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lastnight i had a dream about a guy ive been hooking up with for the past 6 mothis or so...
we arent dating, and i dont think he likes me but ive always like him....any ways..
the dream took place at his apartment, and he was in his room with another girl, i assume his ex girlfriend, and they were hooking up, and i was trying to get in his room to stop him from hooking up with another girl, then his dad appearded in my dream and was holding me back telling me i couldnt do anything about it...
i just remember trying so hard to get him to see me and see that i was there for him, but he was busy shackin up some chik id never seen.

All of the sudden I started feeling all ecstasy like and im like oo im dreaming then the world jus went hell trippey and everything started floating and nothing was real and all the pain was gone nd my legs worked again and I felt beterr'
then I played madden at a friends house in a different dream yeaaa

Sitting across a dinner table from a girl I cant stop thinken bout latley
Next I am at a ski resort with my mom and a friend flying up this ski lift that takes us to the top of heavenly
It is litterally heavenly snow is amazingly powderey and everyone snowboarding and skiing is extremley good.
I felt a little socially out of place since im not as good as everyone else and this distracted me from becoming lucid because I should have realized people cant jus do flips from the ground. Anyway I got off the chairlift which was I high speed to seater and it led me off to a conver bely circle thing where I picked up my board. I got it then skiid off to the left with little struggles. Cant remember what I was wearing. Next I saw my mom and she was going to chilll back while me and my friend skiid. Some guy talked to us about not skiing the schoolyard cuz u culd get hurt and that’s basically it

Jail Dream

I had a dream that me and three other friends were put into a Jail, the only difference that this Jail wasn’t really a Jail there were no bars and no jail. IT was more of a Hotel with three really shitty beds. WE had a TV in our room and I was playing Gameboy. Art was watching us and we pissed em off once for being to loud. Later we drove around nd I got into an argument withi a friend nd I stoped talking to him for a while. I then was inside a party taking pictures with people and some kidd had just copped a fat old bad of ecstasy nd people were buying them off hi, I then ended up in an arcade room with some cute girls and we talked flirted and attempted to win the video games. I ended up in the end smoking a bong with asher roth and eminem.

Found some time to write the rest!

Awake Non-Lucid

So, Arron the wolf and I are going to hunt Rochelle and complete the game.

The woods are still dark, but I find a small tunnel. I manage to crawl through, until I come across two girls my age.

They're part of the game. I hit one, causing her face to hit the tunnel, the other one snaps a picture, and then punches me.

I float upwards, through the tunnel. She killed me, but the game isn't complete. It looks like she's dead too. I am not human anymore, or not in human form. I'm simply there.

I realise that in the middle of the forest is a large, field like square patch of sand. There's a building in the middle. Two guys stand next to each other on it. The sky is red, with black clouds hanging in the air.

A voice rings out. It says that the two men will fight to the death. The survivor will win the game. I float closer, to get a better look. One of them is short and bald. He's covered in thin, golden tattoos and is chinese. The other is taller, arrogant looking, and from korea.

The Korean man wins. I drop onto the building to start a new game. The Korean guy attacks me. I back flip, kicking him in the face. The two girls scream and rush forwards. I have no experience in fighting but the moves come from no where. I spin my hands around, punching, kicking and flipping about like people in videogames. Eventually I get hit though, and I die again.

Planet Moon is under massive attack by Dark Templars riding android horses with glowing red eyes.

Moon Orcs and Moon Dragons fight back.

The people of Hollow Moon pour out. The look like burning shadows. fucking terrifying. It seems as if they have a fire energy core in a dark energy skin. They slash the Templars.

I become consumed with dark energy. I cackle maniacally and morph into a werewolf. My symbiote giggles incessantly. I form a storm inside my belly, and shooting dark energy tentacles at all the Templars, then channel lightning down my tentacles. The Templars get electrocuted, and I spin them, tossing them into different dimensions.

The King of Hollow Moon says we must leave for we attracted the invaders.

I refuse.

He says we can move our entire dreamscape Planet Moon off the old Moon with just a thought.

I move Planet Moon off of the old Moon, right next to it.

The King grunts in approval, then shakes my hand, and nods.

I stare at the two moons: One Green, one Grey.

I stare in silence for what feels like hours or even days.

I watch all the life on both Moons.

Then, I see the entire universe is teeming with life, but we can only perceive an tiny percentage. I see creatures like plankton swimming through space.

I ask Xaphor if many people may now be able to perceive the Green Moon.

He whispers: many.

I remember very little about my dreams. Actually, I only recall one snippet now.
I ran out of my Celexa and my pdoc is out of town this week, so I took 100 mg of Seroquel instead. I normally only take 50 mg and sporadically at that, but my anxiety is flairing up, so I took more (I'm prescribed 100 mg but only take 50 because it knocks me out).
I slept for almost an entire day lol.
My kids came in at one point to ask me to drive them somewhere and they quickly realized I was too doped up to drive. I had slept ALL day before they woke me, but I spoke as if drunk and kept falling asleep while talking to them.

I woke for a couple hours last night.

The only snippet I recall was talking religion to someone. They were blaming God for something bad that had happened and I tried explaining that Satan is the cause of the bad, not God. The person's attitude was like "yeah, whatever, sure."

I could go back to sleep now, but I took a caffeine pill to try to stay awake.
No more 100 mg for me no matter how bad the adrenaline flares become lol!!!

NOTES

Dark Vegeta.

On the Moon.

Raven passes out, and gets kidnaped by an imp to a pocket dimension. Xaphor and a Wyrm called ViRUS help me.

We go down the wormhole.

Raven is tied to a board, and is being carried by a procession of goblins to a sacrificial stone on a hill. A battle ensues.

I make my symbiote merge with my energy shield to absorb the attacks as I protect Raven. I teleport she and I away to the Healing Glen in Arctica.

The Frost Giant says her aura is infected. Another version of Raven appears and plays music. She's an angelic version.

***

I have poor recall on this dream, but basically there were several women vying for the position of host for a radio show or as an advertising spokesperson. They were all trying to earn a vote.

This one lady came up to me and put her face up against mine to seduce my vote. She kind of ended up kissing me, and then knocking me over a couch or onto a bed.

Her appearance changed to another woman who slid down the covers. She put her face close to my groin. I thought how nice it was, but she could just go ahead and give me what I really want. She kind of starts to, but never really did. I felt good, but I was disappointed I couldn't get her to commit.

I woke up and had to go to the bathroom. Maybe drinking the perfect amount of liquid could induce a sexual dream in a man without waking him up. Hmmmmm.

Pug Genocide and the Obstacle Course

I’m on my street walking two dogs, a Pomeranian and a pug. I make sure to keep them walking on the right side of the road, and my dream-mind thinks of how much I like the direction of East. I have trouble keeping them out of the roads but I manage to take them to my destination: a big building with all the kids from school waiting in line outside. There’s something going on, but I don’t really know what. I notice that if I get in line, I’ll be waiting for hours. It’s extremely hot out, the peak of summer.

I see my Uncle Pat come at me from a distance. He has a shot gun. Suddenly I am being pulled to the ground. I can’t see anything and my dogs are taken. Hands are over me. I am put in a car. I open my eyes. I’m in the backseat. My mom’s in front with my Nana and the dogs are here in the back. The windows are rolled up and we’re all sweating really hard because of the heat.

“You can’t take Pugs out in the open,” my Nana says. She explains that they are being killed off, and my Uncle is one of the men who shoots them. I don’t know why it’s happening. I roll a window down and shove my face out. It’s a little refreshing. I draw things in the thick condensation that’s formed on the windows.

They drop me off at my dream-house, where I’m staying. It’s night time. I take the dogs into a shed and ruffle through a few boxes. I find a purple wig and put it on. In the mirror, I look the same, and my wig looks really funny. I can’t fit all my hair under it.

I go into the house. I’m staying with an autistic boy and his autistic friend. They annoy me, not because they’re autistic, but they won’t leave me alone for a moment. I try to run into my room and quickly close the door, but they get in. I do it again, forcefully and lock the door. The dogs play around in my room.

The scene jumps to me going back to the building with the school kids. It’s daytime again, but the same day, just a few hours later. No one is outside and I see the tail end of the line going in. Shit. To go in, you walk up some stairs on the side of the building, so I do that. The next part is the beginning of a big obstacle course. I didn’t know that was what this was.

Derek, my friend, is in front of me. After the stairs, you climb through a window-esque opening. I do so, but after casually going through, I am almost falling off a circular ledge that leads from the outside to the inside. Below me, all the kids are doing their obstacles or just watching me fall. This is the first part, and I’m already failing. Well I didn’t know about it, so I don’t feel that bad, I don’t really care about this. The ledge is absolutely terrifying, however.

I fall more, and I’m dangling half inside half outside the building, my hands on the ledge.

“Fuck all you hoes,” I say (lols) and manage to lift myself up. I slink around the ledge and come to a bigger part of it. Kayla, a schoolmate, is in back of me. There are two doorways. They are both extremely small. I enter one, and it gets blistering hot as I walk through. I take off my hoodie, and my mind says this is why my dream has been so hot. It’s still hot in the hallway. It zigzags vertically and becomes too small to fit through. I look back and see Kayla has taken the other hallway, the correct choice. Shit, failed again.

Scene change to the end of the course. I’ve probably come in last, but I’m hanging out with the first place and second place kids until they make a final announcement. It’s kind of like a break time. First place is “Heather”, although it doesn’t look like her and she keeps taking her glasses off (which she doesn’t have in waking life) and saying how she can’t see.


Circle Class

I am in a big fancy house and I am going to interview someone. They bring me to the “tea room”, which is a huge circular white room. I sit down.

Scene change to me sitting in the room, but in a desk. There are about thirty desks all arranged in a circular way. I see Jack sitting on the other side of the circle. I’m talking to Megan, a childhood friend, and Derek, a friend from school. We talk for a long time, most of the dream, but I don’t remember dialogue much. My mouth is really dry.

I look down the line and see Heather talking to a friend, Aimee. I get a jealousy pang but remember that I’m having a quite good time myself here talking with Megan. We are sitting in rolly chairs and I spin around the room, having some fun.

For some reason, a lot of people start to leave. I think they’ll come back so I wait. Eventually it’s just me and a few kids near Jack who are really dedicated students and wouldn’t leave a class. I know everyone is having a good time without me, and I get very upset. I see Derek left me a drawing. It’s really good, and on the back it has a black scratch area. It reveals rainbow colors if you scratch it away. I doodle on it and think about what Heather is doing without me. I do some funny things to entertain the students, who laugh, but I can’t close my mouth. It’s too dry!

I wake up, and have the worst dry mouth. I drink water and go back to bed.



Fragment

I am in Goodwill with my mom and someone else. This girl Emily who is really disgusting is here. She points to a sailing instrument, a tiny globe that has a handle under it that controls a grid laying over the earth. It tells you longitude and latitude numbers. I really want it, but it’s thirty dollars. I carry it around and slip it into my pocket.

I check out the records and they have video game soundtracks. I really want the Donkey Kong 64 Part 2 (doesn’t exist!) soundtrack, or the Banjoe Tooie. No money, oh well. I think about telling my friend Lotie about them, because she just got a record player.

I look at a television playing something on a shelf. A thought comes to mind that my mom had cancer in my dream or something. The dream details on this, but I don’t recall any of it.


Fragment

It’s a year later than now, and I “wake up” in a daze into the new present time, knowing nothing of the past year. I ask Heather all the things we did in the passing year, and have my mom tell me some things we did too. I go to a park with my mom and dad and my dad uncovers my old bike from under a hiding spot. He said I put it there last year.


Fragment
I'm in my first room ever. On the ground there are two vests, identical. Weird, I think. Why would that happen? I could be dreaming. I become lucid, look at the vests, and see they are remarkably different. I wake up.

Comment Dream Lucid
Amount of sleep: 10.5 hours
Supplement before sleep: Fanta exotic
Epic: 8.1/10
Real: 6.5/10


I was in a house that felt like being on top of a mountain. I was at a guy who had injured himself. the house was designed as a large aircraft. I knew none of those who was there.
The house was almost like our cabin only reversed, it was stairs going down instead of up, the rooms were almost the same place, and the kitchen and living room was where they should be.

Later I went skiing or something in a high mountain pass, it was a dive on one side and a large frozen lake on the other side. (Clear references to our cabin and the cabin area of these dreams) I was with a large group, I would see off the cliff next to a stick that was sticking up with a red banner on it. (Just as those who show the way in the desert in the game Ocarina of Time) I slid down, but no one helped me up, but I got myself up. there was a lady (with dark hair, but not the same woman as before) who said that I should slope down in the hill there. I said that I would break every bone in my body. she said what and I said then we would have to go to the hospital. On my way up I saw a red banner over the lake.(Maybe showing me another path here) The whole group was heading towards a cave, right by where I slid down. (It was more of the banners farther away, I drew a drawing.

I landed at an airport. It was like the airport was high in the sky also, the gates floated, and it looked like a space station. Then suddenly I was down under the platforms (the gates). It was a football field. I think it was a local team playing. The arena was bigger than any football court I have seen, but there were no people in the stands, for there were no spectators, only big fat walls. I sat down in a staircase. the walls were blue, and of plastic, as were the stairs, just like you'd expect in a swimming hall. but the color of the stairs was gray. there were white lines under the blue. Some of my buddies walked towards me, so then I ran up the stairs, and was on top again.

I was high in the sky all the time in these dreams. I dunno why. I also dreamt that I got my paycheck somewhere in those dreams. I wonder if the numbers are correct with what I actually get.

There's a party at my Grandparent's house, and I'm sat at a table with a few other girls out on the lawn, facing the ocean. One of the girls is getting married soon (shock and surprise, this dream sign did not shake me), and I tell her I have some advice for her as I got married recently (I didn't). I go looking in the house for my notebook (actually the one I was looking for looks just like my dream journal). I find my cousin in the kitchen, she's really drunk and irrate. I see that she's trying to make a small plate of nacho chips for the ladies, but for some reason she's put a dollop of whipped cream on the top. In her drunken state, she's accidently squished that dollop under her chin. The remnants of the whipped cream are still hanging there, off her chin. She's ranting about something, now she seems more upset and sad. I tell her she should slow her drinking down as we will be going all night, and she needs to pace herself.
I go back to the table to impart my wisdom upon the girls and the dream ends.

Original Date: 3/8/2011
Type: False Awakening - Partial Lucid
Dream:

I woke up and walked into my living room, went over and looked through the blinds out the window (like I usually do) and it was still dark outside (like it usually is) and noticed my neighbor had like 3 other cars of visitors over there (which takes up all the space of where we have to park), and then I noticed my car was not there! So I was looking over to the right farther and saw that my car had been moved, but I didn't understand how and knew it had to have been while I was sleeping, someone had to have come into my house gotten my keys and moved my car while I was sleeping!! I went to the door and saw that it was not closed all the way and the lock/bolt was sticking out but the door not shut, like it was locked but not closed. Somehow I knew instantly that my neighbor had come into my house and did this and I actually started seeing images of this in my mind in my dream. Then I opened my door and I was looking around... my old best friend was sitting in the dark on a curb, she said something to me, but I couldn't make it out. She came inside and I knew then that I was dreaming*. So I decided to skip past an RC because I knew I was dreaming and I knew exactly what I wanted to do... I wanted to walk to my bedroom and see myself sleeping. So my best friend followed me into my bedroom, but when I got there, my body was not in the bed, the bed was empty. I was disappointed because I expected to see myself lying there, but I just saw my bed all unmade and pillows strewn around it. Then I looked at my best friend and we started to make out (which was very strange to me) and then I woke up. (I think I lost lucidity because I didn't know what to do after my expectation of me not being in my bed was disproved.)

Feelings:
Exposure, violation, surprise, disappointment, curiousity

*Side Note:
I am becoming lucid when my dreams take place in my current home, I'm beginning to know instantly when I am in my living room (which is where I practice my waking RCs the most) that I am dreaming.

DJ Log: March 8, 2011 – 7:30AM (USA Eastern)
Text color legend: · NON-DREAM · NOTES · DREAM · LUCID ·

There was quite a many shopping mall parts before this, but my recall wasn't too good this morning.

I am walking through a shopping mall, then into in a goth-industrial clothing store. I pick out a really fuzzy black and red striped hat, then walk toward the rear of the store, dropping the hat off at the cash register on the way by, There is a rack of discounted t-shirts that looks really interesting, so I flip through them for a bit. None of them really interest me, so I walk back toward the front of the store to dig through a rack of fishnet shirts. There is a black and red striped fishnet shirt that looks like it would match the hat. It has a sale tag on it, but the tag only has a bar code and a bunch of random numbers on it. While I am looking at it, three guys walk by me and into a darkened side room just off the front of the store. One of the guys grabs me by the arm and pulls me into the room with them. One of the guys pulls out a bowl and packs it up with some really smelly weed. They each take a hit, then pass it to me without a lighter. I reach in my pocket for a lighter, then wake up. When I got out of bed, the first words in my mind were, “Never pass a dream bowl to someone without a lighter.”

I was on a bus with my brother , right beside the driver there was a DDR arcade
brother: Go play ; Me: You sure? won't the noise bother him? ; brother: ofcourse it won't, go play.
I got on it and pressed the start button and I hear music; driver: It's a bit loud!; I noticed it was true but I didn't care, I had to choose a character... wtf I see an ugly guy, I thought whatever I choose him, then I see 5 more ulgy guys to choose and I think okay I'll just choose them and play.

Then I'm playing a RPG shooter game with my brother I take out some guys coming from diferent directions.

I'm in my mothers car and she's driving us three to a supermarket.

Awake Non-Lucid Vivid

I'm up town with some friends. Some other people who I don't usually talk to are here too. I ignore them, and joke with my friends.

My mum comes up to me and drags me into a shop. She grabs an off the shoulder white top and pulls it on me, and then puts a black corset on over it.

"Mum! What are you doing?" I gasp as she pulls on the string on the back, making it very, very tight.

She ignores me, and pulls a black cardigan out of her bag, putting it on me. She dusts her hands off, looking over me. She smiles, pleased with herself.

"Just make sure you keep that corset tight." She says. Then she kisses me on the cheek, and leaves.

I go back to my friends. "Who wants a frappacino?" I ask. We walk to the nearest Starbucks. Most of the people have left, and it's just me, Rochelle and Arron.

I find that we've walked down a forest path. I know this path, I take my dogs out walking here. The three of us start to get a bit hyper, laughing and pushing eachother around playfully.

Arron chases us, and we run. I get into a more serious mood and I realise we're playing hidey. I run forward fast, Rochelle just in front of me. We run deeper into the forest, until there is no path.

Suddenly it's dark. I can barely see at all. I hear a snarl from behind me, and turning slightly, see that Arron has turned into a black wolf. I panic slightly, and push myself to run faster. We're lost, it's nightime and I can barely see a thing. Just black and grey shapes in front of me.

But maybe that's a good thing. I veer off, slowing down, trying to be as quiet as possible because I'm assuming he can't see me. But I step on a twig and it cracks. The wolf Arron pads up to me.

"Gotcha." He says. What? I thought this was serious now. I thought he would eat me. I laugh in relief. "Want to work together to hunt down Rochelle? Either that or you die." He says, giving a wolfy shrug.

I won't actually die, or at least, not until the game is finished. But I agree.

I'm gonna write the rest (part two?) later because I need to go!

Again i had to leave the writing to school coz i had no time for it in the morning, god I HATE school beginning so early, i barely get enough sleep in first place.

Dream 1:
I was in a wooden house where i was when our neighours had their 100 year marriage.
(both had just turned 50 and gone married at same time)
I was just sitting there in a wooden bench and my old school mate just walked by so i so said hi to him and we had little conversation and i told him that i had gone to upper secondary school instead of vocational school.

Later i was at my friends house talking to some exhange students, we had little conversation where we spoke english but i had to explain my bad english by that i never speak english while write and read it pretty much every day.

I had pretty high awareness in those dreams but nothing weird happened so no lucids today.