non-lucid

Dream 1:[COLOR="#800080"]I remember me being in my high school yard.There is a little stall with food.I wanted to go and buy something.First I wanted to buy a sandwich ,he said he don't have it.I wanted to buy more things but I don't really remember what,Though,I remember there were 2 girls near me and when I asked the seller about a pretzel,the girl near me said : I bought the last ,then she started laughing.Me , being very angry,I asked them to buy first in the time I think about what to buy.Then the seller showed me a bag of chips(Lays with salt) and I bought it.He said it was 2,5 lei(in romanian currency) and I gave him 1 leu then I wanted to give him 2 more lei but I gave him 3 lei then I asked him to give me the rest of the money, he laughed and he said he doesn't need to give me the rest.Angry,I was about to go in the high school when my friend comes to me and tells me that everyone is looking for me.I kept asking a lot of questions but I don't really remember them.So I wanted to go to the top floor where my class is,But on the stairs there were a lot of boys training for some kind of competition(they were doing push-ups,a lot of training) I remember climbing the stairs when some guy was blocking my way and my friend grabbed him by his leg and he throwed him away and I said: Leave that kid alone,Dafuq are you doing? Then we kept climbing stairs when I see 2 boys from my high school training and looking at me at the same time(staring) I smiled for a bit,then got to the top floor.When I got to the top floor,a lot of people took pictures of me and I remember trying to hide so they don't take pictures of me and my friend said:Stop taking pictures of her! then I fell on the floor with my hands on my face (I think my hair color was brunette) then I eventually stand up from there and gone to my class room.There were a lot of people studying,and then I thought that some teacher came and put them to work.Then a girl with red hair appeared (Anastasyia Shpagina) and we really got along (we were painting) then I remember doing her hair(she was blonde now) and I for some reason I said: Woah! I'll let my hair grow so we can do anime's hairstyles! Then we gone to the bathroom and I told her I watched her videos on the internet and that she was awesome(While both of us looked in the mirror) and then she smiled.Then we gone back to the class and there was my class teacher (she was amazed for some reason) Then I saw my death classmate standing there with a bag and she kept smiling (she didn't had that many birth marks on her face,as she had) While I was going in the back of the class to look at her I kept doing a lot of RCs(I think 2 LOL) but they didn't worked so I gone to her and got on my knees(Again) and I was amazed And I kept asking her how she is alive and then I touched her face and then I heard a voice(possibly my mom) saying: Maybe she was in clinical death and they brought her to a psychologist and she eventually got good again. Then I hugged her and the people were like: Owww! So cute. [/COLOR]

Dream 2: [COLOR="#800080"]I was sitting somewhere outside with my mom (in the back of the block flat) and then a brownish-black car appeared and there was my ex boyfriend family and him.When his mother got out of the car she sat near my mom.My mom said: Yeah,Anna , we are very good friends. Then someone shouted for me and I ran and there was a girl called Mirela(Which I hate very much) she had some short hair and she was wearing some blue-white-green clothes and she asked me When was the wedding? I said I didn't know and What wedding? (I automatically thought about McDonalds for some reason,I thought that McDonalds was the food served for the wedding) She said: Oh , I think I came too late , It's finished already. And I was like: Really? Then she walked away smiling.I looked at a group of girls over there and then I gone back. I remember sitting somewhere else looking at my ex boyfriend making out with someone else and I was like: Ok,I don't care. Then I wanted to get closer to there but then I see him alone,with no girl near him.I realise a cat walking around me and there was my sister saying: Catch it! She's so cute!. I kept looking at the cat and she was white with some brown and she was really cute but I couldn't catch it.[/COLOR]

Dream 3 :[COLOR="#800080"]I remember Heather Feather coming into my house holding a black bag,she said something about money but then I stopped her and I told my mom that I'm going in my room with her because I have to tell her something,my mom was really calm and she didn't say anything but she smiled and clean the kitchen.Then I told to myself(How she didn't wanted to come or ask me anything about it) Well then I gone to my room and told her that I lucid dream and that I walked through walls and that I saw money(I thought that's how I could make money for some reason) In this whole time,she was at the computer then she smiled and she lay on the bed (somehow she turned into my math teacher) then she said I need to relax a lot and then she took off an elastic and her hair was lying on her back and then she started massaging her scalp.That's all I remember.[/COLOR]

Dream fragment 1: [COLOR="#800080"]I remember Jonathan telling me he doesn't know how to run and I teached him how to run.[/COLOR]

Dream fragment 2:[COLOR="#800080"] My friend came to my house asking me to go outside and I said: I don't really think I can come. then she said: What?! Anna! then she come smiling in my house .[/COLOR]

Dream recall from today's nap. Way to go failing with that reality check, my awareness was probably non-existent.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was in some video game in some modern city with simple structure, there were alot of people and i was taking quests from some crazy scientist, then i went to do those quests but all people disappeared, i figure it is game preparing area for fight but i wake up.
I lie down with closed eyes and in a few seconds i get sensation of dream. For some reason i can't open eyes but i feel some kind of energy above. I manage to control this energy for a bit and i think about trying to turning it into something but then i wake up.

Dream 2(fragments):

I am in bed in different position, preparing for nap but then i get interrupted by family and talk. I get up and almost do reality check but then i get distracted again and.
I wake up, more interruptions, more talk, i finally do RC and my hands are weird, i think that with hands like that i would not be able to use keyboard properly and i do reality check a couple more times till they are more or less normal... I go through door and then i wake up.

In this dream I was playing Runescape which I haven't done in many years. I thought I'd catch up with an old friend that I knew quite well so I met up with him on the game. We talked a lot, we knew each other quite well. I remember asking to borrow one of his items (dragon 2h sword) because I wanted to try out rush PKing again but I didn't have any money. He said yes but when I checked my bank I changed my mind because I didn't have any good items to use anyway. Next thing I remember is the same guy coming to my house. He was downstairs while I was upstairs, I'm not actually sure why I didn't go downstairs. Anyway some more people came and I got the impression that he was inviting people he knew. My Sister came up stairs and talked to me and she said that it were her other half's family, and that this friend of mine asked her to take off her coat, which was funny because I watched a episode of How I met your mother and it was based on that. Anyway, next thing I know I'm downstairs but I don't remember his appearance at all. I remember walking out from the kitchen into the living room and there was this zombie that didn't look like much of a zombie and was trying to grab him, I threw some sharp thing at the zombie thing and it cut it. Then it was after me, I ran back into the kitchen and towards the garden, the thing re spawned behind me which was worrying. I remember getting out into the garden and jumping onto the fence, I wanted it to end, I think I thought I was watching a film because I don't remember saying I wanted the dream to end. I started shaking my head and the dream slowly started to fade away.

In this dream I remember talking to someone about my Dream Recall, I was saying how it hasn't been that great lately and I wasn't sure why. He was saying how I've been drinking lately which I don't recall because I don't drink. But he said that I drunk alcohol at Prom and that I was about to do so now, this didn't happen in realty but in the dream I created the memory of it.

I was in an IT class which some other people, we were leaving just about now. I remember being outside, walking home and seeing someone I knew who I talked to on the way home. I then remember being back at school to do this after school activity for an hour, it was my first time going there and I wasn't too sure of it. I went there with someone I knew, I sat down and they were doing some sort of an activity. We were supposed to work in pairs but apparently the girl next to me didn't want to work with me because she didn't know me, they wanted us to do some dance thing. Anyway the host/teacher came up in the middle of the circle and was calling people out to give examples to people of what we were supposed to do. All they were doing were holding hands in a dancing position and swaying side by side for a few seconds. After that it was the end which went very quick because it was for one hour and it felt like 5 minutes. I went home and I was just outside the school walking home and I realized that I was missing my coat and my jumper. I was on my way back there when the girl who sat next to me was there and I started talking to her and she said that they normally do these activities were you have to find things and you get it back after. We were told that we had to find these 2 coins in our groups. We went looking, i'm not sure if there was anyone else in the group but I just remember it being her and I. We went searching in the park and didn't find anything. So we went in through the school and started examining the toilets but didn't find anything. I then remember it being night and being in the street looking and there were other groups around too, they were saying how they already found a coin and we still had nothing.. I looked around and found a few coins but I was told they were just regular coins. I then remember the activity finishing for good and I was on my way home, I wasn't sure if I was going to go again this activity. However I definitely formed a friendship with the girl who sat next to me. I'm pretty sure this was where the dream ended as I was awoken.

Legend: Dream , Semi-Lucid , Lucid

Killing Floor Of Traveling:
I remember being in a room in what seemed like an abandoned town. The room was locked and it was infested with undead. I was with a partner of mine. I think it was dusk out. Anyway, we go in and kill the zombies. I don't remember exactly what happened next, but i believe we talked inside the room. I felt like i couldn't trust my partner. He was a mysterious person, i didn't like the vibe i got from him.

Next scene i remember, i'm at my grandmothers house, i might be driving one of their cars or talking to someone. And at another scene, I was on a high speed rail. I was traveling to someplace, i think i had a reason to go to that place but at the same time, i felt a feeling of being lost and having no place to go. The train stops and the passengers and i get out. I then start out to go to my destination but a guy driving a tractor with a wagon attached to the back comes by the train and picks people up to take them to their destination. I get on.

The final scene, I'm on some continent, investigating different places of interest. I remember going to various places and then checking my map, The map had zones drawn on it and it was colored with the level of risk each zone had associated with it. As i'm traveling, i get to a foresty place with construction taking place not too far off on a hill. At this point, i gain lucidity, and decide to head over to the hill, i stop and have a chat with one of the construction workers as i walk up. As i get to the hill, the sight is absolutely amazing. In the distance, i see a desert area with a river flowing out to an ocean. The river had rich looking houses built next to it. The sun was also shining down. It was a great.

Heavy Backstab:
I was in a game of TF2. The game had three people in it. The objective was to backstab the heavy as a spy, Or if your the heavy, survive. The first two rounds, i was spy. The first round i won and backstabbed the heavy in what looked like a mid-constructed building. The next round took place at my house. I tried to backstab but missed and then the other spy came and was about to win but i killed him and then i killed the heavy with my pistol. I guess it was cheating but meh. The third round, about 5 people joined. I played as a heavy this round, there were also two other heavys. There were about four spies. The heavys got chainsaws this time. I got the idea to form a circle and each of us chainsaw a certain radius so we can ward off invisible spies. It worked for the most part. I remember sawing a spy through his chest but he remained invisible because he was still alive. I later came back and sawed the head off. As i did that, the other spies called a vote to kick me or something because our circle was sort of cheating.

Wednesday 7/10/13

Last night bed 1am - 8am

DR - I'm visiting family S in WV. Seems they are not home yet, so I'm walking through the neighborhood. Nice, clean, typical SoCal suburb, lack of green though. I walk by a local park with a lake. Everything is dry. Dusty dirt around the lake. Two swans with dirty feathers are standing up and flapping their wings, craning their necks. There is also a crane. And something I think it's another dirty large bird, but it turns out to be a homeless woman in while tethered blankets.

Now we are at the amuzement park. I offer to push a stroller. We came to some place and the woman is telling me to leave our purses and keys there, they will be ok. I'm like "purses and keys, really?". I don't wanna leave them, and then come back for them, or have them stolen. There is someone standing near me and I'm thinking he is stealing from my purse, but it turns out, he was putting there something for me to smuggle it. I find a key we thought we don't have.

We come to a bus/trolley stop. But the attendant tells us, bus doesn't come to this last stop. We have to walk to the nearest station. I think we are telling the attendant to make sure to tell his superiors, that that's a dumb idea.

We come up the hill and there is a bus standing. I'm trying to figure out where to buy the ticket. Booth or the driver. Turns out that the woman has some tickets for me.

We sit down and womans husband gets on. They talk and he is scolding her for something. Behind me is a mirror window and in the adjacent room, some kids are fighting. We look but it's not our kids.

Kids are playing with oversized ipod shuffles, that have screens. Someone is showing me some pictures on it.

This was very vivid and detailed. The people were abosulutely spot on. They looked like in waking life. I have not seen them in years, but this dream helped me recall their exact likeness.

Day 2 Yoga Nidra

Day before yesterday I played the first track - Survey of body.

Today I played 61-point relaxation 16 min
It's basically guiding you to be aware of sertain points on your body. No flexing of muscles involved as I have read about in other guides.

I was not sleepy at all when I started, but after about 10 min (and first 5 of these, my cat was laying on me), by the time we got to the right toes, I was falling asleep. Didn't realize it, untill his voice jolted me up every now and them. He tells you to be aware of a part, then he is quiet for about 8 sec and then he continues. So these 8 sec were enough for me to be dozing off.


Ascending Breath 14 min
This is guided breathing excercise. You inhale at certain parts of the body up to the top of the head. I guess this also keeps your awareness at those parts of body.

and Yoga Nidra 16 min
This is to keep awareness at the space between brests and to go deep into silence.

There is no music on this CD, only this calm voice. Each track was only 99cents, so I figured I have nothing to lose.

I'm walking through a forest with my sister. I'm partially dressed up like a mummy. We're on our way to go camping. Sometimes, I will fly instead of walk. When I fly, I notice I'm carrying a heavy bag. We see our aunt and uncle on the side of the dirt path. It looks like they're camping here. They notice us and we have a seat by them. They tell us that the festivities where we're going have been canceled. My uncle is eating butter by the spoon out of a can so he can 'get out the ashes'. I want to show them that I can fly but when they look I can't do it.
Now, we are where we were going. We're at out friend's motor home. There are a lot of people here and someone says that this is going to be televised. I don't want to be on TV but I find myself sitting on the windowsill of the motor home right next to a cameraman. The cameraman is filming a guy who is talking in a quiet, high-pitched voice about our friend's family. I notice my mom behind me and I tell her I want to leave. She says I can, and I do. Outside, I see some school buses have arrived. Lots of people are walking around and I know that I need to find someone in the crowd. I walk into the crowd but suddenly I'm in a gym. There are a few people in here but I notice two of my friends, A and K in the back corner. K is wrapped up in a pink, fuzzy blanket. I go over and sit down with them. A boy, R, comes over and tells A he wants her tits. I tell him to respect her, and he leaves. K gives me a bag with pins all over it. Each pin says 'bless you' in a different language.

Dream 1

I'm with my friend, looking at the stars. We see a shooting star and watch it alt the way to the horizon where it disappears. We get up and walk in the direction the shooting star was headed. We come to a trailer and right by it I see a small crater with scorched ground around it. There's a fire right by the trailer and we put it out with some dirt.

Dream 2

My mom and I are driving home on the highway. We suddenly pull over, get out, and look up at the stars. Fairly low in the sky I see a big, bright cluster of stars that seem to be arranged in a geometrical pattern. And... they're moving. They stay together, moving up in the sky, and they look like they're getting closer. I think that it is a UFO but then they come together, get brighter and form some sort of connection with the lake on the side of the road. At the end of this 'light bridge' a big, blue fish appears. It is like no fish I've seen before. I go and feel it - it it feels like a moss covered rock under water. It swims away. I question my current beliefs about life and the universe.
Now, I'm standing outside somewhere and people are gathering around me. I'm telling them what I saw but they're slowing starting to leave.
~ I guess this is what you get for watching Ancient Aliens..

Fragmented recall, got to sleep later than usual due to doing too much stuff again.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was in some video game and i was in forest that looked very familiar. I was talking to some characters about player classes and we were searching for some artifacts. At one point i was looking at menu and comparing class stats.

Dream 2:

I was playing some strategy game where the map was split into 9 parts that were weirdly connected over the edges. I was starting with small amount of forces and the map was filled with enemies and some enemy bases, as for the areas themselves, they looked rather greeny with a number of elevation changes and mountains and trees, a few waterfalls as well.
I was building a base and started making units, one of which looked like scout ships from AI War, i used those for scouting obviously since other partitions of the map were shrouded at the beginning. Then i got more defenses and units as well as progressing in the tech. I defeated a few attack waves and capped connected partitions for resources, then progressed in attacking and getting superweapons, then soon there was no enemy left on the map, i sent scout to each partition to be sure and indeed, only my units were present.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was at home which looked entirely different, there was colored glass and rooms were alot bigger, then i went somewhere else and there was some kind of concert. Then after there was a heated discussion in the city.

Dream 4(fragment):

I was playing some kind of RTS and was defending the base.

Dream 5(fragment):

I was playing some FPS that was happening on tropical islands, like Far Cry.

Last night was really good for me, in total I had either 3 or 4 dreams, as I'm not sure whether two of them are part of the same dream, but I will treat it as four. None were lucid unfortunately but I'm just starting up again so I didn't really expect one this soon. Without further ado...
DREAM 1:
Fragment: I dreamed something wrestling and a rivalry or something, I don't really remember this one.

DREAM 2:
Fairly detailed: I was in the bedroom of a house which my dream mind thought was one of my old houses, and seemed to be a combination of my past houses. I think it jumped there and I remember being in a car, being chased by another car through suburban streets in the middle of the night. The car was gaining on us and then my mum pulled out a kind of grenade from the glovebox and went to throw it out the window to the car. She threw it but it bounced off the window and back inside the car (), so I picked it up and threw it out of the car. It rolled along the ground and exploded just when the other car swerved on top of it. There was a great plume of white smoke and the other car was blown to pieces. Once again the dream cuts and it's now day. I am on a kind of pier-side market place, walking along after having got out of the car. I start running when I hear loud vices and running and crashes, as I think people are still after me, so I duck inside a little warehouse type of building. I hold my breath as someone comes inside, but its just a girl who is in my class. We then go outside and look at the market and stuff. I think this dream was pretty good, and it was quite realistic at times.

DREAM 3:
Very detailed: In this dream I was in a random city in the evening with someone else, and we were walking down a street. I think we were heading to a festival or something, and we eventually got close to the bright lights and music. When we got close however, I remember calling my mum but finding her standing right next to me, strangely enough. We walked a bit together, then I can't really remember what happened but I remember kind of waking up on a little plane. We three are the only passengers apart from some stewards, and I soon find out that I am strapped down into my seat. I have this gut feeling that this plane is going to crash deliberately and this whole voyage was to try and kill us. I struggle and try to get free. My memory gets a bit hazy here, but I do remember us getting free and kind of taking over the plan, and I'm pretty sure we made it out safely. I can't really remember this one too well, but the feeling of realism and detail in teh dream was a lot higher than normal, and my emotions were dragged strongly into it.

DREAM 4:
Fairly detailed: In this dream I remember going to a kind of deserty gulch, which I'm pretty sure was just a set, and being the main actor in a film. I was playing a girls role but for some reason they made the script work around me instead. I remember shooting some shots, I can't really remember what I said or did or anything really. Afterwards I went out of the gulch into the city in the evening, and this is why I think that this dream might be the first part of DREAM 3. Once again I can't really recall this dream to well, as I made the mistake of not writing my dream down straight away, so bits of them have leaked away I think. However the last 3 dreams were are higher than average in their quality and detail, and the quantity is above what I have done before, so I am really quite happy with this.

non lucid

*Someone in the dream told me that if I want to get a good workout you have to ice the area for a while before working out. This will some how build muscle faster.

*I am in this city surrounded by people hanging out and partying. I thought wow it's nice to live in such a huge city were all this awesome stuff is going on.

*I am talking a person who mixed with have white and black. This person seems to have a really strange attitude.

Had a dream that I was going to an ice cream shop. My brother was driving me in our tan van, and I was really scared and angry because he was racing his friend there, being reckless with his driving. When he got there, there were many flavors that I wanted to try, and so I was embarrassed to ask to try all of them. Something happened, I don't remember what, and then I was inside the ice cream shop, (it's one of those shops where the customers stay on the outside) and the workers there were temporarily tied up in the back room. I quickly went and ate a mouthful of one of the flavors I wanted to try, so I wouldn't have to ask for as many. I only got to try one, though, before the people who worked there came and said that I needed to leave. When I was out, I asked to try two flavors, and then there was one type of flavor remaining that had two variants, and I just asked the person working there to, if the flavor tasted good and was tart, to give me the variant that was more tart. I never got to have any ice cream, though, because the dream ended or it changed, or something - I don't remember.

Later, I'm in a minecraft-like world, and I can fly sort of like in creative mode, except that I don't hover - I have to actively be pressing the flying button or I'll start falling. I'm in an underground area, and the ceiling is not flat, but has stalagtites and valley-like areas. There are sections of floor and sections of lava on the ground. There are things on the ground that are shooting at me and my teammates, and on the ceiling are these organic-looking things that don't fit in with the minecraft graphics. They're either light pink or off-white, I can't remember (maybe they were both at different times?). They're round and they cling to the ceiling with veiny tissue, like thick spider's web. They throb, too. When I destroy one with my sword, they release health points and ammo.

When I fly back down out of my hiding place at the ceiling, I come into range of the things that are shooting at me. I shoot at them, too, and I destroy some, but I have to go back up for health. My teammates all are dead, I find, and I think absently that I must then be the best player on the team.

Later, in the same area but in a different room, I'm on the ground with a bunch of others. We're all actual people instead of minecraft people this time, but we're still in minecraft. We all have shields and swords, and for some reason I have this other thing that is crafted with one stick and one cobblestone (one cobblestone less than a sword), and it's like a sword, but the stone is wide and short - I don't know what its purpose is. The leader of our group is talking about fighting tactics, and how certain warriors of old used only shields in battle (at which point we all got out or made another shield and held it in front of us - there was then a third-person view so I could see everyone with their shields on their back and in front of them).

Dream recall from today's nap.

Dream 1(fragments):

There was some talk and then i was looking in window and there was pigeon going inside other pigeon somehow and they transformed into some bigger abomination of pigeon.

Dream 2(fragments):

There was something about small red dragon.

Dream 3(fragment):
It's fragment from probably yesterday, recalled it only after nap.

I was in bathroom and toilet was clogged up with some magazines apparently.

i had a dream early in the night but i don't remember it at all. i will edit this if i recall any details.

later i am in the dining room of the townhouse. various people are here. i have gotten 7 or 8 identical tattoos on my hip. they are tiny outlines of men. i colour them in with a pink marker to make it look like they're naked. a girl laughs and asks me if it's my halloween costume. suddenly i realize that it is halloween. i want candy but i do not have a costume so i go to my room and find a pair of bunny ears. i put them on and leave the house (it is night) but i only get a few steps before realizing i've forgotten to get something to hold the candy. i go back inside the house. there's a long segment here that i don't remember much of. all i remember is that i was carrying a purple nightgown with bleach stains and i saw an identical nightgown on a shelf, which creeped me out a little, and people were discussing times? i went upstairs to get a pillowcase but for some reason went into the bathroom instead. i heard someone talking about slenderman downstairs. then i entered my room. i grabbed a pillowcase and put on a glove shaped like a bunny's paw. the dream ends here.

around 9 am i had the following dream: i am visiting my mother in an unfamiliar house. we get into an argument, the details of which are a little personal and so won't be posted here. i end up screaming at her, throwing a stack of paper in her face and leaving.

edit: remembered another part of the last dream. this occurred prior to the argument. my father and i were in an apartment with white walls; a lot of stuff was made of wood. the room was filled with blue light. there were parts coming out of the walls that created steep hills and inclines and we were trying to climb on top of them. at the same time that these represented parts of the room they also represented a landscape and at times they would become much larger in scale and look, for lack of a better description, like real-life video game platforms; at one point there was an elaborate gothic church on top of one. yet they were still components of the apartment.

comment: these simultaneous perceptions feature commonly in my dreams and often make it difficult to write down an accurate description. the best way i can describe it is that they add layers of depth to the dream world.. that is to say a table in a dream is not just a table; it may occasionally be perceived as an object that is functionally or structurally related (eg a chair because it's used for dining, a dog because it has four legs and is brown) or, if not fully perceived this way these sorts of associations will persist at a subconscious level and colour the dream experience. the mechanism behind this, i think, is an intensification of associative thought. i have experienced similar perceptions in waking life w/ the use of marijuana.

My mom had died. I did not initially have an emotional reaction to this (shock?). I didn't like that so I forced myself to cry until I actually felt grief. When I paused for a breath I heard sobbing behind me. I went over to the stairs (house I grew up in) and she is sitting on them - looking like she did when we lived there. Something about the emotions I felt at her passing made her solid to me. I gave her a huge hug. We talked a little and she started to fade but I used some sort of mental trick to stabilize her. I got an email telling me an ex had died. I told my mom to tell him he is a douche when she saw him. There were people over. me adjusting the temperature - was too hot ((likely rl temp registering)). There were a bunch of old ladies in the living room doing some sort of craft. My mom was trying to do whatever craft it was with them. She aged her face at some point - made it super wrinkly - like 80 or so. I was asking a friend(a) (who was now the dead person instead of my mom) if he had seen the way to move on. He told me he had. That it was a doorway in his (my old room) room. It had a red heart or red figure of a woman (can't quite remember) on it. To entice him? I told him all they needed was techno music playing behind it. He laughed.

((remembering now something else. A... feeling/sensation - possibly from a different one where I kept dying? a sensation of holding on to my essence, my self as I went through these transformations. I would intentionally kill myself and come through the other side intact. I think the dead people in this dream might have briefly made me remember that sensation while in this dream))

[COLOR="#800080"]The dream started in a pretty cool house with many decorations (mostly flowers) it was very shiny inside and there was a hole in the wall and outside was a guy with a child and they were laughing and joking on a very nice grass(in the same time I was on the couch inside with my friend) and then,outside,Appeared a guy with some nice black hairstyle and he didn't talked but he gave his phone to my friends (it was a red-black old phone) and then I ran home crying for some reason and I looked in the mirror doing my hair and shiz then someone rang at my door and I ran to see who it was but it was nobody so I got out in the hall and saw a kind of white paper and on it was written "I'm sorry" Then I wondered who wrote that,then I ran in the house again then my friend ring at the door and she said sorry then she invited me to her house which house was exactly near mine and I got in and there was her sister,her mother and that boy wearing some white socks and looking at me all weird.We gone to a theme park,and we got on a kind of rollercoaster and then when we finished the first round the boy and my friend jumped away and I stayed for one more round then I got off.One thing I also remember is me walking near a lot of people wearing white and pink clothes being all sad going to a church,and my friend was holding that boy's hand.[/COLOR]

Fragment: [COLOR="#800080"]I remember that I can't close a door and That I pull some blonde guy's hair (It was in my house)[/COLOR]