non-lucid

I was at my friend Richard's house, however I was here for my other friends Katherine and Sarah's party. I had been drinking a lot - I brought a large bottle of vodka which remained lieing on the carpet, empty. It was about 3am and the party was still going on. Obviously, it was pitch black outside. The people I were with were my usual friend group: Katherine, Sarah, Tom.R, Will.N, Hannah.L, Chloe. R, Charlotte. C, Charlie. G Ashley.H, Josie. B and some others. Many people were wanting to do weed and get high. Charlie started encouraging people. I had a chat with Katherine, who had her hair down instead of tied up. She told me that she kept telling herself not to have weed again after 2 years ago, but she gave in and was going to try it. They were all smoking it outside. I went outside with them to remain as one of the 'partiers', however I refused to try the drug. Whilst I was outside, I began to get very paranoid of the Police. Most people had left outside, and I was stood outside with one other person. The police kept driving down the road, and I was convinced one of them would stop and investigate us. However, none did. Eventually, I went back indoors, and I remembered that I was still drunk and I just chilled out again. I walked into the living room, making a strange screamy whiney sound, making Will, Tom and some others laugh. I then stood around a chair and asked people what I should be doing. Some suggested I should start playing the guitar, as last time when doing that I sang a lot. I ended up doing this, picking up and jamming. However, instead of singing and playing, I simply picking it up and started to play Drop D tuned bottleneck blues. No one payed much attention. Katherine soon showed me an iPod Touch, or something similar to that, and navigated to a webste where you could buy sweets there and then, much like the Drug Shop on my past dream journal. She had ordered a LOT of drumsticks (the lolly pops), and asked if I wanted to order one for myself. I did, despite having the knowledge that I bought her drumsticks for her birthday.

Suddenly, in the same dream, I was outside my friend Chris. W's driveway, and I was Napoleon Dynamite. I was stood next to either Uncle Rico or Kip, but I can't remember who. We were doing some form of freelance job, like they searched for on the movie. This suddenly cut out, and I was myself again, walking down my road with a friend, who I cannot remember. I think it might have been Richard. It was pitch black still, and reasonably cold. The road were lit up by regular orange street lamps. We continued to walk until, when walking past the old sweet shop and approaching Latham. C's road, we saw a strange figure about 2 minutes walk away. We were nervous to approach him, but at the same time were mocking him quietly, pretending we weren't scared. When we finally approached him, we jumped on him, and suddenly realized it was our friend Jamie. Br. We told him how scared we had been, and he told us that there was no need to be scared, and he wasn't a paedophile. He continued to walk further on, and so did we.

I was at my old school, just sitting in a classroom with KA. KA was wearing her white jacket. Apparently she had been smoking. Mr. B. came into the room and smelled it off of her. We were scared that he would rat her out, but he just told her quietly to make sure she got rid of the smell.

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I was at RU Rd. and BL. St. I was just walking and this creepy guy started following me. Don't remember much else.

My Notes
Non-lucid
Lucid
Awake

I'm writing this a day late (sorry), so I don't really remember what happened with my alarm.

I'm in a room (or possibly outdoors at night) with all the other students from my school. We're each at individual desks. All the desks are transparent and have a blue glow to them. There is a short middle-aged teacher in the centre. She is telling us how things have changed since last year, and lucid dreaming is now okay. She encourages us to get into it. She tells us how to become lucid. To become lucid we had to take out our rulers from our pencil cases, and tap the pencil case over and over. I do this. I notice some people around me already have given up.
I can't believe this didn't make me lucid.

In the second dream, I'm at an orphan's house. Stephen Merchant is with me. I remember the orphan as a 7-10 year old African kid. I look into the cupboard and find depressingly bad toys -old second-hand board games.

In the third dream, I was at some big oval. There were buildings and people everywhere. I was at a vending machine.There was a kid, from my after school care program (many years ago), named Mitch there. I think he stole something. I buy something from the machine, but then I also steal something. I think that nobody's going to ever find out. The machine doesn't even have a glass screen on it

I am camping with my boyfriend and some friends from my rehab center. For some reason I just know that we are with a camping group that was organized by Camp Trillium (a sick kids camp that I attended growing up). My friends from rehab start lighting up their cigarettes. I point out the irony of smoking cigarettes at cancer camp (my nickname for Camp Trillium).

People decide to go for a swim. The setting of our camp site is at the top of a ridge overlooking a beautiful river. They have to go down a few sets of ladder to get down to different levels of the steep ridge to the water. At this point in the dream I decide to take a nap outside me and my bf’s tent. I feel like I’m half asleep and I get very anxious like I am anticipating that something bad will happen. I feel like I need to pack up so I take down the tent.

Next thing I know there is a tsunami. There are several large waves hitting the cliff side and the water level is getting higher and closer to us. My bf says we have to go. I try to finish packing the tent because I think we will need it for some reason. I look around and everyone else has already fled and I fear that they may have driven off without us.

I think I woke up briefly and fell back asleep into the same dream.

Now I am swimming in the river. I see large waves coming as the tsunami starts. I try to ride the waves and continue to try and swim towards the middle of the river. I am afraid that if I get pushed to the side I will get stuck between the waves and the cliff and I will drown. I keep kicking my feet and I now am holding on to a floating board (like I used to do in swimming lessons).

I think I woke up briefly and fell back asleep into the same dream.

Now I am back at the beginning of the dream. I find out that the ‘Betty’ that I met in rehab is the same ‘Betty’ that my bf bonded with while he was in a mental health rehabilitation program at a local hospital. She is not how I would have expected her to be. I can’t help but fell a little bit of jealousy because I know that he had a crush on her while he was in the program (before we met) and also because I know they share a special bond from having gone through this program together.

I accidentally grab my bf’s camera instead of my own. I want to take a picture of a bunch of colorful caterpillars so I take the camera anyways so that I don’t miss the shot. A beautiful yellow butterfly flies by and I photograph it. I also take a picture of a white butterfly on a picnic table and of a gorgeous orange flower. Now I decide to go for a swim. I let myself fall backwards into the water. The water level is now much higher than it was originally. There is no longer a cliff; our camping ground is right on the water. I realize that I have my bf’s camera in my pocket. I freak out and get out of the water. I run to our yellow tent and start taking apart the camera and drying all the pieces. The camera now looks like his blackberry phone. It seems to still work. I keep drying the phone and I think I gained a very small moment of lucidity when I realize that the camera is now a phone.

I wake up.

Although it was just a very short moment of lucidity I am quite happy. It has been a long time since I have achieved any lucidity at all. I think it’s a start

I've come up with a new reality check for myself. Since I often crack my knuckles out of habit, whenever I do it now I count the number of knuckles I crack and do a reality check.

I had a conversation with a girl about doing mushrooms before going to bed last night.

This reflected very much in my dreams when my group of friends who are usually straightedge (myself, not so much), came up with a whole bunch of shrooms and wanted to do them with me. I should have recognized this as a dream sign. Having never tried a psychedelic, I had no idea what it would be like. However I remember everything turning fuzzy and things changing in very slight ways. I remember focusing on a shoe and seeing it open up as if it was talking to me. I try to finish my studying (i had been studying a lot that night) but fail to get anything done.

I have a false awakening and my friend begins to talk to me about increasing the increments of shrooms that we take. I find this funny because he's never even drank a beer before this point.

Later on I have another dream about running around a school building trying to find a bathroom. I find this very challenging because all the bathrooms are completely disgusting. I think I've found a good toilet and then I realize there's blood all over the seat. I look at the one across from it, it has a little green stuff on it, but I wipe it off and use it. I remember parts of this building from other dreams I believe. I wake up.

Today when I took a nap, I had a few dreams, one of which I remember:

I was back at my high school in the science building walking with a current friend from college. When I looked down the stairs I saw my whole college lacrosse team sitting at these lunchroom-looking tables studying. My coach was there too, and every 5 minutes he would send a group of us to go outside and run. When it was my turn, I followed the group and found myself trying to complete this obstacle course from hell.. I had to run through this monster truck track, walk on the tip top of a white picket fence, and swim laps in a pool that seemed to just appear from nowhere. The dream ended with me exhausted and confused as to why my coach would make me and my teammates do such an awful thing...at my high school of all place. He is a little evil in real life anyways, so I guess it made sense.

I was DJing in a club, playing Minimal Techno music with my friend and fellow DJ Bryn. It was pitch black, and there were lasers everywhere. The angle that I was looking at was very odd - it was as if someone had dropped a camera next to my equipment, and it happened to be in view of my hands twisting the knobs. I was 'Producing' the music whilst Bryn was 'Sending' the music. Apparently, this meant Bryn was creating the beats and synths, whilst I was adding effects, and what not.

I was playing the first Super Mario Galaxy game on the Nintendo Wii. I was playing it with a girl, however I have no idea who she was. I think she was a stranger. We were on a very simple, basic spherical planet, and she was showing me an 'easter egg' secret to the game. She did something which resulted in a purple ring being created around Mario, which allowed the player to play all other levels in a different mode. Much like my Minecraft dream, my dream was the monitor, therefore I didn't see myself actually playing the game.

Accidentally peed myself though not through being desperate to go to the toilet. In shame I went arround a town which was made up of chalet like woodrn huts lookind for a public loo and shower I could use. Came accross a young woman leaning occross her fence, she said shr'd just moved in, then braught out a very old and dusty bottle of Whiskey to share as a house warming. Had a glass each, then she burried the half full bottle in the sand. Made my way to another chalet/house, in the kitchen Diner, my parents were sat at the table with two other people, it was a very tight squeeze to move my way behing them to the hallway which was equally small, as I was passing them, I was aware of them saying that this had been my house and critisising me for choosing something so small.

12.02.2011

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

A friend of my youngest brother had come to my home and he had magic the gathering cards. He had a lot of them but they were joke cards, like from unhinged. I started playing against it and realised that he had a deck with normal cards mixed with joke cards. I got some red Chuck Norris related card and told him I won the game but he didn't believe me so I started googling for Chuck Norris cards but couldn't find it.

Then I think I bought some cards and hid them.

The dream skipped and I was out with some friends and I ate a sandwich at a restaurant. I saw some magic cards on a vending machine. Behind the newer ones were one from another set and I somehow stole some. I then gave some back but not all of them.

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So I was at a large concert like gathering with my now girlfriend and another girl whom my brain perceived as her ex though I've never actually seen her before. I guess just how my mind imagined her to be. There was a group of people on stage and while they weren't singing they were talking to the crowd and getting us all excited. They were asking people random questions and just doing random things to engage everybody and often times they would single out audience members for one reason or another. I didn't think much of it at the time, but my girlfriend and her ex were sitting rather close to each other while I was at least three people away from both of them (significance maybe?), yet I didn't feel immediately jealous or left out in anyway.

Normally I'm a very shy person in large crowds and I mostly tried to keep to myself only interacting with the rest of the crowd when the performers singled me out for something. Yet as the night went on I became more and more open until I was shouting things out of turn. At one point they threw a large deflated thing that looked like a mini hot air balloon into the crowd. They tossed me something to blow it up with and rather then feeling anxious and nervous at being on the spot I was actually excited. I started to blow it up, but the thing slipped away from me and went zooming into the crowd. Rather then being embarrassed I made a witty remark about it and got the entire crowd laughing. I remember being so proud that I was breaking out of my shell and I turned to look at my girlfriend who was busy talking to her ex and the two of them were laughing. She had missed the entire thing and was completely ignoring me. This was the first point in the dream that I started to feel jealous. I closed the gap and tried to talk to her, but her and her ex just ignored me like I wasn't even there and continued their own conversation as they watched the group perform. I woke up feeling angry that she had completely ignored all the wonderful social progress I had made in favor of goofing around with her ex.

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I was walking around then I ran into this Asian dude decked out in an all blue track suit with crazy red hair, listening to green day on some large headphones, I believe I mentioned how the only green day I dig is their older stuff.

Feb5- Played an intense scary game with alex pisano running through , a scary building that seemed run down and affected by the environment
FA: killed a spider above my bed by clapping in slow motion.

I was at Josh M's or Quinzios house, either way it wasnt exciting. It was really messy outside of his house like a grill being on a slant on a tree, I don't remember much else other than about to be entering the one level home in the marshy like environment.

Expendables characters shooting and moving all crazy like, then someone had a plan that tipped over all the sailboats within a mile of this one port, then the water drained from the large body of water. Me and my brother brett were with some special ed kids protecting them from any dangers. One special ed kid that had bowl haircut in the summer heights high uniform, decided he was no longer going to take shit from these navy d-bags, he ended up headbutting one of the guys into the ground and all you could see was his hair(will was in this dream along with some gay guys).
At home my brother recycled alcohol from our house to go somewhere with my mom, then I picked up one of the bottles, it said apple zinfadel and it was a wine bottle. The label was also a holograph and had green apples on it.

Tia's sister was in my advance biology class for some reason on the opposite wall of the door, i was leaning on the counter on that area sort of looking at the sink, tia's sister asked her to ask me if I was single and if I would give her my number, but she did it by writing it on a brown papertowel.

phase 2:At a Motel with my good friends scott, jordan and pat. We were in the back of the building. There was a hot tub, another building for workers, and an electrical area encased within fence, there was also a field. I started off in the hot tub, and chilled in it for a bit. The Hot tub was wooden, and circular in shape. Pat was mocking scott at times; they were playing frisbee with a strange frisbee that had the circular shape and a hole in the middle, then another grapple. Jordan stood next to scott. I then took a path that went under the workers building pat was ontop of, then I took a right and went down a gravel path, the electrical area was to my right and then there was a field to my left, straight ahead was a bend that went right in the gravel like path. Jordan and scott ran over to me and told me how scott tossed the frisbee into the electrical area on accident. Then they asked me to go and get it, I said no, why won't jordan do it? He responded because he wouldn't want to risk it over a frisbee. We started walking further down the path and there was an opening in the tall field like grass, there was a large stone on the ground then I looked further and up a little; there were 5 girls in panties and short sleeve t-shirts putting their asses out a friend taking a picture of them. I then told scott and jordan, I'd rather see my chances at getting with one of them instead of getting f-ed up by an electrical field. as we walked around the bend one of them shouted "BRIAN!" I got confused and looked back because no one is named brian, then I woke up.