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I can't really recall the first dream very well, but I woke up at 2:30 am, freaking out for a good second. I remember something to do with my fiancee's parents and then being in my car driving down this dirt road in the middle of the country some where. I reached down to scoot the seat back because I was too close to the petals, and after I did that I had more fun driving. But then I noticed I was driving over little round objects, along with other little cylinder-like red objects. I got a closer look and realized they had timers on them, and they were all over. In the two fields, left and right, next to me, I noticed some evenly spaced bombs (I had assumed they were ALL bombs.) I don't remember getting out of my car, but I was suddenly running down the road, trying not to bother any of the red things. I wanted to make it to a safe area before they went off. I got to the end of the road and I knew time was getting close, so I started crawling down on the ground, still with the red things. For some reason I was going much slower and I knew that I was dreaming, but I didn't become lucid, if that makes sense. I started throwing as many as I could of the red objects far away from me and eventually jumped up on the couch, that was the trees a minute before. I woke up on my (very uncomfortable, back-killing) couch.

The next dream, the most significant parts I can remember, anyway, I was at my ooooold job, Sonic. Everything was different and I was wearing some strange hawaiian looking dress. I asked one of the girls, who I knew, if we had uniforms and she told me that we didn't have uniforms anymore. I tried to answer the switchboard a few times, but the customers were getting angry with me because I could not hear what they were saying. I swear one of them was speaking english and suddenly switched to spanish. I was trying to speak back in spanish, but then my boss came over to me and took over. I started crying because I felt like I couldn't handle the job, but I knew I couldn't quit this time for my son's sake. I went on working some more, but the most interesting part was the lightning. There was only one strike, and I saw it along with one person standing beside me. I could practically see my whole town, and that lightning struck once and the lights everywhere began to go out. I knew what was happening. One girl ran outside, she was wearing some strange space suit. I ran after her, I guess to get her ass back inside, but she had ran all the way around the corner. So I followed. When I looked up in the sky, there was a strange donut hole in the cloud. Like this:



I said "Oh fuck." And I realized that Sonic was hovering over much of the city and we were very high in the air. I noticed this when that hole in the cloud began making several layers, like something was shooting through them. The girl had passed out or something. I ran to get her, and carried her inside. I shut and locked the door. That's when something threw one of those red objects at us. Somehow it had gotten inside. I made everyone go to the back of the store. When I looked up front again, I noticed that my son was playing near the bomb. I ran and got him, crying.

That's all I remember now. I attribute the vivid dreams to the excess amounts of choline and some binaural beats.

I realised just now that i've actually gone to the hypnogogic hallucinations a lot before, without any intention to do so. They scared the flip out of me because i didn't know what they were, let alone that I was soooooo close to a WILD..

So next time I'll just try and remember what they are and to just let them be

But this lead me to wonder: if I'd just let let them flow without freaking out, would I have gone into a WILD every time? Because I get to that point pretty much every single night. ......

Forgot to write down my dream and so I forgot it. I got too busy, coz I have to travel today.

I tried a MILD-WBTB combo last night. I know for a fact that the WBTB method didn't work, because I didn't even wake up. And although the MILD may have worked, I'll never know, as I had to jet off to PT immediately after I woke up. :/

I just realized who that girl is that pops up in my dreams every so often.

The first time she showed up was in September of 2009, the sixth dream I wrote in my dream journal. It was just a fragment, but I still remember that she had long, black hair, and a coconut bra on, she was a waitress of some kind.

The second time she showed up was during the period when my beliefs were changing, and I was having dreams about the catholic church coming after me and fighting over me with my new belief system. I had been held captive in the bottom of the sea in a sub, I believe she had short black hair in this dream. the dream seemed to last for weeks, and we became good friends in the dream by the time we escaped.

A possible third time she showed up was in dream number 30, where I sensed parasites at the bases of both of our spines. at this point I had stopped putting the date on my dreams for some reason.

She disappeared for a long time until dream number 74, where I remember a fragment of her, "Beautiful woman with straight black hair laying in bed. She smiled and did that cute anime head tilt." where I fell in love with her.

my goal for the next few days or weeks was to dream with her again, and I think I did, in dream number 77. I wrote down this:

It was pouring rain. there was a building in front of me, it appeared to be a stop for travelers on the road. I went inside. there were quite a few people inside the building, but one person stood out, a girl with short straight black hair. she had a stern look on her face, and appeared to be the leader of a bunch of neir-do-wells. I saw a target in the room and decided to do some target practice. I pulled out a revolver and started shooting at the target. after a few rounds I got bored. Most of the room had cleared out, but the girl was still there. I convince her to hang out with me.

The dream skips to us in walmart. we are shopping and talking in the aisles. eventually we start talking about her homeland, and she starts crying. I don't know what to do, so I just let her cry. I assume she was treated less than human, and don't press the question further, but it convinces me that she is more than just the leader of the freaks that follow her around. I felt much closer to her after she finished crying. we left the store, but forget something. and returned. my alarm clock went off, so I forced my self awake, I should have said something.

possible sighting in dream number 143:

I am on a pathway I often walk when going to school, the stars are out. There is a woman with me, we look at the stars. I see myself as an angel with black wings, hovering above a large body of water. I land on the water and stand there. I snap back to the pathway looking up, the woman is lining up with the constellation, she says that it is my future self. my attention is drawn to a flat, rectangular box being drawn in the stars. She was going to show me my past self, something about a caveman, but I woke up needing to go to the bathroom.
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She occasionally shows up in my dreams as a female companion, the last time I think she showed up was in the voodoo shaman dream. I believe her name in Mizuki, but that's just based on a name that I thought of that stuck with me, I don't believe I have heard her name from her. I looked up the meaning of Mizuki, and it means, "Beautiful Moon" in Japanese according to the internet.

Dream 1
I remember being on a long train open flat trucks I spoke to a girl I knew "Do you remember when we had a thing". There were loads of people fighting for no reason and I spotted an old guy he was black and wearing a shirt with a really small mohican. I started fighting him and loads of people started fighting, it was really dark and the train was at the station.

False Awakening
I was at the gate to college and one of the guards was checking my ID.

Side Notes
I've been wanting to fight in my dreams for a while so I'm glad I got this one.

I was lucid at one point and told someone. "I'm dreaming right now."

"No you're not."

"Yeah I am, look I can change my clothes."
I changed my shirt but I don't know if I was legitly Lucid or I was unlucidly? saying it.

1. back in school
2. Teeth falling out
3. Fragrances
4. In my car
5. Hodge Twins

Thursday 11/24 - no supplements, no recall

Friday 11/25 - bed at 1am, regular DR 2:42am - I was flying from my balcony, can't recall more

Took GM at 4:17am- no change in recall or vividity or anything

dream at 8:23 am - my cat was attacked by a dog, remembered more but didn't write it down right away
Another dream - I was a babysitter in Thailand

Saturday 11/26 Bed at 11:50pm, no supplements
DR at 2:05 am - GTA video game - just a feeling
4:17am - somebody's family was visiting, it was a pain in the a**.
Then I'm at the ocean. Kid is in a water and i ask him what does he see. I look under water and there is a lots of marine life and a big, fast shark. I yell at him to get out. By now the ocean changed into shape of a swimming pool, I'm sitting on the edge, but the water is still ocean. Shark had changed into a manatee. He is nor really nice. First he is intimidating us by putting his snout right in our faces. i want to let him know that we like him but he is not amused, turnes his back and poops on us.

11/26/11
Notes

So I went to bed last night at about 11 and set three alarms at 3:50, 5:10, and 6:30 to try CrazyInSane's CAN-WILD technique. The first alarm at 3:50 woke me up, but I accidently jerked and ruined any chance at remaining in SP I couldn't fall back asleep until after 5, so I just cancelled my next alarm. Later in the morning I dreamt that I was messing with the alarm on the iPod I had been using. At first part of a song played, but then I shut it off because I knew it was too long for an automatically shutting off alarm. Then I played the chiming alarm I was supposed to be using. When I woke up around 7:30, I didn't remember hearing my 6:30 alarm, so now I think I actually heard my alarm inside the dream and it got incorporated into it instead of waking me up. Oh well, maybe I can mess around with the chiming volume and try to recognize it in my dream instead of it awakening me.

Non-lucid dream, [Commentary made while awake]

I'm in a big, fancy hotel. Some guy starts chasing me through the hotel. I try to get away from him by running up the stairs, further into the hotel. I discover that each floor of the hotel is really split into two sub-levels, with two short, parallel sets of stairs connecting the two sub-levels. There are completely separate, longer sets of stairs connecting the different levels. I realize that one can run all the way around each sub-level in a loop by going up and down the stairs. [ ] At some point while I'm running away, some other guy diverts me into an area off to the side from where I'm running, behind a door, and closes the door. This other guy is helping me hide from/escape from the first guy.

[I know exactly what this was all about. I'm pretty sure this dream was an expression of my anxiety over the fact that I haven't gotten my NaNoWriMo novel anywhere near finished.]

Bed at 12:40am. WBTB 3:28am-4:15am. Did Not take GM at WBTB. Language

I stayed up for WBTB, but realized, that I shouldn't have. I slept too short to have a long REM so the GalantaMind wouldn't have a good chance to work. (Although my very first LD was after only 2 hours of sleep). Went back to sleep with intent to take GM when I wake up next time.

When falling asleep, had some very pretty HH, that were presenting themselves as a vertically running movie strip. I said I like one of the images and then I really liked one and that one started to dominate the show. It was a globe I called planet of beautiful yellow-green color that was back-lit. It had very crisp and detailed scars like a ice moon.

Also, maybe 2 days ago I downloaded dodobirds program that plays a sound every few minutes and you can practice RCs, wakes you for WBTB and then plays a sound every couple of minutes so when in a dream you can realize, you are dreaming. I shut it down when I went to bed and as I'm falling asleep, I hear a "ding" and did an RC.

Dream before WBTB
It was a dream that had some LD elements in it and I woke up from it due to some noise just as I was opening my mouth to say "I'm dreaming".

I'm a little white plush/anime bunny with nice purple accents on my ears. How do I know? When I fly, I see myself from third persons perspective. So I'm looking at this bunny who I now it's me and I'm yelling fly! fly! and later teleport!, while my eyes are rapidly opening and closing. I have never teleported in my dreams before, so this is something new and I was about to become lucid.

I'm in a night club with a stage. Bartender walks from person to person showing them a card with metallic, pretty colors on a back and a photo on the front. She wants to know, if we know this girl with long dark hair. I whisper to her in Hungarian, that I do know her, she is in fact a girl who plays piano on this stage sometime.
Then I'm outside in a place that looks like out of tombraider video game. Stone ground with square opening in a middle, like a empty swimming pool without bottom. The bunny is flying out of there and I'm cheering him on fly! fly! When he comes out of there, I'm directing him to teleport to some tall greek looking columns. He is teleporting by sliding really fast an inch over the ground. Not bad for first teleporting try
Just now I realized, why bunny. Before bed I watched the LateLate Night Show and the guy had a bunny puppet.

Now I wake up and do a doomed WBTB. Wake up at 6:30 am and take the GalantaMind. Go straight back to bed. I start to feel it in about 20 minutes. Feel relaxed and pretty sleepy and feel the heaviness of my body a couple of times, but not able to pull it off.

Dream
I was back home in Slovakia. My two cats (that live with me in California) live there with my parents. Someone is responsible to take them to "day care". In the afternoon I go to the day care to pick up some kid. I bring him home and I ask "where are the cats". One is there, but the other one is not. They tell me they forgot to bring him back from daycare. So I go back to school and look for a cat. Its not there. I get back home and they say the cat is in the room. So it turns out, that my dad was suppose to take them to daycare in the morning, but one of them got away from him and got lost and returned home just before I got there and they were afraid to tell me. So I told to myself, that since I live in California now, I should take them with me.
(Realized why I dream of cats - when I do an RC because of a audio prompt, I look at my cats and tell them "guys, this could be a dream").

Resistance in my hometown
I don't know who we were fighting. We were organized militia in modern times. Had some bases underground (literally) and fought in trenches. When we were not fighting, we drove around in cars, looking for supplies. Help arrived - soldiers from another country (US?), but they just mostly observed. In general, very good feeling from the dream. We were the good guys. I like the feeling fighting for good cause gives me. I still remember it, although I had it more than 20 years ago.

Airplanes falling down
Had several of these all within a year or two.
- I'm standing at the bridge in my hometown and see a plane flying over, it's going to crash, feeling of inevitable danger.
- I'm at the end of the runway and airplane is about to crash while approaching me while trying to land.
- I'm at the airport in a huge modern city. Looking up at the beautiful airplanes. Suddenly I know, one is going to crash. it starts to make loops and maneuvers to recover, but it crashes anyway.

Defending my house
I'm standing at the end of the yellow hallway, just at the door to the kitchen, with weapons ready. Somebody is about to attack through the front door. There is more of us. We have long rifles. There is no shortage of weapons. Before fight I went to the basement and got some automatic weapons from cabinets. I was pleasantly surprised, had no idea, we had such a great stuff in a basement. When I asked to have my weapon changed for something better, they obliged. Again, good feeling from the dream. Now I just have to work on having enough ammo. I usually have only a few bullets and then i have to substitute with bread crumbs, pebbles, and whatever I get my hands on. That's frustrating. Dream is in full color, bright.

Low gravity for me
I love these dreams. It seams that for me, the gravity is much lower than for the others. So I can easily climb on the outside of tall buildings, where there are balconies. I just grab the railing on a balcony and propel myself to the next, just with help of arms, I don't really need to use my legs.
It works the same on the stairs. I can either jump down from top of the stairs, or in a tall stairwell, I grab a handrail and propel/lower myself. I loved doing this at School while amazing everybody.
I loved to exit my second story house this way - got on a balcony, climb to the outside and lower myself to the ground, or jump/fly to the street light and fly from there.

Hiding/escaping through a maze of corridors/doors
Also love these dreams. Someone in authority is looking for me/chasing. I'm in a place with lots of short hallways with lots of small rooms that have doors in every direction. I go from room to room, putting distance between me and whoever is giving chase. Good feeling from these dreams, I like to be chased, it's mostly a game for me and I always get away.

The end of the world
I have had a couple of these.
- I'm in California. Nice sunny day. Suddenly I look up and there are ICBM missiles with con trails flying very high up, slowly and quietly, from direction of the ocean towards the inland. I have a feeling of certain end. Try to make a phone call to my mom in Europe.
- This is more dark. It's war. I'm in a city darkened by smoke. Everything is burning. Buildings, puddles of water. I'm hiding in a bigger puddle of water, big as Olympic size swimming pool.

Mode of transportation
Sometimes when in a hurry and for some reason I'm not flying (it's a non-lucid, after all), this is what I do:
I lay down and hover few inches off the ground and propel myself with my hands touching the ground and kicking off the ground with my feet, as if my body was a surfboard and hands and legs like a surfers, when he lays on a board. I can go quite fast like this. I do it, when I need to hurry and running feels like going through molasses. When I tire of moving like this, I turn on my back and "swim" with my arms like you would butterfly in the water and kicking off the ground with my feet. Always happy to "air surf".

Okay it was me and my friend Keke I think. Not sure. We had these businesses and we decided to team up. Then the neighbors down the road yelled something about their sign being better or something so I went inside to make a sign. I don't think I ever did because the dream switched. I was hanging out with...um... let's call him Eli.
*cough cough* We were all at this beach/playground thing. I had my video camera with me. We were hanging out and stuff and then this person offered some other girl for us to give her a tour. I started to set off but realized that Eli and her wanted to go together without me. So yeah they went off and I was alone. I started looking at the videos. There was one of Eli but he looked a bit younger. Then I started writing in my journal and realized Eli would probably try to read it when he came back. So I looked around and found a fence where I could sit with my back to it so he couldn't see the words. I went over to it and noticed that the sand kind of formed a pitfall/dune thing by it so I couldn't sit there. A group of girls and my friend Caleb came over and checked it out too. I somehow found myself in a hallway at school and sat on a bench and wrote there instead for a bit. Then I saw Eli coming and quickly decided to run for it and avoid him.

My review:
Okay so the business thing was fun. I'm not sure if it was Keke or someone else though. And I REALLY wish I could remember the name we'd come up with because it was cool. As far as hanging out with "Eli" if u haven't noticed he's kind of my crush (IT'S NOT AN OBSESSION!... ...OKAY MAYBE IT IS I DON'T CARE!) and I will never date him in real life because he's out of my league. So just a warning; if you plan on reading my dreams where my subconcious has all the control and I can not help if he's in the dream or not; he's gonna be in this a lot. Heck, maybe if I get bored I'll turn him into a "character" and make him do reviews too. Idk. So yeah long story short I barely ever talk to him, more this year than ever before, and I have no chance with him in this world. Last thing strange about this dream. I was trying to avoid him? Jeez, I know that doesn't work by now! Seriously.

Bye dudes and chicks, sorry you had to live through my teenage dreams (QUOTE! )

Okay so some random people were chasing me. I wound up at my neighbor's house. I had this mini spaceship thing that was supposed to help me get away but some parts were missing. I found them near my neighbor's house. But I accidentally used up all the power/gas or whatever. So I had to dodge balls of green light bullet things that the people chasing me shot at me. I convinced one of the people to help me out and then there was some really random fashion thing I forget a lot of details about. Blue stuff I remember. I finally got the mini spaceship thing to work but I accidentally hit this tree, and then the tree blew up. The tree next to it started coming to life and I made a run for it. I hid from it and somehow made a bet that it couldn't find me before sundown or something, and if I won i'd get a new ship. I won and got in the ship which was normal sized. Then maybe the dream switched or I just forgot how I got there. I was in the theatre and the play had reached intermission. I had to help stall the thing so my friend Katy and I went and helped this girl on stage. We did some improv about a janitor, that sadly I forget details of.

My review:
First issue with this dream. What the heck how is that mini spaceship gonna do anything for me!? Seriously IT WAS LIKE A TOY! How could I escape with that!? And then what the heck did FASHION have to do with anything!? Besides, really, the only thing about fashion I know is "when in doubt wear red" and that's just a long story involving theatre, google, and my friend Tim. (just so people know I tend to do that a lot. Just say 'it's a long story' and then list some things invovled with it. It's just my thang ) Next thing, how the heck did my spaceship get fixed? I don't know. Do you know? No. Because if you knew and I didn't know the student would be teaching the teacher and a student to teach his teacher is presumptious and rude. QUOTE FACE: Back to the review. I hid from a tree...behind a tree. A different tree mind you; i'm not stupid. I was in a forest, where else would I hide? But still. Thank my dream that the tree I was hiding by didn't come to life too. That's a total Wizard of Oz moment. And when I won the spaceship appeared like, right in front of where I was hiding. Failure on the tree's part. I didn't even see it move really. I was hiding, but for all I know it didn't even look. On that note I don't even think I hid for more than half a minute. As far as the theatre stuff, that was coolio. The stage is my home...but since I don't literally live there does that make me homeless? ... nah. Never homeless in a tent! (lol jk)

So this was my first entry of my Journey! Hope you enjoyed it dudes and chicks!
~ Spotlight

Been having trouble writing dreams lately. I feel like I just don't want to move. Could also be due to my reading an unfinished and thoroughly depressing story, Charlie.