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5/23/13

Last night bed 12:30 - 5:56

I watched the movie 300 day before yesterday. And this is what I got.

DR - I'm in hills. Doing a search mission. With group of people, coming to the top of the hill and looking down at some greek ruins. Somebody tries to deface them and break them down I threaten to write him up and report to authorities. I'm saying "How would you like it if people before you had done it. Then you and your kids would not be able to see it today".

I have two ampules of blood. One has 1 dose and it's number is 1261. The other ampule has 2 doses and number is 1262.

I find some artifacts with V symbol. I'm told that it's a symbol for a blade. (During the movie 300 IWL, I was wondering what the V symbol on their shields and pins meant.)

I remember doing something with a group of people. Maybe some sort of competition or something. Whenever it was over, I hopped on a bicycle and road it to a red traffic light. There a woman on a motorcycle in front of me. I really wanted to have a conversation with her, but....oh wait. She's on a bicycle just like me. We're talking, and she asks me if I ever show up to a particular auto parts store. I told her I've gone to it a few times.

Then she tells me about how her computer is messed up due to her ex-husband....she wants me to fix it or whatever. I'm weighing the possibility of hooking up with her versus, "I bet this lying bitch is still married".

a lage portion of the dream was spepnt at my house with matt jajeh trying to plan how we would both go to my house and his for thanks giving dinner

#185 - Time unknown - DILD

I was going for WILD and I hit weak vibrations two separate times but I was disturbed by my wife the first time and lost concentration the second time.

I am in the yard at the old house in Luling, TX with my bro. There was something going on at the church but I can't remember now. Some man walks up talking to me. I suspect he is drunk so I smell his breath as he talks. He purposely talks heavy so that his breath is available for smelling. He has halitosis up no trace of alcohol. There is some conversation.

I go inside to look at something and close the door. There was a lot of panel glass on the exterior wall and door that should not be there. I turn around and really look at the old house. It has crappy siding but I remember brick. My brother is next to me again and I point and say, "That should be brick. I remember brick." Then gradually realize I am dreaming and remember that last time I wanted to burn the house down. I yell at my brother, "Quick! Light a match!" He instantly produces a lit match and it put it to the house. It goes out for a second but I concentrate on what a lit match looks like and it re-lights. I find a quart of motor oil and pour it on the fire. Then I think what I really need is gas. i look down and see a red plastic gas can. I pour the oil on it and the fire trails. I visualize the fire melting the plastic and watch. Jets of fire come spewing out and spread all over the house. The flames looks strange like some kind of fiery water.

Satisfied, I remember the TOTM. I feel like I am going to wake so I hurry. I look at my bro and quickly step into the fire. I feel the warm like an electric blanket is over me and I watch the fire spread from my legs up to my arms and hands. My brother is just standing there, looking at me dumbly. The dream fades but I don't wake up. I have some FA.
I am looking astronomical data. It feels like archived Kepler data. Someone says to look for some star system called "Xeno" "Xenous" Something like that. The dream morphs and at some point Justing Beiber is making out with me. I am outraged when I figure out what is going on and I call him all sorts of names. Britney Spears shows up talking to me like she knows me. I can smell her perfume. I find her attractive for the first time but I realize how much I don't like her and I sort of pity her. I think it is amazing that I am standing here in a Wal-Mart next to Britney and the Beibs. I become lucid but can't remember anything. I must have woke up or had another FA.

There was some dream about Nix and the feeling or lucidity when I woke up for the morning but I can't remember.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Nap #1(fragments):

I was doing something with a table, but flies were distracting me. Then later i was watching new yogscast video and they were apparently making video of some lame doom mod... which was also apparently made by me according to dream( ). The mod was pretty low quality and featured one tiny map with a bunch of various enemies, sprites of which looked like they were made in mspaint. It was some kind of arena with blue walls. They have somehow triggered enemies too quickly which made boss enemy appear, but exit opened by itself for some reason, so they just ended the level.
After watching i was going to nap. As i was falling asleep there were some weird voices then i felt some presence behind and some female voice. The dream started fading out, which made me realize that i am dreaming, i was about to get up from the bed but i could not stop it.

Nap #2(fragments):

There were news about an update for some game, we were discussing the good and bad sides of this update with SilentEternity. Then there was some farmland area in that game that i was exploring.
Later there was some kind of story about some artists and there was a task to hide inside one of their houses and spy on them, but nobody was doing it. Then it ended up with a weird music/song mix.

All I remember is a fragment about dreams and scale from 1 to 10 and there may or may not have an elephant in this fragment as well.

Didn't have any recall this morning of anything for the last couple days but have been waking feeling really tired. This has lasted throughout the days but I have been getting 8-9 hours sleep every night.

Slowly trying to improve my recall by saying mantras before sleep and reading my journal, as I've only just started keeping one I haven't got much to read.

I may start imagining dreams before bed of what I want to do.

Hopefully my recall gets better. *sigh*

1 -st
We overslept to school, i was angry, we ran to school and I took my son into the classroom. I thought - strange...how can we oversleep? so i guess, that its a dream. there were a lot of doors and i desided to open them and look for Checker666 to ask him to demonstrate powers. First classroom was empty, when i entered to the second one i saw two guys. I asked - who of you is checker? One of them answered - its me! i said - demonstrate power! and he kicked his friend with the foot. I became to think how make this DC to fly or something else and awoke.
2-nd
I was in my room, realize that its a dream, went through the wall to other room and stood there, thinking what to do next. Alarm clock woke me up.

I became while driving down empty street at night. A coworker drove up next to me, she also had her sister in the car. I yelled out to them, where are you going? After I said that they ended up pulling over to this really nice house. I parked right behind them and got out of the car when they did.

We all greeted each other as we walked towards her door. I interupted them as they were talking to say, Can you take me Guru Padmasambhava?. I notice when I said this a pronouced his name with a strange accent. Her sister bowed to me and seemed to change form, while saying yes I can take you to him.

She lead me into the house straight to kitchen. She said here is Guru padmasambhava. There was a mexican girl sitting in a chair with a green shirt on. I asked the girl are you padmasambhava and she responded yes. I thought maybe this is an emantion him or something. I got directly in the front of the girl saying nothing. Then she said aww your swollen and a tear came out of her eye. She reached out to give me a hug.

I might hate the school-week for dreaming, but Wednesdays are good, I get to sleep in..

First Lucid: There was no precursor to the lucid portion I was aware as the dream formed itself. The dream was forming in front of me and I did what I could to increase the vividness and overall clarity of it, rubbing my hands together and just willing more parts of it to form. Eventually it was stable enough so I decided to fly, it being the first on my three step task list. I jumped up into the air and began flying straight upwards, but I was going way to fast and I feared that I was going to go into space accidentally, again. So, I just went limp and allowed myself to fall back down and I landed back on my feet on the pavement of the parking lot I was previously in. I started walking, I had enough flying for now, and I came to a fence where there were a bunch of DCs, but no matter how much I tried to use telekinesis, it was just not working.. So, I kept trying and eventually the DCs got mad at me for interrupting their baseball game, as I was on a baseball field. And I talked to them and told them how it was my dream and I could be where I wanted. And after that my dream faded to black.

Second Lucid: This one did have a precursor. I was walking with my younger brother to school, an elementary school, which he was apparently attending. (But that makes no sense, as, my little brother is in high school.) Anyways, so I passed a van with a man who looked at me and my brother and told us to have a good day. I replied back to him, you too. (Side-note: he was definitely getting a blowjob from what appeared to be a prostitute, which me and my brother remarked about as we continued walking.) So, we continued on towards his elementary school, which it was the actual elementary school that both he and I went. When we reached the field of the elementary school I suddenly became lucid. My mind immediately darts to getting points, so I jump and start flying, hoping to accomplish my three step task list in this dream. This time I don't fly with high speed and just, more of, glide nicely over a fence and into the school. And now flying was down just had telekinesis and interacting with a DC. Again my telekinesis was not working at all. I was getting a bit angry but I decided that I needed to focus, so I stopped and focused and used my telekinesis to move a DCs hand and bend his fingers around (don't worry it didn't hurt him.) Now there was telekinesis all that was left was interacting with a DC. I walked over to a lovely DC and asked her if she cared for a dance, extending my hand. I drew her in close to me and we began to dance, I mean how could she refuse me.. haha. So, my dream faded away as we were dancing but only visually, I could still feel her hands and both her and myself dancing, so we continued to dance until that too faded away.

Fragmented recall is fragmented.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was in some place that was partly indoors partly outdoors, then i was navigating through a maze of rocks towards some building. Then in that building it was foggy and i was talking with some people. Then i was searching through ruined part of that building and i have found someone in costume similar to Santa's(not sure) and there was some talk about some organization. I went back to maze and soon got to the end of it. There was a treasure and some agents were trying to stop me, but i have opened it. It triggered some kind of self-destruction mechanism that triggered some kind of cataclysm, and then dream ended.

Dream 2(fragment):

There was some discussion about lucid dreaming.

No dreams recalled last night. Just checking in to keep the habit of posting.

Date: 22 May

Total Sleep Time: 8 hrs

WBTB: 120 mg gingko

Dream quality and recall: dreams were vivid, but I was very sleepy today, I guess that has affected my recall. My prospective memory and concentration during the lucid were not at their best either.

Fragment1: the dream involved Xanos, no other memory

Dream2: A class meeting again. It is late at night and we are discussing with the girls where we are about to go. I feel like dancing so I am totally fine with any place they suggest. I notice that they have put on some weight. My dad is over-protective and follows me around. I arrange to secretly meet with my best school friend and take her to a concert. I will buy her the ticket. On what I think is the next day, we meet in the morning and take the subway. She has moved to my city, it seems.

Fragment3: We are eating some mix of bacon and cheese, tasted very realistic

Fragment4: the office is closed, my dad is looking for something

WBTB: Took gingko. Recalled dreams and did some dream incubation during which I have fallen asleep.

Dream5: I am watching some trees from above, and want to change their color. It feels a bit like I am observing using google map. Soon I am at the place of interest, in the middle of a lake. There is an old wood-made ship close to the also quite old and dusty quay. I have a game like attitude and want to rearrange the whole place. I succeed in making more space where I want to. Then I am in the water, swimming forward, but it is not very pleasant because this lake is a bit dirty. There is also a fish nearby, and I don’t like that.

Dream6: Instead of the normal section of a restaurant, I decide to follow a DC and go to another part. I am climbing some stairs to reach my destination, but the place is very hard to get to because the doors are smaller. I reach the third floor, where I talk to the waiter – a friend of mine. Three other DCs appear. One of them tells me that he has a Japanese geisha girlfriend and that they are in an open relationship, they are dating some other special girl. He shows me a brochure where all this is explained using some strange Japanese words. I think that he expects me to join their little arrangement, so I say no thanks.

Fragment7: I am in a car, and the waiter of another place we were in, is now John Malkovich. He comes in, bringing my favourite sandwiches. They are perfect.

Dream8 DILD: I am in an interesting looking town, but pay little attention to it at first. I am with four friends, one girl I clearly know, two DC friends in the background and another girl. The other girl is the girlfriend of a friend of mine, and she has come to meet me. At first, I don’t feel at ease with the two girls, even though they are friends, so I fly to the level of the first floor, and follow everybody as they are walking down the street, just above them. I think of why I am doing this and then fly back down. The new girl has brought me some presents – she hands me two notebooks, with school notes, chemistry and other stuff. Then another one with patriotic poems translated in a foreign language. Who would want to read something like that, I am thinking to myself.

At some point which I cannot remember, I become lucid. I feel I have spent a long time exploring around. The next more clear lucid memory is me, still in that city, which looks like a medieval city, feeling happy and going for some tasks (which I don’t remember at all). Then I look around and enjoy the place, the walls of the houses around are made from a dark stone with a hint of green. It feels like an Italian city during Middle Ages. It also reminds me of a number of other dreams I had. One more recent one was in a modern Italian city. The Colosseum should be somewhere to my right, I am thinking and desire to go to that place. At the same time, I try to engage a few DCs to help me on my quest. I look ahead and see DCs passing by, I try to stop them, but they are moving really fast, strong momentum, so I cannot stop them. (The second time this has happened). I look at a DC in front of me and notice how beautiful, elaborate and medieval/renaissance-like her clothes are. I get closer to a DC woman that is not moving, she is some kind of monk, and ask her for help/directions, but she is not helpful at all (interact with DC).

I continue and find another male DC, a peasant, he looks a bit blurry. I know that this dream has been going on for really long, so to avoid it ending I come up with the idea to stabilize the dream by kissing him. He is not really ugly, I find him rather unpleasant, but still, I kiss him. I realize that I am doing something objectionable to me, yet I keep doing it. The dream feels much more stable (stabilize dream), but then someone tells me that as a result of my behaviour, I have now two children and that man is my husband. This place is my home now. It all suddenly feels so realistic to me that I lose my lucidity. I begin to fret about those responsibilities and that I won’t be able to leave the place now. At the same time, I know that this city is special and that there are wormholes appearing every now and then, so I can use one of them to escape. I look at a live city map, which shows the location of the currently active wormhole.

I continue sleeping and have another dream that I cannot recall. I wake up and feel frustrated because I have no memory of the last few dreams. Then fragments start to emerge.

Comment: Although I managed to recover some of the memory of that lucid, it is upsetting that once again I am unable to remember a part of the experience. And yet, it is much better than not remembering anything at all.

I'm getting chased by this car with blacked out windows, I go down streets then hop fences to other streets so the car will have to make u-turns to catch up, I run over this small grass hill that leads to another fence, I hop it and on the other side is more grass on flatland, it's grass like that in a old video game, all the blades of grass are rounded and blueish green. I sit in the grass and feel it. Then I realize a man is sitting on the edge of the fence, he tells me he's just crow, (crow is at cat I had for 16 or 17 years that died a few years back). Then he morphed into crow and I realize I must've entered a portal of sorts, I see a door across from us and run to it and open it and go through and am led to this old house with many doors of many sizes I know all of which are portals. I stick my head through a few but never go through because I want to go back to crow, I get interrupted by my half sister and her daughter, her daughter is being a brat so I go back out the door I came so I can pet crow, my half sister asks me where I'm going, I tell her crow is out there, she doesn't believe me and tells me to prove it, so I tell her to come with me through the portal and she does. When we're through i go on the grass and call out for crow, I don't know where he went, my half sister marvels at the grass and laughs at my calling for crow going ignored. Finally I see a paper towel to the right of us, I run and pick it up knowing it was crow, she laughs at me and says I've gone insane, but I ignore her and keep petting crow, then I stand up and water falls down I get confused and asked jokingly if my water broke, and My half sister says no crow just pissed on you, and I laugh because she just admitted the paper towel was crow. Then the men in the car return and hop the fence into the grass, they have two wolfs, me and my half sister panic and run for it. The two men inject the seemingly nice wolfs with something in the neck, then within a few minutes the wolf become evil and go after us, One catches up to me and bites me all over, I take out my stun gun and give him a jolt and he falls to the floor long enough for me to get my switchblade out and slit it's throat. The second wolf is going after my half sister so I tell her to cut it's throat so she does, she didn't get bit, I new In a little bit I'd probably turn out how the dogs were because I got bit, I see my half sister run into this crate looking place, it has hot dogs everywhere and it's like a steam room, there's kids and elders and they're all letting racoons, rabbits and other animals sweat it out, they tell me they had the poison but sweating it out takes it away, my half sister is sitting with people she tells me to sweat it out before I turn, so i get on the floor and pull out my stun gun again and tell her if i turn to zap me and she agrees, then I lay down face down, my body then begins to slide very very slowly back and forth as if i was on a rocky boat, I can hear all the people whispering in fear about me creeped out that I'm sliding, wondering if I'll change to monster or sweat it out in time, this seems to go on for several minutes, but then I sit up sloppily and dizzy and the people gasp, I grab a hot dog and eat it and mumble something to a kid, but then I feel something coming on so I run through the room and run out side and then these teeth like a mako shark come out of my mouth as I roar like a fuckin lion, i realize it didn't work but I didn't want to hurt them so I ran as far as I could before I lost all control. Then I go through this glass building getting darker an darker, I see this couple in a glass window shaped like and air balloon and they're enjoying themselves looking at a view of dark water. I go through these glass blinds and find these two girls in extravagant dresses and yell at them where are they going? then they yell at me to follow them, I thought they were leading me into the glass air balloon, but instead we go down glass mirror stairs that are so sleek and they go down in a circle swirl That we just slide fast down against the walls of it then we end up under all I saw and they go back up but I just hide under the stairs while girls in beautiful dresses go up the stairs.

Date: 21 May

Pre bed: 120 mg gingko, WBTB: 2x peppermint oil capsules

Sleep quality, dream contents & recall: fantastic sleep quality, more or less realistic dreams with some exception, very positive mood upon wake, quite bad recall for the vividness.

Fragment1: Thinking of a friend

Fragment2: Received a text message from a relative I was recently thinking about

Fragment3: An actor that asks people about his origin, I am the only one to correctly guess it

Fragment4: With a classmate on a street in my hometown, she has a blue bike

Fragment5: I am on another street nearby, this time a dog transforms into some kind of mutant creature – a mix between a dog and hulk, dark grey bluish color and is after us. I decide to run towards school because there are more people there, so it will attack them first.

Fragment6: I am in a store I know, looking to buy some tea mugs, or dishes. It looks like the sale is over. The lady on the cashier gives me some stuff I have apparently purchased, including a jacket. Another DC woman takes the bag and I run after her, explaining those things are mine.

Dream7: I am in my hometown again, controlling the movement of trams. I am meeting my bf, so I direct the tram forwards, but then I go back again. I am then on the street, and it is extremely hot. I notice the way I am dressed, same as always, but my belt is about to fall and my jeans are a bit loose. It is so realistic that I struggle moving in this heat. I look to my side and see grandma, dressed the way she always did. Some feeling of lucidity that quickly evaporates. I pay attention to the shops nearby, there is one where they sell natural remedies and I see a huge pack of gingko biloba, I wonder if I should buy something from the shop. I continue on my way, a DC tells me that someone has died. The women have been dreaming about it and told him but he didn’t want to listen.