(im writing this late in the day so i forgot most of it) I was lucid in a home depo like store and they had a lot of fruit, i figured i want to eat something i never did before and i found blue bell peppers. It tasted less sweet and more dense (taste, not texture), i also recall politely asking for wings and taking off, but i believe that was outside. (testing how this works so i can post the summer challange dream entries)
Today is June 29. Special day for me, I guess... For I have always seen that number in relation to Jamie. I was going to deliver today, but I was very tired today. Jesus told me to rest today when he cleared my house of the rest of it's occupants for the day spent some time in prayer bringing all my distress to Him. And reserved many prayers for Jamie as well. Had some better dreams . Jamie 1 Vague dream. Something about Jamie being at the Staples store in olds. Then me, or her driving down the main road through olds. Looking at people and remembering how different the world seemed in 2011 when me and Jamie worked together. How that summer seemed like 4k instead of today's less saturated 1080 p. Jamie 2 I remember just standing outside somewhere and Jamie ( seeing her as another girl I used to work with named Julie). She smiles and gives me a big hug. She says something like, "Wow, I can't believe it's been over 10 years since I've seen you." The hug feels nice and warm. Yeah GL pretending like we haven't seen eachother in the last year, with her drive bys and us passing eachother on 2A clearly seeing one another. Fun fact: The Julie girl I worked with maybe 4 years ago. At one time I left the first church I went to because I felt like I was being called out. I was struggling with some sins etc and not paying attention to Jesus and wondering if he gave up on me. Well, Julie ran up to me at work one day and asked if I knew Jesus. I said: yes. And Julie said, " I was hiking with my friend from Youth group and she blurted out to me: You work with a guy named Robert right? Well Jesus just told me he really loves that guy!" Friend I was with some family visiting a friend in Canmore. Irl the guy is a friend of me and my brother from his high school years. A guy that took his own life. Anyway we go into a fast food place and order some food. We are waiting for what seems like hours for the food. I keep thinking we must have ordered at another restaurant and we came back to the wrong restaurant. We agreed to leave Burger King because we all remember ordering at A&W instead. So we leave and go down some old steps to the sidewalk. My memory fades after. I'm glad I had a nice Jamie dream
Getting back into the swing of things with a potentially politically inflammatory dream, HUAK TUH! QuestionMark: I'm in a veterinarians' office with a pug-like dog. It has the "blue" fur color. The fur is very soft. The vet tells me that the dog's name is Question Mark. "But don't say it slow, like that. Say it fast like QuestionMark." "Is this puppy a boy or a girl?" "We don't know what they want to be yet." "What do you mean you don't know? Is the dog transgender?" The vet holds up the dog and I see a dick. "That's a boy dog." I say. "THESHIRECAT!" my girlfriend says in outburst. I'm near a hole in the wall, and I see some hands come out to pet QuestionMark. Initially I'm a little freaked out, but I realize they are kids so the creepy behavior is recontextualized into silly kid behavior. Being Around You: I'm at a large grocery store, maybe a cross between a Costco, Home Depot, and my middle school from back home. I'm walking down the hall and I see a small man who seems to have a deformity with his legs. I respectfully give him the space he needs to pass by. Next I come across a happy looking couple. The woman says to the man "I'm happy when I'm with you" as if in response to a question he had asked. I take a moment and think about my girlfriend, and I get a warm and fuzzy feeling. I decide I want to find her and express the same sentiment. I find her checking out the groceries at the register and give her a big hug from behind. I worry for a second she might be uncomfortable with that in public, but she doesn't mind.
Updated 07-06-2024 at 08:59 PM by 99808
Just a quick flash of Jamie. It was so fast I don't know what it was about. But she seemed good. What happened to my dream recall?
Cellar spider infestation and visit to ominous school Unfortunately, it's been a little over 2 years since I've started this draft, so I can't do much more than just acknowledge I had it.
2 dreams. Not sure if these were Jamie or not . One dream I'm walking down a street during the day. I pass by a black rottweiler with a pink collar. It pays me a compliment. I forgot what it was. But I said thank you back. Second dream. I'm in a living room and see my dog. I pet him and then use him as a pillow. The same black female dog comes up and smiles at me and lays down near us. I'm seeing Jamie as a dog now??? Also, was in Olds today standing in a parking lot. Saw some guy drive by and some girl sitting beside him. Didn't see clearly but the hair reminded me of Jamie. Now I don't really know if I suffer mild traits of BPD or not. But whatever it is - it was set off. Now I'm getting confusion with the voice again. Her voice doesn't check in as much during the day. Our late night prayers and sweet talk is still consistent though. Reacting to abandonment real or imagined.. yep, sums it up. It's hard having a " relationship" with someone in dreams and spirit. Especially when they refuse to actually talk to you. It's a real problem.
1. Before you go to sleep keep telling yourself 'I will wake up and recall my dreams during each dream period throughout the night', Say these words 10 times max. Say it out loud to make your intention strong. 2. Do 30-60 minute Wake Back To Bed. 'Don't use any technology because you will have a hard time falling asleep'. Try your best to recall your dream you just woke up from and write down in your dream journal and read it over and over again making your intention stronger. 3. Repeat to yourself : 'The next time I am dreaming I want to remember I am dreaming' you actually have to feel the words for this to work. 4. Imagine you're back in the dream you just woke up from and imagine yourself becoming lucid and you doing whatever you want. Don't force the visualization or it won't work. Narrating the visualization helps me visualize more vividly. 5. Repeat steps 3 and 4 until your intention is set then fall asleep normally. While falling asleep if your mind wonders to other thoughts repeat the mild procedure. 6. If it takes you a long time to fall asleep while practicing this method, don't worry: The longer you're awake, the more likely you are to have a lucid dream when you eventually return to sleep. This is because the longer you are awake, the more times you will repeat the MILD procedure, reinforcing your intention to have a lucid dream. Furthermore, the wakefulness may activate your brain, making lucidity easier to attain.
Can't remember too much non lucid dreams. Jamie is still around. Jamie 1 I'm in something like a video game. A shooting game. Maybe Fortnite. I see someone so I go into a garage to sneak a right hand peak. It's Jamie though and she runs to me. We embrace in a big hug and start making out. In the back of my mind I'm worried about getting banned for teaming. Last night Jamie 2 Jamie is dropping me off at my house in a fancy car. I get out and say before I close the door, "please come back sometime." She smiles and drives off. The look in her eyes, however, seem a bit grandiose. Like she's not smiling because she wants to see me. But because of my statement she feels a little full of herself. I've been praying on the spirit of pride within her lately . Jamie 3 In a white space. Jamie does something kind of gross at me. Not sure if she's trying to make me laugh or trying to offend. Maybe the dream energies in her are wrong again.
Not much improvement at all... Jamie 1 I go to her house. But it's a trailer. She opens her door but is dressed like a trailer trash man, but still a girl. Dirty white shirt etc. she seems to be happy to see me. That's all I remember. Bears I'm with someone. Might be Jamie, not sure. We encounter some bears while camping. I'm terrified they are going to kill us but they turn out friendly Did she choose the bear? Jamie 2 Black space dream finally. But not a good one. Jamie is on a motorcycle in a fancy leather suit. She gives me an, " I'm better than you," and doesn't smile. She speeds off as if to leave me in the dust.. Reminds me of her attitude when I saw her in the store last August. I guess it's not just Shame that keeps her from even saying,"hi " to me. Other days it's grandiose ego- pride. Hmm what did I do wrong now?
Not much improvement at all... Jamie 1 I go to her house. But it's a trailer. She opens her door but is dressed like a trailer trash man, but still a girl. Dirty white shirt etc. she seems to be happy to see me. That's all I remember. Bears I'm with someone. Might be Jamie, not sure. We encounter some bears while camping. I'm terrified they are going to kill us but they turn out friendly Did she choose the bear? Jamie 2 Black space dream finally. But not a good one. Jamie is on a motorcycle in a fancy leather suit. She gives me an, " I'm better than you," and doesn't smile. She speeds off as if to leave me in the dust.. Reminds me of her attitude when I saw her in the store last August. I guess it's not just Shane that keeps her from even saying,"hi " to me. Other days it's grandiose ego- pride. Hmm what did I do wrong now?
I was being terrorized by Homelander in my own apartment. I think he'd already killed a bunch of other people, and he needed something from me. He told me to do it, and left. I knew he would never leave me alone, this would probably not end well for me, and he knows where I live. I knew I probably needed to move, quietly and without anyone knowing. I got back to my computer. It was my older 2016 machine, and I had successfully gotten it to run Windows 98.
I waited way too long to write this down, so most of it is gone. I was with my old high school friends, Fenn and Barra. I was feeling a sense of melancholy, as if on some level I knew they weren't real and I was just reliving a piece of the past.
Still bad recall. Jamie Just a brief flash of dreaming from Jamie's perspective. Just of looking out a window down a dirt road . Jamie 2 I'm in a house on a farm. I seem to be living there. My brother is there. Jamie is there playing a video game or something. She has red hair dyed. Reminds me of this girl on Tiktok who used to be an O/F star but she got saved by Jesus and gave it all up. I ask Jamie if she's playing fortnite. On the screen all I see is a millennium falcon flying over the map. She just nods. Jamie 3 Long dream but can't remember. I'm supposed to go on a bus trip or something. I'm assigned to sit next to her. But we haven't talked yet, so I'm really uncomfortable and nervous. Kind of miss the more affectionate dreams. And what happened to the black space dreams? They were so vivid.
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