non-lucid

Action Figure Fragment
Something about dolls and action figures used to annoy people. Like people would pass by on the street and I would hold out a doll and pretend to speak in its voice. For some reason, I think this is popular on the Internet.

"Hello, Dream!"
Method DILD (?)
Lucidity B
Vividness B
Control C
Not sure about the beginning. I recall being in a dark room with my eyes closed, trying to sleep. I hear an Indian man's voice. He is talking on the phone to his son. The son is asking for something. The father is saying something like "If you paint the lawn, then I'll get you what you want" and "Ask your mother what she thinks." I think: Paint the lawn? Do they paint their lawns in India?

But so I'm laying with my eyes closed and I feel like I'm falling asleep. I am trying to incubate a certain dream. But in my vision I see a different scene start to materialize, so I switch to concentrating on that scene. At this point, I might have really been awake, like a DEILD. Or I might have been dreaming of WILDing, but really a DILD. Either way, I transition into a new dream scene like a WILD.

I snap into the scene and I am lucid. I am in the living room of the Daisetta house, looking out the sliding glass door to the backyard. My vision is a bit blurry. I reach next to me. There is an ironing board randomly in the middle of the room. There are my glasses. I put them on and my vision turns sharp and more vivid. The colors outside also change slightly from bright blue daylight to an almost surreal yellow-orangeish sky. I step outside to the backyard.

I look around. The scene seems familiar, but it's actually nothing like the real backyard of the Daisetta house. The backyard is small and surround by a fence. There are tropical plants everywhere. It's beautiful. There are no people. Not sure what to do, I speak loudly: "Hello, dream!" There's a slight echo. Nothing happens, but it feels good to yell and hear my voice so clearly. Then I think of something from Waggoner's book: "All thought-forms must disappear!" Nothing happens. Hmm, maybe these aren't thought-forms?

I look around again. One corner of the backyard has changed. Now it's open. I hop over a small planter where there is a gap between two bushes. Now I seem to be in the open parking area of an apartment complex. This reminds me of SAV, where I lived in my childhood years. I wake up.

Transformer Fragment
I'm some kind of robot. My ex-girlfriend Jen is also a robot. We are on some special mission together where I have to protect her.

Sleep Duration: ~8h
Vividness: 9/10 (Possibly my most vivid dream I can recall)
Recall: 9/10
I find myself sitting on grassland, surrounded by acatia trees, parched grass and a beating sun. I stand up and walk, quickly finding myself at a large wooden table in the middle of the savannah. There appears to be a feast prepared, and at the head of the table sits a large man who I presume to be in control of the others. They are welcoming and gesture for me to sit and enjoy the meal. A gourd of a strange liquid is passed around the table, and I drink from it, quickly becoming happy and complacent, my vision blurred. A dark skinned young woman who appears to be the chief's daughter comes up to me and kisses me on the cheek. The dream fades to black.

Hours of sleep: 8h
Recall:1/5
Vividness: 3/5

I'm sitting in my living room. My parents are sitting next to me. Both sit on two sofas. I'm in the middle and I'm sitting on a couch. I staring in front of me, looking at the place, where the christmas tree normally stays. But it's gone. I don't realize it, but this emptiness kind of depresses me. I look away and realize, that next to me Nathalie sits. She doesn't say anything. She's bored and stares at the TV, which is switch off. I know something is wrong: everything seems to be frozen, Nathalie doesn't know where I live and my parents don't know about her. I want to get involved in some kind of conversation with her, but I can't. i don't know why, but I can't

Really depressing dream and this just before Christmas

I was at the LA. Seems like my class was there or something, but I had to get home. I was biking around the place a bit, doing something with some other people. I had to get home, and I planned to bike to the subway. But then I thought that maybe I should just bike all the way home; it wasn't that far. I started biking around the grass a bit and found that it felt so easy. But it seemed kind of strange too, since I knew that I wasn't that strong of a biker. But I shrugged it off and thought nothing of it.

I later ended up at school. BE was there, don't remember much else.

Then I was at some sort of office that seemed to be a workplace. I was in the elevator with some people, waiting to get to the fifth floor. The elevator seemed to get stuck in between some of the floors, since it was taking forever and the number at the top was just hovering at one number. I told some middle-aged lady and she didn't think much of it; she just held down a button. Then I felt the elevator drop and thud, bringing us back to the first floor.

In which I have two phone mishaps...

I'm recording phone numbers from my caller ID to my little address book because I'm always losing phone numbers and having to call around to get ahold of people. The first number on my caller ID is K's number, but to see it, I have to press a button. When I press the button, it calls K's phone. I hang up instantly because it is the middle of the night and I don't want to disturb her. But it doesn't hang up, and when I turn on the phone again, the line is still connected. I assume it is her voice mail, so I just hang up again. Then when I pick it up again, the line is still connected and I can hear K talking. I say hello and she responds by saying, "It's the middle of the night, why are you calling me and hanging up?" I explain what I'm trying to do and apologize. She is a little irritated, but we disconnected.

Then my phone rings. I pick it up, expecting it to be K again, but it is a man's voice.
"What are you wearing?" he asks.
"Shorts and a tank top," I answer.
"Wha- really?" he asks, surprised.
"Yeah. Who is this?"
"Wait a minute. It's December right?" he asks.
"Yes. But it's in the 80s today," I answer.
"Damn. I need to stop prank calling you and move down there. It's cold here."

I'm playing Witch #1 and MacBeth (cross-gender casting) in a big amphitheater. Places is called and I'm not even in costume. I miss my entrance and the stage manager takes over my role, reading from the script. Everyone gives me the freeze-out and I'm mad at myself and everybody else. Next night, closing night, I've had so many fights with everybody that I lose my temper and refuse to perform. They pick someone who's younger, better trained, and brilliant. Serves me right.

After the play ends, I send a text message to the screen where the final credits are rolling. I forget what it was, but it makes the audience laugh. I get onstage and do a brilliant monologue, feeing my way through the blocking and using all the aisles and balconies, fired up, beautifully. I get applause and I know I've earned it. I've felt the magic. Too late, though.

I'm leaving the theatre. Someone congratulates me and says, "Great job!" I reply, "Yeah - eventually," and smile faintly. She reassures me that I can act.

I go home, exhausted, and see a rerun of Friends on TV. I remember why I love that show. Because I want to make people laugh. The great Shakespearean dramatic roles speak to my depths and purge me. But if I were Jennifer Aniston, I could be a part of a cohesive, symmetrical and perfectly bonded cast - a family. And a pretty one. Sometimes that's just what I want. It feels restful.

Road Rash
Recall: 6/10
Sleep: OK
Sleep Position: Unknown

Some friends and I are driving down a dark road in my father's Lincoln, one of my friends at the wheel. We round a corner and almost lose control, so I tell my friend to slow down so he doesn't crash my father's car. He slows down, but we still almost wipe out during the entire turn.

Going slower now, a car catches up behind us. The driver throws something, and a bottle smashes on the pavement beside us, igniting into a wall of flame. The guy is throwing maltov cocktails at us! The guy continues to bombard us with firebombs while we toss the only thing we have to throw at his car, which is water bottles.

We pull over and our pursuer stops too. I rush to the trunk to find us weapons, a tire iron, a hammer from my toolbox, a crow bar. Our attacker approaches with a chainsaw! But luckily there is a chainsaw in the trunk for me as well. Neither of our chainsaws actually work, but the jagged teeth on the chain would still rip flesh if you were hit by one.

We face off, sword fighting with chainsaws. Mine is bigger, his is a small stumpy thing, but he wields it like a madman. Eventually we lock chainsaws, I force his down, and my buddy whacks the guy with a hammer. We beat his crazy ass into submission.

Disney Land
Recall: 6/10
Sleep: OK
Sleep Position: Unknown

After several hours of driving, we arrive at a job. Outside the house I can see Disney land. Or at least a dream version of the castle from the Disney logo on top of a flattened mountain. Beside it is a bunch of pillars on another flattened mountain. One of they guys talks about hearing the crowd roar during some concert while he was working there.

We go in and start sanding the floor. Some boards are loose and one guy complains about nailing them. The more I look, the more loose boards there are. Now there are so many loose boards the floor is unsandable. The guy running the big drum actually sands right through the floor and falls into the basement, scaring the shit out of the home owner. She almost cries when she sees the mess.

Since we can't work anymore, we pack up to leave, and I say I want to go to Disney land since we're here. But I look, and all the lights are being turned off in the large castle on the mountain. They are closing down for the night.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! I felt nauseous this morning so they sent me home from work. It's a bit better now, but I still don't feel good. I went back to sleep when I got home, and slept for a long time. I didn't wake up a single time during the sleep. The last dream I had wasn't pleasant at all. Darn nightmares.

00.30: Bedtime

05.10: Wake up

4 hours WBTB

9.30: Bedtime

14.30: Boat
I'm going down a road. In a car perhaps, I'm not sure. It's a small road in the middle of the woods, next to a big lake. The cars are stuck as other cars are trying to get past the other way. The road is way too small. Me, my dad and my brother find a boat, and is soon racing through the water. I can see huge areas covered in ice, and my dad tells me I have to be careful not to go up on one of them. We go over one, and I look back to see if any damage has been done to the thing. It's all good. I open a hatch and find a bag of very light seeds. Those with transparant wings on. I spread some in the air.

14.30: Fragment
*I'm at my parents place. I enter the kitchen and ask my sister if we've got any sandwiches I can have. "Yeah sure they're over there" she tells me. I start talking to her. She tells me she's still doing drugs, but she promises she'll quit soon.

14.30: Nightmare
I'm standing outside of a house. It's been made into a huge home for a pig and its piggies. The mother pig is completely crazy. Running in and out, screaming. "It's very protective of its kids" a guy tells me. The pig has blod-shot eyes, and is red in the mouth. I enter the house, and can see atleast twenty small piglets in the hay. I walk up the stairs. Instead of a pig, it's a dog. The dog is standing on the stairs, guarding a couple of cans of mackerell. I slowly walk up them, not taking my eyes off the dog. "No! Bad dog, stay!" I say and point my finger at it. It growls but backs off as it can tell I'm the dominant one. It looks to its owner to the left for help, but gets none.

Dream skips. It's dark out, and I'm walking up to a small house. I can feel something's very wrong with the house, but I still enter. Inside I hear a narrator voice. "All the animals have gone crazy" I have no idea from what, but suddenly there are white chickens everywhere. They start attacking me, and it hurts! Their claws scratch me all over. I grab them one and one, and break their necks with my hands. I notice I've got my clumsy working gloves on, so I take them off. I continue to kill the evil, possessed birds.



Dream skips. I'm now fighting a vampire lord of some kind. He's super strong and everything. I somehow manage to get him down on the floor, just by a glass door. I open the door and squeeze it shut over his waist. He screams in pain. I slam the door over and over, withour any real damage done. I go totally crazy and slams the door for a full minute until his body splits in two. His legs are inside, with some intestines, and his body is outside. "I'll get you for this! I'll suck out your marrow" he yells at me as he crawls away and disappears.

I grab the legs and head for the caravan of cars we all got. We are perhaps five people. I throw the legs on a truck, and try to find his other leg which I took off before. It's gone. "Fuck! Where the hell did it go?" I ask. Suddenly a girl screams. I can see shadowy figures with shining eyes coming out of the woods. They start attacking people, and I run up to one of them. It's a girl, dressed in some kind of black and blue latex. She tries to grab something around my chest. I can tell she's not out to really harm me. I guess she wanted the blueberry pendant I had around my neck. She gets shot by one of my companions. I get up and run to the car to check on the legs. They're gone.


14.30: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 5 hours, then 5 more

Supplements before bed: None

That's it. Scary dreams. They were a bit fuzzy when I woke up, as I didn't have much energy to recall. I'm sure they were longer and more intricate than what I just described. Anyways.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

Disappointed

I was sitting on the ground at a track and field meet and this 18 yr oldish white guy with blond short hair (almost buzz) and green uniform comes staggering towards me. He was crying horribly, practically drowning in his tears. He comes and collapses next to me, still sobbing. His parents are close in tow telling him that everything will be alright and that they are still proud of him. The guy sobs and says that he still lost the race and that his parents were using a sarcastic tone that was not nice. They were being kinda sarcastic, but I didn't see the next part coming. He got up slowly and walked out of my vision and I heard glass breaking. His parents ran toward him, yelling in shocked horror. I learned later that he had thrown himself through a window. The broken glass had killed him.

Piano Chords

I was at my friend, peter's house, and then justin walked in holding taylor's hand. This was an unusual combination. Justin sat down and told me about how he was single and he only had time for "mixing and matching" as he called it. Basically hooking up with everyone. Taylor kneeled down on the chair and they started making out. I chose to sit back towards taylor in the same chair (which was pretty deep) and starting kissing her calves. This was very strange because I'm not at all into the devil's threesome. I see someone walking into the room out of the corner of my eye and stop and sit there and pretend to mess around on a piano in front of me. It was the band director. He asked me what I was doing and why I didn't stop any of this and then he told them that they were drinking away their prom. By drinking away he meant drink saliva...He leaves and I start messing with these strange pianos that were in the room. There were three of them and they were very small. The buttons were weird too because they were not keys but they were actual buttons. I kept trying to play chords C7-D/C but it wouldn't work. When others tried it it would work but not when I did it. I should've become lucid from that AT LEAST.

Good morning, everybody. I'm pretty sure I was only semi-lucid in the first dream, even though I was aware that I was dreaming.

The second dream took place between 5 AM and 5:30 AM, I'm pretty sure.

Dream #1

I was in a house with some female "family members." They appeared to be about my age, white, very pretty. I saw them as if we were all close together. The women were having some kind of serious conversation.

I suddenly floated up and out of the house. I assumed I was in the neighborhood my family had lived in before I went to college. (Though it now seems to me that all the houses were much bigger that in that neighborhood, and that they all had flat roofs.)

At some point during all of this, I told myself I was dreaming. I think that I was thinking this was something more like an out-of-body experience than a dream. I told myself to focus on the rooftops and try to "bring something back" to waking life that would prove I'd had an OBE.

But I was only floating around between a small number of houses. I think I was having some kind of trouble with my vertical control, like I kept on going up way high and having to pull myself back down.

At some point in time I saw a house with its roof caved in. I recognized this house as being a couple houses down from my family's old house. I thought for sure that this would be something I could "bring back."

I thought I'd focus in on this house, land on the roof. But instead of landing on the roof, I ended up going way down to the ground or a much lower roof (as if all these houses were like multi-story buildings -- which is obviously not true in that neighborhood). I flew back up and landed on the top of the roof.

But the roof wasn't collapsed. Instead, I found, the whole thing had been an optical illusion. The object which had given an impression of a depression in the roof was actually the basin of a gigantic hot tub.

Somehow, again without any criticism, I found myself in the empty basin of this gigantic hot tub, indoors. The hot tub was actually on the roof of the back end of a big RV. The room I was in was like a gigantic garage for the RV (even though, again, it was on the top floor of this "house").

I called out to my brother. He'd been friends with the son of this family. I figured he'd know more about this than I did. My brother "appeared," though I don't think I ever saw him directly.

After I'd "asked" (mentally?) my brother about the gigantic RV and hot tub, he responded, "Yeah, I was surprised, too, the first time I came to their house. I thought it was a broken roof, too. Because they always looked and acted so poor.

"But then I realized that they really did have all this rich stuff, too. Then I started getting jealous, because we don't have anything like this! But then they started letting me use it, too."

Dream #2

I was watching some kind of live-action drama that had elements in common with an anime drama.

The view eventually changed to some kind of drama of which I was a part, even though I was still only an observer.

There were a bunch of beautiful, rich, college-aged people walking from the right to the left of my view, before some stone castle which was part of some college campus. The sky overhead was dark and roiling with clouds. The students (mostly or all women?) were wearing colorful, silk dresses and plastic masks to make them look like anime characters.

Eventually I was in a room, at a party. The room felt like a study in a big, nice house. The room was dim, full of people, probably rich adults.

I had been talking at first with a young woman. At some point I was listening to the speech of a man who had a face like Rodin's sculptures of Balzac. The man was speaking with great pride about how he had cheated some business associate, then killed and eaten him.

Now I saw a group of partiers, all turned toward me, motionless, silent. They were mostly women. The women wore masks like female anime characters. The men wore masks like the mustache mask from V for Vendetta (?).

My view now shifted to a number of fragmented scenes showing old, great manga and anime artists at their work. One scene had a man sitting back in his swivel chair before his desk. The man was tallish, wearing a sweater and a beret (but he wasn't Tezuka).

The wall of the man's room was turquoise blue, and was decorated with some of the classic anime and manga he'd created. One drawing was a figure of a plain, young man with black hair wearing a yellow sweater and khaki slacks. Another anime of his had to do with the adventures of some little girl in a forest. I heard the anime theme song.

(As I woke, I could hear the theme song of this anime. I even hummed it to keep it in my mind. But I forgot it now. Ugh.)

there was this building it was securly locked and the only way to open it was to hack into it, but was not as simple as that because there was a goliath out of mass effect guarding the place and i mean this thing was Huge. there was 4 of us and 2 of them distracted the goliath from its station and there was a big shoot up and 1 of us got shot and died, so there was me trying to hack this terminal which i succeeded with 2 attempts and managed to somehow detonate the goliath aswell and we ran and mannaged to slide under the security door before it closed again. Now this is where it all starts feeling important to me, the first door had a mirror on it and had a spy camera there so we got rid of that lol. we opened the door which had no handle and turned right and then went into this other room it was a bedroom on the left there was another spy camera so we destroyed that. there was this tele i ould hear the static come out of it i mean really loudly and on this table there were to bugging devices well i destroyed them but funny thing was when i was twisting the devices the frequency of the tv changed and out side of the room i could hear ppl say shut up turn it off, so we did. We ran out of room and now there were only 2 of us for some reason. i now went down some stairs and saw this guy lying on hay he didnt look to happy got up and went to grab me but i shut the doors and locked him in this is where i ran lol. my mate dissapeard so it was only me now. I ran up the stairs there where doors everywhere i went in one then ran up these spiralling stairs and at each floor there was about 4 doors i ignored them and kept going up until there was only one door left. NOW this it the special part this door was different, i opened it and there was this lady she was beautiful she had yellow hair shoulder length egyptian style make up and i cant remember her top she was wearing but she had white tights. She said to me she has been waiting for me for along time. I now feel like i know her and always have she pulled me to her and yh she ripped a hole in tights and had no knickers well you can see where that leads to something intimite and well yh i woke up, i never got her name.


I feel as if i have unlocked something i feel different than normal today. pls feel free to leave comments and your what you think the dream could be telling me thank you piece out!

Ok so I was a knight or vampire hunter of some sort, I was sneaking around this castle looking for a way in. I was supposed to crash some big dinner party that Dracula was hosting and if I didn't something bad would happen, I can't remember what. So I found a way in through a kitchen window and snuck in, after I sneaked around the castle, killing different things and helping people stuck in the castle. At one point I was almost caught and managed to evade my pursuers by getting out of the castle. I had to get back in so I got went in through the kitchen again, I tried to pry the window off slowly but it fell and shattered, I ignored it jumped in. I tried to be nonchalant about it and walk out of the kitchen.
Someone came up to me to talk but I panicked and smashed their face into a table and ran out of there, when I stepped out of the kitchen I was inside Target for some reason, the store Target. I was looking around, confused, when I saw some friends. I approached them and we shook hands, they then asked me if I wanted to join them in some shop-lifting. I was about to say yes when some big creatures burst out from the kitchen behind me, I ran through the store, going through aisle to aisle. Finally I reached a section where there were desks with computer, I ran in and hid behind a desk and caught my breath.

And then I woke up.

We were in a dark warehouse type space, except it was ground level and it seemed to be outside. It was night-time and he [Justen Strang] was kneeling down speaking to me. I don't remember the conversation until I began pointing out and asking why he had started just flirting with so many other girls besides me, and why he was being such a dick. At the time he began laugh hysterically, almost cynically; then looked at me and said "because you wouldn't suck my dick you stupid whore" and continued with the laughter. After this i don't remember much until i was driving around in a car with family and we were suppose to be meeting up with him and straighten stuff out i suppose, except nobody was mad. After driving around for some time, and waiting at different places for some time, we were stopped at a building but i can't quite remember what it was, and he found us. Though i don't remember much after him explaining he was trying to find us the whole night and he was sorry it became such a mix up with everybody driving around, i guess the dream faded out and then later on i awoke.

12/20/10 - Corny Carnival & Gift Contemplation
Dream Non-dream Lucid

I vaguely remember being at a carnival with my friends Mary and Angela, along with some girl who I think was Angela's friend. The fairgrounds were more like a big lot with a fence around most of it, and makeshift rides and games set up in a kind of half-circle formation. We went from ride to ride, and hoped to get through all of the rides, but after only about five of them it was time to leave.

There's a small fragment of another dream. I was with my 9-year-old cousin and we were looking through a book of my old drawings. They were all anime girls and I noticed that a lot of them were posed with their fists in the air.

Finally, I remember being at Barnes & Noble, looking for gifts for Hannah and Mary. I figured I'd look for something I knew they hadn't read before. Eventually I found a 3-in-1 book for each of them; InuYasha for Mary, and Sailor Moon for Hannah. I figured they'd like them since I knew they each loved the anime versions of their books.

I was actually planning to go to B&N today for their presents. I don't know if there is a manga of Sailor Moon, but it's a pretty good idea for Hannah's present. Maybe I could get season 1 of the anime. Mary's already read some InuYasha, though, so I need to think of something else for her.

12/20/2010 - Interrogation

I dreamed that I was in a location in India (reminded me of the locale from Assassin's Creed, the original, after I woke up). I was in robes and entered a courtyard by myself. There was a woman here who I was supposed to capture and interrogate. As no one was around, I chased her through the pavilion and caught her. I dragged her back to the courtyard and began interrogating her. There was an individual helping me who I couldn't see his face, but I remember him using an odd mallet and water to get information from her.

She told us where we could find the target that we were looking to assassinate. Midway through the conversation, the locale faded out and I woke up.

12/20/2010 - False Awakening

I woke up in my room to a false awakening. I got up and walked around my house. I met with one of my Brothers in the house, who went on to talk about the previous night and how impressed he was at my tolerance from the night. I was a bit confused and surprised by what he was saying. I woke again in my bed.