side notes

Been having trouble writing dreams lately. I feel like I just don't want to move. Could also be due to my reading an unfinished and thoroughly depressing story, Charlie.

Took 50 mg of b complex and 250 mg of choline at bedtime at 1:30 am.

Had a few dreams but can't recall enough to write about. I was in SK, packing something in a bag...? I have a feeling dreams were long, but can't recall.

This time I took only 50 mg of B-complex just before bed at 11 pm, and took choline 250 mg at WBTB at 4:20am.

I stayed up only 10 minutes, just long enough to write in my DJ and take the choline. Tried to WILD for 1 1/2 hours, no luck. Tried to imagine the falling/sinking in bed feeling I got previously and it worked to certain degree. Felt like I'm falling through bed head first. Pretty cool feeling. But couldn't pull it off to the end.

Before WBTB, (so only on B6 and no choline) I had 2 pretty detailed dreams. After WBTB, I had some dreams, but was too tired to get up to write them down.

Dream 1.
My former classmates R mom had a heart episode. We were trying to figure out how come, since she only had heart problems from contact with roasted coffee. Then we found out, that the men she was taking care of (she is a nurse) who was munching on something out of his pocket while laying in hospital bed, was eating small pieces of roasted coffee. That men was one of the teachers from Harry Potter (long black hair, don't know his name, not a HP fan).

Dream 2.
I was on an airbase as a guest and i was watching some cool airplanes fly by. Then, the person who invited me there (r.d.anderson from Stargate movies) was landing his fighter jet and when I yelled out "look at the cools stuff", he crash-landed. He was ok, I don't think I caused the crash.
Then, I'm in a room on this base. Room is my childhood room from the house I grew up in. I'm putting on a cool air force uniform. Navy blue pants with yellow embroidered anchor on left pant, dark shirt, white belt and some small bag around my waste, that's making sound. I look in it what's making that sound and there is a small container with 4-5 bullets, they took out from r.d.
My dad walked by, and also r.d.'s aid and all were saying that I look cool in that uniform.

Fragments:
-I'm on some hillside fields. there are suppose to be lakes here, but they dried out. The shape of them reminds me of lakes I saw from an airplane when flying over Greenland IWL.
-somebody is visiting, mom is cooking, I'm trying on some clothes and putting on a tie

Day 2 of taking B-complex 100mg. 11/16

Took b-complex in the morning, bed at 11:45 pm. Had some dreams about taking Galantimine (I thinking about taking it when my order arrives). Dreams were not clear, nor vivid.

Day 3
B-complex at 2:45 pm. Bed past 1:30 am 11/17
I have a feeling a have dreamt about GTA (I played all day IWL). Not clear nor vivid.

Day 4 - 50 mg of b6, only half of what I took the days before
B-complex 1 hour before bed, Choline right before bed 11/18
remember more dreams and more details
I'm in Himalayas in a gift shop. Looking for a preticular gift shop, because I know I have been there on a previous trip and they had some great postcards but I didn't have time to buy them. So I want to buy them this time. They don't have them, so I want to buy tibetan or nepalese wooden bead necklace, but hey have only something really big. I want something simle. Finally find the gift shop with the postcards.
There is a vendor by whose accent I guess he is polish. But his wife speaks to me in slovak. Suddenly there is another friend of mine - former classmate.

The other night I was dreaming that I was at my house with my fiance and my son. UFO's had been being spotted all over the area and were abducting people. They were coming and leaving and then returning. Upon one of their returns I knew I was next. I started telling my fiance that we needed to run, now. Right then, a bright blue and white light shone through the door.

I started getting a telepathic message from them and they were telling me not to run, not to hide. I didn't listen, I took my son and started running outside towards this really big RV. When we got inside, there were other people there from the area and I got behind the wheel. There was this strange ball that was used to control the vehicle. Someone was trying to tell me how to use it but I was in such a hurry that I just started driving it. It was moving so fast and I had to use the ball to slow down. I ended up driving down this ditch and felt like I was just gliding above the road.

Woke up.

Had a dream the other night about an old house I used to live in when I was a little girl. I had walked by it and realized that I could go inside. It was really dark inside and I crawled in through the window. I started finding lots of things that we used to have and many of my toys from then. I found some cd's that were my sisters and soon realized that this house was connected to another one. There were toilets, sinks, and bathtubs appearing all over though. They were high-tech looking, and one toilet had a strange looking sink right next to it; it looked more like a fountain.

Can't really remember much else. Vivid, vivid dreams.

The most intense dream I have ever had. I'm losing it now. It was days, literally. School was ending and I was going to brmingham with Leo. I had to leave Kara behind and I was sad. I somehow realized it was a dream. Leo and Kara did too we just couldn't decide who's dream it was. Hours of conversation came through about who's dream it was. We knew each other but we didn't know how we knew each other. I knew and acted exactly how I did them them now. The thing about this lucid was that no matter how hard I tried I could not remember anything about my waking life or could wake up at all. I liked it a lot. The vividness was at the next level. At one point Kara and I saw the sun come out and we ran outside. It was beautiful. The sky was filled with colors I have never seen before. The sky was a magnificent painting. Even as I write this I feel different. Like I went through the most important journey of my life. This wasn't a normal lucid and I can't get over that. We tried so hard to remember waking life. Things would happen and we would laugh about who's dream it was. We all went to a club in a Vegas type setting. I left to the mall alone to walk around and think. It was 1 am and I wondered if I would ever wake up. I didn't care. I had Leo and Kara and that's all that mattered. Leo and I looked at each other and said we did it. I could see slight fear on his face. I had some fear too I don't know why. I would have thought I would be ecstatic. I day passed of us doing random things but they were so detailed so long. It's slipping me. I remember thoughts and feelings more. I remember thinking how detailed and long everything was and how beautiful and vivid it was. So much more than a lucid. It was a reality. A really good one. We had a time where the sun would go down. I didn't want it to. We all chanted and laughed as it slowly came up. It kept going down and we would chant it back up. There were sex scenes but those are slipping me now. I never slept I think. Kara and Leo did randomly. I just sat in thoughts. Trying to remember my old life. There were several walks alone. It seems as but a memory now but to me in the dream it was my life. I felt like I could come back to this life if I slept in the other dream but I couldn't sleep. Where I was was real and solid. When I was there this was fake. I will never forget this dream. Well I will and that's whats crazy about it.

Delted

Today I started taking B-100 complex with 100 mg of B1, B2, B3, B5, B6, and 100mcg B12 and B7.

I had three really long, really detailed and somewhat more vivid dreams. But didn't come even close to an LD. Dreams were so detailed, that I didn't even write down everything, because I felt like I could go writing forever.

Took B-complex around 2pm.
Went to bed at 10:30pm, woke up at 3am from dream #1. Went BTB at 3:40.

Dream 1.
I'm in Slovakia, talking to a friend somewhere outdoors, like in a field. There is more people around us, probably classmates. Teacher is telling us, that next day we are going by bus to either recite or sing for someone. We are at this time pioneers (in communist countries, these were kids in uniforms with red bandanas in shape of a triangle tied around necks). Our act should help to do or prevent something much bigger that is suppose to happen in Europe. I see a map of Europe, with some tall, skinny, black structures, that have something to do with energy. They need 1500 of us.

On a trip - we are on a field and we watch an old man flying by on his bicycle with wings. Looks like its a routine for him, he is commuting home from work. I have a feeling we are seeing future. Then, three more people fly higher up. I yell "Good luck" in English to a girl with purple hair.

- in a large building, like the Jedi Temple in Star Wars battlefront 2. I see couple of men of importance on top of stairs talking about some scheme, how stuff is not what it seems and I get a bad feeling, it's against us.

-I'm standing with a friend in a different building, next to the window. Walls are light green and white. We are on a 2 or 3 floor. Waiting for something. Somebody walks by and tells us, that the thing we wanted to do, we have to do it now. I know he is talking about escape. I grab my friend by shoulder and we ran. There will be like three "stages" we have to exit from to get out. I usually have good feeling and fun and I enjoy being chased, but not this time. There is something ominous about this place.

First "stage".
We have to get out of a rocky courtyard, that's in a back of a building.

Second "stage".
Mental institution. We get cornered by employees in white, it's the same building as the one where we were waiting by the window, light green walls and white tiles on the walls, chrome instruments. There is a black lady, I feel like I know her, either a classmate or an actress IRL. We cry to her, telling they will kill us if she doesn't let us go. She doesn't want to, but finally opens a door by pushing a button on an instrument panel. It's almost too late. We ran cautiously through corridors, trying to avoid a group of people, look like monks, that are walking in formation somewhere in corridors and they scare a living daylight out of me. We almost run into them but friend of mine notices them and we change direction.

"Stage" three.
Looks like a mining facility in Red Faction video game, especially the part, where the mining carts or a conveyor belt is up in the air transporting ore. We see one woman in white t-shirt on this broken up conveyor belt, trying to escape. Suddenly one cart turns on it's axes and she falls to her death. I feel like we are shown this as a warning.

Dream 2. Woke up from it at 5:33am.
I woke up after this dream but felt like I'll remember it when I wake up, so I didn;t write it down at night. I repeated some keywords to myself.

I'm in a room, like a modern tavern. Feels like I'm in a future or on another planet, some kind of a mining facility. This is a rec room for workers. There is a girl playing a game that looks like wheel on Price is Right on IRL TV. She spins and twice she gets a Ten and another Ten (in English).

Then I see in same fashion as Price is Right, big wheel with each "window" representing a dream. There is a picture and a title for a dream. I pick "Adventures of oil driller". I can read the title. It's in English.

Immediately I'm a patrol men in jeep at night in a city. Looks like a city I grow up in. Couple streets from us is someone disturbing peace. We pursue them. It's a group of kids on bicycles. We decide to arrest the ones in red shirts, because we could not arrest all of them. When we get there, most of them had calmed down, but three of them are still riding in a circle while being loud. I start to arrest one kid in red shirt, but my partner tells me to let him be and get the ones still on bikes. I made them pick up their mess - water bottles and lots of trash, papers.

Suddenly I'm standing outside the big arched gate. My partner is coming towards me. There is a big wind, that turns into black, swirling, not too tall tornado. I can feel it being strong. My partner doesn't see it, as it is coming from the side, from behind him. I yell at him "Tornado" in English, but he can't hear me.

Dream 3.
I worked as a babysitter for a new family. Nice young couple. They left for the evening and I watched over their kids. Kids are sleeping and I walk outside. I bump into a mailman. I don't even know, there is a mailbox, but there is a note, that I have delivery, but she didn't find me home. We laugh and she pulls out the delivery for me. She sais, someone had sent me money. $ 8864. We are both surprised at a large amount. She shows me a paper and I notice on it who is the sender. It's a woman from my previous job. The mailman is little reluctant to give me that large amount of money, but when I tell her what it's for - I see on a paper that it's for a website maintenance (in English, handwritten), she starts to give me the money. She gives me about $100. Some are in really old US banknotes - dark green, pretty looking, smaller than current bills. Some are in Slovak promissory notes, that are light blue and dark blue, like an old czechoslovak 20 KCS bill. This has a very nice picture of Bratislava castle on it. I have to go inside to get my documents so she can give me rest of the money. The youngest girls is still asleep, but two boys - one belongs to the family and his cousin, are watching TV. I want it in normal currency and she has no problem with it.

This family is suppose to come for a visit in Slovakia to the house my parents still live in IRL. So I'm looking out the window and see a car that looks like it's theirs - silver SUV. I want to put on jeans, but realize, I'm already wearing them. Suddenly there is a young woman with short hair standing in the door to the kitchen. It turns out, she is a family we have not seen in a long time, maybe never, and she now lives in Washington, DC. We had a conversation in Slovak, where she lives and that I live in LA. She was telling me something really fast, like instructions, and I tried to write it down, but in three big notebooks I could not find empty space. Then she went someplace on a bus and I asked her if she is coming back for a chat. Friend that was with her asked me which phone number to call me. I have a feeling that this dream had continued after I went back to sleep.

I'm not sure, if I have the energy for such a long and detailed dreams. But I'll give it another try. Will buy Choline today and take that too. Hoping for an LD tonight.

False Awakening
I was in my bathroom having a bath and it was really hot. I went into the kitchen and I was still hot. When I woke up and realised that it was a dream, I felt so stupid.

Dream 1
There were four Homer Simpsons. There each appeared behind each other and fanned out. Then out of nowhere Ramenmen from Kinnikuman came and beat up all of them, they started wearing different suits but each had a black tie anyway they got banged by Ramenman.

Dream 2
I'm in a house that I've never seen before and the GSE from Green Street is there. My hot media teacher is there and I ask her if I can have a hug, she gives my one. I ask her if I could have a kiss, she gave me one on the cheek then I ask for one on the lips she said no but I did it anyway tongue halfway through my lips and all for 0.3 secs.

She got upset and left, then Pete Dunham (Charlie Hunnam) got angry and chased me as I looked for my teacher. Now I'm lucid (I don't know how I didn't RC or anything) I run out of the unfamilliar house and onto my street that must be where I gained lucidity. I see a guy and tell him to get in the car it was a 2006 BMW some of it was blue while the rest was brownish. I remembered my current dream task and tried to eavesdrop on a DC phone conversation, for some reason WWE wrestler Sheamus popped into my head. Not that it mattered cos all I got was static and jumbled rubbish in my earphone.

Strangley I drove on the left side instead of right anyway I drove to an area I know well it was over-run with foreingners (here me out!) The foreigners were led by Sheamus as I drove the car and got out I saw him and 2 others in hooded cloaks. He came up to me and I said "You did it, I can't stop now though" and left in the car that other guy disappeared.

I went to the Westfield center and continued to look for the teacher as well as run away from Dunham. I entered a shop and used a green lantern ring to make a motorbike I rode it really fast in the shopping center.

SCENE CHANGE

I'm parachuting down onto some snowy mountains, my voice sounds different and there is an enemy base located there. I land on top of the base and link up with a soldier,dream fades. I remember my officer saying "Once there you will have to link up with a squad".

Side Notes
WILDing is definitely for me. I also remember jumping over the escalators at the shopping center and doing a parkour roll while feeling the contact of the ground. I also remember flying at one point in the dream.

So I downloaded the song from the soundtrack of Inception for my first WILD attempt today. I cut the song as well as have the Sleep Cycle app downloaded, which can play the song whenever I am in a light sleep cycle within a given amount of time. So now it will play towards the end of my first dream I'm hoping, then I can write it down or voice record then try a WILD or just try the WILD to be sure I don't become too aware. I'd have to say I'm feeling pretty boss right now and I'm hoping this will be the breaking point for my recall and LDs.

Song name: Je ne regrette rien (I don't regret anything)

Delted

A friend had recently asked me, in what language do I talk to my DCs. So I started paying attention to the language I speak in my dreams. So far, I had only 5 LDs and I remember speaking in one of them directly to a DC - all I said was "Hi" in English. Then I remember in two LDs - I saw a sign in English.

I just had a regular dream last night and I remember hearing a song in Slovak and acctually singing along to it - it was song by Slovak group Zona A "Je to zle".

I haven't updated my DJ or posted on the forums for some time.
I got a few pm's asking if I lost interest in DV, and I'd like to say that this is not the case.

I love DV.
Not posting is simply a result of me changing my life rhythm, which takes some time getting used to.
I'm sort of finished with my masters degree classes, so I'm working mostly on my masters thesis now.
Then I somehow managed to get heavily involved in the development of an indie game, which takes a lot of time but is quite awesome.
I also went on vacation, I desperately needed to get away from school / programming stuff for a bit.

As soon as I've settled in with this new rhythm I'll be posting again of course!

Color-coding key:
Awake, Non-lucid, Possibly lucid? (not sure), Lucid, Lucid 'dream within a dream,' [Commentary made while awake]

[This morning, my alarm went off at 7:30. I had planned to get up and write, but I still felt so sleepy that I decided to sleep in. I believe I had all these dreams during the extra hour I slept in. Again, I don't remember the transitions that connected them, if there were any, which is why this entry may seem fragmented.]

I'm out somewhere with my parents and T&P [some real-life friends of ours]. We're in a gravel parking lot, getting into our cars to go somewhere. I'm driving my own car by myself. I follow the other car, which has my parents and T&P in it, out of the parking lot and along a narrow, gravel-covered alley. There are two big rocks in the middle of it. I watch the other car drive over them and worry that my car isn't high enough off the ground to clear them, but it does, with no problem.

I have a small patch of thick, dark-brown hairs growing out of a mole on the right side of my chin. I want to pull all the hairs out with tweezers, but I look for the tweezers and can't find them. Later, I look in the mirror again and have a short, but thick beard, with only a couple of long hairs straying outside of the beard zone. I still can't find the tweezers, so I try to pull them out with my fingers, but can't; they're too solidly rooted. I continue playing with those hairs with my fingers as I go about the rest of my day. [Funny how at no point during this sequence did I think to question the situation; I'm a girl! I do, however, find and pull on stray hairs like that often in real life.]

I'm explaining to someone, over the phone [I think], that J&L have passed away. The conversation continues, and I say something about how hard it must be for the other person to find this out. [J&L are the original owners of the house I'm now renting. I've had this conversation over the phone at least twice in real life. Even though I never actually met them, it's still hard to tell people that news.]

I'm in a body of water, and there's this little cartoon guy swimming in the water. He has a mask and a snorkel on. There is a song playing: “let's go swimming under the sea!”, it says, or something like that. I'm following the little cartoon guy as he swims through the water. I have my own snorkel, but no mask. I don't really need it, though, because when I duck my head below the surface, I can see underwater just as clearly as if I were wearing a mask, and the water doesn't sting my eyes at all. Then, the little cartoon guy starts diving deeper under the water. I think to myself, It annoys me when cartoon characters do that when they only have a snorkel. [Somewhere toward the beginning of this dream, I became aware that I was dreaming, but I don't remember precisely when, nor what triggered it.] I want to continue following him under the water, and I think to myself, I can breathe underwater in dreams. My known dream ability to breathe water activates at this thought. I abandon the snorkel and continue following the little cartoon guy. We're in what looks like an ocean. The water is deep blue, and there are sea creatures of some kind swimming in it.

I'm in an unfamiliar bedroom, going to sleep. I even feel sleepy. While I'm getting into bed and falling asleep, I think about the fact that I'm going to be in a a dream as soon as I fall asleep, and that I'm going to be lucid and take conscious, intentional action while I'm there. [I remember having a specific mission in mind, but I don't remember what it was.] After a few seconds, I roll sideways out of bed and know that I'm in the dream world. [I think some kind of dream followed, but I don't remember it now. After that dream ends,] I'm back in the same bedroom again, and I go through the same sequence of falling asleep and knowing that I'm about to enter a lucid dream. This time, I sit up in bed to enter the dream, and then climb out of bed and step away from it, towards the door of the room. I cast a sidelong glance over at the bed and get a glimpse of myself, lying asleep. I quickly look away. I think, I know this is a dream room, and that that isn't actually my real body, but still, it's creepy. [I'm pretty sure I was aware that I was dreaming throughout this entire sequence, even the parts where I was falling asleep.] The reason I know that the whole experience is just a dream is that the bedroom I'm in isn't mine. The walls are painted a dark, cool color, the bedclothes match the walls, and the room is longer and narrower than my real one.

From that unfamiliar bedroom, I walk out into a plaza surrounded by buildings. It is a sunny day. There are signs in the plaza directing people to an area where a birthday party is being held for a child. I walk into that area and find a table with a bunch of party food set out on it. From that table, I take a cupcake and start eating it, without bothering to take the paper off first. I want to take advantage of the opportunity to do that. I know that this is my dream body, so I don't have to worry about the paper doing me any harm, and in addition, I don't have to worry about what the DCs around me will think if they see me eating the cupcake paper. The cupcake itself feels and tastes exactly like cupcakes do in real life. I walk around while eating it, observing all the people walking around and the kids running around and playing in the courtyard.

As I continue to explore the dream environment, I come upon another sign reminding everyone that it's time to go and complete the paperwork to register their cars. I follow the directional arrows on the sign, and end up entering a building that contains an office with a reception desk front and center as you walk in the front door of the building. I go up to the reception desk, tell the woman there my name, and ask for my car registration form. It turns out that the form is filed under my old address from when I was living in Florida. She gives it to me to update. The sheet of paper she gives me is the top sheet of a piece of carbon paper. It's a sheet I already filled out back when I was living in Florida; it has all my information from those days on it, in my handwriting, in blue ballpoint pen. I start working on bringing the information on it up to date.

The top section of the form contains several multiple-choice questions with checkboxes below them. These questions are all about your religious beliefs, and they're really only on the form as a formality. They ask about whether or not you believe in the Bartel Water Bug, and the boxes indicating non-belief are already checked. I read over this section and then start updating the form with my current address, but then it occurs to me to think: Why am I wasting dream time filling out a form? I look up from the paper to see what the woman behind the desk is doing. She has turned away to do something else. I set down my pen, turn around, and walk quickly out of the building while she's not looking.

Back in the courtyard, I discover that the item I've decided [in real life] to use as a totem, which in my case is a thimble, behaves in a very interesting way when thrown or tossed in a dream. Namely, it acts like a magnet. Whenever it comes anywhere near another person [yes, even if the other person is just a DC], it flies away from them as if it were being repelled by their presence. Then it flies back toward me, straight into my hand, as if it were magnetically attracted to me. I encounter a family that I know in real life, walking along the edge of the courtyard. I say something like, “You're gonna get this thing thrown at you,” to the 7-or-8-year-old daughter in the family, and then I throw my thimble at her. When it gets within about a foot of her, it flies away from her and back toward me, and I catch it. [That's the last I remember.]

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Side notes:

When I woke up for real and reflected on the part of my dream where I kept dreaming about waking up and falling asleep within the dream, I thought, "Cool! My mind came up with a kind of hybrid dream experience, incorporating characteristics of the lucid dreaming experience that I learned from Inception (the knowledge that I was about to fall asleep and immediately find myself in a lucid dream, the experience of entering that dream from within another dream), as well as characteristics that I learned from DreamViews and from EWOLD (the perception of rolling out of my dream body and the knowledge that that room was itself a dream)." To those people who looked down on the newcomers who jumped on the lucid-dreaming bandwagon after Inception came out: I was one of those bandwagon-jumpers, even though I tried not to be too obnoxious and annoying about it, and I believe that we newcomers are perfectly capable of learning and growing into the world of lucid dreaming as it is actually experienced outside of the movies.

Hey DV. Had two lucids last nice, but sorry, they were too vivid. My recall is a little shot.