side notes

Hello! I am interested in lucid dreaming, so I will take notes on the dream that I just had on here... now!

So, the dream was a disturbing one. It involved murder, a murder-causing radio (or 2?), possible time-traveling to find the roots of what happened, vomiting, and survival. The funny thing was, I knew that I was dreaming, but I wanted to solve the dream's problems. That may be why I decided to go back to find the source; terrible things already happened then.

Oh, and I almost forgot another thing; there was a sociopathic truck. There was no driver in it, and it seemed to seek out people to run over when they are crossing... Sort of like the Doctor Who episode "Father's Day", where a truck (albeit with a driver) constantly goes through a time warp to hit the paradoxical person who was meant to die then so that the time stream becomes normal again. It was like that, except that I didn't die permanently. I had a dream within a dream, I think...

And now I really wanted to find a way to destroy the radio, in bed, which I took manners to do.I took the radio, teleported into bed, and I tried to wake up by forcing myself to. I screamed as hard as I could, I made up ridiculous twists that would wake me up, and I even vomited in bed. I also tried to destroy the radio, but it didn't seem to break...

Thankfully, that was only in the dream, and I eventually woke up. I immediately did a reality check on my surroundings; it was not bright, like in the dream. I was quite astounded, and I decided to make this journal to record such dreams. Needless to say, it was a memorable nightmare. I have a feeling the radio is going to come back into my dreams, though I hope not... I will make these posts as much as I can, and I look forward to the results. ^^

-Day 1 completed-

- Logan

12.27.13

Last night, went to bed too late again. Almost 2am. When I woke up in the morning, a brief flash of some large, dark barrels came to my mind. Tried to remember more, but didn't happen. My memory is great and recall getting better every day. Hear that, subcon?

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00:00 Friday 2013-12-27 comp #16 night #15

00:15 bedtime two 200mg tabs of Valerian

04:29

F1) skiing, there's not enough snow

1) arcade game contest, you have to get a huge balloon-like ball through a hoop in the ceiling. The game is arranged with mirrors. It's very hard to see what the goal of this game is exactly, I'm trying to figure it out. Eventually a faint hoop high up in the back comes into view and I know you're supposed to get this huge ball through that hoop. I'm trying different ways, including throwing a deflated balloon, then I get the idea of get the balloon in place to fall through the hoope: I tie a a string to the balloon, throwing the string over the roof of the building beyond the game area, and pulling the string from the other side of the building to get the balloon directly over the target.
Dream changes to their being an attack from one team on another down a river. One team is waiting for the other team, there's an ambush. The older people are upset they didn't want to participate in an attack, it is a betrayal of trust. Is some places the ground is food, like pizza.

F2) A guy says "only people who are believers (O) can come inside".

F3) A guy fails the test of good character, "b" (flat mark) Pyt.T. is grading the test. I see a hand/pencil making a mark on the grading form paper up close.

F4) a campus police offiicer is standing in full uniform in the distance, I see his badge. They're advertising the job of being a campus policeman. There's a guy sitting at a gate then this policeman comes out.

2) bowling in the bowline alley throwing the ball, left handed, it crosses over the middle, hits near the 10 pin, but in a very slow chain reaction all the pins fall down for a strike. I said "wow that's one of the (ugliest/slowest) strikes I've every seen!" Some people were watching, they don't react much. I'm happy to get a strike. I bowl another ball, having trouble releasing it on the proper arrow. I try to stand far back, and approach the 2nd arrow from the left. Look at the ball and the finger holes are all wrong and spread out strangely and there are more than 3, I see the ball up close. I'm playing another guy, I bowl the first ball, and he bowls the second shot, I say "hey you're not supposed to do that, that was my shot." He's upset that I chastised him, and he says "that's the reason why I don't like to play this game," which I think is ridiculous. All the time I'm in the left-most lane of the alley up aginst the left edge of the building. I keep missing my arrow, and the ball at one time skips over an entire lane and enters the gutter of the 2nd lane to the right.

04:40 BTB, doing MILD and SSILD

07:11

F5) watched a woman having a nightmare about being a mermaid. Her legs were short and amputated-looking rather than fishy. Then there's a close up of her bloody decapitated body with the neck stump rubbing up against the bottom part of a couch next to the floor. The view is from overhead.

3) with children trying to watch a movie, I'm in a rocking chair that won't stop rocking, like it's motorized. It's really bothering me, I'm trying to figure it out, to make adjustmets, I say "it's a bad rocking chair, a RC should only rock when you want it to."

We're doing a project with these kids, building something, a little toy house is being fixed up.
Outside with a bunch of kids, they're playing in water.

The kids are playing in the water, a small shallow creek with short reeeds. "we're being sponges" they say. I move to stand in the water too. The kids are naked, and I get naked too. They're all little boys but one is a girl. She's older and she's not naked but is topless. She is shy and keeps turning away from me, I keep maneuvering for a better view. I'm walking in the mud and feel it on my toes.

I'm concerned about making progress on all the projects, the kids are not concerned, they say "you could do t his, you could do that," since they're not concerned, I say, "OK, I'll be a sponge, too."

I see two purple fly-like insects up close with triangular heads covered with insect eyes, their weird mouth appendages are touching each other. I recite the little poem "There were purple bees, kissing in trees." Then I see a very colorful small rainbow minnow flying through the air, it stops in front of me, I see the horizontal stipes of the colors, purple on the top and bottom, and red and yellow in the middle, it's beautiful. I say "hey did you see that?" The guy saw it.

4) in a room, large, tall ceilinged, rectangular, white paint on the walls. It's like a hotel or a dormitory. Son2 is there and wife. Someone rings the bell. Nobody goes to answer the door, eventually I go open the door, I open it, there's a second door, but on the doorknob inbetween the doors is a piece of paper. I take it back into the room and open it. It is a number of pieces of paper stapled randomly together so it's really hard to open and see anything. I eventually see some number, it's a bill for the stay, 1000, or 1900, or 19000.

There's a large toy/model house, one floor is a drawer with a lot of garbage in it, food garbage, and it's wet. Food and dirty. There are strange coins, I try to flip one of these coins but I can't because the coin is too large. I try to do this repeatedly but can't. The coins are rolling around on the ground. I try to find a smaller coin to flip it. I find some "19 r" coins, they're not normal coins, they're only for buying a weird thing. A giant vacuum cleaner starts spewing out sewage into our room. I put it out into the corridor so it's a shared problem, not just our problem.

09:53

F6) a doctor is searching a man for lesions inside and older man's head. I see the top of the man's bald head, his head is bumpy like an egg carton (or snow moguls) all over the top of his head, the doctor is pressing in the valleys of the head poking around trying to find something. I see the front of the face of the patient briefly.

5) in childhood home (DS!!!), I hang up a coat in the hallway closet. We're rushing somewhere. There's a sweater that wouldn't go properly into a drawer. My wife asks me to push it in, I look down and see it protruding from the bottom drawer of a dresser. My wife has a business with Yo Yo Ma, but he hasn't been working recently, but we were still paying him. "If he's not working why in the heck are we paying him for?" Wife answers "he still works occationally, he taught just a few days ago." I say "it's amazing you have so many contacts with famous people." My wife was talking about paying the insurance so we could take care of a pink spot under my arm.

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00:00 Thursday 2013-12-26 comp #16 night #14

00:17 bedtime cup of peppermint (two bags) and St. John's Wort tea (tea big teaspoons)

01:11 long discussion at bedtime, felt very awake, took 3mg melatonin to prevent sleepless night, in retrospect it might have been better to be awake for a while but get some dreams , but I also wanted to "reset" my going to bed time to midnight.

07:45 alarm, up for breakfast duty, no recall, melatonin really zonked me out

09:06 BTB

09:40 phone call, important business matter, had to do some printing and scanning, was almost asleep or asleep, took a while to get there since I was wide awake at the BTB time.

10:27 BTB... I do NOT accept a night without any dreams! Lots of dreamlets/HI. I saw my backpack and the view from the bed out into the corridor very clearly. This one seemed to last for a long while. I did a motionless RC but it indicated awake.

11:47

1) baseball game. I'm in the close outfield just behind 2nd base. A ball is hit and runners are running around the bases. I see a base runner who has rounded 2nd base falling back to 2nd. The runner is naked and he has a giant huge flappy stomach. I'm amazed that that guy can run bases at all he's so fat. He stands up and he's so big with his arms on the ground and his feet in back of him that I think he looks like a centaur. Then he fully stands up and he IS a centaur. He has the face of a famous fat actor and his chest is very hairy with red/brown hair.

2) leaky house & GF
I'm in a big very tall ceilinged old leaky house with lots of sleeping lofts. It is raining outside and the rain is dripping everywhere onto people's beds. I hear the rain pouring into a cooking pot and filling it up that someone has put on their bed. I think my cousin's bed is going to be very wet, he won't want to sleep there. I see damp beddings on the beds. I pick up the pot to empty it. I walk past one bed with a girl sleeping in it on her right side, dark hair, pretty face, light skin, I see her shoulder/top of her chest, she's piled deeply under many feet of blankets, she is the girlfriend of the guy in whose bed she's sleeping.

I stand next to another bed, I'm half-way through taking off my shirt over my head, when my college GF (D.B.) appears and says sarcastically "wow, is that your (celebration?) outfit?", I know I look dishevelled, my hair is a mess. I say "I know I look....'attractive' right now" (being ironic), "but I'd really like to lie with you for a while here, can I?" She says yes of course and comes into my arms. Her bed is right in the open area, my bed is up above in a much more private area, I think of asking her to come up there because it's much more private.

Some workers are moving through the area, moving large objects, the objects are banging into the sleepers lightly.

F1) a big house is a huge toy house model, I see the model a few feet away from me. I know someone is in the garden there.

12.25.13

Last night bed around 1am - 8:50am
Last week or so, I have been going to bed around 11pm, because I have started new work. It's very hectic and tiring as hell.

When I have recall, it's about this new work, and also working on DV. I'm off today and tomorrow and ready to do some serios sleeping and dreaming. And remembering.

EDIT:
OMG, just as I clicked on save, I remembered a crazy dream from last night. All about sex. I think I was disturbed by reading somebodys comment in chat last night. Oh, and also something about what my friend OP said, hahah.

DR:
So, I'm in a group of 5-7 people. I and one other person are older, and in position of authority of some kind. We are both same sex. We are walking into some building. Not really hotel, because rooms are free. It's in the near future. More modern than today, but still very familiar and not too futuristic.

We are in the hallway and by touching the door, it opens. It's made out of translucent glass. Three of us take rooms right next to each other. We know we are there to have sex. We just not sure who with whom, or if some others are coming. I'm sitting with this other adult, I think it's my favorite teacher, and I'm wondering if she is thinking to do it with me. Because I'm thinking "NOT". We are there to only supervise.

DR:
Could be same dream, but now it's only me. Same sexual athmosfere.

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00:00 Wednesday 2013-12-25 comp #16 night #13

00:00 bedtime

03:03

F1) I said "bullshit bullshit bullshit..." about the flying man, flying around with a (something?)

04:39

F2) fighting

05:27

F3) someone's trying to get me in trouble

07:22

1) "ship battles & potstickers"
On a ship at night in the Mediterranean sea, one guy is swimming in the warm water, the crew is on board, one of the guys is playing the classical guitar, suprisingly well, I hear it clearly and follow the melody for a while, he's not playing perfectly but still very well, I'm quite astonished such a rough/low-brow guy can play so well.

It's daytime and the ship is moving through the air, we've taken on a huge cargo lot of rugs, piles of rolled up rugs cover the deck, I'm concerned we have too many rugs on board.

Enemy scouts ahead of the path of our ship have spotted us and recognized our ship. I'm in a team to kill the scouts. I try to chop the head off of one guy by hitting his neck from two sides at once with a blade in each hand. It's not working and I'm squeamish about continuing.

Attack scene: inside the ship, the enemies were attacking, the enemies were approaching the doors and shooting in grenades that bounce around inside around corners and exploding. I also shoot some bouncing grenades back at them.

I'm DO: 2 from my team are retreating back to our ship, one, an infantry, makes it inside but stops to help/watch the flying mech partner, which is caught by another flying mech in a strong stream of machine gun fire, I watch the steam of fire, it is ripping our mech to shreds, pieces of metal are flying everywhere, I think our guy won't survive.

I'm in a high place, and a woman is gesturing/calling to me from a platform about 100 feet down a hill from my position and asking "what happened to the potstickers?". There are a few people on this small platform (about 4 square meters). I can't understand what she's saying so I mimic holding a telephone up to my right ear with my right hand so that she will call me. She doesn't, so eventually I fly down to the platform. They're asking me where the potstickers are. I conclude that someone threw away the potstickers which were boiling in the water when the attack began, so nobody knew there were still there in the water and probably threw them out with the old water. I put them in the water initially, then was distracted by the attack, I tell this story a few times. I then see a frying pan with some potstickers/dumplings cooking in oil and ask "hey is anybody going to have these?"

08:31 took 30 drops mother's wort.

F4) DO flying over a map of the US, I was trying to figure out a route to the West coast.

09:59 BTB

11:13

2) "amazingly real imagination" (all but lucid: vivid, active, but without "I'm dreaming")
Swimming in water, I see up ahead some people, I go to them, still in the water, they're talking about what happens when you fall into a pool of juice (different kinds of juices), I say I swam once in a pile of sliced kiwis. I have trouble saying kiwis it comes out like "kee-vees", and I repeat it again, the woman looks at me funny. I swim away from them and see a girl nearby. I say to myself "if this were a dream I would get with her," I reach for her and then my vision sharpens and she comes very clear, it was like becoming lucid without the acknowledgement that I'm dreaming. I'm amazed that my "imagination" is so powerful, 3D, and realistic. Vivid high definition clear visuals, and I have good touch sensation. She's naked and I touch her for a few seconds before the scene changes.

3) "coffee with the drunk blonde"
I'm in some kind of a bar, there was someone I knew there, a beautiful blonde-haired woman in a black evening dress. she was very drunk, I did not want her to try to go home by herself. She starts walking out, I go to her and say "let me help you home, let's go get some coffee." I felt attracted to her. We're starting up some stairs, I said "turn around," she's ahead of me on the stair and turns around and I pull her into a light hug, and I kissed her right cheek through her blonde hair. We continue walking around looking for coffee, I'm holding her closely against my side with one arm around her waist, I feel her against me and I feel my hand on her waist very clearly, it's soft and a wonderful feeling. I imagine some people are looking at me funny (isn't he married?) my answer is "hey she's just a friend and I'm helping her out". I said "let's go for a coffee in the hotel, it will wake you up," she says ok, we're in a restaurant she starts to sit down in a regular open area, where other people also sit down at the same table, I say "no no let's go back here," I indicate a sort of lounge with couches, there's an even darker more intimate area to the right but we don't go there. We enter the lounge area with couches and she says "now this is more like it," there are a bunch of black kids playing games on another couch, and she really likes kids so she went to play with them, I think "oh, great," sarcastically, I go to sit with them.

4) "gangster casino & the mayor"
It's night and I'm standing outside on a sidewalk, I'm next to a business / office building with black shades drawn down over the windows, there is light inside, there are people moving around, I think a security guy is watching me through a window. I'm standing there watching something on the ground. Another guy appears standing next to me and watching me. I'm wearing a robe with nothing underneath. I think it was a bank at first, but later imagine it's a casino.

And older woman was reelected mayor. She was whooping it up in celebration, skipping through the crowds and waving her arms in the air and whopping in delight. She had prepared a gift for the city upon becoming mayor, and she was working on a building-sized banner to proclaim this gift. The gift is a full day of no government regulations, including not having to pay taxes on that day.

I'm inside the casino, it's very small, just a few tables, this is a private/gangster casino, I'm looking for a blackjack table. I see a table with a young skinny sneaky looking Italian looking male dealer, I imagine he's a card shark and very adept at cheating. I find a table but i can't see the table limit sign. I'm poking around the table looking for it eventually find it and see it's a $5 minimum table, I'm turned off by this I only wanted to spend $20 but still play for a while. I'm playing a hand, maybe I lose a hand, the casino chips are huge about the size of a pancake. I give the dealer cash and wait for my chips. I have a bunch of cards in my hand I don't think they're from the table. If these are my cards I could follow the play along with these cards and know exactly which cards are still left, no reason to count cards.

This whole sleep cycle was on my stomach, head to right of pillow, normally I sleep only on my side, sometimes I sleep on stomach in late morning briefly if both hips/shoulders are a bit sore. Quite an amazing dreaming night given the fact that I had a hugely stressful evening last night with a lot of drama. I didn't expect to sleep not to mention recall anything. But I was very tired as well. Got to sleep earlier than normal, I really need to keep my to-bed time around midnight for better dreaming.

After a dry spell of a year or so, I have been able to become lucid again, my dreams are extremely vivid with the help of lateral Kava Root imported from Hawaii.

I have been asking DC for a gift, it was a challenge. SO far 2 have given me something, but the first I can't remember upon awakening and the second gift I couldn't understand. My last dream was about flying through a valley with undertones of reminiscence for the 90's. The hills were singing and the songs where beautiful. The colors were deeper, richer and brighter than anything you would see on earth. Still I am having a hard time reintegrating into the lucid landscape again. Hopefully it will come back again as strong as it was a few years ago.

After 6h30 of sleep woke up to record my nLDs and after that let myself lay on bed, daydreaming, sometimes falling into micro-dreams, but didn´t fell asleep for 1,5 hour. then, decided to shift to my belly and, knowing i was on the edge of sleep, decided to observe any image without loosing my awareness.

Very soon, i find myself on a vortex ( happens sometimes ) and i know i am wilding, then another random images, and finally a real 3D dream location. my senses a bit dormant, but didn´t need to stabilize or stimulate them. i find myself in some college corridor, the walls with shiny wood. very nice dream definition, and cool place. I see a female DC on an elevator, i got interested in talking to her, but the dream takes me ahead. now i am opening a door that lead to a classroom, and i enter. I see two female teachers and also female students ( yes, only female DCs in this dream ). They look at me with strange eyes. I wonder how interesting their facial expressions. then i see a computer on the classroom and decided to test if it would work properly. It seems like the notepad is open and i begin typing some letters. it worked decently: same keys provided the same letters.

while i was typing the two female teachers ( one was black skinned ) were behind me and i was afraid one of them did something annoying to me, but the black teacher only shouted « hey» and i look to her.

then i decide to leave the classroom, and take one more chance to look at the students. how nice their facial expressions, how nice the image definition.

then, perhaps because of the female dream content, and motivated by lust, sadly i tried to find a pretty DC.
i won´t go into details, but i woke up too soon. shame

besides waking up too soon, i really didn´t have an interesting sexual experience so far, because it seems like the anatomy is different.

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00:00 Tuesday 2013-12-24 comp #16 night #12 LD #14

01:54 bedtime

07:21

F1) lampshade

08:57

1) F says my work area is very dirty: you chop up insects, you do (other things) , etc, all over the place,, I see it and agree it's very dirty: tools and clippings of things are all over the place. I ask him to please show me his secrets to how he sets up his work surfac. He says come here I'll show you. He started showing me how he sets up his work surface by nailing a yoga mat stretched over a large piece of wood. F shows me several small custom video game computers about the size of a cell phone obviously home made with about 8 buttons/speakers on front. One game is a jedi lightsaber fight, he programmed them in hardware with chips. I play it a bit, I push a button and the little figure on the screen does a stab/lunch with his shiny lightsaber. It has good music effects as well, F said he used a radio program API to do the sound. F went to a conference show off his creations, I thought to myself, I wonder what happens if you move one player on top of another player, I think his game may not handle this case and one player would disappear behind the other player, and this would be a glitch. But no, when this happened, the wookie hugs the other player and a little message pops up. I would love to make games and little electronic projects the way F does.

2) approaching the rebel base command center with some other young computer hacker DCs. The base is surrounded with huge rectangular force fields, there is lots of security. There are a lot of busses approaching a drop-off area. There is a big field of radio controlled communication dishes. Some are old models, some are newer ones. One hacker says "look at the enemy antennas!" I (or DC?) say "What do you mean 'enemy antennas'?, that's a standard (some model name) model! I used to reprogram them to play (some game)" I'm looking at these antennas and I see one is a really old, decrepit model. I'm remembering that one could be reprogrammed to play a simple game. I/someone pulled a lynch pin out from the base of an antennae pole and I think that we should put it back in.

3) Walking by a table with playdough on it, the playdough has gotten too hot and it is melted and nasty, somebody is upset about this.

In kitchen to get a glass of water. I go to a cupboard around to the right to get a glasss (they're odd shaped/tall, kind of hour-glass shaped), I go to the sink, there is a teapot with many strips of frozen chicken standing vertically inside it, and all around. The women in the kitchen are defrosting it. I'm trying to get water to flow from the pot/faucet into my glass without hitting the chicken because 1) I don't want raw chicken juice in my water, and 2) the women might get upset that I'm interfering with the defrosting process by making it defrost faster . I turn on the water and it starts flowing over the defrosting chicken. I can't turn off the water for a while, I try different places to turn it off, you have to push down on the tap as well as rotating it to the correct location. It finally turns off. They say it's not the location, it's how far down you push it.

4) on a road leading in to a tunnel, there is a jedi lightsaber battle. Good/bad guys not clear, not sure what side I'm on. I do a force-pull of a lightsaber that is on the ground and start battling with one guy. The lightsabers keep falling down, I keep looking for them and trying to do force-pull to me. I remembered a legend, of an unbelievably strong jedi, who went into his last battle against insurmountable odds. At the end he was covered in wounds and perished, but he defeated multitudes of opponents before succumbing.

5) (not sure this waking) I'm walking on a road with trees and see a duck fly by, it can change the color of rubber dish gloves. I start flying, I have two yellow rubber dish gloves, there is some random DC flying 20 feet to my left watching me. I will the gloves to change color to blue, and they change. Then back to yellow. Then I try to change to red, and the color comes out more like orange, half-way from yellow to red.

Later on down the road, I'm on a bicycle and the random DC is too, we're approaching a checkpoint, I stop my bike to the left side of the road, and the DC is going too fast, I tell him to slow down, he makes a fast curving path to the left with his left foot out to prevent a fall, but he manages to hold on and not fall over.

10:07 BTB close to sleep, body rocking hallucinations, close to sleep, disturbed by wife.

10:56 LD #14

6) In a dark (but not pitch black) random room, nothing notable in the room, I start feeling like I'm becoming lucid, "Hey I'm getting lucid in real life again! Whoa....I'm dreaming!" I take a few more steps deeper into the room with widely-open eyes and a sense of wonder/surprise, and then I'm awake in bed.

A few days before, I was walking in waking life and had a very strong impression of becoming lucid: things became crystal clear, people were kind of shining, it was very much a "dream feeling", lasted about 10 seconds. Thus the "lucid in real life again" in the dream.

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00:00 Monday 2013-12-23 comp #16 night #11

00:30 bedtime

06:07 "Escape from the bunker"

1) escape from a bunker where I'm being held captive. Some sort of mafia/gang is holding me, I enter a room with 3-4 strong metal doors with no knobs on various walls, when I see the doors have no handles on my side I realize I'm being held captive and start panicking, I will be kept here forever forced to do whatever the gang wants (like make porn films). There are lots of people moving around. The doors are opening and closing and some guys come in, I take the opportunity to try to find my way out. One of the guys I see is the leader of the gang and has a remote control in his hand which causes the doors to open. He sees me making my escape is angry and follows. He's threatening me, I make it to the outside, and he says he'll blow me away, and I say it will be just like our usual showdown, "I'll blow you into a million f***ing tiny pieces." I imagine our next battle will be with heavy artillery like tanks or bazookas. A lot of people outside are talking about my threats. "Oh, he says he'll blow [the boss] away"

F1) boy scouts rebuilding the latrine which was falling apart.

F2) insurance company, going on a vacation/fishing trip, talking with someone about going on vacation, I could go to a travel agency to book my vacation, there's a fishing vacation it only costs like $400 day to have a big fishing boat with all the equipment and bait. The travel company was outdoors at an airport.

06:14 BTB

08:45 BTB again, not drowsy before. Did some MILD/SSILD, was already pretty awake don't think these hurt.

10:51 got to sleep eventually. Found some drowsiness, got close several times, got some body rolling on waves hallucinations (I caused these). Thought about / tried a bit of WILD. Made it to sleep using my focus on relaxation. Took some effort but made it.

2) "Spiderman on the brain"
I'm DO. Peter Parker can't stop thinking about spider man. Everything he does in school is related to spider man. He can't draw anything else but spider man. Every class he has, every report he writes, has to do with spider man. I see a table willed with spider man related writings and drawings from all types of classes. There is a 3d spider man skull model with all the small bones labelled, Peter Parker is using this to practice moving one little tiny muscle. / bone in his ear.

3) in a (college dorm?) room, it's the room of a rich girl, and old friend who became estranged came into the room and sat down, saw the room, she sat down like she was completely comfortable in this place. Looking around the room, there was a fireplace, and the fireplace was completely covered/faced with plain upholstery: the opening, the mantle, thte sides, and the area over the mantle,

F3) biting Cat/boys. A cat bit me on the back of my neck and held the bite. There were also little boys who follow and bite. You have to dive into the ocean then they will dissolve away. I imagine diving into the ocean.

F4) evil titans. They're taking over. They're being observed carefully from a distance by someone (I'm DO), then my perspective changes to the one observing. Lots more to this, forgot.

I've had a period of not remembering my dreams shortly after my latest posted one, but, after that period ended, I began to experience dreams that I could remember every other day until a week ago. The odd thing about them is that I couldn't remember them until 10-25 minutes AFTER having them, BUT I did remember having A dream.

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00:00 Sunday 2013-12-22 comp #16 night #10

01:30 bedtime. Why oh why do I persist in these late bedtimes? Just can't tear myself away from DV. Will get to earlier eventually to see how the dreaming goes...

04:17 bowling with friends.

1) I'm in a bowling alley, I bowl a ball. There's one pin left. O from Lx shows up to play the game with me. The pins start moving around dodging the ball, O is doing this via some control. O takes a shot, and I do the same thing, press a control and make the pins jump out of the way. After the shots we're waing for two other friends to arrive in their car. We're in the parking lot which is very full, someone pulls out and we jump in to the place to save it we're waving with our hands pointing to the spot, therre are other cars coming but our friends make it.

Walking beyond the parking lot, I see a bunch of people sitting together in an area, they're old funny looking Indian/South American looking people, they evolved somewhere where there is lots of water and this is a very dry place, so they're very uncomfortable. A lot of them turn to look at me with big eyes.

It took a bit of effort to get this recall. At first there was nothing. Surprisingly, since it's still quite early and I was quite tired, I feel almost no drowsiness. After about an hour, drowsiness returned, and I got the sinking deeper relaxation going, but movement in bed woke me again and again right at the critical moment. At some point fell asleep for a brief period before the alarm went off at 08:00.

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00:00 Saturday 2013-12-21 comp #16 night #9 LD #13
01:30 bedtime
02:16 real bedtime

04:10

F1) a bunch of people becoming lucid, in a competition

05:34

F2) ice cream shop in the mall it's our shop, we expanded it, I see the early construction of just the foundation and the subfloor. Everyone's congratulating us, they like it better than the smaller one. There's a spot at the end which is ours. Sister and BIL came by the shop.

F3) moving through a huge 3d building/space there are peole everywhere. There is a love story, there is only one person for you and you're trying to find them sometimes there are hard situations where more than one person wants the other. Moving through these huge structures, getting to the top (flying?), I'm trying to get higher and higher to get to the top to see something about the roof. I"m not able to get up there.

07:36 "The dog that wouldn't die"

1) On deck at parent's house, I see my dog wrapped up in newspaper, he's very warm there in the sun, he's normal sized, but he's not responding to me, I unwrap him, I think he's dead, I take out the small battery from him and I see he's dead, now he's a tiny dog in which fits in the palms of my hands. I show him to my wife, I'm devastated. I run into the house to the laundry room to find some batteries to bring him back to life. I'm running in "where's the battery!? Where's the battery?!" My son shouts after me "that's stupid, don't even try it, what are you doing?" I get a battery and put it in. For a moment I see him alive, then I don't see him any more, and I think "where did he go?"

I'm entering a mad scientist laboratory, a big industrial medical facility, I'm talking to the mad scientist. I see a living dismembered dog head on the table strapped down. The face is facing away from me the head is lying on its side, I see the severed neck meat with the bone in the middle. There's an experiment that's being done stimulating different parts of the brain of the dog which are actually located a bit down on its back. Then the head is upright on the table facing me, the pelt extends down beyond the head. They run experiments and the head yelps and yowls and apparently dies at the end. It's very disturbing. Something is written on a sign in red next to the head, it reads "Hi (my name)", an assistant says that was painted with yak butt blood. I'm outraged by this whole thing. I just want to take my dog which is in a bag by the table who has been brought back to life by the scientist. I take my dog and run away with some other kids.

2) sliding down a hill with some other people with some animals, my dog zips by on his own down the hill. We're going somewhere, maybe to the beach. We come to a house, there are kids and adults. There's a hedgehog walking slowly across the lawn away from us. We look at him. The hedgehog then see see is climbing up on the beams of the overhang of the roof. Someone says "don't shock him! He was starting to come out!" I look at him for a little while and decide he's not coming out.

I go inside the house and see a bag of chips (round flavored corn chips) I eat a few chips and realize this bag may have been meant for something else and shouldn't have eaten them. There's a party in this house, there's a lot of food open around the place, there's taco mix, dips, there's a table in a living room they're packing up this food to take it somewhere, there's a bag on a table, I lift it and hear glass clinking together, I think there may be wine insdie, I look inside and see two wine bottles, they're opened, I'm thinking "how are these not spiling, they're on their sides?" I look inside there is an amazing invention: a special stopper that goes down inside the bottle that allows you to store an opened bottle of wine on its side. There's a funny big upright handle that attaches to the edge of the table (like a beer tap) that holds the opened and stoppered bottle of wine upside down. The idea is you must pick up this wine with one hand upside down, and you pass the bottle to your other hand, and it won't spill because of the stopper (explanation goes on for a while about the hand passing).

3) I'm with people in daylight in California, wow look at the blue sky, it's warm, There are kids and parents, they want to slide down the hill, across a busy street, I say "STOP!" "Don't do this, you have to set up someone to watch for traffic. When a car is coming you have to signal stop, and when the way is clear you signal go, I hold up my hands to show the signal for stop and the signal for go. The kids are mimicing these signals to show that they understand. I'm amazed at this blue sky, I'd never get that sky where I currently live.

F4) I see the DG (wife of JT) with funny looking eyelids. I think about how peole change, I saw her in a party room.

08:12 BTB

10:52 Christmas mother lightwaber battle crow girl (LD)

F5) I'm a detective.

4) Christmas celebration. I'm home finally to see family for Christmas. Not my family though, I don't recognize the faces. A very large, sumptuous rich home with huge rooms, in the room where the Christmas tree will be. Earlier I selected a tree, and set it up, I thought it was a great tree, I brought it into a room to set it up and decorate. The tree starts falling apart, and I realize it had been constructed from smaller from little bits of branches all tied together. I could see little potted plant pine trees as part of it, it fell apart. I saw a green flag tied to the top of the tree, I thought it was a signal that it was a bad tree, I'm pissed about this tree.

I'm in a room with other men, trying to set up a long series of table/benches in order to be the work surface for preparing Christmas/decorating. The men are some agreeing with me some disagreeing, I'm setting up the tables so that one interlocks with the other to form a very long single table.

In a huge sumptuous house arguing with people I don't know about how to set things up for Christmas, we're disagreeing, there are two cavernous adjoining rooms, we're in the living room and the dining room is just beyond us, a huge open aired area. I'm upset, this is not how I wanted it to be, I wanted it to be the way when I was a boy. They're saying "we can set up this room then that room." I say, "NO, that room's the dining room, we're not going to set up the tree in there.

Then the whole thing turns into a giant mall with canned Christmas music and stores, highly commercial, my Jr high school best friend is in a shop preparing something, I'm so upset because this isn't how I want Christmas to be, I'm on the verge of tears. Then my mother (young) is on my left walking with me, I'm trying to hide from her that I'm crying, I don't want her to know that I'm upset, I think "I just wanted Christmas to be like when I was a boy!" I don't want to say this to her. Mother says to me "I think I know why you're upset," she's being very motherly, trying to explain that everythingis OK. We walk for a while end up outside.

5) fruit salad. In my parent's house living room. Wife is fixing somebody a fruit salad. I say "it's OK, I'll maek the fruit salad." I go to the kitchen start cutting fruit, I realize I don't know how much to make so I go back to the living room to ask who wanted it, "OK who's going to have the fruit salad?" there were two middle-aged women sitting in chairs to the right, one say "Oh no no I won't," the other woman says "Yes I'll have it," and someone else had left. So I went back to fix it.

Back in the living room, lying down on the couch, I look behind me and see a glance of my father naked, "ew" I think I didn't need to see that, then I thought "wow my body's a lot like his." There are guys in the room and they're fighting, I'm imaging it's a light saber battle with toy lightsabers with collapsing tubes. They're real but they're not. I'm imagining a lot of ways I'm winning this battle, lots of maneuvers like in the Star Wars movies, cutting off both hands of the opponent in a single swipe, I think if you cut their hands off it's such an easy way to win. Then I think "just cut right through them! How can you stop a light saber?!" Just cut their heads and bodies, I imagine doing this. They don't fall down or die. At one point I move to the entry way and extend my light saber about 15 feet to bonk one of the other guys.

6) crow girl LD #13

I'm in an unknown house in a hallway I see a room at the end, in the middle of the hallway just beyond me there's an open door leading up to the attic, it's like a closet stairway the walls are lined with books it's extremely cramped. I know that crow girl lives up there. I think she may be my wife. I have a feeling this is a scary nightmare. I call for her and expect her to come down, she starts coming down the stairs, she's young and beautiful with black hair but with a scary nightmare movie dead zombie exression on her face. I expect her to turn into a crow at any minute and it'll be scary. All of a sudden she's a small doll like a little straw man doll in a burlap sack with a drawn-on face, I'm holding this doll out in front of my face with my two hands. I start running the other way down the corridor all the while with my eyes fixed directly on this doll. I move into a room at the end of the hall still looking at this doll. I expect the doll will transform any second and it will be scary. I think "well that will only happen because I expect it to happen." I'm looking at this doll and realize I'm dreaming and I'm partially lucid. I'm still holding the doll and still scared a bit, say "I'm dreaming" again and all fear is gone, I'm lucid, and the doll is forgotten. I turn around in the room facing the door to the hallway. I'm ready for goals now. I begin my practiced group summons, and say "OK, line 'em...." I stop myself, wait, here I am jumping into girl stuff again, my partner's name is Pickman, I'll summon him and get some team points going, what was my partner's name again? Oh yeah, Pickman. And the next thing: I say again: "OK, ladies, line 'em..." (again I don't get to the word "up"), I'm instantly awake in bed, and finish the sentence, "oh, shit."

A slight variatoin on sleep-friendly fusion SSILD this time, I did it a few quick alternations like I mentioned last time: quick SSILD cycle, then relax, quck SSILD cycle, then relax, but then I moved to doing them together: I did the longer SSILD cycles, but with a relaxing mindset, so that I have the attention focused on the senses, but a softer attention, and try to move deeper into relaxation while doing the cycles at the same time. I do a few long cycles this way. Either I dropped the SSILD and went to sleep or I fell asleep while doin this combo technique, which would be great it's just what I was trying for!

Didn't stabilize! Argh! I remembered my teammate's name, but didn't remember to stabilize. I was also not calm, I felt very rushed.

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00:00 Friday 2013-12-20 comp #16 night #8
01:46 bedtime

05:19
lots of action in this waking, way more than what's recalled, I'm walking around doing lots of things.

1) morgan freeman has sexy time with a hot she-male. My view is from the feet of the she-male lying on its back. Morgan has his head oriented towards the feet and is face down, lying off to the right side of the SM. I say "Hey, this one's all you, Morgan." MF pays oral attention to the upper-body lady parts, and then moves down to do the same with the man parts. I'm thinking "ew."

2) a traitorous attack on a US warship by a team which intercepts American forces. Intelligence arrives up the river via boats via woman who hold the data, I see these boats arrive, once they women learn the schedule of the US vessel they deliver it to the interception team. the interception team launches a full scale attack: helicopters launch up from between the palm trees, some helicopters are purple, some are green, fruity/bright colored. I'm DO. George Bush Jr. is president and is on an open barge/boat with the interception (traitor) team, he doesn't like it, he's confused about this attack. All the traitors are trying to convince GB to attack, he doesn't want to. A black labradoodle dog (one of the traitors) with a half-dog, half-Jeb-Bush face is running on the shore alongside the barge, saying "We have to call mother and tell her to call George to talk some sense into him." But George is angry. I give the orders to the attacked ship (which is the USS Missouri, and is anchored in a harbor in a tropical island) to return fire against the traitors. I see massive gunfure erupt between the two ships. The traitorous ship is larger and has a much stronger stream of firepower hitting the smaller ship than the smaller ships's fire towards the larger. This isn't what I intended, I thought the Missouri would have the stronger firepower. I get a close up of the process of enemy ammunition arriving at the Missouri, and the return fire. It is a very large Metal snak-like contraption, where incoming fire enters through the "mouth" travelling inwards, and outgoing fire is move from section to section and fires out of the mouth. Explosions take place on the internal sections, sometimes destroying the outgoing ammunition. I see a close up of one section, little legs descend from the section, where the outgoing munitions fall down and are protected from the incoming exlposions, then the legs retract back up and the munitions continue on the path to fire.

F1) The machines know how to clean up. There's a lot of dust left after the work. I see dust on the work surface and it's getting swept up.

07:30 breakfast duty, didn't make it back to sleep?

8:59 BTB
had to get up at 10, I woke up at 9:59 before my alarm went off!

10:01

F2) middle-aged woman in a house I'm staying in. She's wearing a black top.

3) I'm working on my laptop, my wife is walking around behind me. There's an asian man leaving the bedroom of our house with no shirt on. I think "THAT's odd!?" I wonder what he was up to there. He's got small baby sized shirts, and he's handling cash. I talk to my wife, "did you sell these baby shirts to him?" She answers yes. He's rushing, he says he's working on the Makefile for a project, he has to meet other people to get the project put together.

There are two women standing in a street talking. My view is the perspective from the ground looking up. One was an old girlfriend, I see her stomach is sticking out quite a bit, she's wearing jeans, "Man, she got fat!" I think. I was trying to see if it really was here.

F3) Two Very hairy redhead men with very bright orange chest/stomach hair.

12:19

4) football formation. There is a team of small boys in formation (a wedge) protecting a goal, I'm trying to find a way through to score a goal. I dodge some of them by faking them out but there are too many to make progress. On the sides of the formation are super short/small (large doll sized) boys. I stand in front of one and hold my privates protectively, because I know these little guys' job is to block by hitting opponents in the privates.

5) I'm holding a laundry basket approaching the elevator, I'm meeting the babysitter who is coming for the first time. The babysitter started out as a dark skinned curly black haired girl but became a guy at the elevator. I'm smiling as I approach because I recognize him from the intercom camera but he's never seen me before. I say "hi I'm (name)," I joke once we get on to the elevator because the laundry basket is not very full. I say jokigly "yeah I had a HARD time spreading them out in the machine so that they don't clump together!"

6) It's early morning walking down a city street, the early morning sun is shining, the street itself is deserted but there are some people sitting in outdoor cafes on the sidewalk to the right, basking in the early morning sun. A lot of them are naked. One guy comes up to me and claims me, I learn that they are vampires, that's why the streets are empty, this is the time that they can claim you. I have to figure out how to escape, maybe by getting a room in one of the hotels off to the side of the road.

F4) in a party environment, I've been drinking the $60/bottle liqeur (there was lots of detail, forgot)

F5) in a loft in a building, I'm arriving, I'm calling my dog to come up there

F6) flying fortress with dragons, over the water. The fortress is being torn to pieces in the air.

F7) wife approaches a pieno, trying to find the music, there's a pot of water underneath the piano, the music is falling down, I say "don't let the music fall in the water," she's having trouble finding the music, she wants me to help.

Very happy about continued back to sleep success.

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00:00 Thursday 2013-12-19 comp #16 night #7

01:27 bedtime

05:58

1) We're hiking up a foggy mountain. We want to get over the mountain but the fog is in the way. Someone says it's always foggy like this. We hike up the foggy side, and when we reach the summit the fog clears and we walk down to a beautiful ocean. On the shore of the ocean is a large, transparent, very shark/spiky with many spikes, crystal statue that I know is a sacrifice statue.

Then I'm in the L's (neighbors) garage with other spike crystal statues. Don't touch them. I glancingly touch one on the side by the wall but that's OK because it's not the main one. There are many statues like this around, one up in a tree.

F1) picture of some pepole on a porch. English is not a good language to use, So many different languages need to be represented. (Voice incomprehensible in places)

F2) homeless guy with a stick. The stick was invisible. He'll clean up the yard if he has to. People following him around think he's crazy, but the kids know he's not crazy because they can see the thing he's carrying.

06:06 BTB
06:32 still up, wife snoring
07:24 BTB again after kitchen/cereal snack

09:03

2) star wars jedi game playing on a game tablet, I'm making the game character do many maneuvers to slice the opponent with a light saber. Opponents are trying to jump up and follow the action. I'm not doing very well, a guy is watching me play. I'm sitting at a desk in an office. My workplace is messy. Some young kids walk by behind me, they're looking at my desk, I have a teeny tiny keyboard, he asks what's that for, I say it's a small keyboard, I show him my desk, I have 3 keyboards, a small one, a medium one, and a large one, and I say it's like Goldilock's and the 3 bears. The kid's not interested and just walks by. I was trying to impress some of the girls with him, it didn't work out.

3 ) walking on a nature path. There was a place where you used to be able to drink using the supplied plastic cups. But to save money they've stopped supplying the plastic cups. I cup my hand under the tap and fill it with water and drink. There's a pond nearby. There were several old women, and there were old cup dispensors around and old used cups.

4) sitting at tables outside with a group trying to eat some really strange fruit. It's hard to eat, you can't chew it, it's green and stringy and fibrous. People are trying to peel it and erat it and chew it. Some of the fruit looks like pink, translucent kiwis. I look across the table, and see a really nice large gourmet cutting board made from different kinds of wood pressed together. I say "no THAT'S the kind of cutting board I want to have, not like the teeny tiny ones where you chop a carrot and the carrot falls off down to the floor because the cutting board is so small." People around me aren't paying attention to what I say.

5) aftermath of a party. I remembered that a lot of deserts were left in the refridgerator so I go to the kitchen to get some. In the kitchen on a table I see they have been left out so tthat people will eat them. Tere are a number of large industrial food trays with a fairly large amount of various left-over deserts. 4-5 different trays. I"m looking at them. There's a gelatin-based one, a tiramisu, I'm picking up pieces of these deserts and carrying them around with me. Wife is there at one point.

6) standing outside at what are like deli counters. There is a group of teen girls there. They're laughing at me. I'm holding a squeeze bottle of some condiment. One of the girls approaches me indicating the bottle and asks, "Ooooh, are those ONIONS!?" and puts her mouth to the opening of the squeeze bottle and I squeeze some of the condiment into her mouth. She gets grossed out by that. They ask me, "is this (something) day? It's not celebrated in California" in English and I answer in a foreign language. They all laugh at this, they're amazed I speak English, I'm amazed that they're speaking English, too., because they're foreign girls.

woohoo major back to sleep victory with a snoring wife.

F3) arriving at some location in a car. I get out and see a flat dead roadkill squirrel is somehow attached to the side of the car. It is rolled up. As I look at it it falls off the car to the ground. It unrolls before my eyes and turns into a live cat, moving around.

09:23 up for breakfast duty
11:38 BTB nap
12:11 dreamed about something, no recall
13:00 no recall. unusual, naps usually give several dreams.