non-lucid

Dream Date: 5/8/10
(This dream was from a few months ago...)

8:30 - awake and said goodbye to my Fiance, who is leaving for the day..
9:30 (ish), laid back down to rest.

Blue = Dream
Red = Lucid Dream - level 1
Dark Red = Lucid Dream Level 2 - The OBE

As I drifted off, dream-like visions faded in very quickly (not typical dream cycle, this happened within 10 mins of me lying down)...early on, there we 2 guys conversing, the exact subject I can't remember, but their whole conversation was very clear at the time. Eventually I was 'dreaming' that I was at work, in class, but we needed to pull a girl from another class to help out. I was walking around looking at student's computers and their work...up to this point, it was very much like a dream...I was merely a passenger to wherever my dreams would take me. Then suddenly I was very aware of the moment, and I could feel first hand everything that was around me. I turned to the girl and said quite normally "It's pretty bright in here" (and it was, all of a sudden. Blindingly so.... and I squinted my eyes to see)...she asked me to repeat myself, and as I started to speak again, the sound of my own words blurred and faded out, as if time was slowing down, and without any control over what was happening (but yet, I WAS the dream body) I began to slip away, as if I was suddenly passing out. There was a moment of concern, but it felt peaceful and i didn't offer resistance. My consciousness shifted "inside of myself" (myself being the dream body), but could feel the 'dream characters' hovering around my 'dream body'. I was aware of everything - that my 'real body' was lying in bed, safely harboring a 'dream' of my second body, which had gone into a deeply vivid 'dreaming' state', in which I was extremely lucid, and could use that second level of dreaming to host my "lucid dream". This was different than a lucid dream though...it felt more like an out of body/lucid dream hybrid. I felt my consciousness 'physically' leave my dream body, and my 'real body' and I was moving around the room (a little clumsily, but I had some control over it nevertheless.) I remembered that in an OBE you can turn and see yourself...I could not. I tried, but...controls were difficult, and I was in someone else's room. It was a child's room...almost everything was white - white bed, with white ruffled comforter, white walls, and sun shining in through windows adorned in white. There was a Winnie The Pooh doll in the room...I never owned Winnie The Pooh anything, so i knew right away this was night my room. I continued to "stumble" around (I was floating, not walking)... the room changed, and it felt more like the room my 'real body' was in...I saw and felt the door, and somehow managed to open it, but the other side was not a hallway like I expected, its...Another door i believe. Or rather, a door warped strangely, like 2 wooden doors that had grown together...somehow. There were many illusions. I decided I wanted to see if I could find my fiance. I found myself at a place that almost resembled a night club, and i was higher up looking down at the people that were there. I moved over the reception area to the main room and found my fiance standing talking to friends. Soon my legs were wrapped around him from the side, and I was stroking the back of his neck, and hugging him. I had resumed my 'dream body' at this point, so I could feel him, 'physically'. He was not aware of my presence...(note: I was not seeking him out within a dream, I was seeking him out in "reality"...so I believe if this was merely a lucid dream, I would only be able to find him within a dream (his 'dream body' manifested by my mind). But since this was more of a Lucid Dream/OBE hybrid, I had a link to the 'real world' and could seek out his 'real body'.

Interestingly, before I woke up earlier this same morning, I had been dreaming of a very "Alice in Wonderland" type world. But the world began to break apart, with nothing but darkness surrounding the stepping stone pieces of the "reality environment". We were hopping on, from one piece to the next, as the world broke apart. Between 2 pieces, there was a sort of vortex, that one of the dream characters I was with said was (a worm hole or black hole, I can't remember which ).

Sidenote: I did happen to watch some videos on wormholes before bed, which definitely influenced this dream?

I remember this being a really long dream, but I can only recall parts of it.

There was a huge labyrinth which I was going through with a group of people I didn't know. Inside there was a bunch of creep things, like a swamp area, and an old cackling witch. Everywhere I walked in the labyrinth, my shoes made an annoying sticking sound because there was gum stuck to the bottom of them.

At one point, our group got attacked by zombies, and a girl in the group wouldn't let me use first aid on her even though she had been bitten by a zombie.

After that, I remember discussing a few books I've read with a friend, and the dream kind of fades out from there.

I've only been asleep for about three hours, but every dream I remember was so unbelievably effed up it brought me back here - after six months... Just thought I'd try descibe/express the level of freaked out I'm feeling right now.. Anyway:

I am in a place that looks like a graveyard, there is like a red fog, I only remember there was a group of us trying to get into this hole where all the mosters/zombies/aliens whatever where. I think someone got chopped into pieces, lasered or something.

There is this person who can control people by jumping through them, he has no physical form. He started jumping through my family, I was holding my baby brother and when he got to me he tried to throw him downstairs, I resisted, he went to my dad, and I knocked out my dad with a glass bottle

It's dark and I take my sister to mcdonalds. There is nobody anywhere, no cars, not even customers in the stores... She talks to someone at a bus stop about this guy who escaped from prison. Dream ends there.

It's dark in my house and relatives come into my house. They talk to my dad about in the kitchen random stuff, have a laugh, maybe they were drunk? I go in, the lights go out and I get beaten with glass cups, I feel a knife at my back and get water in my face

Which wakes me up, my face still feeling wet

Something else about childbirth, flying around looking for cookies...

I might try to go back to sleep now :/

First, some fragments:

-The worship leader at my church raised her hand and I though that she's make a good sister.
-Something about exaggeration and cliches on the screens during the service.
-My mom complains that I have enough clothes for 26 days instead of 21, so there's no point in cleaning my clothes until later.

And now the good stuff:

1. I meet a guy who kind of looks like Jason Statham, but it's definitely not him or I'd be more interested/surprised. He's a skilled secret agent for some society, and enlists me. I myself beat up a middle-aged guy for some reason I can't remember. Later I break in to an office to steal something important, but I can tell that someone's about to come into the room, so I hide myself behind a wall. The guy walks into the room and I shoot him. He's dead instantly. I keep working, and then notice there's someone else in the room. It's a guy about my age, in a suit. He doesn't seem like much of a threat, so I don't shoot him right away. He says something like "if you kill me, they'll find you." I realize that I've actually killed someone, and if I kill this guy two that's more crime that I'll be in trouble for. I quickly decide that I don't have the ability to hide the bodies adequately. The young guy kind of seems like he's on my side now. I decide to call the guy who recruited me, because he should know what to do. The scene shifts, and we're on a train together with the guy I beat up earlier. Now he's making a deal with the guy, and it seems like everything is going to be alright.

2. I arrive back on campus. There are people everywhere, and campus looks nothing like it does in reality. There are a bunch of booths set up, but I'm not interested in these; I figure they're mostly for the freshmen. I catch a glimpse of Abraham, but I know that he doesn't go to Princeton, so there must be something wrong. I ask someone else there, but I can't remember whether they gave some false explanation or just agreed that it was weird. I catch a glimpse of Lindy also. I'm incredibly happy to be back, and to see people I remember. I even decide to run my hand along a surface just to feel it more vividly and express my happiness, but when I do, I almost cut my hand open because the surface is very rough.
Now a few things happen, but I can't remember the order. Aunt Sandy says something about how nice it all is. My dad leaves and tells me what he's doing for the rest of the day, but I quickly forget. I decide to do a reality check, so I think about whether this is where I usually am (the one I've been doing recently). So I say no, this isn't where I usually am, but that's because I just arrived here, in fact I can remember driving in the car with my dad up here. (false, I'm leaving in about a week. It's all very upsetting, I'm going to have to choose a better reality check). I decide to call my dad to ask him where he is, but never get around to it. I spend the rest of the dream trying to get to my dorm.
Since everything is different, this proves to be very difficult. There's now a stream and bridge in the middle of campus, but it's not allowed to go on the bridge. There's another passage on the bridge, climbing up from underneath, which I remember (falsely) using before, so i give it a try, but it doesn't work. It becomes night. I walk around the stream and end up in the Southern end of the junior slums. Going North from here should be simple, but it's blocked off because of construction. My prox isn't activated, so I can't get through any buildings and have to walk around. I step into one building lobby hoping to get directions. I see some girl there, and ask her how to get to Laughlin. I'm very careful to pronounce it correctly, and not look like an idiot. She starts saying how to get there, and two guys walk in the lobby. One of them is the guy who plays guitar for the worship team. He asks, as though there was something dishonest going on here, what's going on here? I can't remember whether I even bother to respond, but I leave shortly afterward and then wake up.

Awesome recall for my fifth day or so, though the fact that I slept an hour past my alarm sucked.

Dream Date: 9/2/10
Influences: I took a xanax a few hours before bed (which I rarely take), to relieve some anxiety and clear my mind a little.

Dreams:
Since the xanax made me a little dopey, I dreamed that I was on shrooms with a friend of mine (not sure who). We were in my room, and time seemed to go on forever. My friend seemed like they were starting to get nervous, so I told them all we had to do was go outside and get a change of scenery. We walked out my front door, and I was hoping no one would see us, but instead all of my neighbors were outside. A swarm of locusts came flying toward us where we stood (probably because I had heard several locusts at sundown earlier the same night). I went in the back yard, expecting to see it untouched, since I didn't recall doing anything crazy earlier while we were tripping inside, but I was wrong. All the back windows had been broken, and there was glass everywhere, and there were several bed mattresses that had been thrown into the pool (I don't have a pool in waking life). This made me wonder what else we may have done throughout the night that I couldn't recall?

(Other dream here, that I swore I could remember without writing it down, but now I can only recall fragments)

Lucid: After waking up and returning back to sleep several times, I had a lucid experience of lying in my bed, looking out the windows, and seeing fruit - apples and grapes - dangling from tree branches in front of my window. I knew they were not actually there, so I didn't want to open my eyes. There was something else earlier in the night, but unfortunately I can't recall it right now...

(Side note to self: DSM & LM- repeated tries, but no success )

I am in a dark hallway, with a dark red carpet, scattered with dolls. Death is coming, and a voice is talking to me. There is a pile of childrens toys right in front of the door. The voicce says that if I'm going to bring daeth here I need to give him something to make him happy about being tricked into coming here. The door opens and Death (looking like the Grim Reaper) Is standing there. I hold out one of the toys to him. I notice I am seeing myself from outside, and am a young girl in a yellow dress.
The voice speaks again, and says that if death comes on his own, then I have to go straight to the game we will play. And there always has to be a game. The door opens again, and this time I hold out a child's skeleton with a spike-studded skull, all made of metal. Then I am flying upward.

I was at some event that had a lot of memorable people at it. One was a girl I've known most of my life, but I haven't seen her since i grew up. We ended up playing some free for all tag game using BB guns. Three people with me just crouched on the edge of the theater and watched everyone else run around like maniacs till most of them were defeated. One guy ran by and tagged someone in my group, and I started chasing after him. I stopped for a split second and realized he had two other people chasing after him. I determined that one of them will get him, and then they would turn on each other, and I thought there would be someone else to worry about in the mean time. I quickly spun around and saw that some guy had his gun pointed at me. I squeezed the trigger and nothing came out. He shot and I tried to jump over it, but it hit me in the corner of the pants leg. I looked around and saw that I was one of the last few people who remained.

scene change

I'm walking with some Spanish girl...we're dating. She says something about how her feet hurt, and I start massaging them. Some girl calls me out, and says she needs me to look at something. I've only done one foot, and I really don't want to leave this girl. I head off anyway, and I can hear two girls call my girl over. I could overhear them saying that I wasn't good enough for her or something to that effect as the dream faded out.

I met up with Aquanina and Ninja at some kind of poolside get together. Ninja had an old black eye for some reason, and oddly, I was asking him about his birthday. He said no one invited him to a party, so he didn't do anything. He handed me a roach and I finished it off, and we were all going to smoke out. I started wondering about how it may effect my dream recall, but quickly brushed it off. We sat down at this huge round table, and I tried to sit next to Nina, but some other (ugly) DC got in the way. My nephew showed up, and said something about taking a trip on a bus.

We all got on, and headed some place, and by the time we got there, it was dark. We headed back and Kayla was complaining about the entire trip. I told her at least we weren't wasting our own gas. And she started complaining about the bus itself. We went back and fourth about that until she finally got off. My nephew told me that we had to drive the bus for his friend cause his mother (the owner of the buss) was getting off. I knew there was a catch, but whatever. My nephew started driving, and the windows started fogging up on the inside, and he didn't have his headlights on. I was waiting for him to correct it, but for some reason he wasn't. I saw that there was a guy out down the street, and I told him to slow down. He did so, but he started hydroplaning and the back end came out and hit the guy. I could see cop lights flash behind us, and I told him to turn on his headlights.

I rushed outside to find the guy, and he was sitting upright, halfway buried in dirt. He asked me if I spoke Spanish in Spanish, and I told him no. He carried on talking about what happened to him in Spanish, and I couldn't understand what was going on on. I noticed he had a fracture on his right forearm, and I asked him was there anything else. The guy pointed to his legs, and I noticed he had two open femoral fractures. Right then and there I knew he was going to die, but I kept calm, and spoke to him like nothing was really that bad.

There was a girl who looked like Lauryn Hill in my room. Some kind of way she was attached or linked to a dvd that my pops was looking for. We were talking a bit, but I couldn't really see her at times...like she was fading out or something. When I was talking to her, I could see him looking in at the room, and he a strange look on his face. It was obvious that he couldn't see or hear her. I closed the door and started talking in a lower tone, and some kind of way he still showed up in the room. He was asking if I saw the DVD, and I told him no. He had on a brown leather jacket and was armed with a shotgun....was so weird. He left, and I tried talking to her again. As I mentioned earlier, I couldn't really see her at times, so I decided to try putting one of my shirts on her. I could feel the shirt sliding down her outstretched arms as I helped her put it on and then she showed up. The last thing I remember her saying was something like "we can just meet up tomorrow".

I'm in some crowded location, and some guy is talking crap about me. Like almost wants to fight me. I'm trying to get the guy to take back what he said, because he's going to get laid out. D, and some random big guy is ready to knock him and whoever he's with out whenever I throw the first punch. The big guy starts acting like he's going to act on his own will. I tell him to chill out, and then this lady grabs me, and puts me in a hold that I know I'm going to be able to escape.

My hands are behind my back and I'm just studying whats going on. And D starts fighting some random guy, and some other guy in the crowd starts fighting some other random guy. I look at the two DCs fighting, and one of them has a green pill in his hand...he's about to feed it to the other guy. I quickly break free from one of the lamest holds ever, and I started pounding the guy with the pill in the temple. He pulled his hand away from the other guys mouth and takes it himself. He then says something about how we're all screwed....I guess whatever he's taking is supposed to kill us all...I move away from him, trying not to breath in whatever may be released, and the dream fades.

I started off at some random person's place, apparently my relative's place. I was with KA, and I think my cousins or something. I think SU was there. I remember being on a boat too, since outside of the house was a lake. When we were on the boat we watched some guys on another boat get their boat flipped over. Somehow they flipped up again and they were fine, not even wet.

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Not sure what I was doing at first, but I ended up looking over a bridge or high platform of some kind. There was a large vehicle that looked like a building; I think it was a space ship or something. I was looking over and wondering how to get down there. I thought that it would be so easy if I were in a dream! Wait a minute...

Realizing I was actually in a dream, I rejoiced as I did a nose pinch RC to confirm (don't want to end up jumping off a bridge IRL xD). I then jumped over and landed on the ground.

When I was close up to the space ship thingy it more resembled a subway. As I stepped in it shrank and basically became a subway car. It started travelling between stops, but it was outdoors, not underground.

Then I wanted to destroy things. I tried to summon fire, but like in all other dreams, I was for some reason unable (even though I can summon guns and bows quite easily -.-). Then as I looked out of the subway (the ceiling seemed to be gone now so I could see the environment around us) I saw the moon with a bunch of other planets. I think the sky was purple. I decided to experiment; I put my hands up and willed the moon towards me.

The moon slowly came to my. I was able to touch it! It felt like a giant inflatable bouncy ball. I poked it a few times, then slapped it and launched it across the sky.

I tried again to summon fire, but I closed my eyes while doing so. The dream scene was about to shift, but then it faded and I awoke.

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I was watching Sylvanas from WoW as the Dark Queen trying to defeat some undead knight guy. She was really weak against him. The guy was taunting her about how the Dark Queen would be more powerful. That was the end of it.

I'm on the set of some sketch comedy, and it's a hospital scene. My character takes his break at the same time this nurse takes it, and we spend the entire break kissing. Not even moving our mouths or anything, our faces just touch, and our arms are wrapped around each other. It was pretty funny because the moment we had our break we went at it in that awkward way, and the moment our break ended, we went back to our normal duties. We were sort of in the background, and during that time they had two characters talking about serious stuff at the moment. Once our break was over, we walked off, and started talking. I think she liked me for real.

i was in a pet store
big salt water tanks on the floor
wanted to steal a big octupus or squid
so i swallowed it whole and hid
later i tried to puke it up, it took quite a bit of effort
it was still alive when i got it up

was in some sort of rck shop with my mom and other people
walked arounf looking at really awesome rocks and pictures made out of rcoks
saw something i wanted but kept browsing
couldnt find it again when i went back though
asked cashier about it and she didn't know what i was talking about
it had been way cheaper while all the others were very expesanive so i was pretty bummed out.

Notes - nondream - I was thinking about nomad's "Secrets of the Dreamworld" post, and I remembered something Shard, my guide, Said, "Everyone has a shard, I am one of many." It matched up, at least in my mind, with what Nomad's post said, something about, "Gawn split his soul into two halves, one half he shattered into millions of pieces and bound them to the souls of humans, and he kept the other half." the implications of this hit me like a brick and it was all I could think about until I fell asleep, so I was unable to think straight enough to try to look at a reploid-robo in a mirror for Nomad's Serial Dream RPG. On the plus side, I had 4 dreams, so that's always a plus.

-Dream/right before I started-

I saw 3 unfamiliar energy signatures, two where medium sized, seemed male, and one was smaller and seemed female. I knew it was something about training. I remember doing a slow motion power-punch at one of them, he blocked it, but was knocked backward and slid about 5 meters, though he never lost his footing. I could sense approval.

-Dream 1-

I was a knight, my friends had been captured and imprisoned in a dungeon. I was trying to save them. I had just fought a tough opponent, and was severely weakened, so I was relieved when I opened the door and saw my friends cages, they where still alive. the cage on the left held the party's rouge, she had long red hair and she was a notoriously bad lock-picker, so bad that I took up lock-picking so that we could get things open. The cage on the right held our ogre, twice my size, but as far a ogres come, he was.. well, he doesn't eat us, so I suppose that's a good start.

I had just gotten to the cage when I heard someone behind me, "I knew this wouldn't be that easy." I turned around to face my new foe, a guard, but he had a dagger, one hit and I knew I would die, so I grabbed my shield and held it up, waiting for an opening. I blocked his dagger 4 times, on the fifth hit, I bashed him, grabbed my war-axe from my side, and cleaved him. his body crumpled. I didn't bother looting the body, my friends where more important at the moment, I had to free them before more guards appeared. I picked the lock on the rouge's cage first, the lock opened. the rouge stepped aside, I saw a treasure chest behind her. My eyes widened. I heard a growl next to me, I looked up and saw an impatient ogre in the adjacent cage with his arms crossed.

-Dream 2-

I am walking down the street in a dangerous part of town. I knew that people are regularly killed here, so I am a bit wary. I also know that a dark green car is usually seen around the victim, I am keeping a lookout for the green car. I see a Lime green car, In my mind, I know there is nothing to fear, but panic kicks in. I run down the street as fast as I can and turn into the first door I see. I run inside a bank, but I know that the bank works with the killers.

-Dream 3-

I am a collage student, walking down the hall. I see a friend of mine mixing a bucket of black paint. I sit next to him and mix some red paint with him. there is an unfinished painting on the wall in front of us, a recent project my friend has been working on undoubtedly. Somehow, my feet got stuck in the paint bucket, It feels really weird. It takes about 10-15 minutes to get my feet out of the bucket without spilling paint all over the floor. I walk out into the courtyard.

-Dream 4-

I am looking for something to buy. a book, but I don't know what book. I go to a woman's home because she is selling thing out of her house. when she answers the door, the first thing I notice is that she is attractive, but she is also unattractive at the same time, she invites me in. I notice a SNES, but I don't really care at the time. I look around, see a few neat things, but nothing I would be willing to buy. I keep thinking to bring up dreaming and mystical stuff, but I keep hesitating, and then the dream is lost.

12/08/2009

Retail

This wasn't much of a dream. I'm working somewhere that seems like a mix between the school bookstore and PacSun. I have some 3/4 length sleeve hoodies to hang somewhere but they don't seem to fit with the theme of the displays on the walls. There are cabinets that have like small banners around the center of them with names of what goes in the cabinet sort of by theme. Upon closer inspection, it seems that it's a toy store theme and the things that belong in the walls are legos and various video games. But it's clothes hanging up there instead. In fact, one cabinet had VCU tye-dyed hoodies with patches on them of various alcoholic beverages. If I could draw, these were amazing sweatshirts.

Then, of course, I have to go to the bathroom, but I don't remember what happened on the way to the bathroom, just that I woke up and went to the bathroom.

Performance Anxiety

This was from Sunday. I'm in the bathroom and there are people in my stall waiting for me to go to the bathroom and I can't go! Which isn't really that weird because I hardly ever actually *go* to the bathroom in my dreams.