non-lucid

So, last night most of what i had were fragments you know like i pushed a tree down and whoop tree domino effect! It was fun except there was no story to these fragments that i can rember and i guess my mind sensed that so it made me a mental movie.

What i call mental movies are dreams in which you do not participate but actully just watch the story unfold.

MIne last night went like this.

There was a guy and his dog in england and they had no place to stay. A young girl saw these two and gave them enough money for a hotel room for the night. The guy looked 15 while the girl was ethier 13 or 14. Anyways they talked for awhile then he was on his way.


I woke up here.I looked at my phone it was 5 something so i said "ehhhh" and went back to sleep.

WELL lucky me i was back in the mental movie with the girl it seemed she was home now and what a home it was. She lived in what looked like a fancy trailer. There was a wooded area to the back and a huge lake to the front with a gravel road seperating the two. She had a family consiting of her parents and her two brothers. And they seemed happy. Well the family needed to see the father off at the airport so everone except the girl went she stayed home and chilled. That is until there was a knock on the door and guess who was there!! It was the guy and his dog. Turned out the guy lived in the same area as the girl and had brought a present to thank her for as he says "Saying my life back in england" well the two started talking and talked for long time.

About maybe an hour later the rest of the family is seen coming up the gravel road. Now the girls father is very protective of his daughter and if hes sees the guy may kill him. So the girl tells the guy to hide. And at that moment i suddenly take control of the guy so now I have to find place to hide i search the rooms and find a bedroom with alot of pillows i hide under a huge body pillow.

Now the family has arrivied at the home and the dad sees the dog and the present and instaly starts searching the house. He looks in every room and when he comes to the one im in i notice that he doesnt look so tough so me being dumb as i am gets up from the hiding place and tries to confront the dad......

BAD IDEA
He slams into me and knocks me down on the bed and holds pair of sissors to my neck. He starts yelling at me and all i can say is "i was thaking your daughter for saving my life!!!"

Finally he lets up but only after sticking a pen in my eye!! And he has an idea to punish his daughter for saving a stranger....he sends her to an accapuala camp (that crap in pitch perfect.....yeah i saw pitch perfect) and tells me he never wants to see me again. As i walk out the door i lock eyes with the girl we are both sadden.


I wake up again. And go back to sleep.

This time its back to mental movie mode. Im at the camp and see all the singers and groups. I spot the guy there and i know he hasnt given up on his girl.


THE END
Now can someone tell me why love stories are going off in my head!!!

12.07.2013

Ada Calls in Several Osprey Gunners and Shoots Luis Sera [DILD] (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Okay, think I might get back into interpreting dreams a bit more, even though ultimately, asking the subconscious/unconscious directly would be more accurate. Either way, the point of this dream is that with the dream meanings with helicopters, sniper rifles, and aiming down a target with accuracy leads to an implication that I'm reaching some kind of higher level of thinking of something that was bothering me all this time with dream characters/thought-forms/figments of my imagination.


Throughout the dream, I was a spectator, kind of like watching a screen of a dream character in a video game go through an area and such, except without the heads-up-display and what have you. Ada, specifically the version of her in Resident Evil 6, is going about infiltrating a base, but it seems like it was a floating base of some kind, because I can slightly feel the vibrations in the regions of her feet.

There seems to be no one inside this base except her and me spectating her, so she's just moving about in a slightly dark aware with a few specks of lights here and there. There were black metal crates with silver linings on the sides and corners that were maybe 3-4 inches in width. It almost felt as if I was in a huge helicopter or even a Osprey gunner (in call of duty).

The reason why that's the closest thing in my mind right now is because it was extremely spacious, and with the creates and objects surrounding Ada, it felt as if she was actually preparing an assault towards an area or even a person. So maybe she was just strolling around for the time being just to kill "dream time," I guess, if that makes any sense.

I know what I said doesn't feel right, but I just meant that as in where we go on a journey in its entirety rather than actually teleporting to our destination.

Anyway, I start feeling at ease being inside this Osprey gunner, but at the same time, because I'm wondering where in the world Ada is doing at such a high altitude, I felt that she had to be grounded somewhere, to at least take things a better pace rather than inside a Osprey gunner-esque.

The reason for that is while something like this, being in a helicopter or some flying object that's huge, it can give us a sense of protection, but it also means we might have to ground ourselves so we don't go too quickly in our lives to where it ends up being a one step forward, two steps back experience.

The dream shifts to where Ada seems to be on a ground surface, and we're both hearing the humming of helicopters and the Osprey gunner-esque flying vehicles roaring in the background. It wasn't loud to the point that it was distracting, just enough to where anyone can hear it with along with the vibrations from the sound waves.

At this point, I could describe the dream environment, but honestly, everything is too dark and tedious to really get a good description of. They were merely objects that filled the environment, and paying particular attention to them didn't really matter. Ada finds a window, she gets her right leg and kicks it I believe (or probably just uses the sniper rifle to destroy it completely), and she gets out of the dark area by putting her hand at the bottom edge of the window and doing a side twist with her lower body region to the other side.

She's now in an environment where the overall color is brown, the surface below her has a mix of brown soil and maybe dead brown grass, just like the image below:

The region she's on now, it's like a mini-cliff that spans about maybe 10-12 feet in width, and if she stepped any further, it would be a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG fall to the bottom. So just imagine the environment beyond that mini-cliff as mixes of gray, red, and other colors that were blurry because there wasn't much focus for them.

She encounters a man to the right of her that looks a lot like Luis Sera from Resident Evil 4, and it seems she's aware that he would be there initially.

Spoiler for big image:

He's wearing a darker outfit, probably just a black jacket over his current costume that's similar to the image above. Just being around him made me feel he had something up his sleeve, and even though Ada seemed to be confident that he was perfectly fine, something was not right.

I started getting these tingling sensations on the sides of my stomach, dream body or waking life, they started to get stronger and stronger (and there wasn't anything in waking life that contributed to that).

I'm not so sure if Ada picked this up initially, and based on what will happen next, it's safe to presume she did know, but she was just pretending to be casual towards the Luis Sera look-alike. She quickly flirts with him, but they were laconic to where it didn't really add substance to the conversation. There was something that made Ada immediately use her Sniper rifle and aims it towards Luis Sera.

She shoots him with high accuracy, and the moment she shoots him, he's pushed off the mini-cliff, but somehow, he's still alive, only with his face removed and his skull showing and I think it was covered in flames as well. He's just standing there levitating, and it feels like this guy is going to be difficult to take down.

NOPE.

Ada had several Osprey Gunner-esque flying vehicles floating above her, and they all aimed and Luis Sera......and he's dead, or at least disappeared immediately the moment the flying vehicles came. One Osprey Gunner is a shitty mess together to take down in call of duty unless you have a lock-on missile launcher, but 5-7 of them? Nothing, at least a singular entity in the dream, could stand up against that, unless they were invincible. But that didn't seem to be the case, thankfully.

After the Luis Sera dream character disappears, Ada gets her grapple gun, aims it at one of the Osprey Gunner, and finally gets into it. Like the scenario in the link below, except she gets into the Osprey Gunner like flying vehicle and is wearing her RE6 outfit

Splicd 03:37 to 04:01 · Resident Evil The Umbrella Chronicles Cutscenes [HD] [Ada Wong] Cutscenes

From there, I can't remember what happens next, but the next dream that probably came after it, adds on to the dream meaning.

Okay, so in a nutshell, with the Luis Sera only having a skull after being shot, with how skull is interpreted in dreams, it means a sense of danger, and also repressed feelings and all that combined with feeling that we're at a dead end situation. So as Ada was talking with the person, when she shot him with the sniper rifle, which obviously means higher accuracy and tackling a problem with accuracy, either means:

- I'm getting over an aspect of myself that gave me negative vibes of concepts of life or just me in general

- Ada is probably killing those repressed feelings behind the dream character Luis Sera that only had a skull and body instead of a face for some other reason

- Ada finally found something I needed to get rid of, and with her being on the ground, she's working at her own pace rather than being on top of a helicopter, and being inside or on top of a helicopter generally means one should take things at a slower and practical pace. Because she called in those huge helicopters, it gives a sense of security and stability in being able to control one's life and have a higher level of thinking over something that's bothering them. They found a way to justify the mechanics of what they wanted to solve initially, and now that it's taken care of, Ada going back to the helicopter means she's going back to moving at a quicker pace, but also is able to go back and forth through land and air with ease.

And the important item here is the Grappling Gun, the item that acts as a conduit in her being able to move up and down and about anywhere with ease. Because of this, it can often lead her to going into too many places at once, but with practice and experience, she uses the grappling gun only when it's necessary.

Because the same grappling gun can be spammed to death in the dream to get out of the situation like the skull dream character, but instead, she eliminates the part of myself that was insecure, seals the deal, and grapple hooks her way back to the helicopter, waiting there and doing whatever until there's another problem that comes up that I need justification or a way to solve.

Because of that, because there were several Osprey Gunner like flying vehicles, it most likely reflects on how I conceptualized the unconditional love and security the mind can give a person, if they know how to accept it being a double edged sword (and by that, I mean that despite of the unconditional love, it can be your worse enemy, because when you have nightmares, the more you reject them, the more apparent they'll come unless you take some measures to end it, or it becomes repressed and comes back later on in your life).

So with that, it could mean many other things, but I have a decent understanding of the dream. Maybe it was just an example of how a dead end situation (with the mini-cliff) was just for experimenting and amusement, but not necessarily having an underlying meaning.

However, because of her being on the cliff, it can symbolize there's a life-altering decision where I can't hold on to the beliefs I had before. And with the dream I had of Ada previously in the link below:

Ada and Double Suicide and Ada's and Eva's Polarity [WILD] - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views

I realized that Ada seemed to just jump off the edge of the castle walk-way in that same dream in the link above. And usually, if you jump off a cliff, it can symbolize there's forced change that I wasn't ready to be prepared for for that dream.

So with this dream I just now, I am able to climb over that difficulty, because I now accepted a cold and hard truth towards a concept I'm trying to understand more on a higher level. And because Ada has those attack flying vehicles by her side at her command, I am now at a higher level of thinking towards the concept I had difficult sugar-coating. The sugar-coating itself is now eliminated because I know the truth, and I can come to terms with that truth.

I can now use those helicopters, and Ada can use the grappling hook to connect herself to land and air with ease, that she's able to balance between being too ambitious while on the helicopter (going at a fast pace), and going back to the ground surface to take things slow.

It reflects that despite of the situations where I feel there's a dead-end, I will have to start looking into myself more to make life-altering decisions in order to climb over that dead-end, and continue being someone that wants to progressively learn through self-improvement.

And I know what those set of situations are, because of the dream I have next with school and classrooms, it basically means I'm in the process of getting used to the life-altering decision that I was going over in my mind recently.

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12.07.2013

Trying to Finish an Assignment and Going to Class (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Basically, I signed myself up for a random class that seems to not make any sense in whatever I was aiming for in the dream. I think it was a flight simulation class (kind of funny that occurs after the helicopter thing in the previous lucid dream).

Anyway, I was sitting in a random room of what seems to be a university of some sort, and as I'm typing things on the computer, I get this feeling of being rushed, that I need to take care of the assignment now. I'm not so sure if I was procrastinating and had to rush through, but whatever it is, I'm too anxious to get things done in this random assignment.

I look at the paper, which didn't make sense in terms of the syntax and wording, and I look back at the computer once more. There's a clock on a wall to the left of me, and I look at it, and it seems that 5PM is the time I have to get things done and head to my next class. The assumption with that came about when each tick made me want to rush more, and I decided that because I couldn't finish everything, I might as well accept what I did now and head to class.

I quickly head to class, and surprisingly, no one is there, I'm actually early too. I didn't enter the class as yet, and I just happened to find a girl coming out of the room I was planning to go into. She starts giggling, and I ask her what's so funny, and she states the teacher is busy watching porn on his Media device player.

Lol.

I wanted to see if she was lying, but she's right, this guy is going through porn pictures of naked women, one that looks Hispanic (maybe Brazilian if I want to be more specific). He doesn't seem to care who's entering the room, he's just casually getting his libido filled up with the porn, and after that, I can't recall what's happening next.


But the dream meaning was apparent like the lucid dream before it. There's something I'm trying to learn (and the teacher is just a distraction). The girl giggling and laughing probably means I need to let go of some things and not build so much pressure on myself, kind of like what I did when I tried to finish an assignment in a dream before it reached 5PM.

So yeah. That's all I remember, and honestly, two dreams recalled is more than enough for me seeing how their themes were apparent.

So it started off at a Sleeping with Sirens concert. I was able to sneak in towards the end of the concert. Then some producer guy came in and told us to leave because an old 80's singer needed the stage. All the fans protested and I tried to start a chant "Sleeping with Sirens, Sleeping with Sirens." But no one else joined in so my friend(don't remember who it was. I didn't pay much attention to them anyways) got up and left.
Then we walked into a One Direction concert. Since I f*cking hate them, I told my friend "I got an idea." As they started singing one of their stupid songs. I ran onstage, grabbed the microphone and started playing a hardcore Pierce the Veil song into it.

There was stuff about minecraft enemies, there was a tiger and some flying slimes, and an island where everyone was vegetarian, and a presentation of everyone involved in the making of a Sherlock fanfiction, and there was a murderer on the loose but a lady was insisting that he wasn't as bad as people were making him out to be because she woke up and saw him leaving her bedroom one time, and said that he must have slept with them in their bed, and then he left instead of murdering them. I was pretty sure that was actually me, though, since I was spending the night at their house in the other room, but I had to go through their room to get to the bathroom, and I had to go to the bathroom at a late time.

I had to sing a song that a lady had written on stage for the first time, and so I was reading the lyrics and singing them at the same time, and it ends with saying, "I'm done" very many times in a row, and at first I was just kind of mumbling them because I thought it was stupid, but then I got more and more into it and tried harder and harder because if I just mumbled them, then it would sound even more stupid than actually trying to sing these words, and I didn't want to let down the lady who wrote them, anyway.

I remembered this dream from last night.

2. [non-lucid][vivid]
I'm alone in my house, I'm using the PC in my room and I hear a knock at the door so I moved over and looked through my open door at the front door of the house (my room is at the back of the house on the ground floor and my door faces the front door at the other end of the corridor), the door opens and I am becoming really scared at this point, I quickly scramble for my phone to call the police, I miss dialed the first time due to being scared so I tried again, this time I got through to the police and said something like "help, theirs someone in my house and I'm alone (something about a pedophile idk)". I then woke up or forgot what happens next.

Fragments:
I was looking for somewhere to hide but couldn't find a good spot.

Notable Items & People:
Bedroom door, front door, iPhone, PC, TV screen, window, back door

Dream 1 : [COLOR="#800080"]I was somewhere in a show room and there was Super Junior performance.I watched it till the end and then I kept staring at them and everyone was screaming: I love you ....,I love you ....(Super Junior members) and when all the room was quiet I screamt: I love you Henry! and everyone heard,even him and then my class mate said: Woah look at that girl! And then she started to point at me and then at Henry and I kept laughing because I was too shy.When I wanted to go outside I met Henry on the stairs(I wasn't alone,I was with my friends) and he told me If I want an autograph and if I have a photo whit his face , I was excited when he told me about the autograph but it gone away fast because I didn't had a photo with him , I sigh and then I told him that I don't have one ,He said no problem,And then he got out off his back a cellophane with a empty biscuits plastic bag sticked in the middle and then we got outside and the sky color was bloody red and it looked more like a funeral(It gave me that feeling).I gone in the back of the building to my mom who was holding something and then there was Henry and gave me an autograph on that empty biscuits plastic bag (he stick a paper to it) and he draw a heart,wrote his name and he put there an A+ then he gone to give more autographs to more people and I don't know how he transformed into a female (with some high heels and a brunette long hair) and she wanted to gave an autograph to a child and then he said: Aww,Look at that girl,Isn't she the most adorable thing ever? and then he proceed to hug her mother and the child(the mother looked exactly like female version of henry,Like,Twins) [/COLOR]

Dream 2: [COLOR="#800080"]I was somewhere on a street(It was winter and the sky was gloomy) and then I got out of a car and saw a female staying there and crying.I asked her what's wrong and she told me that she can't go to Slovakia because when she goes there with the train she stays blocked in the middle because it's too much snow.I told her that I can come with her.She asked me what my mom will say,I told her that I will tell my mom that I'm in Slovakia after I get there.So we went in a train who looked like it was almost to fall(The train was red) and the sky was gloomy and there was snow everywhere. So we stayed in the train when she suddenly pushed me on a seat telling me to sit on that "CHILD SEAT" because then they won't push me out of the train.Then they didn't so she said: Yeyy!. We arrived in Slovakia and she was super happy and we gone into a bulding (at the top floor) the walls were bloody red too.I called my mom and told her I'm in Slovakia,she got pretty angry but then I made her feel more better and she told me not to stay much in there. [/COLOR]

Today i dreamt i was returning to school and i enter on a pc room
i see all my school mates on the PC playing, watching videos, etc...
I get near vitor and tell him. "Hey i started to watch fairy tail" <-- (that's true btw)
he tells me "cool man"



Technique used: Mild
Sleep time: 9 hours

Dream recall from today's nap.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing some video game and there was something about conflict between some races in space, then i was controlling a miniature version of superfortress from AI War and guarding some huge space structure, very quick enemies were spawning from a wormhole and periodically shooting i could move fort to dodge their projectiles and it autoattacked them with it's homing flame wave.

Dream 2(fragments):

I wake up in chair i feel the dream and i hear somebody coming from behind. DC starts doing some kind of relaxing massage and it's nice, then i ask DC something about transformation(still bad at recalling talk) but he ignores me. Shortly DC finishes and goes away through balcony door. I try to get up from the chair but gravity is almost non-existent and it's hard to move and dream fades out.
I wake up in old chair that almost falls over. Caught by surprise i balance it and completely forget to RC. I look around and position of things including some old couch is messed up. I think that i have done that while sliding on chair while sleeping. I move objects around quite easily, trying to remember, then looking around i get 'wait a second' feeling but before i get lucid i wake up.

I was sitting down in what looked like my English class and I had a lot of papers on my desk. There were people around who I recognized but were in other classes and not my original English class. A girl I recognized was coming round and collecting the papers, I told her I hadn't finished them yet, and quickly put my name on them and gave it back to her. She sat next to me and we started talking, I remember her saying that we had to wear our clothes inside out tomorrow and I never knew about this. We were asked to play rock, paper, scissors in pairs, so me and her played, we both did scissors and she said she won and she held my scissors(hand) while trying to prove her point. The teacher told us we had to go for assembly so off we all went, when I got there it wasn't no ordinary assembly. We walked into a cinema... the film was in black and white also. I don't remember watching it but I remember leaving and waiting outside for my friends. A teacher behind me asked me why I was waiting and I explained. I went after a few minutes cause they were taking too long. On my travels home I bumped into some old friends. I knew both of them from 7 years ago. Anyway we talked and one of these friends landed at his home so it was just me and this friend. We talked while I had no idea where we were going. We ended up in this pub, my friend was trying to buy some beer and I remember another friend being around but I don't know who it was. He put the money into this machine and a beer in a glass fell like one of those vending machines. We walked outside and this is where things get a little crazy.. There were these school staff that usually are around in the playground and were grabbing people and bringing them to some small little hut, they tried to take me but I wouldn't let them and dodged their attempt to grab. My friends went along because they said it might be important, I told them not to go and that it was a trap but they didn't listen. There were many of them trying to grab me but I kept dodging and blocking. I'm pretty sure the people that were taken to the hut would transform into school staff and try to grab other people. I tried to get away from here but I ran into the ~boss~ he sorta challenged me to a fight so I did it because I thought I might be able to save everyone. He kept trying to kick me and he fought like a girl, I sped into his chest and flipped him over into an head lock. He soon transformed into a little doll which I threw very far, I then decided that I would destroy the doll just in case. I walked back into my home and saw one of my friends, he said everything was okay now, defeating the boss must of destroyed all of the ~school staff~. I told him and he said that I pretty much saved the world, and that people that were captured were coming out of my shed alive and well. I saw a girl walk out and my friend told her about what I did and she agreed that I saved the world.

Friday 7/12/13

Last night bed 9pm -

DR1 - 11:55 pm - Something about a train ride.

DR2 - 11:55 pm - I'm in a facility. Squatting at an opening in a wall, poking aliens, so they don't climb inside. I go look for some weapons. Come into this very large room, full of shelves with rifles, ammo, shoulder fired granade launchers. I tell the guy "hey, we are fighting aliens, could you give me a nice rifle?". I ask for Kalashnikov. He doesn't have any. So i ask for M16, or any high powered, fast shooting one. He says he has ??? in a room 200 feet under ground. He want's me to go with him to get it. I'm like "have you not seen any aline invasion movies? YOu don't go underground. Maybe that's where they are coming from." But he insist and he leaves.

I envision a large cart or two, full of granades. How that would stop them from coming through that hole very nicely. I start opening cabinets, but don't see granades. There are bazookas, but I can't use them on short distance.

I get out of there to fight some more. When I come back, the place has been compromised. Someones mobil is ringing on the counter. I want to answer it, but I can't authenticate myself and it won't answer the call. Instead, it askes me if I want something? and I push the button "yes". What it does is it locks the cabinets. I found that out, when I try to look for granades again. But I can pry open the doors anyway.

Someone is coming. Some humans in very heavy green armor and face paint. I tell them that to give me some weapons, but they don't see me. I wave, jump, yell, ... nothing. Then I realize, another thing the phone did, is it made the owner - me, invisible. So I pick up a box of ammo and wave it in front of the guys eyes. He can see it. now I write on it and he can see that too.

I walk out again. Aliens are closer now. I fight with one of them, and he kills somebody. I konk him on the forehead and I see I made a dent and he goes down dead. I realize, that forehead is their vulnerable spot. I feel like we can win now.

(Just before bed, watched a few min of movie "Signs", with Mel Gibson. I didn't wanna watch the scary movie and changed the channel, but came back to it, thinking it may give me some intense dream. So it did.)

Dream 1(fragment):

I was in some park, near lake, the view was cool with some weird colors and there were some crows.

Dream 2:

I was in some medical facility and i had to be contained for some reason, on the way i was talking to somebody about someone being pregnant but not the right way and about that someone being close to death because of that. Then i was in very small rusty metallic room with no doors, which was apparently where i should be contained, i was discussing something with somebody and some yummy food was arriving down here by the pipe with speaker, which was 'talking' like Pyro from TF2. I wanted to ask him about something so i said something mimicking Pyro style of 'talking' and i apparently could understand it somehow.
Then i went to PC, which was here as well, and checked some games. There was one 2D platformer with graphically simple levels that looked VR-grid stylish with some glow, it was about very accurate jumping and avoiding spikes. I was also chatting with SilentEternity which was also playing, there were a few modes and level sets. I managed to almost finish one of harder and longer ones, but levels just got so ridiculously hard that i decided to pause that and do something else. It also had support for custom maps according to menu.
I went to some forum that had black background with green text and it was about some FPS game, it included nice window that allowed to start game and join servers right from the site. I randomly got invite into team, and it was for some official match, i was surprised but then just decided 'why not'. The leader of team explained strategy as game was starting and we got prepared to face enemy team. We were in the city and the game was 3vs3, everyone was hiding so it was pretty hard, also gravity was kinda low. I was running around searching, mostly following the plan, and once enemy was detected i was shooting my rifle. Then we ended up arguing since tactic didn't worked out so well.

Dream 3(fragment):

I was playing AI War and there was something about AI Homeworlds.

Dream 4:

I was browsing forum games section of some forum and there were some really hardcore games i decided to join, i ended up talking with creators of the games and discussing "hardcore armor penetration effect" of some weapons. Then in one of forum games one of players characters got killed, freeing up space, so i finally joined it as well from waitlist.

My recall has dropped to a new minimum, although I am consistent with my DJ. No dreams yesterday and last night gave only two small fragments from what I know were big dreams. At least I feel there is much more to them.

• Elite district: I'm in a housing complex. The houses are big and they have huge front yards with massive cars. It feels like some kind of elite district, where the educated and financially successful people live. I walk around and ask the people about their dreams. While they are generally polite, no one really seems amused or interested.
  
  There is a lot more, but all other details are foggy. Nevertheless, it shows me that thinking and talking about dreams is active in me, while I'm dreaming.
  
  
• Knife in dream-shoulder hurts: I'm in a small house with many small rooms. They are like small chambers, where the floor and the ceiling are made of wood. There are also wooden shelves. My mother is there at some point in the fragment.
  
  I'm with my brother. It feels like something bad has happened to either or both of us. I hurt him in the stomach and he slowly stabs a knife into my left shoulder. It hurts a lot, but I don't resist it, because I somehow feel like I deserve it. The whole thing makes me sad, I hug him, while he is lying injured (injured by me(?)) on the ground. I tell him that I love him and that I am really sorry.
  
  My brother was also in my DJ-entries from 2 and 4 nights ago. I have no clue what this means and where it comes from, but this one makes me think. This feels like a small fragment of a bigger dream (which perhaps spans several nights lol).

Thursday 7/11/13

Last night bed 1am - 8:45am

Last dream:

I'm on pebbly shore of a shallow lake. Water is clean, see-through. A house I live in is nearby. Someone throws something towards me and it lands in the lake. I see large and small pieces of plastic debree in the water. Walk in there to pull it out. Some of it is in little deeper, like knee high. I don't want to get completely wet, so I walk to the shed and look for a rake. I see all kinds of tools, and find a rake with long handle.

Later
I'm in some kind of control room. We have an earthquake. I put on my laptop to look for news, but screen is black and no internet, because of the quake. We put on the TV. Find some obscure channel in hopes for the news. Major stations are off-line. Then I hear them saying the quake was on San ?? fault line, where San Andreas is. But at the sametime, we see a map of England on the screen. I'm shocked, that the earthqake fas so close to me in SoCal, and that it was the dangerous San Andreas.

I start out at the bottom of the stairwell, with some pistol, and an m4. I exit the room and see this other player, who then, I instantly knew was an alien, but I didn't shoot and he shown me another weapon, an m4 with a silencer, so if need be, I could get sneaky. At the place I'm at, there's a reception desk, and two hallways, I enter the reception area and look for supplies, find nothing and the other player runs away. I exit the reception area and take the opposite hallway from him, and enter a random door. What I entered was a dusty, old, but stable hangar area that has a bunch of cargo and 5-10 humans around. I go up to them to join them, but all of a sudden there's aliens that can run quickly, and others that can run on the walls, and the team gets picked off one by one, until it's just me and two other aliens, a large disfigured one, and another one that leaves anyway. I shoot at the disfigured one with everything I have and drop my guns and go into an office space which has a broken down wall, the alien, I assume, is coming toward me to get me and I wait five seconds until a hear other people talking and run out to them, in which they pick the other aliens off and start walking to this central high-raised area.

In this area there's a place, which I think it could be a control tower, but it's locked off, and what seems to be a small machinery area which is only two stories and probably as big as a garage. I alone go inside this machinery area and go behind a door, and there one is, RIGHT next to be, but it's invisible and I smack it with a large pan that I've apparently been holding for a while a couple times and it's dead, as that happens I see a cloud of dust being quickly entered (which destroys the form so it looks like someone ran through it) and I go up to the roof, of the machinery building only to find a human being? This can't be right, it looked like someone was invisible running up, so I take my chances, and using the pan I jump as high as I can and hit the guy with all my force, he backs up, this is the alien/human that gave me that m4 with the silencer, and I continue to hit him with the pan, killing him, in which makes the humans of the game win.

Humans win and the dream ends, I wake up.

Dream title: On a doctor cleaning my ears

Today i dreamt that i was hearing so bad and i went to the doctor.
The doctor was a female, and it was my family doctor.
She asked me "So what brings you here today bruno?" <- (my real name)
i told her "I am hearing very bad recently, i might have my ear dirty" (What i did to dream with this? lol)
she says "Alright, let me see your ear" She is cutting half of my ear with a knife and i stay like this ""
i don't know why but it didn't hurt while she was cutting it. After that she shows my ear to me and tells me
"do you see how dirty your ear is?" me: "yes i do" She starts cleaning it up with a swab and i felt so comfortable
because i like the people who clean my ear (lol).


Technique used for this dream: Mild
Sleep time: 9/10 hours





Dream title: Going to a train station with an asian guy

Today i dreamt i was following some asian guy, he was going to the train station
After a while i just stopped seeing him he was on the left side of the road but he wasn't there this time.
so i decided to look back and he was there, i passed a bit through the train station. So i went back again
and going to him. so we climbed a ramp to go to the train station, we stopped there and he teached me how
to take a train ticket. *Scenario changes*
Now we are in a car with some guy and i am in back of the car with an ice box on my feet, i decided to take a look
inside and there was food, but suddenly a human hand comes up and starts to moving, i stay like "WTF?" i get the arm and
throw it through my window, it hitted the car that was following us, i took all the food from there and on the deep there was a zombie head.
i was really scared.


Technique used: Mild
Sleep time: 9/10 hours