non-lucid

There is some PlayStation game that I am playing and I am remembering watching my
brother play it. I forget what game it is. I get to a point where I had stopped watching him
and I go through this entire part until I get to the part where I came back in and continued.
I'm not sure if this memory is real or if it is a footprint.
I am at a circular bazaar type place and there are men in black suits looking for me. I go
around the bazaar and see this lady selling some music stuff. I ask her if she has a Clarinet
or Alto Saxophone mouthpiece. It had a name, something not real, which I forget. I then talk
to another lady and she gives me a valuable piece of information which I forget. I go around
the circular bazaar and up some steps off the side up to a fountain. There is a naked woman
there who walks toward me. I hug her and find myself naked as well and start... you know.
The dream snaps to my room at home. The woman is still there. Then she disappears and I
am fully clothed and forget about her. A bunch of other people are in my room with me, my
brother and some girl I do not know. We are planning something to do with the information
that lady had given me. I get a phone call from my crush and she tells me to meet her. The
dream snaps to a road in the woods with some gravel offshoots to what looks like a park or
something. I see my crush and she tells me that the lady who gave me the information was
taken by the men who were looking for me. The dream ends.

One of my strangest ever
I was kind of hesitant to write the explicit part in my dream journal...

I am in a convenience store looking around and I see all the isles, I see chips and candy.
I get to the refrigerated isle and I see milk and ice cream, etc... I am still cautiously keeping
an eye out for the people who were chasing me in the last dream. I can hear a radio playing
on the store's speakers in the background. It is an interview. I go up to the corner of the store
and there is a bar there. My dad is standing there along with one of my instructors from
marching band. The instructor has some sort of blue gel that he is rubbing on these sores he
has. As he rubs in the gel it turns a white soapy color, kind of like vicks vapor rub. He complains
about the sores getting worse. I hear a song on the radio and say thats ( I don't remember )
by From Autumn to Ashes. There is more talking on the radio then I hear Long To Go by the
same group. I say "Thats Long To Go by From Autumn To Ashes". I then realize that the radio
is playing a documentary on the group which is pretty interesting. The dream ends.

Interesting backstory or this dream. Every night, I get my shower, dress in my clothes for
the next day and go to bed in those clothes. From Autumn To Ashes ( FATA ) is one of my favorite
bands and I have a t-shirt of them. It is that t-shirt that I decided to wear for the next day.

This dream scared me a little.
I am in the entryway to a building. The entryway looks quite similar to that of the music
building at my university but the rest of it is like some convenience store. I am holding one
of those Nesquick chocolate milk mix containers and it is filled with homemade nitroglycerin.
I think that came from watching Fight Club two nights ago...
Anyway, I set the container down on a bench-like part of the wall that juts out near the floor.
There are some subtle electronics on the top of the lid. I leave, lapse in memory, and come back.
I notice the container is gone. I make another one and think "It should have clued me in when the
building was still here". Suddenly I see a couple people and I hide. I try to avoid them while setting
the other container. I get ready to leave and they spot me. They start chasing me and I run. The
dream snaps to my best friend's driveway. The people are still there but further off. My best friends
sister comes up from behind and says we need to get out of here. She pulls up an ATV and we ride
away on a trail. The dream ends.

I am in some sort of store that sells video games. I look at a shelf and there are
all the major systems. I look through these for a while and run into my friend Kyle.
I say hi and suddenly a bunch of other kids our age start throwing rubber balls at us
and we start playing dodgeball. After a short game, the dream snaps to my yard by
our shed. Kyle is still with me and my Dad is there as well. I look up into the woods
and see an Antman from Dungeon Master Java.

I look down on the ground and see its spiked club. I pick it up and throw it at the
monster. The dream ends before it hits.

On two separate occasions in my dream tonight she kissed me. I can vividly remember her face and her pretty blonde hair during the whole time, which is unsual for my dreams. Not going into names on the off chance that somebody I know reads this. It was a thoroughly enjoyable dream. At one point during the second part I actually realized I was dreaming for just a moment, because I realized it was too good to be true. Some reality check. I was actually upset to go lucid and let myself fall back into normal dreaming. The first time it happened we had been playing some game and the place we were in turned into a locker block where it was just her and I. We flirted for a bit and it finally happened.

Second was in the elevator after we had gone to the gym with a group of people. I remember the walk back but that pales in comparison to the way she was all over me in the elevator, crazy about me. I remember not being able to get my lips wet enough for a good kiss though. This is because my mouth often dries out while I'm sleeping. This may have been the sign that made me realize I was dreaming.

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Ugh I have the most horrible time remembering dreams when they're not full blown nightmares. Need to work on that, especially considering my last one was rather pleasant up until the the end. Oh well I'll write down everything I can recall, which isn't much.

I know that I was in a strange house with a group of people that I knew in the dream, but have no memory of ever meeting in the waking world. I was in an attic that was nothing more then the wooden skeleton of the house. No carpet, or color on the walls. There were boxes packed with stuff shoved off to the side and it was really bright. Much brighter then an attack should have been though i don't remember seeing any lights. It was almost like it was natural sunlight though there were no windows.

I was running. I think it was some sort of race that I was determined to win. So determined that when my cat Dahlia stepped out in front of me I didn't bother to stop. I simply jumped to try and jump over her, but I failed and ended up stomping on her. At first I didn't feel bad about it until I stopped to pick her up and look her over. She was badly hurt with scratches on her chin and face, but the worst of it was her front leg. The skin and muscle had been completely torn away leaving bloody exposed bone. The skin was just dangling from her with her entire paw hanging off of it. She wasn't acting like she was in any pain, but just had this really angry pissed off look, though deep down I knew that she was dying. I was so upset that I actually ended up waking up from it.

I then proceeded to hunt down my cat and snuggle with her under the covers for the rest of the night, much to her annoyance.

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2-10-11: I got inside of a Warthog from Halo and I was supposed to be on a rescue mission. I put a very miniature bookshelf in the back seat. I had to find artifacts of power before I could rescue the person. I sighed and started the vehicle and drove down the muddy path. I looked at the sky and it was very dark and cloudy. Something appeared and I started shooting at it. It was a very strange looking bird. It looked like a Moa, but with a larger beak. More appeared and I kept shooting and kept driving and looked to the right. I seemed to be on top of a mountain, there was a valley below, and all of the leaves on the trees had very dark green leaves. There soon was a hill and upon going down it more of the moa came and I kept shooting them and running them over. I saw the person I was supposed to rescue then all of a sudden it reset and I was back at the beginning of the mission. I looked at my map and there were little red dots of where the artifacts were at. I drove down the same path. This time there were no moa and soon I drove up to a house and got out. I walked through the door and down to the basement to look for the artifact, and I found it. It was an opal heart with a pearl in the center. I picked it up and put it in the miniature bookshelf and started walking back up the stairs then I heard a noise. I went back and checked the corner. A plastic container lid came off of the container and I studied it for a moment and put it back on and started walking back up the steps again and I heard the same noise. I checked it out again and the same thing happened. Then for some reason I came to the conclusion that the house was haunted and I ran up the stairs, forgetting the mini bookshelf and when I got to the door it felt like something pushed me and panicking I ran outside and shut the door. I looked back and saw the door starting to open and I began to use some energy to make the door close then I realized I was dreaming. I yelled that I was dreaming and suddenly remembered to use all five senses to make the dream more vivid and better lucidity. I looked around then smelled the air. I smelled nothing and then I made it smell like a pine forest. I heard a couple walking by and I ran over to them and poked them and for taste I bit one of the people’s arms. Then I ran off and thought of my lucid goals, which one of them was to have shared dreaming. So I saw a wall and said “An image will appear and I will be in D’s dream.” I ran towards the wall as an image appeared and ran through. All I saw was blackness and all of a sudden I stood up and my vision cleared. I was standing in a dark department store and people from my school were looking for things and I somehow pinpointed his position and kept walking. I came to a small hallway and he was on his computer and I yelled to him. “Hey, D!” He looked around confused and got up and started walking, looking around.
“Who is that!?” He asked unsure.
“It’s T! What’s wrong?”
He looked around. “I can’t see you.”
I placed my hand on the wall and forced energy through me to make me visible. He looked at my surprised. Suddenly my vision started failing. “Oh crap! Hey, I’m waking up! I gotta go, see ya!” Then for some reason I had a false awakening then woke up right after that.

Dream - Lucid

I know I had more dreams than this last night, but this is all I can recall.

I was with my mom and brother in the car. We were going to eat at Subway. We drove up to the Subway, and it looked closed. There was a note on the door, saying they were moving locations or something. We went in anyway. There were still people working there, and they took my mom's and brother's orders. When my turn came, the girl behind the counter was going very slow, taking her precious time. We were talking as I told her what I wanted on my sandwich. When I told her I wanted a few jalepenos, she said something along the lines of

"You've gotta watch out for those jalepenos!", and then something about the owner of the restaurant.

More people started to come into the Subway now. In fact, a lot of people were in there, waiting in line. The girl that was making my sandwich was holding up the line. By the time she finished and gave it to me, my brother and mom were almost done eating. I walked over to them and said "Finally..."

Then, the Subway had two sandwich bars and two registers. They had opened up the "other one" because it had gotten so busy.

Then, I started to see these cloud dragons, with heads like Chinese dragons, but clouds as bodies. Their cloud bodies were just a long trail of clouds, trailing behind them. They had no limbs. They were floating through the air of the restaurant.

Then, I was in a cloud world, full of beautiful colors like a sunrise. The cloud dragons were everywhere. I was walking along some path in the sky, when I came across this tiny monkey-looking creature that was about the size of a guinea pig. I held out my hand, and it climbed on, scratching me a little with his nails, but it wasn't that painful, just uncomfortable. He started to talk to me, though I can't remember what he was saying. As I walked along, I encountered more of these, and talked to each one. Then, I saw a mini stegasaurus-looking creature, about the size of the monkeys. I called to him. He looked very sleepy, but slowly made it onto my hand. He didn't have nails, so he didn't scratch me up like the monkeys. He talked to me as well, though I can't remember what he said.

---Non-dream---Dream---Lucid---

The dream apparently started in my backyard. Three or four people were standing next to the tree there, and most of them were holding a gun. I approached them, and fortunately they didn't shoot at me. Suddenly one of them fell over, and I picked up his pistol and loaded it. As soon as he got up, I pointed the gun at his head and shot him. He fell to the ground. The other people began walking toward me in a threatening manner. I loaded the pistol and shot two of them, leaving only one to go. It was a girl with what looked more like a Nerf gun that a real one. She just casually walked past me toward a swing set in the yard. I pointed my gun at her, but the trigger did nothing. She grinned evilly at me, and put my ammo (I had no idea how she'd gotten it) into her gun. Suddenly I became lucid and stood up to her. She began shooting these rectangles at me, but they did nothing, even when they hit me dead-on. I loudly declared, "I'm lucid! No matter what you try, you can't harm me!" My opponent disappeared a moment later.

The lucid dream continued from here, but I don't want to post the whole thing. There are some things in my dreams that I just don't want people to know about. However, I will say that during this lucid dream, I completed the Basic ToTM for February; a record of that is posted in the corresponding thread.

I am walking up the stairs form my parent’s basement. I pass by my mother and some of her girl friends. Her friend, that knows I’ve been to rehab, stops to give me a big hug. When she pulls away she looks at me judgmentally and says in french “so you didn’t go after all?” I am surprised with her comment because I just came back from my program. I respond “I did go, I just got back.” She says “no you didn’t. You smell like you’ve been using.” I get very upset and start to yell in english now. I say “Who the hell do you think you are? You have no f-ing right to come in here and accuse me.” I go on but I can’t recall what I say.

I wake up.

I would never speak like that to my family or their friends. I have not used in two months. I think this dream was brought on by fear. I had a fear of relapse coming out of rehab even though I did not want to use anymore and didn’t feel any physical compulsion to it anymore.

Dream Lucid Me DC

Dream 1
I´m sitting on top of an very, very tall tower located in the middle of jungle. The roof is really narrow and if I move even a little bit, I will probably fall to my death. I was left there to throw something at someone to slow them down, but I was told there´s only one person who has actually managed to do this. There´s a door under me, but it´s, well, under me and somehow thinking about the 200 metre vertical fall which will occur if I move a single inch just doesn´t make me want to try to open it. (And that, kids, is called irony.) I´m really scared. (For obvious reasons.) Then I start to became more optimistic. (Hey, at least it´s not raining...) They didn´t left me here to die. They´re probably coming back to get me at some point. Right? Then I start to think about how did I get here. Can´t remember coming out of bed, brushing my teeth and getting thrown on some random tower in the middle of nowhere. This must be a dream. The dream starts to fade away. Damn.

Dream 2
I either had an FA or then the dream just changed. I do the nose check and it works. I´m in my house. My mom is doing something on the kitchen table and my sister is playing with the computer. Nothing unusual. I talk with them for a while. Later there´s some woman I don´t know, saying she should probably leave. I look outside. It´s so dark, someone must´ve painted our windows black. I think of going out and start to find a weapon to hit things with. Can´t find or summon one. Plus the dream starts to fade again. I wake up.

I remembered two dreams last night.

1. I went shopping with my family at a grocery store called Superstore. Only in my dream it had more than one floor. We went up to the next floor and it was a clothes store. I tried on a lot of dresses.

2. In the second dream, I lost two more of my baby teeth. I thought that was strange since I have only lost 9 baby teeth and I'm 18 years old.

Good morning, everybody.

Dream #1

I was in a forest, possibly a snowy forest. There was an animal like a wolf that would eat humans. I may have seen it.

I was then at the house or apartment of an old friend of mine. My friend had me go into some bedroom. The bedroom was dark. There were clothes all over the floor. A mattress lay in the middle of the room. The mattress was also covered with clothes.

My friend kept insisting that I try on some of the women's clothes he had. But I felt like he was just trying to put me into a position where he could do something bad to me. I also felt like he wanted to do something bad to my family as well.

I was then watching some show on a stage. The show had an old variety-show feel, but it was somehow related to an anime. There were some really hot girls dancing around on stage. They were dressed in jeans and tight shirts, just casual clothes, but they had something to do with the anime, too.

At some point I came to understand that the plot line had something to do with lesbianism. This really turned me on. The show was now controllable, as if I were watching it on YouTube. I did all kinds of frantic forwarding and rewinding, trying to get to the point where this assumed hot lesbian scene had occurred.

But suddenly, the screen went blank. I realized I had been watching this on my computer the whole time. My computer's screen was black, with only a cursor blinking in the upper left corner. I started to smell a plasticky, burning smell. I could tell it was coming from my computer's disk drive.

I knew I had burnt out my computer. I was pretty sure I couldn't get a new one for a while. I wondered what the heck I was going to do.

~ In a house that looks like Dean's house in West A, a middle aged couple have 10 children, 5 girls 5 boys, on the landing I look into one bedroom, bunk beds line the walls in a blue room, there are kids wandering about looking at me like I am out of place, I walk into the kitchen, smells like breakfast, the parents are trying to get all 12 meals made, I then go into the bathroom and sit on the edge of the bathtub just to think, I see 2 women sitting in front of me, one with a camera, I look down and I am naked I cover my breasts, it seems tv showy, woman with camera (long blondy brown curly hair wearing glasses) asks 'would you strip off naked and have sex on camera?' I think about my body and how self conscious I am then think f**k it and say yes and walk across the room naked.

~ Kind of in West A, I get on a bus, Rebecca D is on it and Coralena H (not seen them or 6 years or spoke, were never close) the buss is full of girls who I am not sure like me, I sit near the back, feeling awkward, I walk to the front of the distorted bus, but on my way a blue peacock starts attacking and biting me, I'm shocked at the assault but not that there is one on the bus, it's a male peacock and it's feathers are blue and shimmery green, it is amazing to look at inbetween trying to subdue the big bird. I press the stop button on the bus and bird disappears I look out the window and there is a beautiful deep blue sky nearly night time, I see a waterfall but on top of the waterfall next to a bush I see a dead womans body, bloody (I blame watching seasons of Medium for this) I realise this is what the bird wanted to show me.. the bus driver calls the police, they are swarming the bus taking details from the other girls, and they are proud of me for spotting it.

~ In a weird dark room and a PC is on, there is a white cupboard under the computer near the right side, I go in trying to find some goodies, I see a white tub with SD10-K written on, inside are medium sized white pellets perhaps 300 of them, I put one in my mouth crunch it slightly then realise it could be anything, I go on computer onto google and lysergic acid pops up, I think wow this is awesome, I then have 2 more tablets and the dream ends.

~ (again I blame Medium tv show for this one) A woman befriends people drugs them and then offers to take them home to safety conving them they've had too much to drink, she then kills and robs them, I find out she is going to target me and take my dads store of gold. I pretend to react from what she gives me in the club, and then act drugged leaning on her the way home, in house I collapse between two big red chairs, though open my eyes slightly to watch her, when she turns her back I jump on her but she is strong, I run out of the house into the back garden screaming trying to wake up the neighbours, she tackles me so I put my fingers in her eyes to cause damage, she then does it to me hurts me, I hear my dad shouting she gets off me quickly and tells him she brought me home concerned and that I attacked her, she is playing innocent, he believes her and offers her the spare room, I am outraged and argue with him.

~ I'm then in Mr Rossi's art class in my old sec school, and pick up someones art sheet, it shows different peoples eyes drawn and coloured in paint, on each eye there are 3 outer rings of colour, they aren't really neat as I look closer, each colour had a cool name, ingredient of ones eye colour, think one was called calladium? weird wonderful names for each colour.

~ I'm out shopping in a mall with my parents, I see Martyn H (ex bf) he looks slightly different but smiley, my mam speaks to him, I pretend I haven't seen him, with it being awkward I then think fk it and we give each other a huge cuddle our groins touching, it's nice, he then whispers to me 'remember when we had sex in the chair watching that dvd?' I then see the scene he is on about and smile (though in reality that never happened).

Dream Type- Normal

This dream took place in a sort of hybrid location- what appeared to the hinterlands surrounding my home town but containing architecture similar to what you would find in the poorer districts of Rio De Janeiro. I wandered the streets of this location for awhile before spotting a gift shop. Somehow I managed to shoot the owner of the store when he came out to tell me that I couldn't come in. I instantly felt terrible about murdering the man from a mixture of fear of being caught and also the fact that I had committed murder. And some point in the dream I did feel like turning myself in (this guilty feeling followed me throughout the dream from this point). I entered the gift shop and began to look around at it. I remember vividly that it contained multiple shelves holding t shirts. Each wall bar one had a window, at several points I would run to the window and look out, perhaps fearful of approaching police. I began to obsess over a particular pile of t shirts on one of the shelves. The shirts were all pertaining to my home state of Tasmania. None of them grabbed my interest. By this point a large crowd had gathered over the body of the owner, but once I approached them I realized all they wanted was to come in and shop. I allowed a few people in, three girls I believe. One of them had a tape player. She sat in the corner and started to play it some Ryan Adams. I instantly recognized the song and pointed this out to her. We discussed the good points of Ryan Adams music for awhile. I even made a quip about how people confused him for the horrifyingly more incompetent Bryan Adams. At this point I decided to exit the shop, past the growing crowd of people.

I made my way through the slum like areas of the town with the intention of finding a bus and making my way home. Still the guilt of my murder followed me. I progressed upwards through the streets, eventually making my way up to a mountainous pass. I realized at this point that I had gone the wrong way. When I looked out I could see city of the gold coast in the distance, with its distinctive skyline. I turned around and began to run back through the slum areas. At this point I awoke.

Interesting points: The immense feeling of guilt is something that I can still recall now as I write this. Makes me kind of pleased to know I don't enjoy murdering folk. However there was a slight foggy notion of everything being okay as I was in the dream- like somehow I was slowly becoming aware that I hadn't actually commited a murder. At some points I even remember thinking 'It will be alright, you wont get caught, I am certain'. I now believe that this sort of immune feeling to what I had done was a semi-attempt at my brain realizing the falseness of my scenario. I have notice that recently I have become more logical in my dreams, even when not lucid.