non-lucid

1. I'm completely out of money at a mall, so I get my dad to give me some quarters. I then take these to go play DDR at an arcade. I'm able to find a freestyle hands-and-feet mode (menu is in text, so failed RC) and happily punch in to play. I am disappointed, though, since the interface isn't the clean shining one I know and love. The whole thing is grainy, and there are no arrows, only solid streams of pixels for notes. I enjoy the techno nonetheless, performing for my parents and some random guy, and I get a high score. As I enter my name in all caps into the machine, my dad makes a wisecrack about how freestyle should be "horse behind the ass" style.

2. Mom is having an affair with some man in New England. She hides it for a while, but eventually she's found out to be pregnant and everything turns to shit.

14.07.2010

Fire (Again) (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

The dream starts off at a service station where there are people standing around looking at something. I keep moving forward and I see a fire engine coming torwards us and a car on fire. They put the fire out and then I go back into the car (in the back seat).

Suddenly I'm somewhere else, but still in the car, looking at the electricity lines. The sky is dark gray/purple/blue and I can't see anything else.

It becomes day time and I'm at a garage sale that is somewhere where I used to live. On the other side of the road there is land, with no houses or anything. It turns into a hill with a road and houses suddenly and I see someone learning to ride a bike and someone else telling them to pull back the brakes.

Dream fragment: I remember being on the computer on a website that looked like Wikipedia, but it had information on my parents for some reason.

The dream ends there.

I haven't remembered any dreams for the past year so i'm just going to write down the ones i remember from a long time ago. I apologize for any mistakes that i make in spelling or grammar in advance.

When i was five i had a dream about a giant purple crystal and it is still pretty vivid. I remember standing on a platform and looking at a skyscraper in the middle of the night. The entire scene had a sort of 90's video game graphics sort of look to it. Floating above the skyscraper was a giant purple crystal, also with the 90's game look to it. A person standing next to me(also 5 but looking like he knows what he's doing) with a sort of official uniform on that looked futuristic. We were both looking at the crystal in awe. He showed me a sort of compact looking device (the thing women use to put on makeup and it has a mirror in it) that was holding a miniature version of the crystal, also floating. He says something that i cant remember. I fly to the crystal using a jet pack and use a similar compact looking thing to collect a similar crystal. Either that's when the dream ends or i forgot the rest. WARNING: dream may have warped with age.

July 7ish 2010

Synopsis: A strange man in my bedroom claims to be the deceased brother of my friend. I don't believe him.

I am No Name
I was having a false awakening. My bedroom is very strange, like it's a mix of every bedroom I've ever lived in. Family, friends and co-workers come in and out of my bedroom, waking me up, asking me random things. Every time I roll over and go back to sleep.

I get up, and when I turn around, there's a strange boy sitting on my bed. He seemed so comfortable in my space it might as well be his bedroom. He was very nice and soft spoken. I don't remember all of our conversation.

But then he says "I have multiple personalities."

I think all of my friends are crazy, so I say "Oh, it's okay."

He lowers his head. What happens next was so jarring it made me lucid, but only for a few brief moments.

His head, hanging low, starts to shake violently! The hair transforms from brown to black. The neck completely detaches from the body as if on a hinge. The freed head-neck makes a complete 360 degree turn, going in and out of the chest as if it was only air. The head slowly raises up, and the neck snaps back into place.



His face completely changed!

"I am No Name. . . 'J'. . ."

I thought he was trying to steal my name! " 'J' is my name!"

He turns towards one of my drawings. "Did you use color pencils for this?"

"Yes! I had to buy a lot of pencils, it took me hours to finish it."

He looks around my room, and looks at me as if he's trying to analyze me. I wonder why he's so interested in me or why he's here on my bed. Then he tells me,

"I am Chris' brother."

I have no idea who's he talking about. I sorta know a Chris, but he doesn't a brother. Or does he mean a different Chris? When it's clear that he's confused me he changes his original statement.

"I am 'R's brother."

R is my friend from work. Her brother died years ago, and she isn't comfortable talking about it, at least not with me. So he was claiming to be her deceased brother visiting me in a dream.

"Really? You're R's brother?"

"Yes. And my name is spelled with two E's, not one."

"Oh, I didn't know that." Actually, I don't know what Rs brother name is.

He asks me "Is the family still living down on Wurzbach."

"No??"

But the question didn't make any sense to me. Because as far as I know R's family never lived on that road. They don't even live in this city!

Hey, I've got questions for him. "She doesn't talk about you. (It was years ago). Why doesn't she talk about you?"

He looks annoyed with my question and stands up. His face transforms again. This time he's anglo with fiery blond hair. I don't know what compelled me to say it, but I yell at him.

"Did you ever did anything to her? Did you ever hurt her in any way?"

He's pissed now! "WHAT ARE YOU GETTING AT? HUH? WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO SAY!" He nearly knocks down half of my room. I don't like that angry look in his eyes.

I woke up shortly after.

I was too scared to ask my friend if her family ever did live on a road wurzbach. Or if her brothers name is spelled with two Es. I figure this dream character isn't who he says he is, except that he has No Name.

Tonight was pretty crazy. I felt like the whole night was filled with dreams. I feel my mind getting accustomed to what dreams are and how to recognize them. When I woke up this morning I was a little confused. It felt as if I slept did not sleep, but lived another day. Almost like one day was 48 hours because so much happened, it was like another day. Even thought there were no lucids (painfully close) it was a great night.

50 CENT:
we had a mini family gathering at a club. 50 cent was there performing. I kept trying to say hi to him, but he was ignoring me. When it was his time to go up he started singing, but was attacked by a couple of kids. I ran and held one of the kids down. He thanked me. I looked at the kid and saw that he turned into a black cat. The cat kept struggling and trying to get out of my grasp. I just laughed.

basketball game:

I was at tryouts for our basketball team in school. The kid that was trying out was already on the team in real life. Today he was really sick and could not play well at all. he would miss the basket by a long shot. The other team members would vouch for him and say he was really good. I kept going in this persons body for a second and dribbling before going back out. Later a game was about to start. I was in uniform about to leave as all the cheerleaders started coming in. My friend dustin and owen were there to cheer me on. All the cheer leaders were giving me looks but one stood out from the crowd. She bumped into me and I asked her to follow me for a sec. I took her out near me car and started to kiss her. She moved away, but I just laughed and tried again. I noticed dustin and owen watching me. We started making out and I was feeling her up. I realized that she had my perfect ass. Not too hard, not too soft .

I left the game and went to go meet up with some people. They were the crew from always sunny. We went on some epic quest to get a scroll. We ended up in some ice town and were climbing a mountain. We started walking on a narrow glacier and found the scroll. On the way back frank from always sunny kept complaining that it was too hard for him. One of the guys pretended to help him, but ended up throwing him off the cliff. He fell and broke his neck. We realized that the fall was only 6 feet and went down to see if he was really dead. He was.

Later we were doing a live set on tv. The broadcast was telling us how funny and inappropriate we were and that maybe we should be pulled off the air. We kept laughing and making jokes around the table.

Missed vacation:
Kara picked me up naked. She had a total of six boobs and six nipples. The boobs were piled on top of each other and looked freaky. I was thinking of ways to break up with her and realized that I was not attracted to her because of this. We got to my house and went upstairs to the computer. On facebook my cousin said he sent me the money I asked for, but said he that he bought me a vacation package and took the money out of it instead. The picture on facebook showed someone laying on a tube on some tropical paradise. He said that would have been me if I spent my money wisely. I remember laughing because my name was spelt way wrong on the ticket.

Rocket launcher fun:
We were playing a shooting game in real life. I was no weapon and was about to die. My friend was laughing at me saying I was about to lose when I found a double barrel shot gun. I started blasting away at the two people and destroyed them. My friend was really impressed and asked how I was so good. I found a rocket launcher and blasted one person away. Then there was this one girl that almost killed me. I went around for 10 minutes trying to blast her, but she dodged all my shots. Later I stopped trying to kill her and took my helmet off and asked her why she did not kill me. She took her helm off and was this really cute girl. I told her that she probably thought I was cute and liked me. She was laughing and kinda agreed. We were holding hands when the Sargent came up to us and told us this was forbidden. We were planning on killing him before I woke up.

Hot for teacher:

I had this smoking hot teacher at school. She never wore a bra and looked amazing. I asked her if she could help me with some homework after school. She agreed and said that we should study at my house because it would be awkward if we studied at her place because of her boyfriend. This gave me the idea that she had some intentions. I did not want to take her to my place because it was too far away and I still live with my mom. Plus the girl I am seeing might be there. I ended up deciding to meet her at a bar. We met at the bar and talked for a while. We ended up walking to some random persons trampoline and started having rough sex. There was a family passing by and they were watching us. I got freaked out and wanted to stop, but the teacher told me to shut up and keep going. We ended up going back to the bar and she started being a bitch to me and telling me to buy her stuff.

Failed false awakening:
This was the last dream of the night. Michael and I were walking around the park with bella. There was a mini cut scene with my other dog lucy walking through my school. She used to go with me all the time. A random girl walked by and asked me how I was doing. She was cute and I decided to talk to her a bit. Turned out she knew who I was and told me they weren't letting lucy back into the school. I was really pissed off and she said she would help me write a petition. We started driving to my house. Michael waited outside while I went in to say hello.

The first thing I noticed was how different my house was. there was another door to the entryway on the left. On the right was my living room. All the furniture was new and really good looking. I went into the office and saw that it was three times as big with a fireplace. Both my mom and brother were playing on the computer with supper wide screens. I walked into the living room and started thinking that this could be a dream. I normally do a nose RC, but I have been sick lately and thought the night before I would just try and float. I tried to jump and float but my foot got caught on the couch and I fell on my face.

Later I went over to Michael who was trying to get a loan and found out that he was super in debt. The teller was really pissed at him because he spent so much of his money on some girl. They were talking for a bit before I told Michael that I needed to wake up and get my day started. I have a lot of studying to do.

Key: Non-Lucid, Lucid, Commentary/Notes, Hypnagogic Hallucinations

My afternoon nap WILD attempt failed, but this is the dream I recalled anyway.

I was chatting with an friend, A, over MSN. A was telling me that he was doing some project at our old university and needed access to my final year project work. He was typing really really fast and I couldn't keep up with reading what he was going on about. For some reason he also wanted the domain name for a website I developed a while ago, and I told him that he could because I still had it registered but the site wasn't up any more.

I think I arranged to meet him at uni. I was walking down the road to the art and design building and saw a car racing around in the car park. The car park was different. Instead of the usual parked cars and gravel ground, there were wrecked cards stacked up and the ground was thick mud. The wrecked cars formed a track which lead out on to the road along side through holes in what was a wall previously. A was in the car, driving around like a madman.

Ok I'm going to write two nights here.

1. I dreamed I was insane. I reacted calmly. I was in a bathroom and was about to get on with a hot woman when like 2-3 guys ran in and started hitting me. Then they vanished and I realized they were imaginary.
Later in the dream I walked into a building. It was sort of like a school. I walked left up to some stairs. I stopped and got lucid. I talked to myself and reminded me "I'm dreaming". I saw a black man in his middle age. He was like a DG or similar. He talked to me. He said like "Your subconsciousness is up there, in here... and inside you" (he made gestures with his hands). I became more lucid and my vision zoomed in a bit and everything got more vivid and I got dizzy. Then I had to go up and fight some characters to get rid of my craziness. I won. I woke up and didn't move. I thought about the dream. Then I moved and I felt a wave of oblivion wash over the dream. I lost a lot of details like the characters for example.

I dreamed I sat outside my house and my neighbor stole some gas from my moped. Then some kids played hide and seek near my yard. I went inside and found my mom in there. She told me that her mom had taken her life. I hugged her and started thinking about my grandma and got some tears in my eyes. Then I woke up and my eyes were a bit wet. I felt relieved.

2. War city and going to parties.
Later I got lucid. I was at a china town looking street where I had been before in the dream. I think I sat in a car and got a ride up the street. There were people outside. I've thought about dream control and I was going to make things feel natural, as flying feels natural to me. I reached out with my arm and started waving my hand slowly, feeling a big invisible force strike at the people. I could see that they reacted on something pushing them. I don't know what to call this power but I guess it's a ghost force hand for now.

I'm excited that I've made some progress in dream control.

Soccer Oddness:
I was on a soccer field and was playing soccer with my team. We were all wearing red jerseys and I was playing forward. We had many opportunities to score and it seems that I was one of their main men. There was a problem that kept on arising. It seems that I was nursing an itch eye. Everytime the ball comes near me, my eyes became extremely itchy and I would start massaging them which would unfocus my vision. In one case, I was right next to the net only to totally miss the opportunity to score and send the ball to the other side. I was shown some scoreboard later on, basically it was just flashed in my face from nowhere and it was pretty large, so, it contained the different teams, their games and scores. We weren't doing too badly. We tied a lot of games and only lost 2 or so.

Thoughts: Would have been nice to be lucid but I can only hope at the moment

Visiting a Washroom:
*Read at your own discretion*

I was with a group of people that I already knew. It seems that we have either gotten to where we were supposed to be or made a brief stop. The destination at hand was a restroom. The restroom was insanely large and was like a maze. It had over 20+ toilets to use and they each had a large space to move around. I navigated around checking each area and trying to find the cleanest one to use. The people I was with have already finished and most were sitting down on the ground already. I kept looking and it was like I has to use stealth and not alert attention for some reason. I found one that looked clean from a distance and appeared to have some floating boxes with soap and the like in it, however, it turned out that the boxes were swimming in the toilet which made me change my mind. I kept checking and found another one but it seems that the toilets were reserved for certain people in the group. I was shown a list of three columns each with people's names that I couldn't pick up and they had different colors as well, such as red for the first column, yellow for the second and a third color I can't recall. I eventually found one that wasn't as clean as I would have liked. I flushed the toilet and it turned into what appeared to be a giant bathtub. It was now full with water to the brim and had different colors at certain places indicating it still wasn't clean. I might have decided to go ahead when suddenly a large bronze worn-out side door opens to the outside. I see the outside scenery which consisted of a road with trees on the top half and a parking lot with a blue car near the road on the bottom half. I close it quickly and decide to continue when the dream takes an odd shift and a group of girls suddenly enter from some random opening as well. I can't recall much of what happens afterwards.

Thoughts: This is pretty much the first dream which I can recall that has had the dream scene constantly change even as the dream progressed. Usually, the dream changes kinda like a story, but, this was just too bizzare

so I woke up around 430 again with allensig3654 and tried to wild, I made myself remember a keyword to encapsulate my whole prior dream and it was stormy pier. All I remember was that, I did this in hopes that it would make me recall more but I guess not. Bummer.
Also no luck with lucid WAHHHHH

7/13/10

I guess I had caused this dream to come about from watching a series on T.V about the football player known as Ochocinco. He has a show where he is dating a bunch of women and as the show progresses to the end eventually he will be left with the choice of choosing one woman who will become his mate..
..anyway I had a dream about them two.

I was talking with Ochocinco at what appeared to be a gathering of some sort.. like a get together for celebs and I so happen to be there.. maybe as a socialite? who knows. Anyway I found and still find ochocinco to be sexy! his eyes are powerful and I was drawn to them in my dream.
But as the dream flashed I found that I was dating Terrell Owens instead.
He was very charming in my dream and tending to me..treating me so wonderfully. I met his family and his mother. Although one of his assistants didn't like me.. and what is so funny she is really that way in real life towards some of the people that enter his life.
Anyways I felt this attraction to him and my goodness he knew exactly what to do and say..
..probably since it is my dream it can go any which way lol.
But overall it was an amazing dream.. I touched him, heard his voice and smelled the cologne he had on. Very very tall too...

Oh well just a fantasy dream..

My family had gotten a new computer. I might have been telling Axel about it. I read a story on the internet about a mom who had saved her son's face by tinkering with a chair. I also had a new laptop, which I spilled some crumbs on. I decided to make a new website and delete my old one (I actually had a couple of these), saying that the new one would be body part-free. Then I saw that I had every unit of my Biology class neatly organized into pages about everything we learned. I didn't want to delete it because it was so much work.

*yawn* I should stop watching Grey's Anatomy before bed. Tonight will be more interesting, really.

From two nights ago.

I was at a camp site at night. I was bouncing on my big red yoga ball, seeing how high I could go. I flew a bit at one point and was close to becoming lucid.

This is actually from three nights ago.

Series of Fragments 1
I was at a camp. I went to a lake, where there was a big wedding boat which caught on fire. I was the only one helping put it out, and all I had was a squirt bottle. My DJ says I almost ran out of time, so I guess I was being timed.
Then I was in a field. I couldn't find my horse, which made me sad because I missed him.
Next I was at a village where they were selling See's chocolate. I wandered around, but I was having issues focusing. I may have been close to lucidity here. I came to a building where an exclusive theater was performing a comedy. There was a long wait list for it, but my dad got us in. Outside there were some people dressed as clowns. I had a contact-putting-in race with someone, which I lost. I went into the theater and we gave someone a Flareon.
Callie (from Grey's Anatomy) was driving a helicopter upside down, trying to pick up one last person. The person jumped at the helicopter, which made it blow up. S and a random cat were blamed from the accident, but both were spared.
A little girl started screaming in the middle of a country road. She got hit by a bus, going through the windshield and landing in the back. Birk (also from Grey's Anatomy) started to treat her.

Series of Fragments 2
I was with my cousins. There were evil ants, so we had to be careful not to get splinters or they'd kill us.
My friend and I carried some things back to camp.
I almost got hit by some tennis balls.
I found an extra flip-flop, so now I had three of the same kind. They turned into boots.
Something about climbing stairs. Apparently I was a walking ad for ski boots.
I took a shower. There's something else written, but I can't read my handwriting.

Sorry, this is really boring. >.>

Dream started off with me at subway, then going to class right afterwards. The class I was in seemed to be bigger than normal, and seemed like it held around 600 hundred people or more. Although I was not paying attention to what the professor was talking about at the time, there was a professor at the front of class.

There was a very attractive girl sitting next to me in class, and we started to flirt a bit. During class she started to rub my "junk," and started talking dirty to me in my ear. After class was dismissed, she grabbed my hand and brought me behind a trailer that was just outside the classroom we were in. There, she told me how she wanted to bring me back to her place and have sex. She brought me in close and tried to make out with me.

"I can't, I am sorry but I can't do this! I have a girlfriend," I said to her in sincere honesty.

"Fine, have it your way you fucking asshole," the attractive girl said before she left.

I sit there behind the trailer by myself for a little bit until I see my girlfriend approach me from behind and proceeded to give me a big hug. I think she might have drove me home after that, but I am not 100% sure.

_________

I am staring at a wooden floor in my house, and there is a floor sweeper standing on it's end straight up. I thought to myself that this could be a dream. However, before I could even do an RC I had woken up.

_________

I am standing behind a glass door that has some words on it. I am about to walk outside, but I decide to do an RC to see if I am dreaming. Sure enough, every time I looked back at the words they changed into symbols or different letters.

"This is a dream!? it is so fucking vivid... I better do some more RCs just to make sure," I thought to myself.

The short lived LD then ended as I saw a Camry outside of the door that my mom was ordering for me to move out of the driveway for some reason. Before I could do any more RCs, I completely forgot about doing any more RCs and continued on my way out the glass door to the Camry.

I put it in reverse, but the car would not stop. I slammed on the breaks, attempted to put it into drive or parking, but the Camry kept going in reverse. All of a sudden I remember my mom and several other people watching in horror as I was going in reverse uncontrollably in circles in the street.