non-lucid

First entry for my new DJ. My recall has been somewhat hazy as of late, so these are really more like fragments, but here goes.

I was with some friends, and we were all about to take some psychedelic drug. I was convinced it was supposed to be mushrooms, but it looked more like chunks of cactus. At first I tried to make the cactus into a tea, because I thought that it would be more potent than eating it for some reason. I ended up throwing up after drinking the tea, and a friend told me to just eat it. I took the remaining chunk of cactus/mushroom that I had and put it on a scale, it weighed just over 3.5 grams (don't remember the exact number but it was somewhere around that). My memory starts to fade at this point, but it comes back with me standing by a window, my trip just starting to kick into overdrive. I looked out and marveled at a sky covered in a beautiful mess of colorful patterns, and clouds that seemed cartoony and felt distinctly 3-d. I don't really remember the rest of the trip, and I never became lucid, but the parts I do remember were awesome.

I also have vague memories of getting into some kind of space battle. I do believe tengen toppa gurren lagann was involved, and I remember a very intense moment where the giant mech actually fired a kamehameha at some opponent. I really wish my recall wasn't so hazy, as this was an awesome dream scene.

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This is a dream from a while ago that I had while in my room at my mom's place - before the divorce and before I started sleeping at my boyfriend's place. I woke up and immediately typed this out to him on the laptop he gave me at the time.

7/12/2009
11:52:23 AM
(tu)Katrina
<3
Also: most fucked up dream ever. It's been a while since I've only witnessed a dream and not had me as a character in it. It was some sort of class trip for a grade 11 or 12 bunch of students into this cave. The cave was chilled but not as cold as it should have been. The walls were dark, but when you subjected them to light, they turned this sickly pink, almost looked like purple veins
7/12/2009
11:52:35 AM
(tu)Katrina
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spreading through it, but they were definitely not veins.
7/12/2009
11:53:23 AM
(tu)Katrina
<3
If you chipped the walls, they came off as these flaky crystal-like chunks. Kind of like melting sugar.
7/12/2009
11:54:45 AM
(tu)Katrina
<3
The stalagmites/tites were not regular shaped, (so I suppose they weren't actually stalagmites/tites..) but twisted and off-white.
7/12/2009
11:57:19 AM
(tu)Katrina
<3
The dream focused on one of the two teachers leading this group of about 13 kids. He reminded me of Bill Nye, kind of sounded like him, too. His thoughts were the narrative. He was one of those fun spirited teachers, always pulling pranks on his students and making them laugh. The other was a black dude who was extremely intelligent, but a little serious and unappreciative of the Bill Nye dude
7/12/2009
11:57:23 AM
(tu)Katrina
<3
's jokes.
7/12/2009
11:57:50 AM
(tu)Katrina
<3
From the students, shit.. I forgot them all already except the one..
7/12/2009
11:59:02 AM
(tu)Katrina
<3
So they enter in the mouth of the cave during the night. I remember it had to be night but I don't remember why. They have their supplies and it was planned as a 5 hour exploration of this weird cave. I wish I could remember where it was located.
7/12/2009
12:01:03 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
They're going through it, touching the walls and one girl took note that there were hardly any bugs in the cave. The Bill Nye dude said it was because there was a dragon in the cave, a predator that ate anything that entered. Everyone laughed but it went to the black teacher's face and he looked uneasy.
7/12/2009
12:03:05 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
They get to this one part of the cave that's extremely dark and they have to light these two torch-like devices with two prongs at the end so two people could hold it while sitting. These two lazy boys are holding it, leaning against the gross, pink wall and the Bill Nye dude teacher disappears after telling his colleague that he's going to pull a prank on the students, but didn't tell him what.
7/12/2009
12:04:10 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
One kid asks if he can cook a smokie over the torches. The second teacher sighs and says okay. Another kid asks if he can roast a marshmallow. The teacher resigns and says yes. The marshmallow kid ... shit, he kind of looked that Corey Feldman or whatever his last name is.
7/12/2009
12:04:49 PM
(tu)Katrina
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But he was happy go lucky, the goofy type and somehow I knew that he really liked the Bill Nye teacher, that he was inspired by him.
7/12/2009
12:06:13 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
So the kid is leaning the marshmallow towards the fire, saying he likes his burnt and the teacher tells him to stop but the kid was almost done so he continues. The teacher gets a little frantic and bats the stick away from the kid and the gooey marshmallow hits the ground with a slap.
7/12/2009
12:06:30 PM
(tu)Katrina
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All the students are confused and look to the teacher for explanation.
7/12/2009
12:07:16 PM
(tu)Katrina
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My vision goes to the Bill Nye dude, who is now fully clad in a fire-simulating suit, walking towards the mouth of the cave while putting on the dragon head.
7/12/2009
12:09:52 PM
(tu)Katrina
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He was giggling to himself and the narrative went something like "I knew I had to scare those kids with the suit. I had been working on this suit for ages and didn't have a chance to use it until the excursion to Dragonbreath Valley. It wasn't for no reason that I set them up earlier, oh no. I knew I'd get some legit screams, but the suit was so obviously human shaped that they wouldn't last
7/12/2009
12:09:54 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
for long."
7/12/2009
12:10:35 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
He's working his way through the cave when the vision goes back to the group of students.
7/12/2009
12:10:47 PM
(tu)Katrina
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The marshmallow begins to sink
7/12/2009
12:11:50 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
No one notices at first, but a boy points out that the marshmallow is nearly absorbed into the ground and asks why that happened. The teacher looks hesitantly at it and tells them that they should leave. The students give groans of protest saying he always kills the fun, but they follow him as they trek back outside.
7/12/2009
12:13:07 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
The marshmallow kid trips on this chunk of wall and reaches out to brace his fall. His hands hit the floor with this weird smack and he wonders at it for a second before he realizes he's sinking into the floor.
7/12/2009
12:14:32 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
He cries out. The students look back. This is a particularly narrow part of the cave so the teacher is shouting, asking what happened. "He's stuck!" they cried. Two kids tried to pull him out but the floor was solid around his hands and knees so it hurt to pull.
7/12/2009
12:15:37 PM
(tu)Katrina
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Suddenly, his steady way downwards stops and he half breathes a sigh of relief. The two kids try chipping their way towards him with the picks they brought in their bags.
7/12/2009
12:17:05 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
It goes back to the Bill Nye dude. He's taking the same route as before, but notices some differences and begins to feel uneasy. Suddenly, he comes across a hole in the wall, spilling out this orange and black caked goo. Looked like lava and glowed like lava but was cool to the touch.
7/12/2009
12:17:45 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
He took measure not to step in it and removed his dragon head, walking faster, concerned.
7/12/2009
12:19:05 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
He hears a horrifying, shrill cry. All the students and the teacher are running by him blind with fear. The other teacher yells at the Bill Nye dude to follow, but he refuses and the others leave without him. He still hears the pained screaming down the cave so he drops the head and begins to run.
7/12/2009
12:19:54 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
He makes it to the place where the boy was stuck in the floor and believe me when I say when I woke up I shuddered at the image.
7/12/2009
12:20:50 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
He was on fire, but it was a slow fire - slow and hot. The orange goo was everywhere, crawling almost life-like, drawn to the human bodies and it was piled up on either side of the kid.
7/12/2009
12:22:17 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
I coudn't make out the kids features, but his animalistic groans and gurgles were coming out of a black hole, opened wide. His body was convulsing and he'd shrink back from the two goop monsters whenever a part of him brushed them, even though they were cold.
7/12/2009
12:22:37 PM
(tu)Katrina
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He was immobilized, released from the floor but caught between the goo.
7/12/2009
12:23:26 PM
(tu)Katrina
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The teacher stood in shock and revulsion at the site of horrific disturbance.
7/12/2009
12:24:08 PM
(tu)Katrina
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He didn't know what to do. He called out the student's name and grabbed a water canteen uselessly and attempted putting out the painful fire. He knew it wouldn't work.
7/12/2009
12:24:23 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
Suddenly it shifted to first person and I could hear the teacher's breathing and see what he saw.
7/12/2009
12:25:12 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
The floor began to slide down in the center, the boy still screaming and gurgling and convulsing. The goo clung lightly to the walls and fell slowly after it.
7/12/2009
12:26:31 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
An enormous, demon-like head erupted from the ground behind it and screamed in hissing and this weird, two toned roar. It's eyes were blind and tiny - but glowing orange. It dripped in the goo, it's jaw was narrow but so fucking huge.
7/12/2009
12:28:42 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
It opened it's mouth to a bug-like sheen that covered it's tongue. Like a black bettle's shell. The inside of it's mouth was thick with slime and saliva, it's teeth these jutting black things - kind of like a shark in that it had so many layers of them but they were more shaped individually like a cat's.
7/12/2009
12:29:28 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
It tore at the boy, taking him in two pieces and there was blood mixing with the goo and the, now, dripping saliva slime of the monster.
7/12/2009
12:29:57 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
The teacher gagged and turned to run but was engulfed whole into the ground.
7/12/2009
12:30:39 PM
(tu)Katrina
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He fell into a tunnel like thing with sticky walls and darkness.
7/12/2009
12:30:53 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
Shit, I hope I mentioned that the floor was a different colour than the walls.. I don't think I did.
7/12/2009
12:31:30 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
He found his flashlight - somehow - but fell and started slipping down the decline of this weird tunnel. That's when he realized he was inside the monster.
7/12/2009
12:31:55 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
The monster's span was the entire floor of the cave and the depth beneath the entirety of the tunnels.
7/12/2009
12:32:35 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
It broke through it's own skin, the lava like goo was a healing agent and a predator's aide in catching it's prey.
7/12/2009
12:33:10 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
The teacher understood that the moster was impossibly huge and probably almost impossible to kill.
7/12/2009
12:33:39 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
Inside the creature it was more green and blue than the pink and orange atmosphere above.
7/12/2009
12:34:58 PM
(tu)Katrina
<3
The teacher's narrative detailing his realizations and taking note of his likely death when he reaches the stomach of the creature were the dream's last comments before it split off into the dream I had been having simultaneously with this one.

This occurred while I was sleeping in my bedroom at my mom's house on either January 12th or 13th.

It started out in a suburb in (what my mind was telling me was) Regina. I was with my friend, Kris, and my boyfriend, Zack, and we were walking around the blocks aimlessly. I remember very little of our conversations, other than Zack expressing that he needed to go somewhere to pick something up. Zack left and this girl I spent time with twice last year came up to me and asked to hang out. I said okay, as long as we could pick up Zack when he was done. Kris and the girl left suddenly when my back was turned and I was wandering down the empty, fall streets alone. I was looking for Zack.

I don't remember finding him, but suddenly he was with me. We were at my elementary school for an open house. (I had been talking about my memories of open houses at the schools with Zack the previous night.) I knew there were other people there but we didn't see anyone. We wandered in the hallways and were about to leave through "the Big Kids" door, when I heard a horrific scream from a middle aged woman from outside the doors. I said "So much for leaving early," and ran out the doors. Zack was no longer with me but I did not notice. As the noise from the commotion became louder, shouts and orders for people to "search" or "get a shovel" or what have you, I began to feel uneasy but would not give in to panic.

I found out that a boy had gone missing during an outdoor activity. The snow was light - but it was everywhere. The entire scene was white and the outside of the school was how it was in my days of elementary school with an endless field in the distance. (Now there are many new and modern houses being built so there is an entire neighbourhood that had not existed until 5 years ago.) I had a shovel and began moving snow from a particular area that I had a "feeling" about. I knew he was under the snow. I meticulously carved out perfect squares around him so I would not hit him with the shovel. The boy was not someone I had ever met in real life and he was about 6 or 7. I picked him out of the snow and laid his upper body on my legs.

He was wearing a snowsuit - a blue one. The snowsuit was covered in thick, hard ice and his hair was frosted and matted. But it was his skin, his entire face that was blue and covered with the sheening coat of ice. I tried to get it off of him, with my fingers and nails, but it wouldn't come off. I told him not to try opening his eyes. He opened his mouth and the ice was a trail inside his throat - I could see it continuing in a hard line. His breathing was painful and short and ragged. He said my name. I said, "They called the ambulance and we're taking you to the hospital. We're glad we found you. You're alright." He said my name again. I, again, told him it would be okay. He said my name a third time and this overwhelming hysteria came over me. I felt true, primal fear and my vision blurred and everything in me burned with terror. I sputtered out "It's going to be okay!" but it came out a shrill, terrified scream. The boy began moaning and saying he was afraid and I felt horrible that I could not comfort him. I looked around for someone to comfort both he AND I and I couldn't see anyone, though I knew they were there. I looked into his throat, this gaping and surreal mess of red, irritated flesh and ice, hearing his moans and childish whimpers of fear... I woke up.

I felt guilt and terror. I was shaking and sweating - I cried. I felt sick with the guilt of not being able to comfort him. I felt hatred at my inability to control myself. I rolled over and texted Kris at 4 in the morning and fell asleep again before his reply that came but a few minutes later.

1-23-11

Dream1: France
Nonlucid
I was on vacation in France and waiting with fellow travelers for the tour guide or someone to come get us because the trip was over.
I was seated on the cobblestone between 2 walls like this. I was sad because the trip was over. I looked around waiting I looked at people walking by and the giant concrete eagle on the wall above me. On closer inspection it was a giant pigeon. [This alone should have told me this was a dream]. Then I looked at some people and checked out the pigeon again. "Hmmm I could have sworn the thing was looking left...." I looked away then back and it was looking in different directions! Then I saw the giant pigeon head move like the stone was alive! I was relieved that I was not crazy, whew! [WTF? And I am a little disturbed to think that this is just what a crazy person would think! "no need to worry, the stone pigeon is alive!" Still no LD, amazing...] I looked around at what a nice day it was but I was getting board.
Then I was in an apartment. I looked up to see a window and it was night. I looked around to see that there was a woman there (white, black hair, mid 20's) this was a living room and I could hear rain. I looked outside and saw it was very dark outside and the rain was pouring down onto the cobblestone ground outside. "I was in Paris twice before and it was raining then too" I said. [I have been to Paris twice but the weather was perfect.] I looked to the girl and she looked back like "so?" I walked off to see what else I could find while marveling at how real everything was.
Then I was in a store a lot like Harrods. I strolled around and just when I thought everything was too boring someone said there was an alarm. I was thinking if I should leave or not when a woman came up to me and said in a heavy french accent "you should really go you know, its dangerous." Then she looked off into the store and from her I heard the word "bomb" even though she did not speak it. I looked outside for the massive bomb/anti terror squad there was sure to be but there was only one police car with its lights on and he looked like he was talking to a woman on a bicycle. "Hmmm, doesn't look like much of anything" I thought.

Dream 2: Midflight
nonlucid

I was driving on a road. Then I saw a line of people in a left turn lane, but they were people, no cars just people standing there waiting for the light to turn. This was interesting so I pulled in behind them and then I realized I didn't have a car but I was walking. The light turned green and everyone turned into a parking lot and walked into a bland white building's back door. I walked in a little after them. I felt like I was trespassing but I walked around only to see that it was a factory plant. I walked out the same door and saw a little old lady startled and then she walked off. "Oh this is really going to be boring." So I decided to fly but I was going to try the superman style take off I have been reading about. It worked! Then I realized that I still I had no idea what I wanted to do up here! Then then visionary shapes started to break apart into random lines and then darkness. I was awake, damn and had just taken off too!

I had some of my friends over for some sort of party or something. They weren't all necessarily my friends. The party was in my backyard and we were going to play a game of soccer. The game was about to start, when one of the jerks grabbed the ball and started the game without warning. I told him he was stupid and said we were going to play the game in the dream world. So i through the ball back into the goal thing, and went inside to see if the girl, who i can't identify, who was bringing the dream equipment was here yet. She was here, and when i reminded her about the dream equipment, she started crying and begging for forgiveness, she couldn't believe she forgot it. I felt bad for her so i comforted her. Then it was over.

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I'm in a space ship with six of my family members heading for the moon. I get nauseous from the zero gravity but not to horribly, seconds later we are landing. When we get out we dont need space suits but the air is to thin to breath for more than a few minutes. The land looked like pictures of mars Ive seen but I know that it is the moon, my family and I head for a house a couple hundred meters from the ship, when we get there its my cousins house IRL. We go inside and the air is a little better but you cant breath for more than 20 minutes, but my cousins room had a direct oxygen supple so we sat in there.

After catching are breath some of my family started to look around the house, after a few minutes it was decided that some object had to be found so my uncle, dad and I go to the back yard to look for it, the weird thing was if you open the door to the front or back yard it look like we were on earth but had very little little air, but if you look out the windows it was a mars like landscape. Back to the story, we are in the back yard looking for this object to no avail and start to black out from the lack of oxygen so we rush back to the house. Inside my family is talking about another person who should land soon but I had a bad feeling about it.

A few minutes later I look out the window and see another ship landing near ours, a person starts to climb the ladder down and falls off then gets up and flys over to our house. When she lands she is in a plastic non-see through space suit, it looked like a blow up toy. She comes to the door and asks to come in so I let here in, she start to tell us that for some reason she was four days late and that made me thing she was not who she said she was, like in those space movies where the ships crew is taken over by something but they look normal. After I got that feeling I started to try to kill her but the dream ended.

Dream - Lucid

So I went out drinking last night and got VERY little sleep, but this morning, while staying with Ryan, the man I'm currently dating, I had a very vivid dream.

Ryan was taking me back to my parents' house. It was very bright outside. We got there, and my mom and dad were outside in the front yard. There was a burning tree stump in the middle of the road. My dad and I tried to put it out, but to no avail. I tried dumping water on it, but it didn't really do anything. We couldn't stop it from burning. The fire started to spread.

Then I woke up extremely dehydrated with a bit of a stomach ache. Gotta love hang overs.

I watched a show earliar and like alot of episodes.
I saw that there was season four on there, and people fought for it. There were only a few people that wanted there to be a season four. Which is weird, because there already is a season four of it. Vividness: From what I remember, 4/5

Note: The rest of the dreams from this night are only fragments, and none of them are lucid, but I will post them here because I think one or more of them might have been shared. If you read this and recognize yourself in here, please let me know, otherwise it might have just been a DC that I mistook for you in my non-lucidity.

Area 51
I am in an underground room, there is no way to see that it is underground, but somehow I know it is. It's just a feeling I get like I am far under the surface of the Earth. I go over to the door and find it's not locked, so I walk right out into the hallway. I have the feeling I'm not really supposed to be there, so I try to avoid meeting anyone as I look through the halls. I hear someone coming and I duck into a small room that turns out to be a storage closet of some kind. The problem is they are coming into the closet… I lock the door from the inside, the door locks manually in there, and then I climb up the shelves and through a panel on the ceiling. I get out of sight just before the door unlocks and a man enters, muttering expletives about the door not needing to be locked with all the security on the entire floor. What security, I wonder, I haven't seen any security… I crawl through the vent system for a while, looking down into the different rooms as I pass. I see a computer room filled with computer operators, a lab with scientists messing around with chemicals, an office with a meeting going on, a room with a couple of soldiers aiming a gun at MoSh… wait a minute… aiming guns at MoSh? They want to shoot MoSh? Not on my watch! I go over to the ceiling area right over the soldiers, and I climb onto the panels that I know won't hold my weight… and CRASH! I fall through the floor and land right on top of the soldiers. One is knocked unconscious, the other is starting to get up when I kick him in the head and knock him unconscious. MoSh pulls a kitten with wires on its head from his shirt somewhere. He says he rescued the cat from having experiments done on it, but doesn't know how to get the wires out… I take the kitten and look at it, the wires don't seem to be causing discomfort to the cat, but then I wake up.

Area 51: The DDO Version
I am in what seems to be the same complex I was in during the last dream, walking down the same corridors, still avoiding people because I feel I should not be there. Just like in that dream, I enter a closet and climb into the air vent system. I am exploring that, though the rooms I see below are different than before. There are no computers, though there is a room full of kobolds doing something with crystals. There is another room where kobolds are fighting against each other to train. This is really strange… in the next room there are a couple of hobgoblins guarding a large treasure chest. I hear more activity to my right, so I turn down that vent shaft to see what is going on, and I see there is a large chamber filled with hobgoblins and one person fighting them. I see that person and recognize him… he's Tigress' character from our DDO games! What was his name? Nexiel! That's an awful lot of hobgoblins for one person to fight, though, so I look around for something to be used as a weapon. There is a display of swords on a wall, so I drop down over there and grab a sword. I enter the battle with Nexiel, who seems to know me, leading me to believe if it might actually be Tigress. I don't really have much time to consider that with the fighting going on, cutting, slicing, stabbing… the hobgoblins are gone soon, and Nexiel hands out healing potions. It tastes like fruit punch. We go to the next room, make quick work of the two hobgoblins guarding the chest, but before we get to open the chest I wake up.

The Mist
I am inside an office building yet again, but this time I can tell it isn't underground because there is a window looking outside. It seems I am on about the second floor, but I can't tell for sure because the fog outside is as thick as pea soup, I can't see more than inches from the window. I go to the hall and make my way downstairs where there is a group of people near the front door. I ask what is going on, a man says we are all going to die in here, a woman says we are doomed, there is no escape, and a little girl starts crying. The girl's mother gets mad at the man and woman talking doom, saying they need to shut up and stop scaring the children. I ask again what the problem is. A man tells me to look outside and ask that again, so I do. I look into the fog and ask what the problem is. Sure, it wouldn't be safe to drive in that, but it will burn off in time. Everyone looks at me as if I am crazy, a woman says if I want to go out there and die, be her guest… she isn't going anywhere near that door. Another woman says this is the wrath of God being visited upon sinners everywhere. I just look at them for a bit… going into the fog means death? The wages for sin is fog? I ask if it is toxic or something, an old man says it isn't toxic, but… I ask them what it would take to get them out. A man says there is a big RV out there, if someone could get to the RV, they could all escape. I ask where. He says it is about 600 feet straight out from the door… but that's the length of two football fields! No one would ever make it! Cut that out, wuss… keys, please. The woman who first told me to go ahead and go is now saying she didn't mean it, she doesn't want to see anyone else die. I tell her it's fog, it's not toxic. I'll get the RV. The man finally hands me the keys.

So I head for the door and out it… then I realize I can't see the RV. I ask if anyone has a flashlight, shine it into the fog so I can use that to keep my bearings and not wander off in some abstract direction. A man has a large flashlight from an emergency box and does that. I head out into the fog. Making sure to keep the flashlight beacon behind me, I walk in a straight line towards where he said the RV should be. The fog is actually a bit creepy, it looks like Silent Hill, but I find that rather cool instead of scary. Things are moving out there, thicker areas of fog? It looks like creatures… cool effect… I wish I had something to video tape or photograph with. Something big lands on my shoulder, it is the size of an eagle, but it is not an eagle… it is a cricket! Wtf? It starts chirping in my ear… a deafening sound… I push the cricket off, saying to do that again on the other side, I can still hear a bit over there… The cricket continues to chirp. I continue walking in a straight line and I find there is something right in front of me… it's a spider… a HUGE one…

like Aragog from Harry Potter! It is looming over me menacingly, without thinking I tell him to cool it and go try to scare someone else. The spider obediently goes away. I find the RV and get in, driving it back towards the beacon light. I honk a couple of times and then drive right through the glass doors. Everyone is boarding the RV through the back doors, I get up from the seat and say that was easy… then I wake.

Back to my end of the world dreams last night.

This was all perfectly vivid.

Dream starts in a supermarket. It is not the typical sort, this one is on the first floor of a four story building. The layout of the first floor is simple, it is a perfect square and all the isles are lined up one by one with the registers all up in the front. I am in isle with the canned vegetables with my (dream) boyfriend. There is a young woman with blonde hair holding her baby, who is probably around a year old. She is farther back in the isle. Then there is an older woman by herself shopping and she is near my boyfriend and I.

The whole time we have been shopping I have been extremely on edge and trying to hide it. I feel sweaty and cold. Finally I turn to my boyfriend and try to explain to him that something is wrong. He is pretending to listen but I know he isn't paying much attention to what I am saying. I start grabbing cans of food and stuffing them in my purse. This grabs his attention. He wants to know what I am doing and I am panicking, trying to tell him that we need to get everyone upstairs (somehow I have a good idea of the building layout). I am starting to raise my voice and the older woman shopping stops and stares at me. I start trying to convince her, too. My boyfriend tells her something about taking me home and he starts trying to calm me down.

I run up to the front of the store at start shouting at people that something bad is going to happen and that we've all got to get upstairs. They look at me like I'm crazy, of course. I'm shaking uncontrollably and its all quite scary. What I am telling everyone catches the attention of the blonde woman with the baby. She wants to know more and comes closer. Then someone from outside of the store runs in and starts shouting something about water, and finally people are listening.

I have no idea if we are near the ocean or not but we can see a huge wave coming over the freeway far in the distance. It comes closer rather quickly and I get some people to listen to me and start heading for the stairs. It all happens in a rush: the waves crash in the windows, the lights go out in the staircase, and most of us are screaming. I'm trying to usher everyone upstairs.

We get to the top floor and it's just a dark, dusty space. There are nine of us, including the woman with the baby. The older woman didn't make it. I'm crying because I know everyone has died and I tried but nobody listened. We spend several days upstairs and eventually venture down to the second floor, finding it to no longer under water. The same goes for the first floor.

When I walk outside the ground is covered (and I mean covered) in small, green bugs. They look like worms. They're all puffy from soaking up the water. They're trying to climb up my legs and there literally isn't one place they haven't covered completely. We all run back upstairs. I really don't like bugs.

We spend more time there and I am convinced that we should stay, because I think it is important that nobody find us. My boyfriend is the one who decides he will go look around, for help or whatever.

We stay there for some time and eventually the bugs start to go away. When my boyfriend finally returns he is not the same. I don't know what happens in between, but I am out in a field near the supermarket, looking for the others. I am crying because I have lost them, and it felt like my responsibility to be looking after everyone. My boyfriend knocks me to the ground and starts sticking paper-clips (the ends of them, anyway) into my stomach. It really hurt in the dream.

I woke up scratching at my stomach. I wish more of my dreams were pleasant.

(from years ago)
(I could feel everything)

I was late for history class and was running to try and make it. I open the door to see that everyone is there and the classroom is different. The right side is the room is a normal almost cliche looking classroom setting, but starting a little right of the middle of the room a circular section of the classroom was replaced with water that extended into a vast ocean on the right. In the distance (still close enough to see clearly) there were a row of large arcs facing toward the classroom.

My first thought is: "Crap I didn't study!" (apparently an arc with oceans is some kind of exam XD)
It is my turn to "take the exam" only there are a bunch of steps I have to go through first in order to complete it.
I am partnered with a random kid from class, and the first think we have to do is attack each other with a series of kung fu moves while underwater. (I assume this was part of not studying since I did not know what they were or what the objective was). Whoever had the edge would get a head start to the arc, and the object of the "exam" was to blow up the arc before the opponent.

The teacher sees I do not know what I am doing and sighs. He begins to explain the kung fu moves again, but briefly. I feel confident that I understand. Their are 3-5 strikes in all (I can specifically remember) the last one being an upper cut, bringing both players to the surface. I stand their waiting for it to start, and as soon as it does he hits me with all the strikes in quick succession before I can even swing my arm and find my self floating with swirly eyes on the surface of the water as he swims toward the arcs.

I get my equilibrium back and swim slowly for the arcs. I figure he has a head start anyway so why hurry and get myself tired. I get to the arc and rest my hand on it. This is the point I realize "Hey, I'm dreaming. I don't need to do anything special to blow up this arc if I want. I can just punch it and it will blow!" When my arms was fully cocked and ready to release a huge punch, I forgot I was dreaming and punched the boat with my ineffective assault. It hurt: "Ouch! Why would I do that. Why would I punch a boat?!" (This was funny when I woke up for real XD) Now that the fact it is a dream is forgotten I move on. I see there is a ladder to my left and climbed to the deck.

At first all I see is my face in shock, then I get a look at the deck and it is covered with different kinds of guns. I realized that my opponent had about a 10min head start and was probably decked out with guns right at that moment. I looks around but did not see where he was. I reached down slowly to grab on of the guns, and a bullet shot right through my fore arm. I fell to the ground to avoid getting shot more and grabbed a gun per hand. He was suddenly dressed like Neo from the Matrix practically and as I had predicted, armed with tons of guns.

We exchanged heavy fire. I was shot 6 times in all (right forearm, left side, right calf, right shoulder area, left thigh, and another place I don't remember) and I got him twice before he fell back below deck. He might have thought I was dead, or would die, but I was not sure.

I followed him down a ladder into the ship, but he had already gone into a different room. In the room is a bed with sheets and a blanket and a table covered with teddy bears. I was confused and walked toward the table. I heard a rustling in the other room, so I darted under the bed, and peered out from underneath the hanging sheets. He came out of the door and up to where the teddy bears were. He opened one up and I could see that it was filled with C4. I was shocked that he would be cheating so epically and decided to try and trap him with his own trap. I came out from under the bed quietly and began to ascend the ladder, he heard my footsteps and tried to grab me to keep me in the ship. I kicked him down off the ladder and climbed onto the deck. I shut the top and ran into a leap off the ship into the ocean. I landed with a big splash, and felt the pain of salt water in my wounds. I heard the ship about to blow, and began to swim for my life. It blew. The explosion become a extending golden sphere that was growing fast. I was getting tired. I finally was so exhausted that I just curled up in a ball for protection under the water and hoped for the best. The explosion creeped up to an inch or so away from me before it receded.

I swam to the pier where my friends helped me out of the water.

After I woke up every place I had been shot was a large dense muscle cramp and I had to get in a hot shower to ease the pain. It was worth it though because I passed my exam as far as I know XD

Had an episode of SP after I saw something that looked like a snake on the ground.

I also had a dream about M. Same old stuff...we're all cool, and I think she's my friend...and then I slowly start wanting to straighten things out between us, but I wake up.

Note: I have been having a horrible amount of nights where I can't remember anything from the night before… and it is really starting to piss me off. Last night I did manage to remember a few dreams, however. None of them were lucid, but it is far better than nothing, and I think I saw a couple of other dreamers in there, though I will have to wait to see if it was really them or DCs that looked like them. After all the nights of not remembering anything, I am happy just to have something to journal.

The Golden Dragon
I am in a forest, it is fall, the leaves of the trees are changing to a rainbow of oranges and yellows and many are still green, so I figure it must be shortly into the fall season. There is a gentle breeze blowing, and it is a pleasant day out. I wonder how I have not found this place to take a walk sooner, since I never get enough exercise. Now that I know of this place, I am likely to take a lot more walks! I follow the path through the trees, I don't know where it leads, so it is an adventure to find out. I come across a stream with a small bridge across it, I pause to look at the stream, then I continue. The stream is flowing off to my left, parallel to the trail, and soon I reach a lake. I walk around the lake, still enjoying the day immensely. I come around some large rocks to find myself face-to-face with a large golden dragon, who is glaring at me as if my mere arrival represents a serious inconvenience to him… oh, crap…

Well, the dragon is glaring at me, I am certain he is going to incinerate me with a blast of fire on sight, but instead he speaks. He asks what is the meaning of this intrusion, and it had better be good, because he doesn't like being disturbed. I search my mind for a reason I might have come to disturb this dragon, damn… if only this was a dream I would be able to take care of myself even if it just involved opening a portal and bugging on out of there. (I thought about it being a dream and still no RC? ) So I search my mind a bit more until I finally remember a couple cases where someone was face to face with a dragon and walked away. Those cases are in Shrek where Donkey was right in front of the dragon guarding Princess Fiona, and The Hobbit where Bilbo was face-to-face with Smaug… they bought themselves some time, and in Donkey's case a girlfriend, by appealing to the dragon's ego… by complimenting him/her. So instead of trying to convince the dragon that I'd come upon him by pure accident, I say I had heard there was a magnificent dragon in these parts, so I had come to see for myself. And, indeed, the word magnificent falls short of the reality of the dragon, for mere words could never describe the awesomeness I am now witnessing. The dragon glared down at me and asked if it was worth my life to lay eyes upon him… I respond that there are few things in the worlds that are worth risking my life to witness, but a dragon such as him is surely one of those. And if I am to die, which everyone does eventually, better it be by one such as himself rather than some stupid accident or illness or to waste away in old age. And while I don't especially want to die now, I actually mean it about it being much more interesting and unique to be killed by a dragon than by more mundane means… and he is definitely an awesome looking dragon… so I'm not lying. He can tell I am being truthful. So he seems to calm down a bit, and finally says then I will have the honor that very few before me have had… the honor of gazing upon him… and of dying by his claw.

I say just because gazing upon him is worth dying for, that doesn't mean I'll willingly die… so I jump into the lake and swim underwater to find a portal to get out of there, I am certain there is a portal near the bottom. I take shallow breaths of water so I can breathe it for a short time and I find the portal. I swim through it, the interior looks like a wormhole, and I exit in another lake and swim for the surface. When I reach the surface I look around and see the golden dragon is still there, still looking in my direction… um… I'm in the same place? The dragon looks a bit puzzled, probably wondering why I came back to the same place as if I want to die… I say I took a wrong turn in the portal, and head back to the bottom of the lake. I swim through the portal again and this time I wake.