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Hi, welcome to my dream journal. This journal might be unusual to some of you, because my dream world is very complex and complicated. I will try my best to be as factual and accurate as possible, and I'm trying to recollect the best that I can. I have journals with bits and pieces of my dreams in them, of the dreams that I feel I may need to remember later with complete detail, but I can usually remember them well along with strong feelings, emotions, colors, and scents.

My family has been psychic for as long as I can remember. Dreams have always been important tools to us. I'm very musically gifted, to an extreme that I've never met anybody who sounds or can do what I do except for my mother, who has passed away. For a while it shook me to the bone, why can I do this, why am I this way, who am I, what is this gift? I was an atheist before I began to fully develop my gift. I've had a lot of trouble with it. I discovered that I could channel sounds, and music, and words. I was very shy for many years about this, but now I've accepted it and started to perform. I'm still working on the self-consciousness, though. This has been what led me to develop my spirituality and my abilities, because it proved to me there is something else out there than the physical.

I'm a female in my 20s and I have a pretty normal life. Working, writing music, spending time with my mostly elderly family. I have lots of pets and close friends who I feel as if we're bound by blood... we've been through a lot of strange times together!

Well, my family would frequently dream of the dead, as they've told me, but in my case, I dream about future events, or if I need information about something, I can usually access it.
While I can dream of the future, I can't dream of the dead- where they'll appear to be living, at least. I've also tried to communicate with the dead, with no success. I'm not a medium.

I've always had incredibly vivid dreams. I'd especially have precognitive dreams, that have came true. However, they were always blurry and choppy and covered in a shining, glittering mist. The farther away it would be, the foggier the vision would be. I began looking into Lucid dreaming to try to perfect this art. I always had a deep fear preventing me from fully entering the LD state, a fear of death, so for a while, I gave it up. Lately, after reading the Seth Speaks series, this fear completely vanished & I began to have waking visions. Not intense ones, but flashes of information that after some research prove to be useful information I wouldn't have known otherwise. I'll elaborate on this soon because it is tied into my dreams & I had a few dreams that I'll go into as well a few months ago, that began this entire journey. My natural curiosity has once again led me to Lucid dreaming.


My Dream Environments
As of this post, I have not yet had a lucid dream.
Usually, I have dreams at my old childhood home. I believe this is my home base in the astral. I don't ever have people that I know or recognize visiting me here for some reason, only my (currently living) family would be there, and our (currently living) pets. If am I visited by somebody, I don't know who they are, but they'll have bits and pieces of old friends or people I may recognize. I think it's where I work out my memories, or fragments of people from past lives, I'm not entirely sure right now. People I would know, but have never spoken to and are still living, have appeared to me here. Not strangers, I definitely know who they are, but they don't know me in the waking world. No people considered dead in my current world have come to me here. My mother is dead, and she's never once appeared to me in any dream as alive.
This is a very important setting for me because I've realized this may be the deepest level for me, that is very hard for people or anyone to access without my trust and their great effort. I grew up in this home with my family, so it's only natural that they can enter this space. Basically, a safe space for me. I'll usually have wonderful dreams here. Rainbow skies, snowing, rain, beautiful sunshine, our fruit trees, the home just how I remember it as a child.
When it's daytime in the waking world, it will be night there. When it's night here, it will be daytime there. I have had instances where I left at night alone, which I won't ever do anymore, I'll usually go with a friend from the area. If I leave alone, I return in great danger, but they can't ever enter my house. Even during the daytime, some "people" have tried to enter the windows in my bedroom, the bathroom attached to it, and always fail. They simply can't enter. I always got a terrible feeling from these people, whatever they are.
I can explore the area around my house, just like I remember it as a child, with great detail. It is exciting, sometimes things change around a tiny bit, like a bizarre version of what I remember.

I'll have dreams where I'm currently living, or in a few locations I'll elaborate on soon. The dreams of where I'm currently living, anybody can visit me. They are always alive in my waking world, too. Friends, my current pets, my cat is usually with me keeping an eye on me (which is kind of strange). These are usually people I trust, though, or people I had trusted. People who have since emotionally hurt me I avoid in the dream world now. Some friends though, I've never dreamt of, like my best friend. This is also strange to me, but maybe she doesn't have that world open in her mind yet.

The most commonly dreamt of location other than these places familiar to me, is a giant "multi-plex", I suppose I'll call it. There's a hotel on one side, that goes up over 100 stories, and through it you can see this huge vast landscape of city lights. There are always strangers at the lobby, complete with employees. Truly remarkable. On another side, there's a gigantic mall, complete with stores, and tons of people. There is also a giant movie theater, complete with winding halls. If you go back far enough, it gets very frightening. I haven't explored past a certain point here. I've hung out with a few friends at all of these places. I even once told a friend about this multi-plex, and he said he had dreams in a similar place.

I have had no other dreams except for these settings. Not at anybody's house, or at school. I have had them in nature but they were of the fields of my old house in the countryside. Except for the dream I had of my mother, in a funeral home. This was the only instance, and even in this dream she appeared dead.

This particular series of dreams that began about 8 months ago, I'm about to elaborate on, since they are currently my goal in lucid dreaming.

The 28th I couldn't remember much unfortunately. :-/

We were having the fried chicken for lunch at school. The chef did not know
what he was doing however and came and asked me to help him prepare it. Wierd.
Then after lunch I was walking down the hallway and everyone was throwing thier trash
on the floor.

After this dream I was back home. I remember being accused by my parents for selling
illegal items on the internet. 0_o

Then I actually woke up and heard it raining outside so I went back to sleep cause, who wants to
work out in the rain?

I then had one quick dream before I woke up again and all I remember is that I grabbed all the
video games out of my desk and ran away from home. Strange stuff to run away with.

Sechdule:
11:30 - Go to bed
7:39 - Wake up, hear rain, go back to sleep
8:30 - Get up and work out

See ya

I dreamt that me and some friends were going on a LARP. I was packing my things and would decide weather or not to bring a five men tent, that was large enough for everyone, or a two men tent which was much better in keeping rain out but was to small for everyone. I brought the two men tent, since I didn't feel like getting wet.

We arrived in the area and the group became disappointed that I had been selfish and only brought the two men tent. It then started raining and I went into the tent while the others were outside getting wet. Mind that I didn't feel any guilt at all, I was quite happy with my decision since I didn't get wet!

Later in the LARP I was put in charge of a group of children. We were ninjas who were going to infiltrate a factory. Since they were a group of incompetent kids they would just move forward while I was running around making sure they could do so safely and got them everything they needed. We entered the huge factory on the bottom floor through the sewage pipes. It consisted almost entirely of metal and concrete walkways with a lot of terminals and the like in a huge open space. I got to work silencing (knocking out, not killing ) people who might spot us and pushing some buttons at the terminals they were working on.
After much silencing everything was going smoothly. That is, until I ran into a girl I know IRL, and who I am interested in. She looked around and asked "Vilhelm? What are you doing here?"

I was stunned. I knew it was bad, partly because she saw me, partly because she recognised me but mostly because I knew what I had to do. I just hoped she would forgive me and began to rip her hair of. Apparently her hair was a crucial ingredient for something we needed for our ninja mission. She was just shocked and asked "Vilhelm...what are...you doing?"

I took her hair and ran for my life. The group had just left the open area through a door in the wall and was climbing a huge staircase. I ran up it, always looking down towards the lower levels. I knew she would follow me. She was not a drone like the others in the factory, she had a independent will, and she would not just let me go without an explanation. But she never came.

There was more to this dream, but that is all I can remember at the moment.

Twice in one week. Did the hand test and went flying. Saw Super Man crash land into the ground. Asked him if he knew where Jules was. He said he was working over at Hollywood and Highland. I tried to make it over there but there were distractions. Sprinklers going off in really hot water. A Flood issue. Problems with vision. Several times I had to rub my hands together to keep from waking. When I did wake, I was able to go right back to it. Jules didn't look right.

Broke the dry spell. Not specific. When I realized I was somewhere different - I did the hand test and confirmed I was dreaming. Tried to fly through the walls and windows and there was resistance - which made me doubt lucidity. I broke through and went flying. Very little control though. Some random dark neighborhood. I tried to will the Hollywood Bowl. No dice. I spun around to get a different setting and it didn't work.

Wednesday 5/29/13

Last night bed 12 - 6;58am

DR: streets of town I grow up in

WBTB 6:58 - 7:09
Totally fell asleep. I'm in town where my gramma lives. We have a huge family gathering. I'm kissing two cousins, saying hi to family from New Zealand (not in WL). Looking at a map and trying to figure out which part of the world is on it. No identifiable features, just some mountains and grass. I know I'm just visiting and I'm avare of where i live in WL.

There is something like a party bus on the street, all painted with colorful images. My dad falls asleep while he is sitting at the table eating and when he wakes up, I know he had LD.

Three words: Giant freaking ants. This is probably the earliest or the second earliest dream that I remember. They were fire ants about as big as a person. They crawled in and out of holes in the corners of the ceiling, as well as around the edges of the ceiling. It was the ultimate nightmare for me at around the age of five, and since then, giant bugs have sprung up in several of my dreams.

At times there is a game UI on the screen and sometimes there isn't. At first I am Lara Croft, I see a screen where you can name the character anything you want. I'm thinking "I could name her anything I want, and I pick Lara?" still, it makes sense, I think. That is who she is, changing her name will not alter that.
Then I am running through a department store. A monster kind of like...a rock genie, (I don't know, it's all blocky but it's blue its torso tapers down into a slender cord that attaches to a sidestack), it gets in my face and the UI pops up. I scroll through my weapons and realize I'm all out of ammo. So I jump forward and punch it until it dies.
I pass through the department store and I'm desperate for ammo. Jack appears, much like he did before. He's tall, wearing a black suit, thin black tie and a white shirt, his hair is completely black this time. He beckons to me,
"Hey! This way!"
I'm so relieved to see him, now I'm not alone. "You okay to pass through the Wastes? We're almost Home."
"Yes, but Jack, I'm all out of ammo."
"I'll show you where you can get more."
The area is like a basement with a low roof, but it's covered in rock and dirt. I want to think of it as a cave, but it's too regular for that. Blue monsters dot the otherwise barren landscape. He turns to face them and instructs me on how to open a secret weapon/ammo cache in the wall while he guards my back. It all seems too easy, but I'm not about to look a gift horse in the mouth.
"Get as much as you can carry, there isn't another one of these for a while."
I see us from overhead, tiny 2D pixelated versions of ourselves. I'm no longer Lara Croft but Annie from Covert Affairs, wearing a floor length black strapless dress with a slit almost up to the hip.

I'm in the department store again. I'm myself, my dad walks with me to where the rock genie was.
"Aaawww...you killed the guardian?" he says.
"What? It was in my way."
"I really wanted a beard though..." he whines.
"I don't know what you're crying about, the beards are still here." I gesture to the sidestack and take a moment to think about how stupid all the beards look. They're not even hair, they're pieces of cloth folded into small oval shapes in plastic. He walks away without taking one. I shrug and make my way around the store.
My sister is there with her son, except he isn't as old, he's only three here. And he's making a mess. I discretely try to pick up after him. I realize I'm embarrassed, not because he's making a mess, but because people watching will just think he's being unruly. They don't understand that he's autistic and isn't comfortable here. I'm worried they'll think badly of him. (He really is autistic, by the way.)
After a moment I decide to leave the mess.

Then I'm at work, standing at the appliance desk. Jack is waiting for me, sitting the wrong way in a chair. He smiles.
"Jack!" I think, delighted he has followed me here. Now I am Annie again, I try to flirt with him without being outrageous about it. I can't seem to find a balance. We banter back and forth, but I don't remember any of it. I say something clever (which of course, I don't remember), and think about how I want to threaten to kiss him. I don't say it, but after a moment I take his face in both my hands and lean down to do it anyway.
Except that while I can feel his face between my hands, he disappears when I get close. I pull back, frowning. He gives me an apologetic look.
From a few feet away David Boreanaz rubs the back of his neck in a gesture of mild discomfort and chagrin at our situation. He's dressed the same as Jack.

Some other things happened, but I don't remember them.
Oh yeah, I have no idea how it relates to that, but i see a guy's face and he mumbles something at me.
"What?" I ask.
"I'M TERRIFIED OF SQUIRRELS!" He yells, startling me and DC.
I frown at him. The other DC leans over, "...is he serious?"
Then I see a mental picture of why he's terrified. Apparently he thinks they're ravenous and blood thirsty and if he opens the closet all the squirrels will fly out and tear him to bits. I think he's being stupid.

The other night I was dreaming and got in that delicious state where I was aware of the dream. A man in a gnarly, high HP truck was chasing a woman down the freeway. SHe did this brilliant fake-out maneuver using an off ramp, and, at the last second, veered back onto the freeway. I was in the RH lane and drove past him as he was negotiating the off ramp. Our eyes met and I knew it was going to be bad. I'm trying to get away in my little 4 cylinder and he's bearing down... I take an off ramp, and he's on me. I think, entirely lucid now, "Ok, then I'll just fly away." SO I opened the door and did so. This is usually so exciting that I awaken. I managed to breathe myself back into the dream, but was no longer lucid... It took a bit of time to find a thermal, but I hooked one, climbed out, and was smugly looking at him from far above, thinking, "Ha-ha!" But that's when I realized that even as I had the ability to fly, he had the ability to stretch. SO did his dobermans...

I decided to awaken.

My lucid dreams are always about flying. It's just where my mind goes. I've been doing it for a long time, and it's never NOT been flying. (Not complaining, at all! Just wondering what it means. My favorites are when I leap and become airborne!)

I was with my family, including my mother's side grandparents (Who are dead IRL) and we were in a house by the beach. We seemed to be quite a bit above ground level, perhaps two or three stories.
Anyways, we were watching the weather report, and a woman was talking about a storm coming in. I looked out the window to see that the sky was a dark grey color. It was raining and very windy.
The setting looked vaguely similar to a beach resort my family visits in Puerto Rico every spring.
The weather woman stated that the weather station once a week plays a song over the TV as a special treat to everyone watching. The songs they chose, supposedly were always very good.
My father told me to go start the car (for whatever reason) and gave me a key. I was disappointed that I had to leave the room because I wanted to know what song the weather station would play.

I was with my best friend Jayden(who I've mentioned before)and we were gonna go to her house and hang out. I got in the car with her and her mom. We started off driving until her mom said "Oh, Jayden can't hang out today. She has to go to LA." I have no clue why she needed to go to LA but anyways.
She turned around and started driving me back to my house. I have like my own "dream house", I guess. I've seen it at least three times before in previous dreams. It's a big pink mansion.
So, we began pulling up to it, but Jayden's mom never actually stopped the car for me to get out. She just kept driving. She past my house and turned around. I told her "Um, I haven't actually gotten out of the car yet." She ignored me and drove away from my house.
We then entered a tiny freeway, packed with cars. The thing was only one lane, and it was also about to fall apart. I got nervous that it would do just that, but no one else cared.
Eventually, it did fall to pieces. Jayden got knocked out or something, so being the wonderful angel friend that I am, I pulled her out of the car and threw her onto the freeway on land. Oh, and her mom died by the way(sorry, Jayden).

Last Day of School Velociraptor

I started out at my house, but it was slightly altered. People from my grade and two grades above me were there. Then suddenly I was at this carnival-like place and was on this ride where you sit on a seat and it moves you up and down in circles. I was wondering why I was on such a childish ride (dang it, almost realized)! After that, I went on to a bus with others and started driving. Immediately after we started driving everything got dark and gloomy. I didn't notice it being unusual at all (could have been lucid right there)!

Everyone started freaking out on the bus, and I found out a VELOCIRAPTOR was trying to break into the bus via front/side door. I was sitting near the back of the bus, so I ran to block the back emergency door (I don't know why) and held with all my might. The Velociraptor broke through the front door. The Velociraptor and I met eyes for a moment, then it came darting after me through the bus aisle. I waited for it to get close enough to lunge at me, then dived into the seat next to me, hoping the Velociraptor would break through the back door with all its momentum. I was wrong. It stopped within 1 foot of me. I couldn't wait, I jumped at it and kicked it in the face, then punched it. I then ran down the aisle and exited the bus. For some reason I noticed there were tons of people running around screaming (I think my grade & two grades above me). I found some guy that told me to follow him, we had no time. I ran with him around to the other side of the bus, ran in between two houses, and broke off into a sandy area that was actually a beach with the ocean. It looked pretty amazing, deep blue and waves were splashing. I took a left and ran down the beach (which oddly didn't feel like running on sand beneath me) and followed the guy. I looked back and saw that the bus was on my elementary school playground! When I stopped looking back, I saw a lot of tall grass and had to run through it. We were going to a giant mansion at the end of the tall grass. The guy yelled back at me to "hurry up, we are being followed". It felt very weird running through the tall grass. As much as I would push myself and run as hard as I could, I couldn't and felt slightly slo-motion, but not really.

We burst through the front door. There were three ways to go; left, right, or straight. We chose straight. I somehow realized that this was the guy that I was following's mansion. We went straight down a stairway, then took a right down the stairway, and finally a left. We got to the end of the stairs and into a small restaurant-like kitchen, with stainless-steel and silver stuff everywhere. I turned around, and heard something coming down the stairs. I ran to a corner of the kitchen. There was also another area to the left of the kitchen and an area behind it, but I don't remember what was there or why I didn't go there. Then I saw a shadow coming down the stairway. Then there was the Velociraptor. I grabbed a pan and waited for it to come at me. It lunged at me, but I dodged it at moved to the other side of the kitchen. Then the guy started fighting it and eventually got it to the ground. All of a sudden, the guy turned into a Velociraptor! He got near the other Velociraptor and curled up into a ball with it. I didn't know what the heck was happening! Then they stopped and he turned back into a human and said that he was its brother. I was so confused, but then the "brother Velociraptor" disappeared and I heard another thing coming down the stairs. The guy told me to get into this little cupboard. It was metal, and there was a little slit in the front and side. I saw another Velociraptor through the slit, and come towards the cupboard, glancing around everywhere. I didn't know where the guy went. Then the Velociraptor went to the side of the cupboard and barely looked at me when the guy popped into view through my front slit. I then took another frying pan and somehow smacked the Velociraptor through the small slit. I came out of the cupboard and the guy jumped the Velociraptor and killed it. He then turned to me and said "He wasn't my brother."

I then found myself in the front yard of the giant mansion. The grass wasn't as tall as it was before, but definitely needed a good mowing. We ran to the right and came around to where the bus was previously. We found two big tents, and then he darted to the left. I kept running straight. I went and talked to some people in the tents, and found out this was all a GAME FOR THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!! There were two teams: the humans and the Velociraptors. For some reason, the Velociraptors team still looked like humans. Of course, both teams were supposed to be humans as it was a game for school. I wasn't sure what the object of the game was, so I went to a tent to get some weapons. Everyone had some pretty good weapons, all mostly melee weapons made out of steel. I asked for someone to make me a weapon, and I got a cardboard knife I looked around and found something with a cardboard handle and a slight metal tip. I think it was a tool for yard work or something. Anyways, I went outside of the tent and did some stuff (don't remember what). I then heard a scream. I ran to where it was. It was my old crush being attacked by two real Velociraptors. I sprinted towards them. I tackled one Velociraptor that was closest to her and heard its bones being crushed when I made contact. I was pretty proud of myself, but then I saw that the other Velociraptor had killed her! I yelled with rage and went on a rampage, killing the Velociraptor and went and killed others I found around the area with immense strength and speed. I then heard the bell I used to hear when recess was over in elementary school. Then I heard a voice that sounded like it was over an intercom (which seemed weird because it was outside) that said that it was time to switch sides. I then turned from the human team to the Velociraptor team. Then everyone went to the school for lunch as apparently it was halftime.

THE END

There are things I have forgotten, but this dream has helped me notice that I do (oddly enough) have a good amount of dreams with dinosaurs, especially Velociraptors. I wonder why, but I'm glad I found out one of my Dream Signs .

#187 - Around 5:45AM - DILD

I went for a weak WILD attempt after getting up with my son for a bit and got a DILD.

I am at what appears to be the house my sister and her husband first lived in. I am horribly late for work and think about calling in. Floyd offers to pay me $80-$90 to work the day for him.

I look outside and see Kindle with the baby. Then Jared, Tim and Brenda. Jared is saying hi to everyone but totally ignores me. I feel hurt and confused. I am shocked they traveled so far with an infant.

We all go inside and I walk way from everyone in thought. It occurs to me that this might be a dream so I do a nose plug. It's not a clean blow through but I just know I'm dreaming anyway.

I turn around to talk to everyone but the living room is dark and empty. It looks like grandma's old mobile home now and when I turn back around I see the back door and step out.

The sky is dark and starry. I remember my goal to travel to a distant star by zoom flying. I pick one and focus. The star gets large and bright with the usual strange distortions but I never seem to leave the ground. Not wanting to force anything I look for the moon instead. When I look all around, I only see a uniform blanket of stars in the sky. Must be a new moon tonight. I become dizzy and fall into darkness.

I don't want to wake up so I visualize the back door until I see it again. I think about simple shapes until I see it before me open and swung outwards. Wanting to stabilize, I reach out to feel the texture and mass of it. I note how vivid it is and begin to steady myself...

Unfortunately that's all I can remember.

Comments: I have been quite busy, stressed, not getting enough sleep lately, etc. so more fragments.

Dreams00: I had two interesting dreams during the night, but can't recall them at all.

WBTB: tried to WILD but it didn't work out

Fragment1: Reading posts in DV

Fragment2: In another dream, I am reading a text showing the real name of one DV member. It sounded very strange

Fragment3: some sexy stuff again....

Fragment000: There was another fragment, I can't recall it now.

Date: May 29, 2013
Method: Nothing, my goal was to just go to bed without trying for anything but ended up with a DILD (why is it when you don't give a damn, something happens?).
Sleep Time: Can't remember but I believe I had gotten around 7-8 hours of sleep.

Dream

Dreamed I was trying on Christmas costumes (Santa costume, then an Elf) and I knew that this had to be a dream...suddenly, I felt strong vibrations with every step I took (within the dream) and suddenly, I was at my bedside. I can't remember what happened because it felt like I was fading to the black, so I tried to control the dream by rubbing my hands together. This helped me and I remember having the strong vibrations again and I was standing in the door of my bedroom (for some reason, when I become Lucid, I can feel vibrations and I am always back in my bedroom). For a second, I told myself to control my emotions and not get excited or I would wind back up in my body...as soon as I said this, I was back in my body . As soon as I woke up, I wrote everything down in my dream journal so I wouldn't forget and went back to bed...oh well, at least I was lucid!