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Well, for some reason last night I only woke up once from the binaural beats which I found quite surprising. It was also already about 6:00AM and I didn't get around to starting the alarm so no lucids last night. Anyways, I did remember a bunch of fragments however, but I just finished writing a guide to binaural beats and it is late so I will do that tomorrow.

See ya

So, I only really post on my DJ when I have a dream that really sticks with me that I want to remember, and this was one of them. I think it came from watching the news about the guy who walked into a theater during The Dark Knight Rises and started shooting everyone. My dream is sort of based on that, so it's a bit disturbing.

I was at my local park with Niki and we were just hanging out. The sun had just set and it was getting darker out. There was a movie theater there at the park, Showtime Cinema. Of course it didn't occur to me that this theater is not located in the park obviously, but just a few minutes down the road. Nothing seemed out of the ordinary, so I just went to check out the theater, perhaps to see what was playing(which I think was Dark Knight Rises, but I don't remember for sure). Instead of the whole movie theater being there, it was just one screening room. I sneaked in through one of the emergency exits, which wasn't locked for some reason. The theater was packed with people, and I looked around and saw a guy with a gun. Shots were fired, so I ran back out before the shooter could notice me and dialed 911. The lady on the other line seemed familiar, like I'd called 911 a few times already and had heard her voice before. She seemed very chill and relaxed. "911 what's your emergency?" she asked in a very monotonous tone. "There's a guy shooting people at Showtime Cinema! People have been killed, please send someone over." I said. "Someone will be right there," she replied, not a hint of worry or tension in her voice. I thought she would want more information, but she didn't say anything else so I just said "thank you" and she said "you're welcome. bye" like it was a normal everyday phone conversation. I waited outside awhile and it seemed to be taking the police forever to show up. Then, the theater doors burst open and people came running out. I thought it was finally over, until I saw the shooter come running out after them, shooting every person he could. There was blood and screaming; it was a terrible and frightening scene. He shot and killed one of my friends, Dani, and then came towards me. He took a shot at me and missed but I fell to the ground and pretended to be dead so that he wouldn't keep shooting. When I looked at him again I noticed that he was so angry and raging that he didn't notice he'd run out of bullets and was now just shooting blanks. So I stood up to him. I don't exactly what happened, but whatever I did worked and the cops came and everything was secured. The next thing I remember was reflecting on what had just happened. I vividly recalled all the blood, the screaming, the chaos, the dying, and it traumatized me. I cried and cried throughout the day and the next day. I kept having flashbacks and it was just awful. Then I realized that this was probably just a dream, so I talked to my mom and she showed me a newspaper article headlining the terrible event. There was some kind of picture that was blurry and I don't remember, and then somewhere in the writing they mentioned that I was a hero. I was too distraught to even think about being a hero though. 36, that number kept following me around. I could physically see that number, floating in the air around me. 36 people dead. So much death. I cried again, the pain was so real, the emotions so intense. Then I woke up for real and breathed a sigh of relief when I could finally know for sure that it was just a dream.

This being my first post, I thinks its best I explain what answers I'm looking for, when I was 7, just to let you know I just recently turned 15, I had a very short dream which felt like a minute or two but lasted hours, taking up the whole night. The only thing in the dream was a girl who was around my age at the time. Behind her was nothing but pitch black and had nothing but I could still see the girl perfectly. She was Indian like me and had black, silky hair and eyes which had a twinkle in it that will make you melt. I would describe her more but, currently, that's all I remember. Really and truly, I fell in love. You can say that she was the girl of my dreams. She looked at me and giggled but then she started to fade away. She kept her smile the whole time. I just didn't want her to leave. I had one of those sitting up as soon as you wake up wake ups just without the panting. To this day, the main thing one my mind was that one dream. I'm even write a book where the main character in the book had this dream just to get her off my chest but, since I don't want anyone I know personally to read it, it's not working to well at keeping her off my chest so that's one reason I'm doing this. The main reason is to hopefully find her and to also find anyone else who may have had an experience like this. I will be posting every now and then so expect more posts so, until the next post, see you later.

This is my first post. I usually have nightmares. It's what got me involved with Lucid Dreaming in the first place. I'm glad to say my first post won't be anything I'd qualify as a bad nightmare.

I'm walking on a rocky beach, under an over cast sky. It could rain at any moment, that's the first thought I have. Then I notice I'm not alone. I'm walking next to Ryan, and I can't understand a single word he's saying, but he continues to talk. The water next to us is dark. I wouldn't swim in it even if it were a 100 degrees. Across from the water is a dense and green forest.

Then noises of construction begin to fade in from my opposite side. I look over and realize there are houses all along the beach we are walking on. They are enormous to the point that I can not see the backs of them and they are all made of wood. But it is as if the town they lived in no longer has a government. The houses are completely worn down. The people living in them, or so I assume that is who they are, are working with hammer and nail to repair them. Me and Ryan continue walking.
(I would have thought at least by this point I would have noticed a dream sign or forced myself to realize this was a dream but I did not and I find that very frustrating.)

Finally, we end up in an opening with a building set further back. It is a bar, and protruding out of it, is a very large slide with two ladders on each side. Ryan gets onto the slide and slides down. He turns to me and tells me to go next. Suddenly, the slide is much larger and I don't want to. I eventually do however, and when I reach the top I wake up. DREAM END.

I have been trying for sometime to realize I am in a dream. I hope something will happen soon.

Had this one sometime last week. Wasn't exactly lucid, but I sure controlled the dream like I was.

Dude where's my car
Recall: 8/10
Sleep: Unknown
Sleep Position: Unknown

I'm questioning how I got to my hometown and conclude I must have drove here, gotten drunk and forgotten where I put my car. I spend quite a lot of time searching for it since I'm really fixated on having lost my car.

I eventually encounter some guy who invites my to go smoke a joint. I pull out my own baggie and say he can try some of mine too. We're inspecting each other's weed when a cop shows up. I tell my new friend to simply ignore the officer and he won't be able to bother us. I turn my back on the cop, but also lose the other guy in the blind spot I've created behind me. They're gone now, and I need to find my car.

I figure I'll be able to spot it better from the air, so I start to fly down the street. But I get too high and too fast to be able to see the cars below, so I slow down. Soon after I spot my car in the middle of someone's front lawn. Looks like a drunk just crashed it there. I land and walk to my car, but by the time I get there it's no longer my vehicle.

I don't know if control without lucidity is a blessing or a curse. Probably just an obsession.

The control turn when the cop showed up stems from the time I totally used a Jedi Mind trick on a cop. He was a bike cop, in the middle of the road checking for seat belts. I didn't have mine on and got stuck at the red light right where he was. He was approaching down the line of cars, looking for seat belts, so I just looked straight ahead. He walked right by me without seeing I didn't have a seat belt on. I looked back in the mirror, and saw him do a double take when he finally noticed me.

I always wondered how I did that, but I realize now that I used the same kind of blind spot to make that cop not see my seat belt as I do to banish things in my dreams. By staring straight ahead intently, I was somehow able to push the cops attention forward and away from me, thus creating an attention blind spot. He could still see I wasn't wearing my belt, he just couldn't focus his attention on it. Unfortunately it stopped working once he got behind me.

Non-dream Dream

Dream 1: (actually a bunch of random fragments)

I am bowling then I am in some kind of race. My wife's name is spelled wrong and someone is making fun of it.

Dream 2:

I am driving and CG is crossing the street at Hilgard and Le Conte. My car keeps getting stuck and I wish I had a 4WD car.

Dream 3:

I am looking at a DNA gel. There are 3 lanes on each side of the gel, each representing a different person. I track the gel over time and the bands start multiplying and burst into colorful patterns.

Dream 4:

I am in a 1600 meter race against my wife and some other people. I am in 2nd place and she is in 3rd. Towards the end she takes off but lets me win at the end. I end up with the gold and she gets the silver.

I also recall having a lucid dream but I don't remember the details. I just remember staring at my hand for a long time to stabilize the dream.

I've been really lazy with my DJ lately. I guess I have been tired and busy. Some of these I barely remember. I am just going off notes from my phone app. I need to be more thorough tonight.

Wednesday 8.8.12 12:46AM
I am working as a contractor. I thinking about how to make more money. Pockets are for young men. (?) I pull out a Wiimote and Xbox controller.

Wednesday 8.8.12 6:25AM
I am Drew Carey. I accept an award for Jim Carey. I leave my RL house and get in my wife's car to go across the road to Jim Carey's house. This is my RL neighborhood. I See Jim in cotton pj pants and a sloppy tshirt on a couch though his window. Like I have telescopic vision. I think he sees me so I stop the car in the street and walk over to his mom's house to give her the award. All the time I hear audience laughter like this is so funny. I ring the door bell and a little old lady with white hair answers. I had her the award and tell her its for Jim Carey. She takes it and holds it smiling at me. I say it is a golden globe award. It looks like the boller hat statue from meet the Robinsons.

Thursday 8.9.12 1:29 AM
I purposely incubated the sword fighting in this dream as I was falling asleep at 9:30PM
I am sword fighting a fierce battle against hordes of enemies. I make my way to the king. Then I am faced with a shocking truth. I know him from my past. The things he says to me anger me and make me weak. I use a mind power and visualization (very abstract and hard to explain) to break the power of each sentence before it reaches me.

Thursday 8.9.12 6:13AM
These last 3 dreams are with in the 10 min between alarm snoozes. Interesting this happens a lot. I have been trying to use this to my advantage and maybe pull of a quick DEILD but I have been unsuccessful so far.
I am going to poop in a stall at work but the toilets are not lined up with the stalls and so I am crowded hard against the wall to just sit down. I look at the other stalls but they are all the same. I am disgusted but I pick one and go. Then I remember that I have strange bathroom dreams a lot and this is and unusual experience. I ask myself If I am dreaming So damned close to a DILD.but before I can really think about it some guy starts talking to me from the other stall. I try to ignore him and finish. I hear more ppl coming in and my stall door opens. I grab it and close it before anyone sees.

Thursday 8.9.12 6:28AM
My wife and are going to swim to Japan. Something about some strange creature hovering on a disc over the water. I jump off a balcony into the water and hold it. I use it to float as I swim on my back. I tell it that I am going to take it with me where it belongs. My wife and I swim together. Then I get to thinking about how this will never work. Japan is on the other side of the planet and we don't even have passports. I can't expect my pregnant wife to swim that far.


I am in a bass band. I have my old trombone from high school. My instructor, who looks like George Norry, tells me to play. It sounds horrible. I can't even get a solid note. I examine my trombone and sit down. I see it is in bad shape and I notice the spit valve is missing. I get up to tell him and every one starts playing jazzy music. I see an old friend from elementary school sitting and not knowing how to play. I see my instructor and walk to him but then he starts singing some Sinatra like song. I get irritated.

So I'm not doing football this year in real life, but one day in my dream, I decided to go to just check it out. I got there at around 10 AM, although practice starts at 8 or so. It wasn't any regular practice, though.

There were these coaches I hadn't known, hadn't been familiar with, nor were real football coaches I believe. The point of the practice at first were to complete 2 three point basketball shots, then afterwards, place two flags in the opponents flag holders, and last was to post a banner of your team, showcasing there name.

My team was red, and we were facing the blue team. So first was the 3 point shots. I got both the shots in. I do not know or very much recognize many of the dream characters, besides very few coaches or others later on. So I do not know who got there shots in. Next was the flags. The opposing team had to try and stop us from getting the flags in, by any means, but it was relatively casual. The only odd thing about it was, that at first, the real coach had created fire traps on the floor that created a relatively high wall of fire that had to be jumped over. There were also bleachers, and other things we could climb on in order to jump over the fire. I believe that I got the first flag in. They had gotten there flag in as well. Then afterwards, the craziness stopped, and it was relatively casual. People were talking, and everything, but the games were still on. I abandoned the second flag unintentionally, and then the enemy team took it and hid it. They apparently had gotten there second flag in, and then they quickly already hung there banner in a large hangar, like area. After that, we had to run a small lap around the field and meet back at the coach.

He told us to meet him by the hangars, ( which he used a different name for) and when we got there, we just watched videos, and kind of interacted with the coaches, in social games, I think. The blue team was watching videos in a different place that was near there second flag. I sort of sneaked away to place the flag, but they saw me, and allowed me to proceed, because they told me they don't care.

I went back and they were just watching videos, and I allowed myself to, although I do not remember looking at any screen at all... That was weird for me. After a while, We were about done and allowed to go home. At this point it was about 2 AM. We began to leave, and for some odd reason, when I left the school I was in, I was in my bedroom, with my friend Jagger. I asked if he wanted to stay the night, and he said yeah and then just crashed in my room, because it was reaaaaaally late. I then realized that I forgot my phone and clothes in my locker at the school. I began to leave my house, and my phone was right there, and so was the rest of my stuff. I LITERALLY thought to myself "Good thing this is a dream, or else I wouldn't be able to get my stuff back." but I totally ignored it and didn't think about that for the remainder of the dream. Not too long after,

I was too meet back for practice, and we were on a big bus, with the only coach with us being of my favorites, Coach Harris. At first we were in a HUGE arcade, where everybody was just playing games and having fun, even people I knew weren't a part of football or anything like that. I received some kind of message from my mom, that I was in danger, not to go anywhere else, not to stop for anyone else, just to go home with her. After the arcade, we were in what appeared to be an office building, but we were leaving to go back to the bus. My uncle called me and told me that something was wrong and in danger, but I couldn't fully understand what was going on, and he tried to tell me to go the Palms hotel roof, and meet him for a drink. My phone died during the call and I just thought that I definitely wasn't going there.

As we left the office building, we went onto the freeway, and then rounded into another buildings lot. We were only dropping one person off there, and I saw my mom's car. I told the coach that I have to go here too, but he wouldn't let me off the bus. So, as we were slowly moving, I threw my gear off the bus and began to climb out the door and onto the sidewalk. I began walking towards my moms car only to find that she wasn't in it. Only two chubby white women, one being way younger than the other. I told them to tell me where my mother was, and she was in the trunk, freezing in some snow. (which is weird, I live in Las Vegas, and this is during the summer) My mom climbed out and forced us to be pushed down a hill into snow. We were stuck in a dish, and then a ton of water started to fly down the hill after us. We were to hold our breath, but I could still breathe fine. We began to try and get out of there and that's where it ended...

I also spent about 45 minutes reading before I went to sleep, which got rid of my problem of not being able to fall asleep.

I was with Scooter, and she was touching me inappropriately, and I was doing the same, and it was weird because my sister was maybe someone in the area, and there was an understanding that she didn't approve of us having any kind of physical relation.

Later, there was another dream where I was driving a car, and was from the future. My Mom was there, but she had no idea what the car was, she was basically my Mom from the past. We were in the same house that we currently live in, though. I was driving around with her in the car, and was explaining to her "know how you have horses and carriages and shit? This machine is what we have in the future?" She seemed to vaguely understand, but she wasn't awestruck. She was just pissed off about something, some fight that we had gotten into earlier. There were roads, which was strange for a time without cars. There was also a driveway at her house, which was strange for a time without cars. Before I started driving, I also asked her for a key to her car, which also was strange for a time without cars.

Trapped in some area, by a lake. A lady there had had a younger child, maybe 9 or 8, and a baby. They were there because some government research was being done concerning the lake, I'm not sure what it was. But everyone was living in tents said up by the lake. I got the feeling that the lady that had lost her kids was a kind of lead researcher on the project. I developed a relationship with her older daughter. She had black hair, a little taller than me. We became fast friends. Near the end, we were resting together in her tent, while her brother was there playing videogames. Her Mom came back and walked into the tent while we were together. I asked her if this was ok, she said "it's fine." Her brother looked freaked out after she left and told me to run. He said that his Mom was drunk, and would chop me into pieces. I walked outside, and the Mom was there with a machete. We started to fight, and the fight teleported to a boat, I believe. She had this ability to make me see insane and horrifying things, much like the Scarecrow from Batman. I was able to turn it against her, though, and at one point got the machete from her and chopped off her hand. I woke up during the last parts of this fight. I don't remember much about life at the camp beside the lake. just that I was very glad that girl was there. I was very, very happy when I was with her, and she was no one I knew in real life.

At this point, I was woken up by Sleep Cycle. It woke me up during the last dream, and it worked really well. I sat up, voice recorded my dreams, then laid back down. My intent was to WILD, but Mike had woken up and was showering and people were awake and right outside my window, and I quickly got frustrated. So I decided to just role the dice and do a WBTB, telling myself that I would have a lucid when I fell asleep.

So I have a dream. I'm part of some resistance group fighting against an empire of sorts. The color yellow is associated with the resistance, the color purple with the empire. We were slowing pushing the imperials back through a series of room and cave-like chambers, using blasters. At one point we found a desk, that we decided needed to be taken apart because it had been stolen from the imperials. Anyway, we keep pushing up to this area that is a walkway that is open on one side, then someone opens a fridge while we are there? And that makes them realize we are hiding there, and they surround us. To denote that we weren't going to fight them, everyone put down their weapons and... grabbed a frozen burrito from the freezer. I wasn't about to do this. But Robert Downey Jr. was with us, and he finally decided that he would do it, but that he would choose the flavor burrito that no one had gone for yet, so I did the same. The imperials then expected everyone to eat the burritos while they were still frozen, as part of penance or something. Anyway, either it all died down and/or we escaped, don't remember which. I ran into Kaia, who I ended up following through some deep woods to some place. I kept following her, and we kept going around this island, which has this giant statue of it that was raised by the imperials, maybe? Eventually, as we were walking around, we moved out of the jungle into a populated city area that was almost a part of Birmingham, but not quite recognizable enough to be called a construct caused by memories of the place, while in this area, the big statue was torn down. It seemed to have an "oh-no" look on its face as it was being destroyed.

Later, I'm in my parents' house. I'm fighting some long line of creatures that is trying to get to my bedroom in the house, which is like my base, and I have to destroy them as they come by. I become lucid during this, I don't remember why. I for some reason didn't record this dream right after I woke up when it happened, and decided to try another dream. This was very foolish of me. Anyway, I'm lucid, and I realize that some had gotten to my room where the base was. The leader of my group of monsters is a plus serpent head thing. So I grab it and charge into my room, getting ready to bash them. As I'm charging, I remember thinking that I can't believe how absolutely stable the dream is staying, as I'm dashing around in this ridiculous situation, attacking these small monsters. I'm able to look around at every detail of my surrounding without losing any stability. I get to my room and try to stop them, but it's too late and they win. That's fine, nothing bad happens. I walk out of my room and towards the front of the house. I decide I want to try to teleport. I close my eyes and start to do so, and right before I go to teleport I remember that I foolishly haven't set a destination, so I just think the words "grammy's house," but don't actually form any image of it at all in my head. I realize what has happened and open my eyes. The whole dream world kind of does a lightning fast blip around me, like a tv station where you are getting shitty reception from an antennae and the image cracks for a second, and I feel the entire reality of the dream not exist at all for just the briefest fragment of a second, then everything comes back and I'm in the same place in my house, but everything is a little more blurry and less stable. The teleport was a whiff. I gather myself and realize I'm starting to lose stability. In an act of desperation I set a location in my mind and try to teleport there. I don't remember where it was, but I tried to make it as specific as possible. That being said, I only spent like two seconds forming it in my mind, and I was already losing stability rapidly, so this one also whiffed and I went through the same sensation of reality blinking out again. I tried this twice in rapid succession, each attempt failing, each failed attempt making me lose a little stability. I wasn't able to teleport, though, and in the end I was in den, not very stable. I realized I had fucked up, and tried to look around and stabilized. I was willing my mind to fill in sensory data from everything around me, to sharpen everything, and I drastically slowed the process of destabilization, but I was too far gone to stop it, and I woke up.

Don't remember much from this one sadly. I had gotten in an elevator with 2 or 3 dudes. We're on the second floor, and we're in school. I wanted to just go to the ground floor. They press a floor that is reallly high up, I didn't even know there were that many floors. It goes REALLY fast. We lose balance and the elevator seems unstable, as if it is going a bit sideways. We get up there, and they get off. Two girls I know, Mariana and someone else get on. I tell them how the elevator is really fast blah. We go down to the bottom floor. Don't remember anything after that

It was the first day of school. Location: movie theater. All my anxiety was relieved; I had the same friends with me. The same friends that in my dream world, I was so excited to see and interact with, in waking life I have no recollection of who they are. I just remember the feeling of relief that they brought to me, once I realized they were with me. I also had the saw a teacher from last year Ms. dr3am sign! But of course, I didn’t catch on. She made a joke to this idiot I went to school with. Initials BS. She asked if he “always whispered?” sarcastically. He was screaming at his almost-touching friends. I watched her and pretended to laugh, so she wouldn't be crushed. Then BS says ya or some shit like that. Now, I remember one of my “friends”. If I was lucid, I would have expected her to be a dream guide. So friendly, and I felt like I’d known her forever. She was a black woman with short hair and kind of chub. Said something about how I used to be so bad, and all the fun times we had together. I shook my head, pretending I remembered wth she was talking about. Next thing I know the group is in a local Walgreens. Laughing at what others are saying, when I spot Ms. looking at me. My initial thought was “she must think I’m a psychopath, the way I’m smiling.” So I get busy, quick. I tried to buy those chocolaty coins, but they were all opened. I ask the clerk and she said they were opened. I can’t help but wonder what that chocolate would have tasted like, what that taste may have initiated for me. After we finished, I started rapping, I guess. All I remember is being with his little kids and shaking Jaden’s hand and hugging Willow. Very weird, but each time I finished performing, I would check back on Ms. L for approval.

Nothing.. NOTHING...
still posting just for the sake of regularity. And maybe if I make blog posts devoid of any content it'll vent my brain's nothingness and leave me with.. somthingness?

Last night yielded no dreams I could remember. I am in the double digits on average daily for my RC. Will report anything useful later today, or tomorrow.

I had 3 dreams last night that I remember,sadly,none of those were lucid.
Dream 1:
I was walking down the street at night,it was a street next to my house,I was with a old friend,that brought some friends of his,who were all kinda douchy.Along with us was my used-to-be-best friend,that wore a purple satin blouse and a straight wig that ended in curls,the color was a fake light blonde.He went by the female version of his name,and like in the dreams I have of him,he is like his old self,back when he was my friend.After some conversations that I don't remember much,and him(now her) showed his ID,now as female and the dream ended.
Dream 2:
I was showing my parents my grade in a test along with my brother.I though I scored 74,and showed proudly,but as I was about to show them,I read that my grade was actually 34,written in green.I quickly kept the test hidden,and pretended I actually scored 74,and they believed,soon the dream was over.
Dream 3:
I don't remember much of this one,it was a modern,square-ish white house with some black details,the decoration reminded me somewhat of a mix of modern and ancient japanses houses.There were portals and time machines that me and a group of people wanted to use.There was also a dragon or bird monster that came from another dimension,it was very docile.The dream was messy,it's all I remember.