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Dream recall from today's nap.

There was something about dragons.

1. [non-lucid]
I'm walking a child home from his school, he has a white bag with something that looks like sticks of liquorish, he was told he was not allowed to eat them.
As we were walking home he decided to go ahead and eat 1, this annoyed me so I tried to ram him a few times (with my wheelchair) to punish him but it didn't do anything, randomly a woman appeared and slapped him, this seemed to do the trick, we carried on walking home.

2. [non-lucid]
I for some reason end up on a dock unable to get off it because the only way off is via a ladder...I cant use a ladder due to being in a wheelchair so that is quite a problem right there, someone approaches me and its Vinnie (A dick from my old College), he laughed and said something then climbed the ladder.

fragments:
I'm in some sort of game where I am speeding through moving platforms and dodging obstacles
Attacking and killing big n scary monsters in an indoor pool thingy.

Notable Items & People:
Ladder, Pool, Vinnie, Dock, Liquorish Sticks, White bag, Child

Dream of Thursday 18th - Friday 19th July 2013

I was in my room, in the exact same position how I fell asleep. I felt very weak and immediately had this vague feeling of fear, a realisation that something was wrong.
My little brother, my mother and my father (the latter being dead in real life) walked in my room through the doorway (which was in a different position than in reality). Because of the light of the hallway, I could only see their silhouettes. My little brother walked towards me and said: "I'm going to school. Hug?"
Something was wrong. I tried talking, which was very difficult. Which huge effort I was able to say: "J...., I don't want a hug right now. Okay?"
My little brother answered: "Okay", and just disappeared, and so did my mother and father. I didn't want him to be sad, so I said a little louder: "But have fun on school, alright?" No answer. I wondered if it was sufficient to make him happy again.

Then... A hand appeared on the edge of my bed, the palm directed towards the ceiling. The hand was softly moving, gesturing: "More."
Immediately I realise it's the monster and that I'm dreaming. (LUCIDITY)
I try to manipulate my dream and do something funny, so that I'll feel less afraid. I decide to put cake in her hand. Normal cake will be difficult because it's so light-coloured, but against the dark background of my room chocolate cake shouldn't be too hard. So I snap my fingers and make cake appear on her hand. I say: "Chocolate cake, bitch, mmmmm."
The hand disappears under the bed for 1 second, and the monsters says: "Mmmmm", on the exact same tone I had and with my voice. But the next second she's already there again. Waves of fear radiate out of my body. She stands up, and I become even more afraid... But curious as well. Maybe I'll finally be able to see her face, which never happened before. But where her head was supposed to be, there's only some indistinct blur.
Her clothing is very clear and very detailed: I can see that she wears a red schoolskirt, and a black vest. Her legs are not made out of grey and dead flesh, like usual, but are alive and healthy.
She climbs into my bed and desparatly I try to control my fear. She hums a weird tune as she crawls towards me. Right when I think that my fear is gone and my mind is empty, she says in English (not my first language):
"See, you, I'm still drowning." She violently bites the side of my waist and then the dream is over.



Nearly got a freaking heart attack when I woke up, realised I was awake, and still heard the humming tune. It appeared to be a chainsaw of somebody in my street who was sawing a tree. So the humming is not really relevant.
New things: she wasn't dead. This was a very, very alive monster.
Crawling into my bed and biting happened before, though.

Any thoughts?

PS: very angry that I didn't come up with anything better than chocolate cake. Wise lesson learnt this night: food doesn't solve problems.
PPS: I don't count this nightmare as lucid, because I'm always lucid in these nightmares.

Today i dreamt i was giving a walk with my brother and my mom.
My brother asked me if I could borrow him my phone, i did borrow.
I could listen what my brother was thinking: "Should i do it now? is it the right time now?
well i'll do it" he phoned his girlfriend and decided to tell her why he didn't tell her anything
about he being "dissapeared" from their house 2 days ago. His girlfriend monologue:
"What happened to you?"
"Why you didn't tell me anything?"
"I was worried you know?" <- almost crying
**WEIRD PART**
"I wanted you to come home, i want your love" <- crying
"I want your friendship" <- crying
"I want the music" <- crying
My mom tried to talk to her but it was useless, she just continued with this nonsense monologue...
"I want the football" <- crying
And i whispered to myself
"I want a lucid dream"


Technique used for this dream: MILD
Sleep time: 6 hours

I have a bunch of apologies to make. For one this dream is very strange. For two, I'm a day late, I had this while on vacation in Michigan earlier and the week and we were so busy bikeriding and kyaking that I never took the time to sit down and type this one out.
I actually classify this as a lucid nightmare. The inability to control it and the idea of being attacked by drowning and tornadoes... it kindof sucks.

I'm in some sort of lava/volcano place. I'm walking along on a wide shelf of rock that is angled slightly to the left. I take note that a thin layer of lava is spreading downward (there is a lava river on either side of the rock shelf.) So I know that unless I hurry, I won't be able to beat the lava and get to the other side of the shelf.
I don't make it in time. I decide to turn back. It's too late, lava has flooded the shelf on both sides. I'm trapped. I run through the lava to get to the other side, where I was originally going. The lava hurts my feet really bad to walk through and feels sort of sticky, but I am able to make it.
Once I get across, I see the shelf ends where there is a river of (already, were getting into some dream logic here) blue lava.
I was beginning to get lucid at this point, and had the feeling that killing myself in the lava wouldn't have any permanent consequence. (Plus, I was surrounded by erupting lava and volcanoes anyway, so either way, I was going to die.)
I jumped into the blue lava. It was very painful, but only lasted for a second. I died and became a "soul" that floated up to a safe spot away from all the lava on a small ridge. Once I was deposited there, I was in a new body and became fully lucid.
Ok, I wasn't fully lucid yet, but I knew I was dreaming. All of these computer graphic hologram menus appeared and contained various options that supposedly would allow me to terraform the planet that I was on.
I changed the settings to create a more temperate, earth like planet instead of a volcanic planet. Once I did that, I was in a forest type area with some kind of play structure for kids. It seemed to be wintertime, because all of the trees were missing their leaves.
I began to stabilize the dream using voice commands to increase the clarity. I began to notice that I could feel my position on the play structure (That I had climbed) and could tell which parts of my body were holding the weight. As I finished stabilizing, I noticed a small crowd of 20-some people were watching me stabilize the dream.
When I looked at these people, I couldn't help but think that they were looking for guidance, like I was their dream king or something. Just an interesting thought that I had while dreaming.
I eventually found Lia, my dream guide. But as soon as I found her, she began changing into an older man. When she had finished transforming, (s)he looked like Jonny Cage from the Mortal Kombat games.
Enh, sense when does ANYthing that happens in my dreams make sense anyway.?
All of the sudden I realized that I couldn't breathe. I remained calm and somehow realized that the entire area was actually about 100 feet underwater. I nearly passed out swimming to the surface, but as soon as I reached the surface, the water drained away. I should also note that the water was very clear. I'm not entirely sure how the area got flooded like so.
I think for a few moments somewhere in there I caught a glimpse of my dream "Nemesis" a boy named Jonathan. I think he was the one flooding the area in an attempt to kill me.
The next thing I knew, me and Lia were loaded onto this small iron gondola. There was a very large strong figure bearing armor that looked like the power armor from Fallout. The figure somewhat forcefully put us in, and slams the door.
Ok, no more video game references in this dream, I promise.
The cable car moves very fast, and the cable seems free form, as though it's solid and not tethered to anything. In that sense, it was less of a cable car and more of a... sky train? But no, it was a gondola, not a train.
The gondola follows the rail/wire high above the area we were just in. I can see the play structure was just a small part of a large island. Most of the island was actually made up of abandoned factories and bordered on all sides by docks and huge shipping cranes. The play structure where I had attained my lucidity was in the middle in a small grove of forest.
Around the island there are other areas of land. The island actually divided a river, and there was more snowy terrain dotted with factories and apartment buildings all around us. The river was not frozen.
My attention turns back to inside the gondola. Lia is sitting opposite to me, changing back to the way she usually looks.
Now comes the weird dream guide dialogue. I can't remember why I asked this, but I asked if Jonathan (my dream "Nemesis") was able to leave my dreams and go into other people's dreams.
Lia told me that he could in fact leave my dreams.
I proceeded to ask her some other question about my "second REAL lucid dream" and Jonathan. (My second real lucid dream didn't involve either Lia or Jonathan, it was just dream control practice.)
The gondola was now really low over a road. The road cut through the same sort of snowy forest that we had been in earlier. But the reason I had looked up was that there was a massive tornado just off the left side of the gondola.
I looked ahead, and saw a whole plethora of tornadoes, that seemed to be lining up with the intent of destroying the cable car we were riding in.
The cable car seemed really strong though. We passed straight through the tornadoes and the car barely rocked. Lia told me that the car was very strong, and despite its rusty, distressed appearance, she was no liar.
Then things got really strange. The tornadoes turned sideways and began flailing around like wips. I started the process of waking myself up.
"He's bringing the whole dream down on us!"
The gondola was torn off the rail and flung onto the road below. The car broke open. The last thing I remember was the both of us getting picked up in the tornado before I woke up.

NEW FORMAT:
Not Lucid
Lucid
Awake

I find myself in Hawaii for some unknown reason. I'm walking down the sidewalk on a beautiful evening. Suddenly, I start to become really tired for some reason and begin drifting in and out of "sleep" as I walk along. Some people take notice and walk with me and keep me awake. We stop by a ledge and see another one of the islands of Hawaii. There is a battle taking place. I can see explosions and whatnot on the island. Someone explains to me that the Hawaiians and some sort of rebel force are having a war in the state. We now see two rebel tanks coming down the road and we jump for cover. The two tanks pass, and we move along.

Some fragments of the dream in between scenes are forgotten, but I now find myself in the passenger seat of a van on the highway. We're still in Hawaii and the red evening sky is still present as well. As we get on the highway I see the speed limit sign reads 75 MPH. That is faster than normal where I live(usually 65, then 70 on the turnpike). We speed up to pace and move towards a tunnel. We see cars driving crazily on the road, as if they're trying to get away from something. We now swerve out of the way of three SUVs moving the wrong way. Shortly we enter the tunnel which has no lighting in it. The driver turns on his lights and we come to a three way intersection, seeing it last second. The driver spins the steering wheel but can't make the turn, smashing us into the wall. We get out, lucky to be even unharmed. Then a group of armed cars stop just down the tunnel. Armed soldiers come out and begin to open fire, but that is all I remember before awakening.

I had a few dreams last night but they werent long and I forgot them right away due too a lot of noise waking me. I did manage to have one long one though.


I found myself in the back of the truck of my parents, coming back from the grocery store, when I asked them if we could stop by a Walgreen for me to buy something. They agreed and dropped me off at the front. Once I headed inside I went towards the gaming aisle where I looked at a few games and picked one up (cant remember what game) and put it in my pocket. I also picked up a magazine and then walked back outside. I noticed that I mistakenly forgot to buy the items that I put in my pocket but since I was already outside I shrugged it off. When I got back in the car, I started to talk to my parents in spanish about what would happen if a zombie outbreak occurred. I proceeded to tell them that if it did happen I would make my way down to Miami so I can get a boat. Once I told them that, my step-dad laughed and said "A Boat huh?" and then I told him yeah but that they should instead head North out of Florida instead. I think my step-dad asked me if I wanted to see some zombies and I said okay because he went on to a dirt path all of a sudden and down the path I could see a horde of slow walking people heading our way. I suddenly became excited and pulled out a rifle from out of nowhere and began to shoot at them. One of the zombies came close to the truck and my step-dad said in spanish "I suppose you didnt lock the doors" and sure enough an ugly looking zombie lady opened the door and I quickly bashed her in the head with the rifle but it only made her furious so I then followed it up with a punch and she went flying backwards. Once I closed the doors we got out of there and proceeded to head down the road but the opposite direction of our house. My stepdad being stubborn as he is wanted to do a u-turn while driving the wrong way on a one-way street. I told him to just make a u-turn at the next intersection and my mom said "you know how he is". While still in the car I started to worry about the Zombies we just encountered and how relaxed my parents were about it. He finally made the turn but then we wanted to load the groceries on to the back of the truck so we pulled into somebodies drive way. I hid away the rifle, got out, and began to load the groceries but then my mom got out and told me I had to take out the black cover placed over the back first and then put in the bags. I did a frustrating tisk because I had to unclip a lot of buttons on the black cover but then I started to realize I shouldnt complain and be good to my parents. When all the groceries were loaded the owners of the house came out and we thanked them. They began to get in their cars and leave and we followed close behind. Once out I saw a huge crowd of people and cars standing still in the middle of an intersection, the dream became extremely clear and vivid at this point, so I got out with the rifle and began to investigate what was going on. I saw a bunch of people with a lot of fright and worry on their face and remember seeing a black girl with a gun as well. Down the street of a neighborhood I could see a blockade of military vehicles and then a bunch of soldiers moving out while the commander screamed "lets move, lets move"! A garbage truck was stationed right behind one of the military vehicles and at this point there was smoke coming through where the soldiers were running. Everything became really quite and all of a sudden zombies began climbing the truck and gunfire began spurring out. All the people went into a panic and I looked down the road towards my house to see if we can escape. I saw another barricade of military vehicles and I obtained a sense of hopelessness. I woke up shortly after due to another noise in the house.

I... have this strong wish to transform everyday images, the sporadic imagined ones and the thoughts that go along with them, into.. well a dream like the ones at night: into a (visual) manifestation of all the thoughts, wrapped into a whole dream world. I know this is what happens at night, but I seem to be looking out the other end of my subconscious then, and not back onto my everyday life. I want this simple transformation of thoughts into images, essentially into actual daydreams, something that seems to be suppressed in most people generally, and inhibited further through tension and stress etc.
The way I picture it is that I take some Choline, (in some idyllic place or peaceful room), and then start consciously molding my imagination once it comes, expanding fragments behind mere thoughts into lively (as in subtly changing) images, creating spaces beyond all these compressed thoughts and impressions of the day.
Unfortunately I don't dare touch my Choline when I'm under stress, which I always am, and loosen the inhibited images out of hiding, because I fear.. hallucinations. That's what I fear.
My dreams at night are pretty harmless so I don't understand this fear.

But supposing it would actually release such things as visions of horror and violence - are these bad for you?
Because with this issue in particular I feel that dreams are not just dreams.

Non-dream | Dream | Lucid

Bedtime: 05:00

Title: Untitled
Description: Surreal dream in which I bump into a lot of people from my past with brief lucidity and a false awakening.

There was more before this, but I can only remember anything after this point.
It's dark and quite late and although I don't remember any of them, I'm with a couple of people walking into some kind of bar in town. Once inside, it's absolutely packed with people and I notice something really weird. Amongst the crowd I start seeing people I used to know, but much younger. I even saw my younger self in there.

I come around the corner to find a round table against the wall where I can see Chloe and some other people sitting while talking and drinking. There's a lot of noise so I lean over in between two people who are sitting on top of the table to shout something across to Chloe. She leans in to listen and I Tell her "Something really weird is happening, everyone I used to know from childhood is here" but she doesn't really understand why that would be weird so I try to explain by saying I just saw my younger self.

Suddenly I become distracted by the idea that I'm probably dreaming, and look around to see what I could do or where I could go. However, the entire dream had been a bit "foggy" and I'm not really aware enough to stabilize the dream so I quickly lose lucidity.

I notice someone who I think was a young Kusano in the crowd in front of me and it prompts me to think of NEWS, which leads to another brief moment of lucidity where Massu appears behind me, also a younger version, but for some reason he's taller than me.

He casually throws his right arm around me and leans towards my face to say something, but before he does I cut him off and ask him where Shige is. Usually my DC's don't reply to me so I was really surprised when he answered me, and in English too!

His reply was very strange, he told me something along the lines of how Shige isn't available or can't be visible or present in my dreams. It kind of made sense to me as he is very rarely in my dreams even when all the other's are, and I often find it impossible to successfully bring him into a lucid dream. But why? Why Shige?

I tried asking why, but the scene changed and I was thrown into my parents bedroom with one of the other's. Whoever it was still kind of looked like Massu but also both of the others. The entire dream wasn't very "clear" so it's kind of hard to tell.

Anyway, whoever it was leaned in over me as if they were going to make a move on me so I shoved them away because they weren't Shige!

After that, I had a false awakening but failed to acknowledge it and tried to get back to "sleep" but I couldn't. I could hear my parents outside my door making noise, and I really REALLY had to pee so I gave up and climbed out of bed.

Then I actually wake up.

This was a really "weird feeling" dream, I woke up feeling a bit well, weird. And I did really REALLY have to pee. I consider myself lucky LOL.

Anyway... It's been a long time since I last focused on lucid dreaming, and I'm so ready to get back into it! Although I'm surprised I (kind of) had one on the first night, especially since I didn't even try. I think I remember waking up naturally about 4 hours after I fell asleep, and had the dream after that.

Characters: Chloe | Kusano | Massu | Koyama | Tegoshi | Mentions of Shige