non-lucid

Inspired by my desire to somehow rid myself of my sleep-mumbling habit, in light of having to share a room with someone for the next year, I return! I hope to use lucid dreaming to find my dream guide and try to find someway to solve this, among with all the other wonderful things that come with lucid dreaming. Also, my newfound interest in horror films and books, being able to lucid dream may come in handy should I find myself at the grips of one of the serial killers I read about each day.

I am not yet in the habit to doing reality checks yet. I usually do reality checks by pinching my nose and breathing through it, or trying to push my hand through my other hand and looking at my fingers and such.

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I was going to see a show that Ethan and Hila was holding at a very large amphitheatre. The theatre had many red seats ascending. I met them, also.

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After watching a YouTube video about 'gang stalking', I dreamt of gang stalking on another level. These huge government co-operations had set up huge Hollywood-like sets to completely control and manipulate their victims. The victims because they were aware that they were being stalked were drove to insanity because they were unable to escape it. It was as though they were in the Truman Show. The victim was forced to suicide, sadly. The entity that gang stalked the person then moved on to get ready to control their next victim.

[dream signs]: Celebrities

I don't remember much about this dream. I just remember that I was outside of building along a coastline. It was the hour of Twilight and music began to play in the background. This girl sang along with it. She sang "Do you have what it takes to kill me?" over and over again. She was daring me to kill her or at the very least, daring me to try. I never figured out who this girl was or what her deal was.

Here's the music I heard. It's not the greatest, I just kinda threw it together: https://soundcloud.com/ghostchild191/untitled

We just got out of our hotel in Saudi Arabia. I pull out my camera but something is spilled on it and I'm not sure I can clean it up.

Going to a restaurant I saw in a tour guide, but the lines are huge. A person is with us. I have a feeling she is rich, not saudi, but lives there for a while. We ask her to recommend a place.

Then something if I got all my scans done since I was in the Royal hospital. It was suppose to be top of the line and free, or maybe she paid for it.

Date of Dream: SUN 5 NOV - 2017



Dream No. 223 - Dream Guide To The Rescue

I don't remember how the dream started. From where I can remember, my parents and I are looking for a specific building. I thought it was one building but they said it was another one. We ended up entering this building that looked like a hospital from the outside, although we were intending on utilising the building for a different purpose. Although we entered from the bottom floor, once we got in, the dream started us off from the top floor. The inside of the building was old fashioned and carpeted, looking like the inside of a hotel.

We were supposed to reach the bottom floor for something. There were heaps of floors but I insisted that I would take the stairs. My parents ended up taking the lift by themselves. I had to be careful and time how I got down the stairs... I didn't want the lift doors opening right in front of me and scaring the heck out of me. There were actually lift doors placed in weird spaces so the timing was tricky to master, but I was successful... I always checked what floor the lift was on and made sure I didn't reach that floor at the same time.

We eventually all reached the bottom and came outside, ending up on this wooden patio, which was now near our needed destination for the house inspection we were attending. My mum had all of a sudden fallen off the patio, head first, into some porridge-like goop. I subconsciously knew that there was a grinding machine down there and my mum was being well and truly sucked towards it. It appears as though all the family were in the dream now... My brother had randomly spawned onto the patio.

So back to what was happening with my mum. As soon as my mum fell in and I lost sight of her, I screamed “OMG mum!”. I then looked up at my dad and my brother, hoping they wouldn't be mad at me for my next move. I didn't care about how anyone would act after that... I looked back at the sight of disaster and yelled at full volume “Dreamy WB!”. From that point, I felt like I was by myself, so I doubled over and ended up crying in shock, imagining what would happen to my mum if Dreamy WB didn't hear me. During my episode of crying, I tried to visualise what Dreamy WB would look like in this dream, to reinforce the idea of her presence.

It wasn't long before two heads popped out of the goop. Miraculously, Dreamy WB had my mum under her arm, pulling herself onto the patio and then helping my mum up. I was surprised to see that Dreamy WB's features had blended into the colour of the goop... I thought her hair would rather stand out so I would be spotting her before she came up. She told me she dyed parts of her hair blonde. She flipped her straight black hair upwards and indeed it was inversely blonde underneath. As I wanted to say something else to her, she put her hair back down.

I realised that to exit the building, we had to go back up and I would get exhausted from climbing millions of flights of stairs, so I asked Dreamy WB to help me take the lift. She agreed and told me to stand to the side next to the entrance of the building... We were about to rehearse how she was going to hold me. She then came around me and put a white cloth on one of my shoulders. After that, she hugged me from the side... The cloth had somehow amplified her energy, making me more relaxed than usual. We never actually got to the lift though... The dream ended.



Dream Trophies Achieved:
- Putting The Pieces Together (Receive 10 hugs from Dreamy WB)
>> 1. Tight hug at the swimming carnival (136 A).
>> 2. Hugged me after the hissing kitten (164 A).
>> 3. Hugged me when I found her at the hairdressers (167 A).
>> 4. Hugged me when the water was rising (183).
>> 5. Held me in a hugging position before the dental appointment (201 A).
>> 6. Held me in a hugging position on the board (201 B).
>> 7. Gave both my mum and I affection when we were distressed (206).
>> 8. Just randomly gave me a hug out of the blue (208).
>> 9. Gave me heaps of affection before promising to put me to bed (216 B).
>> 10. Hugged me when practising a position for the lift (223).



I was considering even when I haven't achieved a Dream Trophy, I'd make a regular counter for some things. I'll be adding more of them when I get the inspiration to:

Hugs Received From Dreamy WB: 10
Hugs Received From WB: 3
I've Been Saved From Nightmares How Many Times?: 0
I've Been Saved From General Dream Disasters How Many Times?: 18
Mum's Been Saved/Helped How Many Times?: 2
Dad's Been Saved/Helped How Many Times?: 0
Brother's Been Saved/Helped How Many Times?: 1
Grandma's Been Saved/Helped How Many Times?: 0

Date of Dream: SAT 4 NOV - 2017



Dream No. 222 - Pesky Family Traits

I can't remember much of this dream. From what I can remember, my family and I were on some sort of holiday. Were in this restaurant area of a hotel and we were all eating breakfast. On my plate, I had bread, sausages, egg and porridge. I ate everything except the porridge when a stranger came up to me and said that something like that I was sick in the head for not wanting to eat the porridge.

Throughout the dream, there were also some other negative events. There were a lot of times during this holiday that my family had disputes. It was the breakfast event that got mostly on my nerves though. The next scene in the dream is where my brother and I were walking along some road bordering a beach. I said to NB that I was going to go and see my dream guide. He accepted my preposition and let me walk off to find my dream guide.

I realised that in this dream, Dreamy WB resided mysteriously in another dimension... She was below the ocean-floor. The dream then visually showed me how I could get to her. There was this box-like pit somewhere in the ocean and if I went down there, the floor would twist up and unveil an entrance. I actually considered not going for once... I really deeply thought about what would happen if I twisted the floor up; all the ocean would come through and flood her place. So I had to make a sacrifice and chose not to go. I can't remember any more of the dream.



Dream Trophies Achieved:
- None

Date of Dream: FRI 3 NOV - 2017



Dream No. 221 - Inbox Anticipation

I don't remember a lot of this dream. From what I can remember, I was surfing the web on Facebook. I found that I was sharing a YouTube link to one of my music videos with a lot of people. I sent one message to WB who had a very odd Facebook name in the dream. I waiting in the inbox to see if she had gotten it. There eventually became a tick next to her name and I knew she actually clicked on the video and watched it. A lot of other people had seen the video too. I don't remember anything else about this dream.



Dream Trophies Achieved:
- None

Date of Dream: WED 1 NOV - 2017



Dream No. 220 - A Much Needed Break

I was at some unknown town, in some nearby accommodation with my mum, brother and grandma. I thought to myself that I wanted to spend some time with Dreamy WB. I was in a room of the accommodation house just by myself. By just thinking about her, strangely this Betty Rubble plush toy appears in front of me. I thought to myself once more, “Is Dreamy WB for real?”. She must have been wanting to prank me or something. I picked the toy up and discovered that it was in fact Dreamy WB... If not her personality, I could feel her energy emanating from that toy.

I then said to my mum, “I'm going for a walk” and then when I got outside, I said to myself, “I've got to take Dreamy WB for a walk now”. The area around the accommodation was very green and lush with some stone walking tracks. I forgot the scene after returning to the accommodation. The next scene played where I was backing up a car into a parking spot at one of the shops nearby. I then got out of the car and saw people everywhere.

Back at the accommodation site, I asked to hold a “meeting” with everyone. I seemed to be shorter than everyone standing, so I asked for a platform of some sort. This random white podium appeared in front of me and so I stepped onto it. I complained that because everyone was here, they were stopping their children from attending school. I said that if I heard the children were getting bad marks, I would ask their family to leave. I don't remember anything else about this dream.



Dream Trophies Achieved:
- None

Date of Dream: SAT 28 OCT - 2017



Dream No. 219 - Find My Hard Drive

I don't remember how the dream started. From where I can remember, I was on some yellow bus. I soon realised it was a school bus and so my brother and I wanted to get off. He got off but the bus driver started driving again before I could step off. I signalled to my mum that I would get off at the next stop. I sat back down and then saw WB and LB coming onto the bus. LB sat in front of me and WB sat a row further. WB was asking me to help her look for her hard drive, so I went up and sat next to her.

The bus had stopped again and my mum was out there. I signalled for her not to worry, I would would be out once I found the hard drive. Then the bus continued and WB was actually talking with me. I looked through her backpack and saw a few items in there. She told me during the ride that she took those items on her last holiday. I was then pleasantly surprised to see one page out of a book of further maths notes that I written for her previously.

I eventually found her hard drive which was at the bottom of the bag. I then asked her about a catch up and she said that next week would be okay. The bus stopped again and my mum was waiting outside. I signalled to her that I was just saying goodbye. WB then actually gave me a quick hug while nodding to me, saying “see you next week”. I then finally got off the bus and went to my mum.

There is a second part to the dream that I can't remember much of. We are at the place of the catch us, this random restaurant/cafe place. There are two boys sitting on the same bench as us. That's all I can remember for this dream.



Dream Trophies Achieved:
- None

Date of Dream: FRI 27 OCT - 2017



Dream No. 218 - Another Dream Guide Unveiled

I have forgotten what happened at the start of the dream. From where I can remember, I spent the entire dream looking for Dreamy WB. I was calling for her on repeat, like a broken record while I looked around everywhere for her. At one point, when I hit a big town, some random guy told me she was 3,200 kilometres away. Other people in the town were also requesting her presence but not by calling her name. They were just looking at the ground in despair and their energies gave the intention away. I thought to myself, “they're struggling but I can do this”. I went to the other side of town but still could not get her.

At the end of the dream, I ended up at this long dining table in a house with a big group of people. I noticed NN was sitting next to me... At least I thought so... Then I started to become confused. I look up at him and his hairstyle is a massive version of curly to real life, his hair was as tall as a garden hedge. Also, his hand was in a static position on my back. It was confirmed... It was actually Dreamy NN who has never been in existence before this dream. The dream then ended.



Dream Trophies Achieved:
- None

Date of Dream: THU 26 OCT - 2017



Dream No. 217 - What An Insult

I have forgotten most of the dream. From what I do remember, I was doing some shopping in Coles. I ended being served by this young guy who tried to be cute with me but I didn't seem to appreciate it. Throughout the dream, there were also references made to WB but she never appeared.



Dream Trophies Achieved:
- None

Morning of November 6, 2017. Monday.



In my dream, I am seemingly implied to be in our present home, though it is very different. For a time, our youngest son is watching television and our youngest daughter is also present. (In my dream, our television seems to be in the center of a much larger version of our kitchen and facing north. In actuality, it is in our lounge room and faces south.)

At one point, there are distortions in the television screen. There is too much red dominating the overall image. I read the instruction manual and there is information about adjusting colors. It specifically mentions that the small elongated knob for adjusting red is to the right of the knob for adjustment of the extent of black and that the knob for red must be turned to the left to decrease the color and prevent it from being too bright or bleeding into other images. There are a number of small plastic knobs on the back of the television.

After a time, I notice that it appears to have worked. The picture looks a bit more balanced. However, I eventually notice that features that are supposed to be red (including some sort of oval timer superimposed at the top left of the screen) are now a pale purple and I consider adjusting it again.

Our youngest son watches a show about video games and their characters. I notice that the television is on its side so that now the image is vertically rectangular, yet fits the scenes that show people standing, as their feet are correctly downward. This seems strange to me. Eventually however, the television is back in its previous position where it is viewed as normal widescreen. Still, I had placed it on the floor yet consider it is not really watchable while in that position. During this time, I had not adjusted other knobs.

I adjust the knob for red again, slowly turning it a short distance back to the right, as well as turning a few knobs for other colors. Soon, something happens and the picture becomes smaller and there are now only random horizontal white lines on the screen. This occurs after a sort of popping noise. Our youngest daughter puts her feet against the screen. I consider that I must have destroyed the television by changing the colors too much. I know that it will be very expensive to replace.

I go to tell Zsuzsanna about the ruined television. She is sitting back on our bed. At first, I think she had injured her forehead somehow. I eventually see that she has a black sleeping eye mask partly on though the eye patches are doubled up on her forehead, above the area between her eyes. My dream eventually fades from this point.

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There are a few subliminal dream state indicators here. One is how the television is on its side at one point as relating to how the physical body is different in sleep in lying down - as well as the eyes seeing the environment as “turned sideways” when lying on one’s side. The main indicator is my subliminal knowledge of red being an end marker for the dream state. Red typically only dominates a dream when I am closer to waking after sleeping a bit too long and as such, is analogous to a “red alert” (a more dominating RAS factor). Although I am not lucid, I still maintain this realization subliminally, and deliberately lower the red value in the television’s image. I do this by turning the knob to the left with the knob for black on the left side of that one, black symbolizing being unconscious, so a part of my unconsciousness is aware of this, that is, deliberately trying to go back into unconsciousness to sustain my dream, even though I am not otherwise viably lucid.

This aspect of black as symbolizing unconsciousness is carried over as a dream state indicator in seeing Zsuzsanna in bed though awake, yet having a black sleeping eye mask doubled up over her “third eye”. (The third eye refers to the gate that leads to inner realms, yet I still do not realize I am dreaming at this point. There have been thousands of dreams with very precise dream state indicators as in this dream, where I still did not become viably lucid, though many others where I have.)

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D1 - Trying to get away from a monster, it is delayed by a trap consisting of a thread of wire that it is temporarily snagged on. As I pass it catches me and pricks me drawing blood. A baby is born which i'm happy about but the blood contamination means that even though the monster died, it goes on to be born as a baby monster (looks weird like sultarana from drwho). So there are two babies.
I go to a magick conference to try and get advice from someone important about how to get rid of it but it uses it's powers (even though a baby) to make me forget. So I walk out and then on remembering have to try and get back in without an id card. This continues...


D2 - Walking down a steep valley towards a peninsula out into open sea. It is quite steep and I am having trouble with my footing. I can see below there has been some kind of eruption from a small island below, a great plume of grey and white smoke is billowing up, high into the air. Behind me a man tries to stop me going any nearer but I keep on, pushing his hands away.

Morning of November 6, 2017. Monday.



I am riding on a bus in an unknown area, possibly implied to be at night as I am not aware of much light. There are only a few other people on the bus, all unfamiliar. The bus driver is an unfamiliar female of about thirty. She is on the right side and the door is on the left, so it can be assumed to be associated with Australia. However, in my dream, I am not fully focused on my country of location, though mixed features and composites of buildings from two or more countries are common in my dreams. I perceive myself as being about half of my real age and in my twenties.

An unknown female is ready to get off the bus at the next stop, which is apparently also my stop. Curiously, the bus driver also checks out library books as people get off, which my dream self does not consider odd at all, though I do not recall any backstory as to where I had actually gotten the books. I do not notice any area on the bus that has books stored.

As I am getting my books checked out from the bus driver, I realize that I am also holding a number of my socks, perhaps about eight pairs, but I have accidentally dropped three or four onto the floor as well as into a laundry bag (that is full of other people’s socks) near the bus driver’s seat, on her left (and in front of me). I am somewhat annoyed upon doing this, as I do not want to lose my socks. I wake around this point.

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As I have studied my dreams all my life and resolved most of them and their basic meanings and components (including literal prescience when it comes to pass, which is very common for me), this one, despite its unusual nature, is very easy to grasp. It is simply a combination of two typical dream state end markers mashed together with a dream state indicator into one situation.

Getting off a bus symbolizes leaving the dream state. A checkout area (as otherwise in a store, library, hotel, or other location) also symbolizes leaving the dream state. Being aware of socks in this case is a dream state indicator as I do not wear socks in my sleep and thus perceive myself as carrying them in the waking transition. Books are a symbol of the emergent consciousness (a link to my conscious self identity of which is not extant in many non-lucid dreams) as critical thinking skills are not extant in non-lucid dreams. Basically, with this dream, my mind simply mixed the two transitional dream state end markers with a dream state indicator (subliminal thread of awareness that I had become unconscious but not with viable lucidity).

The core meaning, with a typical pattern of dream state synthesis (that is, mixing unrelated linear events, in this case as leaving a bus mixed with leaving a library and additionally linked to the subliminal realization of needing to get dressed after waking) should be obvious to a person of reasonable intelligence. One reason why I dream in a continuous cycle as such and virtually infinite mixes of specific markers for induction, dreaming itself, non-lucid dream state indicators, and otherwise clearly defined waking transitions, is due to having sincerely studied and resolved so many of my dreams since early childhood and as a result, have become very familiar with them and their nature as well as augmented clarity of mind with virtually no nightmares other than when health-related (biologically premonitory). There is nothing here (presently) that relates to real life (at least not yet, and I have not ridden a bus in real life in years - though it may loosely relate to the memory of carrying textbooks on a school bus).

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For those who do not already know, the bus driver here is the preconscious, though in this case there is no conflict as my dream self had already subliminally “agreed” to wake. (The biological purpose of the preconscious, a function of the reticular activating system or RAS, is to establish an association with the need to wake and attend to real physical needs or to alert the unconscious self to a real environmental noise or unknown event.)

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Miles long store

I'm working in a store of a size of a small city. There is thousands of workers, separate departments, shelves incredibly high, conveyor belts transporting goods and people.

We have 2 toilets and sleeping quarters near our department, so we don't even need to leave. Someone took our second toilet out and put shelves there. I don't like it and I set off to look for it. I walk for what seems like hours. I go so far, that I kinda get lost and I come to some kind of a border, where you need passports to get back into a store. I'm like I just left to find our toilet, didn't take my passport with me. But luckily I'm in my uniform and they let the bus with me and other people in uniform through.

Someone shows me a map of where I am and how to get back to my department. They make a mark with invisible ink which slowly starts to turn yellow. I gather that I need to follow yellow marks on the floor to get back.

I hop on a huge conveyor belt and then on another one. Map shows that I'm an 839 miles away from my department. I ask a guy how the hell did I walk that far?

I'm walking through a storage area. Look up and there are palets stacked 10 high and a bit leaning, leaving just a very narrow and winding passage through there. I hope an earthquake won't hit at that time.

I get to talk some girls and I find out they work in the thin mints isles. I'm like whoa, this place is huge, if 5-6 people stack just one item and it has so much shelf space. We make a plan to get together later.



Ophelia
I remembered this when I got up, all I remember now is what I wrote down.

Ophelia
work watter
I leave
it's you

At a point I had a DEILD ,I became lucid ,but lucidity was too low as usual, my visual aquity was unstable, all I remember that I was marvelled at how detailed a dream can be ,I was on a hillside, in a forest, then the dream changed and I lost lucidity.
Edit: I remember looking out the window, seeing a way , left the house, and looked around , the dream started to collapse ,I ran back but now there was only a white car, not my house.

In the next dream I was in a class, and I was talking to some people . A girl made some remarks about how that girl( she said the name of an old schoolmate I had , but she was another girl from another place) secretly likes me and have a crush on me , I thought is just a joke, why would she like me at all .... Then she said it herself ,calmly, wasnt surprised at all that her secret is out, then we made out for a while then I continued doing whatever I did...


Idk how I did not get lucid by this surreal scenario... a girl liking me, me being in school again..eh