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Tried alarm-based DEILDs starting at 05:00 but was too awake, didn't make it back to sleep after first alarm, eventually back to sleep at around 07:30, turned off the alarms.

05:30

+ walking on a beach. neighbor boy with mother is there too, his foot gets stuck in between some stones, I'm walking over the sand and over rocks in the sand.

+ work elevators. Walking past a group of people returning from lunch. On an outdoor path. The group starts pressing into me strongly and closely as I try to push past, I keep an eye on my bag to make sure nobody steals my stuff. I"m keeping an eye out for cute women in the group. Someone says "oh, my." I reach the elevators, there are about 3 elevators. There's a crowd, can't get on, elevators open on left, a tour group is there, they don't get on at first, tour guide says "the minimum age is 52."

A bunch of short dreams throughout the late morning punctuated by quick awakenings.

Somewhere in there tried a classical WILD, was reaaaaalllllyyyy sllloooooowwww to get relaxed enough, but eventually felt the beginnings of ragged breathing, jerking eyes, and an "all-body-buzz" which are my WILD noise indicators. No body movement hallucinations, felt a bit light-headed. Tried to remain calm but didn't make it into the dream.

08:00 ?

+ I find myself Looking at a wall of snow about 6 feet away right in front of me. The snow at the top level of the walll is the bottom of a ski run. I"m thinking about how I could try to jump down this wall on skis: how I would try to dig my ski edges into the sides of the wall, and I also think this may not work since the wall is more or less vertical and I'd probably just fall down, the wall is about 10 feet high. As the dream fades I realize I'm dreaming and try to get back in but I don't feel like counting it as a lucid since the visuals were gone before I realized I was dreaming.

09:30 (dreams from many earlier quick wakings)

+ walking past my elderly mother in the living room, she's sitting in a chair. Something snags her skirt and pulls it entirely off her, I'm trying to find the cloth and put it back, she's laughing, I finally can get a hold of the cloth and put it back in place.

+ I'm walking outside on a street with my son, lots of people outside. We're carrying a pet hamster in a glass. There's a pet store nearby. I want to go in and I say there will be a lot of cute animals there. My son is reluctant, he may be concerned that we'll lose our hamster. I look at the hamster it has kind of a shimp-like face with big black closely-set eyes. My son pours some water into the glass with the hamster. I look at it and say it has a stupid little rhinoceros-head.

+ plane crash. I'm in my car at the top of the hills. I see a large commercial jet plane flying overhead at the top of the hills, it's taking off and barely misses me, flying towards the water. I'm driving. I'm in my car then at the bottom of the hills and look up and see the plane flying, and looks like it's in trouble. It flies out over the water. I"m at a red light. I'm leaning forwards to see the plane in the sky through my windshield. I see the plane bank sharply and head back towards me on the land. The traffic light is now green. I drive out of the way so the plane doesn't hit me. I'm driving in water, to the left, the plane will crash land a bit to the right, I think I'll drive way out to the left in the water if I have to to avoid the plane. There are designated parking areas on a pier for the cars in the water.

I walk by the crash site and I see bodies floating face down. There are certified drivers who are diving to save the people, I see several. Someone says "oh, yeah, there's sharks." I think of course there are sharks there is probably a lot of blood in the water from the crash. I see a few people walking away in soaked clothing and I think a few have been rescued.

+ walking by a vietnamese restaurant, I'm outside on a boardwalk, there's a menu posted on a board, I'm reading it and see an item on the menu is called a "whiskey rim-shot." I also see a picture of a big bowl with red liquid inside and slices of hot peppers, I think it's a picture of someone's bowl after they've eaten and used a lot of red chili sauce.

I run into friend D. D blabbers at me something profound, yet I know in waking he's a Dick. I turn him into a toad to match his internal appearance. He continues to blabber, not having noticed the change in his dreaming body. Of course not.

Picking up I kiss him. I'm not a princess, quite the opposite of something pure and royal.

I watch as he forms warts all over his body and then as those begin to ooze slime.

Still, he blabbers.

I'm tempted to kill this form of his, knowing he'll respawn elsewhere.

Pulsing a few charges of energy into my hand, I'm now holding a dagger. I place him on the ground and whisper to him, "If you are not aligned in your totality, I will kill you each time you land yourself within my eyesight."

The dagger slices through his reptilian skin and I observe the life force dissipate.

My boyfriend today was telling me about a dream or possibly out of body experience he had last night.
He isn't one to believe or practice in out of body experiences. So this was odd, he said he "woke up" in the dream at 2am and he was standing in our room where he saw himself and me laying bed asleep, the room was dark with very little light. He saw a shapeless black entity that had no face and spoke to him telepathically. This thing led him away from the room and brought him to a graveyard covered in children laying tied down to the ground and this thing paralyzed him and made him unable to close his eyes or look away from these children who were telling him to run and get away, and this thing lit the children on fire. After it was all over it said to my boyfriend "I have you now, I control you." and he was back in our room and he touched his physical body laying in bed and he woke up to our son crying and it was 6am. Help me please I'm worried.

1/25/14**

Interesting development tonight! Instead of some previous experiences where it felt like mechanics were involved in countering my lucidity...tonight both LDs felt like I was suspicious I could be dreaming and I was getting nudges of help or clues! I think this was due to my re-inspired self awareness work! Anyway busy today got to be brief. First LD I was sitting outside with a heavy-set black guy with mostly shaved head but a slight fade. For the second night in a row I see something interesting about the stars in the sky (previous night I was just focusing on a good night's sleep and got a fantastic show in the sky that was non lucid; stars lighting up unusually and then became firework sounds behind a cloud and then very clear and vivid fireworks with animation in the sky thinking it was a little late for fireworks - felt like 10:30 p.m. in the dream - and it turned out to be some advertising campaign but so beautiful!) anyway I tell that guy that those stars
look unusual, the constellation was laid out with so many stars kind of in a shape of a boot and as I was pointing it out the whole constellation lit up (lucidity help#1) and I realized that I must be dreaming but it felt so real but I said no I must be dreaming. I decided to RC by flying up into the sky. Yep! I am thinking what now and think of flying to the moon and I look for the moon as I'm floating high up in the sky. I see the moon and start flying towards it and as I get close I go to land and somehow end up in a big L shaped room that looked like an abandoned club house or game room with items at each end of the L. I think okay is this supposed to be on the moon? Sure enough I'm bouncing around the room with moon like gravity! It is actually a whole lot of fun! After bouncing around for awhile I look at the front door to this big room and I think about what they were talking about in the last podcast and decided I would go out a different way
and flew up through the roof as if it were not there. I'm floating in the sky again and I look for some interesting stars to fly to and think about the tip from Sivason. As I focus on each star they move a little to the right or a little to the left. Finally I find one that seems to stay fixed and I focus on it as I begin to fly towards it but then I lose sight of it but I can feel that I am deep in space and it feels a little weird like gentle pressure waves rolling against me. I feel lost out here so I decide to teleport back to the L shaped room and bounce around some more. I lost lucidity either here or through the FA that followed. A guy similar to the one at the beginning of the dream was there and had a habit of turning on multiple TV'S...like a compulsion. This was after a normal wbtb about 4 hours in. Woke up from LD#1 around 5am. Did a more lazy wbtb with less SSILD cycles overlayed with mantra that I stop & realize I am dreaming + one that I
recognize the transition (both were WILD attempts turned DILDs). 2nd LD I was in what was supposed to be my grandparents house. I was helping my grandmother with something in the garage and she decided it was time to go to bed and she went on towards bed and as I passed the laundry area(?) between the garage and the house I spilled something on the floor and it got worse as I tried to stop the spill. I went in to the bathroom to clean up I guess and heard a jingling sound then saw a small white fluffy dog and thought hmm I guess that is their dog. Then I see a taller majestic grayish blackish dog and think that is strange...doesn't seem like any dog of theirs and think this could be a dream. Nudged again (lucidity help#2) I see someone walking towards me in a bear suit and I say now I know I am dreaming! I fly up out of the house and it is daytime whereas before it seemed like night. There is a line of college cheerleaders (male and female) out in
front of the house performing. Like in one of my HHs earlier where a woman in a skirt had one leg propped up on something provocatively, I saw a cheerleader standing legs split with a "come hither" look and I swooped down to the ground below her and worked my way towards performing oral on her as she grabbed at my junk, enjoying the experience but eventually faded back to bed.

Something to do with staying at a strange hotel where I swam in a pool for some time, then climbed a clock tower.

Something to do with making my way through backyards and private property along the coastline until I went into some woman's house.
Inside of her house she had these artfully decorated walls painted all the colors of the rainbow. I accidentally got a small portion of the wall wet and caused the paint to wash off. I tried to fix it, but the woman found out.

I'm in a house which contains a dollhouse which is an exact model of the house, even containing a miniature version of the dollhouse itself, which in turn is a perfect model with its own miniature dollhouse inside, and so on; the dream camera zooms in through what seems to be an infinite series of nested houses, and I say "It's recursive."

Inside one of these levels of houses, I can hear a woman's voice singing, not a recording or anything professional, it's the way someone might sing to themselves around the house, going "la la la" instead of words. I'm in a hall, passing by a woman's bedroom where there are a few cardboard boxes open on the floor, one with old Victorian clothes spilling out, and a mirror in a gold frame. The mirror catches my attention and I go lucid. I'd been thinking earlier (while awake) that mirrors are often linked with magic and summoning in my dreams and I'd intended to try using that deliberately the next time I had a lucid dream, so I look at this one now and try to summon Julia, who I'd expect to be the easiest character for my mind to summon. After a moment I see a woman moving in the mirror in the distance, too far away to see much, but it's not Julia. I start to try again with a slightly different approach, but then think that I'm a little too close to waking up for this. I lose visuals.

I 'wake up' in bed and reach for a pen to jot this down, but I drop it and have to get out of bed to look for it. I'm irritated by this, thinking I'm going to forget the dream - then I wake up again.

Had terrible day yesterday. Tired and emotional, just wanting to give up. So I ask my subconcious to release the pain of the past. Give me a break at least. Just before I woke up this morning I hear, clear as a bell a song twice sung in a falsetto voice "and if you smile you can break out the fuel to my brain". Good dreams last nite too!

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

I am in small town, people walking around, going to places and then a loud bang and we see an airplane blowing up in the air and parts of it falling down. One big part of it falls at the end of the street I am in and makes many buildings collapse. Me and other people start running the opposite direction and scream to people coming in our direction to turn back and run for their lives. When I'm almost being hit by debris, I see an entrance to an underground place, maybe a subterranean park and I run down the stairs. There's another lady inside and I tell her to move away from the entrance, which gets blocked with debris. There are some stairs to the right of an elevator. The power is down, so we cannot call the elevator. We try the stairs, but on the next floor they are also blocked with debris. I have an idea, I open the elevator door - it's one of those that you can open by sticking your fingers in the crack between the two and pushing them apart. The elevator is stuck half way on this floor and the top floor is just above us, so I climb through it and bring the lady with me. We open a trap door in the ceiling and find ourselves on a terrace. It's not vey high, just 1 or 2 floors above the ground, probably the upper levels of the car park. There are other persons on it already, close to the edge, looking at the street. Everything below is a chaos, people are confused about what to do, but when they start organizing themselves, a couple of guys with guns decide to take over the decision-making and to rule us. One of them points the gun at me and I instinctively punch him, throwing his gun away, and then kick the other in the croch. Then I grab the gun and the first guy shows intention to fight back so I shoot him in the leg. Still, they attack me and I try to shoot again, this time to kill, but there's no more bullets. So I run and some follow me.
Soon I realize we're on an island and there's no place to go. I feel that I'm in an alternative version of "Lost" and I even meet some of the characters of the series. When I and some of the others who escaped, get in the jungle, we encounter them and They tell us to follow them. They live in a fortress on a smaller island offshore and we have to swim there, because there's no boat to take us.

Walking in the sloped field behind my house amidst some chickens. I knew that I wanted to fly but was not sure why or how. I looked down and I was spontaneously holding two wings, similar to those of a buzzard. I guessed that the best way to fly would be to just flap the two wings in my arm. Trying to gain some speed by running down hill, jumping and then flapping seemed to produce a few seconds of lift but eventually gravity seemed to strengthen and pull me down. Multiple repetitions later it became clear that the now eagle wings weren't working. Anxious to fly I scavenged my immediate surrounding and noticed a giant robot vending machine barely a foot to my left. Not through any particular reason I realized that I was currently residing in the dream world. Knowing that I had flown before multiple times, I just bounced up feeling these amazing upsurges as if I had full control over the gravity effecting me. I flew maybe 20 meters straight upwards and saw a fog blocking my sight from reaching outside the domain of my garden. A drowsiness spread over me and the world ended.

Journal Entry Lucid#3 /Semi-Lucid Dream,Lucid, Semi-Lucid, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I slept earlier again. I have been sleeping earlier for some reason. I prepared this time and meditated 30 minutes before I normally get sleepy. I still got sleepy while meditating, but the difference was I didn't lose consciousnesses of it. I realized I was falling asleep and I would immediately get back into posture.

Dream fragment 1, from 7:50pm-12:42am"": I had a dream about my neighbors for some reason. I don't remember the details that much, but I remember my fence was either torn or I was flying over it.

I got up and played some video games. I was just trying to be happy since I have been sad for a couple of days. I watched something. After a while close to 4:10am. I was getting sleepy. I closed my eyes for a while. I started seeing all these images (people, things, random things)and sounds playing in my mind. I started to remind myself that these are just the construction of my mind and that I should not be convinced by them. I was sitting next to my bed legs crossed with my eyes closed. The images started to be more detailed and consistent. I was getting too involved with the images and I started talking to my sister and I realized that I was still in my room siting down. I got up right away. My heart was pounding. I then said a phrase to remind myself that I will be dreaming soon. I then went to sleep on my side.

Dream fragment 2, from 4:30am-6:07am"": I was at the parking lot of my school. I think I realized I was dreaming. The dream scene changed. I woke up. I started talking to someone about life and I said that life is a dream we can experience together, and that I believe I was in life's dream. I saw my cousin, sister and a random women. I told them that this is a dream and if we want to have lucid dream we have to hold hands and meditate on life's dream (or life's illusion). My sister and cousin left because they thought it was stupid. The random girl stayed. I don't know her, but for some reason I cared about her. I was on the floor looking at the details of my bed. She was standing right in front of me. This was when I payed attention to her. I looked at her, she was black and she was wearing just a bra and underwear. She asked me why I want to have a LD with her. I told her when you are lucid you are so much more smarter. Her and as a general statement.

Dream fragment 3 from 4:30am-6:07am"": I was spectating a life of a newbie "gangster" lol. He was being taught how to snatch people's hat on the road. We were now on the free way. I saw him drive past a parked car then he came back around and drove backwards and stole his hat. The guy was completely clueless.


Dream fragment 4, from 4:30am-6:07am"": I was walking with this guy. I suspect he was the first guy I told about "life's dream". We were going past this market place. These people were informing people on what gives diarrhea. They wanted us to buy their product so they kept hassling us. We politely declined. They brought these impersonators. They acted like they were ninjas. They hit the stranger I was with. At first he didn't bother do anything but ignore them. He got mad and did some weird move and took out the guy, put him to sleep, and he kicked the girl as a warning. He was supposed to be Bruce Lee's son.


Dream fragment 5, from 4:30am-6:07am"": I was now semi-lucid and I was being trained in the dream, flying skills. I was told to fly around a river or a lake, but the color of the water looked like tropical water, light baby blue. It was a beautiful scenery. The mountains rose up high, the fresh air hits the skin, the trees, and the sound of the water. It was a harmonious place. I tried going up at first it felt more like a 0-gravity. I never felt it but I was barely flying. I was spinning around while trying to go a couple of feet. I started to use my will to control myself, I think the body of water also influenced me. I can't swim for a long period of time, but it was pure willpower. I aligned my body first. After it was straight I felt like I could fly normal. I didn't fly like the superman. I had my hands backwards, unlike superman. I flew around with ease and it felt natural. Of course this is not my first time flying in a lucid dream, but this time I did it with ease.


Dream fragment 6, from 4:30am-6:07am"": The dream changed. I was less aware of myself, but I was still a little aware and I felt like I could do anything I wanted. Me and a couple of people were on a mountain around Chile. I saw this military truck passing by on the mountain. It had bio-hazard mark on it. I thought it would be cool to try and use telekinesis. I looked at the truck and lifted my hand. I aimed my right arm pointing at the truck with my hands( like iron man). I clenched my fist and the truck exploded. It was decently far away, but I saw this nuke go off. It was a small nuke but I could see the shock wave coming towards us. The mushroom cloud was rising up high and spreading through the air. Since the truck was at a lower level elevation and far away the cloud was rising up to us. The shock wave was still coming for us. Once it hit, we were on the ground. None of us died. I said sorry to the crowd. They said it was nothing. The mushroom cloud disappeared. We started smelling this rubber burning smell mixed with something else. It was horrible. It was making it harder to breath. We tried to run away but we were coughing like crazy. We glitched on the map we couldn't pass a certain boundary. I told my self just like a game I can leave, so I did.


Dream fragment 7, from 4:30am-6:07am"": I was now semi-lucid again and flying. The clarity in this dream increased drastically. I was back in the training area with the body of water. I was flying when I became semi-lucid. I was enjoying the flight around the lake until I saw my family next to this little bridge on top of the lake. They were walking on the water. They told me to join them. I never consciously walked on the water I thought. I believed that I could do it. I started lower my self to the water. My feet went through it and I felt the water. I flew up again and thought about my experience with solids and how they behave. I told myself I never sank through a solid before. I then told myself to believed that the water will now act like any other solid I ever experienced. I put my foot on the water again, this time I landed without going through it. I started running around the body of water like a madman all happy. I saw these fishes underneath me. I was blown away by the spectacular moment that I am experiencing, I had a little doubt. I noticed my doubt right away and reinforced belief. But my mother said,"watch he is going to fall inside". When I heard her I fell immediately. I didn't sink though I instead started to fly away. It was hard at first because of my unbelief after sinking in. I reminded myself flying before and I started to fly. I went up very slowly and dramatically. My hands raised to my stomach like dragon ball z characters. I asked my mom why she said that. She responded, "You were going to fall anyways. I didn't do anything."

#272 - DILD

1:30AM

Dream about editing audio

3:13AM

I am playing huge three level Xylophone. The sound is amazing. The Xylophone belongs to some kid that I know as my enemy. I ask him to teach me piano and I would let whatever happened between us go. He agrees.

WBTB melatonin

4:53AM

I am standing in some construction zone with Wurlman. He keeps talking about just quitting his job. I try telling him that this is a really bad idea. We meet up with some of his co-workers and I somehow become mildly lucid. I start to levitate and float around the men. For some reason I am pushing buttons on a strap on my shoulder to control the up and down movement. I wait for them to understand that I am doing this on because its a dream but they seem unimpressed. I worry that they will think that I am doing this by some sort of trickery because I am pushing buttons. I look up at a clear blue sky and say, "See? There's no wires." It's all me. The men seem to have gone completely catatonic now and I wake up.

9:18AM

I am stealing weapons and grenades from my old boss Steve inside a school. I cover the security camera with some sort of foam and find and old deep freeze converted to a storage locker. There are casualty rifles, hand guns and grenades in a hidden compartment. I also find a box full of RAM chips. I decide my computer needs an upgrade and take various types not sure which ones I need. A teacher comes in and I spray her in the face with pepper spray and run out.

My gamecube is glitching, hm... yes! a dream. I want it to be Christmas, to the void. I render myself invisible and backflip through the wall, momentarilly being in the wall (somewhere I shouldn't be *smerk*). This is my time transportation method totm aside. I am outside. My dad parks his car asking me to get in and, as per usual, I get ditched. This happens so much I can psychically detect when I will be ditched or thrown into freefall and use those psycho powers as a way of gaining lucidity.
I get into an argument THE END

Some blue mad scientists are trying to keep me in one place against my will. Some thugs steal me again where I overhear about how I am genetically modified. (im thinking it is closest to the second level to prototype) A couple of days later .my next dild involves a voice telling me that the settings my dreams take place in are finite. I, in rebellios nature immediately go over nothingness for my brain to generate more world like a laggy Minecraft game.Okay when I dEILD the sp makes my arm feel like it goes through my bed, nothing else. I do some stuff in a blue room. also, racing. I am training for something but am terrible at it.​

I'm walking down this street, it looks like somewhere in New York city. Then this double decker bus pulls up in front of me, and I stare at the side of it and zone out into and old film from like the 20's or 30's. I see a couple in topless car, and a crowd gathered around while it drives slowly cheering them on. In the car it looks exactly like jay-z and beyonce, but in old attire and hair style. They are important people in that era and not necessarily in a good way, they are driving down this exact street in New York that I'm standing. Then I zone back into the scene I was before, almost like I was in a trance. Now there's a woman standing there and she told me that is their doppelgangers, I ask her I f I had one, but she doesn't answer me and she returns to the bus and it drives away and I'm left tortured thinking about it.

Dream 1/24/14 Spa, Johnny, Doug, Kathy's Mom etc



I dreamed that my boss/wife from the bar I used to work at moved into Dad's old house with me. I went out of town for a week and came back and they had turned the house and whole property into a spa. Huge, at least 2 stories, elevators, restaurants, the whole bit.

While I was gone they changed my bartending schedule also and I had to go in at 1 pm instead of 5 pm.

I set off in my own house to find out why and also to find out where to take a shower and get ready for work.

On the way to look for the showers, I ran into Mrs Virgie Duncan... my friend that passed near Christmas... her Mom. In life, she had suffered a long time...diabetes, bad knees, she really could not walk the last few years of her life. Super sweet lady too. In my dream, she walked well, had lost weight, dressed up with nice jewelry. She was with someone else I knew in the dream, but forgot when I woke. She and friend were going to the spa and shopping. She hugged me and told me everything was just fine. So, Kathy let me know she is OK in heaven and feels better.

First, when I found the showers, it was like gym showers, lots of people and not as private as I would like, and I did not have my robe... then I did not have shampoo etc. Then I thought, Hey, a spa has to have shampoo/conditioner. I asked... it was $19 each for a single use.

I don't know if I ever got that shower. I decided to find something to eat. I got in an elevator. Three people got on with me. Two "ritzy" girls together for lack of a better word, and a black girl, just as pretty and dressed more to my taste. The white girls saw my staff badge and started introducing themselves, blah blah and ignored the other girl. I talked to them, then turned to the other girl and asked her name and invited her to lunch.

On the way to lunch I ran into the "bosses" brother in law. I asked him "Why did Johnny change my schedule?" etc. This is significant because he and his wife Janis worked with me at that bar and she now has early onset Alzheimer's...she is a few years younger than I am.

We got to the restaurant and my old boyfriend/old friend that passed in April...his niece was the waitress. We sat at one of those big round community tables where others can join you if there is not room elsewhere. A man and his wife joined us and a bit later his wife left, my new friend left, the man started kissing me... and I woke up. Two part dream, living color, and so much detail....