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    1. Nighttime intruder

      by , 03-25-2013 at 10:45 AM
      I dreamed that I was awake at night. Perhaps had gone to the kitchen to fetch a glass of water or something. When suddenly I realized there was an intruder in our house: a black man with a flashlight. Interestingly enough even though he did have a flashlight which was on, the lights in the room were also on, so I could clearly see everything (in fact I think that's why my dream mind decided to have the lights on).

      (Side note: why was he black? Is my subconscious racist? Did he just happen to be black? Have I been conditioned by society to fear black men more, so that an intruder is more scary if black? I am white btw.)

      He was on the younger side of middle aged, looked clean and clean shaven, and made the impression of being smart and surprisingly well off for someone who chose to burgle homes at night. He was wearing a clean sweater that looked good on him. He seemed fit, not athletic, but slim and healthy looking - like he took care of himself.

      He was clearly here just looking for valuables: a burglar. He was very surprised to see me. He stopped and stared at me in shock, and said something like "What the heck? This has never happened before." He was clearly unprepared to face an awake inhabitant of the house. He did not seem aggressive, and just seemed to be thinking of what to say and do next.

      Meanwhile I was terrified. I realized I expected that he would rape me. Next thing I know I am lying on my back on the floor with my knees up, even though I had been standing a moment ago, and the dream does not even bother to provide a transition. The burglar looks at me clearly confused and disturbed by my actions, as if he wanted to say "What are you doing woman?" He does not appear to have any intensions to rape me. he appears to be a cultured gentleman burglar.

      This however does not diminish my fear. Next thing I know I wake up still horrified.

      Side note: Why I had this dream: On DV some woman questioned why do rape victims make such a big deal out of it - a statement which kind of shocked me. Then on Facebook a friend of mine posted an interesting article about a professor teaching high school kids how not to rape, an article I read last evening, and someone else also posted a rape related comment because of News of course.

      Upon waking part of me wondered whether the reason why I assumed the position was because part of me wanted to be raped in my dream. But no, I don't think so, my reaction was definitely sheer fear not any anticipation. I assumed the position in my dream because of the simple expectations cause effect in dreams.

      Reassuringly enough my burglar's personality was such that I believe I was in no danger of actually being raped, even if I had not woken up. He seemed to be evaluating my reaction, and judging me to be a very confusing and ridiculous woman. So it was all in my head. My DC was not actually threatening, despite the potentially dangerous situation. Maybe given his personality I should not have expected him to try to rape me, but rather expected him to invite me to sit down with him at the table and calmly discuss the consequences: whether he could persuade me to please not call the police.

      On another note: this was a very vivid dream. I think the vividness was enhanced by and also helped cause the intense emotions.
    2. Entry 17. My first lucid.

      by , 03-25-2013 at 10:08 AM (Ramblings of a mad man...!)
      So, I'm really excited right now, let me lay it out for you, before I do though, I must warn you, it's nothing special.

      On Friday, after a couple of nights with little or no sleep, I decided to take some Valium, my partner gets them as a prescription, so I 'nicked' a few of hers - don't tell her - and off to bed I went. I slept like a baby, as you can imagine and I dreamt of an old friend named Clint Diaso , I woke up and attempted to DEILD, but as I lay there I became more and more clear headed and so I got up to try my hand at WBTB. Neither worked.

      Now, this is where it gets interesting, I don't know if it was the remnants of the sleeping tablets and I can't for the life of me remember what the dream was about, but what I do remember is at one point, the scene changed, right in front of my very eyes. I didn't need to do a reality check due to the fact that as soon as it happened, I asked myself if this was normal or was it a dream, then BOOM, I became lucid - I think - everything turned super, mega, hyper HD and I remembered the hand rubbing technique, unfortunately I then woke up rubbing my hands together.

      Now as you can imagine, this excites me no end, I thought the lucid dream was something that would elude me forever, I'm older than I imagine most on here - maybe not, but the profiles I've read all belong to youngsters - and I always wondered if it's possible to teach an old dog new tricks, if you get my meaning.

      So I'm reaching out to you folks for any encouragement and/or advice. Is this something that is normal, has it happened to anyone else, can I count that as a lucid dream, do you think it may have been a result of the valium in my system - no I'm not going to steal all her tablets, lol, she'd kill me - and is it usual to wake up still trying to stabilise your dreams. Any advice and pointers will be greatly received and I thank you all in advance.

      Nicho...!
    3. Taking an evening run

      by , 03-25-2013 at 05:37 AM
      The clock was 2 am when I decided to go outside and take a run into town, which is about 5-6 miles away in real life. It wasn't dark outside like it usually is after 6pm at this time of the year, instead there was a beautiful summer sunset. When I ran up the hill outside our house I felt light as a feather. The road into town had changed; it was full of tall pinetrees and people drove like crazy because they apparently didn't expect anyone at this time of the day (even though the traffic was higher than it usually is on those roads). I quickly got into Ebeltoft, still light as a feather, and arrived at Jernbanegaden, which is a downhill road with shops and houses on each side. It was different though; it was a lot longer and it looked more big-city and middle-eastern at the same time. Every house and entrance was made of stone and stood up to the road, not leaving much view other than the road and the buildings. As I ran down the road, I basically floated. At this time, the sky was light-blue, cloudy, but a glimpse later, it was pitch black and I was standing at a bar with two girls named Mette and Amalie. There was another girl, but I don't remember who that was. They handed me a plate with food, then placed a sausage on it and told me to eat. I said I was thinking of going into the restaurant owned by one of my mother's mothers instead (she was adopted, has a biological and adoptive mother). They agreed to go with me.
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    4. My day log - 24th March

      by , 03-24-2013 at 10:15 PM
      I woke up today sometime after 9am at my gf's place. Sat behind the laptop a while, also visited bathroom etc.
      Some minutes later my gf came up too.
      I ate my quark with funlight in front of the computer. Took me over an hour to finish it I guess, I played some flash games and just chilled on the computer.

      After that, we cleaned her room, took us probably an hour almost.
      And then I packed everything and went home to dad.

      At dads house, time were probably about 4pm when I arrived.
      There was nobody home.
      I went to my room, unpacked the systemcamera to test out how long I can film for (as me and my friend gonna film tomorrow, not our own work but somebodys else). Figured out my camera is filled after about 20-22 minutes of filming. But that might be enough though.
      While testing out that and different settings I sat behind my computer. And after maybe an half hour somebody came into the house. It was my dads gf's son who got some pitbull dog. He is the 'gangsta' type guy with tattoos etc.

      Anyway, I were still on my computer and surfed around.
      Dad and his gf came home too, and an half hour after that I came out from my room, said hi and then I went off to store as I guessed they wouldn't do any food because they probably been eating. And really nothing here at home to eat.
      So I bought hamburgers and french fries.

      So I made dinner for myself.
      Sat behind the computer while eating, watched on videos of how to do some exercises etc. Because I'm starting a new scheldue tomorrow at the gym.
      I am very worried about it, I do want to succeed the 25th April on the test. I am afraid to get injured, but same time I feel like I need push harder and put on weights and do stronglift program. But that gives a much higher injure chance, and instead I might just practise more on the techniques so I am sure I am doing it all correct.
      If I get injured, I will be fkd for sure.

      Well, since then I been on the computer.
      I also made dishes. Put up the clean dishes from the machine and then put in my dishes etc.

      Now soon I think of going to bed and sleep. Latest 11pm (23:00), which is in like 55 minutes from now. Because tomorrow I will wake up about 6am. Because 9am I will be at that internship place (oh btw I will check on google street view of exactly where it is), and before this I will go gym.

      So tomorrow I will wake up 6am, make 2 hamburgers for breakfast maybe as I don't have anything else to eat I guess. Then I will prepare the gymbag with everything, be on the computer too maybe. And then latest 06:50 I will start walk to the gym.
      I will be then on the gym around 07:30, where I will workout for max 1 hour, to 08:30, and then take a shower and then walk to that place.

      I hope it wont be too long day, because I need to get home and back to the city, at 18:30 I need to be there with my friend and film for this EU project we're teaming up with.

      I HOPE my friend got to recharge his batteries etc, because they want it to be filmed, they said they else get somebody else who can film them (it's some speech they gonna do, some lecture or whatever called). And if my friend wouldn't have recharged batteries or anything, it all might just get FKD! Because my systemcamera got low memory compared to my friend, and I might not be able to film it all.
      So there I am a little bit worried.
      As I know things like that happened before with my friend. When going gym something comes up and he don't go and when me, him and my gf were gonna take photos on northen lights, the first evening his wheels on the car were broken. So we skipped that day. The other day (next day from that) we were gonna take photos of northen lights, but then his cameras battery were out. But luckily he recharged it, but we were late like 2 hours than when we were suppose to go.


      Oh well, I hope everything will be fine.
      I am mostly worried about this test on 25th April. And also, then I have to wait until between 10th July and 16th September or something like that, until I know if I even got in the basic military education. So will be months of worryness after the test anyway.

      I wish I just could speed up the time and let the days go until 25th April, then look what results I got, and then speed time to sometime after 10th July and see if I got in or not.

      If I don't get in, I'll have hard to choose, if I am gonna continue study and go for the film- and TV production one in another city that sure will be fun but might not be very great with jobs afterwards and will be owe lots of money.
      I might just be looking for jobs etc.
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    5. Pre-Move Dream Canon (The Marsh)

      by , 03-24-2013 at 08:47 PM (Another Night: Best of Jabre's Dream Journal)
      2007-2010
      1. The Lake of the previous dreams has become a huge wetland, and has now become dissociated from my house, but rather near Zombie Island. I am standing in the Marsh with a bunch of people, and swimming in a whirlpool the size of a football field.

      2. I am in a swamp that has taken over a neighborhood. I walk around, knowing that I have to get out before the rest of it floods. I lose my shoe, and I go back, delaying me. I then cannot make it in time before the next tidal change.

      3. I am back in the location of the first dream. I swim, but this time I discover a beautiful waterfall and cove in the Marsh.

      4. We have to jump from a mound of swamp to swim in the Marsh's tide pool.

      5. I am in a palace in Etcia (a location in my dream world), overviewing the Marsh in its beautiful entirety. When I awaken, I am happy that the terrifying place of the Lake is now replaced by this intricate swamp that I can visit in my dreams anytime I become lucid.

      6. I am playing tag with other small children in the Marsh.

      7. I am in the Marsh with others. As the wave of water rushes in, I meet a man or an animal. I cannot remember which. He told me that I was dreaming, and that he was my Dream Guide; an alternate consciousness living within my brain that only appeared in my dreams. He told me that while I was awake he slept and that dreams where his reality. I have not seen him since.

      8. EDIT: 4/30/13 The Marsh has recently transformed into the Woodland. Dreams that take place in the classic Marsh will be still be tagged as such. The Marsh was also originally the Lake, but that has since been eradicated. Only one dream from the present has gone back to the original Lake.

      Updated 05-01-2013 at 01:29 AM by 60107

      Tags: lucid, marsh
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      lucid , memorable , side notes
    6. updates

      by , 03-24-2013 at 05:45 AM (Tales from the sun chaser.)
      updated "she loves me not" and desire....links were dead.

      Also had some dream about H being upset with me...no matter what I did or how much I apologized, it didn't matter.
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      non-lucid , side notes
    7. Update Note: WILD psychological exploration

      by
      pog
      , 03-23-2013 at 11:51 PM (Pog's Dream Journal)
      No LDs or similar for about two or more weeks (just 1 false/unsustained lucid), which is disappointing. But during WILD attempts I've had a lot of positive psychological insight, childhood memories and emotional healing. So I wonder if I'm going through some adjustment process before a renewed mental development.

      Note to self: keep going; enjoy and value what your subconscious is trying to process for now; be ready for another leap in the near future!
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    8. Lucidity around the corner?

      by , 03-23-2013 at 10:33 PM
      I napped. When I woke up my thought mas that lucidity is just around the corner. Was this my waking mind's insight or the subject of my dream? I do not recall.
    9. Obe

      by , 03-22-2013 at 08:16 PM
      I don't remember much of last night. Again, I was distracted and not focused on dreaming lucidly, although I did ponder it as I fell asleep.

      I had one of my out of body experience type things. Sometimes, while asleep, even though I am not dreaming I will instinctively "sit up" out of my body and begin an OBE.

      I was not able to easily fully free myself from my body, this time - for whatever reason. But I WAS able to see - in the past, I've always been blind - although I wasn't able to fully open my eyes. I was quite aware that this was a form of dream, although I was unable to control its course. I stumbled around my dream-room, half-blind and unable to control my limbs very well at all or free myself from my blanket, which I felt like I was entangled in.

      I realized that this wasn't working well and lay back down, attempting to visualize and possibly break out of the OBE into a regular lucid dream. I also attempted to do a scene change to sky, which didn't work.
      Unfortunately, I lost lucidity.

      I know that this wasn't a misadventure with sleep paralysis because I've gotten very good at differentiating. When I woke up, my bed and bedroom were unmussed despite the fact that in my OBE/dream, I had completely wrecked my bedroom and knocked/thrown stuff everywhere. Unless I then cleaned them up in my sleep... lol.

      I was woken up by my smoke alarm chirping. I had to get up and change the battery. While I did so, I tried to ponder the dreams I had, but I couldn't recall any of them. It was frustrating. My dream recall seriously hinges on how stressed and distracted I am.
    10. My day log - 22th March

      by , 03-22-2013 at 07:52 PM
      Feel tired to write right now. I will make a short description of the day.


      I woke up sometime in morning. I was on the computer.
      Then I walked to the gym, worked out, and then walked to my gf.
      Once at gf's place, I were on the computer. Then we also ate chicken, cucumber and some feta cheese. AND cashew nuts too.

      Then we went with gf's mums friend to some guy who fixed my gfs mums car because it broke a few days ago. We drove to the part of the city where my dad lives, because my gf think of getting a dog that looks like a sheep almost.
      The dog is 1 year old and named Gizmo or something like that. He barked a lot, seemed to be aggressive etc.
      The people that were gonna lend us him (they give us him a year and we only need pay food, and then maybe we get the dog), was not able to have the dog anymore because the dog was jealous and pee'd on the kids stuffs etc, lol.
      Well, my gf is unsure if she gonna get the dog, as it seemed so angry and wasn't very nice as it bit her hand too, with the whole mouth.

      Well, then we went away from there and picked up my gfs mums sister who lives in Stockholm (capital of Sweden, like 900km south) but she have come up here to visit.
      We went home to my gf.
      My gf and her mums sister (whatever called), went away again, as they were going to make tattoos at some dude we know. My gf got a couple of tattoos she been doing the past half year, she was just gonna fill in some tattoo alittle while her mums sister were going to do some tattoo.

      That's kinda everything in quite short details.
      No idea if we will eat anything soon again. I ate 500g quark with funlight for an hour ago as I were hungry.
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    11. Snooze DILD, managed to defy alarm clock

      by , 03-22-2013 at 06:59 PM
      Before sleep: felt like listening to relaxing music when falling asleep but decided to turn it off. Big mistake, was way too awake and my mind decided it was time to torture me with worries about an incoming situation irl. I managed to convince myself I am not interested in its worries tonight, and started day dreaming more pleasant situations instead. 2 hours went by before I felt asleep…

      Total sleep time: 7+hrs

      Dream recall techniques: tired and lazy tonight, so none

      First Regular Dream: No DJ entry. Woke up around 3 hrs after falling asleep, went to toilet and repeated two times the key word which was supposed to unravel the dream. Was really sleepy and did not turn on tablet to write down, which I should have done, because I couldn’t remember anything from this dream when waking up 4 hrs later.

      Snooze dreams: I wanted to sleep, felt really tired, but I also wanted to lucid, so I switched between setting the alarm clock for 20 more minutes or just pressing the snooze button.

      Snooze dream1: Me and some classmates were in a building, which later feels more like a mall. I remember in the dream that there is a place in the mall, where they sell really attractive cupcakes/brownies, etc. I am interacting with my friends and I dream some toilets as per dream tradition.

      Snooze dream2: The building I am in feels like some kind of hospital in space, maybe spaceship. The atmosphere is very dynamic because it is part of the “Aliens” game that I am playing in the dream. This is very similar to previous dreams I had. [I haven’t played “aliens” for years and after so many paranoid dreams I am surely not buying the new one!] The room door in front of me will open any minute, somebody is counting down, and there are lots of aliens waiting to jump on me. Just great! I try running away from them, rushing to a room, closing the door. They are coming! I try to open the window and jump from it. It is very high and I fall, I fail to hold on to any branches of a nearby tree and keep on falling. But I guess, my attention is not programmed to hit the ground, so it happens as if I really managed to grab some branches and am hanging in the air. I feel gravity in a really strange way as I am completely disoriented as to in which direction the ground is. The aliens are probably climbing the building so they will reach me soon.

      I wake up putting the alarm for some 20 mins later and think I want to WILD. I feel very sleepy but I try to keep myself awake, staring at the blackness in front of me, keeping the intention to have a lucid. I didn’t notice when I fell asleep.

      Snooze dream3 - DILD: The scenario where the aliens are coming continues, but this time I am at my old place, in my room. A transparent guy, I can only see the contours of his body, walks in the room. At first I think he will chase me, but then he turns into a friend from school. I have the urge to kiss him, and well, I do. The paranoia returns and I feel the presence of aliens or whatever is after me behind the room door. There is only one way out now – the balcony. I head for the balcony, and as I cross and have the view of the balcony in front of me, I become aware that I am dreaming. I repeat that I am dreaming in my mind, to be sure that I don’t reintegrate in the dream and lose awareness. Ok, great, but there is this thing that I still feel is coming. Would it stop doing that? I kind of know that I am causing its behaviour with my thoughts, so I try to make it disappear. Does not work. I continue down the balcony, which is really long. I think that if I ignore it, it may not be there, but then I turn my back and there it is. The chaser is now an old rasta man that feels somewhat ominous to me. I mumble that I want him to go away, no effect again. I am reaching the end of the balcony, the corner of the building. I try to think of alternatives of how to deal with the situation. At that very moment the damn alarm clock starts ringing. I am extremely annoyed at this, I really don’t want to wake up now, argh! Perhaps my anger turned to determination not to wake up and I managed to hold the dream and me there as I heard the alarm clock resonating everywhere. No idea how long that was, but it eventually stopped. [I have never attempted to ignore an alarm clock before, neither have I noticed that it stops because I always wake up and turn it off]
      Still on the edge of the balcony, thinking what to do, I see the old rasta advancing, and consider the option of jumping off the building. I know that I will be fine, but when I think about down, I don’t turn my head, just think, I see blackness and I am concerned that I will probably lose it, because the scene will change. “Try to think of a scene to land in”, I think but this is way too complicated. I decide to jump anyways. I am standing at the edge of the balcony and the soles of my bare feet are half way through the air. I do not feel stable enough underneath to be able to perform a jump movement and to launch myself.
      The dream slips away and I wake up.

      Comments: Chasers can be really annoying when you LD. I had some tasks in mind but I really can’t do anything when I feel compelled to run away. Is there any reliable and efficient way to get rid those cheeky entities that prevent you from doing other planned LD actions? Fighting them is way too distracting and making them disappear does not always work. Any tips?

      Updated 03-22-2013 at 08:34 PM by 61764

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      lucid , non-lucid , memorable , side notes
    12. DC: chances are high this is a dream! (Me: not self aware!)

      by , 03-22-2013 at 08:22 AM
      This dream was about a dreamviews thread on what are the odds this is a dream! Completely non-lucid and no sense of self - I was "reading" not participating.

      Here is a fragment of my dream thread - there actually were user names but I forgot which:

      ...
      [user1] This is not a dream, not weird enough.
      [user2] Ah but we are not aware of all that is going on - not remembering all. If we backfill for all missing data points, then there is so much weirdness, that chances are high this is a dream!
      ....

      First of all, a dream in which a DC says/writes that chances are high that it is a dream, that's beautiful! Now, why couldn't I also have some self-awareness to allow me to make the small leap from that to lucidity?

      I know which thread triggered this! Gab yesterday wrote something like "let's face it our waking life is not weird enough, so we may need to pretend that it is" and I responded that I disagree that in my opinion life is plenty of weird, we just don't stop to question it most of the time, and don't notice how weird it is. In my dream the conversation was not between gab and JoannaB but it might as well have been. Fascinating, the only time I have successfully had an LD thus far after returning to this hobby was also triggered by DV interaction with gab. I think I will ask gab whether she would be willing to be my mentor or something, since obviously my dream self has a strong correlation between gab and lucidity or almost lucidity! Gab is my LD muse! Here is a link to the thread: http://www.dreamviews.com/general-lu...correctly.html (gab's post is #17 and my response is #18, and this is definitely what this dream is based on!)

      Another element of this dream, the backfilling for missing data to get adjusted statistics which may change the whole picture of what the data shows - this was triggered by a work problem I was working on this week! It's neat to see where such ideas in my dreams originated from in real life.

      Updated 03-22-2013 at 08:37 AM by 61501

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    13. Sand bear

      by , 03-22-2013 at 05:14 AM (Keitorin's Dream Log)
      The only thing I remember about this morning's dreams was something about recordings, mom and dad, and a town or something/a game??

      Yesterday's dreams...

      Dream 1:

      - I was talking/arguing to dad about religion, specifically about how Paganism was infused in everything.
      - Dad and someone else were going to ride on an oven pan (lol wat), but I needed it and was hoping they'd be done with it soon. I wondered how they'd fit on it, but I got an image in my head showing that they could fit a foot side by side.
      - I was walking in the woods when I stumble across a group of bears huddled together. I freeze and drop down into a pile of leaves and stuff, but they've already noticed me. I remember that I should keep totally still.
      - I'm cuddling up with the bears and they're talking to me, totally harmless.

      Dream 2: I'm floating from sandbar to sandbar on a beach and collecting lost items from old campers. I'm a bit scared and sad as I think about what might have happened to the people who lost them. What the water's depths might be hiding. [I still remember that feeling, looking down into the deep water.]

      When I reach the end, I step over and into a house with the stuff. The cats are sleeping in a cat bed or something down the hall and I get really worried about them getting outside and lost, so I make sure the door is really secure.

      (I've lost some of the details since I didn't type this up sooner or try and remember them better.)
    14. My day log - 21th March

      by , 03-21-2013 at 11:59 PM
      Today I've been happy and angry!

      Happy: I got the letter about the basic military education, and I am going to be tested 25th April! I hope I will success the test, which I believe I will. But I will know if I will be able to start the education first sometime after 10th July.

      Angry: The young blonde woman/girl who was at the checkout in the store, weight my sweets wrong and made me pay $2 more. I was surprised that it weight so much but she said it does weight it so I believed, but when got home, I detect she weight it wrong. She said it was 0.45 kg, but it actually were 0.25 kg.. Oh well.


      Alright, here's the whole day, I will try keep it more short.


      I woke up at morning, 06:50. Went on the computer for an half hour, then I were packing my gymbag, but I went back to the computer and were there a while, also loaded in some more musics to the iPod.
      Time were about 08:30 before I went off to the gym.
      At 09:10 I was in the city, I shot a photo with my phone of the market that started today, and posted it on my fanpage about my city where I got some thousands of likes.
      Then I went into the gym, worked out for about 1,5 hour almost. Had about 1 hour strength exercises and then about 20 minutes cardio, but shower on that etc adds it over 1,5 hour.

      When done at the gym, time was like 11:00 almost.
      I walked to the library to go to the bathroom first, and then I tried go on the wireless network but it didn't work very well.
      Looked at books, books about psychology etc. About how to erase stress and all that kind of stuffs, and also books about meditation, dreams etc, which I been looking at before and also read some book a while ago.
      However, didn't find any book even though I thought quite much to lend a book as some seems to be great with those titles "how to make your life better", "if you're stuck in life" and familiar books that maybe can help of what path to go in life and get some tips. But well, I didn't lend anything for now.

      After I been at the library, I were walking towards home.
      On the way home, I had in mind to buy me dr pepper for the pizza I was going to do for lunch.
      Once at the store, I kind of felt like having some sweets too, but not so much. I picked it (bulk candy or whatever called in English).
      Went to the cashout, which was a blonde woman in my age (there is very many young people that works on this store).
      She said 50 kr after she had scanned the dr pepper etc.
      I was quite surprised and said how can it be that much?
      She answered that it is, that it's weight 0.4 kg, I was quite unsure but I said alright.
      I picked it up after I had paid and tried to weight it in my arm and wondered is this really 0.4 kg? it feels more like 0.2 kg.
      I was thinking to let her weight it again, but somehow it sounded so untrusty or weird, and besides I had just worked out and who know if I just been pumped up and stronger and therefor it feels lighter?

      I walked home, thinking about if she really weight it correct, if she accidently (or maybe not even accidently?) hold her hand down or if the dr pepper hadn't pass through the scale while she weight the sweets (as they just swipe pass the products fast).

      Once at home, I detected I had post, lots of letters, all to dad except the one for me, that was from the Recruit Agency.
      I was thinking that I will rage out and walk back to store if I don't get to make the test on the military education (as the answered were in the envelope), and that if I get in, I will just forget that store incident.

      I went to bathroom first as I had to do my needings. Then I started the laptop, took a picture of the envelope and loaded it up on Facebook.
      I opened the envelope and got happy to read what it said.
      Though I left negative comment on the stores Facebook page, that is completely dead (they got 10 likes, and haven't written anything in many months since they started it up), so doesn't matter anyway any much.
      Nothing I anyway could do really about it, more than hate the store and avoid going there anymore.

      Anyway, I then made my pizza, ate it. And then been on the computer like all afternoon and evening.


      Right now I've edited the world record video I shot last weekend, when my city made world record in largest Facebook thumb using humans to form it. We were about 2493 people or so.
      And well I don't bother edit it that perfectly, I made a fast 3D intro in Cinema 4D that took me about 10 minutes total of creating, as I also added it into After effects to add an optical flare. Rendnering time in Cinema 4D took time though.
      Then I put it into sony vegas where I just put it all together.

      Well that's it. Soon time is 00:00 and I will maybe brush my teeths soon, drink some water and then go bed.
      Atleast before 1am I will try.
      Tomorrow morning/day I go gym, and before 3pm my gf want me to be there to meet some dog that looks like a sheep that she thinks of taking care of and possible get..
      So I don't know if I will maybe sleep to like 8-10am and then wake up, go to gym and directly from gym I walk to my gf. I probably do that. But sleeping a 6-8 hours first.

      Updated 03-22-2013 at 12:02 AM by 49844

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    15. My day log - 20th March

      by , 03-20-2013 at 10:15 PM
      I woke up like 11:20 this morning. As always, sat behind the computer in the morning.
      After an hour I really started to get hungry, and well I had nothing to eat, because I hadn't bought anything for myself.

      As I were getting dressed to go store, my old mobilephone was ringing, I didn't get time to answer before it stopped. But I called back and it was the employment service that wanted me to get there as fast possible or atleast before 3pm, because I needed to get some information about an internship I'll start on Monday. This internship though doesn't seem to be like the ones I'd before that was total useless, this one is for a job in the summer that I might get if I do it good on the internship. It's some simple IT job that probably retarded persons would even succeed. And they needed lots of people.

      So, hungry as fk I were going to take bus to the city. I walked outdoor and shortly after my dad opened the balcony door and asked me where I am going. I said I'm going to the employment service and he asked me if I want a ride because he is going to his work soon. So I said alright.
      He dropped me off in front of the employment service, I walked in and went into the room. The old woman who I've as 'officer' or whatever to call it, said I was very quick.

      She talked and gave me paper about the internship, about where and when it starts.
      25th March to 10th April I will be there slaving like I've done massive of times before. This though look more bright in my eyes.
      But I wasn't very happy anyway, and she was quite surprised of that as she know I've been trying hard to get a job.
      What I kind of got angry on is that this internship is on the days where me, my gf, dad and his gf were going to my dads dad for some days.
      Even though, my dad in car told me that it might not be off anyway, because his girlfriend wants to stay home and enjoy time with her oldest son etc.
      And also, this ain't 100% sure I will even get a job, and I remember there is like 3 places where they gonna put us, and I don't want to work like 500km away from here, like where the fk do I'm gonna live. If I will go bus to and from the job, I will not earn more than if I just would be without job like I'm now. Because I guess the salary will be sh-t.

      Well, after the meeting I walked to the library, was getting on the WiFi network and surfed around on my phone. Did that for like a 15 minutes, then got bored and started walk home.
      On my way home I passed by a store, bought a dr pepper, pizza doughbottom (or whatever spelled and called), and all other stuffs I need for make a glutenfree pizza. Also bought some chips and cheese dip I wanted try out (they don't have the cheese dip I been eating for over a year ago, the very best one, sux that all stores seems to be removing it).

      Anyway, once I came home. Went on the computer, noticide I were banned from the girly sh-tty website me and my gf use to be on. I noticied my IP were banned because no user did work to login to. So I first tried use a IP proxy through the webbrowsers network settings, but it didn't work. So I used TOR webbrowser and there I got into another account. But my main account were total gone. And I don't even know why really.
      But, I don't care any much. My gf though noticied it some hours after and she thought I had deleted my account there until I explained that I'm banned.

      Anyway, short after I been on the computer for some minutes, I started to make my pizza, took me like 30 minutes in total.
      Then I ate it, was tasting great.

      After that, I've been on the computer like all afternoon and evening.
      I plan to go bed soon, time is 10:12pm right now (22:12). I probably are in my bed atleast 23:00, in a 3/4 hour (45 minutes).


      My plan for tomorrow is to get up early, I will maybe put alarm at like 7am, maybe even 6am, not sure. I shall sleep a 7-8 hours atleast. Then I will wake up, pack my gymbag and head off to gym and try to be there before 9am. Then I will just walk back home later and really no idea what to do rest of all day tomorrow.

      Now I will go have some water and sit behind the computer some more minutes before I go bed.
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