non-lucid

Edit: This is a partial entry with one dream sequence omitted. See file 0818-0819; recall note: mall apartment, egg achievement, delivery man.

I've got a few fragments to record, unfortunately I ran into a problem wherein I woke up perfectly to remember them, thought about the dreams enough to crystallize them somewhat (or at least for sure the fragments I'm about to write down), but then I intentionally neglected to get up to write them down. This is something to work on overcoming in the future. I was reluctant to get up under the justification that it was sort of the middle of the work week and I was too tired to get up and write for a while to justify doing it. Plus some of the subject matter of the first one made me reluctant to bother to remember it at all (in fact, although I feel it's beneficial to write as much detail as I can remember, I'd still kind of rather any readers skip over this post). I would like to congratulate myself on the noticeably improved dream recall though, it's amazing what just a little effort can do to go a long way towards awakening at the end of dreams and remembering plenty of detail.

So here we go. As usually I'll try to keep it as chronologically in order as possible.

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The next one was a shorter fragment. I was with my immediate family. Everything seemed kind of retrograde; my brother was younger and both my parents were heavier as though it was before they both had gastric bypasses. We walked through a small junkyard into the waiting room of what looked like a car repair shop, but was apparently a combination car repair shop/walk-in clinic. Everyone sat down in a chair to wait but me; I paced around the room being annoyed and angry that once again people I'd known for years had nothing but contempt and disregard for my medical opinion. At some point I noticed my mother was missing a foot, and I thought, "Diabetes." Curiously, she was still able to walk fine despite the missing/invisible foot. She got up to ask the receptionist what was taking so long, she sounded frustrated, in pain, and desperate. She then went and sat down at a different spot. She was trying to partially cover her face with her coat, but I noticed she was crying. I continued pacing around and making mental notes about my family members until the dream ended.

One last quick note: just went to start breakfast and I remembered one more super short fragment wherein I noticed that the free expired 2-liter bottle of Dr. Pepper I brought home from work a few days ago expired in 1995.

Type: regular dream.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

I was walking along the left sidewalk of some neighborhood during the day; there was a flat wooden fence on my left, the road on my right, and then another fence. Beyond the fences were houses and trees. The road didn't have yellow markers on it, as it usually doesn't in my dreams.

Two of my classmates were walking with me. As we walked, two boys passed us on the sidewalk across the street, not looking at us. They were pretty fat! Both were wearing grey t-shirts and baggy jeans, and the one in front was taller than the one walking behind him, who was probably only around four feet. This guy in the back was wearing a brown baseball cap, and rapping or doing some weird thing. One of the people I was walking with came up to me and I recognized her as one of the people I don't like. I mentally questioned why I was with her, but I didn't become lucid.

She said pretty much out loud, "that guy's probably one to shoot you if you start making fun of him," and then continued to make fun of him. "Yo, yo, yo," she added mockingly in a deep voice, louder this time. The boys didn't even look at us even though she was shouting now.

Comment Dream Lucid Dream

Had a MILD-1 class again last night. When I woke up after only 3 hours of sleep I couldn't remember much from my dreams except for:

I'm in a huge imaginary city, together with a Highschool mate of mine. We're going to a festival, but I've got a broken bike and he's got sore feet from his rollerskates. Going strong >_<.

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This dream is from when I awoke this morning. Apparently I continued my previous dream.

The festival is over. My mate's gone and so is my bike. On my way home I encounter an old lady that can't seem to find her own home anymore. She tells me she lives in a street called the Bokken (which would translate to Bucks in english, the animals). I tell her I know where that is and lead here home. It felt like quite a time before we got there, but dreams can be deceivable like that. In the end we arrived at the Bokken though, a street on the bank of a gracht. I remember the entire scene had a yellowy sepia filter over it. On the bank were four copper alligator statues, but I didn't pay them much attention.
Fast forward and I'm a secret agent together with two of my housemates. We're still in the vicinity of the Bokken, but at a small public square. No one's there except us. I spot a laptop and a small beamer on a bench and walk towards them. As soon as I touch them I know this is a laptop from a female spy of our 'enemy corporation' and I decide to hack it. We're after an (unknown) item and this laptop could very well tell us where it is. It runs on windows 98 and takes a couple of minutes before I extract the information: that we need to infiltrate the house of this spy and retrieve our item there.
Fortunately, his house is very close and no one's home. We enter, go upstairs to her room and search for the item. One of my colleagues finds it and he leaves together with my other colleague as backup. I'm to remove our traces and follow them later on. Whilst doing that I hear she-spy coming home and going upstairs. The room has two doors and I hide against the wall of one of the doors. She-spy enters through the other door and I try to make my escape. She's too fast though and knocks me down on the head. Game over.

Fortunately I can try again (wtf?!). I find myself hiding against the wall again, but this time she enters through this door. I rapidly bash the door against her head and make my escape. Outside I find myself in a semi-lucid dream where I jump over hedges. I know I can decide what hedge to jump over. Sometimes the dream 'doesn't listen', but I do have the sense of control. Quickly lost that, though.
I reunite with my colleagues at the four alligator statues in the Bokken. Apparently we're to use the item in combination with one of the statues but agent H tells me it isn't working. I quickly check an online FAQ and it says we forgot to rub the statue with a special type of oil. We don't have that though and neither do we have the time, because the enemies have found us. It's time to prepare for the final battle. Slowly the scene around me changes into a psychedelic disco painting. Afterwards it doesn't make sense at all, but in my dream it was perfectly logical. People killing each other of to get that item, the environment turning and twisting around us. In the end, I passed away too and woke up.

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Missed dreamsigns:
- Me being a spy
- Dying and getting a second chance?
- The semi-lucid hedgejumping sequence
- The psychedelic final battle

Spoiler for Psychedelic Final Stage:

At first I dreamed of minecraft. We had a new map on the pallkars server which we explored. You were able to view it as a map. I remember thinking that the water on the map was too spread out evenly. No huuuge oceans and no huuuge landmasses. Only randomly placed water here and there.

After that I dreamed that me and a couple of friends had sneaked into the culverts of a hospital. There were empty corridors with branching doors here and there. Some of them were made of armoured glass and some were locked. We weren't allowed to be there and we hoped no one would find us. What we were doing there was to "fix" the place a bit. I don't remember for what reason but I for instance painted the wall so that it looked nicer (All though I had no paint so I had to use my hands by licking on my hands and stroking them over the wall so that they became wet. Then they got a darker colour, lol.).

A while later we went up from the culverts and got into some kind of school. We were spotted by an old teacher I had back in primary school. He didn't see to care though. I don't remember really what happened then.

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I was sitting at my PC writing down the dream about the culverts into this DJ (this was still a dream). <--Very vague memories of this part

There was something about how I was planning on taking some extra courses along with my program because the extra courses was really easy. They were about extended python programming and basic PHP.

Then there was a part in which I was at my grandpa's place (he lives in the mountains near norway). I was lying in a bed there. I got up to go to the bathroom. First I was going to drink water from the tap in there. I thought about how cold and fresh the water always is at their place. The water was quite nasty though because there was some brown slime coming out of the tap sometimes along with the water and I drank only a little. Then I was going to use the toilet, but that didn't seem nice either since the bathroom had many windows without any cover and my grandpa was working on something just next to them, lol. I tried to cover the windows with some curtains but they were semi transparent anyway.

I was Quasimodo in an alternated universe. Frollo wasn't so bad. He was understanding, and really did want to protect Quasimodo from horrid attitudes. (He had a complete personality change..!) Unfortunately he had another adopted son who was extremely jealous, and made certain things weren't much better in this universe. He kept trying to get Quasimodo in trouble with Frollo. Upon seeing just how that was impossible to do, he decided to take matters into his own hands. When Quasimodo was ringing the bells the other son knocked him out from behind with some piece of wood. He glanced around, and then threw Quasimodo's unconscious form out of the bell tower's window. He then took his place, ringing the bells. That is when frantic screams were heard, as they found Quasimodo's dead body.

My mom, Uncle Nick, and I had dinner at a restaurant. As I was expecting, my Uncle Nick ordered a pretty expensive drink. Next thing I know, I'm in a big city in Molokai (which is strange because in real life, Molokai is only made up a few towns and not many people.) There were bridges, skyscrapers, the whole deal. The next scene I remember, I'm back in the house I previously lived in, in New York. My mom and I put our cat Chanel on top of these strange large sheets of paper, each dedicated to a specific Hawaiian Island. She walked around on them, and it seemed to make it feel like she was actually walking on the island itself. I didn't want her walking all over Lanai so I took her off of it. I got out of the house and walked across the street, and I noticed a semi-secretive watch-house, which has cameras pointing directly at my house. I did not feel comfortable entering, so I moved on to the next house, which happened to be Carol's house... I walked in and I saw tons of my friends from here (Hawaii) inside. I was curious as to why so many were in there, turns out, some billionaire was in the house. I saw him, but I didn't go crazy over it. Then all of a sudden, someone asked where Carol's mailbox is, so I mentioned that it was to the right of the driveway. Then all of a sudden, some kid starts nagging on me about how I made these YouTube videos in 3rd grade about geography lessons and they were boring. Later, I log on my computer and I see that there actually are geography videos I made on YouTube, and also another video with some of my friends saying "Hi!" Then I realized that I left my Sidekick cell phone in Carol's house 3 years ago, so I ran back in and I checked under one of the chair cushions.. sure enough, there it was! The internet loaded up right away, and I was worried that my parents would be charged for the bill. Next door to Carol's house was an Ice Cream Shop. I went with one of my friends, and immediately walked out after seeing how unpleasing the ice cream looked. Later on, I was in an arcade (I don't remember how or why I came here) and I decided to play DDR. I start playing, and some song is already preselected, and it's DIFFICULT. I did terrible and failed on the last few arrows pretty much, and some kids were making some side-comments. So, I started the game again, and I played Fantasy by Melissa (on heavy) but I forgot to speed up the arrows. Now it was very difficult, because the arrows just came in cluttered groups, but for some reason.. I hit all of the arrows. My feet were moving rapidly on all of the arrows, and I was doing great. But for some reason, I was hitting most of them early, and it was counting them.

I'm not really sure where the first dream starts, it's a bit fragmented at the start. I'm dreaming about house.

I'm watching House and Wilson have an argument not sure what about or what is said (can't remember) but I think it is about Cuddy and Lucas. I have to get a timetable for house for the Gerrards Cross train for some random reason so I suddenly find myself on a train. The thing I notice most about the train is that it moves absolutely silently and smoothly and the carriage I am in is completely empty. The train itself is a light turquoise colour and the seats are dark purple and Turquoise. I get off the train in a massive train station, a really old sandstone building that is cavernous and busy. I know that I'm getting on the same train to get back in a few minutes because it's only 3 stops back and the train will leave in 5 minutes.

I walk along the side of the train, down the stairs and back around to the other side of the train, stopping to pick up the timetable before I get back on. I have no memory of actually going back on the train though.

Back with House and Wilson, Lucas and Cuddy are there and he has just hit Cuddy after she has told him that their relationship is over. House shouts at him and charges over, punching Lucas in the face telling him that if he ever lays a finger on her again, he'll kill him himself. Lucas goes to leave and somehow his arm and fingers are broken, his arm at a bizarre angle in his dark jacket, so house tries to stop him to at least treat the damage.

Lucas snarls at him and pulls open the front door, where 3 heavies are waiting one with a thick chain, swinging it menacingly. I know that the guy with the chain has broken House's legs before but I don't know when or why. Probably some gambling debt, or hookers. Dream ends.

Dream 2
I'm outside walking down a little dirt path, with a chain link fence, next to my old primary school. It's dark but the sky is a funny colour a really dark angry purple. Two little girls are walking in front of me and I can hear them talking. The first has dark brown hair, about shoulder length and the second has blonde hair with bunches, cute as a button. Neither of them could be any older than 6. I think they might be my little sisters, when they were young I could only see them from the back.

The Dark haired one says to the little blonde one with scornful authority of being a year older "Well when I was a little girl like you, I didn't eat plasticine!" The little blonde girl starts to say something in response but is cut short by the lightning starting.

It is awe inspiring lightning, like nothing I have ever seen before - sparking in the sky initially, seeming not to hit the ground. I hurriedly try to move the kids along, as the lightning starts to strike all around us. The kids are terrified so I wrestle them both into my grans house in Baillieston. Further up the street, behind Louise McCann's house I see my mum and dad. As I watch, a huge lightning bolt tears out of the sky and hits a small car in the car park, setting it on fire.

I rush over to my parents and tell them that I have made sure the kids are safe in the house. They are sheltering in a garage in the car park after being caught outside when the lightning started. Dream ends.

A large crowd of kids from my high school have planned to go to a mall, then the Cincinnati Reds Hall of Fame and a ballgame. I am with them, but am rather low on cash and already have the giveaway bobblehead from the Hall of Fame. When they leave for the Reds, I stay to bum around in the mall. I head to a Barnes and Nobel to buy a copy of the Tao te Ching. When I get to the shelf where it's kept, I'm accosted by a clerk who says I tried to shoplift it earlier and thus am not allowed to buy it. I get angry and start to make a scene. I notice that mixed with the books on the shelf is a poorly written journal (text RC failed); its owner, a cute black girl, returns to claim it and takes the Tao te Ching along with it. Now I'm really pissed, and I go to pick a fight with a random customer. I soon realize he outclasses me in every way, but I refuse to back down and lose pretty badly.

I am looking after my father's shop. Eating Lasagna. The lighting is dim, orange. A customer looks at our new caps and say that we should have brought them in earlier. She wears a blue dress. I talk to one of the employees. What an ordinary dream.

Went job hunting in the city with Julie and Emily. First stop is H&M. The employees tell us to just stay so we can be interviewed there. I did not see any clothes there, but I recall employees doing people’s hair like a salon. This was not your average H&M, it looked very majestic with gold trimming, high ceilings, and paintings everywhere. While we waited for the boss, me, em, and ju went to the backroom where there were clothes. All of the clothes on the racks were dresses, I remember specifically one with polka dots, and one with stripes and a bow on the front of it. I almost got mad at Emily because I thought she chose to try on the same dress as me, but she assured me that she didn’t.

By the time I picked everything I wanted to try on, it was my turn for an interview. I might have said something like “Shoot, I can’t try my stuff on.” Julie replies by saying “ It’s okay, I didn’t like those clothes anyway.” In my defense I say, “Well, I’m STILL gonna try them on.”

I don’t recall the interview, but I do remember thinking I was going to get hired when the boss called everyone into this huge beautiful room. The boss, me and this other girl sat on a couch, while a lot of other employees surround us on the floor. The boss says “We should find a better way to do this, but we all decided to hire Brownie!” All I could think was, who the heck is Brownie?

After he says her name, people start smiling and chit chatting, and I over hear stories of this Brownie girl and how funny she is, and how she talks about Africa all the time.

Amongst the chatter, I notice that me and the young boss had our arms intermingled. It seemed to be intentional.

Then something WEIRD happened. Everyone stops their chit chatting once we all notice a family walk through the doors. A dad, a mom, and two daughters. They pay no attention to the huge amount of young people sitting on the floor. They go straight to the walls and stare and touch them in amazement. This is the first time any of us notice there is art all around us. The walls are painted thoroughly with lamp posts and book shelves. The family is yelling back and forth to each other “Look at this one!” While we sit there and stare at the family in amazement.

18.08.2010

Potential Dream Sharing with my wife. (MILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

A more decent night. Hopefully my subconscious is digesting all the new changes in my professional waking life. One fragment and two lucids.

Third:

I woke up from my previous lucid. It was not as awesome so I wanted other one. I promised to myself that I was going to MILD and have a decent lucid. I focused on a forest while falling asleep.

I was with a female DC. She was good looking and I knew she liked me, however, I felt we were just friends. We were indoors and we were going downstairs to some place. This place, was in the middle of nowhere, within a big forest. She was tired so I grabbed her like a "Just Married" couple going to the hotel. I waked faster to get to the place. Suddenly, she was waking next to me and I was surprised.

We got to a place, now, I was with my wife instead. We were going to a group of meditation and psychics. There was a guy with us and he was talking about what was going to take place. He told me we would start to see how my yoga was. It was not necessary to be qualified, but it was like some extra credit for something. We approached a room and he opened the door. There were three female DC and two male DC stretching. I observed they had blue yoga mats. My wife said that she know nothing about Yoga and she was not doing it. She left and I entered with the DC.

I was streaching when I noticed that I was on my underwear. I started to be worried about that, everybody else wore yuga suits. However, I noticed that the professor did not wear underwear. I saw his penis. I found that weird and I decided to RC.

My hands were blurry and I felt my dream fading. I though, "No way. That never happens to me" I exited that class and saw a small window. I knew if I started to fly my dream would become stable. I started to fly and I saw that my wife (who has been waiting outside the whole time) grabbed my foot and I was just floating. My dream was not stable, so I needed to fly away. I flew with my wife holding my foot. She was scared and I dropped her off outside a garden outside this building.

I was in the air, with my dream fully stable. I could see the Skyscrapers several feet away. It was dawn and it was beautiful. The sky was clear and I could feel the wind blowing my face. I felt very calm. I was happy because I finally had a decent dream to enjoy and slow down my waking craziness. I was going to fly away, however, my wife did not vanish and I found that odd.

I landed next to her and I asked if she knew where we were. She did not act dumb like a regular dream character. I told her we were in a dream. She replied that it was awesome, that finally she became lucid. I told her she did and I was very happy. I told her, "You are not used to this kind of gravity. If you feel you are going to wake up, tell yourself to remember this dream."

I remembered that my students on the MILD classes did not have much of a success with the lucid task I ordered, so I wanted to do it as example for next week. I decided to take flight and fly around the forest. I flew around the trees. I did not see that many trees, it was a pretty deserted forest. I flew over the threes and then, around the trees. I decided to land as the task was done. My wife was alone queuing. She still did not vanish like a regular DC, she stood in the same place where she was.

I flew back to my wife. She was looking around surprised. I rose my hand and aimed to a tree. Next to the tree a small white light appeared. My wife asked me, "Can I destroy that tree with my fist?" I replied, "If you believe, you can... see this" I rose my hand and used telekinesis on one tree. The land started to vibrate and I pulled the whole tree out of the ground. I was doing this with my mind. I could see how some dirt came off the tree. I saw the roots of the tree, perfect roots like real ones. I banished the tree into oblivion in the middle of the air.

My wife stopped next to a tree. She rose her fist and hit it. Half of the tree broke and fell to the ground. I saw how several leaves and branches flew in all directions. My wife was very happy. I started to feel I was going to wake, I tried to spin but I woke up.

I had a FA in my room. My wife was saying, "Do not hit me, do not hit me" I woke her up and told her it was not me. She replied, "Yes, you were lucid!" I told her it was my DC, that I awoke after she broke the tree. I woke up for real.

My wife never recalls dreams and she was not able to recall this one. Her DC acted and thinked with a lot of sense, never seen a DC acting and thinking that well. My wife was able to talk about stuff from waking, which means more evidence that she might had a lucid dream share with me.

Missed Dream Signs:
- None.

Notice dream Signs:
- The yoga professor did not wear underwear.

Reality Check Performed:
- Hand check.

18.08.2010

Bully attack - 2nd Flight to the moon canceled by my cat (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

A more decent night. Hopefully my subconscious is digesting all the new changes in my professional waking life. One fragment and two lucids.

Second:

I was like in a school. I was going to attend a class about meditation and chakras. I was waiting outside and I was eating a dish of meat and potatoes made in the slow cooker. A 50 years old DC approached at me, entered the class and adviced me to join the class because it was about to start. I felt the class was going to be empty, as I saw no one joining it. I entered the class with my dish and found out that the class was crowed. I saw a lot DC that were copies of other classroom mates that I had at junior school.

One of the bullies critiqued my food and start laughing at me. I ignored the bully and he good mad. I did not feel threatened so I kept eating. He threw a punch towards me, however, I rose my arm and stopped his punch without even blinking. I hit him back and he got even more mad so he attacked a weaker DC.

He grabbed the DC on his legs and he started to spin. I felt he was trying to throw him at me, and he did. The dream was now in slow motion, more like Matrix effect. I saw the thrown guy coming at me. I avoided him Matrix style and he crushed with other folks. The dream banished and the scenery changed.

I was outdoors and I knew I was dreaming. I was in a big plaza and I saw a few DC. They were odd looking but they ignored me. I wanted to do a RC to make sure it was a dream, my hands looked OK, a little blurry but OK. I jumped about 10-12 feet easily.

I felt the dream was stable so I decided to fly to the moon and visit Nomad. As I was flying to the moon, I felt like something furry was moving around my legs. I wondered what was going on and my dream started to fade. I had double conscious for a few seconds until I woke up. My cat was purring around my legs asking for some love.

Missed Dream Signs:
- Junior school's classmates.
- The Matrix effect.

Noticed Dream Signs:
- None.

Reality Check Performed:
- None. Turned lucid without reason.

This was the most vivid / frightening dream I have had in quite a while.

First thought of the dream was me standing in the desert in the 3rd person. Me and 2 others were standing infront of our semi trucks in the middle of a vast desert. I was on the left. As being viewed from above to the left and behind the semi's. There were a group of men dressed as the taliban (one piece clothes and face masks.) Apparently I was able to undersand them however I dont recall them actually talking. We were to be executed. Once again I had the feeling that I was a truck driver in a convoy in either Iraq or Afginaistan. As I waited to be executed I 100% believed I was about to die. In my dream I was in complete fear that I was going to be shot. I started thinking and hoping it wouldnt hurt, saying to myself over and over "please dont hurt, please dont hurt" and was having a hard time remembering my wife, friends and family to tell them I loved them before I died. I wanted to say good by to them, however I was so scared I was having trouble remembering them.

I was then in the 1st person. and then remember ducking behind my open driver side door. In the dream I knew the gun fire had started but I dont remember hearing any sounds. It seems as if a couple seconds had passed and I felt as though I knew the other 2 drivers were dead, and I was about to peek my head out from around the truck, when my alarm went off.

I have the "sleep cycle" app on my iphone which supposedly wakes you up at a optimal sleep time. This is what happened and was woken up 20 minutes prior to what time I normally would. I was so realeaved to just be dreaming that I jumped out of bed and began my day. Not realizing till 1/2 through my shower that I was awake 20 minutes early.

This dream was almost a week ago but has really stuck with me. I think because it was the most scared I have been in a dream in quite a long time. I was 100% convinced I was about to die. However I wouldn't classify it as a nightmare.

My dreams are fixed again.

1. We were in a contest where the loser had everything in their house destroyed by a robot. I'm not sure what the winner got, but I lost the contest. A robot came and destroyed a flat screen television, a couch, and a chair. While it was destroying the house, I was hoarding garden gnomes in my basement so the robot couldn't get them. Sadly, the robot busted down the door and destroyed all of my garden gnomes.

2. I went to see Harry Potter: Order of the Phoenix in theaters. I gave the guy my ticket, but he said that since the movie technically didn't come to theaters for another 5 seconds, I couldn't see the movie. I basically ignored him and went and saw the movie anyway. I got in there, but it definately wasn't Harry Potter. It was something else. I don't remember anything, nor was it a lucid dream, but it all felt so real. I can't really explain it.

3. I had two of the same dog (I have two dogs, but in the dream I had two of the same dog). One was a demon, and one was the real dog. I had to decide which was which, and I did this by their dog tags (my dog doesn't wear a dog tag). The demon had a smiley face on his dog tag, while I knew that my dog does not have a smiley face on his.

I can remember absolutely nothing!

I think my dreams are broken.