non-lucid

10.08.2010

The Way The World Ends (Non-lucid)

★★★★★

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

"Good morning, Colonies! Boy, do we have a show for you today!" The announcer's voice blares over my ear-piece, as I walk through Karachi, heading to my assigned 'interview.' "We're joined today by an esteemed Physics Professor and doctorate who is conferencing in all the way from. . ." He pauses. The view cuts to the broadcaster as he quickly flips through numerous files on his holographic display. "It's Cambridge, right?" he asks, more quietly.

Another man with a thick accent begins to reply, "No, actually--"

But the announcer has already found the file in question. "Oh, that's right! Texas MIT! Before we get to that segment, however, we have another installment of our bonus lecture series!"

That's my cue, I better hurry up the stairs and find this woman.

"Today's class is presided over by one of our very own Sociological Ethics and Law Lecturers."

There she is. I greet her quickly and take out my small audio and visual recording device.

"Please feel free to join the lecture remotely, and don't forget to ask questions!"

We were live. The professor briefly introduces herself as we make our way through the dark, rundown building. My camera work is surprisingly smooth, but I seem to be having trouble keeping her in the center of the frame and following her movements. Eventually, we make it into a decent sized room and the real lecture begins.

She starts by explaining basic concepts that anyone viewing should already know. Yet still, she has the gall to ask if there are any questions. "Hold on," I say as I reach for my com device. Sure enough, there's a solid red light, indicating someone is trying to interact with the class. Or just messing with her.

Hitting the talk button, I wait for the person on the other end to say something. . . Silence. I hit the button again, "No questions," I state. She smiles, blissfully unaware that she's already lost everyone's respect.

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The lecture continued as I faded in and out of alertness. At one point, she began discussing law making theory. An analogy was on the board, relating the foundation of any structured law to pipework, which one builds onto over time. But what happens when the pipes get old and outdated. I think. Shouldn't they be replaced by something that can keep up with the times?

I bring the point to the Professor's attention, and she addresses it by referencing several countries whose base 'pipework' was designed to gradually be replaced to accommodate ever changing needs. Stupid. In today's day and world it'd be better to scrap the whole damn thing and start fresh. These antiquated pipes just aren't cutting it anymore. I don't press the point any further; it'd just waste time.

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The classroom is brighter now, and there are students here besides myself. Professor Whatserface is angrily going over some definitions. I briefly stare at the board to memorize what's on it. Simple stuff. I just wish the kids in here would stop screwing around.

Glancing around the lecture hall, I spot a friend behind me, two tiers up. Standing up from her seat, straightened arms supporting her thin boy-ish frame, I see Samael leaning over the desk of the boy beside her, who himself looks a lot like Lucidmax. She seems vastly interested in whatever is written on the papers in front of him. I turn back toward the board, and contemplate pulling out a pair of display glasses, linking into my own feed, and putting my head down. Nah, more trouble than it's worth.

Regardless, our seeming lack of attention had finally struck a crucial nerve in our Prof. She hands out tests to everyone in the room, including myself, ranting about how she expected better from us and insisting she didn't want to give us exams, but we had forced her hand.

"Look lady," commented a rather brash young man one tier above Samael, "we all know how excited you were to finally get a shot at teaching savants." His voice played off the sarcastic intonation perfectly. "Yeah, we learned everything you taught us. And, yes, this test is bullshit. But you keep in mind this whole thing is nothing more than a bonus class for us. Free time. So, don't you be surprised when most of these papers come back with 'The Great Leopold Wiggin' written at the top." The class snickers audibly. He's completely right, and the raw truth of it all brings a smirk to my face. I'm quick to hide it.

Well, I might as well work on this test.

Question 1: What are the definitions of "soul" and "biology" as discussed in class.

Crap. These were just on the board. But, for some reason, my recall is hazy, blurry, almost dream-like. It's as if what was written on the board never existed. I keep struggling, fighting through my memories like one would against the ocean's current. . . Nothing. Maybe if I work through it, BS here and there.

Soul: A spiritual essence that some believe

Samael gets my attention, only, it's not Samael anymore. She's still my friend, the same girl from before, but her hair is longer, more teal, and her figure is very pronounced. The girl begins talking to me, and I know what she's doing instantly. Brilliant. She's dropping me clues to the answer while making it look like nothing more than chit-chat. So eloquently, too. There will be no way anyone can accuse her of cheating. Though the Professor caught on right away, echoing the last thing the girl had said in a mocking tone. She's just upset because she knows there's nothing she can do about it. Just then, I remember what was written on the board.

Soul: A spiritual essence that some believe The agent that binds humanity together. Encourages moral behavior.

I take a moment to criticize the definition and its obvious flaws. Not all mankind believes in souls. Where do they fall into this definition? They don't, but hopefully, if they've got any power, they're smart enough to see the little value there is in this concept.

Biology: The genetic force that drives humans apart. Often incites violent struggles.

More flawed definitions. Though, this one has an air of truth to it. . .

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All of us are headed back to earth from the outlying Colony. Our shuttle, nearly finished breaking through the lower atmosphere, prepares for a hard landing. No one celebrates our safe return. We all know a sea of nuclear warheads is descending upon us, dropping through the same atmosphere we just passed through. This was it. The end of everything.

But I wasn't going to have it. "I know how to stop the nukes." Everyone looks at me; their dark, empty eyes stare blankly. All hope has left them. We touch down violently, but not a moment too soon. Immediately, I create a purple shield of energy and extend it out, all around me, protecting my classmates and a portion of the shuttle-craft. The nukes hit ground.

FFFWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHH!

Fallout descends upon us, drowning the air in a blood red hue, buffeting my shield, heating it beyond the realms of human survival. Every piece of the shuttle not protected by the shield is destroyed, yet we survive. When it was over, I couldn't help thinking, Maybe it would have been better to die quickly, instead of slowly. From the looks on my peers' faces I could tell they were thinking the same thing.

Dropping the shield, I notice my friend sprawled out on the floor, unconscious, and rush over to her, but the boy from before tries to push me away, giving me some ass-backwards reason as to why I should get away. I tell him off, refuting his point with enough logic to shut him up. Lifting her into my arms, I teleport away.

"Well this is great," comments the young man from before.

There was a long silence before anyone spoke up.

"Do you think they'll be back. . ?"

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I appear in a lobby. The teal haired girl is standing beside me now, perfectly alright. As I approach the uniformed security guard behind the wooden counter, he doesn't even blink at our strange and sudden appearance. After I inform him of our situation, and our need to move beyond this check point, he informs me that he's a zombie.

"You seem too intelligent to be a zombie."

"That's what all the other zombies say. So they stiffed me with job."

"Well, are you going to let me by?"

"No, sorry."

"That's not good enough. Either let me by, or I'll force my way through."

He stands up and pull his Maverick on me.

"Do it," I whisper, reaching out my hand.

"Oh, I will!"

BANG! BANG! BANG!

Reaching out with my mind, I catch the projectiles as they leave the blaster and launch them right back at the guard. He's stunned, but it wouldn't last long. Taking the girl's hand I lead her further into the facility. . .

I was at a school, maybe it was elementary school. I was coming out the exit and I was seeing little kids, but I was seeing what they looked like when they grew up at the same time. I stopped at a bench to find the car keys and caught a glimpse of my hair in the reflection of a window. I had a blue hair band on and my hair was light brown and straightened.

I walked out to the parking lot and got in my old friend's car. I had to pick him up and then drive to meet my friends for a road trip. The seat wasn't right for my height, so I tried to scoot it forward but there wasn't a nob or lever to do so. I could barely reach the pedals. I managed to make it out of the parking lot and drove out onto a dirt road surrounded by trees. I pulled over to the side so I could try to readjust the seat again, but I couldn't. There was a small tree growing on the shoulder where I was parked, so I couldn't pull forward so I had to put the car in reverse to get back on to the main road.

I pushed the pedal down and the car went backwards, I hit the brake but the car didn't stop! What the heck! I tried the other pedal but it didn't work either. The trunk of the car hit a tree, which finally stopped it. I got out of the car and came around the back side, there was a HUGE dent in the shape of the tree. Definitely noticeable. Shit, shit, shit! He was going to be soo pissed off at me! He wasn't the nicest of people that I have met and I know that he would be more than upset about this, to the point where it might be dangerous for me to be in the car with him.

Since the car was useless because it only drove in reverse (and I wasn't going to drive it backwards down the road like I did in other dreams), I needed to walk to a town and find a phone. I believed that my mother's workplace was close in proximity to where I was, but I didn't even know what street I was on. I saw a lady walking down the street with a few grocery bags. On the beige grocery bags it said Kristain.

"Excuse me, where is the nearest town?" I asked her.

"There's a small little town that way," She said pointing down the street, "And there is another bigger one if you follow the road the other way." She told me to follow her. As I followed her down the narrow, unpaved street the trees morphed into the hallways of a school. I was now in a larger building, several stories into the air. I lost track of the woman and nearly ran into a teenage boy. I asked him if I could use his phone. He got really pissed off and shoved me to the ground and started yelling expletives. It just really wasn't my day, huh?

I eventually found my mom and asked her if she could drive me to San Dusky because I had a Pokemon tournament (whaat I don't even play that game LOL). I was led into a large room and a little late too. A tall guy with blond hair smiled as he saw me and stood up. He said that he would be my starting partner for the tournament. He said, "Ooh nice hair," and patted it. I could see in the mirror that my hair was blond with waves.

08/11/10



I'm travelling through a village. Their level of technology seems medieval at best. A little girl is suspected of being a witch. I help her escape.

We wander up a path through an idyllic countryside, hilly and covered in green. I lead and the girl, ten or so, trails slightly behind me. The hinges of the wooden gate creak as they move, and I hold the gate open. The girl shrieks in delight and runs onto the field. A dark brown horse is running towards us. It has odd, light-coloured streaks painted across its side. As it approaches the girl, it slows down. The girl jumps up and down, asking if she can ride it.

"He doesn't like anyone, even me." I say, studying the horse. I smile when the horse snorts. "Especially me. I think he might like you, though."

The girl climbs on the horse's back, and the two of them gallop across the fenced enclosure.

Later, we're sitting inside a log cabin that resembles a barn. The black horse is now a black owl, perched on a railing. I sit across from him, and we watch the girl explore the building as we talk. She runs back over to us, smiling as she sits down on the couch.

"We're going to have to winter-proof the house if she's going to stay with you." I tell the owl seriously.

The girl turns into a bird. I catch the bundle of feathers between my hands, gently. "You are far too domesticated." I tell her.

I will the cracks in the wall to close, making the wood grow back together, sealing out the wind.

It's winter the next time I return to the cabin. We play on the hill, sliding down packed snow and laughing.

Shapeshifting Children. Scare Factor: 1.

Took a 5HTP, Turmeric and Magnesium before going to bed. Attempted MILD before going to bed, envisioning a scene in an empty room full of RC brand pink bananas that smelled like salmon, with a faint Edith Piaf song playing in the background. Slept without remembering any dreams from approx 11:28 to 2:45. Woke up at 2:45, oddly energized, practiced reality checks for about 30 minutes. RCs practiced included looking in mirrors, checking time, reading the same page of a book, examining hands closely, smelling bananas, and turning around while visualising a different scene. I also tried looking out the window and visualizing a Blue ford mustang with white stripes driving by. Went back to bed around 3:10, continuing the previous MILD with the bananas... but also thinking about the RC of looking out the window and seeing the car. I recorded a brief note of what I had done, including a line from the book I used to RC.
Dream 1. I was in my room and I looked out the window, Everything was very murky like an oil painting, and I only remember a few distinct details: The bug net on the window, thinking "this is a dream, I can fly" And jumping through the window as I felt a floating sensation. I lost what little control I had at this point and dreamt for a few seconds of the image of two people holding hands as they floated through the air.
I may have woken up at this point, or had a false awakening without realizing it.
Dream 2.
I dreamed that a friend said "you won't believe this" and I found out that a video I had made was a finalist for the Vimeo awards. Through the screen/websites or something, I kept being asked to upload a higher quality version of the video, but I could not.

DREAMNONDREAMSCENEDESCRIPTIONLUCID

So, I see these alien people. One is green, the other two aren't(they're like sim aliens ) and I see their normal colored teen kid and his teeth...They are small, crooked, and ugly. He takes this piece of floss...and twines it between his teeth . So, this is when I offer the family a little piece of advice on oral hygiene. I tell them how to brush their teeth. I take my finger and put it on the left side of my tooth, not quite touching it, to show them how. Then they're like, "aren't you supposed to brush the other side of your tooth?" I told them you brush every side, and a tooth brush is a small version of a hair brush. But I see a few toothbrushes in a glass (and we're outside...) and point those out to them. Then, I tell them I'll tell them about flossing later. But then we start walking, and I show them my braces and tell them that they straighten your teeth.

I had this dream because I got up early today to go to the ortho (I'm finally getting them off at the end of Sep., 2 1/2 years, and I'm on the second set . Well, I came home and took a two hour nap because I got up at SEVEN THIRTY!

Eve of easter. Went to a carnival that night where there were lots of school kids. Some people from toroa were there. I wondered round, and I was asked by this chick to ave a go shooting at a screen, aiming to win a prize. I hanged around with her and some other friends of ehrs. My cousin showed up (he one i never see) an she asked about Jen, and told me she talked to Jen's best friend. Then I went looking for Justin, cos I wanted to introduce him to these girls. Couldn't find him. The carnival ended, and we went to our house nect door to the carnival, but there was a large built up wall around the carnival/school grounds so we didn't know what was inside. The rest of the night, lots of poeple came to our house and we socialised and had drinks. I still couldn't find Justin. lATE RHAT NIGHT, i WENT OUTSIDE AND i FOUND MY BROTHER, paaul. He was up t some shady business. He was finding easter eggs before easter had come yet. Shaun was also there, looking for eggs. I started looking, and i found heaps of eggs and put them on the ground. I went into our back yard and found even more. I then found a way into the school grounds and I found lots of eggs inside the buildings. They were realy big eggs as well.

I was inside a lucid dream with my brother, having a shared lucid. We were taking a walk inside a giant maze to see what we'd find. He went down a hall and he didn't notice I didn't go with him. I went into a larger area and I saw some vicious dogs!

I ran and ran as fast as I could, I tried to jump on top of the stone wall but I ended up falling over the fence and I got separated from Hudson...

I ended up meeting him in a town like district place just outside the maze. I came out of the sewers.

LATER...

I was awake (In my dream) and he said to me "How come you ran off?!" and I say "Y-You had a lucid dream too!?" he replies yes and with joy I declare "SHARED LUCID DREAMS ARE REAL! They're REAL!!"

I was inside a lucid dream with my brother, having a shared lucid. We were taking a walk inside a giant maze to see what we'd find. He went down a hall and he didn't notice I didn't go with him. I went into a larger area and I saw some vicious dogs!

I ran and ran as fast as I could, I tried to jump on top of the stone wall but I ended up falling over the fence and I got separated from Hudson...

I ended up meeting him in a town like district place just outside the maze. I came out of the sewers.

LATER...

I was awake (In my dream) and he said to me "How come you ran off?!" and I say "Y-You had a lucid dream too!?" he replies yes and with joy I declare "SHARED LUCID DREAMS ARE REAL! They're REAL!!"

Well, much better dream recall than the past few nights. I was startled awake around 6AM from Alyssa's cats going crazy--sadly I was too busy trying to contain the cats and quickly forgot all dreams that had just occurred. I tried to WILD afterwards because it seemed to be a convenient time, but was hard pressed since the cats were still going crazy and Alyssa's dad started getting ready for work..the constant audible distractions made it hard. I gave up on WILDing and decided to just go back to sleep.

I don't remember precisely how many times, but in my dream I was having false awakening after false awakening, all in the same location that I was currently at. Eventually I sat up and Alyssa did as well, her father was concerned if she needed any money. At first she said she was fine but then seemed fixated on the fact that she would need money so she could go to 'the Boons' (usually the term is used in reference to the middle of nowhere, but in this case I somehow knew it was an event titled 'the Boons' for some reason.) I had another false awakening and remember looking in the backyard and seeing our cat hanging from a tree-- it was tied to a metal screw plugged into the ground and it was wearing a body harness, it was perfectly fine, but just hanging from the tree. it was very odd!


that's as much as I can really recall.

Missed Dream Signs:

-Several false awakenings in a row

August 11, 2010

Beatles in prison!
I was a security guard for my current building, but the building itself held a much different purpose. In the basement, we were holding the Hamburg-age Beatles prisoner. Not entirely sure why... I concocted a plan to get them out so they wouldn't miss their gigs.

By the time I started the dream, I had already done my part to get them out. Nobody had noticed they were even gone. I was patrolling the basement and came to the north stairwell, where I encountered their instruments. Ohhh shit! Susanna (RL friend of mine) fell through!! Getting the instruments to them was her responsibility!

I started trying to make phone calls, contacting people who could help me get them their instruments, but no luck. I tried to phone Paul, to let him know what happened, and the owner of the building answered. My employer. I sincerely hope he doesn't have me on call ID.

"I'm sorry, who's this?" I say, trying to disguise my voice.

"Marissa Hampton," the voice says, impatiently. She either doesn't know, or she isn't letting it on...

"I'm trying to reach Paul, I thought this was his phone number!" I continued.

"Well, he's indisposed of at the moment," she said and hung up on me. I think I'm in the clear!

There's this odd little bit where I hear someone coming into the basement. I hear a woman's voice, so I hide under the sinks in the men's washroom. She comes into the men's room though, to use the toilet She sees me when she's done, and I made some stupid comment about fancying hiding underneath washroom sinks. She says she won't tell anyone.

Paul and the lads finally returned, and I greeted them remorsefully about their instruments. Paul assured me it was okay, they actually didn't need them today.

Woke up here to WILD, but it failed because I'm a wuss. No, seriously, I kept breaking SP because it was making me all achy and itchy. I need to man up for my next attempt

The Dream WILD - Lucid - 3/5
I'm in a dorm with a bunch of people. Nola, from my radio job is acting VERY kooky. Slightly insane. Can't recall what she was saying, but she was keeping everyone awake. I remember guiding her back to her bed and saying, "It's time to sleep now, Nola!"

"Okay, Serenity!"

I crawled back into my bed. I was silent for a few seconds, then asked, "Everyone has their dream partners for tonight?"

"Yesssss," a grumbling mumble answers me.

"Good," I say.

I close my eyes and I picture the hallway of a house. Almost immediately, the image surrounds me in 3D. "Holy crap!" I thought. "That surprised me! Wow, it's all 3D and pretty solid already. I know I'm dreaming. I don't remember a gap in consciousness. I think I finally WILD'ed!" I was overjoyed, but I kept my cool. I started carefully exploring the house, by walking down the stairs. I saw Darren approach me and I thought, "I should stabilize before anything starts to happen." I rubbed my hands together, and the dream dissolved.

When I woke up, I realized I just had a WILD within a ND. That was a very cool experience! I wonder... is that what a visual transition should look like, when I get there? You think of something, and it kind of just whooshes around you into 3D? Anyways, I tried to fall back to sleep and chained back into the house from my dream WILD.

It wasn't as solid this time. I was standing in the living room, that overlooked another level to the house. It was like this second-level living room was my and Darren's personal space of the house. However, the room next to me was an open-plan kitchen (no separating walls to distinguish the rooms) and my parents were making breakfast. Dream dissolved.

Failed a WBTB. I'm unhappy.

Initially I dreamed about some sort of house that me and my girlfriend were staying in. We were like renting it for some reason and I think my girlfriend had a reason why we couldn't stay there, but I don't remember why. Eventually the scene changed to her house, and her mom was there with some ice cream. For whatever reason though, the ice cream was laced with weed, so when we ate it we got high. It was the strangest feeling, really--I actually felt high after eating it. It was definitely a dream sign considering the fact that my girlfriend would have nothing to do with anything weed-related, but I missed it.

The scene changes. I'm at an unknown location with my girlfriend and another friend of mine named Josh. We're with a dude I don't recognize but who evidently graduated from my high school. I feel like his name was Tyler. Anyway, we're talking about the student newspaper at my high school and how it's gone down in quality since that Tyler graduated. I worked for the student newspaper when I was in high school just like Tyler, but when he was in high school they had more funding and had more hours in the day to work on newspaper-related things. He also talked about how he worked for CNN while he was on our student newspaper staff. There were some other people around that I sensed worked with him, but I didn't know them and they didn't talk. He gave me, my girlfriend, and Josh some old copies of issues released when he was in high school, and for some reason they were huge and extraordinarily heavy. We left with them. Once we were far enough away from the building we opened one up, but for some reason there were just pictures of cymbals arranged on the pages, made out of construction paper. I was disappointed and couldn't understand how that could possibly be a quality newspaper.

After I woke up I went back to bed and had various other dreams, but I'm having a hard time remembering them all...the most recent one I can remember involved me, my uncle and aunt and two of my aunts. One of my aunts was murdered in a pool that I was swimming in by some sort of phantom. He was white and sort of translucent with a red circle around one eye and a blue triangle around the other. He wasn't human in form, he was something entirely different. The aunt he murdered he basically ground up into mashed guts in the pool, then he collected the remains and my uncle just sort of sat there smiling with blood on his face. I tried to wipe it off while climbing up some sort of slope behind him, headed for I don't know where. My other aunt just sort of sat there and scoffed, since she doesn't like the murdered aunt.

Before that I remember being on some sort of catwalk above the pool with people, and I think I felt the presence of the phantom, but I don't remember fully what we were doing.

Once again, failed to achieve lucidity, but I'm garnering a pretty substantial dream journal, so hopefully that will help.

I really think that binaural beats don't work for me. Whenever I listen to headphones and try to sleep I just cannot do it. Last night I barely got any sleep at all. It was horrible. I only remember the vaguest fragment of a dream:

My brother in law is on a roof and so am I. But the roof I am on is a good 15 feet away from him. I look around. It's sunny out and it looks like we're in the desert somewhere. The setting kinda reminds me of Assassins Creed. I suddenly run forward as fast as I can and leap towards the other roof. I hit the side of the building and my fingers barely clasp the edge of the roof. My heart is pounding and I'm able to pull myself over the edge. I lay there for a second before continuing towards my brother in law. I get to him and say something to him. I can't remember what I said. But I know I mention that we're on some sort of mission. So I point across the way and tell him, after exchanging a few words, that we need to head over there to fight off a few people. After that we need to jump back towards another building where we can meet up at our 'base'. So we do. We jump across and again I barely make it. My hands are just barely over the edge of the ledge. I pull myself up. We fight off a few people on this new building before heading back to the building with our "team". For us to get there we can't jump straight to the roof, we have to hit the ground and then scramble up a rope ladder. I go first. I hit the dusty ground and am on and up the ladder before I can take a second breath. My brother in law attempts the same thing but as soon as he hits the ground he moves too slow and is swept away by a group of men in ninja costumes.

I also remember a few little fragments but I'm not going to write those down. I barely got any sleep. It was terrible.

* fell asleep aruond midnight. had 3 good reams but i only remember the first one :(

Dream 1: I remember I was at a store and the only items I was concerned about was liquor. I was putting lots of bottles of different varieties into my shopping cart.

(i don't remember how I got to the store, and I don't actually remember going to checkout to pay for the alcohol)

Now I'm new to dream interpretation, but I'm guessing that since I'm 18, and was drinking last night that my dream was a yearning for freedom??

I was walking through my school ( it was very different to my normal school) trying to find the sport's coach to ask if there was golf that day. The sports office had a thatched roof ?? and all the teachers had left their phones and ipods sitting on the desk with nobody there??? When i left the sports office i was in my garden (i knew it was my home but it was completely different). There were dark clouds overhead and when i began to climb the stairs into my house a hurricane sucked me up and threw me against a high wall. When i fell to the floor i had no injuries (very weird) and suddenly there were a lot more hurricanes all over. I began to run away but more cam from everywhere. That was when i woke up.

11/27/2009

Not Our House Anymore

I'm in this really nice home. I look around and see that there are two kitchens. This makes me really happy because apparently Andrea and I are moving in with other people and now we can have separate kitchens.

Next thing I know, the other people we're living with are getting really shitty with me and tell me that I have to move my car out of the backyard. Andrea gets upset about this, but I tell her, it's ok, she sold the house to them and they make the rules now.

I got out to move the car and there's a huge snake coming after me! He chases me into the street and I can't remember anything after that except that I went back into the house and chased the new owner around the kitchen smashing her fingers into the floor with a coffee mug.

Semi-Lucid Lost Ring Saga

So we know that I'm still "whatever" about my lost ring. Well, I'm in a house that I think someone is showing me to see if I want to buy it. I feel like the house is familiar and that I've seen it in another dream. I realize I'm dreaming and run into the backyard and start looking in this pile of dirt for my ring because I'm convinced that this is where it is. I say I was only semi-lucid because that's not where my ring was, so I don't know why I would be looking for it in a pile of dirt.

Then I lose lucidity and I'm in a car passing by a train that's lit up like it's a Christmas decoration. Then we get out of the car and I'm walking down a dirt path and there are hills of dirt with huge neon signs on them. Someone tells me not to touch them because the lightning activates them and it's about to storm. (???)