non-lucid

Note: Technically, this wasn't a dream. Not entirely sure why I felt like putting on the DJ. Last night I was listening to the OST from STRAFE through some old headphones (80s I think) I have which make me almost unable to hear/feel the room if no music is playing, and I just had my eyes closed while listening.

The soundtrack feels a bit "melancholic" to me in general, but others might not think of it that way. I wasn't trying to think of anything in particular and some imagery formed, though with little vividness, hardly any more vivid than regular imagination. Forgot some of the details, since this was last night before going to sleep.

I couldn't recall any actual dreams today, my focus on waking up wasn't in the right place and ironically I'd forgotten about intents last night.

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As I was listening to second half of the OST, I had thoughts come and go of "darkness". Not vivid but dream-like imagery of being pulled down by my "dream" arm into pits - swarms of spiders and insects would appear and I wondered why it was that I could never have visualised a scene like this without feeling fear or horror in the past. Though the imagery wasn't strong, I still felt some disgust at some of the insects, particularly big ones.

This repeated itself in different ways a few times mixed with other passing thoughts I can't remember, related to the imagery. I remember thinking that this probably wasn't what I was "looking for" and thinking that it was interesting that a dream-like setting had formed.

Then as the soundtrack got into the last quarter the thoughts went sort of into the actual in-game area that the track would play in, though the imagery was still relatively weak vs an actual dream, I could sort of feel a dream-body and started remembering the black lizard from another of my DJ entries.
I started wanting to spot him but instead I realised that I was that lizard this time, seeing from first-person, but wearing a labcoat (which is one of my artificial dream-signs) and though I couldn't visualise clearly, I tried to do hand/finger reality checks; counting wasn't possible due to the low duration of physical memory and lack of "vision" - but passing my clawed fingers through my other hand's palm worked.

Though I was fully aware of the music being outside this and the fact that I was sitting on a chair, I felt it was important to try and do a RC to see if my mind would agree with what I was wanting to do. The place the "dream" body was in, was indeed dream-like, despite being awake.

As the music progressed I remember running through the halls of Athena (the in-game area) as if it were in the actual game, getting "deeper" into the area, "looking" down at my "dream" legs, noticing that they were scaly and black and that the feet were dinosaur-like, with 3 front claws and 1 rear claw or something like that; the in-game enemies were appearing and I attacked them with the claws I had and my large reptilian mouth, eating some of the smaller enemies and making particular note of all the blood that was showering from the enemies, just like it would in the game. I wondered, was this the darkness I was looking for? I concluded it wasn't. I tried to taste the blood but the sense wasn't strong enough since I could still feel my actual mouth too. I tried using the channeling effect from Warframe with my attacks but while this did disintegrate the enemies into energy, more seemed to appear from the dispersed energy.

As the music got to the last track I had on the list, which is the music for the final room in Athena, I realised I was standing where the boss would be. There was the player character down below in the chamber; he was autonomous and attacked the boss control room tower and shot towards me too, not penetrating the glass with the bullets. For some reason I taunted him by licking the glass, noticing the tongue to not be reptilian-like but being long, with somewhat better visuals than before. Then I remember breaking the glass and crawling down the wall as a lizard would and going for the player character and killing him; the hordes of enemies that were attacking him turned to me instead and I remember fighting them and soon after the music ended and the imagery ended, as if I'd" woken" up, despite having been "awake" the whole time.

Edit: Forgot to remove private entry checkbox, so changed that. (I sometimes check it so I don't post by accident when I'm sleepy and everything is half-typed ).

Edit2: Added a name to the title of the DJ entry so I can find it more easily when I'm looking for it.

Date of Dream: FRI 28 SEP - 2018



Dream No. 436 - Eastland Space

I don’t remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, my mum, grandma and I were going through a distorted version of Eastland Shopping Centre. Level 1, 2 and 3 were shops but there was also level 4 and 5 which was car parks and weird shops. We were still in the car when my mum drove onto the escalators and interestingly enough, the car stayed on there. I noticed though that once we were on level 5, my mum was driving the car into an elevator and so I immediately got out.

My mum and grandma stepped out of the car to see what was wrong and I told them. Apparently only these two elevators would lead to an area called “Eastland – Space”, which I can’t really describe. One elevator had circular lights and was very dark inside, the other one had triangular signal lights and was well lit inside; I could see from far away when the doors were open.

They asked me if I was sure I didn’t want to go with them. I told them I’d wait in the main part of the shopping centre as I walked around there. There was this odd fruit market in the level 5 car park that I was walking around while talking to my mum and grandma. One last time, they asked me if I was sure and I said yes. In the back of my mind, I was thinking, “I’d only ever be willing to take one with 18-Volt (or Dreamy WB)”. My mum and grandma then went in but they didn’t go with the car. I then saw a random guy walk into the dark elevator and then the dream ended.



Dream Challenges
- Have Logan receive harsh penalties from Dreamy WB due to reckless social behaviours (Achieved? Partially)
- Have all members on the dream guide team obtain and apply knowledge on how to provide in-dream discipline to unruly parents (Achieved? No)

Challenges
- Start the dream off with a dream guide already present (Achieved? No)



Dream 436: Results (Competition #7)
Competition Night: 27
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 8.0
Calculation Details:
- Full Non-Lucid Dream (1.0)
- 7-Day Recall Chain (7.0)

+ Previous Total: 102.0
Total Accumulated Points: 110.0

Date of Dream: THU 27 SEP - 2018



Dream No. 435 - Get Back In There!

I don’t remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, I was in some swampy area but it also looked like some fictional realm. I was going to jump down from some tall tower-like contraption and hopefully end up landing on this pink inflatable that was floating on the water. The only thing is though, when I landed, I knocked the pink inflatable away and sunk right down into the water.

This guy ended up pulling me out but I don’t know how to describe him. He was working as one of the safety officers for the area. He mentioned something about my “sacha” but I didn’t know who that was. I said to him that it was my aunty that I was doing something with and he said to me, correcting me, “that’s your sacha”. I can’t remember what else happened in this scene.

I was then in an unknown indoor area and TH was there. He was constructing something related to craft but I forgotten specifically what it was. I ended up offering to help him by cutting off the excess ribbons that were initially attached to the fabric. Once I had finished cutting the last of the ribbons, although he was in the room, I sent him a message on Facebook. Straight away, I received a reply saying “Thanks <3 ”. That scene then ended.

For the last scene of the dream, I was walking around my backyard when I started to call for 18-Volt, remembering the need for him to help me ride an elevator. I walked up and down the hill, at first with there being no response. Eventually though, I could hear rattling noises whenever I passed a bedroom window. These noises made me scared though and so I would always pace away from the windows rather than looking to see what was going on.

Eventually, my grandma sticks her head out of one of the windows as she notices me looking for 18-Volt. She tells me that he’s in the next door neighbour’s backyard. So I go up the hill and climb the fence, perching myself on it and trying to keep my balance as I stick my head over. I see heaps of people in their backyard but not 18-Volt. Apparently though, I discovered that with enough effort, one of the people in there would turn into 18-Volt himself.

A member of the crowd started to go into the garage where the transformation would apparently happen. Once they came out though, nothing happened and so I stepped in to facilitate the procedure. There was one man in the backyard that looked close to 18-Volt and so I chose him… He had the dark skin and his hair was up in a frizzy stick style already. Though when he walked into the garage and out again, nothing happened.

I gestured for him to go back in there but when he did, I saw him trying to secretly swap with a lady. Once he came out though, I caught him and I went “Nah uh! Get back in there!” as I pointed harshly towards the garage. Some guy wearing a blue painted mask on his face appeared and said that his name was Wind. He said he would go in there but I was feeling an energy from him like I was going to wake up if he went.

I was polite to this guy and told him “I don’t want you to go in there because you overwork yourself. I picked that guy because he’s got the African-like hair, the braids, the jacket”. Rather than the Wind guy going nasty, he actually smiled and graciously accepted. And then 18-Volt was actually starting to appear as a hologram beside my house in his realistic Game and Wario – Cover appearance. As this was happening though, I woke up.



Dream Tasks
- Have Logan receive harsh penalties from Dreamy WB due to reckless social behaviours (Achieved? Partially)
- Have all members on the dream guide team obtain and apply knowledge on how to provide in-dream discipline to unruly parents (Achieved? No)

Challenges
- Start the dream off with a dream guide already present (Achieved? No)



Dream 435: Results (Competition #7)
Competition Night: 26
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 1.0
Calculation Details:
- Full Non-Lucid Dream (1.0)

+ Previous Total: 101.0
Total Accumulated Points: 102.0

Date of Dream: WED 26 SEP - 2018



Dream No. 434 - Separated Sections

Dream 434 A - The DreamViews Bully
I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I was chatting on the DreamViews Discord page. I was talking about what strategies I was using in my dreams but one of the users started to get very nasty and ridicule me. He stated that “this nonsense is coming from a high school student”, so he was insinuating that I was in high school.

Later in the dream, I was talking to my brother and showing him the thread that I was bullied in. I then stated to him “little does this guy know that I’m university now… Actually in the second year of university”. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.

Dream 434 B - Family Interruptions
I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I was first at my local shopping centre but I forgot what I was doing there. In the next scene, I was back at home and I was trying my hardest to see if I could summon 18-Volt to get me into that elevator. Rather than calling out loudly, I was trying to recite for him quietly as well as attempting to locate my book and write a few things down if I could.

I was quietly reciting, my dad came up to me and so I had to stop so he wouldn’t hear me. He asked what I was doing but I didn’t tell him. Once he walked away, I continued on what I was doing but soon after, my grandma came. She mentioned something about cooking but I have forgotten the specific details. Then my dad comes again. It’s like my family were coming regularly to intentionally interrupt me and make sure I couldn’t achieve my task. Eventually, the dream ended, I achieved nothing, and I was annoyed because I was actually trying so hard.



Dream Tasks
- Have Logan receive harsh penalties from Dreamy WB due to reckless social behaviours (Achieved? Partially)
- Have all members on the dream guide team obtain and apply knowledge on how to provide in-dream discipline to unruly parents (Achieved? No)

Challenges
- Start the dream off with a dream guide already present (Achieved? No)



Dream 434: Results (Competition #7)

434 A
Competition Night: 25
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

434 B
Competition Night: 25
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 6.0
Calculation Details:
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)
- 5-Day Recall Chain (5.0)

+ Previous Total: 95.0
Total Accumulated Points: 101.0

Date of Dream: TUE 25 SEP - 2018



Dream No. 433 - Separated Sections

Dream 433 A - Primary School Girls
I don’t remember much about this dream. From what I can remember, there was mention of these two girls from my primary school. Both of them were going to drive me somewhere. That’s all I can remember.

Dream 433 B - I Don't Want Your Help
I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I was writing in my exercise book like I was in real life. I was also writing the same as in waking life, figuring out more strategies about how I could get 18-Volt to help me into an elevator. The only thing is though that everything in the dream was insinuating that my year 6 teacher was going to take me and I felt very uncomfortable about that. My mind was going “no you stupid! I want 18-Volt!”. After this, I woke up.



Dream Tasks
- Have Logan receive harsh penalties from Dreamy WB due to reckless social behaviours (Achieved? Partially)
- Have all members on the dream guide team obtain and apply knowledge on how to provide in-dream discipline to unruly parents (Achieved? No)

Challenges
- Start the dream off with a dream guide already present (Achieved? No)



Dream 433: Results (Competition #7)

433 A
Competition Night: 24
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

433 B
Competition Night: 24
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 1.0
Calculation Details:
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)

+ Previous Total: 94.0
Total Accumulated Points: 95.0

Date of Dream: MON 24 SEP - 2018



Dream No. 432 - Sad Student

I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, the dream started off in the backyard of my old house. PL walked out from the house and for some reason he was crying. In the dream, I thought he was being stupid and I was completely embarrassed at the scene this dream had given me. That’s all I can remember about this dream.



Dream Tasks
- Have Logan receive harsh penalties from Dreamy WB due to reckless social behaviours (Achieved? Partially)
- Have all members on the dream guide team obtain and apply knowledge on how to provide in-dream discipline to unruly parents (Achieved? No)

Challenges
- Start the dream off with a dream guide already present (Achieved? No)



Dream 432: Results (Competition #7)
Competition Night: 23
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 3.5
Calculation Details:
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)
- 3-Day Recall Chain (3.0)

+ Previous Total: 90.5
Total Accumulated Points: 94.0

Date of Dream: SUN 23 SEP - 2018



Dream No. 431 - Separated Sections

Dream 431 A - Cooper Gang Meet And Greet
I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I read somewhere on the internet that the Cooper Gang were coming to Melbourne for a public meet and greet. I arrived at 12:00 PM at the venue which was situated near Federation Square and no one was there. I then went onto this website on the internet and saw that the Cooper Gang meet and greet was from 11:56 AM to 11:59 AM, so apparently I had just missed it by one minute.

Later on in the dream, Murray was hosting some events and so I went to one of them. Apparently he was hosting three separate things and I went to the second one, I forgot what the topic was though. I felt special because Murray also let me get an autograph and photo with him. That’s all I can remember about this dream.

Dream 431 B - No Guide To Help Us
I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I was at some completely unknown area. It felt like the car park of some shopping centre but at the same time it wasn’t. There was this boy that came up to me and said he needed my help. Once again, I said to him that I would my dream guides to come and help us. In equal measures, I attempted to call for both Dreamy WB and 18-Volt. I kept calling but neither of them showed up.

I figured that maybe I would have a better chance from the top and so I went with the boy up to street level. Even on street level though, I called and no one showed up. Nearing the end of the dream, I was getting frustrated. Eventually, I woke up.



Dream Tasks
- Have Logan receive harsh penalties from Dreamy WB due to reckless social behaviours (Achieved? Partially)
- Have all members on the dream guide team obtain and apply knowledge on how to provide in-dream discipline to unruly parents (Achieved? No)

Challenges
- Start the dream off with a dream guide already present (Achieved? No)



Dream 431: Results (Competition #7)

431 A
Competition Night: 22
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: Murray
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

431 B
Competition Night: 22
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 2.5
Calculation Details:
- Non-Lucid Fragment x2 (1.0)
- Have A Dream Guide Automatically Appear: Murray (0.5)
- Help someone in need (1.0)

+ Previous Total: 88.0
Total Accumulated Points: 90.5

Sep 29 2018

Background - i didn't get nearly enough sleep during the week (b/t 5 and 6.5 hours a night) so i haven't had lucids since last sunday and have only been remembering 1-2 dreams a night on avg. so maybe this was sort of an extended REM rebound effect? i didn't sit down to meditate (although at many points i made myself hyper-aware) or visit the bathhouse, but anyway i remembered to do math in most of my lucids, got to talk to my dream guide (or it felt like it), and got my subconscious to play music. p. cool night!

3 NLs - before waking at 5:30 (went to sleep 11:45) (fortunately i wrote all of these down)
* in 9, my parents are talking to "Mr Jeff" in the front porch, talking about walking sticks as "staves", they examine one i found in the forest when we went to the cabin at the beginning of august
* in 8, seeing an older woman out of the apartment who had just helped F and I with something or was maybe just visiting. she has the body of a younger person but has surface-level wrinkles, almost like they're a painted-on texture with no depth (they're white) and I think she even had black hair. but her skin also looks quite dry. she reminded me of one of my neighbors who walks two dogs
* in 512 (grandpa's house) with F and my dad. F and I are sitting at the dining table across from each other, dad is to the right. i have tea and she has water, my dad asks for some of my soft drink because there's some rule that anytime i have soft drinks he gets a portion (he used to do this IRL too ;_ but i tell him i'm drinking tea and that i don't (or barely) drink soft drinks anymore, he points out a detailed list of times i've had soft drinks over the last year. i'm eating a wrap and unexpectedly i see a splotch of guacamole getting pushed out of the top like a tube of toothpaste, i lick it so it doesn't fall and i can vividly remember the taste - it was spot-on. really good guac!

LD 1 - WILD after WBTB - after lots of HI coming close to successful WILD, finally it's sort of like an FA, in bed, can see light coming through curtain, sit up and move curtain (feel body shift into dream body). It's light out, I look around, look at body and try to transform, wake up. go back to sleep pretty quickly after that

LD chain 2 - WILD, DEILDs, and DILDs - too many so I'll only write summaries - didn't write all of these down because after finally waking from the chain I just dove right in to the second chain
* walking outside in area between 9 and neighbor's house, asked subconscious for music to play, got some symphonic. it came and went, but as it faded I would conduct it with my hands and it would get louder. after a bit the music changed to a medium tempo pop instrumental and I conducted it as well. I was focusing on the sight/sound/touch sensations involving the wood fence, white lattice, the foliage, grass, swingset, etc. very vivid
* converted FA in 8 bedroom, summoning big cuddly dogs (F's grandma has a big dog so whenever we go over there like we did yesterday, I cuddle with it); in the dream they're very warm, i'm starting to feel temperature more in dreams whereas before with touch i would only feel pressure; one of my goals is to actually feel the bones inside my hands and the muscle contractions
* something with F in 9, can't remember details now...
* morning daylight scene, approach white service van and enter, there's a moldy (not really decomposed but with a green patina almost?) girl in the back sort of under the carpet (skin sort of the texture of the under-carpet material in floor boards) I try to move her head and her fully black eyes open, I kiss her (or do CPR?) and every time I do she blows air at me, weird weird weird wtf
* there were a lot more (i'm getting vague impressions of more FAs and maybe one more outdoor one), they're just lost on me -- i'm giving it time and hopefully i'll catch a few more during the day

LD chain 3 - WILD, DEILDs, and DILDs - too many so I'll only write summaries - had these after a brief wakeup and pee
* met dream guide as pudgy girl (reminds me of an outgoing version of F's little cousin), talked to her about my thoughts and whether she was real. I didn't ask my subconscious for the dream guide, I just saw her and knew -- i asked "are you my DG?" and she said yes, we held hands and walked through a crowded mall and talked for a bit.
* fight/murder in crack, blame - there are two men and a woman, the man and woman are fighting (they're married?) on a second-story floor with long cracks perpindicular to the hallway, so that you can see through to the first story (long fall); the second man walks up and says something to the first man that makes him jump through the crack. the woman is distraught but turns to the second man (her lover?) for comfort. at first i'm a semi-lucid observer but after this i summon my dream guide and he shows up in a doorway behind me as a tall built older man, feel his sides (like obliques) through shirt and they're warm. he says it's the only way he could get to me (like KPAX sort of - why is a soap bubble round) (when I first see him I saw other girls who looked similar but definitely different to the girl DG from before, their eyes were different)
* red curtain in parent's bedroom and transition scene - cool technique where I was looking in a mirror and I summoned a huge red curtain and threw it sort of over and around me and wrapped myself in its suspended self to transition to the next dream, however the next dream was somehow "too small" and so it faded quickly as I couldn't get a grasp on it
* lost a lot of these too... will keep trying to recall

as i lay in bed trying to recall and recount these dreams, i'm perfectly still, when i finally do try to move there's heavy resistence and then a snap! and i awaken, it turns out i had been in a detailed FA the whole time, as a result I lost some of the lucids. before waking I could recall 13 lucids total. not too bummed though as I'm sure I'll have a lot tomorrow night too!

Morning of September 28, 2018. Friday.

Reading time (optimized): 3 min. Readability score: 54.



The library setting is where my conscious self identity, as in waking life, often carries and holds my dream self in an attempt to hold dynamics of intelligence and memory that typically cease to exist in non-lucid dream states, as the non-lucid subconscious and its personification as the dreamer has no viable connection to the unconscious mind or real life. Since early childhood, I have often tried to manifest books or something to read to bring about viably lucid threads of the emerging consciousness, which sometimes works to vivify my dream self’s status, but in this case, it is only the library with no focus on any specific book.

The otherwise unfamiliar library is close to my conscious self awareness but without viable lucidity or conscious self identity. (I do not know the implied country of its location.) My dream self is aware that I am asleep and dreaming, but it is a subliminal factor, that is, my dream self and conscious self have not coalesced. Physicality and tangibility still increase significantly. I am aware of the preconscious avatar sitting to my right and reading a book in the passive monitoring of my dream self’s status. It is an unfamiliar man of about fifty. I become more annoyed, as he is crowding me. I continue to maintain my focus of sleeping on my left side, as I am in reality. My dream continues to vivify. It is all thought and physicality. There has been no imagery yet.

Finally, my dream self achieves the mode of non-lucid dream control, established by the essence of the library, but without my conscious self identity. Vestibular system correlation commences, and I have thoughts of being a superhero. I fly around for a time as I usually do with this primary dream state factor. Despite not being lucid, I am familiar with the nature of creating and controlling my experience.

I consider that I am Superman, but not “the” Superman. At one point, I decide to have a blue cape rather than a red one. Eventually, I also see that I am wearing slacks and have mismatched socks. I have a blue sock on my left foot and a white sock on my right. I mentally will the bottom of my pants legs to tighten, grow longer and cover my feet, more so from the idea that superheroes do not wear regular pants. Despite having willed my cape to appear and eventually changing its color, I do not contemplate changing either of my socks’ colors.

In my dream’s final scene, I walk inside an area in the afternoon where a chain-link fence, of about ten feet in height, encloses an unknown warehouse. It turns at ninety degrees to match its adjacency to the building’s outer wall. There does not appear to be an exit on that side. (A fence of this nature is the synchronous division between the dream self and the conscious self and the subliminal distinction between the illusory physicality of the dream self’s fictitious body and the status of the real physical body in REM sleep.) The space is narrow. Still, I stop two criminals, both unfamiliar men, from stealing a device relating to communications technology. This scenario is the typical precursory RAS modulation and ultradian rhythm correlation, its rendering for curbing potential unchecked sustainment of the dream state, more so as a concurrent REM sleep safeguard than having anything to do with real life.

I carry the device back around the corner (RAS mediation) to see the owners of the warehouse. Even though the avatars are standing on each side of me and all can see, I have to describe what one criminal looks like to one of the warehouse owners. The avatars to my left are potential dream state revivifiers (I sleep on my left side), whereby the ones on the right are active preconscious (and possibly interconsciousness) threads. The communications device, which resembles a small shortwave radio, merges and coalesces with my dream self and subliminal conscious self identity, and I wake as a result.

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Additional notes: Mismatched socks represent the distinction between the fictitious dream self and the conscious self identity. It is one of those renderings that have occurred since early childhood in all modes (subliminal, liminal, and lucid) of the dream self. In lucidity, I am aware of the meaning, as I am aware of the dreaming and waking processes and how specific patterns manifest. It is not “symbolism” in the conventional sense as many people believe.

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Was dreaming all night. Sleeping about 8 hrs almost every day now, so exhausted from work.

Had a dream with one family I would rather forget about.

Awesome car chase at the end of another dream. It was a chevy, pretty powerful, fast. Insane car chase, we are driving (i'm in a front passenger seat) all over the place. On the steep bank of some kind of body of water. Coming down, rolling, catching on fire. That's when I switch to 3.person view. Our car is all flat with roof pushed in and on fire. But I know we are ok. My view gets back in a car and we continue.

I was also in foreign country. I want to say Israel, but it's just a feeling.

In this dream, I had become a part of a fleet of alien explorers. My mom told me to visit earth at least once a year as I said my goodbyes. At one point, the aliens on the spaceship I was on were debating something and then decided to go to an extraterrestrial art museum. There was this one exhibit that looked pretty small, but once you stepped into it you were in this alternate universe of fractal geometry in which every hole you go to transports you into a different part of the alternate universe. When I tried it out the first time I was able to find the exit, but the second time it took a little while. After we left, I was told I had to go to one of the regions of that exhibit to recover something. Once I got there all there was was a sculpture of a guy's head with a green, clean-shaven beard.

I was at work, taking a nap during my break. I consciously started hallucinating (sitting in a chair). I saw my arm and hands and moved them around. It was my dream body, but I think it looked 'glowy' and ghostly. Then I think I somehow managed to move my real body (no sleep paralysis) and my dream body at the same time, and step 'into my real body' (real hard to explain). It's like in the dream I was a ghost and I 'synched' my ghost form with my body. When this 'merge' happened, I felt a surge of power go through me. Like I was a god or something. Bizarre.

Rogan couch, cop n girl oth couch consoling, big dark office w fireplace, someone died or missing

Hulu/animated 9 backyard, girl "going on for 4 years you would think I'm crazy" little poorly drawn show about flamingo and other bird

I'm in the wilderness going to some vacation place for a month or so. Some of my friends are coming as well, but they won't be here for another few days. I end up at a house that we are sharing with another group of 3. I introduce myself to them and go out to explore the area. The wilderness is mainly alpine with some mountains in the distance and rolling hills and forests making up the surroundings. I know this place is meant to feel like a game where you achieve progression and unlock skills. I start walking towards the forest to chop some trees for crafting or something. The forest nearby is quite thin and I don't want to chop every tree down, so I move farther away, and find a much larger, thicker forest. I start to chop some big trees, but a tree guardian pops out and starts attacking me. It's a much higher level than I am but I try to fight it anyway. It ends up hitting me hard and permanently knocking down one of my stats. I decide to run back to the house and regroup. This is really when some emotion starts to kick in. I'm running freely, back through the fields, jumping off or over any obstacles that are in my way. All of the textures around me are very detailed and the roofs on some small buildings I'm passing look fairy tale-like. Right before arriving back at the house, I come across a bridge, but I jump right over it and land easily on the balcony of the house. I'm excited about all the other things I get to do and sit down on the balcony to gather my thoughts. The guys from the other group say hi and ask how it went for me. I reply by saying, "this feels like it's out of a dream." I look around a little longer before going inside. It appears that the owner we're renting from has stocked the kitchen full of food. I see breads, rolls, and boxes of other things.

Sep 27 2018

[F] Odonis - method (pencil), water?, visitation, name, shallow handshake/deep hug. Daylight, Mediterranean island southern coast (diff locations, and pencil happens indoors)

[D] Howl's Moving Castle w F, she's my boss somehow, we have something else we're focusing on but attn keeps returning to white square/rectangular building, after a couple of times looking at it realize the orangish cone/airwick shaped chimneyes lining the top in layers are telescoping and undulating, this is significant. Daylight, see it across open field

[F] Joke dream about kid warming up glass bowl of water and "ball of condos", parents are watching, amused, and crack jokes, kid embarassed, shift to pokemon evolution chart (one looks like a mon one is a regular object) (orange is the catalyst)