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EMT training has been wreaking havoc on my sleep schedule. But I passed out from 5-9:30 as soon as I got back today.

I remember one very short lucid. I was in what looked like a bedroom and it occurred to me that I was probably dreaming. Didn't bother to stabilize or anything, just immediately tried to walk through a wall.

Bonk. Failed. Tried again a few times. Nothing. Lost lucidity. Herp derp.

Later, had another dream where I was at my high school. I was outside the building and at the corner of a wall was some little chamber that was supposed to be used for sleeping. It was this little box about the size of an oven with a control panel on the front. I pushed a few buttons and decided that I wanted to sleep for a couple weeks. I then squished myself into the box and turned the lights off. I tried repeatedly to get into a comfortable position, putting blankets under my head as opposed to laying it on the metal floor of the box. This slowly transitioned into me waking up and realizing I was tossing and turning in bed

quite an interesting dream.
Im talking with an archaeologist , a very pretty women, and shes holding a big ostrich like egg.
She said that inside the egg laid one of the only 3 living dragons on earth. I asked her how did she get this egg?
she said: im freinds with a great scientist, this man found a way to clone some dna found on a dragons bones. With this dna he was able to fertilize a chicken so that it would make the egg. After a couple of weeks the experiment was a sucess, the egg was growing inside the chicken but it came to a point that it was too big for the chickens organs, so the chicken had to be sacrificed . The egg grew in the laboratory and when it hatched, out came the worlds prettiest creature the first ever dragon. With the living creature the scientist cloned it twice, and thus thats why i have an egg.

I was really amazed about the story and asked her where was the dragon, and how old was he?
she didnt know... until we heard an explosion, i was in a third floor and had a good view of the city.
The city was very similar to Stormwind,and we see a very large dragon, purple and with enormous wings, he spit fire non stop. It was like a killing machine, i quickly ran out of there and hurried home.

On my way home some buildings fell and it was like seeing a terrorist attack, panic everywhere.
Some lady came screaming outside, "dont worry its a goverments simulation its not real..:" i almost punched the poor old lady. when i got home i found everyone very normal, as if they hadnt heard anything but i yelled and stole a car, we left immediately to some house far away.. lame ending but i dont remember more =/ u.u

I don’t recall a time I was NOT alone
It’s just me, by myself.
All alone in this big, dark chamber,
Is anyone there?

Only an echo responds like a mirror.

Humpty Dumpty sat on the highest building, looking down.
He saw the twinkling lights from the city like stars
“I feel like an angel.”

He spotted two homeless teenagers; wondering.
A small one of the sibling looks up and shouted.
“Hey, there’s a dude trying to commit suicide!”
He continuously poked his ignorant brother in hurry.
“Hey! Look up!”

A weary brother had a hungry look;
He tiredly shook his head, saying
“It’s for a trend.”

His little brother stared at him in disbelief
‘I thought you’re my hero, bro.’
Nevertheless he repeatedly persisted,
“Save him!”

Humpty Dumpty smiled warmly
Good people shine the world brightly

Just then, the older one flared back,
“Why? We don’t even have a place to sleep, back off.”

Maybe I could help them with good deeds.

Little Munchkin had a mysterious treachery,
“Let’s charge him.”

Huh?

The brat smiled viciously
“For saving his life.”

Kept seeing fragments of the mines in Spelunky, pixels and all. There was a female character and I kept wondering if she was a dream guide, but I never really got a good look at her.

1) Billboard Computer

I was at a kids baseball game. I knew it was my son playing. They were losing 20-00. I wonder off and in another field. It is night time and the bleachers are empty. The lights are on and I see a billboard in front of my. It brightens and becomes a computer monitor. I try to get on dreamviews but nothing works right.

2) Horrible Growth

I was home and in the bathroom when I notice a strange growth on the side of my waist. It is about 3 inches long and 1 inch thick. I am horrified. I try to pop it by squeezing it. Some thick brown blood comes out the end. The growth feels hard like it has bone mass and warm like blood flow. I think about a weird story where a kid grew back an appendage and I wonder if I am growing something myself.

I go to my wife and show her in the living room. She has no idea. I tell her that I dont understand how I didnt notice it. It must have grown overnight. Our friend Jess is there and she suggests something. Then I notice I am completely naked. I appologize to Jess and run to the bathroom. I pull on the growth but it wont come off. I notice that it is only attached by a thin piece of skin. I steel myself and prepare to just cut it off. I know the wound would be small and not bleed too much. It will only hurt for a second. I think about what to use. I have a pair of dikes. I start to move to get it when the growth falls off in my hand. There is only a red mark on my skin. No blood.

I was in a hallway similar to an airport terminal. Inside was a small book shelf full of childrens books. Since I had nothing to do, I picked a book of of the shelf and began reading.

It was about a mad scientist that tried to bring things to life. He tried to use a train to bring automobiles to life, in the scene where he tied cars to the train and dragged them.

Eventually, I was no longer reading a book about it, but I was driving the train! I drove the train for a good few minutes before the scene changed..

I was at a public park in a city. The place was crowded as hell... I mean, crowded. I was fishing at the fountain, and like 5 other people were around me on my side of the fountain. Including a guy and a girl who were arguing. The girl was trying to talk to the guy, and the guy wanted her to leave him alone. From my perspective, I thought it was a girl hitting on a guy who didn't want anything to do with her. It turned out to be his sister annoying him. Their father yelled at the boy for being an asshole..

I befriended those DCs, and ran off to find work with them - I made around 30 dollars, and they made more money than me. I stayed the night in their house, and when I woke up, I found that I had only 10 dollars left. They robbed me! So I took all of their money as well as some sort of corded electronic device, and made a run for it.

I found myself cornered in some warehouse. I ditched the electronic thing and counted my money. Eventually I remembered the story about the train and the cars, and realized that I was dreaming. I tried to WAKE up from the dream, which proved to be totally weird. I felt like I went into SP, but I'm not sure if I actually did. All I know is that there was a lot of sensation, and a lot of confusion --

And then, I was in an office building on a high floor. Still Lucid, and aware that I was dreaming. I was wondering what it was that I was going to do? I wanted to fly but I couldn't find a window, I also wanted to stay with the story line of the dream, but I was distracted. I lost control and woke up.

-Wbtb WILD

Got vibrations for a bit then eventually full SP. When it went away I got up and felt really excited cause I was pretty sure I was dreaming. Did a noseplug RC to find that I was indeed dreaming. So i relaxed tried to calm down. I shouted clarity now really loud and firmly and a big orange aura flew out from my body around everything and the quality got better. While i was standing there I felt really sleepy and My eyes were sensitive to the light so I was squinting but it was still pretty good. I walked out my bedroom door and decided to see what kind of clothes I was wearing so I looked down. I had black shorts on and a gray hoody, unzipped half way with nothing underneath but my bare chest haha I looked stupid. I was about to go walk to my living room to see if my dogs were there but out of nowhere everything froze. It was the same way a computer would freeze it all just stopped. I couldn't move anywhere no matter what. So i tried to teleport to a new place to see if that would work. I closed my eyes and just thought of an open blue sky and clouds above me and jumped up flying upwards as fast as i could. I felt myself flying upwards and caught a glimpse of blue sky and clouds but all of the sudden I was just ended up lying on my bed again. I guess this is one of those false awakenings. I knew It was a FA but instead of going back into another dream, I just woke myself up and wrote in my journal. Not a very long dream but it was still pretty cool.

Woke up around 5:45 AM and decided to try taking a sore throat lozenge with menthol to see if it affected dreams. I also thought about attempting a WILD. However, I ended up dozing off too quickly. Also, the lozenge still hadn't fully dissolved by the time I woke up at 8:15 AM, so I don't think there was enough in my system to make an impact.

I'm home alone, so I think I can strip down to a tank top and panties while walking around the house. While I'm in the kitchen, I hear a noise from the entryway. I'm initially nervous because I'm not expecting anyone. I peek around a corner and see Lady Diana Spencer (from her Shy Di days before getting married). She seems to want to hang out like she's my big sister. I'm a little befuddled for a moment, not sure if I should point out to her that technically, she's dead. She also makes a reference to my upcoming wedding, but I can't remember if I'm engaged or not. I start wondering if maybe she means that I'll be marrying one of Charles's younger brothers. While Di gets comfortable, I am distracted by the sight of my winter boots near the doorway. They look like they've been worn in deep snow, and I feel I need to polish them before they get stained.

I woke up before Diana and I could really get talking. It would have been interesting to see what she had to say.

All that I can remember is that I was starting to chew on some steel cables (about 1/4 of an inch thick), and the more I chewed on it the more it became like normal chewing gum. I think there was gravel on the ground surrounded by trees. There was also a beautiful girl there. I can't remember her face but I remember it was very pretty.

There was another dream that I recorded in my dream journal. unfortunately my DJ is audio, so I couldn't make out anything that I was saying.

My recall is terrible lately, and I'm not sure why. Yesterday I didn't recall anything. Today I can only remember two dreams, and only parts of those

Dream One: I get a call from people mentioned in an entry a few days back. L calls me, and wants me to come over and hang out. In the dream my kids are napping, so I leave them with my grandmother and go visit L. When I get there, I realize that L and B live together, and for some reason I think this is odd. I feel like B had a crush on L, because B is gay, and I wonder how the whole living together when L isn't is working out. I wonder if L even knows B likes him, but decide not to say anything. We hang out, and L is a lot more playful and cheerful than I ever thought he was (again, L was a friend of a friend that I lost years ago, I never really knew him well, just saw him with the friend every now and then. I don't really know what his personality is like, just what I assumed it was like from what I saw when I saw him with the friend. I have no clue why he keeps showing up in my dreams :/ ) For some reason we go outside, and there's a swimming pool with a cargo net hanging above it so you can limb the net and fall into the water. L climbs it, and jumps down, ridiculously jovial the entire time. I keep wondering to myself, was he always this happy? And I feel completely out of place because I'm not an athletic person, and I really don't see what's so fun about climbing a net and falling back into the water over and over again. B is standing back looking pretty smug, so I step back to talk to him, and somehow the conversation drifts to the crush it seems like he has on L. He tells me he did have a crush on L, but doesn't so much anymore. Then he tells me that he's glad I'm not having as much fun with L because he was afraid L and I would become good friends and he would have been really jealous of that. L comes back in, and I ask him what kid of job he has that he can afford a pool w/ a cargo net. He tells me he's buying and reselling houses, and I find that odd considering the current economy. Then I wake up before I can question it enough to become lucid.

Dream Two (fragment): I'm in bed with someone, snuggling up against him. It's daylight in the dream though, and I have no clue who the person was as I never saw his face. I feel like I'm at some sort of convention or something, but it's weird, like it's more about music that Anime or Manga, so maybe it wasn't a convention but a music festival or something. The door opens, and some friends who I don't actually talk to, just chat on FB a lot with, come in the room. They want up to hurry up and wake up and get ready to go down to the street where there's going to be a party? I think one of the friends was going to paint our faces because she's a face painter.

Supplement Dose: 3 York Peppermint Patties

#1 - Temporary Apartment [Non-Lucid]

This dream is sort of hard to remember because I was distracted for most of it, but I was at some new apartment with my parents that I think we were moving into, but only temporarily. We might have just been staying there for a bit, but it was only us (i.e., we weren't staying with someone). I remember that my mom was looking for my cat to feed him, and he was eventually found to be hiding under the coffee table in the living room, and I was kind of narrating this all to myself and making a log of it in my phone. I think I was also posting on DV somehow, but then I woke up, really horny for *cough* some reason.

#2 - Make Yourself At Home [Non-Lucid]

I was staying in some pretty big house, housesitting for the owners. My libido was running pretty strong in this dream. There were two dogs there that I was supposed to be looking after but I needed to get them out of the way, so I put them in the laundry room or something and closed the door, then spontaneously decided to masturbate on the kitchen floor. o.o I decided to have the lights off for it, but I think turning them off caused the dream to skip forward to the next scene. I vaguely remember the blackness and feeling myself on the floor for a second, but then my memory picks up again later where I had apparently invited J to come over and hang out with me there. While I was talking to him about something I had the random urge to look down at what I was wearing. If I remember correctly, I had on what appeared to be a small, fancy black dress skirt paired with a totally ordinary orange t-shirt. For some reason, this only increased my horniness. (I think it was the skirt that did it. >w<) Somehow, around this time the plot changed to be so that there was a family party going on at this house, which also contained a buffet restaurant in it now. I sampled a ton of different food which I felt and tasted completely, it was all pretty delicious, except for some guacamole at the end which is unfortunately the only one I vividly remember. X) I recall my cousin AB asking me about it, and I told her it wasn't very fresh anymore. Before that too, at some point, I was talking to my grandma about different foods I was looking for, and she told me to try to find some sausage but I told her I'd rather get some bacon. (Oh man, that would be great right about now....) Shortly after the guacamole thing, though, I woke up.

(i recall multiple dream fragments)
1) one other person and i are on a small raft in the ocean, the sun is setting and we paddle towards it, 2)it is night time, i wonder a urban area and find a area where there are 5 to 10 dog houses in the parking lot of a store i see a dog in one and a lady wearing a fur coat tells me "i don't want him growing up to be mean so don't harm him" in a slightly annoyed voice. 3) my triops hatch and i feed them as they swim in their tank. 4) my friend and i are in a school kitchen and they give up peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, as i eat it i taste the most offensive flavor i believe i have ever tasted, its like soap mold and skunk .they ask our opinion and i try to politely say it wasn't good but what i end up saying is "its ok" 5)there is a mechanical spider and a biological spider on the floor, the biological spider got stepped on and someone starts telling me about how "nothing is indestructible but machines."

Dream 1: I had almost become lucid because I dreamed that I had broken one of my teeth. I went to the dentist and I kept saying "This can't be real. I must be dreaming." I did a reality check, but it didn't work. I couldn't breathe through my nose. I was also fighting some war, too. Beyond frustrating.

Dream 2: AGAIN, I almost became lucid, but the reality check failed. I dreamed that everynight I would go out and fly to try and go to some camp to help out with something (I think it was fighting a creature or something.) I ran out of my house and then onto the street. At first, I thought I wasn't going to fly. I started running and then I began to fly. It was a great feeling. I had trouble controlling it, though. I kept drifting and I couldn't really do much else besides float there. Some other people were flying as well, lol. I remember thinking of my fear of heights, but I didn't care.

07.10.2012

Nuke Building Infiltration (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This picture is from the Peace Walker game of Metal Gear Solid, but it's the only one that reminds me of the Nuke Building at the moment.

I'm going to focus on the environment and people in the dream, because I honestly don't know why I'm back to infiltration again.

I think I'm going to take Melanieb's advice on paying attention to your environments to make even the shortest dreams pretty long.

I remember standing at an enclosed section, and it's basically an almost perfect replica of the first floor of the Nuke building in Metal Gear Solid 1.

This means that in order for the environment to stay true to the original stage, I couldn't fire any weapons, otherwise the whole place explodes. Which explains why things were a little intense for me.

I had to pay attention to a lot of the guards' movements, sometimes even having to wait it out several times to make sure they didn't have to alter their patrol route.

And like the original stage, there were some floors that I had to be careful stepping on, because if I tried to run, it will make more noise than usual.

Those same floors had some ventilation paddings on them, so they would make that loud "clank clank clank" sound if I were to go over them. I think I was controling Naked Snake, not Solid Snake, because the outfit I/he was wearing was from MGS3, so it couldn't have been Solid Snake.

Hmm....I'm still having that doubt of whether or not I'm controlling someone in a video game, if it's me, or it's both me controlling and being that person simultaneously.

It felt weird for him to have that kind of outfit suited for jungle sneaking in a nuke building. The atmosphere had a slight yellow hue to it, and it was so apparent, it's like I was inhaling and exhaling energy.

The outfit was the generic one in MGS3, the same outfit used when Snake did the HALO jump

The common behaviors for me in this dream were being fearful, because I couldn't let an enemy fire a gun in a nuke building, and the other is a surprise.....I was still calm. I felt a neutrality from my emotions of fear and cautious nature, and I could feel and hear myself breathing for once.

It's just that all I focus on is sight and more specific sounds like gunfire, foot steps, or even people having a conversation, but never anything that I'm exhibiting like breathing, etc.

After I figured out the guards' movements, I think things fast forward a little bit.......literally. It was like watching a video clip on some kind of survival stimulation, it was crazy, I was so close to one of the guard's backs, that the only reason I could do that is if I knew this area inside and out.

I think this is why the dream itself fast forward like crazy.

I think the reason I had this dream, was probably because of my desire to meet my eternal self, or just to go to the Akashic Records again.

But what I don't understand is that if that were the case, and knowing that the Akashic Records can be acesses at any time, but because of the brain's mechanism of trying to define the "phenomenon" or "location," it seems it wants to make this information for me to obtain difficult than it should be.

I honestly am not the type for these infiltration missions, I mean sure I like sneaking games and all that, but if it were actually me on the battlefield or in a building, I would definitely need a guide, or do the analyzing of guard movement to even stand a chance.

Maybe it's not my subconscious' way of perceiving the confidentiality of the Akashic Records, maybe it's something my higher self/eternal self is trying to show me.

I know I have a few things to take care of that can affect my future right now, but these are mostly short term things that must be resolved, but again, none of which that are deserving for this type of dream environment to be manifested before me.

I could conclude that these dreams should teach me to not try to rush things that are dangerous and life-threatening such as the nuke building I was in. But even with something so obvious as that, there has to be more.....I can't just be in a nuke building, or whatever military building without some kind of reason.

And if that reason turns out just to be for the thrill or adventure, then I guess I need to change how I get that need met in my dreams.

I've also noticed something, but was too afraid to analyze. It's so obvious, but still, in my non-lucids, I'm usually always in some kind of infiltration.

Actually, let me rephrase that, nearly all sneaking missions, gunfire, killing, military, infiltration, etc. are all non-lucid states.

My lucid dreams are obviously geared towards real life environments like colleges, houses I've been to, etc., things related to the subconscious utilizing homologous variation to synch the piece together.

I know that if I wanted a sneaking mission in a lucid state, it probably wouldn't work out because I'm not that creative as yet in the lucid state. I know I can use archetypes to easily manifest these types of dreams, but maybe I just don't want to do that in my lucids.

It would probably just feel like a waste, and I would only do it if I was bored.

Hm.....guess I should be aware of those differences.

And if I end up having bad recall, I'll just be grateful for what I do remember, and recall as much detail as I can in that confined snippet, and remember more based on that.

It's something I've done frequently, but it's just because I'm slacking off a bit because I'm being distracted in waking life a lot, at least in Canada.

I guess that's a good thing, because I'm supposed to be doing things here in the first place, otherwise the money for the trip wouldn't have been worth it, right?