lucid

I went to bed kind of late last night, after more than a few hours of gaming, do I think it affected my sleep quite a bit. I had planned a WBTB attempt so I set up an alarm clock for 5:30 AM but when it rang and I woke up I couldn't remember a thing. I got out of bed, got a drink of water and went back to try WILDing.

It didn't quite work out, as I couldn't focus and switch off at all, so I decided I would just get my last 2 hours of sleep normally. When I managed to fall asleep I started a long chain of dreams.

Firstly, I was at my old school with a couple of my friends. We were on the football field, but doing math homework for some unknown reason. A few minutes into this, I saw a few people that looked like junkies approach one of my friends. I pulled him out of the Nyah just as they lunged for him, then started running away.

My dream then changed. I found myself visiting a friend. We talked a bit about games and about the math homework from earlier, but now I realize that the inside of his house looked just like my girlfriend's apartment, not like his house. His mother called him for a few minutes, and I thought it was time to leave by now so I went to the door too. When I got out I reached his courtyard (which, actually, looked just like my courtyard) and saw the garage door open . There were about 10 tall, fat men with large beards and moustaches, working on a strange metal machinery. I also saw a few of my friends there, and greeted them but it was all too strange so I left that place.

Then my dream changed again. I was in my high school's grounds, wearing only my underwear, and running towards the exit. Then I noticed that no one was looking at me, which was strange, so I thought that this might be a dream. I decided to do a reality check. I looked at my hand and one of my fingers was only half the size of the others. This made me become lucid, but I was too excited and I forgot about stabilizing my dream or trying to control it. Lucidity felt really good, and it was like all of my senses had evolved and it was all brighter, more vivid, more realistic. I then told myself "Screw this! It's a dream, I can fly!" and I started running towards the sports field and then I jumped. I started flying upwards very quickly, and saw the whole city née beneath my eyes. This gave me a phenomenal sense of freedom, and a physical sensation that I have never experienced before. It was simply AMAZING! Unfortunately, it only lasted 2-3 seconds, after which I had a false awakening. I didn't RC so I couldn't know it was another dream, but I was really excited that I managed to get a LD and that it felt so good. I woke up for real quickly after.

I think this dream is heavily influenced by the fact that I've been obsessed by LDs for the past few days (and reading a lot about it).

The first scene I can remember is walking in a narrow walkway (between two blocks of apartments, an area that I spend a lot of time in with my friends in real life), and then this girl from my school, that has a very Asian-looking face comes up to me and tries to kiss me. I push her away because I remembered I have a girlfriend, and she seemed quite angry and walked away. I then left the area and entered one that vaguely looked like a market, but I woke up at that moment.

I tried to go back to sleep the moment I got up (though not quite a DEILD) and found myself in a hallway, in a block of apartments. For some unknown reason I thought that I was lucid (I didn't do any RCs and nothing felt weird, but I just kind of knew that I was lucid), but now that I think of it I couldn't actually control anything and it only seems like a very distant and fuzzy memory, not a stable experience like it should have been. Basically, I wasn't fully lucid, but I was quite close to it. I realised that I kind of could do anything I wanted so I imagined a computer (which popped up behind me), and then sat on it. My lucidity then faded away completely, and the scenery changed.

Then I was on some kind of battlefield (not lucid at all anymore) and I had a sniper rifle. I tried to shoot some enemies (not sure if they were human or anything else), but I was very inaccurate and couldn't do much.

I remembered so many dreams after I woke up, but now that I'm in front of computer I only remember two. >.>

dream 1 - I was a hawk myself. I was staring into a golden eagle's eye in front of me - It had yellow eye, I imagined its eye in green color to get the feeling of 'awareness' (semi-LD?). The golden eagle and another hawk flew away, and I flew with them together too, across the pink sky. And then I was on the tree branch, staring people down the street. Somebody commented on my appearance.

dream 2 - I did WILD but I was lucid in low level. I was riding Ikran with Atras and Katsuno, and maybe juroara. Don't remember any detail Atras said something to guide us...

dream 3 - I was on DV and got a pm from someone that I should mass pm active members again, with pictures and vid clips. I replied, 'umm...okay' and then I got 2 pms from Shockwave, and Oceanboy. And then I was looking at twitter page, my fav rock band posted a picture of famous Korean comedian I know together with them. They said he was funny as hell.

LD35:This LD went on for awhile and hadd many little parts. The control was good and very high level of lucid. The graphics looked very cartoon like. The back ground would stay blank like the Matrix Training Room. Only what I focused on formed clear images. I started as soon as I could feel my dream body, by walking in the blank space. I waited until it really felt like walking and did a stablization. A new part of my routine is to call out loud "Thank You" I could sense the words and feel me calling out, but I had no sounds so it was a silent scream. I repeated this a couple times before the dream was over and the sound improved some. I don't have time to go into fine detail, so I will just cover some high points. There was no plot, I just got to screw around and have fun. I walked alot trying to prompt the graphics to become realistic. Trees and house blurred on the side of my vision now, so it seems like I am read for a good WILD. I decide a resteraunt is right here and a buffet must be here. Yep here is the buffet. I try to smell things but it is vauge. I ate a creams puff with strawberry filling. The taste lacked sweetness, it was kind of bland but not bad.
At one point I tried to summon a flying horse and one appeared but he was hallucinaton twisted, a horseish blur beast. Cool, but I wont count that, it clearly is only a poorly formed horse, sorry buddy. I fly on the horse and we do stunts for a while.
At one point I just stand around summoning dishes and random things and manipulating the in the air with TK. I messed around until I decided to try flying to the moon. I try to stare at the moon but it is all blurry and shifting (like someone would see on 10 hits of acid). I had spaced out the horse so I flew towards the blur of a moon in a supper man style. I basically flew from one scene to another of getting higher and the the scenes became space. I did some stunt flying and when the time came I landed onthe moon.
A whole little section goes on here basedon pools full of colors and it starts geetting very abstrract and I need to stablize. This time I call out thank you from the moon.
I decide to go and teleport down to the top of the great pyamid. I formed a crazy plan, just to see if I could do it. I blasted energy down the pyrramid and it bust into flames, me included. Covered with flames I floated up and called forth "Thank You" about 12 times. Then I woke up. Dur~20min

I had a dream before and after this one, but I was too lazy to write them down. They're not important, anyway.... I spent like eight hours helping a friend do yard work immediately after getting up so I don't remember much of this dream other than what I wrote down, but what's really important to me is what happened at the end....

Vividness Is An Illusion [DILD]

So first, the part of the dream I just barely remember. It was another high school dream, and there was some plot going on about some girl who wanted to kill us all and expected me to play along with it. (I don't remember this in the slightest, it's just from the notes). There was lots of really trippy stuff going on though, like when I was in a hallway and couldn't figure out which way to go, I looked at a wall and saw this guy J's face attached to the wall smiling this creepy smile and tilted sideways in the correct direction, so I smiled back and walked that way. Also, I remember being in a class and seeing my cat walking around, and people wanted me to follow them so I told them to hold up while I put my cat away. I picked up my backpack and unzipped the center area to put him in, but when I looked inside there was another cat already in there, and he looked like he was starving. I said "Oh shit! I must have put this other cat in here already and forgot about him, my bad.", then just left them both there and walked off. Anyway, so the girl that was trying to kill us wanted me to do something, but I didn't fall for her trap this time. I became very mildly lucid and just flew up, phasing through the higher floors, until I was over the building. I was just trying to get away from the girl and didn't really have any goals in mind, so from high up I just watched some kids playing soccer in the distance until I woke up.

This is where it got interesting for me. I'm no longer confused about the last time I woke up and was still dreaming but everything was SO real, including detail I hadn't actually seen before, and I even was pretty sure I was awake at first but then lost focus, in a way that false awakenings don't. That and this were hypnopompic hallucinations. So I woke up in bed, facing the wall. It was pretty dark still, but then suddenly I heard a guy talking extremely clearly and there was sounds of cheering on a TV. I didn't see either one, but I immediately got mental images, the voice was coming from a heavyset black man and the TV (which was not actually on) was showing some soccer game. Unlike the last time where I was asked by a hallucinated M if I was up and I responded "I think I'm awake....", but then forgot about it when I started listening to her, this time I knew exactly what was going on. I started mentally repeating to myself "It's a hallucination, it's a hallucination...." I got a very clear image of what was going on in the soccer game too, there were no players at all, just several soccer balls of different sizes. They were moving in strange trajectories one at a time until they hit the next one and caused it to roll, sort of like dominoes causing each other to fall over. The man was talking about the game, though I can't remember what he was saying now, it was all rather startling and I wasn't paying much attention, not to mention my short-term memory was still pretty terrible. Eventually though he started just saying complete gibberish words, and I knew the hallucination was falling apart. I took a leap of faith and quickly turned over to see if he was there, but the room was empty. All the sounds vanished, and I felt very dissociated for a second, and then I returned to full waking consciousness. There was no feeling of waking up because I was already awake, just sort of a transitional blip.

Basically what I can say about this is... it made me realize how much we fool ourselves into thinking that regular lucid dreams are vivid. I'm sure they can be made extremely vivid like this, but they're still nowhere near as vivid as waking life. My most realistic dream, which I previously would have said was possibly even more vivid than reality, now just seems like a hallucination compared to this. Senses like hearing and sight can definitely be waaay up there in dreams, the amount of detail in specific objects can definitely match reality, but there's so much more that just isn't present in dreams. In waking life your brain constantly monitors your heart rate, breathing rate, the position of each of your limbs and how comfortable they are, what temperature you are in various parts of your body, whether you have any itches, if you're hungry, thirsty, bloated, sweaty, physically nervous.... All five of your senses are constantly at work at full vividness, your brain knows that it has to keep itself aware of EVERYTHING in your line of sight and peripherals, not just what you're focusing on, it has stay aware of even the slightest sounds or changes in taste or smell or feeling. Basically, in waking life, your brain knows it can't just let loose like it can in dreams. Together these make for soooo much detail missing in dreams unless you're specifically focused on it, it's ridiculous. The reason we can feel like dreams are so vivid is because we don't normally consciously think about this stuff, and in dreams it's hard to remember what it's like to be in the waking world anyway, but this vividness is an illusion. Even when you're on drugs and awake and hallucinating in reality, they have a dreamy feeling to them and you often lose track of some of these sensations. This was different. I was in reality, totally hallucinating, and totally lucid. This feeling of knowing you're in a dream while being in the waking world was mind-blowing, at least to me. This is something I won't soon be forgetting. I wonder how much work it could take, what level of awareness would be required, to recreate sensations this powerful in dreams....

Had a dream last night where I was floating around a construction site of sorts, then I went lucid. I said "this is a dream." Then I tried to descend so that I could sit on the ground. Afterwards, I had planned to call out to my dream guide and have them sit in front of me. I figured this way it'll be easier to stay lucid. But like I said, that was the plan. Somehow I slipped out of the dream state and woke up. I think I woke up because it was hot and I was sweating. Meh.

And here I had my questions all lined up. I knew exactly what I was going to ask that old bag if she decided to show up again. Man.

Hello there
I have been trying to lucid dream alot of time and last night i got my first!

I were going around in a desert with alot of ruins.
Then it suddenly came to me this was a dream, a lucid dream.
to be completly sure this was a dream i tried to open my eyes.
in start, while i was tryng to do it, it heard som noise.
AND I WOKE UP

i have to try again
And at tip to anyone! dont check if you are in a dream, by trying wake up!

I was in the backyard. We still had the old pool and my brother was swimming in it. I realized I was dreaming and did the nose plug RC. I tried transforming into a dragon. I threw back my hands and looked up into the sky, trying to feel wings coming out from my back, and sure enough, they did. I dropped to the floor and felt my legs tighten and my face elongated. But I can't remember if I ever fully finished, because I asked my brother if he could transport me to an empty place I could mess around in. By then I'm pretty sure the shapeshift wore off. Anyway, he said he couldn't, so I just flew around as regular me for a while, landing on some wires above, until I woke up.

dream
lucid

i was driving in a car with my friend jeff we were at a local mall and i am trying to explain lucid dreaming to him. i tell him about doing Reality checks, and i did my standard nose pinch and i said
look i should not be able to pinch my nose and breath through it and i can, this must be a dream
he tried it but did not get it and then i said
look at your hands and count how many fingers you have
i looked at mine and i had only five but when i looked at my friend's hands he had 12 on each hand and i said
see you don't have 12 fingers on your hand, this must be a dream.
he still did not get it.
i got frustrated with trying to show him and woke up

03.23.2012

Where are we going to?....Tommo?, Bed needs an Oil change, Calling my Mother, Just Get Out Already

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Dream 1: Where are we going to?....Tommo?

I remember the dream starting out where I'm sitting in the passenger seat, and someone is giving me a ride to somewhere.

It seems they stopped near a few stores are that linked together, and I asked them, "Where are we going to?"

I can't remember if they responded to me or not, but we both get off, and I still have no clear image of this person who gave me the ride. I thought we were headed for Gamestop, seeing as we're parked close to it.

I try to open the door to Gamestop, but I'm having difficulty opening it, the door is opening, but not even all the way.

It seems the game store isn't even opened as yet, in fact, it looks abandoned and empty because it's dark and there are white walls that are not filled with anything. I decided I should just give up since I'm struggling to open the door, but the person that I'm not even paying attention too opens it for me with ease.

I follow this person through this dark and empty area, and there's another door in front of us, and I just follow the other person's footsteps, and suddenly we're in another dark area, but it looks more like someone's house.

In this area, there seems to be another door in front of us, but I think it was just a house bathroom this time, and the person goes in. After I'm waiting and staring at the partial darkness, I see a cockroach on the floor, and it is really huge.

If you spread your index finger and thumb all the way, that's how huge it was (size may vary ).

I didn't really panic seeing this cockroach, I was just looking at it and making sure I didn't make sudden movements because I wanted to kill this thing. It was moving its antennas freely, and it probably didn't even notice that I was there.

What I said after seeing the cockroach is what really confuses me, I'm not sure if I really said this, but from what I remember, this is what I asked the person in the bathroom or whatever room they're in.

I asked, "Tommo?" in a quiet voice to make sure the cockroach wouldn't try to move quickly. The person, who apparently is supposed to take the role of Tommo now opens the door quietly.

He asks me, "What's going on?" and I tell him that there's a huge cockroach on the floor near us. I think he gets a blue broom, and slowly creeps behind the cockroach and slams the broom on it.

I can't remember what else happened after that.

Dream 2: Bed needs an Oil change

I'm with my mother, and we're near some bed. For some odd reason, we treat this bed like it's a car or something, because apparently things like the oil gauge needs a new change, and the fuel ran out as well.

I first checked the oil gauge of the bed, and I pour some random liquify contents from a container I didn't even pay attention to, I just assume it's going to help will filling up the oil gauge.

I see my mother trying to pump air into what seems to be an empty lotion bottle, (now that I'm awake, what she's doing is clearly freaking stupid, especially using a mini air pump to fill air into it). She's trying hard to pump air into it, and I ignore her stupid interaction with this lotion and air pump, and I find the gasoline levels of the bed is empty.

At first it didn't seem like it, but after fiddling with it for a while, it was clearly empty. I can't remember much after that.

Dream 3: Calling my Mother

I'm on the phone because I see my mother is trying to call me, and I pick up my Blackberry and started to ask my mother what is she calling me for in an annoyed tone.

I can't remember what she asked me, but I responded in a raspy voice, and I tried gaining my normal voice, but I just can't. So I hang up the phone, and tried to call her again, and I'm still have a some trouble speaking normally, but eventually I get my voice back.

(This was a slight improvement compared to the lucid yesterday where I completely failed in speaking to the a Ginger lady overall).

My mother made fun of my raspy voice, which only made me more pissed off at her, and I told her something in a raging manner, and then hanged up the phone again.


Dream 4: Just Get Out Already (DILD)
(I did a mantra before this as I started to do a WILD attempt after doing a WBTB time for 30-45 minutes) I said a number as I'm inhaling, and "I am dreaming" as I'm exhaling all the way to 150, and then did the same thing from 151 to around 300, but this time, I said, "I will meet Alyzarin" as I exhaled.

I thought this would be a useful anchor, but it seems when I'm getting closer to 300, I get irritated, because again, I wanted to get this WILD attempt done and over with so that I can find Alyzarin. I was listening to a few love songs before doing this just to relax myself.

But I do admit that I was more relaxed, and by the time I quit counting, I turned to my right side and just focused on sleeping instead of trying to keep a small awareness) This dream was kind of weird, my eyes were closed, but I felt like I was standing. I heard my mother and father talking to each other about something, and it seems they're getting ready to go somewhere.

I knew that I'm alone here at my University in waking life, so I knew something was wrong if I could see my father, or even my mother together. I didn't do a reality check or anything, I just knew I was dreaming.

I didn't have the mindset to find Alyzarin in the moment, because I wanted to get rid of my parents first (but I know that if I could just get them out, it would come back immediately). I see my mother is wearing a black and white Nike sports jacket, and I advanced towards her to hug her because they're leaving.

I told them that we're dreaming, but they don't really seem to pick up on what I'm telling them. Their faces are just neutral, but not blank to where they look like robots, but just being quiet for a while, and then resuming back to whatever role they serve in this dream.

I tell the both of them they can go now. I think I'm pushing my mother a bit because she said she had to go back to get something, but she's clearly doing it to buy time or something, so I prevented her from doing that. My father is already headed out the door and to the vehicle, so I didn't have to worry about him.

My mother is going inside the vehicle, and I believe the seating was obviously wrong in American standards. I believe my father was on the left side instead of the right side for the driver's seat, and my mother was sitting on the left side that was the passenger seat.

(I didn't notice this until I woke up, but I don't think that's a really big issue, maybe the car was in different position to make me assume that).

She is asking me to bring her something that she forgot, and I believe she wanted me to bring her a bag of chips. At first I tried to raise my left or right eyebrow because this seems like a random question for her to ask me, but I go back inside the house to check.

What's funny about the arrangement of this house was that the kitchen resembled my apartment's model, while the living room resembled a completely different house. I check the mini doors on top of the fridge, exactly like my apartment's structure.

And I also noticed that the blue trash can I have in waking life is a little bit too big than is needed, and it distracted me for a little while, but I eventually ignore it.

The fridge wasn't even near where I was checking for the Potato Chips, it was probably behind me, so that's another alteration that was different from the actual model structure in waking life.

I open the kitchen cabinet doors, and I find two bags of Lays Potato Chips. One is almost done, maybe half-way, and the other is an full one.

I take the one that's half-full first to give to my mother, and decided I'll eat the other one for myself when I come back. I go out and I believe I give my mother the bag of potato chips.

Then she wants something else.

Are you freaking kidding me!?!?!? She asks me if I can get her some Ginger Ale for me and my father. I asked her, "Why do you need Ginger Ale if you don't have any extra cups or containers to store it in?"

I couldn't really tell her facial expression after I asked her that, but I assume I went back to the house to get it.

That's all I remember.

As usually for an average morning, i wake up around 7ish then proceed to doze and dream 3 or 4 times till 10am (living the student life is amazing sometimes... you know when i'm not broke and having to eat toast for dinner ) Upon waking from the last dream I was in (I have absolutely no recollection of this), I remain perfectly still. It was a weird feeling. I knew i had just awoken from a dream, but I still felt half asleep. I pictured my home town and its beach, I pictured the colour of the stones and listened for the sound of the waves. I heard them (but that might very well have been the sound of a car outside my window). I felt the spray of the sea on my face, the heat of the sun. Out of nowhere i suddenly heard a voice;

"What colour?"

Still imagining the scene, i said "The sea is blue, the grass is green". It all felt a little silly, but as I did this, the image suddenly seemed to colour itself in as if I had commanded it to. Suddenly without realising what had just happened, the world had materialised around me.

LUCID
Upon realising this, I performed a reality check. I already knew i was in a dream, but it didn't hurt just to clarify. 7 fingers? Most I've had so far. I didn't need to recount them like in previous lucid dreams, having 7 fingers on one hand looks very obvious and out of place. Looking around, I was on the long stretch of concrete that was next to the beach. The place was bustling with people and activity, and i slowly began to walk along with promenade looking around. It was a hot and sunny afternoon, with a slight mist moving in from the ocean. In my head i suddenly heard the same male voice from before; "The boy is at the pier, go look for him" (This is probably related to the last episode of The Walking Dead the flat had watched a few days earlier ).

I slowly walk towards the Pier before turning and looking towards the ocean. I remember thinking to myself; "Heck i'm in control, i don't want to go to the pier, I want to see what swimming is like in a dream". I turn towards the ocean and walk onto the pebble beach. The whole place has a very 60s feel to it (the dream itself has a vintage looking film filter, it was like it had been pulled over my eyes). As i walk towards the ocean, i feel the dream resit against me. It wants me to go to the pier, not the Ocean. I feel the gravity of my body changing and i suddenly begin to feel my legs leave the floor

NON LUCID
I loose Lucidity as my mind goes into that child like it did in my first LD. I begin randomly hovering over to a carousel. A DC looked at me in astonishment, asking "how can you do that? how can you fly?!". His eyes were bulging and he had a rather silly look on his face. I grab hold of one of the carousel's horses and hang there for a while. Other DC begin to question what I am doing. I laugh and push myself off the horse. Suddenly out of nowhere there is a crack and the dream world begins to rip apart. A huge raging wind is blowing creating a sandstorm (on a pebble beach? ). People are running around screaming, and i collapse to the floor.

LUCID
My mind snaps back into lucidity as I hear the male voice from earlier;

"Tell me, what colour? WHAT COLOUR?!"

I have trouble thinking, but after a couple of seconds sputter "blue, the sea is blue, the grass is green, the stones are brown". For the most part the storm eases but the winds are still pretty strong. As i get to my feet, i realise my movement is impaired. I try moving quickly, but it feels like walking into a hurricane. I proceed towards the Pier, clearly the dream wants me to do this.

I look to my left and see an old woman, (looking back on the dream, i don't recognise her, but during it she seemed to be an old friend, which suggests i wasn't fully lucid). We greet each other, and I say to her "I must reach the pier". She says she can't let me go alone and that she must accompany me. We walk towards the pier with the storm gaining strength again. I can feel rain hitting my face, the temperature has dropped considerably since earlier. As we reach the base of the pier we are blocked by a huge crack in the road, I turn to the old woman and say; "This is where i must leave, i must reach the pier". The woman replies with, "Go my love" and suddenly I awake.

The whole last bit of the dream feels blurry, it felt blurry at the time as well, so i'm not entire certain I was fully lucid, but i remember knowing it was a dream as the storm brewed (i was worried i was going to awake and so did my best to stabilise things.

WILD Attempt: I had woken up around 2 if I remember correctly, and decided it was a good time to try a WILD. After about 3 minutes, my body was thrown under a big tingling sensation. My eyelids turned purple, and I saw a man walking towards me. I was scared, so I stopped not wanting to get old hag syndrome, but decided to keep going. It was too late, and he disappeared. I tried again. I was thrown under the same sensation, but it stopped shortly after, and sometime later fell asleep.

I was in my room, at my computer chair. I knew I was dreaming but I wasn't lucid. I said to myself, "If I were to do a reality check now, it would work and I would become lucid." I didn't. Sometime later, either a false awakening or I was warped, I was in my school. I was near my locker when I became fully lucid. I was excited, this kind of vividness hasn't happened in about two months. I immediately wanted to fly. I was in the hallway with a bunch of other students, it must of been passing time. To my biggest fear, I was losing the dream shortly after it began! I panicked. I sat down in the hall instantly and tried observing myself as well as I could. I tried to shout something like "Keep lucidity!" But I choked and nothing came out. I observed the people around me. I'm pretty sure the person looking at me was Haven. I managed to maintain. I was still in the dream, and I was no longer losing it.

I now wanted to achieve my goal, which was to fly. I went to the end of the hall way, all of the students had gone by now except a few who were watching me. I jumped. I was amazed. I didn't fly, but I jumped really high and came down much slower than gravity would allow me to I kept trying it, trying different flying techniques but I just couldn't get them to work. All I would do was jump in the air fairly high, but that was it. I managed to find a tall building (no longer at my school now, just roaming around) and jumped to the top of it (there were convenient ledges) I more so walked off than jumped. I was falling, slower than normal but still fast enough to fatally injure me. The dream became third person. I smacked the ground and bounced back up about 6 feet. I walked away It wasn't long after that when I woke up.

I was lying in the bed, it was night and husband's father was in the room. I thought that it can't be because he lives in other house and I locked the door in the evening, so it might be LD. Made reality check, stood up, ask DC what is he doing here - he answered something that he came home late... I went to the street and flew and ram into some glue and it was on my face and prevent me to see clearly. I tear it off the eyes by my hands and flew higher and saw stars. I thought - it's too high! and found myself under the selling in my grandma room. I land and wanted to make the portal to the library to make TOTM, but portal return me in the room. I made the portal again , it was like colour tube, but it went to real(( I've got a problem with the portals - they don't work, but before they always worked

I am on a strip of beach with mother. ther are wolves walking around. There is also a small TV on which the news are showing a map of the world. A country has launched a nuclear missile at another country. I
tell mother that "Its finally over, they will end each other now" We watch the screen as they continue targeting each other. Shortly after
dust begins to raise around us. I am quiete happy its over but it doesnt end for us. "I guess we have to survive." I teleport to one of the wolves and rip it apart. Then another. Mothers concerned voice "Im not sure it safe to eat these" "not to worry, the world is free now lets go to a book store and learn
wilderness survival". As we walk towards the collection of buildings on the strip of beach
Mother is now Dina. Im so excited the world is free now "Its like burning man". We walk into a store and get something. "lets get into proper attire, we can wear what we want now." we go to a costume store and begin picking out burning man attire.
I wake up in a village, something is wrong with Dina so the village shaman takes a look at her in the hut we are in. I think aobut the strip of beach...after the shaman is done she lays on her stomach and
says "I love how easily I can go back" I lay down and fall asleep instantly. Im back on the Beach in the costume store. G and Allen
are also here, they are also picking out attire. When we walk outside it is dark now. The sky is filled with a billion stars and planets. There is a void with blue electricity. The sky is fusing together with
the beach so that if you walk out far enough you will be in space. ALlen does this as if his done it before. There is so much in the sky...we walk to a structure similar to burning man stadium. Inside
someone buys something and we walk to a corner and sit down facing a walk which is also fused with the sky so that you can walk out into it
and be just in space. Dina and G sit. I step out towards the stars. It feels like unerneeth me is glass I cant see. Allen walks around as well. I wonder and ask "have you ever let yourself just fall through?"
but I dont remember what he answered and after realising this is the coolest longest lucid I ever had I go outside again. I decide I want it to be hot and sunny again. I concentrate and in a sudden burst it
becomes warm and sunny. People are walking around everywhere. Its a super thick place. Dina G and Allen come outside. I do 2 more bursts
to make it even hotter. We walk through the town into an alleyway with little shops on the sides. ALlen and G go ahead while Dina and I stop
at a shop because we like a figurine. I devise a plan in my head about how were gona take it. "let me see that" the boy selling the items takes it out from behind the glass and gives it to us. I see another
that I like and ask for it. He gives. While dina is looking at them I tell him to come with me so she can sneak away with the figures but he
doesnt. I concentrate "Follow me"
"no"
"give me these items"
"no" he takes them back
I see the price, 12k and 18k why wont he give them to me...My uncle Roma appears with us, he is with another man and they are both dressed from the matrix. "take off your gloves" he tells his
assistant. The energy starts to change.
"theres no time follow me, run." we start to run through what seems like a mall, up an escelator. and
as we do many thoughts cross my mind about this dream and my uncles life. As we run; "whats going on?"
"youve been dreaming for to long".
"so what I can just wake up"
"after a while you can wake up anymore. you stay in the dream forever and this is not the dream for you"
Dina tries to wake herself and fails.
I start to notice we are being chased by all the projectiles so I run faster. Into a corridor and up the stairs into a narrow corridor with glass on
one side. Two people are standing in yoga poses facing the glass looking out at the planes. We are in an airport. We run into a more open space with 3 sets of stairs going down. At the end there is a wall with glass doors and white light behind. *I start
my way down as I see G jump all 3 staircases (quiete a distance) in one jump. As he lands he rolls and projectiles start to go for him. In
slow mow he dodjes all of them in extremely complicated and precise menuevers using quiete the techniques and runs through the doors.
I wake up.

(At the time I had this dream I played WAY too much Oblivion, and it began to appear in my dreams)

I am in the Imperial City from the game Oblivion, and I am completely surrounded by goblins. Everything looked exactly the way it would in the game. Realizing this, I became lucid for the first time.

I began slowly floating in the air thinking about all of the things I could do. Thoughts kept racing through my head as I became more and more excited. But then, the worst thing I could have ever thought came to mind.

"Don't wake up! Don't close your eyes or you will wake up!"

Sure enough, I closed my eyes and came back to reality.

Reverse psychology sucks...