non-lucid

As FK's Nicholas, I saw an image of a vase of white roses, bleeding a few trails of red blood - I believed that this was a hallucination, thinking of it as "a bit of silliness" - and then I saw a mental image of Janette lying on a white couch, looking unwell, somehow connected with those roses. Now I'm sitting on that couch, and Janette's lying on her side with her head resting against my thigh, my hand in her hair. We're talking about a particular time in the past when things had been better between the three of us. As we talk, I'm thinking about how easily I revert to this version of myself when I'm around them - without thinking, my body language, my speech patterns change automatically. It's like taking off a mask.

POV shifts to show LaCroix. He's at some kind of charity event. At the moment he's talking to a man near a buffet table, a man he knows in some professional capacity, and a moment comes when he has to either eat or make some excuse. Without hesitating, he puts some item of food in his mouth. As a disembodied observer/Nicholas, I'm incredibly jealous of his ability to do that without flinching. It would make my life so much easier if I could pretend to eat - socialization revolves almost entirely around food and drink, so just imagine how much easier it would be to blend in. After a moment, LaCroix makes a displeased face, reaches for a napkin, and removes the thing in his mouth. He makes some comment about the poor quality of the food this year compared to previous years, and the man he's talking to agrees. LaCroix's posing as a gourmet, picky about what he eats - it's his usual trick, insulting the food wherever he goes. They make a joke about not being able to trust the food in a place that has such skinny staff, and then the man LaCroix's talking to complains that this event has gone downhill in general - disappointing for such a worthy charity. LaCroix makes a comment about the decline of morality as time goes by. He manages to say this with a straight face.

For whatever reason, I dreamed I could time travel.

I went back in time to the point that I was about 8 or 9 years old. I was at a friend's house, and it was late at night and it was raining. The family was furiously cleaning their house and preparing food. I remember the mom sweeping a pile of huge leaves that were lying in the living room into a dust pan. They all seemed to be preparing for company.

Then company arrived. It was a family I am friends with, only everybody was much younger. Some of them were only twelve. Other significant changes were the fact that one of the son's names was changed to Chris, another son wore glasses, and the eldest children of the family were some dumb-looking twin brothers.

We all sat down to eat. I kept glancing at one of the daughters. I think I had a crush on her.

After dinner, the Chris guy and another guy went into another room and started playing with legos. The daughter I had a crush on went in and sat down to watch them. I kind of stepped up next to her and asked if she was cold. She smiled gratefully but didn't reply. So I took off my coat, sort of draped it over her and tore out of the room. I was very shy.

The next day, we were outside playing. It was a beautiful sunny afternoon. My friend had a huge swing in his front yard. I got on it with the girl I had a crush on. I was still 8, but she was suddenly much older and appeared to be 19 or so. I sat on her lap and held on.

The swing got going, and instead of going just back and forth, it swung in circles around a pivot mounted on a high pole. The rope extended to be nearly a mile long, and the girl and I swooped around and around a huge radius at a thrilling speed.

I looked up at the girl. Her hair was blowing, she had her eyes closed, and her face was raised to the sun. She was smiling. I held on tighter, rested my head against her and watched the scenery speed by.

Then I dreamed we gave our dog a surgery enabling it to have puppies. Then she gave birth to a garish, florescent yellow dog. Think highlighter pen. It was weird. We also owned a steamroller.

...Later I drive to a combination of the back of a high school and the house of the brother and sister in law of M and J from 90 minutes north. While driving I got to a precarious point behind the football stadium where the road seemed to drop off to the left and the road was muddy. At some point I get to their house and they are allowing me to pick from a stack of golf balls that slowly disappeared...perhaps as I dug through them they sunk to the bottom of the container. One of them had like a snowman or a ghost figurine popped up out of the golf ball...useless as a golf ball. Another golf ball had a hole in it maybe where a ghost was pulled out of it. Later while looking for my car I run into the wife and we seem to have an attraction towards each other and I tell her she's one of the most beautiful women I've ever seen. She is crying and consoling in me and she helps me look for my car so I can get going so that the husband doesn't catch us getting close and we see her daughter and I wonder if the daughter I will be suspicious of us. The daughter is sitting inside of a barn-like structure. I either awake or I have a false awakening where I think about how the fact that I was looking for my car should have come to mind as a dream sign. I am at some point back in this area that's outside the back of a High School and in a shed or barn I see a sign that says Santa Claus can be found 750 feet up from here.

I realize that I'm dreaming and start flying up there knowing that I am the one to decide how far up is correct...that there is no need to worry about a specific distance. The dream gets a little fuzzy but I find the door and knock on it. I guess it is Santa Claus that opens the door...everything is still fuzzy. He says something like you can have anything you want and knowing that I'm in a dream the only things that I can keep with me after the dream is over are good lucid dreaming memories so I ask him to take me to my favorite place, but to surprise me. Just before that I thought about asking for my favorite grassy sea beach but I instead opted for a surprise. We seem to be transporting somewhere and for some reason I decide to help it along by doing my eye clench thing whenever I am in between dreaming and awake and trying to go into a dream. I should have just briefly closed my eyes - if anything at all. Anyway I woke myself up and found myself back in bed. I think that I confirmed it with an RC and was definitely convinced that I was awake back in my bed. Kind of early for Christmas, but a little gift either way. 225 Good string of lucids in recent nights.

Dream 1: I was Effie Trinket from the Hunger Games for Halloween, so I had this dream on Halloween night. So anyway, I dreamt that my marching band was getting ready for a parade and this one clarinet player named Makenzie asked me what I went as for Halloween. I pulled out my phone to show her a picture of me in my Effie Trinket costume, and showed her my picture. Makenzie didn't believe me and told me that I was crazy, even though she saw it with her own eyes, and threw my phone on the concrete and it shattered into a million pieces. Then, in the middle of the parade, I was playing my piccolo and somehow it blew up and then the entire band blew up and I was in some of my family's friends' (who we haven't seen in like six years) basement. The older brother named Alexander (who's like 21) was playing a teeny tiny xylophone. I asked him why and he stuck out his tongue at me. Then, I was skiing into a huge pit of cotton candy and then I woke up.

Dream 2: I once had a dream that I was at a huge water park with my family. My brother and I were going on these awesome water slides in which the floor dropped out of them and we shot down the tube and it was awesome. Well, when we got up there, each of the three slides had something wrong with it. The first one had no water, the second one was clogged with people, and the third one was working fine except for a huge gap in the middle of the slide. You had to slide down well enough to throw your body weight over the gap to the other part of the slide. We were about 200 feet up, and it was SUPER scary, but my brother went down first. He made it over the gap, but then, WHAM!!! He flew over the slide and onto the roof, which was just a net. Since the lifeguard wouldn't rescue him, I had to. I had to climb up over 200 feet in the air and rescue my brother from a net. It's terrifyingly high up, so I don't look down, even though I'm not afraid of heights. But I'm wet, so that gives me a better chance at slipping and falling. I grab his hand and slowly inch down the net, until it snaps and we plunge down, screaming at the top of our lungs. We land safely in the pool. Yay! We get out and my little sister makes me play Barbie dolls with her. "We're at a water park!" I shout, "let's do something fun!" Then, I realize we're hungry, so I see a rusty old pickup truck and a trail of cranberry muffins leading down a highway. My little sister drives us, and we almost run off the road, so we decide to get out and eat the trail of cranberry muffins and see where it leads us. By the time we reach the McDonald's, we are too full from all those muffins, so we decide to go back to the water park. Back at the water park, I see my eighth grade social studies teacher in the little kids' play area, going down a slide that a lifeguard said I was too big to go down the last time I visited the water park.

Dream 1

All I remember is being in a clothes shop with three girl DCs. One of them asked me If I was in love. I said yeah. Than she said "really? With who?" I thought about it and said "No,never mind. But sailor moon was in love with someone."(I said this randomly to change the topic.) She looked at me, laughed, than said we weren't talking about sailor moon. She than said if I wanted to see if someone loved me to ask what they think is mean about me and what they like about me. Than she started crying and said that hopefully I will find love unlike her relationship that went wrong.Than I woke up

Dream 2

I was in my living room with my Dad and my parakeets got out. I found this annoying because the girl I call Marisol kept escaping. My dad was acting like he didn't care about helping me that I got so mad I threw my hands out and Marisol hit the ground. She was dead now and I blamed my dad. But she came back to life so I was happy, put her in the cage than woke up.


Dream 3

I was in my house with my sister and she was telling me she didn't know how much potato to serve for dinner. I told her to just to serve two spoons. After that I remember seeing random DCs in my house who were supposedly bikers. I was talking to one of the guys when suddenly I heard a loud crash, motorcycles and two guys laughing outside. I asked if they were going to be okay and he said yeah.

I saw someone to the side smelling a peanut like it was marijuana too. I think I took it from the guy because he looked stupid when my mom came up to me and said she didn't want me hanging out with the guys anymore. I told her not to worry about it.The setting changed after a bit and I was with a secretary lady who was keeping secret files in her envelope.

But she dropped it and the bad guys were after her. I decided to take the elevator and went in but than it was starting to rattle. I didn't want to be crushed so i flew up and held it up as it was falling. The lady and managed to get out than I woke up.


Dream 4

I was in my house when my brother started saying he broke the law by hacking into a private system. He kept telling me how he wouldn't get caught but I assured him that he would. After that my cousin came into the picture and started pushing me back with her dream powers. I was confused at first thinking about how this reminded me of the recent episode of Magic Kaito.

Than that's when it hit me, this is a dream. So I called my cousin and was ready to send her into oblivion. She came upstairs but before i could do anything she split into three horses and ran away. I let it slide though and as i was walking adventure time characters came and they were running from wolves. They said the wolves were going to spread a contagious disease to us and we had to run away.

When we ran into the room the wolves appeared and started attacking. Jake told me to use my stretchy powers to defeat them. So i stretched onto some trees in the room and started attacking. When it finished we were safe from harm. But than the dream changed again and i was now walking in a crowd.

In it there were old men prisoners out for a walk and one of them touched my back. I felt disgusted by this and told my friend dc how a yucky old man prisoner touched my back. When we got inside i told her to wash my back with soap. But she kept saying no. A lady than came in, who was supposedly my mother saying that I'll be grounded if I keep raising my voice. I told her I didn't care because a smelly prisoner touched me. Thats when I noticed he was next to me smoking...

He said that I was going to regret saying that. I just moved away from him after he said that but he followed me. He was nicer though and pointed to a a anime poster that said friend in Japanese. The dream than shifted and I was in a room with a few DC girls. We were talking about a club poster that was called the anime Germany club. We thought it was related to Hetalia and how weird it was to have a fan club just for Germany.

But than the girl who started the club came and said there was nothing wrong with it. That they were gonna have fun making lots of counterfeit money. I pulled a dollar out of my purse and said who needs counterfeit money when you have real money. We laughed for a bit and said goodbye but than a girl said she found money on the floor.

I looked in my jean pocket and saw my money was falling out. I took it from them and started looking for the rest frantically. I found lots of them on the floor and one of the girls was talking to a boy on the table. I asked for her help but she said no and just kept talking. We got into a huge argument after that and I threw a plate at her. It missed but than she took it and smacked me with it. My nose was now bleeding and the boy with her spoke saying to never treat another person without respect.

I mocked his British voice and told him if he thinks flirting with a boy is better than helping a friend he is stupid. He left after that and the class started. I saw there was pizza in my book bag though and tried getting it out. It did not come out though. Some boy with purple hair and hazel eyes asked me if I could sleep with him and be his girl. I said no than woke up after getting the pizza out and into the garbage.

Dream 5

I recall looking for Dawn when suddenly i ended up in a mountainous area with the old man from The legend Of Korra. I was Aang and he asked me why I was so interested in Dawn. I described all the things I liked about Dawn and he just looked to the other side unable to comprehend what I said.

I than appeared in a corner where I use to take the bus than in a house. In the house there was a lady with a carriage and she was treating her little boy bad. I told her to stop and pushed her hand away. She was mad but I just changed the scene by opening and closing my eyes.I was now in a room with Dawn and he was going to take a small pink pill. I went to grab it but somehow it ended up in my mouth.

I ran to the bathroom, and rinsed my mouth after i threw the pill out. I could hear the narrator from the show A Thousand Ways To Die talk about how I threw the pill out in time and survived.

I don't remember much from the first dream I can remember from last night. I do remember being at a museum where supposedly the first "selfie" from the year 1010 could be found. It wasn't taken with a camera, of course, and it was actually a complete accident. Apparently a family had gone skydiving and the imprint from where their faces had hit the ground became fossilized, so this "selfie" was just a fossilized impression of people's faces. I was disappointed when I saw it, though. It was just a chalk outline of where the people had fallen, and someone had actually drawn these people on the piece of rock, which I thought was kind of wrong because it was in a cartoonish style and therefore inaccurate.

After that, I recall talking with some guy about Cruisin' USA (an old N64 racing game I used to have; I eventually traded it in a few years ago because, every time nostalgia told me to play that game, I was let down by the awful graphics and the cars' terrible handling). We then heard music from that game coming from somewhere nearby, so we started wandering around the floor of my residence hall trying to figure out which room someone was playing it in.

I woke up from that and had another strange dream when I went back to sleep. My parents were both visiting me at college, and I recommended that they see the Rocky Horror Show (my school's theater production this semester). I haven't seen it yet, but I've heard it's awesome. At some point, I remember noticing that my parents had left, so I started looking for them to see if they were still around. I ran out through the back door (I was in my house now for some reason - technically my old house, but my family just moved this summer, and I've hardly spent any time in the new house because I left for college a few days after we moved and have only been home for one weekend since). When I didn't see my parents there, I ran out the front door and saw my mom's car still in the driveway... packed full of my fraternity Brothers. That was confusing at first, but then they all shouted, "Thank you for helping your mother!" It turned out my mom was in the car too and had recruited them all to say that for some reason.

I woke up again but went back to sleep again. In this next dream, there was a floor event in my residence hall. I saw Jackie, one of my fraternity Brothers (we refer to everyone as a Brother regardless of gender), which surprised me because I didn't know she lived on my floor or even in my building (in reality, she does not). Anyway, the "event" was that everyone would be given a big crossword puzzle to take with them and do throughout the day, and whoever finished it first could return it to get a prize.

For some reason, at some point, we ended up outside by a road intersection off-campus. I decided to leave early and return to campus, which is when things started getting strange. By the time I was back on campus, I found it really hard to walk forward. There was some slight wind at the time, so I thought that could be attributed to the wind, but the wind didn't seem strong enough to interfere with walking. I thought it was strange, but I saw that everyone else was affected in the same way, so I figured it was probably just the wind after all.

When I got back to my dorm, I realized I'd forgotten to take a crossword puzzle from the event, so I decided to text Jackie to ask her if she could bring one back for me, but I didn't have her number, and I didn't know who else I could ask. I also remember getting a bunch of texts from my boyfriend throughout this dream and the last that I felt kind of bad about not having the time to reply to.

The dream suddenly because a Sims 3 game, and, since time can be sped up in the game, I accidentally fast-forwarded time (on the fastest setting) to a couple hours later before finally pausing it. I knew for sure now that I wouldn't be able to ask Jackie to get me a crossword puzzle because there's no way that "event" would still be going on. I also felt bad about not replying to my boyfriend's texts now that even more time had passed.

I realized after awhile that something didn't look quite right about the game interface, though I couldn't quite pinpoint what it was that was different. I did an RC when I noticed that and counted six fingers. I was dreaming! I counted again just to make sure. Seven fingers. Definitely dreaming! Instead of being all clueless as usual when I become lucid, I said out loud, "Now, this is where the fun begins."

Since I had no plan for the dream, I ran around, looking for something fun to do in a dream (I was no longer playing Sims anymore). I found a buffet table. I could eat! No, no, that's something I can do while I'm awake. Then, I spotted an empty glass and an empty silver pitcher on the table and decided now it was time to learn to exert some control over the dream. I decided that, if I poured the "empty" pitcher into the cup, I'd be pouring a drink out of it instead of nothing. I decided it'd be "something like eggnog" (the first thing that came to mind), but not quite the same, because why drink something in a dream I can drink in real life? The drink that came out was white and a little thick, but it didn't taste at all like eggnog. It was creamy, though, and kind of sweet, and... fizzy? I was actually surprised when I tasted something that was slightly fizzy because I wasn't expecting that.

I realized while I was drinking it that I was wearing my retainer, and my reaction to that was my one fatal mistake. I decided I should take my retainer out, but, instead of doing something quick like tossing it on the floor (who cares what happens to it if it's a dream and not real life?), I decided to find the case for it and put it back in its case. That was my big mistake because everything went dark, so I realized I was waking up because this had torn me away from what was keeping me occupied. Once I started to feel myself lying in bed, I knew that was it. I opened my eyes, disappointed I'd caused myself to wake up because of something so silly but also proud of myself for having had some control over not just myself but the dream environment itself.

I did one final RC just to ensure I was awake. Five fingers. I counted again. Five fingers again. Yep, definitely awake this time.

More sludgy dreams last night. I'm kinda going on break while this dry spell blows over.

-Something to do with living in Texas. An atomic bomb went off and destroyed our house. Somehow I survived unharmed and tried to make my way out of the irradiated area. I encountered this Asian man fishing by a river, who said that he could help decontaminate the radiation from me.

-I went back in time. I was in a government building trying to stop the bomb launch. I was fighting this secret service agent who was like 80 years old but a really good fighter. He kept on throwing glass bottles at me. I was barefoot for some reason and trying not to step on the glass.
The fight ended with the man smiling at me and saying something like "You don't truly know someone until you've fought them..."

I woke up a lot of times last night and I was really happy with the recall that I had. I was sure I'd get an LD from all the MILDs I did while going back to sleep, but I'm still happy even though I didn't LD. Maybe it was because I was really tired so I was able to MILD for only like 5 seconds before my mind drifted off.

Dream 1
I am in the NFL and I am a superstar running back. I kept on evading tackle after tackle.

Dream 2
I am in this house and there are these monster type things going around killing people. There was a scene where a security guard was looking at something, and a monster snuck up behind him and stabbed him. I was standing in a bedroom and someone asked me something and I was sure that I knew who did it, because I was the best detective ever.

Dream 3
I was in my teacher's classroom with one of my friends, who isn't in that class IWl. It had something to do with basketball too.

Dream 4
I stop my car at a stop sign by my old Elementary School. I am going to Open Gym for Basketball.

Dream 5
My mom thought someone stole a red towel that she had, so we all got in the car and drove around looking for it. I saw a house with a red towel hanging out to dry and I thought that was it, but then I saw another house with a red towel. I then realized that all the houses had a red towel hanging out to dry and I was wondering how we were going to figure out which one was ours.

Dream 6
I have a bible study at my house because the person who's house we usually go to has something else to do. B pulls up in my driveway in a silver car. The driveway goes right up to my front door, instead of having a sidewalk like IWL. I look around and the house is really messy and disorganized. I make a mental note to apologize when the people come in. I know my mom will be mad because the house is dirty and people are coming over and she doesn't know about it.

Dream 7
My mom suddenly knew how to speak Spanish and was teaching me different words and we were having some mini conversations. I had chicken nuggets in the over and I took them out to eat. I was wondering what time I should eat the chicken nuggets at.

Dream 8
I am in a class at my school...it's not an actual class I have. There are some people in there from my church who are the kids of the church staff. We get to go home early that day and they have to go directly to church to help clean up and I feel bad for them because that would be a total waste of the rest of the day. I am then in the band room of the middle school I went to. There are pictures and videos of nude people dancing and some of my teachers are in them. I am sickened by the sight of that.

Dream 9
I am sitting in a circle of chairs in the library talking about how many computers you should own and which computers are the best.

Dream 10
I am outside another kid's house. His neighborhood is a really long street and there are a bunch of houses on each side, with perfectly green lawns. M, E, J, and another kid are having are playing football. E is in a white shirt and it for some reason got soaking wet. She is really hot and I stare at her chest. The other kid is now just in his underwear, and the other's comment on how he always does that. He was looking around for his clothes. I see about four little kids playing football behind my car which is parked in the driveway. I exclaim that I recognize one of the kids from a basketball camp. I then say that we are best friends. I go on my Ipod and look on Instagram, nobody has liked the pictures I've posted and I feel bad about that. I think that my next post should be of me at open gym, but I think that may be a bit stupid and won't get any likes, so I decide not to. I then try to decide if I should get Twitter.

Dream 1

I don't remember anything.

Dream 2

Something that I don't remember happened.But what i do recall is being with Dawn somewhere. We than appeared on a train that was supposedly hijacked by a villain who wanted to drown everyone. I held on tight as the train was moving fast but all of a sudden the train landed in the ocean and was submerged in water. I saw people floating up and out of the train as they dissapeared from sight. I saw Dawn though floating in the water and swam to him grabbing his hand. He managed to swim me to the land safely .

But...I noticed that there was something odd about this though...Dawn's body felt pretty real but his body was stronger... and his muscles were huge.Oh yeah, and he was naked.lol The evil villain was laughing but than started complaining about how we were ignoring him. Good thing the dream changed quickly after that. Dawn was starting to get weird. Anyways I appeared on my bed. My cousin was in my parent's bedroom and I was with a small random little girl. It seemed quiet after I heard my cousin's voice and looked around.

But now I felt it was time to go on a lucid adventure. I started thinking about a scary deity though and a small purple statue appeared. A little girl's voice came from it but I immediately made it dissapear with my mind. Than I started thinking about how cool it would be if I could share a dream with my brother or cousins and out of no where a huge purple/yellow cartoony wall appeared.

It had a goofy face and its tounge was sticking out. It said it was time for me to merge into one mind, a new being and was starting to swallow me up. But I detached myself from the wall and suddenly I was in a big room where it looked like beauty and the beast cartoons were roaming around talking and doing chores. I found this funny and just observed it for a while. But than...

I appeared in my house and it was supposedly like 7pm. There were friends of my brother and random people around. I saw one of my brother's friends playing around in a closet and shouted for him to stop messing around in there. He ran out so I went downstairs to see what was going on. To my surprise there were two guys stealing stuff from us. I ratted them out but all they said was that they took a few pencils.

I became lucid at that point and looked at all the DCs around. I felt like seeing who would or wouldn't dissapear so I looked back and in front of me. The DCs became few and there was one laughing at me. He looked familiar but I couldn't tell who he was. He was slowly fading and I told him he was but he just kept laughing at me until he was gone. A singing Spanish cat with a guitar came and started singing. I grabbed him but he kept trying to escape so I let him go. I walked away and up some stairs but he ran to me and said " So that's how its going to be like huh!? One moment I'm adorable and the next moment I'm not." I pushed him out the way though because he was starting to annoy me but than I woke up.


Dream 3

I remember appearing in my hall way knowing it was a dream. So I started calling for Dawn. The walls just started sucking me up again though. I let it but I appeared in darkness instead of where Dawn was. Than I was thrown somewhere else and woke up.

I was in a school of sorts. I was learning things.

I think it was gym. We were to learn some parkour techniques. I went and did a kong run across a field with some apes alongside me. I almost won first but there was one faster than me. The other students were back with the teacher.

We were told to line up. One, two, three, five lines? The instructor called us. A group. In our group, we were told to have one song ready. I keep thinking "Firefly" or something but I don't memorize the song. I keep forgetting and I seem to be keep on changing the song. The instructor told us to sing the song, then in 4 different ways. One was in an operatic way and there was another one way before he told me to stop and that I did okay. There was 1 of singing it with Tibetan chants. I wanted to so I chanted in my head, but not sure if it was the lyrics.

I searched for the lyrics online.

Notes:

- I've been consistently doing the 9 purification breathing, guru yoga, dakini visualization and throat and A focusing every day now for around a week. This looks like a positive result except that I'm still too monkey-brained to see a potential "exit" point from the dream to lucid dreaming.
- I always wake up calm, and I think that helps, rather than waking up and worrying what to do today or that I forgot my dream. I just wake up calm and not worry.

Nov. 1, 2014

I was taking a jeep in UP. I went down in some location but it was far from the location. I had to walk a bit.

Notes:

- I dreamed more than that but I've been too relaxed when I wake up these days.

Oct. 31, 2014

I went inside a dorm. I was hiding from some... teens? I talked to a person there.

Before that, I was in my unit in the upper floors. Balcony. A woman appeared. A warning of war or battle. Something or someone hits the wall of the balcony from outside. An intruder. The woman disappears.

I went back in the room. I have to escape. There was an elevator, but it was too slow. I decided to take the stairs. The elevator opens; it's empty.

I was inside a dorm. Hiding. Worried. I talked to a woman there. From the second floor, I was in the upper floor when I saw some teens outside approach. I think the woman said they were the ones after me. I think we're on a border of some sort.

I went outside on the other side through the window. I stood on some extensions, about 4 meters off the ground, and I wasn't afraid. I saw a teen pass by the window but didn't see me. The woman was talking to them.

When I felt it safe, I climbed down.

I hid behind some trees or stuff and observed the ones who are supposedly after me.

NOTES:

- I've been doing 9 purification breathing, guru yoga, dakini visualization and focusing on lotus with A on the throat for about a few days by this time. I must say, I seem to remember dreams better.

When I woke up in the middle of the night I remembered this dream. I was back in school taking tests, after I had finished a test, I would move to another seat in the class where there was another test and I would do that test too. There were some other people there too, who I recognized as old classmates from highschool, doing the same thing. I was fine up until the last test when I ran out of time for class was over. The teacher let me finish it after class, but I wasn't able to finish it before the dream shifted.

I was wandering around the school now, but the school had morphed into a different building now, not sure what, I just know it wasn't a school anymore. I ended up in a somewhat bigger room where people were gathering. The details get hazy, but there was some sort of commotion and this one guy pulls out a gun and starts shooting at the others. The guy in front of me was in between me & the shooter, he turns and runs toward me. As he does he gets shot in the back three times. The gunman is out of ammo at this point and some people restrain him. Just as I'm thinking the guy who got shot would be ok, he slumps down to the floor dead. I was trying to help this guy before he dies, and looking at the extent of his injuries. Now that he is dead I try to resuscitate him.

My dream vision begins morphing at this point to where its like I have x-ray vision, but in a campy way. I can see the insides of people, although all my DCs now look dead, but I know its only the one guy in front of me who is really dead, not the others. I can see everyone's skeletons and their internal organs. Only their internal organs look campy representations of organs, like instead of real lungs, they look like balloons, etc. So the gross factor is really minimal. So I begin working on the dead guy who was shot, and I give him CPR. I'm pushing on his skeleton looking chest with my hands, I'm not really liking it but it has to be done. I know he is revived when I see his "balloon lungs" start breathing on their own. I'm glad that he is alive again, and to get my normal mode sight back again, my dream automatically morphs over into a different scene.

Now I'm somewhere outside, but near the ocean. My previous efforts have made me become lucid now. My dream isn't quite stable, and my dream characters start to panic as weird weather appears and there might have been an earthquake too. Some of my DCs are saying it is the end of the world and it is God's judgement and stuff. Although I'm seeing it all happen, it doesn't phase me one bit. Instead I start hearing what sounds like the voice of God speaking to everyone, me too. I get an idea to get out of the area, so I say let there be a big wave I can ride. As if hearing me, a big wave appears in the ocean. I was somehow able to leap over onto it and surf it with my feet all the way across the ocean to what I thought was Europe. There isn't any end of the world stuff going on when the wave gives out on the shore and I step calmly off. The only odd thing was I couldn't sense any people around, at least there was no one outside. It was eerie feeling.

I walked up to this church, "willing" for people to be inside. Once I opened the doors and went in, I did find people were inside. Even my cousin was there and it looked like I was back in a dream from earlier in the night although I don't remember the details of that earlier dream. It was as though the tidal wave had took me back into an earlier dream I had and I found that quite interesting.

Many a nonlucid dream last night. I'm not feeling very motivated to go into detail for all of these nonlucids. so I'll just go over the key points.

-A dream involving my unexpected sex change and brief lucidity.

-A dream involving my high school friends and college suite-mates engaged in a 2:00am eating contest. The university campus was full of neon signs.

-A dream involving a scavenger hunt on a post-apocalyptic version of my college campus. Everything was overgrown by a jungle and some of the buildings had collapsed.

-A dream where I was playing LittleBigPlanet attempting to make some kind of scrap-metal cage.

-A lot of dreams involving water for some reason.

-In one dream I was kyaking.

-In another dream, I was watching a documentary about a man who would swim inside of a whale's mouth and then get blasted out of the blow-hole.

-In another dream, there was a large water cannon that people would load small children into and fire them into a lake. It looked very dangerous but the children seemed to love it.

-A dream about a water fight with absurdly big water guns and tiny water balloons.

-A dream that I was vacationing in Sydney, Australia and a tsunami hit. I later became involved in a tsunami prevention group and I was telling them about how they could install sensors and a wall that would automatically rise up when a tsunami was approaching.

We had to move to Canada because something happened to earth's orbit and it was getting warmer. Also the moon was gone and the oceans were flowing towards the polar regions. I seen the map of where we were and it looked like we were north of Manitoba somewhere. As I looked at the map though, it became more like I was looking at a satellite view of the earth in real time. This lasted about a minute and I could see how the earth was changing and how the population who migrated north was distributed across Canada now. I was explaining the details of the map to someone I was with and telling them why this was a good spot, rather than to the west. Less people had went west, toward Alaska.

There was much ice around outside but it was warm out and it was all melting. My sister was there messing around and I took her picture on her phone. We were wandering around watching the changes taking place, we were with a group of people. My other sister was there too with her husband. We ran across them later on. They were being funny messing around with wigs and fake beards, making them look like old people. It was good to see them having fun though.

Most people had brought RVs with them to live in through this change. I followed someone into an RV and I was surprised to see that it was Jack Nicholson's RV. He was there for a minute talking to the other guy but then they left. I tried to leave too, but I couldn't find the exit. What I thought was the exit was too small for me to fit through and there was stuff in the way. As I was clearing the path, it morphed into being a dishwasher that I ended up taking out the inside racks and dishes. This was not the exit so I put it somewhat back together. Jack came back and yelled at me for messing it up, lol.