lucid

so i was sleeping in my sisiters room and some dark spirit was coming to talk to me. i realized that it was not actually real and i was dreaming. I couldnt see anything and but knew ii was laying down so i was susspicious i was dreaming but new that i was deep down. so the dark spirit said "i have aphone call for you" and seemed ominous about it . the caller at the other end was some deep voice on the other end that was making threats, i ignored them and realized it wa was bullshit. with my spirit i grabbed the dark spirit hovering above my bed by the chest and said "THis is my dream" the spirit tried to hold me down but i persisted and he went away.

After this i was so happy that my dream powers was working i continued to dream . I wadered into my room and the dream began to stabalize. everything was the same but the walls and things were distorted. my grandpa was standing outside my door and i knew he was a dream character, i said hi and walked by. In my living room my family moved around happily and this put me at ease. i did a reality check and looked at my hands which kept morphing into different shapes so i knew i was dreaming for sure. my mom came up to me and gave me a hug and it kinda freaked me out cuz i though "well its a dream so shes not really my mom". "why are you shaking matt" I backed away and told her this was a dream. I considered going outside of the house, but the dream soon fell apart and i woke up feeling accomplished!! FUCK YEA

I recalled my LD last night, but I can't remember how I came to awareness. I tried the nose-plug and it worked . I was in shock, but not as excited this time, because I became aware the night before and then forgot the whole dream. Last night was a similar situation, except I remember more than becoming aware. After the nose plug worked, I made the same mistake as last time- chasing an ex gf of mine. I got her to show up, but I couldn't kiss her. I tried flying instead. Someone said I couldn't do it, so it gave me the motivation to prove him wrong. I was flying by applying the freestyle technique for swimming to the air. It didn't last too long next thing I know I'm getting told I'm going to be late, but I know that my brother is lying because the clocks read different times. My iPod said 509 or something weird...I then remembered how I should explore more in the dreamworld than my fantasies. I tried to meet with my subconscious, but couldn't find "it" to save my dream. I woke up recalling fragments of this lucid dream and a vivid non lucid.
Overall, in my next lucid I will try to wake up after I meet my conscious so I can remember it.

I promised I would write something about persistent realms, and also some other techniques I use when lucid dreaming.
Took me a bit longer than expected because I have a difficult time finding the right words to describe my thoughts.
I quite frankly have no idea if these techniques will work for anyone else,
so this is by no means supposed to be a tutorial, or anything like that.
I'm merely explaining how I do something and what my thoughts about it are.
Maybe, if you are trying to do something similar, there's an idea or two you might find useful.
Basically, I'm giving you a "behind the scenes" look on a dream where I "created" a persistent realm, explaining when I use certain techniques that are not apparent just by reading the DJ entry.
I highlighted important stuff and techniques in bold in case this is too much text and you simply want to skip over it.
Anyways... here goes.

What is a persistent realm?
It's a term I use to describe certain kinds of dreams I have.
Dreams that are persistent, meaning where your actions have consequences, dreams you can resume each night where you left off.
So why do I call them "realms"?
Well, for me these kinds of dreams are a bit more than just persistent.
There are a few more unique characteristics to them:

• Persistence - When you "enter" a realm, you "resume" the dream where you left of last time. (more or less)
• Consequences - Because of the persistence, every action you take has consequences. If you change something it will remain changed forever. For example, people will remember you and the conversations you've had with them.
• Laws & Dream Powers - A realm has a set of laws of physics (fitting the setting of the realm), which may be different from waking life. There may be ways to cast magic for example. You can learn, understand, use (and abuse) these laws, but you can never do anything that violates them. (Such as using dream powers) If a character does something ridiculous then it means that there is a law enabling him to do so, and you most likely can learn to do the same thing.
• Realism - Those dreams feel pretty damn real. I assume the main reason behind this (besides the technique I use) is that all dream characters are intelligent. You won't encounter the typical "derpy" DC who seems completely lost. DC's are intelligent and follow their own agenda. Their actions can be completely unexpected.

How does one create a persistent realm?
It took me some time to come up with an idea for that one.
As I mentioned earlier it's not really a technique.
It's more of a state of mind kind of thing... it's difficult to come up with an explanation.
I guess the best way I can explain it is by fully elaborating on my train of thoughts.
That unfortunately means a LOT of text, but I really don't see a better way of doing this.

I am fully aware that fully persistent dreams are possible because I have experienced them for many years.
The realm containing Teraluna is definitely persistent and my basis for any ideas I've come up with.
The issue is that I've never knowingly created it. I've been dreaming about it ever since I was a young child.

But then I realized that this isn't the point.
The point is that it still works.
I can still go there. The persistency is never broken. I still can't use dream powers.
Why is that? Why does this never fail?
I believe the reason behind this is very simple...

Say for example you want to summon an item in a lucid dream. You need a key to unlock a door.
What do you do? You use some kind of summoning technique:

I'll just search my pockets. I might have it on me? Why else would I come to a locked door if I wouldn't have the key?

This is a trick of course. One that works rather well.
Just searching your pockets is a common and easy summoning technique in lucid dreams.
Guiding your thoughts towards believing that the chances are high that you have that item on you will futher increase the summoning chances.
So guiding your thoughts is an interesting technique to keep in mind.
But something more important first:

When you succeed and find the key, something very obvious happens.
Something easily overlooked.
Once you find that key and you hold it in your hand... it won't disappear.
I mean, why would it? It doesn't make any sense for an item to just vanish.
So what's the reason behind that?

The key won't disappear because I know that it won't disappear.

Is it really that simple?

The realm of Teraluna is persistent, because I know it to be persistent.

Is that all there is to it? Is the answer that simple?
But there's another thought anchored somewhere deep within my mind

I know that creating a persistent realm must be extremely difficult.

Such a train of thoughts is toxic to lucid dreams.
It's there because of many reasons.

• I've never managed to create a persistent realm at will, so it must be hard.
• Creating entire realms feels like an overwhelmingly big task.
• You don't often hear people claiming to have done this so it must be hard.

The list goes on.
While some of these deeply anchored thoughts benefit you, others, like the ones I just listed, disable you.
In my opinion they are absolutely crucial to lucid dreams.

At this point it is clear to me what the technique to create such a persistent realm must encompass:
1) Bypass the I know that creating a persistent realm must be extremely difficult. thought, create a new realm and access it.
2) Make yourself "know" that his is a persistent realm. You can go back whenever you want.

But you cannot just selectively remove ideas that are so deeply anchored within your mind and insert new ones.
That just doesn't work. You can't just decide to "know" something.
You can think about it, educate yourself on it, discuss it,
and eventually it might change. But you cannot consciously edit something you "know".
If you think about it, it happens all the time though. Your ideas, beliefs and even knowledge changes, in the blink of an eye.
It just happens.
And I argue that this process happens sub-consciously.
I also argue that you are able to interact with your sub-conscious in different ways when you are dreaming,
albeit in no way that I think anyone fully understands.

Think about the example with summoning a key I used earlier.
I guided my thoughts towards believing that I already had the key on me.
I never directly thought that the key must be in my pocket.
I merely started a train of thoughts and let my sub-conscious finish it for me.
This is something extremely powerful in dreams, if you can do it.
This doesn't always work of course, but it is such a versatile and powerful tool, albeit difficult to control.

Expectations, hope, fear, they all play a very important role during dreams.
When you first learn to fly, you do so by trying to do it over and over again, thus increasing your expectations that it will work with every small success you have.
But creating entire realms is not really a process that can be learned like that, it simply takes too long.
A more instantanious method is required, like the one used in summoning the key.

Understanding this, I was able to come up with a technique that works for me.
Creating, or rather going to a new realm is pretty straightforward, all I need to use is a teleportation technique.
Making myself believe or "know" that this is a persistent realm is the tricky part.
I need to guide my thoughts towards believing this, without actually thinking that I am guiding my thoughts towards this goal, and without finishing it consciously.

I hope this makes sense...
Anyways, here are some DJ snippets from an entry where I tried to do this very thing,
with my current thoughts on it.

Creating a fully persistent realm
I get out of bed and rather quickly become aware that I am dreaming.
Going through my usual routine of rubbing my hands and remembering my current dream goals,
I eventually remember that I wanted to try the whole persistent realm thing again.
Last time ended in a disaster, but after my recent reflections on the topic I'm somewhat confident
that I'll manage to do it again. And maybe this time I won't die like an idiot half an hour in.
This is a difficult task, so I further increase my lucidity until I feel it has reached a sufficient level.

I do this using a technique I use both for stabilization and increased lucidity.
I have found that for me, the stability of my dreams and my level of lucidity is strongly (but not exclusively) related
to how clearly and reasonably I'm thinking.
By forcing myself to solve rather complex problems, using mostly logic, and verifying that I have solved them correctly,
I manage to assure that I am indeed thinking clearly.
Knowing this I am very confident that my dream will remain stable, and that I will maintain a high level of lucidity.
This is somewhat crucial for this task, because it all revolves around a rather complex and entirely mental technique.

I breathe in deeply and exhale, whilst stretching to prepare myself for the task at hand.
I am amused by the realization that stretching a dream body makes little sense, but quickly focus on the task at hand again.
I try to relax myself as much as I can.
I imagine myself standing inside of a bubble containing the current dream.
A bubble created solely by my sub-conscious.
I need to push myself out of it in order to go to real worlds.

This is important.
If you want to experience an entire world or setting (Hogwarts, Middle-Earth...), never try to create it right in front of you.
There will be inconsistencies, DCs will go out of character, forget what they're supposed to do...
In my experience, it just doesn't work right.
Instead try to go there.
Don't create Hogwarts, instead go to the real Hogwarts.

I do this by leaving my dream bubble (just a bubble containing my current dream), and going to an entirely new place.
Doing so I have an easier time believing that I am in a real place, and not in a dream controlled by my own sub-conscious,
which renders dreams much more realistic.

I drift away from my dream body, quickly reaching the limits of my small dream bubble, which only encompassed my house.
As I gain distance, I find myself in a place that resembles a galaxy. My dream bubble is a very faint star, quickly becoming invisible within
the sea of bigger and much more vibrant stars.
It is cold and dark out here.
I understand that these stars are other realms, which I can probably visit.
This time I won't just pick one at random though.
I would love to have a persistent realm in a sci-fi universe.
I float from star to star waiting for something to indicate such a sci-fi universe I suppose.
Whilst I don't receive such a sign, one star catches my attention for no apparent reason.
I nearly dismiss the thought before realizing that I might as well go with this one, as nothing special is happening.

Intuition is another powerful tool in lucid dreams.
When you are lost, or if you need to take a decision without knowing which one is beneficial to you, go with your intuition.
It manifests itself in different ways, but most often as no more than a faint feeling, which you'll usually dismiss
unless you consciously look out for them.
Obviously, your intuition isn't always right, and it is difficult to tell it apart from your own imagination in dreams.
But when you have nothing to go on, intuition is always better than nothing.

I approach the star, which is considerably increasing in size as I get closer, pondering on how I entered a new realm last time.
But I have no time to finish that thought. I am drawn into the realm by a superior force and loose vision for no more than a split second.
A new scene pops up instantaneously, as if someone had punched me in the face.
There is no blurriness, no transition period as is common with scene changes in dreams, nothing like that at all.
The new scene is just there.

First steps in a new world
I am quite disorientated. It is very loud. There's people talking all around me.
Apparently I'm queuing for something. I try to look around to get an idea as to where I am, but this proves
rather difficult as there's people all around me, most of them a little taller than I am.
I need to get out of the crowd.
Fortunately, it looks like I was next in line for whatever people are queuing for anyways.
I pass a man and faintly hear him say "Passport please!", but it barely registers.

Whilst I did hear him say that, the thought never registered.
I immediately forgot about it, and was only reminded of it a few seconds later:

I need to see if this place is real or if I ended up my own dream bubble.
Someone grabs onto my shoulder and stops me rather unexpectedly...
I just keep moving because whomever that is is of no importance to the dream.

When I know that a DC isn't important, and I decide not to interact with them, they will always disappear.
This is somewhat crucial, because without this the following wouldn't have surprised me as much as it did.

"HEY!"

I can't seem to shake myself loose and turn around rather annoyed.

"What?"

The man who stopped me is wearing some kind of uniform and is looking at me rather angrily.
He's resting his right hand on what appears to be a holstered firearm.

"I said PASSPORT PLEASE."

Huh? What?
He's slowly moving his gun out of his holster.
Finally it strikes me.
This is not my dream.
This is real.
I'm in trouble.

There were a lot of thoughts shooting through my mind at that moment.
No dream character would ever behave like that. I never investigated that thought any further, because it all seemed so obvious.
I realized at that moment that I had succeeded. The realm was real.
Fortunately, due to the trouble I was in, I never followed up on that thought, so I never questioned the conclusion I came to.

"Wow, I'm so sorry, I was completely lost in thoughts there."

That should buy me a few seconds. He rolls his eyes and pushes his gun back into the holster.
He holds out some kind of tablet device to me, clearly expecting me to do something with my passport.
Fortunately, a quick glance to my side reveals a person in another queue wiping something credit card sized over a similar device, and attaching it to her belt.
I quickly search my belt, hoping that I have a similar card and I get lucky.
I mimic the motion of the other person, which is followed by a rather friendly beep from the device I swiped the card over.
That sounded like it worked.

"Haha, sorry about that."

He couldn't care less. He has already turned his back towards me.

At this point I was completely absorbed by the dream.
The thought that this might just be a normal dream never occured to me.
I knew that this place was real, which in return means that it is persistent and that I will be able to go back to it.
It worked, and it did so rather quickly, without taking much of an action at all.
I didn't actively guide my thoughts much, besides the teleportation technique I used.
But I didn't have to, because my state of mind about persistent realms carried over into my dream.
My sub-conscious solved the problem for me.
It came up with a scenario that would trick itself into thinking that I was a visitor in another realm.

Orientation
If in your lucid adventures, you ever find yourself in a situation where you have no idea where you are and what you are doing there, check your pockets!
It might sound obvious, but in dreams you often don't think about doing the obvious.
Realize that it makes no sense for you to be anywhere with empty pockets.
At the very least you should have your wallet on you, but more importantly, you might have something on you indicating what you are here for.

I get away from the crowd and find myself in a very large hallway.
There's windows on both sides, revealing that I am in orbit around a planet.
Holy shit I'm in space!
Spaaaace station~

But I'm completely lost. I have no idea where I am or even who I am.
Alright... one step at a time.
I start moving towards the end of the hallway, but draw my focus towards the contents of my pockets.
I empty them both, whilst still walking, and investigate their contents.

I have on me:

• The passport thing
• Some kind of crystal, consisting of rectengular shapes. It might be a key.
• A small package with another credit card looking thing attached to it.

A key? Oooooooh.
I might have a spaceship!
How awesome would that be? Yeah. I definitely have a spaceship.
I put everything back into my pockets and check where I currently am.

I find myself in front of hangar 4, which is of course a spaceship hangar.

See what I did there?
I solved 2 problems at the same time. I didn't just investigate the contents of my pockets.
Before doing so, I started walking into a direction that took me away from where I previously was.
Putting my focus on something else put my body into auto-pilot.
You know, like when you're gaming with your friends late at night, and you quickly go downstairs to grab something to drink, but your thoughts are entirely focused on the game?
Sometimes you find yourself back in front of your pc with a cold beverage, without really remembering the process of getting it. (Or maybe my gaming addiction is just out of control )
You can abuse this in dreams if you want to go somewhere, but you don't know how to get there, or if you simply have no idea where to go.
It can be tricky at first, because you can't stop thinking about it, but you'll quickly get a hang of it.
In this case I got the idea of the key being for my spaceship mid-way. (Spaceships use ignition keys, just like cars right? *cough*)
My body automatically walked me towards where this spaceship is, even though I did not know where it was.
Somewhere deep within my thoughts I knew that I had gotten to this space station somehow.
If the key indicates that I own a spaceship, then I would have arrived in this spaceship, and I would also remember where I parked it.
Putting myself in "autopilot" I can walk to locations that make sense for me to know within the dream plot, even if I don't consciously know where they are.

There's quite a few small spaceships in here.
All sorts of contraptions, reaching from luxury boats to things that are close to falling apart.
Is one of them mine? Which one is mine?
I go deeper into the hangar to get a better view of all the ships and then I spot her.

Yeah... there's no doubt whatsoever. That must be mine.
She's reasonably sized, bigger than a jet fighter, but smaller than say the space shuttle orbiter.
And she has... uh... let's say she has seen some better times?
It seems like there used to be a layer of paint on it, but that's nearly peeled off entirely.
There are many dents on the outer hull, surrounded by dark dust.
Probably projectile impacts, judging by the consistent size and patterns.
There's quite an abundant amount of scratches on it as well.
And... is that a heat shield?
Oh god...
The heat shield is mostly pitch black, but you can clearly see in some spots that it is supposed to be a red / golden color.
Might have had a few atmospheric re-entries at optimistic speeds...
There are a few hull plates of inconsistent size that are clearly newer than the rest of the hull.
A few patched up holes...?

What a piece of shit...
I absolutely love it!
I wouldn't have it any other way. This is so me. This feels right.
And compared to the other ships in this hangar it clearly has the largest engine to ship ratio!
I get a bit of a Han Solo esque vibe.

As I approach it a large chunk of the hull plating slides itself forward, revealing an airlock.
A ramp extends just in time so I can get to it easily.
The airlock opens automatically as I get close enough and closes behind me as I go through...

Your sub-conscious has the unique ability of shaping your dreams in such a way that you can experience something beyond your expectations and your imagination.
However, things will not always go according to plan, and may even seem unpleasant at first.
But given enough lucid dreams you'll find out that you can find enjoyment, even in things that do not seem pleasant at first.
The best example I have for this is pain.
Obviously you wouldn't want to experience pain in your dreams right?
I thought so for a long time, but I realized I was wrong after a rather epic fight, where I could feel every single cut and bruise on my body.
It made the fight feel so much more real and important, it increased the experience as a whole.
If you've ever played a pen&paper rpg, you probably know that it can be more interesting to play more of a "normal" character.
You don't always need to be the hero with the best equipment, who is destined to save the world.
In dreams there's joy to be found everywhere. It will find you, all you have to do is accept it.

Survival
I wasn't sure at first whether or not I should mention this, due to the toxic thoughts I wrote of earlier.
But yeah, the whole persistent realm thing comes at a price: it is persistent.
Well duh, of course it is.
But in my case this means that my life is persistent as well.
If I die in a persistent realm I can never go back to that realm.
I've lost 2 of them due to death, and I tried getting back to one of them for quite a long time, but eventually I gave up.
I guess it is better this way. It makes the other realms feel more valuable and my decisions more important.
Regardless, I suggest that you value your life, should have similar persistent dreams.
However, in order to progress in your dreams you will occasionally need to make a leap of faith.
Make sure that you take them sparsely, and that intuition is on your side.

Going back
This is rather straightforward. I just teleport with the intention of going back to the realm.
I do this as soon as I can after creating the realm (next stable lucid), so my thoughts about it are still fresh.
I try to visit it as often as I can during the following days, so that everything settles in.
Once I've gone there a few times my confidence is so high that I can't really imagine loosing the ability to resume the realm whenever
I desire to do so.





In case you want to try to do something similar to my persistent realms technique, here's a few suggestions:

• You'll need a teleportation technique. As I mentioned earlier, creating is bad, going to is good. There's no need to copy my teleportation technique though. Any technique should work fine, use what you feel most comfortable with.
• Don't actively try to find something that indicates that the realm "must be real". You cannot force the issue. The realization has to strike you unexpectedly. Having the correct state of mind in waking life, and simply intending to go to such a realm should be all you need to do.
  If the epiphany doesn't happen, just try again.
• If something is completely off (DC's are retarded, something clearly violates the law of your realm...) just consider this attempt a failure, and try again next time. Never attempt to fix it using dream powers.
• You need good dream recall with a good lucid rate so you can go back multiple times over the course over the next few days.
  You also need a high level of lucidity, so that you can quickly process complex thoughts properly.

Anyways, that's more than enough text for a single entry.
If you have any thoughts or questions about persistent realms and/or other techniques I use, by all means, post ahead.

Thoughts
Lucid
Non lucid dream
Inductions/aids/factors

So I decided to do the alarm clock thing this morning. I set it for 5:00am and hit snooze for 15 until the next alarm. I did this for about an hour. I was trying to DEILD/WILD but it gave me a DILD instead. That's fine DRY SPELL OVER

I am running in the woods. There are leaves on the ground. I dive head first into a thicket. I turn around and see several Indians in deerskin walking in a small valley. I don't focus on them. I want my bow and arrows. I realize I left them on the others side of the valley. I think maybe one of my daughters will get it for me. No. That's preposterous. So I a say, Screw it." I walk toward the valley and say, "Computer, freeze program." Everything freezes. The Indians the tress the leaves on the ground.After I walk past the Indians, I kept repeating to myself, "Computer, freeze program.Computer, freeze program.Computer, freeze program.Computer, freeze program.Computer, freeze program.Computer, freeze program." The thought was that if I forgot about them being frozen they would either be gone or unfrozen when I turned around. Something about it feels familiar and I remember freezing time in lucid dreamsThis immediately dawns on me that I am dreaming. It's strange but I felt almost annoyed and cheated. I felt like I botched up the surprise attack on the Indians and now its just some dream. I didn't feel any of the euphoria that I thought I would after a dry spell. I just turn around. I never picked up my bow but I suddenly have an arrow notched and drawn back. I can vividly feel the string and the arrow in my right hand. Now my vision is blurry and I can see the Indian and the brown leaves on the ground but I can't make out any details. I pause. "What was the TOTM?" I have to think really hard. "Was it shrink myself?" No that was last month. Its a new month now. OH Zombies that's right. Where do I find a zombie. I know I will shoot an Indian and when he gets up he will be a zombie and he can bite my arm. I start looking around but the Indians are gone and my vision is so blurry. I try to focus but I just can't. I feel like I am waking so I decide that I better stabilize. I start rubbing my hands together. I feel myself in my bed and my hands feel extremely real. I can even hear my hands rubbing together. I try to open my eyes but It looks all messed up like when you are in SP. I don't feel any vibrations though. I am confused. I feel and heard my hands but not so much my arms. Then I hear my wife say,"Punch em in the mouth." What was that? That can't be real. OR I woke her up some and she is talking in her sleep. Then the Goddamned alarm went off and effed it all up

So I think I could have totally DEILD but the alarm got me. I think I was probably in SP but I wasn't feeling the vibrations. Which is unusual for me BUT I suppose its entirely possible not to since some do and some don't. I wonder if I am changing or if it just is going to be the same every time. BLEH! It feels like as soon as I understand my body it wants to change the rules on me. That's OK I'll adjust. I will be the DEILD master eventually

EDIT:I later found out that she was actually sitting up awake with the baby while this was going on an she told me she said nothing. So it was definitely hallucination.

I think this section will help me remember what works and what doesn't so here I go. Also, I know I try to be a purist and I may have told someone of you that I am going that direction but I think once in awhile aids are helpful and OK.

Aids
I was off today so last night I drank a whole bottle of homemade wine. Don't worry the alcohol content was fairly low or wine... 9%ish?
D3 8000ui - seems to make things more vivid and lighten my mood
Potassuim - 3600mg for restless legs and I seem to have a higher chance for when combined with alcohol lucids when I take a large amount.

I rarely try the above methods. It may or may not have an effect anyway.

Inductions
CALD - I summoned my inmaginary friend from my childhood. Her name is Taffy. The HI continued to turn sexual so I went with random faces telling me that I am dreaming.

WBTB WILD failed

ASILD(Alarm Snooze Induced Lucid Dream. My own name for something I spoke with OB about)
ASILD produced WILD

DILD almost successful but the alarm got me

Non Dream
Non-Lucid
Lucid

I found myself riding what I thought was Temple of the Forbidden Eye at Disneyland. As the ride progressed however, I noticed significant changes and at that point I realized I was dreaming. As my lucidity started to increase, I realized I wasn't in a vehicle but was actually on a body sized flying saucer! I found I could go faster by thrusting my body forward. I was zipping through the temple until I found myself at a dead end. I was in a large empty chamber. I was getting bored with this setting so I tried to teleport myself by driving hard into the ground. I eventually succeeded after I couple attempts, left the temple, and found that I was back in my bed. A couple of seconds later, my body levitated about 6 inches of the bed and I realized it was just a false awakening. My body involuntarilly went upright into a standing position. I did a fistpump as I was finally in the postion I wanted to be in. Right after that though, I found myself back in my bed as I had forgotten to stabilize and woke for real.

It's nice to finally be back on track and end my dry spell. Also, I teleported myself for the first time to more or less where I wanted to go which was one of my goals.


Here's an updated evaluation of my dreaming skill (out of 5)

Lucid Induction Technique
Reliability-4
Recall-2
Dream Control
Enviornment-2
Plot-3
Quality-3

Dream - Lucid

I was standing in a room with a brown-haired lady with a perm. She was sitting in the back of the room on a chair, and I was standing next to her. I feel like the room was predominantly wood. We were talking, I don't remember what about, but I realized I was dreaming during the conversation. I then looked at her, though she was looking straight ahead and not at me, and said
"Well it doesn't matter anyway, this is a dream."
I don't remember what she said back to me after that. She may not have said anything at all.
I then looked straight ahead, and there was a doorway into another room. I wanted to head in there.
I then either woke up or simply lost lucidity.

~

I was at what was supposed to be my house, but it didn't look like my waking life house. Blake, my brother, was there too. Oddly, I felt like, in the dream, it was a very temporary house, a temporary stay. It was a weird concept.

Well, a chubby older woman with permed grey hair was walking around in the yard looking for something. She was wearing a lime green button up shirt with a white flower pattern. I can't remember what pants she was wearing. I went up to her, and she told me she had wanted the brown couch we had put out there to give away for free, but it was gone. She had wanted to come back and get it. She then named some other things that we had been giving away that she wanted, but none of it was there. She talked a lot. In fact, when I had walked up to her, she was talking to herself, just saying things about the couch and such. She had come back days after we put the stuff out to give it away, so no wonder she had missed it all. I told her it had all already been taken. She kept talking to me about it.

I then saw, or maybe she mentioned, that she had kids. I saw the van she had driven to the house, and there were a couple of small children in there, a little boy and a little blonde girl. She eventually got back in the van with her kids. I remember telling my mom about what had happened on the phone.

Then, I was looking at Blake's beta fish tank. It's really tiny IWL, with no filtration system, so it had to be cleaned quite often. The water didn't look bad. Not perfect, but it was definitely alright for the fish. I then looked above it, and there was another tank the same size with these longer, small silver fish swimming in it. The water level had sunk a bit, and it was filthy and cloudy. I didn't know how the fish were even still alive in that mess! I then looked back down at the original tank, and the water was pretty clean in comparison. I also didn't even see the beta fish in there, but instead, some small, round fish were swimming in there. I do think one was silver, but I can't quite remember anything about the rest of them.

I'm in a rush so I gotta be quick and screw typos. I woke up around 5am and as I drifted off, there was some brief audio HH of wasps surrounding me. Some stung me, but then that feeling phased into WILD vibrations. I slowly sat up in my bed, and I saw my cat Ziggy jump off. No pets are ever in here, so that was confirmation that I was dreaming. I walked out the bedroom and the hallway opened up into my parents old house. It was bright outside and I could see great! I immediately thought of the trick-o-treat TOTM, but I wanted it to be more night time. So I went to the front door of the house, put my hand on the knob, and said to myself "As soon as I open the door, it will be night time and I'll have a halloween costume on." I opened the door and it was darker, like 7pmish. I thought, good enough. I didn't feel a mask on or anything, but I had black robes. I was probably just some random HP character, whatever, on with the task! I didn't have a candy bag either but oh well. As soon as I walked out the house, I looked at the house next door, it was dark and creepy looking. I said to myself "This is Alex's house." I started walking there and this pig came up to me and started jumping at me and bite-licking me, like a playful dog that was getting too rough. It wouldn't fuck off and finally I had to pick it up and sling it across 2 acres of land. He landed with a "squeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!" and hobbled away, as if one leg was hurt. I felt sorry for it for a bit, then I reminded myself he doesn't exist. I went to the house and lots of kids were coming and going. I knocked on the door expecting Alex, but 4 little boys dressed to the 9s as vampires answered. I said "trick-o-treat!" and they just gnarled and hissed at me. I asked if any adults were home, hoping one would be Alex or ANY DV member. They just continued to growl at me. Then one looked at the other and bitched at him for using up all the vampire make-up, then I woke up.

Later in a non lucid, my mom and I were shopping for stuff to cook a big dinner together at their old house. Next thing I remember we were in the kitchen, and while mom was at the stove, I looked in the fridge. There was a pot of stew in there, boiling. I thought maybe she had JUST taken it there from the stove, other wise how could it still be so hot. Then mom said "I think I made a mistake by keeping my wrought-iron skillet in the freezer, look at it, it's melting." And sure enough, she had taken it out of the freezer, placed it on the hot coils of the stove, and it was melting. I said yeah I guess that was bad, but it seemed weird to me. Then the iron began seeping in between the hot coils. I said "Mom I think you need to handle that, it's gonna get everywhere." And she just walked out. I looked in the fridge again and that pot of stew was totally boiling over. This was getting too weird, so I began doing the finger-through-palm thing. That's such a bad RC by the way. Didn't go through. But I refused to believe that this was right. So I tried to just hop up into the air and see if I could float or fly, and sure enough I was just hovering in the air. AhHAH! I said. So I slowly floated out the kitchen then outside. Danny's son was there, asking me to teach him to do that too. I said "Sorry, no time son." And I flew outside with him following me. I flew around the trees in the front yard, all decorated with xmas stuff and some presents stuffed in the branches. I felt heavy, it was hard staying afloat. My mom came out and asked if I could see the presents. I said yes then woke up.

Later I was in a non lucid where I was chatting with oreoboy and mel. Oreo said "I think I have a muscle." I typed "Oh just one?" But the text didn't go through. Mel typed "xyz xyzz xyzzzzzz" or something like that. I tried typing my line again, but I couldn't focus on the keys. I was making a real effort trying to even type the first letters, when I realized it was a dream. I'm suddenly in my bed, so I get up and go out the door. It's dark, and I'm worried about my vision. But I remember talking to CanisLucidus about this, and i just went down the hall flipping on lightswitches (I forgot about the mirror). The lights were coming on just fine so yay. I ended up in the livingroom of my parents house again, and I saw what looked like Chris and my step-dad playing video games. But when I saw them from the front, my step dad wasn't him, he was a fuzzy cuddly looking werewolf! I didn't remember the werewolf bite task though, shame. Probably was to cute and cuddly to do it anyway. Then I woke up.

Here we are again. Back at the same place I thought of. It was raining outside the middle school I was in front of and I was only there to see what else there could be left in the school. I'm not sure what I'm looking for but I've been here before, a couple times. This was the area where I met the first female I ever cried for. Cindy. It seems a little bit dangerous right now, so I I'm deciding I should only drive by and take a look at the school. It was a quick search. Later on, me and my mother appear to be driving in some car somewhere in Las Vegas, I think. When I think of this part, I think of one of the dreams I had before, the dream where my father rammed his bumper in to another car in front of us. So here we are, on the road ready to experience some amazing lifts. So we're driving around this city for a while and all of a sudden, we run in to a big building. I'm not sure what is was. Maybe it was an elevator for cars. This place looked as if it has been abandoned for years. It's going to be hard getting all the way to the top, seeing as there isn't much space for my mother to move the car around. As we ascended, I was having a hard time trying not to be scared. I was always afraid of heights and every second we spent in this car elevator, I sometimes told my mother to be careful. There was one point where we did fall though but it wasn't all bad. This place we were in was too hard to work with. So anyways, here is what happened after we escaped this car elevator. We eventually found an exit that led towards a huge, beautiful scene of clean roads and plains. I've also been in this area before. We're making our way down on a tall hill. The way down was scary for me. Sometimes my mother would slightly fall off the road and nearly kill us. As soon as we made it half way down, we see this dead end where we are forced to take the car down without a road. And while in the air, I told my mom to get the car to fly. We moved down the road below us instead. There were no cars in the area from what I was able to see. After a little more time passed, I appeared someplace else. It was a place right near the home I live in. I spawned right in front of a small shop. There was no one around here. I don't remember hearing anything but my voice. This was when I realized I was dreaming. I walked around the area to check it out. The shop there was locked. I tried finding a way around but couldn't. I found a door though. The door was locked with two lock holes. I had no key, but I was lucid. I pointed my right hand towards the door and waved it at the lock. The locks opened themselves slowly. As soon as the doors open, I got to see what was inside the shop. There was nothing I found interest in. The room was clean, there was a table to the left, and a small backroom in front of the entrance. I did manage to do something while lucid though. I turned over to the road in front of the shop, raised my left hand pointing inside the shop, and yelled, "Quynh, come here!" I waited a few seconds and looked back in to the shop and saw something on the floor. It was a small puppy running around in circles. The dream was fading as I tried to summon her again. My left eye was having a hard time to not blink. A little bit later, I slowly woke up and found my mother opening the bedroom door.

No recall from the 28th or 29th (was drunk both nights).

On the Sunday, had taken a couple of vallium tablets to soothe the hangover.

Fell asleep on the couch from what seemed about 8:30pm, woke a few times, notably at midnight when I seemed to instantly slip into a Lucid Dream, I was having dinner with a guy I know and chatting away, fully aware I was dreaming. The restaurant was big and old fashioned, set up like a wedding but in a massive concert hall or piano bar (a very big piano bar). The waitress came over, they were all wearing lycra cleavage showing outfits and knowing I was lucid I attempted to pull the waitresses outfit to see what happened. She reacted angrily and slapped my hand away. This was a shock as generally when lucid I can do what I want. At some point not long after I woke up. Or so I thought.

I had a false awakening, I realised this when things in the apartment were out of place so I visualised and moved to my mums back garden where I was hovering above. Until I woke again.

Nope, another false awakening, confirmed when I went through to the bedroom to see 2 people I didn't know sitting on my bed, and the room didn't look anything like it does normally. There were also a set of legs protruding from the bottom of the bed, whether or not the being was conscious I don't know. There was a strong sexual energy from the pair on the bed that made me feel uncomfortable and I woke up.

AGAIN into another false awakening I could tell by the living room being not as it is in real life, at this point I am starting to feel extremely disconcerted and so force myself to wake from the dream, this time into waking consciousness.

I get up, do reality checks, use the bathroom and go to bed feeling extremely anxious and unsettled, into a sleep of dreams but not much recall and no lucidity. The next morning I felt a lot better and disappointed at the opportunities whilst lucid I had let slip by due to my own fears.

DreamLucidAwake

Basic TOTM i

I was inside a gas station with a few characters from The Walking Dead. I think they were Dale, Daryl, Andrea, and Rick. The front door was boarded up and had a refrigerator blocking it. All but one of the windows were also barred up. I peeked through one of the barred windows and saw many walkers/zombies wandering the streets outside.

The four other survivors were busy gathering supplies. They were also arguing something about needing to relocate. I then looked out the unbarred window to get a better view of the area outside. I saw my mother running through the street trying to find a place to take shelter. A zombie then grabbed her and pushed her to the ground. Without thinking, I immediately opened the window and jumped out to try to help.

I ran towards my mother while weaving past other zombies trying to grab me. I transformed my right hand into a dragon hand and pierced my claws through the zombie's skull and into its brain. I pulled my claws out and pushed the zombie off my mother. I started thinking again and I became lucid when I realized what just happened. I wouldn't be able to transform my hand if I wasn't dreaming.

My mother got back up and I guided her back towards the gas station. A zombie came at me from the left. I pulled the zombie towards ground and then stabbed it in the back of the head with my claws. My hand got stuck when I did that. I put my foot on its head and started pulling. My hand broke free and half of the zombie's head came with it. I removed the rest of the head from my claws and wiped the blood and brain stuff off on my pants. It was probably one of the most disgusting things I've experienced in a dream, but I didn't really feel like it was a good moment for vomiting.

Another zombie was standing in front of the gas station window. I knocked it to the ground and quickly stabbed it in the head. I then told my mother to go through the window first. Several zombies were already around us and I had to kick and punch them to keep them back. When my mother got through, I quickly crawled into the window. I felt a zombie grab my leg when I was half way through. I tried to kick it away and managed to keep it from getting a bite out of me. A second zombie came by though and bit my right leg. It then ripped out a chunk of my flesh and I screamed in pain. I immediately grew a dragon tail and swiped both of their heads with my tail blade.

My first thought was, "I'm going to turn into one of them". I looked at my arms and I saw my skin was already turning gray. I still tried to crawl through the window though, but I was stuck. I wasn't exactly in the mood to be eaten alive, so I decided it would be best to kill myself. I summoned a gun directly into my hand. I pointed it at my head and said, "Time to wake up." I then pulled the trigger, heard the gun shot, and everything went dark.

Although it went dark and dream seemed to have ended, I wasn't awake. I could still feel that I was dreaming. "Everything ended, but I'm not awake? What do I do now?" I thought. My vision soon came back and I found myself lying in my bed. My bedroom looked a lot different though. I really felt like crap and I had a massive head ache. I placed my hand on my head and felt bandages wrapped around it. As I did this, I noticed that my arms and hands were really gray like a dead person. Apparently I somehow survived the shot to the head, someone saved me, and I hadn't completely turned into a zombie yet.

I heard people from outside the room saying something about currently treating my wound and the infection. It seems that the disease that makes you a zombie could be cured with medicine they were giving me. I felt like I should get up and take a look around. When I got out of bed I immediately leaned against the wall. It hurt to move my right leg. I looked down and noticed that there were stitches where I was bitten. I also felt very dizzy and my headache got worse after standing up. I questioned whether the headache was from the infection or from the bullet. I slowly made my way across the room towards the door. There was a mirror on the wall next to the door and I looked into it. I was wearing a hospital gown and really did look like a dead guy. It spooked me a little.

When I opened the door I saw one of my dream guides, the old man, sitting on a chair talking to my mother. He was apparently the one who gave me the medicine. We talked about something but I can't remember what. I noticed that the stairs were blocked off by a bunch of furniture, so we were pretty much safe on the second floor. I heard the sound of a truck driving out back. I looked over in that direction and noticed that the wall was missing. I think it collapsed.

I walked over there and saw Chris driving a blue truck around the field like a maniac. I think he was intentionally trying to piss off the zombies. I'm not sure if it was the dream or the medicine, but I definitely wasn't in the right state of mind in this part of the dream. I looked at Chris and gave him a double thumbs up. I then looked down and saw a few zombies below trying to figure out how to climb up. One of them jumped and managed to at least grab my leg. I fell and struggled to hang on to the ledge as the zombie pulled me.

One of them tried to bite my foot. I kicked it and yelled, "Hey! Fuck off zombies!" A couple other zombies came by and started trying to grab my feet. I then started yelling, "Ninja kick, ninja kick, ninja kick!" as I kicked them away. Chris noticed that I was having zombie problems, so he drove through the fence and over the zombies. He crashed the truck into the house and I fell into the back of the truck. He then shifted into reverse and drove back into the field. I think I woke up after this.

And I also had a lucid dream this last week. It involved some Mexican guys and me being topless. I don't think I will give details on this one either. I feel that I was only semi lucid. I told myself I was dreaming, but then did nothing about it really until lucidity faded.

I had a dream that felt very long and detailed, I was thinking of downgrading apartments and had the distinct feeling of fearing how much crappier it would be but thinking of how much money I could save up. Most of the dream was about leading some sort of revolution in a city. At the end I suddenly just realized it was a dream, I didn't do a reality check or anything, it just hit me. I flew a bit, and I tried doing math in my head to become fully conscious, at first it was just random numbers, then I realized this and focused, when I started actually doing math I woke up quickly.

I can't remember most of it. I actually had like five LD's in one night! It was really awesome, too!

So I think for my first one I had a false awakening, then I somehow realized I was dreaming! I also remember my mom, too. That one ended pretty quickly.

Then I think the second one I had another false awakening, then I again somehow realized I was dreaming. I saw a girl from school named Ma. She was a bit acne ridden and had a boyfriend has dyed black hair and she's Caucasian. So I went up to her, and the next thing I know, I'm having sex with her! It didn't really work out very well, and ended before I could orgasm.

I think it was around the third one where I orgasmed (which I also did in real life, apparently) by having sex with some girl created by my subconscious. I can't really remember what happened before I saw her, though. Probably another false awakening. It was in the hallway of my house on the carpet. She was blonde, Caucasian, and had blemishes a bit of acne on the left side of her face.
I thought she looked pretty cute. She also looked a bit like a girl who was a senior last year named Li. She had two sisters, I think.

The fourth one was ANOTHER false awakening. Only this time, I didn't see anyone. I just went back in my ropom and started writing stuff down on a notebook. I think it was about this girl I like at school named Jy. I was texting her during this, too.

I can't remember the fifth and last one, well. All I remember was ANOTHER FALSE AWAKENING!!! (What is up with me and these false awakenings!)

Also, to induce this LD, I used the WBTB and MILD techniques because I woke up at like 2:50 in the morning, then figured I had to go pee so I went to piss at 3:30, then went back to bed, figuring "why not try to have an LD while I'm at it," so I did MILD as I was going to sleep.

I can't remember a lot of this LD, though. I can only remember certain parts. I guess I need to practice more dream recall as I remember so little I can barely remember it happened. It also didn't feel as if very vivid, either. I didn't feel like I was truly awake for the LD.

Also worth noting, every time I turned lucid in one of the dreams, I felt this shaking feeling come over me as I turned lucid. It felt pretty weird.

I woke up around 12:00AM to WILD between 5:00 and 6:00AM. When it was time, i lied down to WILD and my experience was unbearable that i could not continue.
I concentrated on my breathing to the extent that i began to feel my breath as my consciousness. i tried entering the dream by breading out, and when i breath out i felt myself to be in sea that is trying to drown me to dead, the harder i try the stronger the sensation of drowning becomes. then i gave up and woke because i could not bear the discomforting sensation of drowning. before then i WILDed into the dream world but could not control my dream body. found myself floating. tried stabilizing the dream by robbing my hands and holding my toes but i did not succeed. when i finally got i bit of control i tried forward accelerating, but it was so so difficult to move forward. [/SIZE][/SIZE][/SIZE]

*Non-Lucid*Lucid*

I was mining in dirt, Minecraft style. -- I was in a building then I became lucid. I tried to remain lucid by not blinking (how I usually wake up) but I still blinked once. I lost the lucid moment after a while forgetting what to do.

I was making 2 sandwiches with toasted breads. My mom asked if she the bread will taste better if she turn the dial of the toaster to the right. I told her that it will burn instead. I put hams on each sandwich. I prepared some avocado, I sliced some in to my brother's sandwich. I forgot if I put some in mine yet. I tried to remember if prepared an avocado or a half for each of us. Surprised that I couldn't remember at all.

09/30/2012
10PM-10AM