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Last night bed around 9pm coz early shift. I switched to sofa for better recall at 11 pm.

DR:
I'm on a shore of an ocean. Can't see the water well, because it's at night. Standing on some walkway few feet above the sand, looking down. Me and others from my group of safety guards/lifeguards are looking for some coins/tokens and other things that someone left in many places on the beach. They have some significance. I open my hand and show others what we are looking for. I see some coins on the sand but when I zoom my vision in, it's just an american quarter. I find this a productive task.

Change of scenery
I'm walking on a sidewalk with a chainlink fence on my left side that has branches of a bush growing on it. I spot a huge tank on the grassy lawn behind the fence. I quickly duck, but it's too late. They saw me and a skinny, long cannon on this rust-red, 2 story high tank which is long and wide as 4 normal tanks, starts turning towards me. It looks like a tank from star wars.

I stay hunched over and I ran alongside this fence. I stop in the middle, where I see another military vehicle, that is like made of some see-through plastic. Somebody catches up with me and in effort to see over the fence, he kinda pulls it down a bit. I fall down on my back because the enemy saw me and eagle like tallons couple of feet long are grabbing at my legs. Someone either lobbs a granade at it or something similar, but I'm able to pull away.

Dreams were forgotten when I was woke up this morning by stabbing pains in my kidneys. They still hurt. I don't know if I have kidney stones or an infection or if all of these yrs of meds are catching up to me. I had a couple of sharp pains last week & have been drinking a lot of cran-grape to flush them but I wonder if even that is good or bad. Mike & I were talking about how he had his blood drawn a couple of months ago & that maybe they should do mine on my next visit. I think he's right.

I didn't recall much today except that in my dream I watched a Youtube video of the LPer Muselk playing TF2 on Upward.

Bathroom hunt
I'm in a long, fairly narrow room. The walls and floor are all tiled a light green, and a doctor is with me. We walk from one end of the room to somewhere near the middle, and I realize I really need a bathroom. Sheepishly, I ask her where one is, and she vaguely gestures to one side while giving instructions that I don't follow. I head off in the direction she waved in.

Now I'm walking through a large area. In front of me, off to the right, I see a doorway labeled as a single-seat bathroom. It seems odd for such a large place, but whatever. Now I'm inside the bathroom. It's a large room, at least 20'x20'. I don't understand why a single-seater would be so large, but whatever. In the middle of the wall on my right is a door, and I realize it's a second entrance. I look to see how to lock it and see a long bar - as long as the wall - which can be rotated to block the door. I rotate it into the 'locked' position and latch it. I assume that the person who works on the other side of the door must use a wheelchair.

I turn back around to lock the main door and find that a whole crowd of people is coming in. A few people are already seated on the couches, and a couple more are still standing. I kick myself for not locking the main door first, but it's too late now. I can't kick out a whole crowd, especially not when they're here for a meeting. I leave, intending to look for another bathroom.

Now I'm in a kind of food court area. All of the tables are on a giant raised platform. I make the connection that food courts always have a bathroom nearby, so I find some stairs that lead onto the platform and take them.

Now I'm walking along a wide hallway with stores on each side, looking for a sign for bathrooms. This is a mall, so one can't be too far away, though it'll probably be down an inconspicuous side hallway. Now I'm running, and I can hear my pursuers as they talk to each other. They're confused by my running style - somehow I'm using my hands as well as my feet - and amazed by my speed. They admit to each other that there's no way they'll catch me, and I thrill in my speed.


Raising the sun
I'm in my bedroom with my wife. I start talking about the book we're reading (IRL) and something I didn't agree with in the last chapter. Now I'm in the hallway outside our bedroom, and I notice that the lights are off and the light-up light switches are dark. I realize that the breaker must have blown and start to head downstairs to flip it. Now I'm in the pantry, at the breaker box. The lights are off, and I reach for my cell phone to turn on its flashlight. As soon as I touch it, the flashlight turns on, which surprises me. I don't think about it too hard, since it's what I needed anyway. I hold it up and scan the panel, looking for a flipped breaker, and find it. I turn it off, then back on. It immediately flips back off, and my other hand feels warm and goopy. I worry that the breaker might have a short and start feeling the panel for heat, but the panel is fine. I decide to go back upstairs to see if I can find what's tripping the breaker.

Now I'm walking through our entryway on the way to the stairs. I see a bright orange flash and fear that there's a fire upstairs; then I realize that the explosion was outside, across the street. I walk over to the window to look out. It's dark, and I can only vaguely make out the shapes of children playing nearby. I have a vague thought along the lines of "I can't believe how bad everything is; this must be a dream" and something clicks. I don't yet believe I'm dreaming, but I do a nose-pinch to make sure. I can still breathe, and I realize I'm dreaming.

My daytime daydream practice kicks in, and I remember what I'm supposed to do. 1) Remember and hold onto the sure knowledge that I'm dreaming. 2) Slowly rub my hands and feel the friction between them. 3) Look around myself, study my environment, and affirm that everything I'm seeing is created by my own mind. 4) Find a way outside. 5) Fly. I quickly go through steps 1-3, and I keep telling myself "This is a dream" for the rest of my dream. I'm in my entryway, so all I have to do to get outside is to open the front door. Curiously, the whole wall rotates as if it's a secret passage, but I don't really care - it opens the path to my front porch, and I go outside. It's still night, and I don't want to fly around in the dark, so I decide to pull a Truman Show and make it day. I stretch out my hands towards the horizon (I know it's not east, but I don't care), command "Sun, rise!" and lift my arms. The sun comes shooting over the horizon and disappears over my head. I turn around to see where it went, but I can't see it.

I turn back around and try again. I stretch my arms to the horizon and slowly lift them. The sun comes up with them, and I "stick" the sun to about 10 o'clock. Over the next few seconds, the sky fades from a starry black to a beautiful blue. I'm excited it worked, and I wake up. I try for a DEILD, then do another nose pinch, but I'm awake.


Fragment: My van is at the top of a driveway, and I'm doing something with the cargo in the back.

2-Dec-2016 - ND Go to the space colony + WILD/DILD - Supermarket, Rift

ND: I am on a spaceship, travelling to a space colony (!!!). There is someone with me, may be an advanced AI instead than a person (!!!). I know that the person that was already at the colony died there, and we have to do stuff there with this dead body around (!!!). I discuss with the AI on how to retrieve some 'bozo' (?), a drug, that would help in keeping this situation manageable

I wake up 5:30 AM, attempt WILD starting from above dream, it works
WILD: I reach the space colony, looks like some DooM environment. I do stuff in there, unfortunately poor recall, dream fades

ND:I am with my son, in a supermarket inside a bigger mall. My wife, past the cash desk, passes me some cooking oil, I question the choice. Me and my son walk on, I recognize a song by Metallica, we walk over a conveyor and reach another cash desk.
DILD: I say to myself: "But since this is a dream, why do I keep doing this stupid and boring stuff ?
I should be doing something exciting and dangerous."

I also mention that since this is a dream, I don't have to worry about leaving my son unattended or abandoning my wife.
I walk outside the mall, which is now empty.

I summon a rift; I am on a tiny ledge by a vertical rock wall, below me a very deep chasm. I walk the ledge for some time. Then I summon a decently large stone walkway in front of me, which gradually appears block by block
After I walk for some time on the walkway, I levitate down, reaching the bottom of the rift.
I notice it's brighter than I expected. Dream quickly fades

I wake up 6AM

Gojek gone wrong
I’m in a shop, together with the gojek driver that took me here. He’s asking me to pay for my ride. What? No, I’m using go-pay, so it’s handled automatically. He informs me that there’s an issue and shows me his phone. The ride was only supposed to be Rp. 4.000, but somehow the price changed to around Rp. 70.000 and I'm now significantly in the minus. I'm discussing the matter with the driver, though I'm not certain whether it's in English or in Indonesian. I use my phone as well to check up on my account. My battery is nearly empty though and I don't have a charger with me. Perhaps I could borrow one from this store without actually having to buy it? I'm in the Hema. I realise that I have a cable from this store myself.

Uber
I'm with Caro and I believe Cam. We enter a car. Caro is the one driving. We're driving on the left side of the road. Considering that she is not used to this, I think Caro is doing a pretty good job. She is working for Uber right now, performing the same function as Rei. She says she is filling in for.. Emily(?) today. She also has a laptop with her in the car. She is wearing something of a vest that has Uber written on it. She decides to take it off, because Uber might not be allowed here. She makes a u-turn to take us back to our starting point. After going straight for a while, she overshoots and needs to make another u-turn. I tell her she did a great job driving. Just make less u-turns. She doesn't look very pleased at me.

Mall chase
The feeling of this dream is very unpleasant. I'm in a mall in Kuala Lumpur. I'm buying something from a food vendor, but he rips me off. I don't get what I paid for. I try to get my money back, but that's not happening. I end up using physical force. I think I give the guy a shove. I quickly realise my mistake and make a run for it. A girl comes after me. She's not chasing me very fast, but she is following me everywhere I go. It's intimidating and I need to get away from her. At the end I consider that my only option is to get out of this mall. Take the LRT to Chinatown.

1. I was glueing what appeared to be wood the width of toothpicks together on ends and had pretty large piece in my hand when I realized I created this and I was impressed but as I looked up and saw where my hand was going to place this little cool piece I created I saw the most beautiful huge structure made out of little pieces of wood. It had to be the size of my house. I stood back and just admired it and then I realized it had to be a dream so that made it even more special to me, as I studied the structure closely trying to see what it could be..I was in a covered building that looked like a hangar of some type. The structure had inside pieces as well as outside, 3D. I knew the only way to get a good look was to see it from a distance so I floated above in awe. It was just as beautiful from above but I couldn't figure it out and it didn't much matter because I knew I created this lol. Just a good feeling.

Nov/12/13

Winter day. I'm in a place similar to a park, people walk on the paths, hilly snowy terrain, no many trees. I was moving quickly, flying close the ground, and lucidity comes in this. Continue to enjoy flight, fly almost touching the snow, flew over the hills, felt that I overcome the law of gravity. I was approached by someone, who is not a man, it seems it was the thing who spoke - children's toy :) and ask me "how are you move like that?" I said "this is my dream, and I do what I want". Then it all becomes into some nonsense, I was lying on the snow with this toy and we are communicate someway... and in this I lost my awareness. I'm going down the hill to a small town, got into the house, in it I find a girl and started to have fun with her. I have small understanding that this is a dream. She resisted, but not much, not screaming, and she said that her boyfriend came, warned me in advance. I held her and we hide behind the wall, she is silent. I got from somewhere a syringe with tranquilizer! Guy went near, I injected him in the back, and he immediately falling to sleep, fell down, but not completely asleep, again injected him in the head, and he passed out. I said to girl that when he wake up, nothing will be remembered. Funny that she was glad all this and we continued fun with her.

Not a lucid dream in the slightest:



There's a room with a large table. About eight people are sitting around that table, two seats are empty. One is mine.

Everyone is discussing the lucidity of this dream. They're talking about how they are all successfully lucid.

They also have LD apps on their phones and everyone ticks 'I am dreaming' to confirm.

I'm looking for the last person and I find him in the kitchen. He's standing in front of the fridge with his back to me, pigging out on a large bucket of ice cream.

"Dude, come on. Everyone's waiting for you only." I say. He looks at me with astonishing lack of interest, shrugs his shoulders and says "Whatever."

I'm trying to explain that without everyone present at the table the dream can't go full lucid.

He says "Yep, too bad," turns back to the fridge and continues munching on the ice cream.

I start cursing and go back to the previous room. Everyone looks at me as I enter. "Sorry guys, he's not coming." I say.

They are visibly disappointed. After a few seconds of silence someone says "Well f**k this. We might as well wake up then."

And yep, I wake up.

My strategy for this month is simply using autosuggestion-telling myself what I want to dream about and then going to sleep. My strategy for dream control is making commands for what I want to happen. Lazy month! I'll keep track of how I do here:
1-0 LD
2-0 LD
3-1 LD (Caught FA)
4-1 LD (DILD)
5-0 LD
6-1 LD (DILD)
7-0 LD
8-0 LD
9-0 LD
10-2 LD (2 DILDs)
11-3 LD (2 Caught FA, DILD)
12-1 LD (DILD)
13-0 LD
14-1 LD (Caught FA)
15-0 LD
16-1 LD (Caught FA)
17-1 LD (Caught FA)
18-1 LD (WILD)
19-1 LD (WILD)
20-1 LD (DILD)
21-0 LD
22-1 LD (Caught FA)
23-2 LDs (2 DEILDs)
24-1 LD (DEILD)
25-2 LDs (DILD, DEILD)
26-2 LDs (2 DEILDs)
27-3 LDs (Caught FA, DILD, DEILD)
28-1 LD (DILD)
29-0 LD
30-1 LD (DILD)
31-0 LD

Off today
Last night bed - 10:35
2:35am - 2x alpha GPC
sleep till - 4 am
4am - WBTB
4:30am - 2x 4mg Galantamine

before waking up to take alpha GPC
DR1
I'm a doctor. There are dead bodies washing up on the shore and I'm told to go examine them. It's evening, getting dark and I'm not feeling the task.

DR2
I'm on a hill with some fruit trees. From somewhere, some real people size dolls are appearing tied to the trees. We turn around and there is a rag doll, tied by her arms around the tree and the girl who is with me is happy that she gets another doll.

Yeah, I had spicy food before bed : (

DR3
I'm looking at my watch thinking I messed up. I was suppose to sleep till 4 am and now I woke up too soon, messing up my chance for a WILD.

4:30am - sofa
Fell asleep pretty quick, as I was very sleepy. My head started to buzz as I turned to my left side to fall asleep, after being on my back for a bit.

The head buzz is quite intense. I woke up at 7 am after the lucids.

The whole thing was about 35-40 min long and all in darkness or near darkness. Like at night with bad visibility.

I started out with looking for sex : ( Got undressed, first the bottom, then the top. I remembered how it's not easy for me to get undressed in dreams, because it seems like new garments are showing up on me or I get tangled in so I can never really take everything off. So this time I moved slowly and really paid attention to getting my clothes of. Finally it was done.

I found a few partners but I wanted more.

Then I moved on. Few times I looked at my hands, remembering that I didn't do it in my last lucids. So I look and count the fingers. There is more of them on the left hand and the extra fingers are coming out crooked and short.

I end up on a busy street. I stand in the middle of it and "remember" the TOTM to make a car disappear. I focus on a truck or a bus. It starts to sparkle and colors lose intensity. I wish it to disappear completely and a wave of invisibility washes over it and it disappears.

Then I remembered that the TOTM was to lift a car, not to make it disappear. There are no more cars around, so I fly and I want to land on a prking lot that finally shows up. But I can't steer or slow down.

I remember spinning which was another TOTM. But I don't remember where I ended up, or even if I just remember me practicing spinning last night.


The whole dream was pretty chaotic. Not clear or vivid, except for some small portions of it. Not much awareness either. I was rushing through it, couldn't make it bright and I don't remember if I even tried.

D1 - I awake in a room where the light is just coming in through the window, dawn. I am being held by a small smiling child but his father and other mini hims (lol) are in the bed. And so I tell him to cuddle his father instead.
I go to find a toilet but when I get there I find it is all glass and there are some people sleeping just outside from the night before. They awake and are hostile as they are poor and think i am rich person living in this big house. They turn on all the water systems for a load of swimming pools. There is loud crashing roaring sound as water pours through pipes. People are starting to gather in the pools as I head back. I feel trapped by the sound. (I have learnt it is my fear of my emotions crashing out of control and escaping).
I am lost and don't know which way is back in the white corridors which have doors and lead through kitchens and things. I try to change the dream. But when I change it its no good as I don't believe the dream any more,
I know its a dream and it just all stops. The dc just looks at me, as if to say ok dream over.

D2 - I am looking through the eyes of a half human half doll with crazy hair, I am looking at the audience who are watching the show. I am expected to do the next show, but i am a fake even with the hair and costume. I feel a fraud and I cant carry it off.

D3 - At work I am in a study room with college students, I make jokes and then realise I am a teacher and shouldn't be there. I leave but am wearing the wrong clothes and have no idea where i should be teaching. I am embarrassed and scared.
next I am in some woods with a stream running through it. It is freezing and dark. A student is spending time doing a research project studying the fish.
I walk past and out onto a path lined with trees, overlooking a scrubby cut wheat field. There are children there and I feel embarrassed but cannot contain myself any long and start to sob uncontrollably.

Strangely on waking I feel a little better for having cried in my dream.

I was in a police station & apparently worked there. I had just came in for my shift & some bossy bitch was trying to tell me what to do. I told her that she wasn't my boss & that she could go fuck herself. I can't deal w/ ppl who think they can just do what they want & treat ppl like shit. The room was trashed & it wasn't even my job to clean it. That woman just made me crazy mad, lol. Just a weird little dream but at least it was something because my new meds didn't even allow me to remember any kind of dreams at all yesterday. I pulled back my dosage which was already less most ppl can tolerate. My tummy doesn't do well w/ meds & I have to take nausea meds w/ any pain meds.

1-Dec-2016 - ND + WILD - dv TotY Chimera + DILD - Black Hole

ND: I am doing something related to construction (Minecraft-style again), in large scale, perhaps together with more people. Not much recall/detail[/b]

WILD - Eat and love. Transform a goat into a Chimera, store it into an egg, let it kill a robber, Trump and Hitler
5:30 AM, ~30 min
I need some time and several scenario changed in visualization before I can finally enter LD
First thing I notice is I feel a strong desire, which didn't happen so much recently. I satisfy it and move on.
<JUMP>
I am in a room with some people and much food. I try some different samples from a plate, no taste...
<JUMP>
I think about tasks - I would go for the Fairies, but since LD looks decently stable, I decide attempting the harder Chimera
I am in a grassy area with some trees. I wander around for some time, looking for a goat. I see rocky mountains in the background, then finally I find the goat. It's got dirty white / gray long wool, looks quite sturdy, has short straight horns.
It does not look very stable at first, like my mind it's definining its final structure, I glimpse its head and the back in a square-ish shape before it becomes a goat-looking goat. I suspect it's due again from playing Minecraft. Hmmm...
It has a bell below its neck, I remove it.

Out of nowhere I pick up a book with brown leather cover. I browse some pages, it contains symbols I don't know, looking like a mix between runes and Japanese. After some pages I find the drawing of a Pentacle, I somehow recognize it's the spell I've used to summon the Demon few days ago, than find a drawing of a circle of mushrooms, I take note to look at the book again when I'll attempt the Fairies task. After some more pages, I find another pentacle with another different drawing and more runes, I know it's the right one.

When I look at the goat, there is a pentacle on the ground close to it. I push it to move inside the pentacle, the book still open. I wish it to morph.
A lion head appears to the right of the goat head. A snake body and head appears from the lower back. Dragon wings appear at the middle of its back. A lion tail appears (additional to goat's?)
Well, it's definitely looking meaningless =D
I think it will do. I put the book in an inner pocket of my jacket.

I do not see how I can find a DC here around. Also, I do not wish it to attack innocent people.
From the jacket internal pocket, I extract a plastic (?) egg (Minecraft again most likely), I open it like a box, and the Chimera jumps inside. Good.
Then I open a "zip" portal mid-air, to a city, and walk through it.

I am in a city looking very much like Chicago, light train above us. I walk around, looking for a dark alley, hoping to find some robber, which of course happens. There is a guy on the ground and a dark guy with a wallet in his hand.
I take the egg and open it. The Chimera jumps out, and I mount it.
I look around me, it's kinda freightening; the snake head is just behind my back, the lion head below me on the right side.

I face the robber. The lion head emits a frosty breath, he becomes an ice statue. It assaults the guy with fore paws and bite, breaking the statue into small ice shards.
I think that this is fun and I don't want to stop. I just need to find more bad guys.
For some reason I think about D.Trum-p - actually I don't dislike him that much IWL, but at this time I don't really care
He appears in front of me and the Chimera, in a timeless and spaceless environment.
The Chimera extends its lion tail and stings him, releasing a cloud of thick green vapor around him; not yet happy, with a paw it removes all his hair, then set him aflame. He drops to the ground, contorting, then we throw the body in some nearby water.
I want the Chimera to hit some really bad guy, and for some reason Hitler comes to my mind.
He's in front of us, with an elegant gray suit.
The Chimera is in bloodlust mode. It immediately assaults him with paws and bite, then sets him aflame, then keeps hitting him. I feel like very light and satisfied in doing this.

After that, I dismount the Chimera, and let it into the egg again. I use open another "zip" portal to my tower.
I remember I think that I love this way of moving around. I enter the tower, leave book and egg there.
I am thinking about making an inventory of the items there.

A yawn comes to my sleeping body, I experience it from a "spectator" perspective, quite interesting !
When the second yawn comes, I quickly check time, it's 6AM, roll to my side and return to sleep.

DILD - Drive X-Wing into a Black Hole
~6AM, ~20min
ND:I am playing LEGO with my son. I am looking for an L-shaped black part, I know it's there, I cannot find and start disassembling some Pirates' Island buildings. I find some similar parts, but not the one I am looking for.

DILD:Realizing this is a dream, I just summon the part. However, I lost any interest in playing with LEGO.
I turn around, there is a window, look outside, there is a nice garden with trees and flowers. I go out of the window.
The Fairies TotY beckons, but I want to do something different, and think about the "Black hole / Wormhole" task I assigned in LD4All LC56

I need an airship. I find myself inside a big hangar, with lots of machinery, but no suitable vehicle.
I turn into some corridors, and find another hangar, however it is used as garage. Lots of cars and few vans.
I know the next hangar will be the good one. I take a door, there is another hangar, this time a sort of X-Wing fighter is parked there. Nice.

I climb in the pilot seat, buckle up and start clicking random buttons in the cockpit.
In front of me, the hangar door opens to a town street.
The fighter gets inclined until its nose is pointing upwards, then I take off. Unfortunately no particular sensation.

I am in the outer space. I look at my left side, there is the blue Earth below me.
I move around, until I find a black circle "suspended" in space
I see particles going towards it and disappear.
I fly in front of it, keeping distance. Then I turn towards it, and point inside.

As soon as I am inside, I see the cockpit and the structure of the airship become transparent and disappear, then my hands and arms disappear, too.
I am bodyless, still conscious.
I appear somewhere else

Dream recall quickly fades, 6:30AM work alarm goes off.

I woke up in my room. It was completely dark all around. I left it and thought that this may be a dream. I made a nose plug RC and it succeeded. I was lucid. I thought "Lights on" and light turned on in most of rooms, however some of them remained dark. I recalled a ToTM basic task about igniting a house. I went to my kitchen and flied into a window, phasing outisde through the glass. It was early morning, still dark. I flied towards neighbor's house, trying to set it on fire mid-air with a gesture, but it didn't worked. I landed on the road and started rubbing my hands while focusing on some potted flowers. They instantly set ablaze. With more rubbing and focusing I set some trees around the house on fire and watched as it spread on the house. Then I moved along the road, trying to fly again but for some reason I couldn't do it. I recalled an advanced task with car lifting. There was another house with a garage. I phased through fence and it's walls and found an old Fiat 126p car. I lifted it up and phased back to the road. Then I placed it one the road and entered it, turned the engine on and drove. I drove along a completely ruined road with huge holes in it. I lost lucidity. I drove to my school, entered a classroom and sat by a table. Again I thought that this might be a dream and made the RC. I became lucid again. Teacher - a redhead woman in late forties asked me "What makes you think this might be unreal?" I didn't responded, instead I tried to phase out through the wall. I doubted that I might be able to do that and failed, then lost lucidity again. I found myself back in my home village. There was some big ceremony coming. I was wearing a black suit. I left my old school and moved to a bus stop. There was a huge bus, my friend went out of it and I greeted him.