start walking away and look back to see that the wive worked up courage and pushed the wall thing aside, so I go in.

Here, I have a confrontation with the husband that I don't remember all that well, unfortunately. What I do remember is that neither of us had any weapons, and I had no handcuffs. I manage to get him on the ground and punch him several times. He gets me once or twice, but it doesn't hurt. Eventually I get him to stop resisting, and start dragging him out of there by his wrists. At least once he tries to tug himself away from me, but I just brace myself and grip his arms even tighter. The dream ended on a slightly sad note though, as I look back to the kitchen and see a picture of a "happy" family, husband, wife and baby. All I can think about is whether the baby is there, or even still alive. I personally don't recall the noises we made fighting, but I know the baby should have been wailing because of it, and I didn't hear one... The dream ends here.

01/15/2011

A... a hairball? Seriously? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This was a short fragment, and kinda disgusting. I was hanging out or something, and suddenly one of my teeth feels weird. I touch it with my fingers, and it pops right out. It was where a canine should be, but it looked just like a molar. I head into the nearby bathroom and start rinsing my mouth in the sink, I think. I can't remember. My mom's there too. Suddenly I start coughing and the next thing I know, there's a huge wad of hair in front of me. And I have to tug on it since the last few hairs of it were still dangling down my throat. That was a bit more realistic than I would have liked... blech! That's all I remember.

01/15/2011

Destroying the Propaganda Machine (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Now, this one was kinda weird, and despite it being the last one I had, I can't remember it well. When my recall picks up we're on land, and I'm driving a bus around. We're on a mission to do something, but a bunch of farmers and other average citizens keep ramming in to us, damaging our "hull". (This dream might have been inspired just a bit by all the X: Btf I've been playing... >.>) Anyways, a couple others are with me in the bus, though I don't remember who. We're musing about how whoever was in charge managed to convince the commoners to do something like this. It was clearly hurting their cars and trucks a lot more than it was hurting our bus.

At some point the dream switches to full on X: Btf mode, and I'm in a spaceship, looking for a certain station. I find and blow up one by mistake, but nobody seems to be mad. I navigate around a few others before finding the right one. It was a pretty big station, and as I approached I could hear a sort of radio station come on in my ship. I don't remember any words from it, but it was clearly some sort of propaganda that had brainwashed average citizens. I shoot a Hornet missle at it, which dropped a large chunk of its shields, and whittle down the rest with my lasers, causing it to blow up. That's all I can remember.

I was up late last night, and have poor dream recall this morning. However, I do remember the following dream:

Walking on the beach

I am on vacation somewhere. I meet a girl who seems to be interested in me. I like her too, and I take her for a walk on the beach. The beach is crowded with people, and I keep getting her confused with a very large and unattractive girl. We walk to the end of the beach, and look out at an island.

Still in the same place, I am with some people discussing how the game Myst Uru can be improved. One guy wants a journey cloth moved to the other end of the little island, to be farther from the beach. One guy is disappointed with one of the Relto pages. I say something about the ending not being satisfying enough...

...something about jail or a police station, or something.

1/15/11 - Walking in the Dark
Dream Non-dream Lucid

I was on my front porch, standing under the little light in the ceiling, talking to someone. I told them to stop talking, that I needed to examine the dream some more. I looked around and stepped outside. It was pitch dark out. I walked further and still could see no light, all I knew was that I felt concrete beneath my feet. I held onto that feeling.
I looked up, and could barely make out the outline of the moon. I decided that it should be daytime, and willed the sun to rise. An orb of light rose up into the sky, but it faded away quickly. I tried saying it aloud, "Sun, rise." Nothing happened. I turned around and looked back at my house. All I could see was the small glow coming from the front porch. I walked in that direction...and I don't know what happened after that.

I remember being in a classroom, with a bunch of kids from my old school. I was with Mary and Hannah, as usual, and we were talking about something. Just when class was about to be let out, there was a loud booming sound. Rain was pummeling down outside, and lots of water was blowing in through the open windows. Everyone crowded together on the floor, in the middle of the room, as the booming continued and be could see sparks of electricity right next to the windows. It was a really bad lightning storm. After several minutes of sitting there and witnessing the storm, it died down, and the thunder and lightning stopped. The teacher told us we could leave. I was pissed because the book I'd been reading was soaked. Then I woke up. I wish I'd remembered the task of the month!

Good morning, everybody. I YouTubed too much last night. So my dream recall wasn't great.

The first dream is based, I think, on all the Epic Mickey posters I see around town. I haven't played the game, but the paint Mickey on the poster is really cool.

Dream #1

I was in a huge palace. The palace had stone walls and columns which were draped in areas with red velvet tapestries with golden trim. There were alot of people in the palace, all dressed in the outfits of medieval nobility. In particular I remember one woman with a pale pink dress and a pointy, pink headdress with sheer fabric flowing down from its point.

We were all here to address some coming danger. There was a killer or there were killers who were coming to attack the kingdom. Some person needed to step up to fight this danger.

Suddenly, from off a high pedestal near the front of the palace, Mickey Mouse jumped down, heading toward where I stood, more toward the middle or back of the palace. Mickey didn't quite look like himself. He was sleek black, as if he were made out of shadow or liquid. His shorts may now have been dark blue with star designs on them. He looked like some kind of mystical figure. I may have come to understand that he was a knight.

Dream #2

I was part of some concert held in honor of Kurt Cobain. I don't know if we were in rehearsals, but we kept repeating the same part of the show. It was supposed to be some kind of emotional performance where one person started out on the stage, singing and playing an acoustic guitar, and then, one by one, more performers would come out on stage, until a big group was singing the song.

I kept coming out for my part, which involved just singing. But each time I came out for my part, someone would point out some way in which I'd messed up. We'd go back and do it again. I really started losing confidence. Then I eventually got the feeling that everybody in the show actually hated me, and they were just hoping to criticize me until I quit.

I was a little worried that the reason they hated me was because I was a bad singer. But I resolved to keep on singing, in spite of my fears.

At first, I think Dave Grohl was the first person out on stage. But eventually, Kurt Cobain himself was the first person out on stage. Eventually, I was the second person out. I may actually have been playing an acoustic guitar and singing at this point.

Dream #3

I was watching a situation as though I were watching a movie, although I could also feel the actual environment of the situation. It was Civil War time. There was a high ranking man out on an open field with another man. The high ranking man was older, blonde, and tan, with a trimmed beard. He wore a pale blue-green uniform. The other man was short, a little pudgy, and balding. He was probably Mexican. He was kind of a groveling type.

The Mexican man was pleading with the military man about something, and the military man was just laughing the Mexican off. But the Mexican man was actually just stalling the military man while his cohorts were planting a bomb on the military man.

Eventually the Mexican man, still in a groveling way, informed the military man that he had a bomb near him and that he was going to be blown up presently. The military man started to panic, trying to get way. But then I suddenly had the view, from a distance, of the bomb going off. It had obviously killed the military man.

The scene repeated itself, maybe more than once. There was now a shrub on the field, behind which the cohorts hid. There was also a table, at which the military man and the Mexican man alternately sat. I also saw the bomb, which was like a silver sphere (or a Pokemon ball) about 10cm in diameter with a fuse coming out the top. Once the bomb was placed by the military man's right foot. Another time, it was placed directly on the table.

I then saw a scene where the cohorts lit the bomb's fuse from far away. The end of the fuse may have had something on it like the bomb sphere. The smoke from the fuse snaked through spaces between desert shrubs. It had a long way to go before it finally got to the military man, but, as my view followed, I felt a terrible sense of fatality.

It had been awhie since I had an EPIC night, but last night was one of them. I had a shitload of dreams that im not even sure I remember them all. New milestones reached, too. For the first time, I ALMOST had sex. The closest ive been by far. I also morphed into an Enforcer from Combat arms and into a bird.

Dream 1: Before I get lucid, the beginning is very hard to find. Anyway, there are two naked chicks in a house. When I see the brunette's vagina open up before me, the shock is so powerful that lucidity is instant. You have to understand nudity used to be impossible for me to reach in my dreams. I did RC though. I start fucking her, but I dont "feel" anything at all. To be honest, I didnt really put myself into it since obviously I lack real experience Im talking to her as I turn her around and start doing her the other way . No pleasure at all, none. One of my friends, a guy named Zheng, is obviously having a lot of fun though. In a big brown room, hes screwing the girl I was with not long ago while the another one is also having with a mysterious, unnamed man. At this point, im only half lucid and cant quite think for myself. I want to be him really bad. Lucid again, I am downstairs looking for Zheng. I wonder if hel be in the room I am right as im writing . Then I remember im in a dream and if I imagine him he will be there. When I get in he is on the floor fixing something on my drum. He looks at me and I ask: "Tsé la fille de tantot? Tu mla prête tu apres pour que je puisse la fourrer?" The dream fades before I get an answer.
To give an idea about how this dream was a punch in the face, I relived (or redreamed) the first scene with the vagina about 3-4 times.

Dream 2: Still lucid and for no particular reason, I decide to shapeshift into an Enforcer, this big blue zombie in a game thats really hard to kill. I think hard about transforming and look at my arms. They start getting bigger and "bumpy", like in the movies. Its fair success for a beginner. Since im epicly strong now, I kick the wall in front of me and it blows up in pieces. Fade out.

Dream 3: DEILD back without any SP. In what looks like a Paris cafe. I only have the time to look at my surroundings when I fade out again.

Dream 4: This was so short I dont even recall what it was. As I was DEILDing, my dreams were getting sloppy. That is my thought back in my bed.

Dream 5: I want to turn into a small bird this time. After a few tries I do, but a cartoon cat in front of me is very interested I fly away to the top of my school.

Dream 6: Im not sure where this dream was situated in the night. It was stressful and is obviously because of all those projects at school. I have to do work today and dreamed the day ended and I hadnt done nothing. Freaked me out.

Dream 7: X Just Remembered! X I drove a car for the first time in my life and proved to be a fairly good driver. In a hazy day, my mom and my sis apparently are out of the car. I take the wheel and just drive. I am not lucid, and somewhat fear being caught by the police. Had I known I was dreaming, I probably would have went crazy with it. But I had no accident and drove very well before my mom popped back up and I woke up.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! Finally I got my sweet sleep. Took some B6 last night and got a few long dreams early on, but my recall is a bit weak tbh. I did have a lucid, but sadly it was early during the night and the dream didn't last long.

02.45: Sleep

05.25: Bear attack DILD/MILD
I'm out walking with Monica when all of a sudden a bear shows up. As bears are my mortal enemy I get scared shitless. We try to run away from the monster but it's impossible. Monica goes limp all of a sudden and hits the grass. I try to lift her up but I think I left her.
The dream skips. I wake up and go to the bathroom. I'm in Monica's dad's house. He's shaving in the bathroom. "Hi Matte, have you seen Monica?" he asks me in a serious voice. "Oh shit... the bear!" I remember and I realise he's pissed at me. I get out of the house. Outside I can tell I'm at my grandma's house. The bushes are really narrow and I have to squeeze through to get out on the street. I realise I'm dreaming and I decide to fly some. It doesn't work right away, I feel just as constrained as I just felt by the bushes. After a few jumps I am flying down the street. I jump from roof to roof.

05.25: The facebook experience
It's christmas and I'm at my cousins house. All my relatives are there and an old classmate of mine, Matilda. We're talking and she's getting on my nerves. I am pissed when I decide to stop talking to her. "Why the hell would she say stuff like that?" I ask myself and sit down at the dinner table. We're just about to have eat and everyone's seated. They all start slandering me, pissing me off so much that I leave the table. They all laugh. It feels awful to get picked on like that and I decide to go get some fresh air.

I'm sitting by the sidewalk when my mom comes out with a present for me. "Here, open it" she tells me. I remove the red wrapping paper. It's a pillow with the "Facebook" logo and some slogan on it. I get it now. The pissing me off part and all that shit was my christmas present. A big fucking joke. I have never been so mad in a dream before. I scream myself hoarse and yell for a long time at my mom and everyone inside.

05.25: Fragment
*I'm about to play "Cluedo" with a few people. I bring up the game and try to tell them all the rules. I get an idea on how this could be used as a beer game one day.

09.30: Work #1
I'm at work and I'm trying to compress the ground with a remote controlled machine. I'm close to a wall on a small slope, and ofcourse the thing goes down the slope towards the wall. I shut the thing off before it damages it. I inspect the low concrete wall going along the water, it's all crooked and is leaning dangerously. I ask Björn about it and he tells me it's supposed to look like that. An excavator helps me with the stuck machine and I'm handed a smaller one. It's a super fast remote controlled car.

I go back and forth over the snow and make tracks in it. It's incredibly fast and I'm having a blast. All of a sudden the car goes through the ice. I can see it through the ice, stuck just where the water begins. I get on my knees and thrust my hands down and grab the thing before it sinks. I get wet all over as I fall down. Björn laughs at me.

11.00: Work #2
I'm with a few other coworkers and we're about to go in on a coffee break. I spot a girl at a small tree we've planted and the other guys start talking about how hot she is. I recognise the girl as an old classmate and I decide to go say hi. She smiles at me as I greet her. She seems a bit slow, like she's on drugs. The tree she's been hanging in has broken in half and she's trying to fix it. "Want some duct tape?" I ask her and spot some on the ground. "No thanks, I'll be fine" she tells me. We erect the tree.

She tells me how she's been at the psych ward because her girlfriend (apparently she's lesbian) had some major breakdown. She tells me how she also had one. I tell her about how I was worried I might end up in one as I think too much. "I'll be fine" I say and tells her I have to go. "Alright, hugs and kisses" she tells me. I walk up to her and give her a hug, she laughs and gives me a kiss on the cheek. I walk up some stairs and when I'm reach the top, there are no stairs going down the other side, but a very nice beach. I've ended up at a hotel next to a beach.

The weather is very pleasant. The sun is shining and I can feel the warm air. I walk down a few stairs in slowmotion, and run towards the hotel. "I wonder why I always run in slowmotion when it's hot outside" I think for myself. I enter the hotell and end up in my room. All my friends are there with their computers. Monica is also there but she doesn't seem very happy about us having a LAN. "Hey Matte, you can sit here" my friend G tells me and points at a tiny desk with a box for a chair.

11.00: Work #3
I'm at work once again. I hear a crash and I spot a car at a crossover. He's hit a little girl. Me and my coworkers start yelling at him, calling him names. We have a long discussion on how stupid he really is, but the driver doesn't seem to get it. He goes off and me and my friends decide to chase him down. We run along the road and soon we spot him stuck in traffic. I grab some snow and throw it at the car, my friends do the same. The guy gets out and we all start running back, digging through large piles of snow.

Jonas comes out of one and I kick him by accident. "Oh shit, I thought it was him. Why are we running by the way? We're three and he's just one" I say and we stop. The guy shows up and Jonas drops him with a kick to his face. He falls down with an "Ouch!". He gets up and I decide to take him on. I hold my hands up and dodge to the left and right like a boxer would have. We fight like two pathetic drunks and I can't seem to land a single hard punch on his face. I try to spin around and kick him but my kick doesn't hit anything.

12.00: Tekken
I'm playing Tekken with my brother Martin. He chooses a very strong character with a staff. He almost kicks my ass before I see a pattern to his attacks. I kick him out of the map and I follow aswell. I win the next round and I'm surprised the character I'm using is this good. We start playing different mods to the game. Old nintendo 8 bit game themes are used to make the game more interesting. We play a hockey game and it is just like the old one. "To unlock the tekken mode, you need bla bla points" it says on the screen. Suddenly I'm watching some doctor using a cartridge doll to perform some operation. The belly of the doll is filled with electronics.

12.00: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 9 hours

Supplements before bed: 2 x Omega-3, 150 mg B6

That's it! That was my 50th Lucid since I began recording them! Requires some celebration. I will go for the G+C combo tomorrow with a WBTB if I am allowed to. This is the first time I've had dreams about work when it looks almost just the same as reality, kinda cool.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

Dream - Lucid

I did a guided relaxation track by Kelly Howell right before I fell asleep, and had a very intense, yet extremely happy dream. I felt it was very symbolic.

It was New Year's Eve 2010, going into 2011. It was nighttime, just before midnight, maybe an hour or so away. The air was warm, like a summer night. I was with my mom and dad, and was going to get my best friend whom I consider a sister, Mary Katherine (Mk). We were at a house in a cul de sac in our neighborhood, one that was apparently our house in the dream.

I had a feeling it was the end of the world, but I wasn't frightened at all. I was anticipatory and excited, yet I had this overwhelming sensation of calm. I went to go pick up Mk, and when we got back to the house, we got out of the car. I told Mk my feeling, and she seemed skeptical. Then, in the sky, I saw a big, circular opening in the clouds, and it was moving around quickly. I understood it to be God. It was kind if like something I saw in a music video once:

I told her to look up, and pointed out the hole in the clouds. Mk looked, and immediately said
"I know what that is."
We rushed over to the front porch, where my parents were. We told them about the phenomenon in the sky. My mom looked up and smiled. My dad scoffed. Even so, I didn't get frustrated or upset with him, because, even though he was skeptical, I knew he would be ok.

The winds picked up. It was almost like we were in the vortex of a tornado, but I could see the wind. It was clear, not dusty or dirty. Just clear. I can't explain it better than that. It blew all around us, and more kept coming in waves. Even though we were being hit by this wind, it did not phase us. It wasn't a harsh cold wind either, it was a cool wind that felt like it could blow us off our feet, but we stayed planted to the spot. My dad was getting frustrated, and said, very sarcastically,
"Oh right, God is sending mini tornadoes."
Then, he dropped a whole bunch of spoons he had been holding, frustrating him even more. My mom said, in her infamous "I'm-annoyed-with-your-father" voice,
"Calm down, Brad. You can't be in control of everything, you're not God!"
I was smiling. I still had this calm over me, despite my father's frustration and my mother's annoyance at him. I dropped to my knees, and my mom and Mk followed suit. We joined hands. My father still didn't understand what we were doing, and he voiced that. The tornado-like phenomena kept whipping up and blowing at us, but we could not be shaken.

~

I went to an elementary school choir concert. I had to sit by these girls who were talking about "horny sex" (is there any other kind? ). A little boy sat by me and saw I had a box of toys. I offered him a stuffed lion, but he said he was too old for that. He spotted a neon yellow bouncy ball and took that and started playing with it. I was not happy about it, because he kept throwing it around the aisles. I thought he'd get in trouble, in turn, getting me in trouble. He never did though. I feel like I went to the concert a few times in the dream.

Then, it turned into some Epic Mickey game, where I had to squirt paint thinner on this boss. We were in some big arena. It switched back and forth from me actually being in the game to me just playing it. The boss could still get me when the game was paused. Then, the boss was some vegetarian black lady, whom I kept trying to distract from trying to kill me by asking her questions about why she was a vegetarian.

★★★☆☆

01/14/10

She pours cream in her coffee, and I know she's the spy.

The woman sips at the drink as she turns and pushes into the crowd of people in the mall. I pull away from a conversation, follow at a distance. I can make out her long black coat, her long curtain of blonde hair. She breaks into a run, and I'm speeding after her. I'm falling behind, reaching out and (force pull) she's flying back into my arms. Hair falls away from her face - the wrong face. A body double. (I'm letting go of the woman, blending into the crowd.) Good.

She's going to make it fun.

I Spy. Scare Factor: 2.

Blondes and coffee seem to be a recurring trope.

There was some sort of underground community, a real small one, and they had created these robots or something. For some reason they had a problem with what they had created, they were being terrorized or something. I brought up the point that perhaps these people were in fact robots themselves and just pretending, and ruling over the others because they thought they ad the right. There was this one robot that was alive for like 35 or 350 years, it was saying how its existence was far too long, and that it had nothing to do anymore or something. At one point me and some other people broke into the tree village place where the robots were (They lived all around where the small community was) A giant gorilla was there, it was one of the robots and it was attacking us, so we fought back, throwing bottles at it and stuff, someone had a shotgun and shot it. I got the shotgun at some point and it sometimes wouldnt reload properly, I mainly just shot at the wall and stuff, by the time I got it the place was cleared and there was no threats. There was a window I was thinking someone might get thrown out of. it was green all around, the house was made of wood logs and stuff.