Hide and seek. Started. I was in another Dingy version of my inner world house. I was playing hide and seek with some teens or something. I counted to 30 with my eyes closed. When I was done I left the kitchen/dining area out the back porch down some steps. Saw one guy running away and said, "found you." Went into the backdoor to the basement and saw some people walking down the back hall. Went to my left at the end of the hall where a set of steps lead up but to the right was another bedroom just before the steps. Went in there and there were a bunch of teens smoking. I asked a guy for one. He said no but another blond guy threw one at me I tried to catch it but it vanished. My brother was there suddenly and was like, "What happened to it?" We both search on the ground for a while but find nothing. Movie Fragment of me sitting on a couch. I turn on a movie. My aunt walks in and I tell her she probably won't like this violent movie. Death by phone I'm in some spa treatment place with my mom and long dead grandpa. Me and my mom go to leave. A girl who works there approaches us and says they have an hour until they close. She says, "Let me call someone first... AHH" and then she's on the floor with a burn mark on her face. The reception phone is off the hook. Apparently it burned her to death? I tell my mom we should call 911. But i don't want to use the death phone. I go through the woman's purse and find a pink cell phone wallet? I open it and dial 911. I hold the phone to my ear, but suddenly my head is dizzy and hot. I pull it away and throw it on the floor. Now it's a laptop that slides inside a briefcase. I hear some mumbling then a dead phone line. I keep fiddling with it to work but it won't. Meeting Raven I was walking in an unfamiliar city in a downtown street. I came across a bus bench and noticed Raven sitting on it. I asked her what was she doing here? While we were discussing the impossibilities of such a chance meeting. I was noticing how young she looked. Her hair was longer than usual and had blue or green eyes. I was perplexed by this but my memory fades here. Finding Asuka Remember trying to convince Asuka to come with me. Raven was there. I grabbed Asuka's hand and she grumbled, "do you really have to hold my hand?" I said "yes, because I don't want to lose you again. I want to make sure we make it home together." Window I am in my inner world house with Raven and Asuka. I go to a window and an undead version of Professor Snape is looking in through the window. I run to the back of the house and tell Raven I spotted him. Movie again. I'm with Asuka in our living room. She puts on some cartoon anime movie. It starts playing and I see two cartoon guys on bikes going down a japanese tokyo street. I say, "This is one of my favorites!" In the movie I'm walking along a street with the kids from the movie. One kid is with his mother and he pulls one of the guys off his bike. The guy who fell off the bike pulls out a circular blade in the shape of a table saw and he slices the bully in an upwards motion. The guy starts bleeding out and in my strange dream logic i saw, "He got what he deserves." The mother looks at me shocked. I continue, "Well, if you would have raised your son better he wouldn't have been a bully. and now he might die." I go into a school and sit in a class. I'm at a desk way in the back. I pull a book out of my bag and try to place it on the desk but the desk top is missing. I turn to my left and see a student placing the desktop from my desk onto his. I start yelling at him and ask for my desktop back. I take it and place it on the desk. I then back to look down and now I'm sitting in only a chair. With two desks to the side facing one another. The teacher asks me if I've cleaned the fridge yet. I hesitate and then answer, "No because I was never told to." . Asuka walks up to me and says my glasses are bent sideways and are falling off my face. The dream gets a watery feel like it's about to end. I pick up my glasses and noticed they are not only bent but really scratched. Asuka takes them from me to straighten them out but I wake up.
I'm off today, but chose not to WILD. I just wanted to sleep in, which I never get to do, working 6 days a week and WILDing on the days off. I had a bunch of dreams. Recalling this last one. I'm in a futuristic train station, in US. The train looks like old steam engine trains. Black, but much shorter, with shorter engine and wagons. I get on, and I'm talking to 3-4 ladies. They say they live out in the country, where it quiet, everything is green and peaceful. I ask them if it's worth it because of the long commute. They say, it only takes them 2 min to get home, since trains now are very fast. I realize I'm on a wrong train. Decide to get off on the next station and catch a train going back. But the stop comes on too fast and I don't get off. That was the last stop in US, and next one we make, just a minute later, is in Japan. I get off, but everything is moving so much faster, I miss getting on my train. I hop on as it starts to move, and I hang on the handle from the outside. I finally manage to open the door and get inside. The conductor is not very happy with me.
Had a lucid dream or two this morning via meditation. Specifically, I focused on "being present, being nothing." During meditation, instead of clearing the mind, which is a nigh impossible task to do, I focus on conceiving "nothingness."; what it looks like, sounds like, feels like inside the mind. This pretty much solves the problem of clearing the mind for me. I meditated for 15-20 minutes, then went back to bed with the same mindset. The key here is to continue meditating whilst laying down - staying focus on keep your head clear and empty. Sleep paralysis came on to which I surrendered my body. My dream eyes opened up immediately and I knew I was dreaming because I felt the numbness in my body from the sleep paralysis. I got up and went outside of my house to explore. I think I had a false awakening and thus lost lucidity. I can perhaps have lucid dreams every day at this point, it's just the discipline of actually applying the techniques as they should be which requires patience and focus.
I'm in a vast snow covered area and it's snowing. Nothing but snow in every direction. There's a small machine spewing out black snow. Two small alien creatures were born under this machine. Somehow I knew these creatures usually have white fur, but they adapt to their environment. The first one I see has black fur because of the machine. She looks like a cross between a kitten and a ferret. She climbs around my body excitedly and seems to like me. Somehow I know her name and say it: "Dawn!". I take some black snow from the machine and sprinkle it on the other cat-like creature. The orange cat hisses at me and doesn't change color. Dream jumps. I'm at a research facility and people I don't trust have taken Dawn and the orange cat to study them. They call them by different names and I dislike that. "Her name is Dawn." I tell a researcher, but they don't listen. I want to get Dawn out of there. Alright. I wanted to summon something similar to Dawn in my next lucid, but seems she came to me first. I will meet her again.
Date of Dream: MON 8 MAY - 2017 Dream No. 109 - The Great Case My mum was talking to me somewhere but I don't know where it was exactly. I was going somewhere and so she said to me to take the lift to the bottom floor of Reading Cinemas in Waverley Gardens Shopping Centre and meet her there. I was then in the carpark of shopping centre talking to three random boys but I forgot what the conversation was about. I then told them I had to go and meet my mum. They followed me but left when Reading Cinemas was in my sight. I thought the entrance to Reading Cinemas was on the top floor, so I went up the stairs nearby but when I was about ¾ way up, I noticed that there was in fact an entrance on the bottom floor and so I think to myself, “Yay! I don't have to take the lift!” and turn back. When I enter, I enter into this room that looks sort of like the inside of the church and my mum is standing to one side. In the background was all this really bright light, almost as if you were looking into the sun. I walked through this white light with four companions resembling characters from video games, the only companion I remember is Super Mario. We are then outside somewhere and we see this vehicle which is halfway between a ute and a roofless car. Inside is a strange old man who I thought at first had no business. But then from inside the vehicle, this news story was playing that there was some sort of suspect and the person who could find him would be rewarded $250,000. I spoke to this old man and actually discovered that he was the suspect. I then woke up.
Morning of May 8, 2017. Monday. Once again, my life status changes upon becoming unconscious and I am perhaps implied to be around fourteen years of age. The dynamics of my memory are different as always. This combination of dream state amnesia and the total loss of critical thinking skills and any hint of intellect is typical of non-lucid dreams. I am in the Cubitis living room and I believe it is nighttime. My mother (deceased in 2002) is alive and well. My father (deceased in 1979) is also alive but not present at first. Over time, I hear what may be shotgun blasts in the distance, perhaps somewhere in the cow pasture to the east. There are additional similar sounds, not quite identifiable. I do not have that much concern. (I was not able to validate if real sounds in the environment, such as car doors slamming, were responsible for this segment, but it seems likely.) I grasp the doorknob of the front door. My sense of touch is greatly enhanced. I twist it to make sure it is locked. Later however, I realize that my father is coming home at some point, so I unlock the door, making sure the doorknob turns all the way around. I even open the door slightly and close it again. I go into my room and look out the north windows. My father is sleeping in the back seat of a car, his head to the north. I am somewhat puzzled and I do not know how long the car had been there. (As my father represents my conscious self identity in certain cases now that I am older, this simply represents the fact that I am actually asleep.) I go through the back door and into the area of what would be the square concrete platform and the side yard at the south (and the utility room to the east), except that it seems like some sort of open porch with a lot of random furniture stored. It seems morning now even though it was night just moments before. A neighbor drives into their driveway. Only Don M is present. He gets out of his car and comes over, saying, “My man!” as a friendly gesture. However, he then gives me an odd look and starts to move a desk out of my family’s fictional storage area as if we are not supposed to have it. For a time, he drags it upside-down from one end. I help him for a short time. (In reality, they had given us some furniture in 1973, including a pale teal-colored desk that I kept the largest dream work notebook binder volumes in, as it had a bookcase on the left side. Apparently, perfume had spilled all over it and they no longer wanted it, plus the drawer was missing. The smell did not wear off for a long time.) This dream type is in great contrast to other dream types (and as such, has its own associated mood), mainly being a subliminal reminder that I am sleeping as well as being a “denial review”. That is, my dreams often reveal what I am not (when awake as my conscious self) rather than what I am. (For example, when awake I am…not asleep, not in the “back seat”, not living in Cubitis, not with my parents, not involved with Don M’s daughter, not having furniture taken from me, not a teenager, and so on.) All the characters here (other then my dream self) are deceased in reality.
2017, 05-07 Déjà Vu I am in a place that looks rather familiar, but where I would have expected there to be someone there all I see now looks to be abandoned and is falling apart. It also looks like a level in Minecraft, and I am annoyed, thinking I just helped build this place and now someone comes in here and makes a mess of it? I look around to see who is here and what they might have done to this place. I don’t see anyone here at all, and that seems odd, too. I am thinking there should be some people here and I wonder where they are. I think I’d better get to putting this place back together. I start playing Minecraft as I feel I have done before and I start building things back up again. I think there is a certain way things are supposed to be, but I really can’t remember exactly how that is. I figure I will do the best I can and then if I do it wrong it will be easy to fix. I keep playing Minecraft for a while, constantly looking to find both whoever did this and the people I had expected to find. But it would seem I am playing a single player game tonight. After working on it for a while it looks like Grove Street from Grand Theft Auto, or that’s what I have been told it is, I haven’t actually played Grand Theft Auto. Once the area is back to that state I start searching around more. I look into the houses to see if there is anyone in there, though I haven’t seen anyone while searching there. I am finding no one. I enter into a garden that looks like it was once beautiful but now it looks overgrown and abandoned. I take out the ocarina that is hanging from a cord around my neck and I start playing it. I play the song Voices from the soundtrack to Macross Plus. As I play the song I see the garden coming back to life, returning to its former beauty. I keep playing the song for a while, bringing the garden back and also thinking the song might draw someone out if there is anyone hidden away here. The flowers bloom, the trees grow back, there is a stream flowing through the garden with a bridge going over it. I walk through the garden for a while, playing the song. I hear birds singing in the trees, a gentle breeze is blowing through the bushes and flowers. I wonder why I found this place abandoned, I wonder where everyone went. It seems someone should be here… I am still wondering this as everything fades to black and I wake up.
sneaky I was reading text DV style. Nomad was live chatting with someone. He was talking about me. He sad he's going to deliberately make me think one thing and do another. wbtb. Felt really hollow inside. Drifted in and out of sleep. Voices were whispering me saying, "You're really not going to like what Nomad did," a while later the hollowness was gone and felt normal and fullfilled again. in my dream Nomad was saying, "I put the astral chords back together that I cut between you and Bjork earlier" The conversation shifted into a full dream. Grove 4 life Me and Nomad are outside my house on grove street with Bjork and random other DCs in bumper cars. "I'm sorry," he said, "I got super jealous. I thought wrong about what you were doing. Is it really her?" "Are you real?" I asked Bjork. "I am." She said and blew up a part her bang that was hanging near her right eye. It materialized back and she shook her head. "Hey, How do I know this isn't some DC you created of her to fool me?" I asked nomad. Bjork looked confused for a second and vanished. "She just woke up." Nomad said, "Does that answer your question?" "How do I know you're not just making me think that? It was the pretext of your plan!" "I already told you. I'm sorry." "Well, You implanted the idea in my head." I said, "Just like inception. Now I can't trust anything! And what made you change your mind all of a sudden?" "When I went to seal off her inner world from you. She knew what I was doing and she got really upset. I knew then that what I was doing was wrong. So later, it got the best of me and now I restored everything." he said. And we got out of the bumper cars. I started jumping over them. "where you to going now?" "Asuka is gone and I have to find her." "Want some help?" He asked. "No, You've helped enough." I said and woke up.
7/5/17 Dream 1: At rosebud, at night there is a big party, lots of attractive women, I end up breaking my streak on nofap (good thing this is a dream!). I then play tennis, 3 other people there, Melanie, Nadal and an old legend. Play tennis and table tennis I think, walk out to applause Dream 2: On top of a building, some people doing parkour and painting a mural there. I get the help of an employee to go down the stairs of the building and get out. There is then a kind of revolution in the streets, people throwing stuff and letting off green lights and flares. Walk along with reza and tarkan, show reza some huge wrestling match, undertaker and randy orton tag teaming against someone else.
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