non-lucid

vaguely remember hanging out with alec for a little bit. can't quite remember anythind about the dream other thenbeing in a wilderness camping type of place. seeing some girl who was lke o heeyyy matt

*It was a little bit stressful day, I was more tired than usual. I got to write some notes. It was what I got:

- .../chimps, like porn actors who don't know how to think but how to reproduce...

- .../a police officer in civil clothes tries to follow me. I let him to get confused and lost away...

- .../I see some people gathered like in a TV show. It's something about a game of telling stories. They broke up the vessels. That way, there's no sequel, just 2 episodes...

- .../It's once again the creepy lady's house where I rented a room, it's mixed with one side of the stairs of my school. I'm playing with some cards on a drawing table. then I'm talking with one of my new neighbors who is testing me. Then he dives into the water that appears around the table. I see him getting back dressed in a Fred Flintstone costume. It looks similar although the feet don't match, it's like an inflated rubber costume. He pretends to push the table-boat using his feet to propel the way the cartoons do to move their cars. I laugh because of his feet got stuck inside the costume, at the end it gets deflated on the table with a pair of scratches in the feet, when the real Fred Flintstone jumps out of the water yelling his classic "yabba dabba doo". Then he propels our boat and his boat with that funny movement of the feet. I end standing on the upper side of the stairs which is adjacent to a window. I see from above a couple going upstairs, to the room which is one level down from my point of view. He looks like Woody Allen and he's talking about a test I have to take by killing somebody. That idea disgusts me, I see them reach the door and get in, my Aunt-mom lets them in. Next to me, there's a woman speaking something about Architecture. I realize she forgot to mention something about the walls. I see her graphic floating on the air, then she splits it in two, explaining something about its design. It's like a tutorial or some...

- .../I hit like in a post, then my wife asks me how could I do that if that's a racist post. I review it once again. It's on a newspaper which shows some pictures of a sad Batman comic. I scroll down the comment to read more. It shows a progression of pictures that lead to some UFO's flying on the pyramids. I couldn't like something like that! I should have read it all first, how stupid! Then I want to write an idea which should stand for something like "in order to dislike some facebook post, one must like it first". We are sitting on a table in a park. There are clothes racks with white sheets all around. I cannot write the idea on the paper. Then my wife tells me I have to hurry up because of the bus is coming. I try to write it down with no success. Then she stands up and goes to the bus station. I want to put all my things back in my bag, but it's all a mess on the table. I know I'm missing the bus and she told me she's leaving without me if I'm not ready. I see the bus, and realize it'll be impossible to put all the things inside the bag, I want to pick all things together up and arrange them in the bus, but my mp3 player and some other things are still on the table. I give up, I miss the bus, feeling horrible. I think I can reach the other station first but I don't know how. I leave the things fall on the floor, thinking for what should I do now. I think perhaps I should wait for her at home until she gets back, I'm confused...

I don't actually remember much of anything. I'm pretty sure the girl I like was involved and that it was a good dream.

Yesterday I could again not recall my dream. But today, I could recall a lot.

Fragment 1:
IRL the ink of my printer has to be replaced, I am the only one that knows, because I keep forgetting to tell my dad to get ink. But I dreamed that I was on my laptop watching Youtube video's and my father printed something and the paper came out white, but with a purple square on it (IRL only the black ink has to be replaced, the colored ink is still full). My father showed me the papers he just printed and said 'Yes, ink has to be replaced.'. Which is weird because I hadn't told him in my dream (or IRL) that the ink had to be replaced.

Dream/nightmare:This dream shows my exam stress
I was in the classroom were I have to take my exams IRL next week. I was given my English exam and already started making it, but when I looked up the teacher was still talking and nobody was writing. I slowly closed my test and listen to the teacher explaining I couldn't write on my test, only on my answers-paper. I panicked because I wrote on my test and I didn't have a answers-paper. Than everybody started and I asked for the answers-paper. For some reason I was sitting in a different seat right now. First I was sitting front row in the middle, now I was front row next to the windows. The woman gave me a paper, but it wasn't the answer-paper, it was just a paper to take notes. I had a notepad with me (IRL you can't have that with you when you are making your exams), and started making the test. I turned around to look at the clock and it was huge and I still had enough time left. Than there was something wrong with my calculator (why I needed a calculator for my English exam, I don't know). So I raised my hand and a teacher (a tall small, dress wearing, grey short 'curly' haired) came and I asked her for another calculator and a answers-paper. She gave me a calculator, but not a answers-paper. Than I was hot, because I was wearing a thick scarf and a winter coat. Than all of the sudden it was okay, I was wearing a thin scarf and just a T-shirt. I got passed a note, almost like a homemade greeting card, from the gray haired teacher. It said I was to loud and I wasn't going to finish the test and I should stop asking for paper and stuff and I was awful kid. I was so shocked and so panicked I didn't react. I looked on the clock and thought I still had an hour, but the other male teacher stood up and said that we just had ten minutes. I panicked again. I raised my hand and the gray haired teacher gave me the answers-paper without talking.
As a mad men I started to take over my answers from my note pad to my answers-paper. But I found out that the test had to parts and I only made the second part, but both assignments started counting at number 1. So I had only made the second part. In five minutes or so I made the first part.
Then my dream ended.

Fragment 2:
I was on the stage with two other classmates in front of all my classmates and their (and mine) parents and grandpa's and grandma's and uncles and aunts. It was graduation day and I was getting my diploma and now a teacher was going to say something about me and my other classmates that were on stage.

Fragment 3: followup of my dream
I handed in the paper and collected my writing stuff and walked out of the classroom.


So this dream clearly shows my anxiety's, but when I woke up I felt really confident t that I would make my exams well and that I would graduate.

I was in some rural type area on a bridge and I was also watching something on a war. After, I grabbed a mask from the movie and put it on. The plastic hurt me since it didn't conform to my face. I jumped off the bridge and landed on the ground on my stomach. I was then in a house with girls arguing over some other war movie. I left and was walking home. I came up to what I knew was Denise's house and entered through the open garage. I thought someone was home because it was open but upon looking around, another car was blocking the garage door from closing. I saw a man and his family come up and I turned around and put my gun in my pants. The man asked me to take a picture of him and his family with his camera that was the instant print ones but with digital controls. I was messing with the controls for a little bit.

I was at this cute little chapel meeting Dad. It seemed odd that he would come to a church so different from the one he normally attends. Most of the congregation seemed eager to meet me when they realized who my dad was. They were having some type of bake sale, except they were selling salads instead of baked goods. I purchased a potato salad just to be nice. As I was leaving the chapel, I took a look around and thought about how it would be a cute place to get married.

Once I was outside, Dad started criticizing me for buying the potato salad. He kept going on about how it had been sitting out for too long and would give me food poisoning. I threw it away and climbed into my car, eager to get away.

The exit to the parking lot apparently went the wrong way down a one-way street, so I made a right turn into an unfamiliar neighborhood. On my right was a playground. There was a lot of snow on the ground and I could hear children playing, although I couldn't see any. That seemed a little odd, and I worried about hitting a child if I couldn't see them coming. I pulled over at this house on the left. There was an older woman named Helen who lived there, and apparently she was a friend of mine. There was a corner of the house where there was no roof, and she was complaining about how snow somehow kept coming into that room (because there's no roof, duh!). I was about to suggest that she hang some sort of tarp and install a floor drain so that the water had somewhere to go when the snow melted.

5/4/14 Sunday

Last night bed around 9pm - 4:50am

DR:
I'm someplace that feels like school or dormitory. Something happens and I'm desperate to get back to where I was before. I pack my stuff and walk to the bus stop. I'm asking some people if they know what time is the bus coming.

Bus stop was on side of the side road. Road surface is all cracked, the bus schedule on a pole is obstructed from view with overgrown weed. I see the main road ahead, but it's also deserted.

I remember I got there from the city by a bus. So I'm looking through bushes if I see my bus number on the schedule. I have to climb the pole t get a better view.

Then I remember I got there kinda walking and hitchhiking and I kick myself to even going there, if I knew I will not be able to get back from there.

Bus comes and I ask the driver if he goes where I need to go, or at least if it will take me closer. (The problem in these dreams is, that I never remember where I need to go). I figure I can't stay there, so I better get on no matter where he is going. Now I find out I don't have any money and driver is kicking me off. I beg and cry and somehow he lets me ride. (bad feeling from the dream allover)

DR:
I'm home, visiting. I'm there for only few days and have to get back here in 2-3 days. Bad feeling, because something happened. Not sure what. I'm talking with mom and I'm asking her if she wants to keep the beef jerky and some candy bars, or if I should take them.

My dream started off with me and this blonde with glasses trying to get to a train that's supposed to take us somewhere important. Finally making it on the train I think I left that guy behind. But when we stopped, everyone had to get off for the lay over. The guy reappeared again and was walking with me down a fashion strip. There was a group in a car following us making fun of the conductor and us. The conductor goes on ahead and we continue to talk about things that I don't remember. Suddenly beautiful white dress start appearing. I even stop for one them really excited. It was a strapless dress with slanted ruffles. Going back to the train it leaves us there, we tried running after it but never caught up. Then my dream changed, I was in CVS with aunt waiting on my brother and then I woke up.

Date: May 4
Sleep length: 3h + 5h
Techniques: DILD + WBTB
Dream Summary:
(pre) at first, I remembered another dream because of this dream. dream (1) is a sequel of this dream: I was in a forest with a friend of mine. We used to do drugs in a certain forest, but this time we didn't. It looked like autumn, everything was red. We were at a big hollow and suddenly we noticed a police officer with a drug dog. We laughed and said "Luckily we don't have drugs"
(1) well guess what happens in now. We are at this hollow again, and he got some weird drug. It was mixed with coffee for some reason... He hasn't told me which drug he used though. I thought it was Meth or Cocaine. The effect was more like Weed and a bit Acid though. I blacked out for a moment, when I woke up the drug-mug was under the bench we were sitting on and we were blown away. I tried to stand up and fell down. I was trying to throw away some weird empty blunt which was covered in a yellow liquid. Then we wanted to go away, but of course there was this drug dog again, as expected. We wanted to go away without him noticing, but he already smelled us so we started running. Here's the action part of this dream. I was running and thinking and I thought I was gonna get some "police letter" and I was also kinda afraid of this dog. I realized it's probably too late and turned around. I wanted to keep my dignity. But I couldn't find the police, so I just turned around again and started running again. I ran through the red forest to a field and gradually woke up. When I woke up I continued thinking about running, until I realized it's a dream and I should write it down.
(2) When I was writing (1), I remembered (2). I was playing pokemon like back when I was a kid. It was fun, I tried to catch a rare pokemon. I went to my balcony to play there, it was night and pretty dark. This is really just a fragment, I was hearing voices from a room with an opened window. It was my mother and a guest.
Vividness/Awareness: 8/2
Emotions: trust - indifference - shock - fear - worry - guilt
Tags: drug, coffee mug, forest, autumn, police dog, running;; balcony, pokemon

Me and my brother were complaining about how we hate the gang members in our house. We wanted them to leave so I decided to go downstairs to confront them. There were detective in the living room so I went inside my Father room and there they were, I walk in without bothering either of them as I see they are beating up 1 person so I walk pass by to only get hit in my stomach. Once they did that I grab a large blue scissor as I attempt to stab him with it however push himself back. That's when he pulled a gun and told me what am I going to do now and what will I say now. I look at the gun thinking how many times has this happen to me where I am fighting someone and then this gun comes in to my face, why? The guy began threating say he was going to kill me as he sent one of his other gang members to close the door so the detective will not hear. He decided to sit down on my father bed and point the gun at me. I began walking and left my Father room. The man follow me saying that if I move he'll kill me, I told him detective are right there, you shoot me you'll be jail. He told me he won't kill me he just wants to hurt me. That's when the detective came over but he kept following me. I made it to the front door preparing to leave and I told him when I get back your gang and the gang uptop the stairs should come together to try to kill me. I open the door and left walking outside it was night time. I saw my Father walking on the road so I came to talk to him. I told my Father we should leave this house and he said he will as well, I told him I have been held at gun point so many times in my life that it got tiresome and that I was sick of living here. So me and my Father began abandoning the house not knowing where we'll go. I look at my Father and realize something was off his hair was very long. I ask how did his hair got so long and he told me it's been this way. But I remember his hair being short when I was first talking to him. I started wondering if this was a dream or not. It was too real though, this feels just like real life there's no way it can be a dream. However as the colors around me and around the area began to heighten I began to realize that this was a dream. That's when the scene change and I notice my Father change in to someone I did not know. We were in a park and people were on their laptop so I walk in this hall that seem like others we're waiting. That's when I lost my lucidity. Lucidity Time : 45 seconds

My mum is coming to my home and I'm trying to clean up and fit some clothes in a drawer.
She phones me, telling she will be late as the lights are red and the traffic is terrible.
So I decide to clean up better my room before she comes.
But as soon as I put everything in the floor, she comes in the room, saying she was joking and she wanted to prove I'm a mess as a cleaner!
I laugh but it bothered me.
So I decided that i will live in the mess all the time. As she busted me, there is no need to clean up anymore!! :0

- The most remote recall I have, there's a beautiful woman with me, I'm happy because of her presence. There was something about an animal, although I cannot exactly remember what it was.

- The announced visit takes place, she's with us and we are having a nice conversation. I give her a couple of hello kisses. At the beginning we are in my present days house, then the place turns into my grand parents house. I make some jokes about taxi drivers that finally make her laugh out loud. We are making comparisons between two societies, making jokes about how stressed people live in a big city. It's warm and I take my rain jacket off. My Aunt-mom and my Old-Aunt who passed away a time ago, appear sometime in the scene. My kids are playing here and there. In the middle of the conversation, I have a red plastic laser-sword in my hand, I absently play with it.

* She comes to visit us tomorrow.
* I don't remember her DC getting in a dream before.

Today I had a really weird dream...

Dream:

I was somewhere and I had to 'save' the world from the bad food smurfs. In my dream you had 2 kinds of smurfs and those smurfs you ate. They weren't characters from a movie. It was like an animal that we ate. So you had a slimy awful smurfs and a good crispy smurfs. And I saved the world by killing all the slimy smurfs.


This is one weird dream...

1st dream - I was somewhere with people from my past -Terra, Angie, and Erin. All from very different parts of my life but all deeply religious even though they don't share the same religion. I was very happy to see and spend time with all of them. (What does this mean? Am I lost spiritually?)

2nd dream morphed from the first one with Erin doing my makeup. It was too much and I wiped some of it off then I was nervous I wouldn't be "ready in time" (clue for something?). Going to see The Answer and the concert was on a cruise. I get there and meet up with Kathy. Turns out my ticket is for the wrong day - her's is Friday and mine is Saturday. Maybe I could exchange but I can't find my Driver's License. So I jump off the boat and I'm on some kind of inflatable horse to get to my place and find my ID. Somehow I am suddenly back on the ship and the ticket seems to be no longer a problem. O'Donnell is there to see the show. I'm nervous of getting sea sick. Anyway I see Yolandi and she is the most beautiful creature I've laid eyes on. She seems butterfly-like with sparkly purple makeup and a shiny gray draped dress. She spoke to me and I was enthralled.

Hey DV. I had two lucids in a single night a few days ago, I've just been to busy to post about them. I can't recall much from them, but I will say I'm glad because I had four lucids in one month, which is three more than I usually have. But all I can remember is flying in the first dream, and in the second dream I remember pulling an April Fools joke for the TOTM. I'm hoping my recall will get better, as well as my ability to stay asleep longer for longer lucids.