side notes

I'm not gonna take the time to use all my codes because I only remember one small part of this dream. I was posting up parking cones and yellow lining and I did a watch check and became lucid. All I did after that was mess around, because I was at a very light level of lucidity.

Date: 8 Dec

Entry 2/2

[Summary of non-ld part]:

In school, invited by teacher and classmates to go to the movies. One of them forgets an item belonging to her husband and we go back. On the way back, I lose sight of my classmates and go to bring another item to another classmate that was previously in the room, going to her place.

Her place looks pretty weird with some guys going to a sauna room next to her door. The room turns into a bathroom and I have a look at my reflection, my hair's different but I like it too much to realize something's off. After a while of vanity staring, with the place now a trailer on the street, I identify that my features aren't exactly supposed to look like this and it finally hits me.

My memory is kind of blurry about the surroundings but I remember getting out of the trailer, then walking to this U turn, where I begin to feel the dream thinning. I immediately start rushing without any purpose, can't think of any tasks either, which adds to my worries. I tell myself to stop doing this and try to look around instead, notice some sort of store where I try to read the name. This seems to take the attention off dream instability and helps fix things.

I'm in the middle of a heavy traffic road, cars going in both directions. I feel like I want to push couple of vans off the road to test my abilities. I try pushing one, but to my surprise, it feels heavy as a real van. I continue until managing to make a number of vans lift off in the air, then throw them using tk near the road. Then I turn around to the traffic behind me, lift a number of cars, allow them to stay in the air for a while then tk drag them to the same place I left the previous ones. At some point a few of the cars in the air start to morph into chunks of metal and emit this strong metallic smell.

There's a bit of green (like grass and trees) on the scene but overall I don't like the composition. I command the traffic to stop and try to mentally prevent any new cars from coming and think about cleaning up around. How should I do that, erase the pile of metal crap? Then I remember I wanted to try drawing with the finger. The scenery in front of me has many levels, but I find an empty spot where the end of the scenery meets the blue sky and draw a triangle here and concentrate on seeing what's going to happen. Indeed, there is a ghost-like shape and especially in the beginning it is the Great pyramid, the right proportions and color. A bit later it becomes somewhat pointier and the stone darker, more like a Nubian pyramid. I give it a try to fix it a bit, but it more or less remains the same. And of course, it is unfortunately too far. I know I have to reach it as fast as possible.

Not too used to flying, I start swimming in the air, floating towards the pyramid pretty successfully. Interestingly, I also breathe the same way I would during swimming. The scenery in front of me is an mix of steep hills and walls. I keep swim flying, reaching one of the walls, see cameras and barbed wire. At this point I think about the title of the journal entry, this is the most guarded pyramid in the world (already thinking about journaling!). Swim flying and climbing, I am getting closer to the top of the structure, when I see that the pyramid has turned into a number of houses and radio tower. I want to do the drawing again, but the dream fades.

(Now, I kind of feel a bit guilty of drawing exactly the same thing as CL, but it was the first thing that came to mind. Also, should have thought more about the pyramid, rather than titles)

So gab and I were chitchatting about Precog dreams the other day, and while I'm not a big believer of the idea that you can predict the future in dreams or waking life, this was nucking futs:

So those last two totm lucids I had contained a couple interesting elements. In the one with the animated snowman, I dreamed that it snowed, and the next morning it had snowed in real life. Mind you this is Texas we are talking about. Now, the coincidence could be attributed to me knowing that freezing weather was coming. But I can tell you that for a girl from the south, that dreaming about snow, then waking up and it looking outside the way it did in my dream from a few minutes before, was weeeeeird.

Ok in the same LD, my mom gave me some purple orchids per the basic totm. So, that same morning in real life after the lucids, Danny and I decided to walk to the store for some groceries (no way were we gonna drive on that ice). So when we got to the store, they just happened to be selling potted orchids. Never saw them before at this particular store mind you. Sure enough, one of the plants had the same, hyper color purple blooms as in my lucid. If I wasn't in enough of a daze from having a lucid about snow that manifested itself into reality the next morning, then those orchids did the trick.

I think what made this a extra weird for me was the fact that the dreams were LUCID. I've had non lucids before that had some elements that seemed to come true, and I just chalked up to coincidence. But the feeling from having TWO things in a lucid dream happen the next day in real life is just plain weeeeeeeeeird.

Thanks for reading

Right now, I'm going to use my DJ as a diary of my preparation and results. I'm not going to write my non lucids, since I'm writing them in my hand DJ.
However, nice non lucids and ALL lucids will be posted here.



It's been sooooo long since I was into lucid dreaming. About 4 years since my las lucid dream. I'm starting to get into the habit of rcing, awareness, and all the other things I did back then. I'm looking forward to my next lucid dream.

All may other lucids have mainly been DILDs, and a couple of scary WILDS. Right now I'm trying out DEILDs, because they seem quiet easy to go to. However I'm trying my best to DILD before my DEILDs.
I'm currently using analam clock app that has the function of auto-snooze. My first alarm goes of at around 5am an continue each 30 minutes, until 7am.
I haven't had any lucid success yet. But a lot of non lucids and decent dream recall has been gained.

If I'm haven't gotten any DILDs after a week from now, I'll re read the DILD tuts and see if I missed something.

Side-note Lucid

Talking about lucid dreams
I'm standing on my driveway talking with my pastor and MB. The kids are sitting in camping chairs on my side of the garage; my car is nowhere to be seen. All of us are talking about lucid dreaming. I say something about WILDing and I'm surprised when my pastor knows what it is, saying that he'd once done it himself many years ago. I mention that one of my long-term goals is to learn to have WILDs quickly, on demand. My pastor asks how long it usually takes to get into a WILD. I explain that a skilled WILDer can do it in under twenty minutes, but that newbies can often take more than an hour. I confess that I haven't managed it at all, yet, but that I'm determined to succeed. The conversation continues for a little while longer.

Now I'm in one of the kids' bedrooms doing something. Now I'm downstairs. Bethany is unhappy with the kids - she'd told them they could be outside barefooted or in shoes but not just in socks, since the socks would get dirty. All of the kids wore just socks while outside, so now they're covered in leaves (from the driveway) and oil (from the garage floor). Even though I was wearing both socks and shoes, I check my socks anyway. They're damp from being sweaty but are otherwise fine. I take my socks off and put them in a nearby cabinet which seems to be a make-shift clothes hamper, as it has a small (but growing) pile of colored laundry. My wife tells me that if my socks are dirty like the kids are then I need to put them in the separate "dirty sock pile," but I tell her they're just sweaty.


Gift of a hymnal
After a failed WILD, I'm trying to sleep. I'm laying in bed and remember that I just had a conversation with friends (JB and BJ) in my kitchen. I realize that that can't have happened, that I must have dreamed it. Something feels off, and I do a nose pinch RC. I can easily breath through my pinched nose, so I know I'm dreaming, experiencing a false awakening (my first!). It's pitch black. I decide to try voice commands and try to command LIGHT, but my voice is hoarse and I can barely hear myself. I try again with STABILITY, but again, it barely comes out. I realize that, even though I'm convinced this is a dream, I'm still hesitant to shout in case I'm wrong and I woke up my wife. I decide that this really is a dream, so it doesn't matter, and even if it's not a dream we'll just laugh about it and go back to sleep. I really don't want to lose the dream, so I keep my nose pinched and keep focused on the strange feeling of breathing through it. I keep trying my voice commands, and eventually the light in the room (especially near the door) "dims" up. It's dim, but it's enough to see by. I shout STABILITY and LIGHTS again for good measure, and I find that I can actually shout now.

I'd just been listening to the podcast where they were talking about extending the dream, and CanisLucidus talked about just looking at all the detail the mind comes up with. I look around my bedroom, trying to take it all in. I notice that it's larger than life, but it's decorated pretty much how my real room is. The doors, windows, bed, and dresser are all in the right place, and I think the walls and floor looked right, though I'm not positive. I notice a small shelf on one wall that's not there IWL, with some very small framed pictures of people. I walk over, pick one up, and look at it. It shows couple of people, including a woman in a purple dress. I don't recognize them, and I realize the danger of putting too much attention into the picture, so I put it down. For some reason, it ends up on face down on the shelf. I kneel down and run my hands through the carpet - it looks and feels exactly like my real carpet. I think about what to do and realize that one of my simple goals was to try the "internal nose pinch" and see if it was reliable. I tried it, and alas, I couldn't breathe while doing it. So much for that RC. I consider phasing through the wall and flying off, but I decide that that's a little too advanced for right now: I want something I know I can accomplish so that I can boost my confidence.

I remember I want to do the basic TOTM be given a gift by a DC, so I walk towards the hallway. The stairs are in the right place, though the hallway layout is odd. I remember that, to get something to appear, I need to not just casually think "It'll be there" but to really strongly picture it, almost as if I can already see it. I start trying to imagine in detail that my wife is around the corner in the hallway; but as I'm doing it, she comes up the stairs. She says something and goes back down; I follow her.

Now I'm near the bottom of the stairs. I feel like I'm in a mansion. Downstairs is a huge area, well furnished, with a very high ceiling. I'm on a grand staircase, at least 10 feet wide, flaring at the bottom, going straight up behind me to the second story. My wife is a couple of steps below me. I ask my wife if she has anything for me. She says she does, but she wants a quick kiss first. I kiss her, and she walks off towards the kitchen to get whatever it is. I realize that I shouldn't let her out of my sight, since she might disappear if I do. I go after her, following her into the kitchen (which is outfitted with lots of shiny black appliances). I don't see her in the kitchen, and I get worried. I shout a dream command WIFE, but nothing happens. I walk through the kitchen, though the dining room, and back into the living area. I pass an older, well-dressed man carrying a Psalter; I completely ignored him, but I think he was the butler. As I'm walking into the living area, my wife comes out of the kitchen carrying one of our old hymnals. She gives it to me, saying it'll go well with the hamburger.

Often, when I wake out of a dream, I'm aware of it fading first. Not this time. Poof I was awake. I tried to DEILD, but nothing happened; I was probably hampered by a strong desire not to lose the dream memory.


Fragments
I'm looking at pictures of different people. I have a program(?) that lets me alter reality by altering pictures of the reality. I'm trying to copy an aspect of a person from one picture and paste it onto a different person in a different picture, but it's not going well. The perspectives of the pictures are different, and the pasted image isn't lining up right.

I'm outside, in a park-like setting, watching people. There are nine people who have successfully done ... something ... but they need ten to fully win. They're pleased at having come in first again, yet disappointed that, once again, they failed to get the full ten.

I'm looking at Gunnerkrigg Court. Annie is watching two forest dwellers talking to / examining a boy from the Court. He's strong and somewhat puffed up, and the forest dwellers (a youth and an old man) are pondering over him. His muscles should only be about half the size they are, and they want to know how he made himself strong, if he used some kind of magic or trickery or what. The old man especially is throwing out more and more strange theories about the boy's strength. I (or Annie?) starts to wonder if there's something to it, and if this is how Eglamore gets some of his abilities.

I'm driving on a 4 lane road in the right lane. A tan van is to my left and starts to come into my lane. I stand my ground, but she keeps coming, eventually scraping against me. Now I'm in the left lane and she's in the right, ahead of me. I can see a silver line running along her driver's side where she scraped me. Somehow I see the driver's side of my car, and I see a long scuff mark but no scraped paint. I'd been trying to decide if I should chase her down and get her insurance information, but since my car isn't actually damaged I decide just to let her go.

I was in a house full of bunnies. They were filling up the first, second, third, fourth, and fifth floors.

They started escaping.

I ended up in an ocean in a pirate ship, with bigger pirate ships around us. We were in battle. Once we escaped the other ships, somebody yelled that there was a black hole.
I looked ahead, and saw a huge hole in the water that we were spinning into.

Right before we got sucked in, I woke up.

Date: 06 Dec

Was supposed to do a wbtb, but felt really sleepy, so I just kept nervously waking up and falling asleep again. Was more deeply asleep than usual, had a pretty cool dream and a mini-ld at the end.

Dream: In some city of the future, there are business people walking on the street. I am in some sort of transportation, with tables in the middle. The guide is talking about us opening the fancy books on the table, but I don't have one. The guy (to be JL) in front of me gives me his book.

My attention is then drawn by the resting yogi platforms on the street. Initially a few, then many (DS), looking extremely interesting, like two rows of beige hammocks, each hammock cell uniquely decorated with some tribal art. These seem to continue down the street like forever (DS) and an old sadhu is horizontally resting on each one. I notice I am making sounds with my mouth as if playing a didgeridoo. Amongst the individual cells for the yogis are a few reporters from National Geographic. As I think about these reporters, the face of one of them turns into a human tiger face.

We are still in the transportation and the guide explains about some sort of formation, that I think I noticed is in the sand between each cell? It's like a barely visible vortex in the sand, but when he explains about the formation, I begin to see as if looking on a screen, a computer model graphics of a donut shape. He explains that this formation is the result of the wind and some electromagnetic particles which when falling get to form this shape over time, due to magnetic influences.

There are different types of futuristic cars flying in the air near us. They look like mini planes, but flatter, wider and made from some sort of black material.

The guy that gave me his book is now Jude Law. Near the windows are many interesting (DS) bottles of fancy cosmetics. My attention is torn between him and them, but I touch his arm and leave my hand there, waiting for reaction. He doesn't seem to mind and keeps his arm in the same position. At some point he is eating a pack of dried/transforming to fresh blueberries and offers me some, I refuse.

I begin examining the various cosmetics they have. Some sun tanning stuff and lots of colorful bottles and boxes of expensive cosmetics. I turn to Jude and say that one thing hasn't changed in the future and that is that some cosmetics are still prohibitively expensive. Then I take a purple box of face cream and read out what the benefits are supposed to be, reversing the meaning to the total opposite, my speech turning into a funny negative campaign for L'oreal. Jude is enjoying it too.

I nervously wake up, remember the totm, and go back there.

DEILD: Jude is to my right now and we are still in some sort of transportation. I briefly wonder whether to announce that this is about TOTM, but just say, "Please give me a present", or something along those lines. He looks at me surprised, especially after my long cosmetics speech, like he didn't expect me to want anything from him. I add "It can be something small", thinking it doesn't have to be expensive. He comes closer and gives me a super sexy kiss. We continue kissing for a while, while I contemplate this. The dream fades and I head for the journal.

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00:00 Wednesday 2013-12-04
00:24 bedtime
05:09
1) controlled flying dream. Walking down a wide street, a building about 4 floors high and long like an apt building is on the left, a bunch of people are on the roof. Trees line the street. I want to fly up there, I start flying towards the roof, I'm going slowly, I decide to fly faster, so I do a zoom-move I look at a point on the roof and I imagine my vision zooming in to that place, then I imagine that I'm there, and I'm there up on the roof. There are a lot of young people on the roof. I practice zoom vision on a spot of concrete on the roof, it kind of works.
I'm down on the other side of the building away from the street with a group of people, my older son is there current age, his gf is there, too. We're talking about traditions. There's a certain leaf that when you buy it as gift, it's required that on a certain day you must buy another kind of leaf to go as a tribute to go with the first leaf. My son gave to his gf the first kind of leaf, but didn't give the 2nd time. I'm "tsking" that he did this mistake. He claims that he didn't know. I *know* that I told him specifically about this tradition, but he was not paying attention. There is a VERY loud crack of thunder, we're all started by this. I think this may be punishment from God.
We duck down to the ground, We enter the building, climbing inside, the interior is dark/wet, water dripping everywhere, derelict rooms. A young teenage man is there, he is sitting with his back towards us with water dripping down from the ceiling onto his back, he's wearing a shirt. He's forlornly sitting, I see a glimpse of his face, I think this is the abandoned son of Bill Gates, I think it's very sad.
Back on the first street, I'm with and older man with a young child, I'm leading him down the road and I'm looking at the weather and I'm noticing the storm, we reach an intersection and we turn to the right. We're concerned about the weather so I fly up into the sky, doing a zoom-fly-move to get altitude quickly into the clouds up above, and there I float turning to look in each compass direction. All around are dark grey and stormy clouds except to the East, which is in the direction we're moving in along this street I see light on the horizon. We continue in that direction, the trees are approaching from the left. We enter hills made from rough dirt, the path bends up and to the right, it quickly turns into what I believe is a rich neighborhood fully of movie stars.
I see a black man talking animatedly to a dirty but wealthy man standing in his driveway just off the path, I know the dirty man is Larry David. I tell the guy behind me that this is the neighborhood of rich people where there are all kinds of funny things happening, if you pay attention. This area has very windy roads with tall trees, I think if I have to I will fly up above the trees to get our bearings and I'll be able to continue guiding us.
Going further along the path past the rich homes into the hills, past the Larry David house, I see on the ground by the sidewalk of the next home two small baking dishes with puppies sitting inside (statues?). Seems like an eery joke.
F1) guy entering a virtual reality cage, closing himself inside, he will control something from there.
2) troubled latina teenager girl sitting working as a cashier sitting behind a plain desk outside in a remote neighborhood out in the middle of nowhere theer are a few small houses around, a poor neighborhood. It's nighttime. I talk to her, I ask if the field across the highway is where they shoot their guns, then I imagine that couldn't be true because then the highway patrol would see them.
05:41 BTB
07:09
3) driving on a road, maybe in white honda, driving through the R wilderness on a country road by myself, I see a swamp open body of algae-covered water to the right and I think that's a place I remembered, driving kind of fast, the roads are muddy, I think I should slow down or I'll skid, I make it through without skidding, I think I'm going up to the top of some high place and will stop at a vista point to see the beautiful view, then I decide that's too high/too far to go on my own in this lonely place, I take a small turnoff to the left, the ground there is very muddy but has been groomed to be even, I think I should just return back not even go to the vista point. It's not a good idea to be out in the middle of R alone like this, there are crushed up trees in the muddy ground.
A weird animal, a yellow "Zog" appears in front of me in between my car and the road, it's walking slowly, it looks like a large yellow stick-animal made from huge arm-thick yellow pipe cleaners. Another car drives by at the same time I'm concerned about this other car, I see a building in this area up and to the left.
I'm back on the road returning back the way I came, I'm in my car but I'm also exposed like I'm not in my car, I feel like I'm running away from the Zog, I know I can't outrun it, I imagine the Zog puts its long snout into my face and I bite the end of it with my teeth to discourage it, a hard bite. I think what am I doing I'm in a car so I hit the gas so I accelerate away from it. Someone says that "in a 2-stroke car with you reach (some metric) you can double your power."
4) University football scene. "HIs feet are on the edge!" The wide receiver faked one way then turned another way. He was given the instruction to lose the defender in the crowd. It was a pass touchdown. The QB was a young man with short dirty blond hair plain face, I zoom in on his shirt, he's wearing not a uniform but a bunch of different layered shirts, I try to count how many shirts he's wearing. At least 4 layers. The QB tells coach he must return to campus for (the dentist?) he wants to drink milk. From the point of view of the bottom of a cup I see milk pouring down into the cup, it's like a milk advertisement. The QB is sick of the gatorade at the football field.
09:18
5) pursued by a wolf on EU avenue. It's dark/night, I'm trying to run into my car. I turn to face the wolf at my car, I imagine bringing out a lightsaber and slicing the wolf in half and someone discovering the two parts of the wolf on the street. There is a statement that "in the Soviet Union they were slow but they weren't stupid."
6) Walking along a street in the daytime (GZ Blv?) past rich houses they're holding lounge sales / garden furniture recliners. Some are painted. They're stacked in big piles in the driveways of the houses. Someone has painted a white chair glittery/shiny pink/red.
7) Selling lumber, EmKlg from work is coming and scratching up the wood to discover what kind of wood it is, he decides it's oak, he decides to buy some planks so he marks off the sizes he wants from the huge chunk of wood, then other people appear and also want to buy some planks, I'm getting alot of orders. I'm going to have to get ready for it and cut up all the wood ahead of time.
alot more detail was in there but I was woken unexpected by an alarm.
11:17
8) On UL favorite lake with parents. Someone is canoing right next to us. They're going in circles about to hit another boat with people in it right on the shore. I tell my folks my dad that canoing on the lake is great I'm trying to get him to go, he's concerned about sunburn, put on a sun shirt I tell him, walking around a bit, I think hey is that R island, are there any people camping there? There is a huge tree there very tall, I look up in it and see a tent or some streamers, conclude someone is staying there. Walking further around the shore I see a huge human made structure with large glass walls melding into the rocks, I'm curious about it, I decide it's a conference center that I've "remembered" that they built. There are people standing in the corridors, may be guards. I imagine going up to the walkway, walking into the center, pretending I belong, going down the elevator to the dock where there is a free shuttle boat back to the city.
9) driving through town with some guy in a car. He's a teacher, I'm in the back seat, I'm getting out it's night it's getting late, I have to go to class, I don't know how I'm going to get to class in the other city, I'll have to take a bus but then I don't know how to go where the class it. I think I shouldn't have gotten out of the teacher's car he's probably going to go right to where I need to go. I should have gone there with him. He has a chinese name, I see a subject of a talk something to do with dolls. There's a bus with people driving by, should I get on that bus to get downtown? But then I'd have to pay, and I have no money.
10) I'm riding a metro/subway, I see the stops going by, I get off, I realize I went to the wrong end of the line, I have to go back, but I have absolutely no money not even a coin. I wonder what I'm going to do. I think I may as well look for some lunch, for some tacos. There's a restaurant nearby looking in to see what it is what food is there, I think it is some sort of taco place there is a menu board, the choices are: some sort of taco meat, ground bbq pork, and something else, I put in the order , there are shredded salads / vegetables.

Yesterday I started reading about dream yoga and tried basic skill #1 (http://www.dreamviews.com/dream-yoga...esson-1-a.html) all day, later that night went to bed kinda late, like 3.00 AM and woke up 9.50 and later at 10.45.

First I dreamed that i was in a pool (again) but this was really calm, I was there with my brother and my cousins, I remember i told them about a something that happened to a kid I know IRL. When he was 4 he shat himself in a public pool. I remember my cousins laughing. After a few seconds water started desappearing, I started looking and touching a column mad of stone and thought that i knew i was dreaming (that night I was thinking about looking at my hands when I achieve lucidity, but i didnt do it in the dream). For some reason i felt like the dream was not formed, i dont know how to explain it, i wouldn't say it was a LD. Then I remember a couch in front of a TV with someone watching, i dont know who. He changed channels with his phone, weird. Then I saw my brother again, he was talking about some project he had and my grandpa was telling him that he wants to support this project. My grandpa said something like he had some money and he wanted to buy a house for us or something like that, I started thinking that he knew he was going to die soon. than i Woke up

Later at 7 PM I went to sleep while my brother started playing League of Legends in the other room. I dreamed that I played a character of the game that looked pretty much like Haunter (a pokemon that looks like a ghost). Anyway the funny thing is I hate that game, it is boring to me, but still i was there fighting other champions, in fact i remember feeling i was pressing the keys of my keyboard. I didn't remembered this dream until one hour or two after i woke up.

I am new so I kinda want to introduce a bit of dream history recapping. I remember a few dreams from my childhood which had a big impact on me.

Early childhood dreams
These dreams were always repetitive. Up on till I was about 8.
*~I remember I would go exploring I found this cave and it became a favorite place for me to visit every night. I met a fairy in this cave and she granted me 3 wishes. The first one was the ability to heal people, fly, and change into any animal. We had a lot of adventures together. After a while in waking life and I got older, I had a hard time locating the cave and kept getting lost . It was a beautiful cave. Had spot's on top that let sun rays shine threw and a pool of water with a hill in the middle where the fairy would be she was my best friend.~*

After time has passed in the waking life, I wonder how I would know about that stuff at that young of an age.

*~Another dream I once had, I would dream of being in our house and in this hallway bathroom I would feel an eerie feeling and then falling down our flight of stairs and having this rush feeling of speed then when I hit the bottom I would wake up and I would be sweating.~*

I later learned, that the previous owners wife died of a heart attack upstairs. Other detail she doesn't know much about. It was always repetitive the same exact way. Kinda freaky lol.

*~This dream isn't much of an impact really, but I could never forget it. I always want to help people and make them feel better. I was having a nightmare where I was surrounded but a bunch of monsters fighting and coming after me. I said "why can't we all get a long why do we have to fight," and some other words which I was yelling out from my heart. I saw this light come forth and brighten everything up. The monsters changed there hearts and became my best friends. We all had a tea party. I felt connected to them sorta.~*

From time to time I had a couple dreams with them again, they came to help me and another time I had an enemy trying to destroy me and my monster friends. There was a few of them left. I remember a dream we got together to remember the adventures and friends and then they moved on and said I wouldn't be able to see them again because I'm getting older and since then I never have

Other interesting dream occurrences
My spirit guide shows me my animal totem. Right now I'm an arctic fox.
so far I've been a dolphin, spider, snake, arctic fox. It's always so weird when he shows me and talks about it in the dream and hands it to me or I become one with it in a weird way. I do the re-search afterwards and that is how my life is currently described lol.

I met my spirit guide from time to time. He'll come to me when I need to learn something. I try to ask for him when I'm lucid dreaming or astral projecting, but it never works out that way. I love this dream I shared with him I will never forget it.

*~ I had a dream I was on a beach. there was water on both sides of me sand underneath my feet. I noticed that everything was purple. Different hues of purple. It was soooo beautiful I wish I could paint what I seen because describing it does no justice. There was a pyramid off in the distance. He said he wants me to keep trying to communicate with him and that he was proud how far I've come. There was a lot of other chatter about a past life thrown in there and other things that I needed to hear but I lost focus and woke up _* It was very emotional for me to have this dream.

When I meditate in the waking life. I meditate walking up a flight of stairs up to the top of a pyramid and there is a door to go threw and then I astral project. I usually have a fear of water in my dreams, the waves get bigger and bigger and then tear down stuff where I am at then take me out to sea. I felt so peaceful and love it was a different feeling than normally.

*~I had a dream that came true to the t. I dreamt about a friend I wasn't getting along with anymore. I was at school, walking out the doors into the courtyard and going to the soda machine to get a drink as I was coming back my friend accompanied by her 2 buddies came out the door and stopped me she wanted to apologize for being a bitch lately. In the dream I felt like something wasn't right about this, or like she was lying. I woke up after that.~*

The next day came in waking life. I went out the doors to the courtyard to get a drink and sure enough, everything exactly happened. Even the same clothes, the same drink, blue skies. It was no dejavu. I will never forget that.

That sums up most of them, my dreams are pretty scattered. Always in color. Lately I have been dreaming about photography. I will see a spot that would be a cool picture the odd thing is when I see that "opportunity" It is sooooooo vivid sharp crisp and colorful to bring tear of beauty to your eye. Then the rest of the dream is normal. I love it when I have photo dreams lol. I wish I really could take my camera into my dreams sometimes.

I used to have a lot of healing, telekinesis type dreams but had a dream that someone took it away and it's been hard to do it now.

I had a lot of dreams of getting shot, I would feel some kind of sting but it wouldn't hurt me. It would make me lucid enough for just a second to tell myself that this isn't real. I normally am protecting someone when this happens and feel a rush of energy in the dream when i would get shot and then the bad guy would be shocked to see it didn't hurt me lol. I'd be like hahahah go ahead shoot me right here lol. Maybe i'm just a little crazy.

Anyways, that's mostly it. I wake up a lot threw the night so I probably have a different dream to attempt to remember every time. I mostly dream about the day's event's in an interesting dreamlike format.

Slept at 6:30 - 6:45pm and woke up at 9:00pm

Lucid dream occurred around at 4:24 Am

Experience: i could hear country music playing in the background, saw a you-tube animation video protesting about the war on drugs.

Watching animation, then went down stairs at a person house who use to live with/ be my guardian (but didn't like at all) and realized it was empty, which i thought was unusual and experienced lucidity.

Daydreamed about a girl i fancied and we were in a hotel private pool nude and saw snake tattoo on swirled around and up her leg.

the next dream scene was in a Arabian desert with the sound type mud huts. I was suddenly feeling extremely scared and wanted to get out of lucid dream, even thought nothing scary or threatening actually happened.

But i ended up in a Arabian hut with tent door, and saw an Indian man in a suit who didn't say anything but smiled slightly. i asked my subconscious to appear and when i saw the guy (thinking and hoping he was my subconscious) i yelled either "i want bigger muscles" or "i will have bigger muscles". the logic behind this was auto suggestion to plant a thought that would then affect me in my waking life.

Then i saw blackness, which i assume was me exiting lucid dream due to surge in unnecessary and sudden fear, at which point i experienced higher fear and anxiety because i was scarred of experiencing old hag or some other horrible experience . I had my eyes closed trying to get out of sleep paralysis, planning to pull the cable (light switch) next to me. eventually SP broke and i finally got out of it.

While lying there i saw the ceiling through my eyelids, until i finally moved and got out of bed.

waking experience: upon waking up i did have an urge to lift weights/ potent desire and i can't seem to shake the thought of what it would be like to be big a muscular all of a sudden. I don't have an overwhelming urge to build muscle but it is more potent that before i attempted auto suggestion technique =) I'll have to see if it wears off during the week and hopefully i can learn to not get so terrified upon achieving lucidity

The dream wasn't as exiting as the first one, but either way...


[NOT LUCID]
Started the dream as JC Dention from the game Deus Ex, began walking down this hallway when I'm confronted by a few black "spies"(From spy vs. spy cartoons) holding yellow paint cans, I kill them with my pistol and grab one of their paint cans. I realized that as long as I held the can, they wouldn't bother coming after me so I held it and moved on. End of the hallway(Another about 20 steps) and it splits like a T and I choose to go right. I see some other guys holding a black can doing the same as the guys from the beginning and just let them do their own thing. At the end of the T is a door so I go through and it's a public bathroom. I keep going through more attached doors and stop and say to myself after taking a good look around, "I'm lucid dreaming." After I say that to keep the idea in my mind a few more seconds, I do a finger through palm RC(fail) and then a nose plug RC(Success).

[LUCID]
I went through the last door and found myself on the opposite side of where I entered in the beginning, but it all changed. The workers had almost finished and there were a few extra hallways(I figured out that my subconscious has a sense of time and progress too ) I turned right on the first new hallway I seen and watched as it was all finished, usually decorated with greyish black and a yellow line spanning the middle of each hallway. At the end, I reached a form of a library. I tried out a few different things such as a 1 fingered table grab(Slipped off lol), what electronics/videos looked like(Took special care not to give them TOO much attention as I've heard they don't really help staying asleep and lucid, and other stuff such as that.

So yeah, my second lucid. I'm pretty proud and I think I'll come up with an LD list of goals to try in my future ones

EDIT: Comments are appreciative as well as constructive criticism and tips/ideas for future LD's

00:00 Thursday 2013-11-28 (LD #10)

00:00 ? bedtime

03:06

1) riding on a skateboard down a wide, flat, smooth street. I'm going pretty fast and I really enjoy this sensation. Up ahead I see PJ in the distance. I'm on the very front tip of the skateboard. Visuals are very bright, vivid. I see my father walking under some trees up ahead, he seems young and happy. See also my mother off to the right.
04:25 no recall (recorded 03:00 waking dreams at this time, fell asleep at 03:06)
can't return to sleep. after 30 minutes get up to rocking chair, for about 20 minutes. Visualize parent's house and neighborhood, reinforce "I'm dreaming." Move to kitchen, make and drink warm milk. Sit there massaging jaw. Do some relaxing breaths. Decide I feel sleepy, return to bed and fall asleep in not too much time.

06:00 BTB

07:36 (alarm)

2) movie theater taxi driver money tatoo kicking buying snacks at table don't have enough cash in the store there's a security guard can't get by, think about eating it and putting it back on thes shelve, at a table with young people they're laughing I don't have enough change to buy the snacks, I empty my pockets including a chestnut, I say this chestnut is awesome it's worth lots of stuff, I'm missing just a few cents to buy the snacks, I have to back.
I'm at the top of a sandy hill, I turn around and see my wife is coming up behind me, I jump down the face of the sandy hill and slide/ski all the way down to the bottom near the water it's lots of fun, my wife laughs behind me watching, it feels awesome. Arrive on the beach near the water, my wife is behind me, I think it will be awesome to live near the beach and come here every day. There are strange plants around. Two inspectors arrive and are asking for paperwork I think they're after me because I haven't paid yet for the snacks They're harassing my wife I leave quickly to go pay and get receipts, I'm on the way back, I'm in a starnge tilted room, I see a very dirty priest walking from left to right behind me.
I go fowards now in a car open to the sky (like a top-down convertible), there's a bus, at an intersection, I'm in a hurry to get to pay for things, there's lots of traffic, the busses I see are very ornate, old 1950's style A/C transit buses, I'm confused/surprised by this.
I'm in a taxi with a bunch of other people, they're laughing, I'm in the back seat, some guy is pushing through to the right I'm trying to protect my place but he gets there. There are a bunch of movie theaters all around. I think what am I going to do at this movie theaters I should have stopped at an ATM. The driver starts driving and passing the theaters, I call out "stop stop let me off here." Driver makes some comment. I think I have no money for food how can I pay for the taxi? It turns out the fare is only a dime because it's the olden days. I think what sort of tip to give: nickel or penny?
I imagine the taxi driver takes these pennies and puts them in his pocket, and there's a hole at the bottom of in his pocket and the coin rolls down his leg into his shoe. The pennies are safe there but If he's really rolling in the dough the coins will make a lot of noise when he walks.
You don't mess with taxi drivers because they'll kick you so hard it will stop your development. I'm thinking about kids who have strange facial features because they're development is impaired and their different parts age at different rates. Taxi driver has tatoos all over his leg in green/blue, words.

Concentrated on relaxing: relaxing breaths, doing deeper and deeper into relaxation on every exhale, releasing tension, keep doing it, keep eyes relaxed and unfocused, and got back to sleep.

09:00 BTB for nap

10:12

3) in a dorm building looking for my room. I'm on the wrong floor because I've been in a different room. I'm studying with some loud (classical? opera?) music playing on a stereo. There was another guy in the room complaining that guys in the hallway were too noisy (playing violin?) he says he'll never be able to sleep he has to get up early. I'm in this room becaues I need to get up early, too. He asks me to go outside to talk to them and quiet them down. I say sure I put on my shirt and my shorts, he starts to go out, I say hey I'll do it but I have to put on my shorts first, he talks to them they say something about OK, I realize I'm playing loud music myself, I approach and old looking CD player and look for, find, and press the stop button. I'm flexing my muscles, in my underwear, windows open wide to the outside, I imagine girls in other dorms could be looking in.
Go into hallway looking for my room I want to tell my roommate where I am. I was in this other room for a night maybe two. I look into a room, there's an older guy and girl, they're RAs probably, older, he says, "Oh, Hi (my name)", and I'm amazed he knows my name, I'm not on his floor, he must know the name of everyone in the building. I say "sorry, forgot I was on the wrong floor," I go down some stairs still looking for my room, I pass an attractive girl going up the stairs, (I helped her with something?) she says something, make a brief connection, but continue on. Farther I see a french-looking female student with goggly eyes and I think "nah, not my type don't want to pay her any attention."
End up in a place with a weird old woman I think is my mother (no resemblance to real mother) and some other guy, "I don't like how things are around here, I like things the way I like them." Then she gets upset and starts saying "Oh, this is not the time to have this conversation not with this guy (our friend's name the man) over." I get a close up of her lower face and mouth. She has a weird thick beard on the neck under her chin, a thick bristly dark hitler-ish mustache under her nose, and is chewing a massive pile of gum in the left side of her mouth which is open. The gum looks like a piece of a cotton mop with individual strands. It's quite a disgusting sight. It's yucky.

12:14 Lucid Dream LD DILD #10

4) ... fair amount of prior ND detail I felt, but couldn't recall
Approaching a building, want to enter to get something, it has security. The security guy had blown someone else's head off with a shotgun that looks like a water cannon the kind that you extend out, fill up, then push the parts together, but this was a shotgun. Security guard is shooting at me, I'm leading him around corners , I try to time it so I go around the corner and wait for him to turn the corner so I can surprise him to shoot him.
I'm in a room, it's dark/night-time lying on a bed, there's a spider wafting towards me on a strand of web, I try to blow it away, blow blow blow it doesn't go far away, it climbs rapidly up its web towards the ceiling above me. Then there's another spider, and soon there are many rapidly multiplying juicy puffy-body squishy nasty spiders. They were freaking me out, I didn't want to squish them with my hands I was looking for something to over my hand like a glove so I could squish them they were everywhere and multiplying, more and more and more were appearing. They're growing to the size of large snails, sitting on the wall in lines. I get up to leave the room, and as I leave the room I stop in my tracks and do a double-take, and say "Wait a minute, this is like a dream, I must be dreaming" and I am lucid. It felt very realistic. I looked back into the room, it's day-time/light, there's a window looking outside. the spiders may be all gone, but I thrust my left hand forward and willed a bolt of fire from my left hand on to the floor in the room. It appeared and was 1/2 translucent and made nothing burn but I saw the bolt. I tried to shoot lightning bolt but nothing happened. Did another fire blast. Went back in to the room and thought "stabilize." Rubbed my hands together, counted to 5, then patted up and down my body with my hands: chest, stomach, legs. I looked down at my body and I saw my naked chest and stomach. I saw my underwear and reach down to have a look inside, "It's going to be big" I think, it turns out to be normal sized. It seems a bit greasy like there was lotion on it. Everything is *really* realistic.
I'm in this bedroom, then I go outside. It's like a garden path in an apartment complex, lots of tall plants off the path. Lush vegetation. A swimming pool complex comes up on the left. Some people (3 girls?) are leaving it. I think "oh don't leave the pool!" (I'm looking for a hottie). There's a gate, I enter the pool area. I'm looking for a cute female, everyone I come across is not attractive / old. I tell myself "I'm dreaming, remember, you're dreaming, I'm dreaming." I walk more into the pool area. I do a RC at this point because I start to wonder if I'm dreaming because everything is so life-like, the people and the grounds. Check hands, they are not bizarre like last time, fingers were stable but longer than in life, and a little bit translucent. I'm pretty sure I'm dreaming and nose pinch confirms it solidly. "OK, I'm dreaming" I say. Looking at a woman off to the right, look at some people in the pool off to the left, I go and look at them, I'm not finding anyone to my taste, then I think "Hey what am I doing? Just summon!" So I did a hand-behind-the-back summon of PT. I put my right hand behind my back, say "PT, take my hand!" wait a few seconds, and slowly pull my hand around to the front (didn't feel a solid hand connection), and there is PT! I looked at her and said, "Yeeeeaaah, you're PT!" Face may not have been precise but height/age/general look was right. I tried to kiss her, she didn't want to. I look into her face and say, "You want it!" Then move to kiss her. Her face became flat and her lips were thin/unsatisfying/unresponsive, I must have closed my eyes, and I fade to awake.

Half-hearted attempt to DEILD back in but don't make it, didn't really try very hard. I may have moved. Wanted to record because I felt like I started to forget, in fact I at first didn't recall the body-pat stabilisation and dream body inspection.
Elapsed time: ~4-5 minutes. Longest or tied for longest LD so far. Definitely most visually vivid/realistic. No dream fuziness at all, this is first time I had a touch of doubt in the middle of the dream because of realistic visuals. Maybe also because it was a bit longer than the others. Patting the whole body, bringing my dream body into my vision, produced very stable and vivid visuals. Didn't look around as much as I had planned to. First time see dream body. Dream body is a bit leaner / in better shape than now . My younger self.
Dream in S2's bed, LD on right side.
My relaxation technique works! Relax, don't try to WILD or force sleep, relax, unfocus eyes, release tension from body on every exhale, go deeper and deeper into relaxation on every exhale, don't "come back up higher" on inhales. The drowsiness/sleepiness feeling came on immediately upon the exhale of the relaxing breath at both the 09:00 BTB and 10:12 waking. Probably could have kept on dreaming but it's Thanksgiving and I had to shop for dinner.
Happy that I performed most of practiced new stabilization: body pat, look at body, count to 5.

I had some success returning to sleep last night that I'd like to share and comment on.

I had bedtime at around 00:00, and wakings at: 03:00 (recall), 04:25 (no recall),
At around 04:45 I realize I'm not making progress back to sleep. I don't feel drowsy at all. There's no "sleepiness" waiting for me at the exhale of relaxing breaths. I think that's an important signal that sleep is not near, or I'm mentally "holding on too tight" and need to do something to change up the situation and shake this hidden tension loose. Just lying in bed and continuing to relax is not going anywhere.

At about 30 minutes of not sleeping I decide to follow the advice given in several places: get out of bed. You do not want your mind/body to associate being in bed with being awake. I decide to do a "proper" WBTB. Sit in a rocking chair about 20 minutes with eyes closed, working on incubation and visualisation. Move to kitchen, warm some milk & drink it, sit there (all the time in the darkness as much as possible). Massage my jaw muscles (typically the major tension holder in the body). Do some relaxing breaths and find some drowsiness there on the exhale. Decide I'm feeling a bit more drowsy, if not super sleepy, so I go back to bed at 06:00. My alarm is set for 07:30, in the past this knowledge would keep me awake but I ignore it and do not sweat it. I don't "try to sleep", I just try to totally relax more and more deeply on each exhale. Try to maintain the relaxation on the inhale (it seems to receded a bit on the inhale for some reason). I'm sure I can make one more sleep cycle with dreams before the alarm sounds.

back to bed at 06:00 slept fairly quickly, waking at: 07:36 (alarm) (recall)

Back to bed (not main bed, alone, cooler room) at for nap at 09:00 (not too long falling sleep, surprisingly lots of drowsiness on exhale), wakings at: 10:12 (recall) (also not long getting back to sleep after 5 minutes of voice journaling in bed), 12:14 (recall + lucid dream!)

What do I mean by "relaxing breath?" Well, an inhale/exhale that is just a little bit longer than sleep breathing. Not really a big deep breath, just a little bit longer than a normal breath. Inhale as normal, but when exhaling try to imagine all tension melting out of everywhere in your body and mind. Try on each breath to go deeper and deeper, becoming more and more relaxed. I even tell myself these words sometimes (a form of sleep hypnosis induction). Sometimes I constrict my throat a bit to provide a little bit of resistance and sound to the exhale.

This is very encouraging: I'm having more and more success with this technique. With each success come more confidence in my ability to go back to sleep, reducing back-to-sleep stress. For those times where nothing works, get out of bed for a while to shake things up. Sometimes, your body / mind just may not be able to sleep, just know that this won't last forever. As a last resort try something like melatonin. Traditional techniques like warm milk can really help, too.

Eat a small snack if you've been up for a while, it's hard to sleep when hungry.

Make sure the temperature is comfortable for you, this is very important for me I've found. Keep a thermometer by the bed and record temperature at bedtime and waking time and record in your dream journal how well you sleep for that temperature.

00:00 Saturday 2013-11-23
00:35 bedtime.
05:31
1) In a car on a city street driving towards downtown O. Not sure how I got here, a bit surprised, did I take a wrong exit from the freeway? I see the tall buildings a mile or two directly ahead of me. I want to get to B, so I turn right on S. avenue, because S avenue after all is a cool street.
I'm eating some stuff and getting full. I see a Jack in the Box up ahead on the left, and think "Oh man I have to get myself a monster taco, and maybe a strawberry milkshake" but I know it will be too much food. There's another fast food place right next door to the right of the JIB but I don't recognize it's name/sign.
I pull up to the drive-through and there are a lot of people standing around, employees taking orders. There's young boy writhing on the ground in pain by the drive-through menu on the grass. Liquid is spurting high in the air out of his back. There's an EMT tech is rolling the boy on the ground, (like a rolling pin), not trying to treat him, until he dies. They put him in a body bag and take him away.
There's a show with Sen. John McCain he's talking about this boy and how outraged he is, he says "you think your children are safe and they'll try to save them but they don't actually try to save you they'll do a million different things that could be wrong." He says "I saw that liquid spurting out of the boy and I didn't know what that stuff is, maybe it's some sauce I put on this piece of bread here (and eat it), or what?" The audience explodes in uproarious laughter to this. I'm outraged because it's a horrible thing to joke about.
I'm walking with my wife, she asks what the laughter is all about, I say it's just John McCain making a terrible statement.
Long time getting back to sleep. Eventually focus exclusively on relaxing, not "getting back to sleep." I let go of my frustration about distractions from sharing a bed with my wife, start spooning with her, and cultivate feelings of love, warmth, and comfort. I then fairly quickly fall to sleep and have the next LD while still holding her in my arms .
07:39 LUCID #9 DILD
2) TV park, old neighborhood. I'm standing on the middle level, with my back to the swings, near the foot of the hill. There's a low coffee table in front of me on the ground. I notice a cloaked figure at the top of the slide by the street, back facing to the park. "I'm dreaming," I realize immediately. I hop over the coffee table, facing towards the merry-go-round. It is half dark, twilight. I say "LET THERE BE LIGHT!" with my arms raised upwards. Visuals instantly vanish, and I'm left in a half-lit void, kind of like insides of the eyelids in a light area. I call to "NN" to pull me out of back into the dream but it doesn't work. I slowly wake up.
12:30 BTB nap
14:23
3) Golf
Watching some guys play golf. We're on a hill, the players have to hike down a bit to the tee below us on the hill. He hits a ball and it flies towards the green in the distance. There are helpers on the green, they mark the landing place of the balls. This guy's ball lands just inside a small sand trap off of the green. A later shot goes to my mother who's in some water like a tub or pool in a different place, she's sitting in an innertube that also holds the hole for the golf ball, as the ball rolls towards the hole, some guys shake the inner tube and the ball misses the hole and my mother is upset about this, she says "if you're going to do that, (other stuff)".
4) graffiti
In the mountains, around my favorite lake (U), I notice graffiti on some rocks. I look at it closely, it is made up of unrecognizable glyphs in multiple colors and they morph shape as I look at them. There is a tag right in front of me, and another one way up a steep slope that is very dangerous to climb, a large promontory with a far drop all around the edges. I imagine we'll have to rig a rope somehow so that someone can climb up there and clean off the tag.
F1) Video gaming console, it lets you play basketball, there's a special external attachment of a hoop and sensor, it measures the baskets you make. I imagine setting it up in a backyard, it would have to be set up securely with a wooden platform so you could shoot basketballs at it and it wouldn't fall over.