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13.07.2010

Trying to fly (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was in a completely white room. it was not so big, but there was enough space. I was there with a friend from real life. I wanted to fly, so I was jumping in the air, but it wasn't working. Then she wanted to help me. The only thing she had to do, was standing in front of me, with the back to me. Then I stretched my arms and started flappering with them. I went slowly in the air, but i had to flapper excessively. When I was about 2 meters high, I went up faster, and I could fly. I was flying around for a few seconds, making corners was still a little hard but it was good enough. I tried to enjoy the flying. I landed again. It was still the same small room, but it was just bigger the higher I went. Suddenly an other friend was there too. He wanted to try it too. He stood behind her, and instead of moving his arms to fly, he started touching her. This frustrated me and I unconsciously pushed him away with my mind. He went behind her again, and he started touching her again.

The touching of him mostly frustrated me, because he is really like this in real life, and he only annoys them with it, only when he is drunk, and she is a friend who already has a boyfriend so it was wrong.
This dream might have been a little lucid, because I tried to fly, and I maybe had a little control over what I did. Flying would be one of the first things I would try when I become lucid so I practiced in a normal dream

DC's: 2 friends

18.07.2010

Hiding from Nazi's (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was with my mother and a brother that I don't have IRL in my room, my brother was about 3 years old. The only objects in my room were my closets and my bed. the rest of the room looked ugly and grey. Then my mother said she heard something. She said it were nazi's that were looking for us. I didn't hear anything, so we were silent and then I heard them too, they were looking for us! I knew I didn't have to fear anything, because I'm an atheist, but if they ask, I will just say that I'm a christian. My mother and my brother were Jewish, so I was worried for them. I thought they were also going to rob us or look for stuff to prove that we were jewish, so I opened my most left closet and started looking for my money. They were all pieces of 2€. I heard the nazi's in the background and we were panicking. I put all the money in my pockets and went to my mother and brother. The nazi's were close to the door now, so they went to sit on their knees on my bed with their hands in the air. For some reason, I went to sit behind my bed, but that hurted on my knees so I also went on the bed. Then the nazi's came in my room. They took my brother and my mother downstairs. A little later they let my mother and my brother come back upstairs to me, while the nazi's were downstairs in our couches. I told my mother that I was afraid of what they were going to do to them. I gave her a hug. Then she told me they killed Molly, our cat. I became very angry. Then I worried about our other cat, I looked next to me and there she was. She looked handicapped. I wanted to find a knife or something sharp to kill the nazi's for what they have done to my cat. I couldn't find anything, the only knives were downstairs in the kitchen, past the nazi's.

The grey theme was there again, I also had this the same night, 2 dreams ago.
While my other cat was dead, I still am now happy that I saw my alive cat again, because IRL, she is the one who is dead. The reason she looked handicapped was probably because she has been through a lot (BUT SURVIVED!) and later when they ran over her with their fucking car, I saw her messed up, and I kind of had that image in my dream. One of the first things I want to do when I am lucid is see her.
What also is odd is that I see my mother a lot in my dreams, but not my father.

DC's: mother, both my cats

I needed to step back for a few days and relaxed. Real stressed and poor sleep. I am going to start focusing more on the WILD technique and no real goals to speak of. Back to basics with stabilization and exploring the dream I spawn in. And maybe something nice and relaxing like just flying.

I incubated a baseball dream. I was at the field but not playing. I was behind a shack with Bros and we had committed murder. We had to clean the small plastic pool we just used to drain the blood in a creek behind the shed.

Another pretty cool dream battle. I was fighting this Bebop-like pig on an old pirate ship. He had a big axe but I was able to dodge and leg sweep, cutting his legs off. There was also a bit at the beginning we were exploring an underwater cavern and taking pictures or recording video.

I've had the most horrible recall of my whole life this past week, but last night I FINALLY remembered some dreams. (My poor recall isn't the only reason for my absence. I was also somewhat obsessed with a sort of roleplaying game that I'm not even a part of.)

7/18/10

1- Rat-Girl
I go into our tool shed to see if I can find the mouse family my mother has told me about. Instead, I see a strange girl sitting over a group of young rats. The girl has silvery white hair and... rat ears on top of her head. WTF? My mom must be blind if she thinks these are mice.

The girl sends her "children" off to their room while she talks to me. She explains that she's not a ratgirl, but a wolfgirl. I don't believe her.

2- Searching for Food (short version, because it was rather long and pointless)
On the first day of school, the lunch room is closed. I am told that there is a table set up on "Sunny Street" where I can get my food, but by the time I get through the frustrating maze that leads to it, lunch is over.

I am in the kitchen of my research station. V is there as well, and I finally break the awkward silence that has been plaguing us in real life. I forget the details of the conversation, but it seems to go badly, and she exits the scene without another word. I follow her out the door, which opens out into a snowy urban landscape. I catch a glimpse of her and shout something about reincarnation, and she runs away from me. I try to track her down, but to no avail. I realize that the only release from my troubles is parkour, and I start running headlong into a tall hotel that seems entirely made of glass.

I live on a mountain. It has houses on it. I don't remember mine, but it's there. There's a steep road down and at the bottom, there's a Wal-Mart. It's me, Dad, and my brother. We go in. There are huge walls like a castle. The "watchtowers" are Wal-Mart brand hospitals, tax return places, etc. The actual store is a building in the middle. We're birthday shopping for one of my baby cousins.

DAD: "Is Phil [my brother] coming [to the party]?"
ME: "That depends. He's coming if Timmy is there, if it's at our house, or if you force him to."

I catch a glimpse of Phil before I start over to the store. Dad stops me.
"You want me to go with you?"
"No I'm fine." He gives me some money. It's not very much.

I think of going to the ATM and pulling some money out of my real life account, but just like in real life, I'm not eighteen yet, so I can't use the ATM.

I go to the store. Outside, I see Allie. She's gained weight (Something she needs to do because she's so skinny) I comment on how good she looks. In the dream, I thought she was drop-dead gorgeous, but looking back, the dream version of her was hideous.

I hug her, say goodbye, and tell her to get on facebook and IM me (haha wtf?) then I go into the store.

Next thing I remember is sleeping at a house and waking up. My brother (not Phil) is sleeping still. Somebody tells me to meet them at Great Plains (Red Dead Redemption, anyone?). I sneak out and go there and there's a map marker to get on a train to Blackwater (RED DEAD REDEMPTON, ANYONE!?!?)

When I get there, it's daytime. I climb on and the caboose is two stories high. I go to the second story and there's a man with a rifle watching a window, and a second man removing money from a safe and hiding it under the floorboards. I lean against the wall, not trying to hide at all. They don't seem to notice me. When they leave, I'm about to get to work when Katherine shows up. We start talking and I forget about the safe.

More friends show up, like Kevin and Sara and Josh and we just talk and have fun.

And then I wake up.

NON-LUCID / LUCID / NOTE

My house seems empty, but I can sense the presence of others. I am aware that a game is taking place in which the last man standing is the winner. To eliminate other players, one must engage in a wrestling match and win or throw a crumpled up paper towel and hit an opposing player in a dodgeball-like style. I step out of my room and narrowly avoid a crumpled paper towel. It whizzes past me and down the hallway. I spot a player who is a student at my school who I believe to be a wrestler. I don't know how to wrestle but we begin pushing one another. I run to the kitchen and crumple up a paper towel and I pelt it at his leg and it's a hit. I shake his hand and he departs in a sportsmanlike manner. I become aware that I am one of the last few players remaining. I run downstairs and spot a small hill of crumpled paper towels. I dive into the room while simultaneously grabbing two armfuls of paper towels that I hurl at a group of remaining players who seem to have formed an alliance. I eliminate all but one who is an old friend of mine. We look at each other and smile. I feel confident that I'll win as we shuffle around the room and avoid thrown towels. I finally hit him and win the game. I feel very pleased with my performance and the next thing I know I am outside and aware that I am dreaming. The exact moment when I gained lucidity is unknown, which is quite unusual for me because I often become lucid by RCing or just realizing that I'm dreaming. I cannot recall the precise moment. I begin walking down my street, which is how I begin most of my lucid dreams. My vision is blurred and highly shaky, and I can only make out the gray street and some trees beside me. I stop for a moment in an attempt to stabilize the dream. Things come into focus and a few dream characters appear in front of me. This is also unusual, as I am often alone in my LDs. One character is D, the old friend. Another is J, a girl from my school who I had a crush on a couple years ago. One or two other characters are there as well, and they are ready to take flight. D grabs onto me and J grabs onto D as I lift off from the ground. The other two characters fly independently of me and each other. We fly down streets as I follow the others and D and J are unable to hold on. I stop flying and tell them to hold on tight for the turns. They listen, and I am happy for them to be holding on and experiencing this flight with me. I then test my control and I am able to gain speed and slow down rather well. I then decide to turn on warp speed and leave the other two flyers behind. I am gliding at an insane speed down another street. I live in the suburbs and I take note at how beautiful and realistic the houses appear. I then think to myself how this is all my creation and I promptly wipe out and wake up.

I was sleeping in my dream and I heard T. and P. (Kidnappers 1&2) talking to their "Master" and with the racket they were making they were bowing every second word. "Master" says " the police found two hairs that don't match Adrian's hair and are becoming hot on T &P's trail." The "Master" suggested his in-America castle.

*Next day*
After I was dropped off I hissed to Jane: "How much money did Adrian put in the suitcase. Its imporant." Jane asks: "Why is it so imporant?" I reply: "If it is $30 million the kidnappers will think I am an easy target and ask more money for me." Jane replys: "Its $25 million. Is it true the kidnappers say they were going to realize you and will this come true?" "Yes they were planning to release me but I doubt it will come true. I would inform him about money ransom myself but he is being watched."

I than went to talk about my dreams into movie plot. When there were a couple of hours left I encourage him to talk about his life. He tells me that this isn't the first time he was suspected in a person's disapperance. His parents disappered when he was 18 and their only child was Adrian (the studio belonged to Adrian's dad) and he was away at boarding school at the time of the parents' disapperance. As soon as I knew their was no one watching I says: "Adrian the kidnappers and their 'Master' are planning to move me today to the 'Master's castle. " Adrian says: "They promised to let you guy" I just reply "Whatever you do. Do NOT try to come and save me."

I went back to the house. First the kidnappers had to erase any evidence of anyone been living there. Just before we leave Adrian shows up with a gun at the door. P. who was closest to me grabbs me and threatens my life at gunpoint. Adrian says: "Unhand her./ You promised to let her go...." and P. says: "We lied. And if you want her to live you either get in the car with her or you leave this bulding by the count of 19 or she goes 'bye-bye'. 1.. 2.. 3.. 4... 5... 6... 7...8..9...10" Adrian: "Alright I will leave.".

I am forced in the car I asked what kind of ropes and shackles these are that DC can't be used on them but I can still conjure up a sundae. I am taken to "Master" 's castle. The kidnappers insists I do the 'proper' bow (forced to be on the floor bow). The "Master" (who look like a collection of different human villians) tells his maidseverants to bathe me. He than insitsts that I wear a skimpy outfit (with chains). He than invites Adrian for supper. As I am setting the table for supper I notice the kind of chairs that are at the dinning room table. When it is supper time. I shake my head to tell me not to sit down. He than tricks "Master" into a chair. I with other severants change the chairs to "normal" ones. I learned later the other females were also kidnapped and were jealous that I had someone to try to save me. After I ate supper. I was sent to do some chore and than I came back and heard the Adrian and "Master" settling on 7 Impossible Tasks.

The next day I was tied up and put on a super-fast horse like I was a sack of food and I have no clue if Adrian can get me out of (or off) this task (Task 1). I woke up after this.

July 14, 2010

Quest for my dream guide part 3 (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I realized I was dreaming in a dream and woke up. I opened my eyes and instead of being in bed in my room I was in a sleeping bag in my back yard. I realized it was a false awakening so I did a noes RC just to check. I immediately rubbed the grass and then my left knee which works to stabilize the dream nearly perfectly every time for me. I got up and walked toward the back door but my hands and feet were numb. I looked at what I was wearing and I was wearing a red shirt and my favorite gray sleeping pants. My arms were numb because I had been trying WILD and they were numb in real life. I usually can move completely fine in my lucids. I got back up and went into the house. My dad was there talking to me but I ignored him. I knew exactly where I needed to go. Through that mirror. I walked up to it and put my finger up to it. After a little bit it started to melt through. I told my dad good bye and forced my head through. I did it to fast though. I lost consciousness of my legs and then the rest of my body. All I could see on the other side was the same gray space but instead of a DC I saw random giant floating computer keys. I faded very quickly and woke up.

I decided after this to take a break from looking for my dream guide. I want to start training some of my dream powers and I need to get the advanced ToTM done sone.

NON-LUCID / LUCID / NOTE

I am outside of my friend's home, which is surrounded by various foliage overlooking a river. This is not how his house or lawn appears in reality, but I somehow know it is his home. My friend, T, is some yards away from me and his mom throws T and myself a lighter. I take out a cigarette and begin to smoke. I don't smoke cigarettes, and I feel somewhat guilty for doing this. The next thing I can remember is being inside the house and in the basement. Again, the environment doesn't look anything like it does in waking life, but it feels familiar as if I'd been there many times before. My field of vision now looks as if I am looking into a microscope at a germinating Cannabis seed. A small growth is protruding from the seed, and I am quite excited and perplexed as to what I am seeing. I somehow believe this plant to be mine and the next thing I can remember is being in my room on a very sunny afternoon. The sunlight is pouring into my room and two Cannabis plants are sitting on my windowsill. They are growing very quickly before my eyes and the sun is moving rapidly throughout the sky, and I am quickly adjusting the plants so they are receiving sunlight. They continue to grow larger and larger and I begin to feel somewhat overwhelmed. Then, S appears in my room to take one of the plants. I somehow know that one is Cannabis Sativa and one is Cannabis Indica. I give him Indica and he leaves my room. I begin to feel paranoid due to the presence of an illegal plant in my room, so I take it outside and that concludes my recollection of this dream.

Strongly influenced by day residue and recent occurrences.

18.07.2010

Looking for a job (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was at a group of stores, they were next to each other, in a circle shaped building with the entrances on the outside. I was looking for a job, so i went into a restaurant and asked if I could work there. I could but I didn't really have interest so i went to a different store. while going to the next store I heard the people from the restaurant saying you could earn 14€ / hour there, so I became interested again. I was on my way back there, but instead of going in the restaurant I walked past it and went to the parking, which was all around the building. There I met some people and I walked away with them.

Please note this is a boring dream.

18.07.2010

Homeless (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was with my mother and my father in my town. The whole town looked destroyed and grey. There was nobody there but us. My parents looked younger than they normally do. They were sad because we were homeless. My mother said we had to leave our house because some company went bankrupt. She also said that a long time ago, this had happened again. Now we had no idea where to go.

DC's: mother, father

Good Dream Numero Uno:

I am playing some sort of a game with some of my friends. This guy who I used to like comes up to me and he ends up holding me like you would hold an infant and giving me a massage. I really like it, and I'm half asleep (the irony) and leaning into his chest. My smaller brother comes by and asks me what the hell we're doing. I tell him that 'we never touch each other in real life, so we've got to do it now.' (not sure what THAT was about, lol)
Later the game changes, and I'm really excellent at the new game.

Good Dream Numero Dos:

I am in a parking lot and see an airplane doing a variety of incredible maneuvers through the air. I point it out to a friend. Somehow I end up ON said airplane, learning physics. But I can't keep up with the airplane. I am worried that this will kick me out of the physics class, but it doesn't and we proceed to a really awesome classroom with magical regenerating windows (?). We are using pi and computers to do something important. I am having an excellent time.

My dream recall has always been poor, so I have decided to start with improving recall before even attempting lucid dreaming. I made my first entry into a dream journal, but had very little to write down. I could only remember several details about the latest section of the dream i had. It had something to do with a malignant cult and the compound in which they were housed. I knew its exactly layout, perhaps because i had created it. I have the distinct impression that something had happened before this section involving people familiar to me. I just cannot for the life of me remember. Any tips on ho to improve recall would be appreciated.

i was riding around town at night with these two dark haired, italian looking guys and it was raining really hard and we were smoking pot in the car. we were still driving around at this point and the pot was taking effect, so i started getting really paranoid. the driver kept running red lights and was driving recklessly then the windows fogged up and we couldn't see a thing. we were riding around in a neighborhood by this time and i demanded that he stop the car so he did. then i felt a little more relaxed and the driver started flirting with me so we started kissing. it felt really good at first, but then the other guy joined in and they were becoming too aggressive so i freaked out and thought they were trying to rape me. so i got out of the car as fast as i could and ran up to the nearest house. i was just standing in the yard in the rain and a woman came out and took me inside. the car had driven away by that time. the woman asked me what was wrong and i told her these guys tried to rape me and she told me she called the police and my parents. then she asked me if i was on drugs cause i guess i was acting weird, and i told her i was on pot and that it was really really strong. i was freaking about about my parents finding out about me smoking and i just wanted to forget the whole thing and go home. i was also really freaked out that i was going to get in trouble with the police. and i thought all of this really happened! i was soooo relieved when i woke up..