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Dream 1-- Peter Breaks my computers

I am in my room. I am on my huge bean bag chair (called a LoveSac) and I am typing on my laptop. I have a huge blanket over me so that I can only see a sliver of reality, the rest is blocked out by the blanket. As I am typing, I look above my computer because I hear a noise coming from my bathroom. I concentrate really hard on the little space that I can see in my bathroom without moving. I have these thoughts running through my mind like who could it be, what could be happening, and I think I come up with a scenario in my head that ends up being real.

I continue to stare at the open space for about a minute, suddenly there is a shadowy figure that I see pass from left to right. It startles me, but I try not to move, thinking that if its a burglar or something he will come out side and not be able to tell I am underneath the blanket. I wait, and I see him pushing a black box to the side and messing with some wires behind it. Randomly, I get an insight that this is Peter and he is going to throw my computer out of the window. I get up quickly and jump out of one of the windows furthest from the bathroom. I am now outside, there is snow around here but I do not feel cold. I see a black fence to the left of me and the brick building I just jumped out of to the right. If I continue to look straight, I see piles of snow on the ground all the way down the aisle until it turns into a large square courtyard at the end of the brick building.

As I am looking ahead, I see my computer smashing out of the window and crashing to the ground. I run over to the computer, and verify that it is mine. Then I have this flash of insight that he must see my laptop and will throw it out the other window. So I run over but he jumps out of the window and tries to fight me. He looks really evil, but he also looks very normal. At this point I am super pissed actually. I am really angry, I throw two kicks to the stomache that both land, but don't seem to do anything, and then he charges forward, but I kick a third time and land one to the face. There is a "thud" sound as my blow lands. He says 'when you kick me it sounds like "omph"' I get more angry because I can't seem to punch or kick very hard. We fight for a while but he isn't landing any blows on me, I just feel like I am getting lucky. I will kick him twice in the stomache again, and he rushes forward right into a kick to the face. Once I do that combo twice, he runs back into my room, and I immediately realize he is going to throw my laptop out.

I sprint over and as he pushes the laptop out the window I push it back into the room. Then I start screaming and crying at him like "How could you do this at this time? We have been friends for so long why are you fucking everything up? I hate you" I can barely get the words out of my mouth because I am screaming so loudly and the crying is clogging up my throat. I keep trying to speak, but I evenutally can't anymore and I wake up.

Dream 2-- Mall Cop Busts Me

My mom and I are walking through a mall. We are trying to get to the school talent show, so we are trying t o hurry. As we are hurriedly walking, I see a path that goes straight and two paths that curve a little to the outside around a counter. These two counters on either side of the straight path appear to be the cash register and check out line for a store, but I don't want to waste the time. At the other end of the counter, I see three men standing there talking. A flash of insight makes me think that they are the owners of this little store, and they all look over at me and I approach the straight path.

At first, I feel kind of embarrassed and stupid for walking straight when I have the feeling that it would be trouble, but inertia and the sense that I need to get to the show quick makes me just go straight anyways. When I approach the end of the counters, a mall cop to my left says something like "You can't walk through there" and I say something snappy in return like "I just did" The mall cop doesn't like that response and tells me to come with him. We walk over to this corner where there are 4 chairs and a podium arranged so that if you are looking at it head on it appears to be an upside down U with 2 chairs making one vertical line, 2 chairs making the top, and the podium making the second vertical line. The cop starts filling out a form or something.

Then, a really hot girl walks by me gets about 1-2 ft in front of me, and turns around. She is gorgeous. blonde, a little short, blue eyes, white, freckles, white teeth, necklace, brown overcoat, pink shirt, Jeans. We start talking and she isn't breaking eye contact with me the whole time and we are both just smiling while we speak. I see her brother come in out of the corner of my eye, and he starts talking to her. Then this third guy comes over and starts hitting on the girl. I am still standing the in the same place this whole time and just looking at the hot girl. As the third guy tries to talk to her, the brother walks in really close to the girl like he is telling her a secret with his whole body, and then moves himself inbetween the girl and the guy, but I'm still able to talk to the girl freely.

Then the cop says "fill this out." I turn around facing the podium and now my mom is to the left of me. I see that there are random scribblings on the sheet, so I don't really do anything specific but it ends up letting us go. We start walking away.

Dream 3-- Piano Talent Show

As we walk away, we pass through a door way. There is secondary blackness and then I find myself carrying a piano into the backstage room for the talent show at my school. It's in Dechard Theater and through the side stage doors I can see my wrestling coach and some other people that are just crowded in there. I lug my keyboard and stand in there and walk a little toward the back. Then the person in front of me in order finishes, and I go out on stage. I walk rather slow and don't really look to the side. I'm starting to feel really nervous and I have this feeling like I haven't practiced anything. My whole mind is blank. I plug in the keyboard to this outlet on the side of a huge cube. I walk over to the piano, look out at the audience and start playing.

I don't know what I am doing at all, it sounds really horrible, but somehow I am taking pleasure from playing this badly. I close my eyes and start to play. I don't even know if I am hitting the keys anymore but I can vividly hear the music in my head. It sounds really familiar to me because I would play the exact song whenever I was just messing around on my keyboard. I play for maybe 1 minute. I think that I am doing pretty good but it must seem rather novice compared to some others, luckily I am not making mistakes though. I'm trying so hard not to show any emotion this whole time. I don't smile, I don't get sad, I don't do anything except clench my jaw I think. I feel like it gets really hot and my face might've gotten red. At the end of the minute, I open my eyes and stop playing. No one applauds, and it's kind of awkward.

So I unplug my keyboard and go backstage. I see Lyle and he gives me a smirk that seems like he is going to laugh at me. I just keep walking and don't pay attention. I see another guy and the same thing happens. Then I stand so that I can see out the side doors and watch the next performer. As I am watching H. Huffines perform, Frisen starts talking to me. He is a little taller than me and he is standing to my left.

After talking to him for 10 seconds, we are suddenly driving in his car. I still have to do the same motion to talk to him/look at him but now we are driving down a road. We start having friendly conversation, but I get massively PassObs and in my head about what we are talking about. I feel like the conversation is getting awkward, I don't really know what to talk about. I am listening to how he is responding to me and his silences freak me out and make me feel really awkward.

We pull up to these two black poles that are just sitting in the middle of the road. We realize we cant pass them without getting in the left lane, so he backs up and then goes into the left lane. I don't remember what happens after that.

FA-- Dean texts and Sullivan talks

I false awaken on the coach I'm sleeping on, and I get this text message saying how facebook is totally closed down except for the Blair Account, which I interpret to mean Blair Witch and that it's a secret. I get this message from Dean and I want to respond back what he is talking about or what the account is, but J. Sullivan comes up and starts talking to me. I can barely see his face over the couch, but we are having a conversation. He keeps pacing back and forth during our conversation while I am just looking in the same place not moving at all. I get massively PassObs because of my immobility, and the same thing happens like the other conversations, things start to go black and I wake up for real.

Dream Fragment 4- College Class Gone crazy

I am sitting in a college classroom at the back right corner of the room. There is one guy sitting next to me and there are other people spread out all over the room sitting in chairs facing away from me and toward the teacher at the front. The teacher is describing some concept, and everyone looks bored as shit. When I realize that everyone looks bored, they all start to freak out and do the craziest shit. One guy knocks a whole bunch of materials off a table and then he jumps into a wall. Others start drinking and putting on costumes. As all of this is happening, I am just not moving, and observing and thinking to myself whether I am being ethical by not doing anything so if there are any ethics at all. I am having this massive debate in my head, which is the main symptom of PassObs, and things turn black and I wake up.

Lucidity: 2
Control: 0

I had a dream that I was in the YMCA and I was using a chest machine, when I was done my father appeared and he went on to perform a bench press, he picked up the bar and that's when I was woken up.

I am sitting in the parking lot somewhere, finishing a cigartette (I don't smoke in real life). I then get a pack to take with me. I think about how I never smoked before, but decided to try to see if I could get hooked. I think I am not really addicte, but then realize that I have an uncontrollable craving as soon as I put down the cigarette. Fortunately, I have a pack of Nicorette gum. I decide to wait and see if I can go cold turkey.

Sci-Fi Groceries

I am working at the grocery store, stocking shelves (in real life I stock shelves at a toy store). Some old women come along looking for artichokes. I help them find one artichoke, which has been put in the wrong spot.

I continue walking down the aisle, and make it to the bridge of the Enterprise. I am needed to help destroy a small planet that is headed towards the Earth. Nobody is sure what to do, but I come up with the idea of building a huge bomb. We run a computer simulation of what this bomb will do. Upon detonation, a gigantic shock wave is sent out. This shock wave passes over the Earth, the moon and the sun, but when it hits this small planet the planet is annhilated.

The great thing about this idea is that it doesn't affect the Earth. I accidentally touch the simulated Earth and it gets smashed up, but after a moment of shock everyone realizes it was just me.

Kidnapping and Chemistry

I am a spy or something similar. I am investigating a guy who has been kidnapped and tied up in a back room somewhere. His daughter has also been kidnapped, and they are trying to get information out of the father. The guy is wrapped up in some bandages, so that only one of his eyes can be seen. The captors torment him by allowing him to see his daughter being taken into the room across from him, but they never let him know what is going on.

While I am there, the captors bring the daughter out into the main room separating the two rooms. She doesn't seem to be too bad off. In fact, she is joking and laughing with the men. Apparently, she doesn't even know they are bad guys. Then they bring the father out. I think they are going to try one last desperate attempt to get information out of him.

I step in at this point, and we find ourselves pursued by the villains. We duck behind some barrier to hide. The kidnappers are hot on our heels, so I pull out a grenade and throw it at them...

...(I think this is part of the same dream. It seems to have digressed into the manufacture of explosives.) I walk into the laboratory for one of my chemistry classes. We are choosing seats. I sit next to an attractive girl I know in real life. I feel I have an excuse, because my name is written on the counter in front of me, as well as on the seat I am sitting in. We chat a little, and I think about asking her out. Then the professor begins class.

We are learning about some kind of explosive. This requires a lot of complicated glassware, including a couple of volumetric flasks and some kind of a condenser. There are only two reactants involved in this process. One is tetramethylfuran (?), and I don't know what the other one was. At this point, my lab partner (the attractive girl) leaves. The instructor tells is we have to work on our own anyway, but the experiment doesn't seem to make any sense.

Now we are outside, taking turns mixing chemicals in our glassware on the tailgate of a pickup truck. The truck is parked on the slope of a hill, so it is hard to mix anything without it spilling.

Robot Cannibal

We are looking at fingerprints. They do not seem to be useable, because we can't get anything from them when we try dusting them. No recognizable features, anyway. Then someone points out that they are made in blood, as though someone dipped their fingers in blood before touching the counter we are looking at. With this knowledge, we are able to use some chemical to analyze the fingerprints...

...(I think this is part of the same dream) My dog runs away. I go out to get her, and find she is running along an interstate. She runs into a median strip, and I go after her. She climbs up a hill and down the other side. I crawl up the hill, and peak over the edge. There is a gruesome sight on the other side. A deer or large dog has been killed and mutilated, and some man is crawling nearby. He crawls up to the carcass and sinks his teeth in. I watch in horror, realizing this is the guy from Silence of the Lambs (I never actually saw the movie). Looking closer, I see it is no longer a person but a robot. The Silence of the Lambs guy is in his home, controlling this robot.

normal dream lucid false wake

me and few of my friend at my elementary school and we were talking and there was a leopard wondering around us(i think i dreamt it because i've been planning to buy leopard gecko these days) and i suddenly realised, leopard?, i must be dreaming. i became very excited and thought: i can now do everything i want, so i looked at the sky, still with the icandoeverything feeling, and the sky changed color from orange to blue and reverse a few times really fast. i awaked and wrote down in my DJ what i have dreamt , after that i woke up for real.

Eu estava no colégio, nas aulas de recuperação (sendo que eu não fiquei em recuperação). Eu estava sentado no fundão, junto com Gustavo e mais alguns amigos. Ele me ofereceu uma bala, que, segundo ele, me daria inspiração para fazer cantadas na minha namorada. Quando eu ia pegar a bala, a professora (de geografia) viu e me mandou devolver. Depois eu acabei pegando a bala e vi que havia uma frase dentro dela, que não me recordo bem. Nesse momento, a professora escreveu no quadro parte de uma frase e pediu para Gustavo continuar. Coincidentemente, era a mesma frase que veio na bala. Passei a frase para ele, com cuidado.
Ainda na aula de geografia, minha professora perguntou se alguém tinha perdido algum caderno de desenho. Eu tinha quase certeza que era o meu (pois eu vivo desenhando na sala de aula). Conferi os meus cadernos (tenho 3 cadernos de desenhos) e só encontrei 2.
Ela veio falar comigo e começou a comentar os desenhos. Alguns ela havia gostado, mas outros ela disse que o conteúdo estava bem inapropriado.
Bateu o sino, eu fui para a mesa da professora, quando a professora de matemática chegou (estava bem triste, pois sua mãe e seu irmão morreram há algumas semanas). Eu voltei para o meu lugar. Ela pisou em uma dobradiça da porta que estava no chão, e reclamou algo como "Poxa, como vocês conseguem quebrar a porta e ainda deixar a dobradiça no chão? Eu quase caí!".
Ao acabar a aula, eu saí. No meio do caminho, percebi que havia esquecido a mochila, então voltei. Encontrei Gilliard no caminho, e ele me disse que haviam trancado a sala. Mesmo assim, fui lá. Vi que haviam colocado um pano na porta, o que dava a impressão de a sala estar trancada. Entrei, o lugar estava muito escuro. Eu só conseguia ver uma cama com roupa vermelha (?) e a minha mochila. Peguei-a e voltei.
Já estava escuro quando cheguei lá embaixo. Eu estava conversando com Henrique, enquanto estava tendo treino de vôlei (na quadra de queimada). De repente, vi que entraram no colégio 3 aliens (é, daquele filme). Na hora, Henrique avisou as pessoas que estavam treinando (inclusive o treinador Léo) e disse para formarmos 3 grupos. Joguei minha mochila em um banco e perguntei por que formar 3 grupos, e ele disse que um alien só conseguia prestar atenção em, no máximo, 2 coisas. Corremos até a caixa de areia com os aliens atrás de nós. Ao chegarmos lá, Léo estava encurralado por 2 aliens. Jogamos algumas pedras e os aliens desmaiaram. Perguntei se haviam morrido, mas disseram que estavam apenas desacordados. Saímos do colégio e nos dirigimos ao Comprefort (supermercado que fica na frente do colégio), onde eu iria esperar o meu pai ir me buscar. Quando saímos do colégio, vi que os aliens se levantaram. Saí correndo pela rua, até chegar ao comprefort. Vi que meu pai já me esperava, entrei no carro e saímos bem rápido de lá.
No outro dia, eu estava saíndo do colégio, vi que Carol Delfino e Maria Eduarda Pessoa estavam do lado de fora do colégio. Olhei para o outro lado da rua e vi que havia um alien na entrada do Comprefort. Fui dando a volta pelo quarteirão, quando Carol e Maria Eduarda passam por mim, de bicicleta. Nesse momento, acho que suspeitei que era um sonho, mas não fiquei lúcido. Fui dando a volta até perceber que o alien deixou uma brecha. Saí correndo, e o alien veio atrás de mim. Percebi que minha mãe ainda não estava no estacionamento. Acho que por causa do medo, acabei acordando.

27.11.2010

Armadillo pie (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM DREAM-INSIDE-DREAM

It was originally my intention to do a WBTB-WILD, but I fell asleep before entering SP.
Time: 10:00 AM to 11:30 AM

zelda and the nothing

the first dream was in top-down view (which is quite strange, actually, since I never play/have played these kind of games.) We had to get past several bosses, which were displayed on a sort of map in a similar way how levels are displayed in Mario Bros. None of the boss battles were shown except for the final boss battle, which took place in a small room, me and my companion against two spiky, yellow creatures about the same size we were, and it was all in top-down view like I said
It was also funny how all sound was 8-bittish and whenever someone said something, it would appear in the dialog box in the bottom of the screen.
new experience (have never had 3rd person dreams) but nothing too important

iPad

I was in a comfy, large house together with one male and one female, both friends of mine. It was already late, it was snowing outside, and there was a fireplace burning (I know, how cosy , i suppose we were having hot chocolate too lol) I was laying on the couch, holding an iPad (i don't own one in real life) and swiping through a list of something, probably the twitter app. We were having a meaningless conversation about some kind of youtube video, however I can't seem to recall the details.
I woke up, with the same people, however this time in a small, old looking basement-kind of room, we were connected by a dream-sharing device just like inception and apparently, we had just shared a lucid dream. The female said to me: "Isn't it cool how you can just test a product in a lucid dream before purchasing it?" I nodded yes, about to buy an iPad.
(sadly, I don't have the money for it in real life lol)
this a pretty obvious dream sign I missed, since I never even say a word about lucid dreaming in real life.

Armadilligator spotting

I was in a forest, same people as last dream but also accompanied by a guide, we were at the side of a little creek running through the forest. The guide told us there were Armadillo's upstream, but they were too dangerous to approach any closer. I got to see one and it was actually some kind of armadillo-alligator mix. Size of them was even bigger than a regular alligator.
As I tried to step closer to the creek, the soil became more soft, but not like in real-life. In the dream, it was more like the surface of a trampoline, your feet would just bounce in a little. I didn't get the chance to step into the creek.
If I had been lucid, I would have mounted one of them armadilligators and flied off after having it eat the guide alive.

Have been off DV for months, this is the first recalled night in a long time and three dreams, sweet
Gonna get back to LD'ing in no-time.

edit: made some category banners!

Last night I had an unusual dream which was split up into two parts (Whether they were separate entirely or not I'm not sure). I may have also forgotten some previous parts of the dream but I'll start chronologically with what I know.

I had just received a quad bike for whatever reason (I think it may have been a Christmas present but it clashes with what occurs later on in my dream)
I take it up and down my road for a spin. When I get near my house, and almost creepy narrator voice tells me that quad biking on road is illegal and I will be put in jail if I don't abide by the rules.
I meet this guy who obviously has had a lot of experience with quad bikes and he takes me to a sand dunes to show me some stuff. He goes incredibly fast, gets air and begins to do a back-flip. At this point, I sort of take on the first person view of him on the bike and (Unintentionally) put on the brakes too early when I/We land and I make the bike loose control and hit a tree. The dream then takes on a very game like style and shows me a third person view of his crash in a replay, and a narrator voice which this time, I couldn't make out what he was saying. Later on that dream night, I walked to a bonfire nights event, with a few quadbikers performing tricks off mounds here and there. I once again notice a game style view where a camera seems to go around the map showing me where all the police officers are and their names. After I return to first person I can see names above the PO's heads.
I then suddenly have and urge to get home. It is dark at this point and I can remember the way I came, but it is through some woods. Fortunately when I get to the woods, suddenly daylight returns. I begin to run as this urge persists, and at this point I stop and see somthing being slowly dragged into a bush, probably an animal corpse. This makes me hesitate but I continue running and run straight past and see nothing. At this point I am convinced that my dream is real as I can hear sounds clearly, feel the wind rushing against my face as I run. But then all of a sudden I lose control and something forces me to turn round and I cannot move. I see a car speeding towards me, but I am still paralysed on my feet. At which point it takes on another game type view and this time I recognise the animations being from various parts of "Call of Duty: Black ops" but unfortunately at this very point the whole world goes into slow motion and I am inevitabley hit by the car. The narrator says "And the car with no driver hit him" - DREAM END

There is then a very short part of a second dream
I have somehow travelled back to 2006 when I just joined my secondary school, and I am aware of this. I am at a museeum in an unknown place on a school trip/musical trip. I make my freinds aware that I am from the future, and they ask from when? At this point I can very easily recall that we are coming up to the end of 2010. I also notice that some of the people I know in the room haven't joined the school yet (didn't until 2008), and I become partially lucid But then something in the dream distracts me. I am now at the final bit of the dream and I am watching one of my old piano teachers conducting a band inside this museum, and the dream then fades away with the music. - DREAM END

So I think the game animations came from me playing CoD the night before, but I have no idea where the quad bikes came from

normaldreamlucid

well im still new to it so seems like im going to work this dream backwards then write it forward..


Woke up due to being excited after realizing it was a dream I relaized it because cops didnt have a car and they were already here in an instant, seeing Cops are outside ready to talk to me and feeling mad once again due to my other roomate rush reporting it due to my outburst of domestic violence. Im cleaning up my baseball bat which is complete splinters and demolished in peices after i bashed it in the floor a few times when I'm all mad that my roommate locked me outside and something about a dog being adopted. It was a two floor apartment, i oringally got the bat from a room i jumped into could get in because there was hole through the roof or just simply another path way above the house becasue i had to get in. I was able to get in because i was standing outside at night. Somehow the short criminal from rocky and burnwinkile was talking to me and saying im locked out

Tried to do WILD after i woke up but then again, i was too excited.. being my first time attempting it.

I should really start using this more often.

Last night's dream was unlike any other ive had before.
the first part, i was in this hall and i was boxing with someone. I know that guy, and i'm pretty sure it's that guy. But i might be wrong. anyway, we were boxing, not like as a competition, but more like a friendly match, or a training. When we were done, we lied down on the floor, with my head on his chest, just lying there.. i think i was tracing his face with my fingertips when he said 'you like this, right?' and i just smile and nodded and didnt say anything back. i felt.. uncertain. its true i was happy but at the same time it didnt feel right.

the second one, i was at a lake. it was very very very dark. the waters were dark blue/black, a little bit like the water in Harry Potter 1 when they were on the little boats heading to hogwarts. i remember being on a boat but then i was stuck on one of those little bridges and someone came and rescued me. afterwards.. while on that boat, everyone on this one side started jumping off the bridge and into the water and swimming towards the pavement and i was wondering why and all of a sudden mini bomb/fireworks went off so i, too went swimming and heading for the pavement. it was a very quick swim.

the third one i ended up in this big house, felt as if ive been there before, some of the stuff seemed so familiar. anyway, i was hiding in the dark, and my aunty opended the door and its as if she saw me.. but im not so sure.. i was hiding for some reason.. i remember going out after and sneaking round and they were all singing happy birthday.. im not sure to who.

and finally, the last dream, which is vague, i was in a courtroom.. and i remember getting my boyfriend in the courtroom and telling him ' we need to talk '..

still trying to remember the rest..
any thoughts?
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Honestly, I just started and have no real understanding of what lucid dreaming is really like. I've had a couple of dreams where i have obtained control when i'm dreaming but never actually trained for it. I still need to find a dream guide and such to try and actually get started.. So i hope to obtain at least a lucid dream by the end of December.

I am starting this journal because my dreaming has become stagnant and this journal should help change and clarify things. I have other book dream journals a piled foot high and have done it all. It has all improved my life greatly...but. My dreaming now consists of me wondering around, if I'm lucky maybe I'll dream I lost my car. I am not afraid of anything and have no burning desires, basically I am a god in my dreams able to do anything at any time. Is this what it is like to be a god, have no fears but no burning desires either? Whats the next level? I feel stuck wondering the dream worlds like a ghost. Basically I have run out of challenges, I have either done it or if unpleasant can, with little more than a thought, do away with it. So I am going to use this dream journal to explore this position I find myself in, as well as myself, in order to bring about some type of satisfactory change to this boring self-made paradise. I kind of feel like Q in Star Trek and how he was trying to transform his paradise. I too am Q in that I am the world, the inhabitants, and the rebel. The natives are restless, let the revolution begin.

I find it very interesting that the moment I decided to dedicate my waking life to the understanding of my dreams and my subconscious, I began to dream... a whole lot more. I mean, sure... the marijuana detox probably has something to do with it as well, (7 days and counting), but it's honestly been YEARS... long before I started smoking weed... that I have dreamed this much. On top of that, simply dedicating my self to the art of dreaming has increased my lucidity as well.

In these 7 days alone, my dream recall and control has made exponential progress. I'm already lucid dreaming practically every night at some point (the ability to realize you are dreaming and control your dream), and by virtue of the same token, I've started waking up in the middle of the night and falling back asleep... consciously. These experiences are among some of the most memorable and interesting... when they don't slip away from my memory as quickly as they came. This is one of the reasons I've gotten so serious about writing everything down. Not only do I want to remember my dreams, but I want to show my subconscious/Higher Self that I'm finally serious about understanding all the parts of me I don't yet. I'm not afraid of me.

I rarely have nightmares. The last true nightmare I can remember having was at age 12. (I have had several out of body experiences as a teenager that scared the SHIT out of me because I didn't understand what was happening, but I don't count those as nightmares.) I do occasionally have moments of fear in my dreams. When they occur, I tend to confront the challenge quickly and not run from it (last night, for example, I had to deal with a snake and a wolf. I wound up severing the heads of both creatures.) ... I don't like experiencing lingering fear in my dreams because I know all it will do is hold my mind back. In a sense, I guess you could say I've been doing a lot of work at mastering my dreams over 25 years of life...whether consciously or not. I've just finally gotten serious about taking it to the next level and becoming a conscious, active part of this process.

Nothing interests me more than the workings of my mind at night. I think there are great mysteries to life that can be unlocked in the dream world and beyond, and I find it kind of interesting that so many people just take the 1/3 of their life they spend in other states of consciousness for granted. This journal will be dedicated to the pursuit of... understanding and exploring my dreams, and their connection to my waking life and my Self.

My comments will appear in BLACK.

My dreams will appear in BLUE.

When I become lucid and an active, conscious participant in a dream, I shall use the color RED. Nothing beats realizing you're dreaming and becoming God-like in your personal world.

If I am led to believe that my experience may have been more than a dream, or if something in my dream world is incredibly vivid or important to me, my RED will appear bold. I have a strong connection to the color red. The more vibrant, the more I resonate with it.

Here is wishing you all pleasant dreams... and beyond!

its been almost a month since i last posted a dream but they've been so crappy coz i've been studying for exams. anyway this is the one i literally just woke up from.

I’m watching this scene of dragonball z where its goku, gohan and this other kid. The kid was some kind of dictator on the planet and had some evil plan to kill all the black kids. Goku picks up a staff and says “ its wrong to discriminate. I have know choice but to stop you.” He charges at the kid ready to swing but its just a plan of his to get gohan to try persuade the kid to change. Sure enough gohan(teen) goes super saiyan and charges goku into a wall. He says” father its not too late let me try and talk some sense into him”. Goku says”you heard him yourself he’s a ruthless killer. I don’t get to see what happens as the scene changes. It’s the scene of a dream that ive had before. There are two jedis, two sith and they both have two soldiers of their own kind with them.chaos ensues and in the end are the two dark troopers. But the one shoots the other in the head.then they take their mask off and its this gorgeous woman. Darth vader walks up to her and takes off his mask and its vince mcmahon! The woman was a mercenary paid to follow vince’s orders. However because I’ve seen this before I know that mcmahon backstabs the woman and kills her to get rid of any witnesses. Not allowing thisto happen I focus on the womans body and take it over with my mind. I make her spin around in circles to test if it worked and she’s spinning like a top. Mcmahon tries to guilt her saying stuff like “don’t you want to complete the mission.” But im in control and I make her jump a mile into the air.

Suddenly im seeing the dream from the womans view. I become lucid and do an arch backflip. Then I try to do a kamehameha into the ground but I fail. The I try maintain flight but shouting levitate but that doesn’t work. So I focus my powers so that I land so softly its like I was only ten inches off the ground. Ive landed in my backyard near the pool. I notice someone there from my fathers office. I eye him suspiciously but he doesn’t seem to be a threat. I proceed to jump on the trampoline even though its trashed IRL. Then I tell the guy to watch this and I fly up towards my house and punch the roof. I easily land on the floor and he looks quite amused. Then I look into the house and want to see whats going on. But end up losing lucidity and waking up.

I am in a place I don't recognize, it looks like the interior of a castle, which I think is pretty damn awesome. I am wishing I had my camera with me so I could take some photos of the place, but since I don't, I just focus on taking in as many details of the place as I can. The arches over the ceiling of the room are very high and ornate, the ground is stone, there are many tapestries hanging on the stone walls. Each of the tapestries shows a scene with some epic quest underway, but they mean nothing to me since I have never seen any of the people in them before. There is a large wooden door on one side of the room, which is closed. I can hear a lot of talking from the other side, it sounds like there might be some kind of party going on over there. I wonder if we are invited to that party, or if we are going elsewhere in this castle. Part of me wants to go in to see the party, but another part of me wants to sneak away from the group and explore the castle some more. I really wanted to see as much of the place as I could. In addition to the large door, there were several smaller doors around the outside wall of the room, which was round. I wonder where those doors might lead, but I have not yet had a chance to make my way over to one… there are also quite a few people in the room with me… before a woman enters the room and silences everyone with a firm voice. I look over to where the voice is coming from, and the woman is standing beside the large door. She is dressed in black robes with a symbol on them, it is a symbol that looks like a red griffin… then I recognize where I think I have seen her before… Professor McGonagall from the Harry Potter series?! Nah… it must just be a resemblance.

Well, now everyone is listening to Professor McGonagall, which is what I am calling her in my mind since I don't know what her name really is… She welcomes us to the castle… awesome! It really is a castle, now I just need to get away so I can explore… I really don't want to miss my chance to explore this place… I am looking for a way to get to a door that isn't being watches when the woman actually introduces herself as Professor McGonagall. At this point I stop looking for ways to leave the room and I look back over at the woman, she continues talking to us. For the first time it registers that everyone in the room with me is rather young, looking like they're barely out of high school, and everyone there is paying very close attention to McGonagall. Wow… I must be the oldest one in there short of McGonagall herself… Great, now I feel out of place. I move over to the side of the room to stay as invisible as possible. I catch a glimpse of my reflection in a mirror hanging on one of the doors… and wow… I look like I am barely out of high school! Wow, I don't look nearly as old as I thought I did… there were clearly no unsightly bags under my eyes there! I wander back into the group, trying to hear McGonagall speaking.

"There you are!" comes a voice from off to my right. I look over to see Tigress coming over to meet me, she says she had started to wonder if I was going to make it tonight. I say of course I made it, how could I ever miss being in a place like this? She gives me a puzzled look, but before she can say anything else, McGonagall says it is time to enter the great hall and be sorted into our houses. We all file into the large room beyond the large wooden doors and down an aisle through some large tables with people sitting at them. Some of the people there look older than those of entering, some look about the same age, I see a few faces that look rather familiar. We all reach the front of the room and line up, Tigress is beside me, and I see more people I recognize, all of them from the Harry Potter series. Harry, Ron, Hermione, Draco, Crabb, Goyle, Neville, and several others I recognized. This all seems strange… Tigress is whispering to me from my right side, but I can't really hear what she's saying. I try to tell her that, but she can't seem to hear what I am saying, either. Soon McGonagall is getting everyone's attention again, and it is soon silent in the room.

I recognize what is happening in the room, we are all being sorted into different houses of Hogwarts. Somehow this doesn't trigger a reality check… um… sometimes I can be really thick headed in dreams… Everything is going as I remember it going in the books, everyone is getting assigned where they are in the books. Harry, Ron, Hermione, Neville, are all in Gryffindor… Draco, Crabb, and Goyle are in Slytherin… Tigress is right in front of me, she gets assigned to Gryffindor, then it is my turn. So where would I be assigned? I sit in the seat, with a rather old and slightly smelly pointed hat on my head, wondering where I could get something done. Well, since I am a healer before other things, I need to be where I can get the most healing done the most easily. Most of the people at Hogwarts that need to have their harts healed are in Slytherin… yuck… I don't really like the idea of being in there, but then if someone wants to be a doctor, they have to go to where the sick people are… such as in a hospital. So if I want to heal someone's heart, I need to be in Slytherin. I'm not sure if the hat hears what I am thinking or maybe it sees the dark energy I have in me, but it complies and assigns me to Slytherin.

So while I would rather go over to sit with Tigress, I am directed to go sit at a different table with a bunch of people I don't know, with a bunch of Slytherins. This is not where I want to be going, so I go over to the table and look for an empty seat. I sit down without looking at anyone around me. There are people around me welcoming me there, just like happens at the other tables when someone is welcomed, but something seems off, and I realize it's the energy I feel coming off of some of them. It's more unstable than elsewhere in the room, it's more negative. There are still some more people being sorted, but I'm not paying any attention to that now, I look over across the room at Tigress, I would rather be over there… did I make a big mistake? I am wondering that when I hear a voice next to me. I look over and I see Draco is sitting right next to me… was he there when I sat down? I don't remember even looking to see who I was sitting beside, I don't really care who I'm sitting beside. So now I am thinking I might have made a dumb choice, by the time I finished being in Slytherin for a while, the place would be a blood bath… I would go on a psychotic killing spree.

Draco is making some kind of comment, he says something about not needing that loser since I am where I belong now… I ask what loser he is talking about, he indicates Tigress, which pisses me off. I am not in a good mood right now, and it definitely shows, it doesn't take much to set me off then. I grab Draco's collar and pull his face down right next to mine, practically hissing the threats I am making… I tell him if I ever hear him saying nasty things about Tigress again that I'll kick him in the nuts so hard they get lodged in his fucking nostrils, and don't make the mistake of thinking I can't do it, because I can. Draco is looking at me strangely, I think he can see that I am completely serious about that, Crabb and Goyle don't seem to know what to do, thus they look stupider than ever. Draco finally says he didn't mean anything by it, he was just trying to make me feel better about being apart from my old friends, I'd make new ones. I am not in the mood for making friends right now, though, so I just let go of Draco and return my attention to watching Tigress on the other side of the room… but now I don't see her there. Where did she go? How did she disappear? It flashes through my mind that Tigress probably woke up, but that makes no sense since I am not dreaming… am I? I never get a chance to check that out, however, I wake up.