non-lucid

5/22/14

10:49 a.m. non-lucid

Dream my husband and I adopted a little boy while in Japan. At first he was ~3 yrs and needed a car seat, but then some point in the dream he was ~9 years old. Him adopting the boy made me feel like my husband finally accepted my fear of giving birth and wanting to adopt instead. I was a little worried what others would think, since we were young, but I already loved the boy.

Yoshi was driving, backing out of the parking lot, but I was telling him we need to put in his car seat first. Eventually we did and things were fine but I told him next time he needs to stop right away.

The little boy was actually born in America. We spoke both English and Japanese together. He looked either half or not Japanese at all, but had dark hair. I loved him as my own son. I wondered how to enroll him in school in America.

In the following dream I dream journaled the dream above and then transitioned into the next dream, which was also set in Japan.

In this dream, I was babysitting the girl I nanny while in Japan. During part of the dream, I was watching My Little Pony with the girl. Her father commented why are there only girls in the new generation of MLP. I commented back, you only say that because you're not used to women as rulers and the majority. He and the girl's mom laughed and he admitted that's true. The girl's mom says she doesn't get why young adults like MLP, and then comments at least it's better than the filth on Adult Swim. Then she apologizes and says, oh, but don't you like MLP. She asks whether I really like it or am sending a message through liking it. I was unsure how to answer, but thought in the dream both.

a bunch of people were out from smif when Joel told me he had never submitted my application. i got really upset and told him i was really offended as i had expected he had turned in my resume. i assumed they had viewed it. then i wheeled on him at the dinner table and people got madd at me for disrupting the dinner. afterwords i tried to submit my application at tthe dinner table

next part i was on like an island or some place with a bunch of guys. we all were apparently enlisting into the military. we were trying to pass the basic training. i cant remember exactly how it went but at one point we were all looking through the scope of a sniper zooming in on people. we all passed the recruitment and got backpacks from the army afterword.

i remember being out floating on a lank, but the land had really strong currents and sucked me away to the other side of the canyon. i was trying to reach mellisa who was on the other side. she floated over to me real quick and we layed on the sand next to eachother. i loved that. she showed me through her bonaculars this huge cavana type thing that these dudues were sitting under. she fired a warning shot at them so they would leave her property..

later i got searched by some guy who was related to mellisa. he hand cuffed me and searched my really thourugly some of the spots tickled. they let me out afterword and they were all like oh wow his luagh sounds just like sos an so.

then after Matt jajeh and i were hanging ou[t and a lmo pulls up for the prom..jaq warner and her sister jen get in. the limo had very little space so i was actually really close to jaq. then i saw jaq had a presnt which she thanked me for, then iwas like wtf i didnt get you a present. but then i riead this card which had like a farewell letter to it...it was talkinga bout how i was going to relapse and was basically a suicide note but instead of suicide it was a relapse note. i wrote this on jaquelines gift bag.

later we were all at a roaller coaster ride and the guy strapped me in really weirdly so that my head facing the the wrong direction as if i was strapped on a torture board. it was a really funny ride, then after the ride there was a video game portion where u had to skateboard off and up the rapm, i couldnt get enough speeed though and i lost the rrace.

afterwrod jackie warner took us on this trippy psychedlic ride that went through all this weird aciidy shit like bat caves that glowed and weird rocky strucgures

5.22.14

Last night bed before 10pm - 5:40am

DR 12:30am

I memorized this dream when I woke up, then retold everytime I woke up, still remembered when I sat down in the morning to write it down, but had something more pressing to do, and now I don't remember it.

DR later on
A large group of people, mostly kids. We are walking someplace to escape. The territory is hostile. All kinds of weird things. We come up to an elevated train track. We are walking on the right side of it. There is some kind of a cloth attached to it, which makes a tunnel alongside the tracks. We are walking through it. A modern, electric train comes up and it acts like cartoon train. It's alive. It wants to hurt us. So I tell everybody we need to walk slowly, so we don't move the cloth, and breathe quietly, coz the train is looking for us. If he finds us, he will dump some hot or dangerous liquid on us.

DR
We are paddling on a shallow lake, that looks like waters around Miami. (Watched a few episodes of Burn notice last night, just before bed). There are aligators attacking the boat and we are hitting them with paddles. Further down, less water, almost dry, not sure if still in the boat. But now we are hitting some green, mamba looking snakes on the head.

DR
We are escaping through hostile house. Again group of people, mostly kids. We find all kinds of openings to squeeze through. I think we are much smaller in size, or something is really weird. A woman shows up, she lives there. One of the kids goes into kids room, sits on a bed full of plush animals and says that he wants to stay there, not escping anymore. We tell him it's a deception, it's a bad house, we know he is tired from running, but he can't stay there.

I'm talking with all my friends about how people have a difficult time finding a person to love, and when they do, unimportant things such as physical appearance can get in the way. Then I mention something about the possibility of finding someone who you're not only emotionally / personalityally attracted to, but also physically, and then you needn't worry about that.

After I finish saying that, I look around, and am outside at night, standing in a circle of friends, on some grass. It is warm out, and the sky is amazingly speckled with stars. To my left is a girl I have a crush on irl. We make eye contact, and I grab onto her hand. She begins spinning me around her holding onto my hand. My feet are off the ground as I fly in circles around her. I tell her it's making me dizzy, but I don't want to stop.

I'm talking with my dad and step mom, about the benefits and detriments of technology. I tell them how, "Our technological gadgets aren't free, someone has to make them." and how it's kind of a hoarding of resources that doesn't actually help us. Sure it saves us time and makes things more convenient, but without any technological gadgets at all, we wouldn't have so much stuff to do, making the need to save time absurd. While our conveniences only serve to make us weaker, instead of stronger, as it is difficult things that increase our strength, whether physically or mentally. Being able to just press a button to turn on a machine that does what we want for us, encourages us to just sit around, and be inactive. Being inactive, our muscles whither away, and our minds lose their edge. However, there are indeed many applications for our technological gadgets where we would be unable to do something without them. But these applications too are also unnecessary, as all we really need is food, water, air, and shelter. None of which require gadgetry. As I tell them of this position against technology, a look comes over their faces as if they've never heard this argument before.

I am walking through a forest when I spot a Hippopotamus not too far away from me. I think, "wow, a Hippo!" and then it charges straight towards me. Recalling how dangerous they are, and that they've been known to eat people, I take off running as fast as I can in the opposite direction.

Ducking under trees, and going around larger trees, I hear the hippo smash through all in its way, barreling towards me at a very high speed. I duck under some thicker brush, and go around a few more trees, and spot a group of wooden huts nearby, and cloth tents a few hundred feet ahead, behind some more trees.

I dive into one of the huts, the door of which is so low, that despite my crawling into it, I knock one of the logs down from the top of the door. I place the log on the bottom of the door to hide my view from the hippo, and look around the inside of this hut. It is so low to the ground, that I can't go any higher than the prone position, and there are 6 total entrances / exits evenly spaced around the walls, allowing a clear view inside. But it is dark, so I feel comfortably hidden.

After some time, I feel it is time to check to see if it's safe to exit the hut. I look out one of the back doors, and see a bunch of cameras all around. One of which is pointing right at me, with a red light on a light post under it. I slowly crawl further and further out, looking around the outside of the hut towards where the hippo was, and see its tail swing back and forth. Suddenly, it gets up and starts running right towards me.

I grab another log and block one of the larger entrances, to conceal myself further, and watch as the hippo runs past this hut. I not notice another door that provides a clear view to me, and grab the last log I just used to block the other entrance.

The hippo starts running back before I can set it down, so I hold it up to the door and slowly rotate it to face the hippo, being behind it the whole time. This doesn't trick her, and she charges the hut. I drop the log and scramble out of the door before she plows through the wall and ends up in the center of the hut, confused and trapped briefly.

I hear my mom yell to me, "I have groceries, where are you?" I try to yell back to her, but I have a whole bunch of random crap in my mouth. I pull two retainers, and a mouth guard out of my mouth, but still can't seem to make any words. I see her walk up to me now, and I bang on a log, pointing at the hippo, giving her a look that says, "Get out of here". I finally find words, and yell, "Run!"

The hippo breaks out of the collapsed hut and charges at me again. I run towards home, throwing nearby logs into the hippo's face to try and deter her, but it doesn't seem to phase her at all. As I pass grocery bags my mom has dropped or left for me, I grab large canned goods, and throw those into the hippo's face as well, but this too doesn't stop her.

With no where else to go, I run into the garage with the hippo close behind. I open the door to the basement and run inside. Before I can shut the door, the hippo is inside with me. My dog barks at her, as she looks around the room briefly before continuing her charge at me.

I run up the stairs, yelling to my mom, "Hippos can't go up stairs, we should be safe here." But no sooner did I get those words out of my mouth than I see the hippo galloping up the stairs behind me. I attempt to close the basement door on her, but it is very flimsy, and has a window that she is staring at me through. She starts pushing the door, and door frame out of position, so I open it to avoid unnecessary damage to the house, and run through the living room and out the door to the back porch.

The hippo still right behind me, I loop back into the garage, running past a moose who is just standing there, watching all this. Hippo still at my heels, I run into the basement and up the stairs to the living room as fast as I can. I tell my mom to watch out, as I stand in the doorway to the back porch with the door open, and watch the basement door.

Moments later, I see the hippo's head round the corner. Seeing me, she charges again. I stand still until a moment before impact, and jump, pushing myself off of the hippo's head, jumping clear over her, as her momentum carries her outside the house and down the porch. I quickly close the door behind her as thoughts race through my mind such as, 'I hope she doesn't try to charge back in through this door' and 'How am I going to get that moose out of our basement?'

I look at my mom and tell her, "I feel like Steve Erwin."

I am supposed to kill a woman who is with me, but before I can even think about that, I am attacked by each type of Halo alien from the game. Luckily I have a rocket launcher, a rail gun, and a machine gun with me, and manage to fight them off. Nearly out of ammo, a large machine that fires a rail gun comes in, and starts shooting at me.

I see that I had 2 team mates, but they didn't survive the first waves. Now out of ammo for all but the rail gun, I shoot this machine so many times with it, until it finally collapses.

A second one comes in, and I use the rest of the rail gun ammo, as I dodge its shots to finish it off. I am now completely out of ammo.

The woman shows me to some bricks I could use to smash her head, but I don't want to kill her. I then find a large knife in my pocket, and she tells me to cut her throat. She then grabs me and we start dancing in a dark room, filled with strangers. She puts the my hand with the knife to her neck, and tells me to do it, but I decline.

Some people pull at the knife I am holding, trying to get it away from me, but I hold onto it, and continue to dance with this woman. I put the knife in its sheath, and pull a paper out of my pocket.

I am now back in the room with Halo monster corpses all around, and a greenish blue lighting coming from somewhere. A friend of mine takes the paper from my hand and stabs at a woman's face on it, telling me to do the same to this woman. I poke a few holes in the paper, and then notice that I don't see the woman anywhere on the page.

I flip the paper over, and it has the Starcraft tech tree on the back, showing all the units and buildings for each of the 3 races, including a video of the Protoss destroying a Terran base. I explain to someone which race each of the units belongs to, and they are confused by the Zerg operated Terran units. I start to explain how the queen can infect a command center.

I'm standing in a green field, with the sun overhead. I encounter a girl and a feeling of love washes over me. We grab each other and kiss. She then looks slightly surprised and tells me, "I didn't think you had it in you."

I'm playing a game similar to Fury, where you can pick between different styles of character, each with separate item sets and skills. There is a portal to use to enter battles with other players. I still have beginner items, and am a low level. There are also a few random creatures around outside the portal. I switch to the one that can stealth (go invisible) and begin equipping some of the better gear I have in my inventory, but as I do so, I realize a match has already begun, however I don't have any weapon equipped. I end up equipping scissors, and a pen, and rush over to help my team mate. We end up losing, and are then outside the portal again.

Now with better items equipped, I notice two wolves / dogs behind the portal, I mouse over one and see he's level one. I think it'll be an easy kill, so I stealth over, but then notice there is also a level 6, my level. I try to stealth up behind that one, but he turns to face me, and it is clear I won't get a surprise attack. Spamming the attack button, I end up hitting the level 1, and back off, pulling just that one away. I finish that one off, and return for the level 6.

Ryan tells me, "If you can kill that one, we can finally see what's behind the portal in that direction. Having played the game for a lot longer than I have, I wonder why no one else has managed to kill the level 6 dog.

I am now in place of the character I was playing, and reach out to grab the dog. He tries to bite me, but I grab him just under the jaw, so he can't get his lower teeth under my hand. He is a small brown dog, with very vicious looking sharp teeth, angry eyes, and half floppy pug style ears. I hear Ryan say, "be careful, that think will tear you to pieces." Noticing the viciousness of it's attempts to break free of my hold, and bite into my hand, I can't help but worry about letting him loose accidentally.

I tighten my hold, and as he tries to break free, wiggling all over, I follow his movements and end up holding him up against a wall, in a choke hold. Although this does not deter him one bit, as he still struggles intensely to rip me apart, but can't due to me pinning him in place. I get a better position, and he realizes his struggling won't free him, so he pees and shits everywhere. I don't even look down, although I feel the piss on my legs, I stare the dog in the eyes.

He then talks to me, saying, "I don't want to hurt you." I tell him I don't want to hurt him either, and let him down. He sniffs my hand and then licks it before running back to where he was originally behind the portal. I now look down and see big wet stains on my pants, and goat turds all around.

Ryan approaches the dog, but is immediately met with snarling and an attack position by the dog. He decides against fighting it. I walk past him, and he lets me pet him and scratch him behind the ears.

I'm walking down the hall in my dorm room, on my way to watch the new Star Wars movie. I see one of my friends in his room as I pass, and ask him about it. He asks which one it is, and I tell him it's the fourth, although technically it's the 7th one. Someone else walking through the hall overhears our conversation and tells me, "That one is lame. Skywalker goes off on some mission, and you never hear what happens with it, then the rest of it is just boring stuff." "That is lame." I tell him. My other friend agrees that it's not one of the better ones.

I continue down the hall and approaching my door, see 3 girls standing around it and talking to each other. I give them a friendly smile and half a nod, as I open my door, and side step past them into my room.

I climb into bed to watch the movie, but it is being projected onto my room mate's chest, as he's laying down. I think, "This is a really awkward way to see a movie" as I sit back up to see the 'projection screen.' I decide that it is indeed too awkward a way to watch a movie, and get out of bed.

Other people come into my room now, and begin talking about something. I join in, and then am hit with a huge wave of ocean water, that quickly submerges me over my head. I have been holding onto something, but have to let go of it to swim up to the surface and breathe. Once at the surface, I wipe some of the salt water from my eyes, then open them. Jelani from one of my classes is there, and we're all treading water in the ocean that is in my room, still with my walls, but with a higher ceiling to accommodate the raised water level. Some more large waves come through, but I tread water and remain on the surface, rising and falling as they pass.

The water disappears suddenly, and an invisible force is holding me hovering in the air, by my feet. I am asked questions, and talk to people as I am swung around my room by my feet. There are many attractive women in my room as well, and I get opportunities to see things from certain angles that don't come very often, yet don't take them, instead focusing on their faces and what they're telling me.

I now feel the force switch from holding onto my feet, to holding onto only my two big toes. It is more of an intense feeling, like when your toe is about to crack, but you don't crack it. Almost painful, yet bearable. More of an intense pressure, or pulling sensation. I am still swung around the room by this invisible force.

I am allowed to hover nearby someone sitting on the heater near the window, and he asks me what makes the squeaking noise. I rub my hands together until they make a semi-squeaking noise and tell him, "being squeaky clean." before I am pulled off into more circles around the room.

I am ominously watching myself flying a space ship from about 15 meters outside the cockpit. I am docked on a large orange/brown asteroid in a star-wars looking space ship. I hear a crackled radio message from Yoda saying, "Your fear is an illusion that you can break from. Come to Mars and I will show you how."

Apprehensive at first, I turn the ship around. Nearby, is an identical ship, with my frozen corpse inside of it, that my live self doesn't see. Still docked on the massive asteroid, I increase the throttle of the ship, propelling both ship and asteroid out into space towards mars with a lot of speed. A few seconds later, the rock I'm docked on smashes another huge rock into pieces as it flies through. I see the ship's after burners as both rock and ship disappear into space.

While trying to stay awake, but falling asleep every 30 seconds...

~I'm standing in Brennans pub, filling up a cup with soda from the fountain. I notice a girl is standing nearby.

~I'm standing up, holding a giant blue freeze pop over my head, dripping the tasty juice into my mouth. Once drained, I push it up and bite a chunk off.

~I'm looking down at the frisbee I'm holding in my hands

~I'm walking past the electrical engineering lab doorway, and look inside to see a table in the first room up against the wall.

~I'm walking around outside, it's sunny out, I hear birds chirping, and see some fly past me.

~I see David wearing a green jacket, a bandanna type hat, and dreads, he's smiling.

~I'm walking past one of the physics buildings, with my right hand out stretched, feeling the bushes pass underneath it as I go by. It's dark out, but the road to my left is well lit by the lights.

~I see a blue, red, white, gray, and pink, spiral pattern slowly spinning in a glitteringly black background.

~I see a streak / flash, sort of like lightning, only more colorful, and in a completely black background.

After each one, I wrote down what I could right away. If I waited more than a few seconds, I would forget what the dream was about. None lasted longer than 2 seconds.

I'm in a driving car, with my mom's boyfriend, on our way to see my mom's new house. We drive through some windy roads through the woods. Going around a familiar corner, I tell him, "I was going 50 mph on this road one time, and this corner nearly killed me!" as he slows down to 25 mph for a sharp bend in the road. "Don't tell me stuff like that, that you haven't told your mom." he tells me. I say to him, "Alright, it was when I was learning to drive though."

Ahead of us, I see a huge hill, on top of which is a house. "That's it." he says as we drive closer, and pull up the driveway to it. It looks very similar to our old house [our current house], only the hill it is on is very steep. We have 1 neighbor very close by, within spitting distance, but not another house in sight otherwise.

I drag my bags up to the top floor where my room is and begin unpacking. While moving some things around, I notice that the house is missing a large portion of its roof, but not the part where my room is. I think to myself, "I guess we'll just have to go to this side of the house when it rains"

I look out my window, and see our goat, whom I named, "Turd Furgeson" walking on some horizontal trees, hanging 30 feet over a 50 foot drop to a steep hill with loads of trees. He walks casually very far out onto the limbs, and eats the leaves out at the end. I yell to my mom to "Look out the window at Turd Furgeson!" and reach for my camera.

I turn my camera on, and look back out the window just in time to see Turd Furgeson return back to solid ground. "I'm glad he didn't fall" I think as he starts wandering around our yard again.

I go outside to visit the goat and the horse, and see my mom shoveling a bunch of horse poop, and piss drenched hay down one side of the very steep bank near our house, the side opposite of our neighbor. Not seeing the horse or goat, I decide to go for a jog down the road to explore the surrounding area. Finding nothing but dense woods, I decide to turn back and head home before it gets too dark.

On the way back, I run into our neighbor, who immediately gives me the creeps, and asks to see what we've done to the house. He follows me up the driveway, and acts kind of weird. Once we are at the house, my mom comes over and our neighbor tells her that we are being too loud. I look to my right and see his house less than 30 feet away from ours, with a shared yard space in between them, and less than sound-proof looking walls. My mom also has a bunch of friends and relatives over, as well as my ex-step aunt and uncle.

My mom and I are inside the house, as everyone else is outside in the yard, clearly visible through a double glass door that is open. My aunt tells everyone to pose for a picture in the back yard. I watch from inside as everyone lines up for her. My mom tells me I should go join them, but before I do, my aunt and uncle, with four of their friends pull guns on everyone and tell them not to move or they'll be shot.

I run upstairs to my room to think of some sort of plan for what to do. My mom doesn't have any ideas, and stands in our living room frozen. I go back downstairs and we decide to light the wood stove on fire to cause a smokey distraction, and make them think that the house is on fire. I go over to the wood stove, and pull two wires out of the wall, accidentally shocking myself with them a few times. I cross them in the back of the wood stove, causing sparks. Soon, it is on fire, and smoking. We grab a nearby chair and catch it on fire as well, then put it on the back porch where it sends up a bit of smoke, but then goes out relatively quickly.

My aunt and someone else walk by the back porch and point their guns at us. My mom yells to them, "Just shoot me and get it over with!" I tell her, "Don't say things like that, you'll probably get shot" My aunt then fires three shots right next to us, before walking back over to her hostages, without saying a word.

I go back upstairs and rummage through my drawers for all the bottle rockets and smoke bombs that I have. I also grab a knife with a hammer end on the grip. I look outside my window. It is dark outside now, and there are 6 people with guns holding about a dozen others hostage. I go downstairs and tell my mom, "I'm going to light the bottle rockets from one side of the house, then run in from the other side of the house and knock someone unconscious with this knife." She doesn't want to do anything at all.

Slightly frustrated that it will be just me, I go back upstairs to my room to find my night vision goggles so I can see where everyone is more clearly. I grab them, then go outside, and creep up nearby in the woods, where I can see the hostages still standing at gunpoint.

Two parts to this dream.

In the first part there is something to do with mini go-karts or remote controlled cars in a forest. Also a four room building where people rotate through the rooms or something.

Second part takes place in a city that's been destroyed, but I do not know by what. People are scrambling for supplies to survive. There is one train that runs through the center of town. I don't know where it goes but it frequently hits people crossing the tracks or people commit suicide by standing in front of it. I don't know where the terminal is because it never stops, even when it hits someone.

The buildings are mostly destroyed or empty and many people have gathered together in groups for survival, often attacking other groups to steal their supplies. I am on my own and every day I am afraid of being attacked or killed. One day two men armed with electric drills try to attack me but I am able to disarm them and get away. I run into a large building and find a doctor (A Middle Eastern man with white hair and a white goatee) there who is helping anyone he can and has a small shop where he lets people underpay for many things. Most of the food however is gone. His volunteers find crates of Kraft Dinner and Mr. Noodle Ramen and I trade a small green pencil and the promise of being a volunteer later for one of each. I have to argue with a Chinese looking lady at first, who I think is the doctor's whife, who wants to give me a small fist size ball of rice for the small amount of money I have, because she doesn't want to give me the boxes of food.

I set out from that place with my food hidden inside a garbage bag and forget my shoes and have to go back for them. It is dark and I don't know how I am going to get home in the dark and alone without being robbed or killed. Dream ends after I leave the doctor's store and head out into the darkness of the destroyed city.

Looking for a place to lay down, I follow a girl around to be sure she's okay. I feel like if I let her go on her own, there will be trouble, and I'll have to run back to help anyway, only I'll be too late.

In a crowded room of people all sleeping on couches and the floor, I am looking after this pregnant woman who seems concerned about giving birth. I wish I could help her somehow, and am suddenly in her shoes, pregnant. I feel some pressure as I realize that the baby has to come out now, no delay. So I lay on my back and push. Like pushing out a turd when the turd is coming no matter what. It actually felt a lot like pooping. I reached down to help the baby out, and instead of a baby, it was a warm, brown puppy! A friendly puppy with big floppy ears, full of energy. He jumped up, and immediately started running around. Someone behind me grabbed him and told me he's theirs not mine. "But I just gave birth to him!"