nightmare

Dream #1 of the Night:
I am up in bed reading at around 1:00AM. Suddenly I hear the front door in my house open and slam shut. I am terrified and begin to scan my room for a weapon but I can't find one and settle on using a sharp pencil on my bedside table. I open my bedroom door and see a young boy sitting Indian style in the hallway. I am taken aback and attempt to stab the palm of his hand. This doesn't hurt him. I notice he is fiddling with a pencil himself. I realize that he is glowing slightly blue and I now understand that he is a ghost and become frightened again. I quickly start asking hi)m questions without giving him time to answer until I come to my last question, "are you a good guy or a bad guy?" He looks at me, reluctant to answer. I am uneasy knowing that he looks so reluctant, so I shout to my parents to help me yell and him to get out of the house and never return. I look back and he is gone.
(I woke up after this, I consider this dream a nightmare as I am frightened of ghosts, especially ghosts of children.)

Dream #2 of the Night:
I go to my ex's house, "N," to collect some of my things. I have so many things there that it is taking me a long time to get them all together. Without notice, people start to show up and Nate whispers to me to hurry up before I embarrass him. People keep showing up and we start to have a party with a lot of smoking. I try to play a game of cards with N and a few others but the game never starts. Later, I go outside and see little boys all around my car. The were out to get me and had placed a bunch of empty juice containers on my car to somehow "get to me." I shoo them away. Even later, the party is over and I am still at N's, kneeling over a dying man. He doesn't want my help so I do the best I can to help anyway and call "Dr. Quantum" to come to the house and tend to the man. When the Dr. shows up and the dying man realizes it is Dr. Quantum, he is suddenly better and stands up. He proceeds to rant to Dr. Quantum about how the doctor owes him money.

Alright so this dream (where I remember it) started in this tower that was sort of like a hospital. It looked like it was in construction and had open walls but then it changed in further in the dream. This tower also had a DH trail on it and I wanted to ride it but the lady that brought us here said we couldn't until we walked down to the bottom of the tower (wtf?). So anyways, this tower had zombie in it and other creepy shit, thus why I categorized it as a nightmare. So in this dream this tower was like a video game but it was also real life at the same time so it was weird. So we started our jounrey down, I was following a guy with a white T-shirt and black short hair. When we started going I turned on the mute button my TV remote (Sorry this is hard to explain) so anyways we started going. What we did was we went up to these hallways that branched off and had rooms on either side. There was one room that actually had a zombie in it and the others were fake. I was still terrifed, I am deathly afraid of zombies. So we got into the first room and it was a bedroom with posters all around and a bed in the middle of it and the zombie was at the foot of the bed, the guy shot and killed him. So for a while this dream became a blur and was pretty much just me being terrified out of my mind. So then we came up to another hallway and I decided to open the first door on the left and when I opened it there was just more doors but I was so freaked out and I shot inside it. Then we came down to the bottom and that's all I can remember

Alright so this dream (where I remember it) started in this tower that was sort of like a hospital. It looked like it was in construction and had open walls but then it changed in further in the dream. This tower also had a DH trail on it and I wanted to ride it but the lady that brought us here said we couldn't until we walked down to the bottom of the tower (wtf?). So anyways, this tower had zombie in it and other creepy shit, thus why I categorized it as a nightmare. So in this dream this tower was like a video game but it was also real life at the same time so it was weird. So we started our jounrey down, I was following a guy with a white T-shirt and black short hair. When we started going I turned on the mute button my TV remote (Sorry this is hard to explain) so anyways we started going. What we did was we went up to these hallways that branched off and had rooms on either side. There was one room that actually had a zombie in it and the others were fake. I was still terrifed, I am deathly afraid of zombies. So we got into the first room and it was a bedroom with posters all around and a bed in the middle of it and the zombie was at the foot of the bed, the guy shot and killed him. So for a while this dream became a blur and was pretty much just me being terrified out of my mind. So then we came up to another hallway and I decided to open the first door on the left and when I opened it there was just more doors but I was so freaked out and I shot inside it. Then we came down to the bottom and that's all I can remember

(Will add later)

Non-Dream/Lucid/Non-Lucid

I dreamed it last night and it ended like in 4:00 AM. I tried to remember as much as I could. You know...when you wake up at 4:00 AM the only thing you could think of is writing everything down in your DJ. >_>
The dream started like this:
DREAM 1: I was at home reading a book. When I turned my head to the right I saw an out of body hand. (I think it had like 4 fingers...it was really small) I freaked out...I though I'm going nuts. I grabbed that hand and bite a finger from it to see what happens. It disappeared all of sudden and my mom came. She asked me:
>Guess where we'll be going today! ^_^
I asked her:
>Where? (I was actually expecting her to say that we're going to psychologist or to endocrinologist, because I actually need to go there for some check-ups)
She said:
>We're going to the stomatologist!
I was like WTF?!?!?
DREAM 2: I was in the mall. A professor was going to the bathroom...the guy was a little suspicious, so I entered to see what is he doing there. He was a homosexual and he went to the bathroom to ask for some guys to have sex with for cash. (again...WTF???)
DREAM 3: My old plush bear was possessed. It got angry because I didn't wanted to play with it anymore and turned itself into a big pitbull dog and everytime I tried to talk to it, it attacked me. (Guess what ^_^....WTF?!)
DREAM 4: Finally (and probably less retarded than the other dreams) I dreamed there were some commands of Super Meat Boy games for Romania...They were actually destined for Bucharest, but they somehow accidentally delivered them to Moldova (which is at countryside...)
That thing was on TV and they actually sent reporters to ask the people from there if they ever heard of that game or about "the toilet" (I don't know what the toilet was meaning...).
(By the way...............WTF?????????)

Awake - Dream - Lucid

Before I being, I must note that I haven't bothered to type these out online for quite awhile. 10 days at least, I think. It's because I don't like my keyboard at home and my Laptop is broken. I'm at a friend's house now and his PC blows but the keyboard is new. I thought I'd might as well enter all these in while I'm doing nothing.

Tried to stay up late to have a REM rebound. I only managed to keep awake till 2:20AM before giving up. There was nothing to keep me up because there's no games to play. I tried to WILD but knew, deep down, it would be pretty impossible without a WBTB first. Before I knew it, I was asleep.

I'm not going to detail too much about this dream. Mostly because I don't want to. I know I should recall all dreams but some dreams you just don't want to remember. Basically the dream was an extended, much scarier version of Source Code. I remember that Stevens was still alive but like in the movie, only the small part of his body was there. He was quarantined because of some kind of virus that he carried and only one nurse could be with him.

I woke up around 4AM, went to the bathroom, took a drink of Apple Juice, then went back to bed. I tried again to WILD, more confident that I'd be able to seeing as I'd just woken up after sleeping for awhile. I laid there for over an hour before giving up. I mostly gave up because after laying there for so long, I wasn't really feeling the physical connection to my body anymore. I knew I had to be getting somewhere then out of nowhere, my legs jerked. Threw me back into reality and disappointment. I passed back out and woke up at 11AM for good but don't recall any dreams.

Interruption
I watched Source Code earlier that night so I'm not surprised at this dream. I loved the movie till they showed Stevens' body... or what was left of it. I even knew that I'd have nightmares about that so of course I did.

Non-Dream/Lucid/Non-Lucid

I dreamed it when I was little. I tried to remember this dream as hard as I could. Between the first and the last dream I mentioned were a lot of more dreams. I remember I was frustrated that I couldn't wake up. I don't remember anymore the middle dreams, but the rest were so vivid even now I can remember it as I dreamed last night. It was kind of interesting so I though of writting it down and share it with you!
I was in the bad watching TV with my mom sitting on a chair near me. My mom suddenly disappeared. From my room I saw coming a shadow. (the fun part here is that we have 2 beds in the living room...after my mom disappeared I was suddenly in the other bed) I got out of the bed to see what's going on. The shadow was doing what I was doing. I tried to salute it and it saluted me too. I tried to jump on him and he attacked me. I was scared in that moment. I ran away to the kitchen to bring a knife...
When I came back the room was empty and that shadow disappeared. The only thing that was left in the room was one of the beds on which I was sitting, wondering what is my mom gonna say and how would I explain her a "magical" shadow came into the room and stole all stuff from the house! Then I realized it's a dream! I couldn't control it at all.
If I saw the things would just get worse and the shadow was coming back I tried to suicide to wake myself up. It somehow worked, as it sent me into a room with a buddy. He asked me if I want to dream anymore. I said no and it sent me into a room with some purple walls. There all my stuff from the house were alive and were trying to attack me. I was scared and when I was sent into that room I totally forgot it was a dream so I woke up.

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AWAKE
DREAMING

I'm blaming 'the slender man' for the whole in my recall last night.

DREAM 1:
The sky and land are white, everything is white, no recognizable features or landmarks anywhere. Faceless men are running at me and I kill them with what appears to be a lightsaber, they just keep coming.

DREAM 2:
I'm SCARED! I don't know how I got here but I am running for my life through a very foggy forest, I can hear what sounds like a baby laughing only deeper. I can hear loud footsteps behind me.

I go to my recent ex's ("N") house for something important. When I get there, a lot of people are there, which is unusual in waking life. I see a blunt on the ground, partially ruined. I also see a glimpse of a girl, "D," on the couch with N and a few other people. This upsets me and I feel awkward so I run out of the house, grabbing the blunt as I leave. When I get to my car, a bunch of "white-trash" people in their crappy cars pull in and start driving all around me so I can't get out of the driveway. I have a feeling that they are D's family members in the car. I honk my car horn in an effort to get them to let me out. At the point a car hits me and a huge, bald man gets out and tries to burn me with a cigarette and hit me. I try to call the cops but for some reason I am unable to.

Later, I am camping and we are on a back road riding in the flat bed of a truck. The road is very bumpy. One of my friends/ex-coworker, "J," is there and talks to me telepathically. I am taken aback and interested. Just then, we hit a bump and another friend/ex-coworker of mine (from he same job as J) falls on me and I am torn from the internal conversation.

June 21, 2011


Introduction


When I first came to DV I knew I was bored with my dreaming life and needed to focus on it to find some kind of solution. I have had some interesting experiences because of DV but still I felt an emptiness to it all. Then I realized recently I needed a challenge. This virtually impossible since I am all but god in my dreams, totally invulnerable but also with no challenges. Yes DC’s threaten me but I dispatch with them with so little effort it is barely amusing. Then I saw The Green Lantern movie the other day and I realized that like in the movie I needed not a physical threat to overcome but a psychological challenge, fear, I needed to overcome any fears I may have. I was not sure what those fears might be but I was about to find out.


A little Green Lantern vid to show you some of the basics.

I went to bed a little late at about 1:45 and as usual for this past month worked on my presleep visual imagery of Cerebro from the X-men but mine is a little different. I have gotten to some great visualizations that actually make my head feel almost disconnected and Cerebro is to help me focus on my abilities and grow them and somehow it’s working my subconscious has been extremely active lately. I completed some mental exercises through the Cerebro exercise and fell asleep during this as usual.



Type: Horror/Battle.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 and later Lucidity: 1 23 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10


I'm at a stadium high up in a glassed in level the last rows of spectators on the top. I can’t see anything from this height but there are people sitting around outside this area some of them are sitting on the roof facing the city and parking lot below. (It is early in the night and dreams are chaotic at this point and I fully realize that and have not only gotten used to it but have become at peace with this, I no longer expect “reality” in such early night dreams. Maybe its just me but everything I have heard about REM sleep is crap, I dream nearly all night.) One of the men, a young guy about 20 years old stood up and I wondered what he was doing. Then he stumbled a bit and almost fell off the very top of the stadium.


“Hey did you see that? That guys nuts.” I said to the guy sitting next to me. I shook my head but it was just a dream.

Then the guy standing on top of roof of the stadium caught some clothesline rope around his neck and floated up into the air and even into our glassed in area that’s when I could see he was dead. I felt sad that the poor guy was dead now.



He floated around the back of our seats but when he came around my left hanging in the air, his face was bloody. It wasn’t that his face had blood on it but it was a lot of caked on blood in a gooey mass of blood partially dried, like he had fallen and his brains and blood pooled and dried on his face. I have seen worse I’ve seen actual autopsies (and actually think they are amazing) but here was this guy who had his whole life ahead of him and now its so sad and discussing.



My lucidity kicked in and I was outraged at being so upset in the dream.
I realized I was already upset and thought how I could turn back or erase the past.

“See that right here?!” making a circle with my fingers over the whole upsetting scene. “Get rid of that!”


“No.” I heard in an evil villain voice.


Despite the disembodied voice, the defaced suicidal dead man was gone replaced by a burn spot like when old films burned to a blackness of a burn spot.



“Then where should it go?”


A man looking like the Anonymous logo
but with an all white featureless face appeared in the air about 15 feet away over the burn spot in the dream that I had created.


“Back into the body” He said.

I needed to protect my body from whatever this negativity was!


All of a sudden the man turned into a cloud like in The Green Lantern (TGL) of yellow and smoke and thrusted out attacking me!



SWOOSH!


It happened so unexpectedly fast I instinctively formed a shield up again like in TGL! I saw it so clearly, the transparent shield and I could feel through my mind the force of the fear on the other side trying to break through. The fear was a thing and it was trying to make me fear it and it was working. All my fears kicked into over drive, can I defend against this thing, how long could I hold out? I could actually feel its distance from me!



SWOOSH!

It attacked again part thought part terror. I summoned light sabers but it only defended and did not do anything to it. I felt myself being pushed back in a panic but I resisted by keeping my mind busy on the battle.



I realized I was no longer in the dream state but was still being attacked by whatever this is! What is going on here? How long could this go on?


SWOOSH!


The cloud of yellow fear thrust at me yet again and I rebuffed it with a huge fist but these attacks where coming at a million miles a second, I could barely think fast enough. I began to realize I needed an offensive move but it was all happening too fast to think about it!



SWOOSH!


I visualized a huge chain going around it but this did little and then



SWOOSH!


I saw it form a small chainsaw and I did the same, I rebuffed it again!

I was gaining confidence in this psychic battle.
I formed a belief that I could withstand this force for eternity if needed. I had learned, from the dream world long ago, beliefs where extremely powerful tools and how I could create them at will.


SWOOSH!


I saw it coming yet again and formed a psychic shield over all of me and it pounded against it once,



SWOOSH!


twice,



SWOOSH!


three times and I knew it would hold. Now I could open my eyes up safely having essentially won. I was sweating and a little shaken but very glad I won that hellashish attack!


My room was still dark, time 3:15. I went to bed at 1:45, “so much for REM sleep.”


I could still feel the fear though and a shiver when up my spine all alone in my dark room. I had the impulse to jump up and turn on the lights but “no I must defeat this here too!” I was no longer afraid, I needed to embraced it! I pictured the poor horrible bloody face and not fight the fear but not believe in it either. I examined what was so scary about this, more like a sad horror really. Gradually it was less and less scary and the room felt more and more like the air cooled safe household that it really was.



I rolled over and went back to sleep. If there was something evil out there, or in my dreams, I knew how to defeat it and if it needed a rematch I would have been happy to oblige, I knew its deadly weakness and was no longer afraid.



Dream 2


Type: Regular Dream. Repeat with new many elements.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10


I am new to moving in an apartment complex in a bad Hispanic neighborhood. There are a couple of tough looking dudes standing next to my new place’s door and they don’t want to move out of the way. I get up close to them and they look at me threatening and I say “excuse me” they move a bit and I unlock the door and walk in. On the floor I find some bullets in an old black sock from the last guy that must have lived here, I make a note to get as gun. I go back outside and see some kid pushing around another kid then run off. I think about how not to have that happen to me and a teen shows me a handful of salt balls in his hand, I could tell from his thoughts that he would crush them throw them in an attackers eyes.


I am standing next to a bus stop sign and I realize I have no way of getting around, I can’t recall having a car and don’t have any money even for the bus! I go back inside to look for lost pocket change.


Inside the dream changes time and I have been there for months now and my friends (all Hispanic guys I have never seen before IWL). The big guy comes in and puts some mail on my table and goes back out to the hall and brings in a large high tech rifle and gives it to me. Everyone oo’s and ah’s over it and I look at it for a second and then put it in my closet for safe keeping. The place of mine is a huge mess and I am afraid if I put the rifle on something it will fall off in all the clutter and break the scope on it or something. I then go out the door with all my friends.

The recurrent villain in my dreams is a T-Rex. It has been chasing me for as long as I have been dreaming. I run from house to house, hiding under cars, behind bushes, inside of strangers homes.
I try to be as quiet as possible, it comes walking up the street, smashing cars, kicking his way through houses, people everywhere are screaming.
I jump out and run as fast as I can, hide again, he always finds me.

The most recent meeting with T-Rex, I was quietly lurking in a neighborhood, conditions dictated that he was nearby, but I didnt hear the usual roaring, crashes and screaming.
It was then that I realized that the tree I was standing next was his left leg.
I could see the scales up close. I slowly looked up at him, he was obviously scanning the area for me, he had no idea that I was standing next to him.
He was about 30 feet tall.
I slowly crept away, never taking my eyes off him. I put as much distance between us as I could before I awoke.

(Comment: This is my first real nightmare that I remember in.... ever.. I think I only had one when I was a little kid. )


I was there in my grandparents house. I was bringing a person back alive. For some reason, I had a feeling of being the creator of that specific creature. The dream started there though, and I don't know if I had built a human being from scratch, or just operated on him and brought him back to life. I successfully revived him. He took a while, maybe a few minutes, to come to full thinking/ speaking capability. He looked at me for a while. He started talking very calmly. He was threatening me. Telling me that I'd have a chance to run away, and if he'd catch me, I'd suffer something horrible. I did not specifically know or think about what this horrible fate would be but I knew that it was bad.

So I started running. I ran and I ran. Climbed obstacles, hid from the guy multiple times, all occuring in the small part of town where the house was located in. It was absolutely terryfying seeing this guy 5 feet away from me, knowing that if I stumbled or didn't run fast enough, something terrible would happen. Finally I had hid in the living room of the house. I looked away. When I looked back, the person was there, again, staring at me. Slowly walking towards me. I told him to stop and listen to me for a while. He sat on a seat and so did I. (comment: At this point I somehow knew that it was a dream, yet I could not classify it as a lucid, since I was not aware that it was a dream, but I kinda just knew that it was, but didn't acknowledge it, which is why I didn't put this in either lucid or non-lucid)

His appearance was scary. He was an old man with long, messy, near white hair. He was wearing torn clothes, which were also dirty. He had no shoes. His skin was all around in bad condition. His hands, big and full of veins. His arms, muscular, from what I saw through the gaps in the clothing. His face, filled with scars.

I told him that if he'd be better off not chasing me. There is no real benefit in keeping this up. He said that I would never be able to get back to where I came from. That I'd be eternally stuck with him, unless I'd give up, and in which case, I'd suffer horribly.

I saw my younger brother (He's only 8) running around in the yard. I jumped off of the sofa I was sitting on, blasted open the door, ran out, took him with me, hid under the stairs that were there on the western end of the building. Saw and heard how the guy ran down the stairs and past the house to the other side of the house. I took my brother and carried him to the carage of the house in the front. There, we sat on a bench very quietly. The suspense was dreadful. The feeling of fear like no other.
About ten seconds later, the door from the cellar to the carage (which is not the same as the main carage door) opened, and I saw him. I thought out loud "How could he know where we were?!". I remember him running towards us.


End dream. (Comment: Dream did not end at the moment he was running towards me. I did not wake up to that. That's just the last thing I remember)

I was in a mansion, sitting by my sister in a room near an exit. The room had a couch and a hallway leading outside. The room also had a back where I knew a kitchen was. I went outside for a littlewhile and came back in. I wallked in and saw two zombies in the place of my mother and sister. I freaked out and rand down the hall leading out. It was nightfall now. I had the odd feeling that if I didnt move out to a mor eopen space that zombies would over power me. All of a sudden I was on a train getting away from the zombie infested lands. It seemed as if a virus was running rampant and I was one of the few who was to strong to turn into a zombie. The train crashed not to far away from the mansion. Comeing out of the train was an old man and two girls probobly mom an dsister. The dream wasnt making much sense. I was an old man and on the train yet me in the dream wasnt there and still outside somewhere, as if my conciousness shifted to another persons reality. Zombie animals and people where in the woods, we knew we had to get back into the mansion to not be over powered. We where back in the mansion held up in a room. The old man who I was at the time got on a computer and visualized himself as a video game charracter running around with a pipe beating up the zombies. The old man who I was at the time found himself over the bodies of several beaten to death zombies. The two girls stood shoked at how he had defied his age. Suddenly I was one of the girls trying to make it over to the other girl. I dont know weather i was the sister or the mom. I saw the otehr girl and a girl who wasnt in the dream before fall off a platform several stories in the air and somehow get up uningered I was afraid to try. I suddenly saw a ladder and used it to get down. I was somehow myself again. I was viewing the future like a book. I saw that I was in chaper three of the 6 chapter book that was the zombie infestation. It had a picture of a giant cat on it. The 5th chapter said the importants of familly, it had a picture of several zombie boars killing me and ripping me to pieces and eating me. I then entered chapter 5. I was on the ground being attacked by a cat bigger than any horse or any lion I have ever seen. The cat was tearing at my arms and face, tearing off bloody scraps of fleash. Oddly I felt nothing, only the burning urge to escape. I crawled over to a door in a narrow hallway braced myself against the wall and tried to push ta door closed to keep the cat from getting to me. The beast was strong and was slowly over powering me, makeing blood curddling noises that I have yet to hear in real life. Then I found myself with mom, dad and my sister. I knew now that I was in chapter six, where I knew I would meet my horrible death. Mom and dad where cooking, unaware of the zombies all over the place. They sent me out for cooking equipment all the way across the mansion. I want to the middle yard of the mansion and jumped all the way across to the spot with the stuff. I knew that at any moment I could meet my end. I grabed the stuff and jumped back over hopeing I could get inside before my death. I gave the stuff to my mom and dad. THey where about to send me out for more stuff even further in the mansion. I was then talking to Tetra the pirate and her crew from the legend of Zelda. I was begging her to sail me and my familly away so that we could live. She refused and sailed away leaving us to die. ////This was a side chapter in the story. The dream ended.

Woot I didnt die!!

So I 'woke up' in the dream about 15 minutes after I went to sleep, I hardly felt SP besides a little spinning in the head which was weird. I had the lucid dream at first in my room which is very normal for me. I did like five different reality checks because I couldn't believe that I was in a lucid, they all came out positive of course. Yet, I still didn't believe I was in a full lucid so I tried to close my eyes again and get deeper which is where the craziness starts. I visualized a new scene which was my full upstairs and kitchen. In real life I was about to bring some alcohol to my friend Nate's house so I had it sitting on the counter. So in my dream I pictured the alcohol there also, and it worked I appeared in my kitchen and my mom had just got home. She asked me why I had her alcohol on the counter. At that point I had the weirdest feeling I ever had in a dream I felt like I was super, super drunk. I was passing out everywhere I went like I was too tired and drunk. I couldn't answer any questions and I knew it was a dream so I felt no need to. I stumbled over to a wrap around table and laid my head down while she was still talking to me. She grabbed my face and started lightly slapping me and say Derrick come on wake up... What should I make for dinner tonight? I couldn't even respond I was passing out but I was still fully lucid the dream was not fading.
I then appeared in my bed again, with some crazy sensations. By third eye area was going crazy with tonsss of pressure my body was waving like I was smoking weed, I was hallucinating like I was on shrooms and I still had the drunk feeling all at the same time. I also felt SP hitting me while I was in the lucid don't know how that happened, but the waves were going through all of my body, and certain pressure points hurt really bad. I tried to stand up in this false awakening which at the time I thought was reality, I managed to stand up but then I fell STRAIGHT on my face directly on my nose. At that point I knew I was in a dream because I felt like I floated before I hit the ground so I wasn't hurt, but it was a complete loss of muscle control.