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17th May 2021

Fragment:

In a square or plaza, a place like L? Some kind of family gathering, we're right in the middle of the place. Some fuss is made about something (probably trivial) and L is there and maybe my cousin T. A throw is about to be put over the ground but as it is pulled out of whatever it was in, a pink skin-toned adult toy is dragged out along too. The toy bounces around unrealistically, somewhat out of control and taking a while to stop, with nobody being able to catch it. Even though it's not mine, I feel embarrassment over this since we're in such a public space. I feel this way because there are bystanders and I'm afraid of being judged by association?

Later, I'm with my sibling T in a lava area. It's implied to be UT2k4 and we can do the dodge moves like in the game. We need them too, so we can cross a lava gap as we travel through the inside of a hollowed out tree trunk, which is all carbonised. I think to myself about it being lucky that the person who made the level didn't know how to do terrain properly, because it meant that there were very flat bits, making it easy to get across safely. I remember noticing and briefly inspecting the terrain tessellation.

Notes:

- I'd recently been making a level on UT2k4's editor but I stopped working on it kind of abruptly even though I didn't consciously want to. I seemed to have stopped after remembering and feeling sad that nobody will ever play my maps, since the game is mostly dead and obscure now.
-- In that map, I finally learned how to do terrain, which is a large feature for the map.

- The lava place was atmospherically volcanic, but I don't recall any smells or ambience sounds.

- Thinking about the fact that I was only with T in the second part... We used to do a lot of things together and in the dream, I think as a person it seemed like he was more like when we were younger.

- My family never shares anything about our sex lives or anything relating to that part of life. I have always felt there's an awkward silence to all of it. The spontaneous, silly and uncontrolled situation with the toy in the dream, I think it reflects part of this.
-- On the other hand, on the few occasions I've spoken to my parents about such things I ended up feeling embarrassment, probably because it was never normalised as a topic of conversation.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing some video game and i had to search for something in forest.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was playing a mod of my ancient doom mod apparently, it was a coop game in some maze and there were dangerous enemies, then as we reached some point suddenly enemy players started appearing, final fight was going on in the room with tables and i've had some pretty powerful weapons that made fight rather simple. Then later we were discussing stuff and trying to figure out what is going on with the game.

Dream 3:

I was playing some kind of mix between UT99 and UT2004 and the level was an indoor, metallic, area with alot of ramps in various formations forming some paths up, then on top there was a generator room. I was apparently playing versus a team of two who were doing pretty good due to me not knowing the level and were sniping around using sniper weapons with white beam that worked pretty much like shock rifles. At one point i was dropped down by one of shots and found flak cannon and with it i started doing alot better and noticed that my opponents were actually playing very badly, sometimes not seeing me in a plain sight.

Dream Fragments 1(Daytime)
I was in a computer game called unreal tournament 99(UT99), playing Instagib (1 hit kill).


I was with Jamie S, he was playing UT99 on Dads PC. Jamie was eating cake. I think Jamie was Josh D.

I was in a scene with others fighters.

I was on a train and everybody had cake. I was going to get some but I don't think any was left. Jamie knew I wanted cake previously?

Dream Fragments 2
I was at my house and noticed that there was poo on the carpet in the 1st lounge room. I went over to the sink, and cleared the dishes out of the way, so I could rinse the rag out.

Saw my Dad

Key: Non-Lucid, Lucid

I've hit a dry patch of recall over the past few days. Despite putting even more focus on trying to LD lately, somehow my recall has slipped off. Hopefully my recall will get back to acceptable levels soon.

I was in a large corridor on a floating platform. I couldn't see the ground below or the ceiling/sky above -- it was really tall. I was on a floating platform. There were several, forming a line and moving along. It was all very science fiction. The walls were metal and had random lights every now and then and the platforms were metal. The walls had a green-ish hue to them.

The scene reminds of of the Unreal Tournamnet CTF map Hall of Giants in terms of the colours and style of the walls.

It's vague but there were Pokemon there. There were only fire types. I remember I had a Ponyta with me and said something about it evolving in to a Rapidash. I also had a Vulpix and remember contemplating how cute it was.